Winter-Long
Winter's cold is curled
like a lick beneath
underneath the beating heart.
Like a hand of a stranger on my shoulder.
Your name is the white breath
I realease
from trembling lips. It escapes
from me and into the dense air
that carries cold with a purpose.
Loss is a constant companion,
it doesn't fade with time.
I watch it shiver outside
under the burden
of heavy snow.
What does it know of warmth?
I let it slip inside,
and sit by the fire.
but little by little it
takes over. It creeps below,
leaves my body damp and aching,
swamped by run-away thoughts
of you. And cold settles
like a tickle in the lungs.
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Perfume
You become a 聽 聽sound
聽 聽 聽that slowly leaches from my body
into air
with the softness of breath,
a quiet keening,
聽 an undertone 聽 of heartache
聽I've always felt.
聽 聽 You release 聽from wrinkles,
from birthmarks I have known and carried.
From freckles that darken in the sun.
You unsettle from the folds of my clothes
聽 my hair 聽 聽 my eyes
like a memory鈥攚ashed聽 聽 聽 dried and fading
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 fluttering outside on clothes lines.
You aren't gone
聽 聽although you are dissipating聽 聽 聽leaving
in more ways than one.
聽 聽 聽 The perfume of you
聽 is still damp on poems
I write with tears.
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by the lakeside
the season is pregnant with
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 turtles leaving 聽 聽the lake to nest,
heavybodied,
聽with red-blue-iridescent dragonflies
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 flitting across the surface
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽in search of something,
聽 聽 with wildflowers unfolding,
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 fanning out from puckered buds
聽 聽 into terse displays. 聽
love is perched where thoughts of you
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽linger. scattered like cast runes.
among the fronds,
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽with sunk, glistening pebbles.
聽 聽 聽along the sun-fed veins
聽 of flowing water.
聽 聽 聽 聽 like crinkled paper-glass
inside pockets of moss
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽that cling to the earth.
聽 聽 聽 聽 like congealed nectar
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 of floating algal blooms 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 that are beginning to flourish.
聽 聽 聽 聽 like the slowly rising timbre of frog-song
聽 that reaches a crescendo
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽and dissolves into nothingness
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽at the slightest
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 tug.
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You come to me soft
as a cloud and I
shape you into dreams
that I want to see.
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unfolding memory
the memory of you
is still carried
in the folds of my heart,
in the unseen shadows
that hold grey-black shape
inside unlit spaces.
you are soft now,
blended with all things I love
and cannot keep.
like a face in the clouds
looking in from the window
open to the sky.
like the scent
of a favourite flower
that reminds me
you'll always be
here 聽 聽 聽 聽 and there
within clasping seams
to be uncovered
and found.
to be untangled
from the smallest
runaway thought of you.
to be loved
forever in the pauses
between breath and life
unfolding.
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Splice
I find hollow screams
of the sea
caught inside their shells,
the sandy shore awakened, pale
and white
to the dying, fighting light
of the twilight sun that sinks,
splits the world
into two tearing circles.
stars that prick
pins and needles into my skin.
and, time that slinks
into unending
grief, that comes聽
wave after trembling wave.
that never lets me forget,
a piece is missing
from inside me
since you left.
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the way tears fall
two halves of the milky moon
on my lips,
the sky draped
dense around your answer.
the stars break over
the melting horizon,
breathless and quivering,
waiting for dreams to begin.
But we cascade from river
to river of spells
twisting over forgotten
memories. Where we once were,
now, we are only figments,
the echoes of ancient promises
coupled and falling from the sky
into shapeless tears in our eyes.
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the way tears fall
two halves of the milky moon
on my lips,
the sky draped
dense around your answer.
the stars break over
the melting horizon,
breathless and quivering,
waiting for dreams to begin.
But we cascade from river
to river of spells
twisting over forgotten
memories. Where we once were,
now, we are only figments,
the echoes of ancient promises
coupled and falling from the sky
into shapeless tears in our eyes.
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sickle moon
The slight sickle moon,
slices through the sky
with its icy stare
of silver daggers.
I pull back,
withdrawing from its cool evening gaze
that draws a thousand paper cuts
on my bruised heart.
Even poetry falters
under the brisk spell
that tears the sky open
to a piercing memory of you.
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sickle moon
The slight sickle moon,
slices through the sky
with its icy stare
of silver daggers.
I pull back,
withdrawing from its cool evening gaze
that draws a thousand paper cuts
on my bruised heart.
Even poetry falters
under the brisk spell
that tears the sky open
to a piercing memory of you.
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this is how I remember summer
my summer is hollow
sleeping on heavy eyelids
that only ever dream of you,
wispy against a blue blue sky
caught in the webbings of the pale moon,
your moth breath soft in my ear.
I slumber with you inside heat
in estivation,
trying to mull 聽 what evaporates
so slowly, becomes brittle,
catches fire.
I taste yesterday
through my tears when blood
has thickened against my mouth and I have curled
into a dense bundle of fire load,
ready to burn down to my roots
trembling, but still dreaming of you.
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a dreaming of you
Starlight pricks,
pulls me out from
my bedroom window.
Brings me into the
moonless night
聽 聽 聽cold and stony.
You are a millstone-grey shadow
聽 聽 聽fading,
ground down by my incessant
dreaming of you, night
by night.
Reduced, you become powder
that flurries inside wordless corners.
Pricks my eyes. Makes them tear,
same as stars.
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a dreaming of you
Starlight pricks,
pulls me out from
my bedroom window.
Brings me into the
moonless night
聽 聽 聽cold and stony.
You are a millstone-grey shadow
聽 聽 聽fading,
ground down by my incessant
dreaming of you, night
by night.
Reduced, you become powder
that flurries inside wordless corners.
Pricks my eyes. Makes them tear,
same as stars.
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I wish ...
Thoughts the shape of shadows
Chase me through the painted sky
And you fall like pencilled moonlight
A ghost of the copper moon, smiling
I have forgotten the language we spoke
These words like open windows of hearts,
These words like coins that fall in wishing wells
Of time, round and bright and worthless.
Weightless on my lips but for the sinking.
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dreamscape
You lay curling
inside my dreams, swirling.
till i catch on a tendril
and you unravel,
memories of you awaken
dreamy eyed and soft,
beckoning me to follow
inside dreamscapes that aren鈥檛
yet real, but I follow nevertheless
wanting more than ever to see
you again. your eyes warm, laughing.
and mine swathed in an endless
want of you.
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dreamscape
You lay curling
inside my dreams, swirling.
till i catch on a tendril
and you unravel,
memories of you awaken
dreamy eyed and soft,
beckoning me to follow
inside dreamscapes that aren't
yet real, but I follow nevertheless
wanting more than ever to see
you again. your eyes warm, laughing.
and mine swathed in an endless
want of you.
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Speed of Motion
Time is wound
鈥榬ound me
and I spin,
like a top;
The brevity
of grief,
the fleetingness
of joy,
I feel nothing;
Only this speed
of motion,
uncontrollable
turning
of perspectives;
The earth spins,
the moon spins,
so does the sun;
And this expanding knit
of a universe,
we know,
spirals outwards.
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