I read what you reposted about ff, and omg I'm not the only one!. I read a lot of buddie ff, i think people're very talented in this fandom, but jesus, in the last few months is nearly impossible to read something with firebarbie in it for no reason at all, sometimes she's there and ravi or chim or hen no! She helps buddie It's the same thing they did with taykay between the hiatus of 4a or 4b, the friend that knows more of them and push them together without even knowing them!

Yeah, now that I have figured out how to do a search through the fic on my phone, I will no longer be jump-scared by untagged L or tay kay (unless I forget to check multi-chapter fics in a "view the whole work" format and get hit with it in the last chapter because I only checked chapter 1 like a doofus), but it really is ridiculous the amount of people who throw L in when Maddie or Hen would have worked better. Or they have her as the “bi-bestie” helping Buck or Eddie through their sexuality crisis, or, which given that we literally got proof that Hen and Karen enjoy dancing at the club makes me especially salty, taking Buck or Eddie to a gay club to “help” them in their realizations. 

I also find it particularly *hilarious* that in their single paragraph mentions they have to make sure people know they’re woke and don’t hate L,  the “stop saying L took scenes from Ravi, her and Ravie are NOT interchangeable” crowd also always have them listed together. It’s always some form of “Ravi and L did/said/were at xyz”, neither allowed to do anything on their own, forever occupying the same space in the same sentences, because the show itself made them interchangeable because there wasn’t room for L to be around in the first place since Ravi was already in that “5th main crew member in the truck” slot! She takes Buck’s normal place in the diver call in fear-o-phobia, she takes Ravi’s “probie struggles on the job and needs a mentor” storyline from Dumb Luck making it all about her being MAD the woman lived instead of a storyline that made sense like Ravi being worried he wouldn’t be so lucky next time and how to make sure he’s ALWAYS that lucky, she took Chim’s spot on the reality TV show call leaving Buck to be the medic with Hen which makes no sense and instead of getting Chim’s delightful commentary since we know he is a TV/Movie buff, we got her bitching about marriage being a crap-shoot to two married people and Buck who just wants to build a life with someone, she’s literally just interchangeable with anyone because she’s an extra body they don’t need, but KR decided everyone else needed to make space for so they HAVE to take things from other characters just to give her something to do.

ANYWAY, sorry for the rant, it’s just who I am as a person 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’ve been sticking to reading fic from season 3, or aggressively screening for untagged characters (they do it with Shannon too, particularly when she’s being bestie co-parents with Eddie) and exiting the fic if needed. This show has so many great women in Buck and Eddie’s lives, that I think it’s ridiculous when tay kay or L are the ones used to bring them together. Also a fun note, you almost never see the same with Ana being besties and helping Buck and Eddie get together, and maybe people should think a little bit about why tay kay and L get treated differently. Because I can bet it has something to do with them being a) white, b) “girlbosses” and “badasses” (while Ana is a teacher with a soft voice who wears soft floral clothes and her ableist remarks fly more under the radar), and c) headcannoned as“bi-besties” before the show had them kissing on Buck. 

[DAY 15] - free day

low quality doodle for today :3

based off this tweet btw

Horus Appreciation Post 2023

6 years ago today, I adopted a skinny kitten that followed me home, and now I require you to look at him.

He has grown into a lovely boy, full of zoom and yell. But also full of love.

He is easily the best thing I brought with me when I moved out of Texas. (I didn't think so when he was trying to slip under my pedals on an interstate in Idaho, but I digress.)

Thank you for being in my life these years, Horus.

SHUT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP

it’s whatever you say gorgeous

Recently had a silly Handplates dream where Papyrus was trying to snoop around Gaster and Alphys’ lab, but didn’t know who Alphys was and so was trying to pass it off as his own lab lol (Patreon)

doesnt really feel like a tuesday at all

Treat me ~ Tip me ~ More of me

I made a little animated short of El and Sweets watching the sun rise, based on a screenshot I took in Paldea:

One of my Patrons commented that with the little isles and the palm tree it could just as much be a beach in Alola, so I decided to switch locations and let Wingulls fly over the ocean instead of Wattrel Thank you to my Patrons for supporting my animations ☺️💖

Killer's nightmare

He has many, but the one he has most often is of coming out of stage 3 and finding he's killed his new family too alone again. Or maybe worse, that he'll never quite be without someone from his past.

Luckily, it is just a nightmare, and he has a different Nightmare he can see to help him calm down.

Sorry if this has already been asked before but why did the band break up? And did they break up on decent terms? Do they still talk to each other sometime?

It has been asked before, I just never answered jshfbdjcbh I'm still piecing everything together and stuff is changing or getting tweaked all the time, so I'm always super hesitant about answering these types of questions, afraid that people will take whatever I say as the final answer. So basically what I'm going to answer now will already contradict what I told some people already. And maybe in the future the story might go a little differently too (although I'm pretty satisfied with the current events)

Uhhh, get ready for a long info dump. I didn't expect I'd write this much...

Floyd basically stayed with the band for 8 years (from 14 till 22) and got pretty messed up in the process. The rest of the guys are all quite older than him so I guess I could say they were more responsible, or at least had a better understanding of their own limits (also they grew up in this kind of environment or grew up aware of it, while Floyd was oblivious and naive about all of it) and while they do get drunk and do drugs often, none of them are really dependent on them. They are also pretty good judges of character and know how to avoid trouble. Floyd on the other hand drove in with no breaks and constantly got himself in trouble that the rest (mostly Les) had to drag him out of. He also developed bipolar during this time (in my story Floyd constantly fluctuates between being saturated and being desaturated because of this) and his manic and depressive episodes started getting out of hand after his teenage years. (None of them are aware it's a mental disorder that's making him act so out of character.)

Floyd was becoming miserable because of this and all of his problems pilling up, and started blaming Les for the way he was. Les never argued this which only fueled Floyd to blame him more. In the end he was getting so frustrated and irritable that Floyd constantly tried starting arguments with him, even putting him down and getting aggressive at times because Les gets very unresponsive and closed off during personal conversations (guy is a giant onion of suppressed trauma that Floyd is hellbent on peeling open).

Eventually there was one fight too many, terrible things were said, some objects flew through the air, and Floyd walked out (or Hed kicked him out, I haven't decided yet) with the promise of going home and never seeing them again.

So, yeah, it was very messy and Floyd was the primary asshole, even though he's not really to blame either...

But Floyd didn't make it home (was too scared to sneak through Bergen Town to get to the tree (i don't think i can judge him for that either)) and he just returned to the reckless lifestyle, this time without anyone being there to keep him safe. So if he was messed up before, this is the time period where he got absolutely fucked up. This is also when he got heavily addicted to sour worms. And when he chronically slept around (half the time just to get offered free worms or have somewhere to sleep, other times because he was having manic episodes and was feeling hypersexual). (This is also potentially the period when he had the two eggs with that techno troll, but I'm still thinking if I want that to be canon to the story or not.) During this time he also grew to become very anxious and his self-confidence went to shit when he was being himself.

Then after about three years of that, he bumped into Les at some party. He wanted to dodge him out of shame but Les grabbed his arm and manhandled him outside to talk. Floyd felt like shit about the way they had split up and tried apologizing for all the stuff he had said and done to Les, but Les wasn't having any of that because he wasn't angry at Floyd, he was just worried about him. Les is also insanely empathetic like Floyd, and he knew that Floyd never really meant any of it, and that he was just looking for an outlet when he was hurting. Also he does think he is to blame for the way Floyd ended up.

Les wanted to know why he didn't go home like he had said (because that was the only reason Les had even let him walk out in the first place). A few exchanged words later and Floyd broke down telling him all the awful things he'd done, and Les promised to help him, feeling insanely guilty. Floyd wondered if he was allowed back in the band but Les made it clear that the band wasn't good for him and that he was never taking him back. Instead Les helped him go though rehab. I don't think trolls have those institutions (or at least not many are aware of them or how they work (I'm sorry but I refuse to believe the Trolls world has internet and cellphones, Mountrageons can keep that for themselves lol)), so it was more or less just Les finding Floyd a job and his own place to stay in the middle of bumfuck nowhere where he had no option but to detox, and constantly checking up on him to make sure he was doing okay. During this time they grew pretty close again. Or maybe the better term would be that Les slowly started putting his walls down again.

Hed needed a while to warm up to Floyd again. He's almost as protective of Les as Les is of him, and he resented Floyd for the way he had treated him.

Flea is pretty phlegmatic when it comes to any sort of arguing or drama. He was casual about seeing Floyd again, they were never super close anyway.

And Liv, she left the band when she and Hed broke up (haven't decided if that happened before or after Floyd left), so Floyd didn't get to see her again after bumping into Les at the party. And I haven't thought yet if they'd ever meet again somewhere later in life. But if they did, I think they'd both be happy to see each other.

Anyway...

Floyd managed to detox and successfully kept the job for about a year, but then he became manic again and messed it all up. After that he returned to his nomadic lifestyle, but he never fell as hard as those three years again. In my story Floyd's life is a constant cycle of getting his life together and fucking it up and booking to the next place. And he and Les are trapped in a never-ending cat and mouse game where they're both trying to fix each other.

So, uh, Les and Floyd are still very close and see each other somewhat often...

(sometimes monthly, sometimes yearly)

Yeah...

I am so fucking obsessed with them I'm gonna hurl. Please take this song before I combust:

saw fight club in the cinema…i think i died

The cutest hockey boy ever 🥹

[NikojaSanttu YT]

No, but imagine cock warming Grimmjow while he purrs into the crock of your neck, too ashamed to move an inch, too cocky to admit how good it feels, and too disturbed by the intense need to chase the best part of this very human deed.

that’s some… interesting body language there alexander 👀