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risinglikesunflower · 21 days

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I have a massive fear that no one actually likes me rather everyone is just politely tolerating me, hoping I leave them alone. Like if you ignore me once, just one time I will automatically assume that I annoy you and instantly force myself into "don't speak unless spoken to" mode. One moment I am fine and the next I am convinced that I'm unfit for any human relationship.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melancholia #melanchaholic #depressing life #depressing shit #depressiv #i wanna die #i hate my existence

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risinglikesunflower · 3 months

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Are you becoming what you've always hated?

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #depressing life #depressing shit #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melancholia #melanchaholic #i am alone #i wanna die

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risinglikesunflower · 3 months

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I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I am wired, but I don't want to do anything now.

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risinglikesunflower · 3 months

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Time didn't solve anything for me. Everyone has gone back to their usual life, but I am still stuck at the same spot.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sorrow #sad things #sadnees #sad truth #depressing life #depressing shit #i am alone #i wanna die #melancholia #melanchaholic

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risinglikesunflower · 5 months

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I don't think I know what it's like being someone's first choice, I've always known being the option the back up plan just in case plan 'A' doesn't show. I've gotten so used to it to the point where I think I'm deserving of it. Can you blame me though, I'm desperate you see for a friend. Beggars can never be the ones to make the choice, so, I'll settle for the little crumbs that I am offered.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melanchaholic #melancholia #depressing shit #i wanna die #depressing life #life is strange #real life

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risinglikesunflower · 5 months

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Death must be so beautiful, to lie in the soft brown earth with the grasses waving over one's head and listen to silence. To have no yesterday and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melancholia #melanchaholic #depressing life #depressing shit #beauty

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risinglikesunflower · 5 months

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I've lost myself, No, I've never had a chance to be myself. Just who am I? Why do I hurt so much? Why is my life so messed up?

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #lost love spells #melanchaholic #melancholia #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #depressing life #depressing shit #life is strange #real life

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risinglikesunflower · 6 months

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Tell me what's heavier this world or people's heart?

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melanchaholic #melancholia #depressiv #depressing life #depressing shit #snow dusted heart #heartache

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risinglikesunflower · 6 months

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There is no punishment which is greater than life itself and one does not even know what crime one has committed to get this punishment.

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risinglikesunflower · 6 months

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Maybe I do just ruin people's lives and it would be better if I didn't exist.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melanchaholic #melancholia #dispair #depressing shit #i wanna die #i hate my existence

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risinglikesunflower · 6 months

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They say, "The eyes, they never lie."

But what about my eyes? Why couldn't you read mine?

Why couldn't you understand- what I wanted to say?

Why couldn't you see the love in them?

Didn't you notice how they light up when they see you? Or is it just me who can't differ- between dream and reality?

Or is it me who's at fault?

Like always it's my fault to love. Yes I am at fault.

I want to keep moving but it's your eyes where I'm drowning.

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risinglikesunflower · 7 months

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Only if I could die at this very moment.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melanchaholic #melancholia #depressing life #dispair #depressing shit #i wanna die

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risinglikesunflower · 7 months

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Maybe in another life?

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #depressing life #depressing shit #sad truth #sad things #melanchaholic #melancholia

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risinglikesunflower · 8 months

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Here I am.

Suffering on a place I exist not by my choice.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #melanchaholic #melancholia #sadnees #depressing life #dispair #depressing shit #i wanna die #sorrow #i want to disappear

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risinglikesunflower · 8 months

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I am a burden wherever I go. Everyone is being good to me but still I am a nuisance to them. Is it impossible to go back? If only I could do it I will choose not to being born.

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risinglikesunflower · 8 months

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If I had not met him I would not yearn for him.

If I did not know him I would not think of him so much.

If we had not been together I would not have to disappear.

If I did not treasure him so much I would not have so many memories.

If I did not love him we would not need to throw each other away.

If we had not been face to face we would never have been together.

Perhaps if I had not met you at all.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #lost love spells #sadnees #sad truth #lovers #love #depressing shit #depressing life #dispair

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risinglikesunflower · 8 months

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I feel strange. I think I am sick. I don't want to do anything and all I want to do is sleep. I don't have strength to do anything. It's so frustrating and it makes me sad. Tears just keep flowing.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #lost love spells #melanchaholic #mentally unstable #melancholia #sadnees #depressing life #hurt/comfort

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