Like the Romance Novels (Erwin Smith)
Tags: military Erwin Smith x afab reader, age gap (legal of course), forbidden love, arranged marriage, spying, cursing, teasing, hair brushing, fingering, soft sex, kissing
Word count: 8463
The sound of metal scraping slightly over porcelain had the tendency to make your ears ache. Not being able to help yourself but pull a face each time your little brotherâs fork grazed the plate. It was your familyâs finest China and normally, your mother would have said something about the sound and scolded him right there. This evening was different though, everyone had to be on their best behavior for the esteemed guest sitting at the head of the table opposite of your father.
The air in the room was tense, knowing that the man was going to be your fatherâs successor had left a sour taste in your fatherâs mouth. Despite the fact that age was catching up to him, he refused to admit that it was time to step down as acting Sergeant Major. Your family knew it and it was nearly fact that the man across from him knew it too.
âSo Erwin, how long have you been in the service?â Your mother asked, tone sickly sweet as she spoke to the man. The table seemingly went on for miles before reaching him, decorated with candelabras, lace doilies and crystal glasses. You had taken the man in when he entered the house, his tall brooding frame, broad shoulders, handsome face and strong jaw. Though now you were noticing more as you waited on his answers, such as his thick eyebrows that framed his blue eyes and the gentle lines by his eyes, showcasing the few years of stress he had undoubtedly had. You didnât realize you had been staring until his head turned, glancing at you before refocusing his attention to your mother and her question.
â21 years, maâam. Iâve been in ever since I turned 18.â You hadnât expect him to be so much older than you, it made you blush because of your prior thoughts about just how attractive he was. â21 years and already in line for the Sergeant Major position, impressive.â Your father grumbled and you could feel Erwinâs eyes on you once more. Truth be told, the man couldnât have cared less about the formalities. He went to this dinner because it was what was expected of him. If he was to take over the role of Sergeant Major, he would have to earn the respect of the men that followed your father and to do that, he had to earn his respect.
His attitude changed once he entered the majorâs home, meeting his wife and children. He couldnât help but drink you in, a woman that looked like you, your dress framing your figure. When he shook your hand, he couldnât help but notice how delicate and soft it was in his. Now, he couldnât help but allow his eyes to drift over to you.
âMiss Y/N?â Erwin questioned and you looked up from your plate in surprise. It was rare that guests spared a second glance towards you, let alone addressed you head on. âHow old are you, miss?â He added on and you felt your cheeks warm up once more. âIâm 23, sir.â You responded and watched a smile pull over his face. â23. Are you married?â He asked and before you could respond on the sore subject, your mother did. âShe decided to go to school first, even though we urged her to settle down. Gave her plenty of choices between suitable husbands. We are now looking into suitable husbands for her again, given sheâs settled down.â While it wasnât a negative thing, your mother made it sound like it was with a certain venomous tone to her voice. Erwin nodded in understanding before smiling at you apologetically. It was clear it was a tender subject, despite that he couldnât help but be relieved at the answer.
âWhy do you ask? Know anyone?â Your father joked and Erwin let out a small chuckle. This confirmed it in his mind, that the age gap was too large that he wasnât even considered. âNo, mere curiosity. I find that you went to school first admirable Miss Y/N.â He redirected his attention to you, deciding that his words were best aimed your way. He could imagine the berating you experienced, being a woman in your position and making that decision. A smile graced your face, deeply appreciating the words as they werenât ones that you received regularly.
âYour children seem very smart.â Erwin commented, watching as the Sergeant Major puffed away on his cigar. The study was slowly filling up with smoke, some escaping through the slightly ajar door. âThey are. I worry about my daughter though. My son, heâs still young and finding his way but my daughter. Sheâs a headache.â He confessed through puffs as Erwin faked a smile. Looking towards the door opening, he caught glimpse of your dress as you walked past and he found that the fake smile turned into a real one.
It had been a particularly windy day, as Captain Smith watched a car pull up to the base. Training had been outside and he was set to oversee it all, uniform on in full as the men did their drills. The car however was out of the ordinary, he wasnât informed of any guests arriving at the base that day and it seemed that he wasnât the only curious one. The soldiers stopping their drills to stare just as their sergeant was.
A heeled foot and a little bit of bare leg peaked from the car before revealing a light blue dress patterned with flowers. Captain Smith felt his cheeks pull into a smile as you revealed yourself from the car. Dress and hair flowing freely in the wind as you straightened out your clothes. It wasnât until he heard the murmurs from the soldiers that he snapped out of his daze. He knew the men didnât see women quite as often, he didnât expect the crude comments though. Shooting the men a glare before wandering over to the car with a wave.
âMiss Y/N.â A dominating voice said, grabbing your attention among the all the soldiers. Turning your head, the wind quickly blew your hair over your face and eyes and before you could do anything, gentle fingers moved the hairs behind your ears. âMiss Y/N.â Captain Smith said again, making a blush pull over your cheeks. He looked handsome at dinner, yet even more so in his uniform. It made him look so official and despite the fact that your father wore the same one, it left an entirely different impression being worn by Captain Smith.
âWere we expecting you?â He asked, a concerned expression pulling over his rugged features. âNo, no, not at all. Father received a telegram at home and it seemed like an urgent matter. I simply came to deliver it.â You told him, trying to ignore the gawking stares of the other soldiers. They were making you slightly uncomfortable, finding it hard to concentrate on the man standing in front of you and the task at hand. Fidgeting with the telegram, you looked to the ground and to your heel covered feet. You couldnât help but wonder if you were dressed funny or if you had over dressed, maybe you had a button undone, all while knitting your brows together.
âI can escort you to his office, if you like?â Captain Smith offered, extending his elbow to you. You gladly accepted it, not only to get away from the prying eyes but also to get closer to him. The captain had left an impression on you ever since dinner, his well built figure waltzing through your mind at the most random of times since that evening. When your family mentioned your disgraces to others, generally they tried to offer solutions as they fed into the opinion that your choices had indeed been shortcomings. Erwin or Captain Smith hadnât done those things, speaking to you rather than about you. Not to mention, he considered you to be admirable and it made you feel warm.
âI would greatly appreciate it.â You responded, a small smile pulling at your lips before gently taking his arm. It was nearly painful how well your body molded to him, unbeknownst to each other that it made your heart pound in your chests. âIf I may be so bold.â Captain Smith started and you found yourself holding your breath, looking at the side of his face as you walked. âYou look absolutely beautiful today.â You had to look away, to the sky or to the buildings out in the distance in the hopes to calm the warmth of your cheeks.
Erwin found the action endearing, needing to stifle a chuckle at the sweet response. He wasnât just saying it to get a response, he absolutely meant it. The man was convinced you would look good in a potato sack and it made him feel like a lovesick puppy despite being the age of an old dog.
âThank you, Captain.â You managed to pull yourself together enough to say. He was so gentlemanly, opening the door for you and gently placing his hand on the small of your back to guide you inside. For such a large man in such a powerful position, he spoke to you with a sweet tone and touched you like you were made of porcelain. It made your thoughts wander more about him, like how his hands would feel cupping your cheeks or how his voice sounded in the early morning⊠after a long night. You glanced at him once more, taking a deep breath before shaking the thoughts away.
You both stopped in front of the office door and he took a breath before knocking on the door. âSergeant Major.â His voice was more tense speaking to your father, the weight of the world suddenly sitting on his shoulders. You watched his jaw clench as you waited for an answer, wanting to reach up and run your finger over the harsh line or massage his tense looking shoulders. Such intense feelings for only having seen him twice.
âCome in.â Your fatherâs voice rang through the wooden door and Sergeant Smith held the door open for you once more. Hand lingering on the small of your back a little longer than before, causing you to train your focus on his eyes rather than the other two sets staring at you.
âY/N, what a coincidence.â Your father remarked, snatching your attention away. Erwin couldnât help but cock an eyebrow at the man sitting in front of the Sergeant Major. Jean Kirstein, a young and promising soldier from what Erwin knew. He was an objectively good looking man, with a stature that rivaled his own which was rare. The few times Erwin had spoken to him, he had left a good impression but now Erwin couldnât help but hate the way he was staring at you. It left a sour taste in his mouth.
âWe were just speaking about you.â You nodded in understanding before nodding politely towards the other soldier in front of you. âY/N, this is Jean Kirstein.â You extended your hand to him and forced a smile as he took it. You knew what this was. âItâs a pleasure to meet you. Father, a telegram was delivered to the house and it seemed urgent.â You told him, ignoring the true intentions of the man in front of you. Erwin had to stifle a laugh, he hadnât quite expected to see you dismiss Jean like this and well, it made him more attracted to you than before.
Jeanâs eyes trailed over your body, the way you leaned forward to pass of the telegram, the way you tucked a hair behind your ear and the way you crossed your arms over your chest. He had to stop himself from licking his lips, glancing to the scary dog behind you. Erwin.
He had seen the way he scanned over you and it disgusted him, jaw clenching coupled with a heavy scowl on his face as the younger man locked eyes with him. It brought Erwin great joy to see the manâs or boyâs rather, confidence diminish with a glare.
âThank you for bringing this to me, was that all?â Your father asked and you nodded your head. âJean, Y/n, you may both leave. I would appreciate if you could escort her back to the car.â Your father gently told Jean, shoot him a smile that could only be conceived as fake. âGladly, sir.â Jean smiled, standing up and taking your hand gently. âCaptain Smith, if you could stay for a moment.â Erwin had to bite back a frown, he wanted to walk you to your car too and make sure Jean stayed cordial. Though considering your fatherâs power to make people fear him, he was nearly sure Jean would be keeping his hands to himself.
âWhat do you think?â The Sergeant Major asked once the door fell shut again. âWhat do I think?â Erwin repeated, not entirely sure what the Sergeant Major was asking. âWell, youâve met my daughter. Youâve heard how she is. Donât you think Jean Kirstein is a good match for her?â The man froze, taking a deep breath before even trying to think of a response. âKirstein has a good head on his shoulders, seems like he could make a good husband for someone, someday.â Erwin said and exchanged looks with the Sergeant Major. âI understand. Iâll put him on the backburner until after my vacation.â He nodded, returning to his paperwork.
âBefore I dismiss you, my wife will kill me if I forget to ask. We are going to our house in the south, by an oceanside town for vacation. Itâs small and quiet, itâll probably be the last vacation as a family. Would you like to join us?â
You loved the vacation house, all the trees surrounding it, the lakes and streams only you knew about and the faint smell of the sea in the air. The town had old bookstores, markets and bakeries on every corner, cafes too. It was home to you, more home than any of the houses given to your family during your fatherâs deployment. One thing was always certain, the vacation house.
The bright sun made your dress look like it was glowing as you left the house, retrieving the last trunk you had brought with you. The white cotton fabric of your dress was simple but perfect for the great weather. A small gust of wind made the trees rustle and you looked up to the sky, taking a deep breath to inhale the subtle ocean scent. A rumbling engine disturbed your peace, tearing your eyes from the sky and to the path. The car rode down the driveway and pulled up next to your familyâs car. You couldnât help but stand and watch, not having expected any visitors.
âErwin?â You spoke before realizing you had dropped his title, the shock of seeing him there knocking all the sense out of you. The man walked towards you, chuckling with his hands in his pockets. He lifted one and reached out to pinch your cheeks softly. âYouâre lucky Iâm on vacation, miss. Y/n.â He smiled and let your face go. Your cheeks were on fire and you found yourself looking past him towards the house. âSorry, captain.â You apologized, only to feel his hand brush yours. âI was only joking, Iâd prefer if you called me Erwin.â He looked different like this, lighter than other days. He was on vacation and looked the part with his white cotton shirt, tucked into tan slacks. His hair wasnât slicked back for a change and you found your heart pounding in your chest simply by looking at him.
âErwin.â You whispered to yourself, watching him walk into the house with his bags. You werenât aware he would be joining your vacation, but you did have a deep fear your father would have invited that Kirstein man. You could see straight through your fatherâs intentions there and had no desire for it whatsoever.
Deciding not to linger on it all too much, you went on with your plans for the day. Going to one of your favorite spots around the house, the small secluded lake. Your family knew of itâs existence of course, they just didnât quite enjoy it like you did. It had become your spot and in your spot, you cared very little about being proper.
On your hands and knees, you felt the water of the lake. Taking the moment to admire the way the sun reflected off of the ripples and smiling at it. It was nice and warm and you were absolutely ready for your first soak of the vacation. No one was around anyways, you didnât look twice before undoing your dress. In nothing but your bra and underwear you waded in the lake, letting your body soak in the sun and the feeling of the nice water. You leaned down, splashing the water around slightly and laughing. This was pure joy for you, with no one around to tell you how to behave or any appearances to keep up.
Erwin knew he shouldnât be watching you, not like this. He didnât think you would be in this state when he saw you heading this direction. He simply wanted to explore a little. Thatâs exactly what he was doing, guilty eyes exploring the delicate white lace coating the intimate parts of your body, the golden cast the sun left on your skin and the pure joy on your face. The water came up to just above your knees and as you splashed it slightly, he watched the droplets on your thighs. Shaking his head, he tore away his stare. This was more wrong than simply finding you interesting and beautiful, he was now lusting over you.
His throat cleared, your head snapping in the direction of the sound. Erwin adjusted his pants before revealing himself to you, watching you scramble out of the water to cover yourself up with the dress. âYou told me to call you Erwin, perhaps I should call you peeping Tom instead.â You held the dress over your body, looking at the man with heat rising in your chest and cheeks. âIt appears so, I understand. But it wasnât on purpose. Went to explore my home for the next weeks and stumbled across you. Iâm very sorry.â He explained, bowing his head to you in regret. Your body relaxed, your response being more one of surprise rather than fear. Erwin never gave you a bad feeling, not once, not even now as you stood practically bare in front of him.
âCould you be sorry while looking the other way for a moment?â You asked, your tone softening as well. Erwinâs eyebrows raised in realization before laughing and turning around. âOf course.â His broad back faced you as you slipped back into your dress, doing up the buttons before sighing. âOkay, Iâm decent again.â You said and watched as he slowly turned around again. You noticed a soft pink tint to his cheeks and found yourself trying not to laugh. You werenât embarrassed but he certainly was.
âAre you perhaps blushing, Erwin?â You asked, leaning forward to get a little bit of a closer look at his face and to taunt a little. âI wasnât expecting to see anyone here, let alone you in this stateâŠâ He noticed your lack of embarrassment and admired it. âThough I assume you werenât expecting otherâs either.â He finished and you nodded, seating yourself in the soft grass. Erwin joined you, leaning back in the grass and propping himself up on his elbow next to you. âMy family never comes out here. I donât think they know I come out here. So yes I wasnât expecting company to say the least.â You told him, wiggling your bare toes in the grass and looking out over the lake.
Erwin watched you, then turned his gaze to the lake as well. It must have been difficult having your family not accept the way want to live your life, for you to be a woman who wanted to study over marriage at your age. It also seemed like they didnât approve of the way you carried yourself, which Erwin didnât understand at all. He would be happy to know the daughter he raised was strong and smart.
The next few days, you hardly saw Erwin at all. He was always being whisked away by your parents to social events or business, despite this having been a vacation for you all. You knew this would happen though, vacations were never such.
âWhat are your plans today?â His voice was a welcome surprise in the morning as you poured orange juice. You were still in your silk robe, the first one awake in the house that morning as you made your breakfast. Turning around with your glass in hand, you looked at him and his disheveled hair and clothes. It was clear he had rolled over and put the first thing on he could find and you found yourself wondering in what state he normally slept.
âIâm going into to town a little later today. You?â You asked, watching him rub his face. He looked tired, not relaxed at all. âSuppose your parents will be dragging me around all day again.â He put his hands on his hips and looked at you with a raised brow. âIf I promise to buy you breakfast, can you get ready in ten minutes and Iâll drive you into town?â His proposal made you laugh and put down your glass. âIs my family driving you that mad, Erwin?â You asked him, watching him throw his head back with a laugh. You took in his jaw line and the way his Adam apple bobbed, thinking about just how nice a day alone with him would be. âWould it be awful if I said yes?â He asked between chuckles. You looked like his angel that morning, every meeting and introduction he had been forced to go through making him want to go back to the base rather than stay. This was not the vacation he was hoping for and as bad as it made him feel, he was going to use you as an out that day.
âNot awful. Completely understandable.â You admitted and let out a sigh. âBreakfast on you, you say.â You fake pondered, taking in his amused expression. âIâll be ready in ten minutes.â You smiled and he sighed in relief. âYouâre an angel Y/N.â He said softly, taking your hand gently and patting it as a thank you. You could get used to him calling you that and you could get used to seeing him in the morning like this, you could also get used to his hand holding yours.
Another thing you could get used to was the way he looked driving. Window rolled down, arm resting on it as the wind blew through his hair. With one hand on the wheel, for the first time in the last few days he looked relaxed. You couldnât help but stare at him and take him in. It felt like a date almost, the first one you had been on in a long time with a man you were actually interested in. But it wasnât a date, it was entertaining your fatherâs colleague and you knew that. So you swallowed those feelings down, but decided admiring how attractive he was, was perfectly alright.
âWas this the place you mentioned earlier?â Erwin asked, snapping you out of your thoughts. You looked around to see the restaurant and nodded, waiting as he parked. He was a gentleman through and through, not helping with the feeling of it being a date as he opened the car door for you. Taking your hand in his again to help you out the car. âYouâre being such a gentleman for someone who stole me away at seven in the morning.â You joked, feeling his hand on the small of your back as you entered the small restaurant. âItâs to make up for doing it for my own benefit. Besides, itâs not every day I get to take a beautiful young lady to breakfast.â Erwin laid his hand flatter against your body, his touches getting more familiar the more he got to know you.
Breakfast lasted longer than anticipated, speaking for a few hours about everything and anything. He liked learning about your family and about the history of the vacation house. He liked learning about you and the reasons you went to college and the reasons you studied what you did. Erwin was finding that he was absolutely taken by you and the more he got to know you, the more he wanted to steal you away to be his.
He told you about himself too, the dangerous missions he had been placed on and the most beautiful places he had been. You liked hearing about his life, his experiences. While you never had the desire to do a job quite as dangerous as him and your father, you did always admire the experiences that came with it. The travelling and meeting people, it made you envious of it all. You liked hearing him speak, watching his eyes as they went through the emotions of talking about his life. You found yourself daydreaming about what it would be like in a more intimate setting, your arms wrapped around him, laying in bed as you comforted him after a long day. It was something no man had ever made you yearn for, no man before him.
âIâve never quite seen this many books.â He commented, entering the small bookstore you had loved since you were a girl. âAh, you havenât seen my room then.â You smiled and continued further into the store. This day was no longer about him getting away from your family, this was about him getting to know you more, even though he knew he couldnât have you. âIf itâs anything as full as this I might not want to.â He joked and you smacked his arm lightly before taking notice of a book with a colorful binding.
âIâve always loved stories like this.â You remarked, running your fingers over the spine as you read the title. Erwin had never heard of it, not quite having the time to read much with his job. He picked up the book, flipping through the pages and finding himself smiling. âThis is a romance book.â He commented, reading through a particularly sweet passage. âDonât get me wrong, Erwin. I like the intellectual read. However nothing is quite better than a sweet romance book.â You explained, watching him flip through the pages. Erwin looked like he had walked right out of a romance novel, one of your own imagination.
âSuppose I can understand whyâŠâ He started and you leaned back against a book shelf. Erwin turned to you, placing an arm on either side of you, the book still in one of his hands. His face was close proximity to yours as he read your expressions, your big eyes staring up at him. âI would be the romantic too if my family kept trying to sell me off to the first suitable man they saw.â His remark made your cheeks get warm. It was an embarrassing situation, one he had undoubtedly heard more about from your father. âYes, but apparently my personality makes me unsuitable.â Erwin laughed at your words and dropped his arms for you both to continue browsing. âI must argue that I disagree. If anything youâre quite refreshing.â He admitted and you looked at him with a grateful expression.
âI would have asked to marry the evening we met if it seemed like I had a chance.â Erwin thought to himself, watching you browse the books. He found himself picturing the future, days like these with you, holding your hands and spoiling you with books. He could imagine you dressing up beautifully, attending galas with him as he showed you off to the entire room. He even could see your shared home in his mind, maybe even kids. God, he wanted it so bad, he wanted you so bad.
âErwin, you disappeared today.â Your mother said as dinner was served. âAh yes, I had some plans in town.â Erwin lied and you found yourself looking to the ground and smiling. It was fun that only you and him knew the truth. âAh I see. Itâs quite alright, I was busy making the starting arrangements for Y/Nâs engagement.â Your father said and your eyes shot open in disbelief.
 The pure anger you felt in your stomach made you cough and your head dizzy, but what made it worse was knowing you couldnât do anything about it. âWith who?â Your tone was laced anger, anyone could tell and well it was to be expected. âJean Kirstein.â You knew it, the second the name was said and you fell silent. You knew it. Tears welled up in your eyes and you found yourself looking away from everyone again. Acting out wouldnât be beneficial, youâd be labelled as dramatic. Crying wouldnât help either, so you simply bit your lip and pushed all the emotions down.
Erwin felt himself get upset, seeing your face and response. He wasnât entirely sure what came over himself as he exhaled, going back on all the things he had told himself since he had met you.
âItâs clear that is not what Y/N wants.â Erwin spoke and your father looked at him with furrowed brows. âI know family matters are not my place. But Iâm here and Iâve gotten to know her.â He added on and your father opened his mouth to speak. You were still looking away, knowing no objections Erwin would say in your honor could possibly save you from this.
âI would like to marry your daughter.â The room went silent enough that you could hear a pin drop. Your ears were ringing, making it nearly impossible to believe that what he was saying was actually being said. Erwin had been in battles, on the brink of death, in meetings with important officials however, those things didnât even come close to making his heart pound like this. âI want to marry your daughter. If sheâd have me.â He said again, taking note that not even you had responded. He was speaking to your parents, but his eyes were trained on you with each word.
âI have to say Erwin, Iâm shocked.â Your mother started and you pushed out of your chair, redirecting the attention to you. Your head hurt, aching with the pain of not having a choice. You also felt a wave of anger or distaste towards Erwin, he made it seem like he understood your pain that morning in the bookstore. Only for him to make this choice without talking to you about it. âI believe Iâm going to go to bed.â You said, not responding to anything that was just said. You could hear protests from behind you as you walked away, but it all didnât matter. Tomorrow you could think rationally, you hoped.
He felt guilty watching you walk away. This wasnât something he should have done without asking you and he knew that. His gut told him it was the right thing, the signals you gave him, the way you looked at him. He felt foolish for thinking this was something you wanted. It was safe to say that dinner was ruined from that point on.
Walking past your bedroom door, Erwin took notice that it was left open a little and light spilled out of the crack. It wasnât late at all and you were without a doubt in his mind mulling everything over, he liked to think he knew you well enough for that. He looked inside the room, seeing you in a nightgown sat in front of your vanity, reaching for your hairbrush. He could hear your sniffles and it made an ache settle in his chest. This wasnât his intention.
âMay I come in?â He mustered the courage to ask all while knocking you out of your thoughts. âI suppose.â You responded, toying with the bristles on your hairbrush as you watched him through your mirror. Tears still stained your cheeks and your eyes were slightly red. Your night gown was slightly revealing however Erwin had seen you with less on than that so you ignored it. You were upset with him and that was making it difficult to look at him, even through the mirror.
âI have to apologize to you.â He started, standing a few feet behind you. His blue eyes taking in the way you tried to focus on something else by brushing your hair. âIt was impulsive of me to say that during dinner. Though Iâd be lying if I said it hadnât crossed my mind.â You paused your movements for a moment while listening to him. It wasnât that marrying him hadnât crossed your mind multiple times while looking at him or speaking with him. He was a great and attractive man and the thought sounded nice. It just angered you that he didnât even speak with you about this, it made you feel like an object and thatâs how you had felt nearly your whole life. You continued brushing your hair trying to work through your own thoughts.
âCan I do that?â Erwin asked, gesturing to your hairbrush. You shrugged and extended the brush to him, waiting as he grabbed a chair to sit behind you. The close proximity behind you made goosebumps coat your skin. âAre you angry with me?â He asked, voice lowering now that he was closer to you. You locked eyes with him through the mirror as he started gently brushing through your hair. âAngry not quite. Upset at the situation, yes.â You admitted and he nodded in understanding. âI understand.â
He continued brushing your hair, trying to do his best to not pull at any knots and be gentle with you. He had never done this before, brushed someone elseâs hair but he was adding it to the list of many firsts he wanted to have with you.Â
âI want these choices to be my own.â You looked down, tears starting to form again. While you were upset, you couldnât keep it from him. âHey, hey, look at me.â Erwin used his free hand to move your chin, helping you look at him. His thumb swiped away the tears, taking note of how your eyes were avoiding looking into to his dead on. âYou should have talked to me about this first. I thought you were different from the others.â You half mumbled, thinking about your past. âIt wasnât my intention to upset you. I simply believe I misread the signs that I was someone you are interested in.â He said and finally, you looked at him. God you were even beautiful when you cried, it was simply unfair. âYou didnât misread the signs.â You pulled your face from his and turned your back to him once more. âIâd be lying if I said I havenât had the thought.â You admitted and watched as a small smile pulled at his lips, all while he continued brushing your hair.
âThought about it, huh? What did you think about?â He asked, a slight mischievous tone in his voice. You rolled your eyes, biting back a smile. You debated going into detail about how much his voice effected you, or the way he respected your choices practically made you go weak in the knees, when you noticed in the mirror how broad his shoulders were behind you and how he had practically caged you in between his long legs. The goosebumps on your skin seemingly got worse as his hand brushed your practically bare shoulder to move your hair.
âWell?â He asked, accidentally tugging your hair with the brush harshly. You gasped at the sudden feeling, leaning back into his chest and grabbing one of his thighs in response. His free hand grabbed your waist to support you, all the touching making a thick layer of tension fill the room. âIâm sorry, Iâve never done this before.â He chuckled as you looked back at him, his hand still holding you. Your faces were now significantly closer than before and he took note of the tension. The thin strap of your nightgown slipped down your shoulder, drawing his eyes as he reached around you to put the brush down on the vanity. âHowever, you still didnât answer me.â He brushed some of your hair from your face, using the back of his hands to feel how warm your cheeks were.
âIâm well aware, that you can take care of yourself. But I want to help.â His hand now held your chin, making sure you couldnât look away. He wanted you to hear what he was saying, he wanted you to feel it. âWill you let me?â He asked and you could feel your heart pounding in your chest, your hand gripping his thigh a little harder. âYes.â Your voice was barely a whisper, not being able to make it any louder.
You shut your eyes and Erwin tilted your chin upwards, softly kissing your lips. It was so gentle, such a ginger touch for such a strong man, leaving you breathless. âThank you.â Â He mumbled against your lips, pulling away so you could catch your breath only to kiss you even harder afterwards. You absolutely melted, feeling his teeth graze over your lips as his hand kept your face steady. God, he tasted like a dream. The way his tongue melded against yours making your nails dig into his thigh, you moaned against his lips.
His hand turned your face to look in the mirror, his hand still holding your chin as he looked at you through the glass. âLook at how beautiful you are.â Erwin said, though it seemed more like he was speaking to himself as he kissed the side of your face, trailing his lips down your jaw to your neck. âSuch a strong and beautifully intelligent woman.â He added on and the hand on your waist tugging the bottom of your nightgown up. His words were making your chest ache and heat pool in between your legs. You looked at yourself in the mirror, your puffy lips and eyes from all the emotions yet you still felt beautiful, he helped you feel beautiful.
The skin of your thighs was slowly revealed to him, his hands both moving to feel the soft exposed skin. You relaxed in his touch, eyes meeting through the mirror as you let him slowly undress you further. His fingertips grazing the edge of your panties causing a small whimper to leave your lips. He chuckled slightly, enjoying your reactions to his small touches before tugging the fabric up more. Your panties were fully exposed and you could see your midriff in the mirror. Goosebumps coated your skin and you squeezed his thigh again. âDonât tease me. Please.â You told him, begged him even. âI need you.â You added on and watched as he lifted the fabric even more, exposing your bare breasts to the mirror before pulling the nightgown off of you fully.
It took him no two seconds to cup your breasts in his large hands, feeling you arch against chest. Your skin was so soft under his touch and every little sound you made was music to his ears. âOh-â You whimpered, his fingers pinching at your nipples gently and watching every facial expression that graced your features. âI like teasing you. Your facial expressions are worth every second of my time.â He said and kissed your neck once more. âSo Iâm going to keep going-â He started, biting you lightly but not hard enough to leave a mark. âUntil I think youâre ready for the rest of me.â His words made your stomach do flips, you wanted all of him.
One of his hands spread your legs before sliding under the band of your panties, middle finger slowly drawing circles over your clit. He was now only watching your face, feeling how wet you were all for him as he spread your slick around. Erwin could feel that he was straining in his pants, it had been so long since someone had this affect on him. This was sensitive, you were sensitive in mind and body and he wanted to take his time with both. Slowly stretching you out on his finger, curling in you slowly until you were ready enough for another. His other hand moved from your breasts to your hand, threaded his fingers with yours as you moaned out.
He added another finger, curling them quicker in you and leaving you gasping. You turned your head to his, no longer caring about the sight of yourself in the mirror. He could feel you tightening around his fingers, walls squeezing them as you sounds got louder. Your lips were centimeters from his, silently begging for a kiss and he couldnât help but comply. Kissing you deeply, taking in your taste as your hand squeezed his. You moaned against his mouth, nearly biting his lip as you came and his fingers continued pumping into you.
âErwin-â You mumbled against his lips, trying your hardest not to squirm too much as tears brimmed your eyes. He was overstimulating you, smiling against your lips as you said his name again. âItâs too much.â You whispered, voice already hoarse and he wasnât anywhere near done with you. He pulled his fingers out of you and you grabbed his hand, raising the digits to your lips to clean them off. He let out a chuckle in surprise at how bold the action was, feeling your tongue swirling around his fingers before he pulled away. Now was when his self discipline started to wear thin.
It took him no 2 seconds to pick you up, princess style in his arms and walk you over to your bed. He placed you down like you were made of glass, looking down at you and your body. He slowly undid the buttons of his shirt before pushing it off of his shoulders and onto the ground, revealing his broad, muscular chest. You sat up on your elbows, watching him, taking every second of him in the same way he did for you. You watched as his fingers nimbly moved, working to take off his belt and undo his slacks to push them down his toned thighs.
âYouâre beautiful.â You said softly, meaning the words. Erwin looked at you once more, with a cocked eyebrow before crawling over you. His body was so warm, his large arms encasing you with something you couldnât describe as anything else other protection. âDonât think Iâve ever been called that before.â He said softly, tilting your face up to kiss him again. He absolutely couldnât get enough of you, spreading your legs to wrap around his waist. âNot even when I was young.â He added on and you shook your head with smile. As you opened your mouth to speak again, you could feel his cock heavy against your entrance and you found yourself swallowing thickly.
You hugged his shoulders, pressing your forehead into his as he slowly pushed into you. He knew he had to pace himself, not wanting to hurt you in any way shape or form. He furrowed his brows, shutting his eyes as he slowly slid into you and giving your walls a moment to stretch. He felt you shift under him, your legs trying to close at the pressure of him between them. âOh-â You whined, the stretch taking your breath away as your body tried to accommodate him.
Erwin opened his eyes again, wanting to see your face and not being disappointed in the slightest at your expression. âLook at me.â He demanded in the softest tone, his hands now moving to pin your legs to your chest. The change in position made it feel like his cock sat in your stomach and you opened your eyes with a loud moan. âErwin, I need you to do something, anything, please!â You cried out, your body moving and trying to create more friction. Any pain you had felt before had subsided and now it felt like a cruel joke that he wasnât moving.
âShh, shh.â He cooed, hand stroking your face as he tried his best to pace himself. Your begging and tight pussy were making it incredibly hard, together with your soft skin against his, Erwin was properly overstimulated. He slowly thrust his hips, not moving much before gently picking up the pace. Your sighs and moans getting more and more frequent with each roll of his hips. He held your legs with one arm while the other supported his weight by your head, not wanting to crush you in the middle of it all.
âFeels so good.â Your voice shook, his cock brushing every part in you that made your toes curl. It felt so good you could hardly make a noise anymore, mouth agape with nothing coming out. âLook at how good you are, letting me take care of you.â He grumbled, the compliment making your brain even more foggy. You looked down, in between your spread legs and where you two connected. The sight of his cock disappearing inside of you making your walls squeeze him, it had you nearly hypnotized. His pace nearly faltered, seeing you look down at your pussy, watching the way he spread you apart and the way your juices coated him.
âOh god!â You cried out, orgasm suddenly hitting you like a ton of bricks. Erwin could feel you fluttering around him, still watching the way he fucked you despite your eyes wanting to roll back. Your nails gripped your bedsheets and your legs shook on his shoulders, but his pace didnât falter. He needed relief himself, seeing and feeling you cum around being almost enough to get him there. Moving your legs once more around his waist, he pressed his chest to yours and fucked you harder. He knew it was a lot for you, watching the way your mouth fell open as you tried to keep eye contact with him. âI know, itâs a lot.â He huffed, deep grunts falling from his lips in between words. He suddenly pulled out of you, making you whimper as you watched his large hand wrap around his cock. Pumping it to the same pace as he had fucked you, he moaned your name as he shot his release over your stomach. His head hung slightly as he lazily pumped his cock, making sure all the tension left his body as he shuddered.
Your stomach was doing flips, missing the feeling of him inside of you and wanting the feeling of him cumming in you even more. Sitting up slightly, you held his face to pull him towards you and giving him a kiss. âNext time do that inside of me.â You told him softly, watching him look at you with an amazed expression. âAs much as I would love to see you pregnant with my kids, think it would be wise if we paced ourselves.â His words made your stomach do flips, the thought of your future. The thought of a future being married suddenly didnât seem so bleak.
When you fell asleep in his arms, Erwin found himself staring at your ceiling. Self indulging in fantasizing about your future as he listened to your breathing. Stroking your bare back as you slept he felt a wave of worry wash over him. He didnât want to get your hopes up, especially now that you had talked, so he decided it was best to keep the argument he had with your father to himself. He would fix it, he would take care of you.
The warmth in your bed was gone in the morning, making it incredibly difficult for you to get up. Images replaying in your head of the night before, you could feel his tender touches over your skin like a ghost. Even as you washed them away they lingered and as you wandered down the stairs you found your cheeks warm.
âYouâre up early.â You remarked, looking at Erwin standing at the window with his cup of coffee in hand. The radio was on quietly, static interfering with the signal slightly as you tucked yourself under his arm. He welcomed your embrace warmly, squeezing you tighter to him as he sipped his coffee. Mornings like this could be something he got used to, even if you reached to take his coffee for a sip. âI had a lot of things to think about.â He told you in return, watching you hold his mug. His fingers played with the fabric of your dress and you hummed along to the tune playing. Moving his hand up your back in the same way he did the night before and sending shivers over your body.
Your father watched from down the hall, your mother not far behind as they came down for breakfast. They would have been lying if they said the sight didnât make them angry, the argument from the night before still fresh on their minds. The thought of the man they had brought into their home thinking of their daughter in a romantic way making them uneasy. Not to mention the age difference that left them raising questions.
Erwin took your hand after taking the mug from you, making you twirl to the music before bringing you back to his chest. Smiling at the way you looked at him in surprise. âOld dog learning new tricks?â You asked as he swayed you both to the music. âStarting with these jokes now are we?â He asked, hands tickling you slightly as you laughed. âCouldnât help myself.â You admitted before standing on your toes to give him a kiss.
Your parents often thought you delusional, the studying and reading stories about romance. However even your father could admit that he hadnât ever seen you this happy, as jarring as it all was. He knew he was hard on you, it was his duty to you as his first born to drive you to be the best you could be. Until that moment, he thought he knew what best for you was. He turned to your mother, looking at his wife before taking a deep breath. âMaybe we were wrong.â Big words coming from a man like him. âDear, I think you might be right.â
A/N; This is my baby and I'm really proud of it so yuh
also @chicken-fifi thank you for asking to be tagged! I appreciate it
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