Hey, you good? You’ve been posting a lot all at once about your social difficulties and I want to make sure you’re ok. I’m open to dming if you want

Thank you for checking in! I appreciate it.

I’m good, I’ve just been frustrated recently, especially with dealing with my family (including extended family)… It was my uncle’s birthday yesterday, and he’s largely responsible for my Grama’s death (I was very close with my Grama), which did not help my mood. And usually my brother reassures me that I’m not crazy when dealing with our family, but he was away for a month, or I talk to my friend about it, but she’s been even busier than usual lately trying to leave her terrible workplace.

I’ve also been getting ready for my master’s program, which I’m super excited about, but I’m anxious about making sure it goes well. I’ll be moving away from my hometown, which I think will be good for me, but is also kind of scary. I’m worried making new social connections while in there — I have really high hopes, but that comes with anxiety that they won’t actually happen

Having to wear wrist braces to bed for carpal tunnel (in both wrists!) doesn’t make me feel old. What does make me feel old? That I am considering buying an eye mask to help me fall asleep.

I’m super, super excited about going to Ireland for a year+ for my Master’s starting this fall, but after having my baby brother gone for three weeks, I don’t know what I’ll do not seeing him for a year! I’ll miss him :(

My brother DELIVERED! He totally brought me back Jammie Dodgers from the UK!

people misunderstand what ‘gifted kid’ actually means but it’s ok it’s fine it’s cool it’s good

Why does it feel like almost every show made in the US in the last, oh, 20 years or so, is either terrible or copaganda?

Red rose tea with milk, usually several hours after waking up

If I ask nicely will people reblog this and tell me what their most common breakfast is? Not your favorite necessarily, just what you have for breakfast most frequently? 🙏🏽

It is genuinely not surprising that I have a very limited social life. Like I want to have more of a social life, but I just only want deep connections with people (I find “casual friends” wholly unsatisfying), yet I simultaneously find it very difficult to connect with most people because of how I am with everything & I don’t know if it’s a me or a them or a both issue. I receive a lot of conflicting information on that front, none of it has been particularly helpful

Also, thinking about the whole accuracy vs inaccuracy thing and how many people are (horrifyingly) content with inaccuracy, and I think this is why I find so many “jokes” unfunny, because they require inaccuracy in order for the punchline to land, and I often end up confused and trying to explain the thing to them, and then they’re like no, it’s a joke, and try to explain it, and it’s like, I got that you were making a joke, and I understood the joke, it’s just that the joke is inaccurate. And also not funny.

im thinking of jobs that involve contact with the private area. doctors, beauty salons, tattooist/piercer. they all wear gloves and work in sterile environments, also the worker is clothed.

im thinking of jobs that involve saliva. also doctors, covid test stations. again, sterile environment, worker is clothed, probably even wearing a mask, and gloves.

im thinking of jobs where the worker has to get naked. actors and actresses, models. they are at least supposed to have a coach on set and an agent supporting their safety.

none of this is implemented in prostitution and never will be because it destroys the illusion of it being about sex and not money and power exerted through it. sex cant be regulated or professionalised and thats beside the point that with all possible regulations it is still unwanted sex.

I am aware that I am incredibly pedantic about very specific things; I have been told this on many occasions, though not in so many words, because the people who have told me that do not know the word pedantic (I asked after attempting to clarify and they didn’t know it)

I have been told on various occasions that I come across as abrasive & that “no one actually cares that much,” but I do care that much, I think being accurate is extremely important, and also, I genuinely don’t understand how a) there’s so much that people just straight up don’t know, b) they have no interest in looking things up before saying something about them, c) they are so confidently wrong, and d) they will argue with you when you say they’re wrong, but still refuse to look it up. I find that incredibly distressing for a number of reasons. Like it would be one thing if I told you you were wrong, one or both of us looked it up & I was wrong, or we were both wrong, or I was right and you were wrong, & then we just added that information to our lives and moved on, but it’s the refusal to reflect or look it up. And everyone accuses me of “wanting to be right all the time,” which like, who doesn’t want to be right? More importantly, who wants to be wrong (which I think is the real issue here)? But also, it’s not so much that I “want to be right” so much as I want you not to be wrong and go about the world with that wrong information believing it and disseminating it and making decisions with a foundation of wrong beliefs. And this isn’t about like, morally right or wrong, this is about verifiable accurate versus inaccurate information. And people are like, it’s not that big of a deal, and maybe individually it’s not, but if this is how you go about dealing with information it very much is. How can you be content believing inaccurate information. And talking about those things. Inaccurately. Horrifying

Because I’ve had this conversation more than once recently: the word “gaudy” in English DOES NOT come from Gaudí architecture (named after its architect, Antoni Gaudí). This is a common misconception due to the fact that they sound similar in English, but is entirely untrue. The word gaudy in fact existed in the English language for a few centuries before that architect was even born, and originated from an even older word in English. The name Gaudí and the word gaudy do share a common latin root, hence their similarity (this is not true of all words that sound the same in different languages). This information can very easily be looked up, but for some reason, no one I have had this conversation with recently believes me. They very commonly do not believe me when I say things, despite the fact that I am almost always right when I have these types of conversations with them. It does bug me immensely.

Also, and maybe (probably) this is just me being super judgmental, but even if AI could be created & used ethically, AI feels to me the same way cheating did in school: if you feel the need to cheat to get by, you’re probably in the wrong class. If you feel the need to use AI to help you at your job, you probably have the wrong job.

Every time I have to go be in a meeting for work lately someone ends up talking about AI & all the things you can do with it & how they’re using it for their work & for xyz & it’s really not a space or situations where I can say something about how wildly unethical AI is & that I absolutely refuse to use it without it coming across as an attack on them & it make me want to scream bloody murder until I’m blue in the face. I HATE AI.

I’m so tired, & I have more meetings tomorrow 😭