he’s the best boyf in the world

Hello everyone, to whoever sees this my girlfriend has Audhd, which if you don’t know is ADHD and Autism and many undiagnosed symptoms from BPD. I just want to use this space to say how proud I am of her for making it through every day because even though I will never understand the full struggle of your mind fighting against you every day, I have so much sympathy of what she struggles with. She still manages to walk airing with a smile on her face, she has a stable job which many people with Audhd can’t handle. She has made me so proud of her and she makes me want to do better in life seeing how she can struggle this much, Sven without any friends she only has me, and still have a smile on her face. She tried her hardest everyday so this is just. A big appreciation post to her and anyone else going through the same as her. She often says she wishes she could be anyone else with another brain and that makes me so sad because in my eyes she’s perfect and I’ll help her every step of the way to feel good about herself. But yeah a massive appreciation post to her, her @ is Livvyliveslife and even sometimes she may be inconsistent in posting, I’m so proud of how far she’s come to talk about her feelings to complete strangers online instead of not telling anyone

i feel as though not enough can be said about finding the inspiration within yourself - being your own muse, figuring out what works for you and what doesn't. motivation is fleeting but self discipline is for life.

That being said, i can't deny that there are days that i feel like my body isn't my own, my feelings aren't my own and i feel as though i can't bring myself up from constantly drowning, i feel like time is moving so quickly and i don't remember most of it.

I have to admit, my boyfriend has been the most supportive person and has loved me for me and the one person that has stayed by my side throughout me figuring myself out and i love him so much for it.

I'm not sure how often i want to be posting, i dont know if anyone cares either tbh, but life feels very draining atm, esp with work so. it's okay though, i promise not to forget you guys.

but i will be taking a short mental health break, just while i catch myself up with self-care, i dont feel myself at the moment and its a little scaryy so i'll be right back xxx

It’s a new month

The pressure of a new month can be overwhelming especially considering it’s already April.

Believing in divine timing is tricky when there is so much outside influence in social media and peers. That being said celebrate the fact that you’ve made it through another month. you’re stronger than your thoughts and feelings and your time will come when the universe sees that you’re ready and willing to accept what it’s giving to you. whether it’s a blessing or a lesson.

love you guys lots. thank you for listening to me yap for as long as you have, if you have any things you’d like to see from this blog let me knowww.

i’m still working on the glow up diaries but i’ve been working and sleeping and working and sleeping so i’ll be back when ive caught uppp xx

Self Care Sunday x

Maintenance routine 🪄 🌱 Weekly - Hygiene - file nails - oil roots + hair mask on mids + ends - purple shampoo - face wash + rose water face toner + nivea creme moisturiser - daily - gua sha with hyaluronic + moisturiser - daily - exfoliate + shave + moisturise + tan 🪩 Weekly - Room - Laundry - Bins - Change sheets 💋 Daily Wellness check in - gratitude - 5k steps - 2l water - 10 min clean at the end of the day - skincare and just a reminder that even if you gave 50% when you only had 50% then you did the best you could and you've made it through another day xx

not every day or week looks like this for me and thats okay and its okay for you toooo x

What have i been doing to feel better?

Something I don't think I'll ever be quiet about is the way that every day feels different for me, i don't think i can ever predict how i'll feel the next day but these are some of the little habits that have made me feel a little bit better recently.

1 - Taking Time - This is something that is very important to me, something that has allowed me to find what areas of my life i have been neglecting. So recognising that I need time to fully rest, recover and ultimately, glow up.

2 - Making Time - Finding the time can be difficult, so blocking out time for myself has been so helpful, recognising what i need and when i need it and actually making time. This is usually on my work days when i get home, i spend a little extra time unwinding when i have a day off the next day, so that i can sleep as long as i want, which usually isn't longer than 7-8 am anyway. On Sundays, just before work, is THE perfect time for a sunday reset, orrrr a sunday snooze.

3 - Self Care - Being a girl comes with its cost, for me at least, if i don't feel like i look my best, then i know i won't walk with my head up high, talk with confidence and ultimately, i will end up comparing and bringing myself down.

My self care routine may be different to yours but it has 5 core elements - Aesthetics, health, movement, nutrition and environment. If you look good, you'll feel good, if you feel good, you'll move good, if you move good then you'll eat good and once you're in bed with a clean and happy environment, then you'll know you did good.

With that said, work with what you've got. My brain won't always allow me to get on with taking time or even making time for all of my self care but its all about trying, its not about doing it 10 days in a row if that's not what consistency means to you, if it means 10 times in a month or in 2 weeks then thats more than enough to reward with a lil treat xxxx

Affirmation of the week

I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE EVERYTHING I HAVE ACHIEVED AND EVERYTHING I WILL EVER ACHIEVE.

💋🌱🪐🪄🍷

The perception of perception

Everything in the world is perceived, but not everything is understood, and some of it, is misconstrued. I'm currently studying perception in my module and it has opened such a can of worms for me, it's bittersweet because on the one hand, humans may be able to perceive 100% of the world, through their senses, but it is down to the cognitive processes that go on behind the scenes in split seconds that can determine what was actually understood and taken in is so different and so diverse that the idea of neurodiversity is a intricate aspect of a persons life that may go unnoticed or not visibly perceived Someones intention may be vastly different to what was actually perceived by another person, so no wonder that 'unwritten rules' or tones of voice be taken in such a different way to different people. What may seem as rude or standoffish, may just be a non harmful way of responding and actually something that you may perceive as normal, whether that's because of the environment you grew up in or the mind that you have. Either way, whatever your perception is of the world, its unique, its how you personally come to understand the world, there's a difference between pretending to not understand what something means and there is genuine confusing behind why people may not understand what the intentions are of other people. Neurodiverse or not, your feelings about perceiving something may be valid and you're allowed to feel what you feel. Just understand that what you perceive may be different to everyone around you, so you may not understand why someone reacted in a certain way, and you may not understand why you feel like you perceived it in a different way to others but that's okay, no matter how it feels, it's valid, but it comes with so many different views and perspectives.

So have compassion, understanding and meet yourself and others with the same kindness you would with a friend.

what would you guys want to see?

i have so many ideas for this blog but i’m wondering what content would you want to see me do x

lmk if you want to see something new xxx

reintroducing myself

Hey, it’s been 3 months since i’ve started tumblr, and i’ve remained pretty consistent if i do say so myself, i have a lot of new faces on this blog and i was just wanting to reintroduce myself to everyone so you guys have a bit of a better understanding of where im coming from

My names Liv, obviously haha. i’m 20 years old and i am neurodivergent, specifically, while not officially diagnosed, i’m very very likely to be audhd, getting a diagnosis in the UK has been proven to be a little inaccessible. not that it’s impossible but it’s long through the NHS and expensive to do privately. i hope that once i have enough money to cover my diagnosis i will.

i made this blog because i for the longest time have felt alone in the ways that ive been experiencing this life, nothing ever made sense and the idea of being called sensitive pains me more than anything, its all i’ve ever known. i’ve spent a lot of my life gaslighting myself into believing im functioning like everyone else is. But in the end i know im not, because if i was then i wouldn’t feel such shame and guilt for being who i am, of course they’re not my thoughts and im not my thoughts but navigating the thoughts can be so exhausting.

im currently studying forensic psychology through an online university that makes it easier for me to manage my time, even though that’s a tiny bit of a lie because i also work 40 hours a week, as well as live on my own in a shared accommodation with people i can’t really talk to (language barrier + age differences) so time management is something i really struggle with and it makes me feel a little overwhelmed but im just taking every day as it comes. i have a lot of anxiety about the future only because ive got such big goals for myself and for the career i want.

i never really had anyone to guide me through the big feelings i’ve felt, over the years. but i felt as though making a blog to share how i try to navigate through the struggles i have, i could maybe inspire others maybe idk haha. i’m a high functioning audhder who is unmedicated and not even diagnosed so if there’s anyone else like me out there feel free to reach out to me, we’re trying and that’s all that matters, we have time and we are strong enough to face anything x

where are you from? <3

hey! originally i’m from Latvia but i moved to England when i was younger but im half Russian and half Latvian xx

Polll timeeee

silly one but i’m in 2 minds about going to the gym today, it’s raining and i wanted a bed rot day

who knows i might just go anyway

listening to subliminal music while i sleep to wake up feeling my best self >>

Affirmation of the week

🎧🪞🫧🧸

What belongs to me is already mine and what no longer serves me, i release.

Sundays and Self care

Hey girlies,

Despite being on my period, i have managed to get my self care routine back on track.

i had a quick midday nap, a 30 min clean of my room and managed to change my sheets despite desperately just wanting to get back into bed.

Made myself my sleepy time tea and went for a well deserved self care bath and have managed to do a little bit of journalling for becoming my best self, the perfectionist that i am meant that i started over from the very beginning of the areas of my life that im going to be focusing on but trust that i will add the rest of the pages that i had already written. i just like things to be in as much chronological order as possible x

minor change to the lil notebook but instead of seeing myself as a project or someone that needs a “plan” necessarily, i am just going to be actively working on myself becoming “my best self”

Gratitude and Comparison self talk x

Something that i struggle with is being grateful for everything i have in my life and comparing myself to others (esp neurotypicals)this has meant that i’ve detached from myself and feel like i can’t begin to describe myself with good qualities, even when i can see and understand that i am doing good (having moved out at 19, doing uni and working, it’s a lot, and when mama tells other people they’re so proud of me)i feel as though my whole childhood i was left wondering and craving hearing everything that im good at. The grown version of this feels like im looking to outside validation for my sense of self and identity, as well as not being able to maintain friendships, it hurts to say but genuinely i dont have many if any friendships and it hurts but i know my time will come. Being neurodivergent has given me a completely different perspective of the world and it has its ups and downs but ultimately it has given me such a unique perspective that i would love to pursue in my career. All this to say is that my main priority is how i talk to myself and think about myself as well as being grateful for everything i do have. understanding that there will be dark days but the next day the sun will rise and so will i. so will we. you’re not alone, i’ve felt so alone all my life that i’ve never realised that not only am i doing much better than i thought i would be but also that people can relate to my yap and that there are people out there that will listen and be there for you.

today’s big wins

managed to go to the gym, do uni work and now i’m going home to sort my room out !!