After years of slowly realizing I was missing something, and realizing I felt kind of lost, a couple days ago, I heard about something called “bigender” and finally figured it out.
It clicked and I feel less alone and less lost. And at this point in time, I’m at the beginning of a lot of things in my life, big things. It feels good.
hello, first of all, this post relates to the information in this post:
https://clouds-bae.tumblr.com/post/182119047589/clouds-bae-clouds-bae-hello-i-was-hospitalised
as mentioned there, i’m still 100$ short. unfortunately, just yesterday my credit card statement came in, and i knew it wouldn’t be good news because i had to max out my card to be able to pay for fees, medicine, appointments and pay for paperwork in order to get a reimbursement from the insurance company in the future (it can take up to 30 days and it could be denied). i’m not in a good situation, my mom will help me cover my monthly insurance, but aside from that i have no way of paying my bills, because i’ve been sick for half of last year and this month has been no better. the only reason i can post this right now, it’s because i’m using my mom’s data. i have no way to apply to an online job for this same reason. i’m really sorry about having to do this, but i’m desperate and i’m so stressed and just sad about everything because it just seems to never get solved. but i can’t do this alone and it makes me feel so ashamed.
with the credit card payment, this would add up to 200$, which would make the total of 300$. even though i would have to pay by jan 27th, this is impossible given that PayPal transfers to my account (i live in perú) in 5 to 7 days. so i’m asking you please reblog this post, please. donate if u can, but please keep reblogging because it’s really urgent. today’s tuesday jan 22, please help me out if you can.
Sooo should we take your lack of response to being asked why you dont care more about the black people affected by what Liam has said as an admittance you dont care about them?
Good lord, I said I was done talking about this. I already made all my points, they’re there for you to read, I’m not arguing with you any further.
I’m done with this argument. Liam Neeson did something racist and horrible, and now he’s changed and admits to be ashamed. Demonizing him is useless, cancelling him is useless. Y’all just want something to rage about, as usual.
- how much body hair you’ll naturally grow (hint: a whole lot more)
- your muscle mass. you’ll gain muscle taking T, especially in the shoulders and you’ll lose body fat in the hips. it’s different to everyone how the body fat is redistributed but taking T is the best time to get in an exercise routine because you’ll gain muscle a lot faster.
- your clit is gonna get huge within like the first two weeks. get ready
- you could get mood swings when you first start because it’s Puberty: The Sequel
- within the 3 months you’ll notice your voice dropping
-hunger and hot flashes. Hunger and Hot Flashes
- you may notice that a lot of anxiety is going away! that’s because testosterone (may possibly, this one is just my experience) can help mellow you out, and also some aspects of your dysphoria (high pitched voice, periods) are going away!
- also menstruation will stop by or even before month 5!
What taking testosterone WON’T change:
-your aggression. you are not going to turn into some out-of-control rage beast. if you are, then you probably need to talk to your doctor about it. T can give you mood swings because of, like I said, you are going through puberty again, but it’s not going to make you an angry person.
-your personality. i say this all the time, but deciding to transition does not equal deciding to be a brand new person. you are still you! in fact, transition means that you are becoming more you than ever! adding testosterone to your body is just something that you decided you’ve been missing to help you grow into the great person that you are!
-your overall health. of course, there are concerns when taking a new hormone, but if you look at the health risks, it’s mostly risks that cisgender men typically have. Increased heart issues? That’s a cisman thing. And the increased risk for problems in your ovaries/uterus? I mean, yeah, people who naturally produce the levels of testosterone that we are going for usually don’t have ovaries. So that one makes sense, you know?
Moral of the story is we need to stop scaring people who are taking hormones! Yes, it’s a big step and an important decision, but it’s has nothing to do with changing who you are on the inside. In the end, you are still who you are, just with a few different features!
The stereotype that transgender men are sweet, soft boys before T and then afterwards are hairy, aggressive men is problematic and very tiring.