Reading some psychology

If I kill you right now

 You’ll be no one else’s

 But mine, forever

 As I take your life

 I’ll also take mine

 And we will be bonded forever

 To eternity

 Doomed, as we were when we were alive

 ‘Cause our love was strong enough

 To be that destructive

 A force so powerful

 That didn’t let me think clearly

 And I only realized

 When I smelled the blood that was over your lips

 When I kissed you

 How wrong I was

 And when your breath stopped

 All I wanted was to be gone too

 With your beauty that was being consumed slowly

 By the worms of my own twisted desires

… if you were about to die, what would be the last thing you would think about?

It would be the fact that I would never be able to see your smile again, that my memory of the sound of your steps next to me would simply disappear along the time my soul found a home next to yours and accommodated so well that now thinking about how it means nothing for the cruelty of destiny to take it and turn it into a useless piece of rotten flesh causes hurt in places I thought couldn’t be reached.

I don’t even know what I’m feeling lately, have this need to end it all, at the same time I wanna keep living, have a lot of projects I haven’t even started yet, one of them is at least to publish one of my novels, the only reason that has kept me alive all these years is just that, have whole stories I’ve been building in my head for like ten years, haven’t written them anywhere, so I’m gonna keep living until I finish writing them I guess? I don’t know, haven’t felt this suicidal in like two years, been writing whatever comes to my mind this whole month, and the last, can’t stop moving my fingers, I thought I had become addicted to writing, that wasn’t the case, the thing is that, I have so many things going on inside my mind that the only way to keep my sanity is to write those things down and drain them from my head, yeah, my head has been full of thoughts for years, and now that I’m practicing journaling more than ever, I see why it was something I needed to apply to my daily life, I kinda feel better when I release these feelings through words, even when I believe no one would ever read them, someday someone will, and find it helpful (maybe)

Raskolnikov is the realest main character to ever walk this earth because he‘s a broke college student who lays in his bed all day thinking about going outside, and then when he does he derealizes, decides that everything sucks, and gets so tired that he imidietly passes out after having to so much as see other people. Mans was representing all of academia unknowingly.

a masochist whose whimpers are so pretty they corrupt a tentative partner into an insatiable sadist

“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

Another day of not understanding social cues I love being alive

Jane Asher in The Masque of the Red Death (1964)

All suffering originates from craving, from attachment, from desire.

Edgar Allan Poe

Here's the thing:

Cis people really do feel like the gender they were assigned at birth.

Cis women really do feel like women, and cis men really do feel like men. They experience what we would call gender euphoria related to dressing and expressing themselves as their gender, whether that's in a femme way or a butch way or any other way. They feel joy and connection with their gender, with their sexuality and how it relates to their gender. They wear clothes, participate in activities, and express themselves in ways that affirm their gender identity.

Gender critical radfems and terfs will try to convince you that "no woman feels like a woman". They do this for several reasons. Firstly, it's to try to convince trans men they aren't trans, they're just women with no connection to womanhood because "no woman feels a connection to womanhood". They also do it to try to discredit trans women, by saying "If you feel like a woman, then you're clearly not a woman, because "woman" isn't a feeling, it's biology".

A lot of gender critical terfs and radfems claim they are "dysphoric women", and will try to convince you this is a normal state of womanhood. I'm gonna go out on a limb and say no, that doesn't sound normal at all, actually. Most women do not secretly wish they could be men, or more androgynous, or have a penis. Most women don't define their lives through suffering - they love being women.

If womanhood - or manhood - is making you miserable... you might be trans, or you might be gender nonconforming. See if dressing a different way makes you feel a spark of joy and happiness - seek euphoria!

Gender should be joyous, not drudgery.

Tears of An Innocent

Hello <3 Enjoy a raunchy little idea I had of them teehee

Ps. That is Oil dripping on Rody, I promise, PLEASE I'm so tired of people commenting that it's pee 😢😢😢

Being in a healthy relationship really taught me there's no such thing as 'that's just the way I am'. When you truly love a person you work on those toxic traits, you learn to communicate, you actively listen to each other's thoughts & feelings – you adjust, grow & heal together.

soukoku as one of my dearest renaissance paintings

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