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hopelessdelusional · 10 months

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Waking up in a hospital bed was not something you thought you would do in a very long time. The hospital smell, the fabric that makes up the gowns, the obnoxious sounds from the many machines that crowd the room, it was all something that you’d wanted to avoid for a long time. And yet, here you were. Your eyes droopy and hair messy, laying in a hospital bed.

“For someone who just came back from surgery, you look great.”

Rolling your eyes, you flipped the channel again. Hitoshi and Izuku had been waiting for you to get back, every time you opened your eyes they were there. You couldn’t decide if it was annoying or comforting.

“Yeah whatever, get me a pudding dickwad.”

Izuku laughed as Hitoshi stuck his tongue out at you, but left the room to get what you asked for anyways. You laid your head back, sighing deeply. The last 24 hours had been the most eventful 24 hours in a long time, and you never really had the time to sit down and process. In a way, you’re more warn out by the festival and that argument with Katsuki than the surgery that had to clean up the mess that was the inside of your body.

When you first woke up, you weren’t entirely conscious, still going in and out of consciousness. All you could see and hear was Hitoshi and Izuku talking to the doctors, hearing words such as “alcohol” and “blood.” At one point your friends saw that you were trying to wake up and they rushed to your side, feeling a hand push back your hair while another held your right hand. You really wish you could hear what they were saying, but everything was so muffled and bright. It was like being underwater with a spotlight being shined on you.

The second time you woke, and stayed awake, was after the surgery. You were tired, and grumpy, refusing to use full sentences with Izuku and Hitoshi once you were fully aware of the situation. However, these are the people that know you best, and it didn’t take them very long to break you.

When they did, you had successfully broke down sobbing, both of them practically jumping onto the bed to hold you. It had been so long since you’ve cried like that, but after the previous day of pain and stress there was no better way to let it go. You told them everything, from the pains you were getting all the way to your fight with Katsuki. They both nodded along, claiming that Katsuki had told them about the fight that night after you had been taken away in the ambulance. It had taken you a while to recover, and your heavy sobbing did worry the nurses, but you settled down eventually. After that, you noticed that your friends had sent you plenty of “get well” presents, and Shoto was on FaceTime for way too long.

Opening your eyes, you sat back up before turning to look at Izuku in the chair next to you. You couldn’t believe that the both of them stayed the night with you, just like last year. It felt all to eerily similar to last year, just, without the passing out after an argument part.

“What is it n/n? Are you still hurting? Tell me where.”

Izuku was by your side in an instant, pushing on your ribcage and watching your face for discomfort. However, your facial expression was simply a straight face and you gently pulled his hands away. He noticed the mood quickly and sat in front of you, giving you those famous doe eyes of his.

“I was such a bitch to him, Zu.”

You sat criss cross, refusing to make eye contact with the man who sat in front of you. You knew if you looked at him you would start crying again, and the swelling around your eyes just went down.

Taking another breath, you spoke again.

“I drunkenly made out with a stranger at a party, and ended up creating this whole…relationship with him! We called almost every night, texted each other everything, went out into the town together…and the whole time…I was lying to myself.”

“Lying to yourself about what, y/n?”

There was a pause after Izuku closed his mouth, and you were still looking away from him. The two of you sat there, the noises from machines around you and the TV being the only sound filling the room. You could feel Izuku’s stare, he’s always been known to have a weirdly intimate stare, his eyes being able to speak for him.

You opened your mouth to talk again, before finding you didn’t know what else to say. Izuku noticed and cupped your hands in his, and gently spoke up.

“Y/n, you knew you had feelings for him since your first day on the job,” he chuckled, making you look up at him with glaring eyes. His face softened, but the smile was still there.

Before he could speak again, Hitoshi returned with the pudding with a raised eyebrow.

“Are we having another break down?”

Izuku thinned his lips as you flipped off your best friend, but he ignored both of you and sat down next to you on the bed. He handed you the pudding and threw an arm around you, Izuku’s hands still holding your free hand.

“No, just talking,” Izuku glared at Hitoshi who threw his free hand up in defense. He looked back at you and let your hand go so you could eat your pudding, then continued to talk.

“You haven’t been lying to yourself, you’re not that type of person. You and I both know you were a hundred percent aware of your feelings, and I’m sure that’s all you could think about it. You just decided not to act on them because you were scared to mess up all the hard work you put into recovering from a pretty traumatizing event.”

As you ate your pudding you melted into the bed some more, not liking the feeling of both of your best friends staring at you. Not to mention talking about your love life made you want to pass out again so you didn’t have to be conscious for this. Maybe if you just closed your eyes…

“Do I think you lead him on? I hate to say it, but yes.”

Surprised with his words, you glanced up at him. He was looking at you, a serious expression on his face.

“There were so many different ways you could have dealt with the situation, but just because you did that doesn’t mean you’re a ‘bitch’ or deserved to be yelled at like that.”

You looked away again, but found yourself thinking over these past months. He wasn’t wrong. You liked Katsuki in not-so platonic way, put so much energy and effort into him but still called him a friend. It wasn’t right, and just like Katsuki said, you are a coward. You knew about your feelings towards the blond but you were just too scared to act on them, you were terrified something bad would happen if you did.

Surprisingly, Hitoshi was the one who spoke up again. which was probably the works of Izuku’s weird eye contact language

“You were scared, and you’re still scared. Shitty things happened to you, not just the car accident but all of your fucked up relationships too. No one is blaming you for not dating this guy, no matter how much you drooled over him.”

You smacked his chest, but Hitoshi just chuckled and continued.

“You don’t even have to date him now if you’re not ready, that’s okay. But you do have to apologize to him and explain the situation. Just talk to him, I’m more than certain he wants to talk things out too.”

More silence, but at least this one was a comfortable one since your friends were done speaking. Now, you just had to sit and think about all of this, process it.

You worked so hard to build your life back up. Your confidence, strength, mental and physical health. The idea of being in a serious relationship scared the shit out of you, not wanting to have another person worried about you. You wanted that independence, wanted to prove to yourself that you could take care of yourself, that you didn’t need someone breathing down your neck. You wanted to be strong, worthy of Katsuki’s love and care.

But, now that you think about that, it’s so stupid.

You were so worried about being a burden to all of your loved ones, that you didn’t even notice that you were drowning in yourself. Your friends, Katsuki, they wanted to be there for you. You aren’t needy, and just because they help you doesn’t mean you’re not independent or strong. They love you just as much you love them, and you should embrace them.

You love your friends.

You love Katsuki.

Your eyes widen when you take the last bite of your pudding.

You’re in love with Bakugou Katsuki.

“Oh my god,” you groan, running a hand down your face.

Izuku and Hitoshi pipe up at your response, Hitoshi raising an amused eyebrow while Izuku’s eyebrows furrow in concern.

��I’m in love with fucking Bakugou Katsuki.”

When you look back at your friends, there are two very different people looking at you. Izuku, is looking knowingly at you, with a gentle smile. Hitoshi however, your best friend, is looking at you trying not to laugh.

Groaning again, you lay back in your bed, eyes looking up at the ceiling. You feel Hitoshi leave your side and walk over to the other side of you while Izuku moves further up to replace Hitoshi’s spot.

“Okay, I have to say it,” Hitoshi sits down on the chair next to your bed as you and Izuku look at Hitoshi’s questioningly.

“Out of all the guys, him? Really? I mean I know he’s a model but there’s no way-“

Instead of letting your so-called-friend continue, you shut him up quickly with a pillow to the face. Izuku immediately burst out in laughter at the action, and you couldn’t help but giggle yourself after seeing Hitoshi’s reaction.

All this is shit you’ve gone through is scary, and in a way the future is even more terrifying. But right now, even after having surgery, you’ve never felt more secure. You have the worlds best friends, and you’re in love with Bakugou Katsuki. Now when you’re scared, you don’t have to feel weak for asking for help, you’re going to let the people who care about you, love you.

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soon you’ll get better

RAHHHHH

that’s all i have to say, good day.

no seriously i rlly have nothing more to say😭😭😭 i rlly don’t think i should do fun facts, and even if i should idk if i can….also it’s like 11:53 as i’m writing this so imma just chop chop so it counts 😁😁😁

love ya!

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hopelessdelusional · 10 months

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labyrinth

EDIT: i fucked up and forgot to add a pic and it won’t let me so. yeah. also i fixed the out of order mistake i’m so sorry😭

ONCE AGAIN THE OC JORDAN IS NOT MINE‼️‼️‼️ it’s the dearest @kotoprincesa !!

hey…life…am i right?

yeah hopefully you saw the post LMFAO ya boy has had a weird week

i’m sorry this is a short one but like i said shit is crazy

i rlly hope i’ll have time to write tomorrow 😭

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AND SINCE THIS IS LATE IM GONNA FINALLY TELL U HOW EVERYONE GOT THEIR NICKNAMES FROM BKG MWAHAHA YES:

Sero-tape arms/soy sauce:

1. tape arms is from when it was their freshmen year of high school, and sero once got RLLY drunk at some senior’s party….anyways he got tied up by a bunch of girls. with tape. (yes he did cry as the gang ripped off the tape) fun fact!! Jordan was actually at that party (their cousin was the hostess) and was the one who told the bakusquad abt him getting taped up!

2. soy sauce is from the very first prank Kaminari did on the channel where he gave sero a glass of soy sauce but told him it was coke (sero didn’t speak to him for three days afterwards)

Mina-pinky/raccoon eyes:

pinky is like rlly obvious she has pink hair, BUT raccoon eyes is a much more funny story! you see, just like her lover; kirishima, she too had a sort of…alt-y phase. in her case, she experimented with black clothing but more importantly, black eyeshadow. like. a LOT. kirishima thought it was the CUTEST thing ever and was low key upset when she stopped doing it💀

Kirishima-weird hair/shitty hair/spiky:

he just had a rlly bad haircut when they came back to school for their sophomore year, it was legit like how teen guys had it in the early 2000s-gelled up into spikes 🫥

Kaminari-Sparky:

he tried rewiring their broken fan in college. got electrocuted. went to the hospital. yeah.

Hitoshi-eyebags:

he may not get sleep now, but it was RLLY bad their jr year of high school dear GOD. everyone would have to FIGHT him to get him to go to sleep, even putting that powder melatonin in his drinks 😭😭 (it was actually kats’ idea :(( such a sweetie)

Shoto-IcyHot:

shoto had this…phase…half way thru sophomore year of high school where he would over work himself with sports/work that he would literally put on icyhot every. single. day. (it drove EVERYONE crazy but no one dared to say anything)

Jirou-headphones:

ALL throughout high school jirou always had her headphones in. there wasn’t one time where she wasn’t listening to music and bkg being the old man he is thought it was “incredibly rude” and “disrespectful” (karma is a bitch tho bc after this HIS nickname was old man)

Momo-ponytail:

yeah the gang wasn’t kidding when momo went thru an INTENSE ponytail phase like she would gel it and everything😭😭😭the girls would be begging for momo just to keep it down or else she’ll keep getting called jojo siwa by the freshmen

Iida-four eyes/glasses:

….uh it’s kinda obvious LMFAO

Ochako-pink cheeks:

so bkg and ochako were actually #besties after they put their differences aside (after bkg apologized to izuku) and she would ALWAYS go to him and rant abt her crush on Iida. so, as “revenge” he would call her pink cheeks whenever she was talking to Iida. HOWEVER that so backfired on him bc the nickname made iida think bkg liked ochako (he also noticed their newest infatuation w/each other) and iida one day went to bkg to tell him HE liked ochako and was like “i see that you and ochako have made a new relationship, but i just need to tell you i have feelings for ochako.” anyways. bkg was going thru new anger management stuff and he had to take VERY deep breaths in order not to lose his shit LMFAO

Izuku-Nerd:

….do i really need to say anything? 🤨🤨

hope you enjoyed that! thank you for the wait i love u guys 🫶🫶🫶

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fun facts! ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

- you know it’s bad when kats is up at 1AM

- ain’t i a genius for that thomas the train gossip account? huh? hm?

- Jordan keeps their man in CHECK (they love each other) and Sero is half scared, and the other half find it very sexy

- also when i wrote that part all i could think of is that one song “walk him like a dog sis” because toshi and Jordan got that covered

- do u like mina and kiri’s users😇😇 idk if i do but whatever

- that gc has…some stuff in it. mainly just all the things of bakugou’s the gang has taken, broken, or lost LMFAO

- toshi and kam are just so cute i’m throwing up sobbing rn

- kiri always scowls at “unnecessary” language but then cusses too… double standards (he has never once called out mina tho HA)

- i feel like i’ve said this before but i need to say it again; i just KNOW in my SOUL kiri uses the laughing emoji

- sero and kam are mina’s ultimate hype men

- kacchan and deku-bed friends forever!

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sad news you guys i’m so sorry but i recently got a new job + there’s been some family bs rn so i literally had no fucking time to write up the next chapter, but i’m HOPING it will just be out tomorrow

so sorry again y’all :( it’s been a weird week LMFAO

#smau #social media au #bakugou x reader #so sorry :(#my job has been so irregular it’s so frustrating #working on it asap #i rlly hope i’m able to write wednesday’s #FUCK

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hopelessdelusional · 10 months

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I wish you would come back

Wish I never hung up the phone like I did

And I wish you knew that

I’ll never forget you as long as I live

And I wish you were right here right now

It’s all good

Living in downtown LA has had many pros, especially for you and your friends careers. There were plenty of jobs, communities, and just life opportunities as well. You have enjoyed living in LA a hell of a lot more than your home state, just full of fun and exciting possibilities.

But the heat? The heat made you regret even stepping foot in this city.

You wanted to at least look approachable, wearing your most comfortable shoes, brown cargo shorts, a black tank top and one of Shoto’s old flannels. You put on some makeup, wanting to fit in with the people who will soon be filling up the area.

When you first arrived to the area, you were immediately greeted with an older man smiling from ear to ear thanking you for all of your hard work. You let out a sigh of relief and humbly told him it was a breeze. His assistant, who couldn’t have been more than 20 years old, handed you a clipboard with a packet of papers. Flipping through the papers, you realized you had zoned out the high pitch droning that was the assistance’s voice, making you cringe when she paused to stare at you.

“I’m sure you’re used to this though,” she awkwardly laughed, looking away embarrassed. The worst part about what she had said was that it was true. You had been given so many gigs and jobs in LA, this honestly was nothing. Try helping plan pride, now that was the most difficult thing you had done in a while.

“No one ever gets used to this job, but I think that’s why I love it so much. Always a new task coming at ya.” A part of you wasn’t lying when you said that, you honestly did enjoy a new task. A new problem that you could get your hands on and really think about and solve. The relaxed smile that you received from the younger woman did make you feel better, and she was soon waving goodbye walking to another person around her age. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath. You had put so much effort into working out a good schedule for all the gigs. Talking to so many managers and workers, and you had done so much research on all the performers tonight. You were ready, all of your friends were coming and you were safe. All you had to do was ignore the pain in your stomach and head, and keep moving.

And keep moving you did, because that’s all you found yourself doing. A good amount of people came up to you and made small talk, especially the workers. You had to go backstage and double check with the performers and managers about the photos you were going to take, many wanting to take professional pictures before the performance. A lot of them had very specific details for when you would take the photos, pushing your patience level but you would just smile and agree.

Time flew by quickly. Gig after gig, shot after shot the sun started to go down and the crowds started to get up. The more popular bands play later at night, so that’s when the more people started to flood in. You quite literally had to push your way through the crowd, flashing your badge at the people pissed at you to get your way to the stage. A lot of the performers wanted a shot from the crowd, which you really tried to come up with excuses for that but you were always quickly shut down. Being stuck in a crowd of sweaty LA people was not your definition of a fun afternoon, but the check was big enough for you to let it go.

As you taking a break at a (air conditioned) bar and mentally planning your next shopping trips with the girls, you were caught off guard with a violent poke in your ribcage.

Your head swung in the direction of the attack and was surprised to see Tenya and Ochako beaming at you. Ochako had her iconic pink skirt and a white tank top with a simple strawberry on it. Her hair was pulled into a messy ponytail and her face was covered in glitter. Tenya was just wearing regular white cargo pants, but what made you smile was that he was wearing a pink polo shirt. He smiled at you knowingly, squeezing Ochako’s waist before letting her go to let her hug you. In her typical fashion, she tackled you in a hug and blabbered in your ear, just making you giggle uncontrollably. Unfortunately for you when she squeezed you it made your stomach pain worse, making you groan a little louder than you wanted to.

Ochako immediately broke away, a worried expression replacing her bright smile. Tenya also raced to your side as you felt the pain go back down, not all gone but manageable.

“What was that? Did I hurt you n/n?”

“Are you okay y/n? You’re not drinking right now are you? The doctor strictly said no drinking-“

“Guys,” you forced a laugh through your throbbing headache and swatted them away, frantically coming up with an excuse. “It’s just a period cramp.” 

Immediately the couple’s shoulders relaxed as Ochako put her hand on her chest and took a breather. Tenya very seriously asked you if you needed anything, to which you quickly shut him down on and tried to change the topic.

Changing the topic was actually pretty easy with Ochako. She is very ADHD, her mind always all over the place. Not that you could say anything, as you found yourself being the same.

“Like literally a goth clown. I was like, ‘in this heat?’ But I swear to god top to bottom clown attire, just goth! Tell her Tenya!”

Tenya chuckled, nodding along and went more into detail. You smiled fondly at your friends, bathing in their energy. You needed this, seeing your friends was going to help you get through the day.

“Yeah people are pretty crazy here,” you turned your head to look out into the crowd. A part of you found yourself searching for those ash blond locks that you were all too familiar with. He said he’d be here for Jirou’s concert, having to finish up a shoot for the day so the texting has been down to a minimum. You couldn’t help but get nervous just thinking about seeing him. You felt so stupid, he was so magnetic, you couldn’t get away from this guy. Everything screamed at you to put distance between the two of you, but as cheesy as it sounds, your heart wanted nothing more than to feel his arms wrap around you once more.

“I’ve had a lot of people come up to me when I check over my work after taking a couple of shots of the performer. They typically ask me to take a picture of them. Most of them offer money but some of them don’t and I think that’s what gets me.”

The three of you chatted up some more, enjoying your break with the couple, but soon you had to get back to work. You said your goodbyes to them and jogged over to the stage once again.

The field had so many other booth set up, which was a huge difference from the last year. Now, there were plenty of local restaurant owners setting up booths, along with ice cream shops, and even certain activities you’d see at the fair. You appreciated all the hard work that was going into this, and felt prideful that you are apart of this.

“Y/n! Oh my god guys its Y/n!”

You slowed your jog down to the group that was in front of you. Mina, Kirishima, Kaminari, Sero, and another person that you had not met yet, but by the looks of it was Sero’s new partner Jordan. You had seen him in Kaminari and Sero’s videos, always noticing a different tension between the two whenever they interacted. When you brought it up to the rest of the group they immediately started talking about how they met in college and have been obsessed with each other since. According to Mina last night when she interrupted your call with Katsuki, Sero was up all night trying to figure out some big grand way to ask him out. Eventually it was 4AM and Sero just left the house, picked up some flowers, and went to Jordan’s house and confessed. Hearing the story melted your heart, and for a split second, you imaged Katsuki doing the same to you.

“Hey guys! Everyone enjoying themselves?”

The group all had giant smiles on their faces. They honestly looked very put together for the event that they were at, but that’s was just LA for you. Mina definitely had something to do with Kirishima’s outfit, because for once it wasn’t an entire outfit made out of athletic clothing. He had on gray, jogger-like shorts, but it matched nicely with the oversized Tupac muscle t-shirt. Mina had the same vibe, wearing a cotton nike crop top with jean shorts. She had her hair back with a headband and in a ponytail, which still showed off her beautiful pink curls. You noticed that the couple had matching bracelets, simple gold chains but with half of a heart hanging from them. Another sickly sweet couple think that made your mind flash with possibilities.

Kaminari was actually wearing a crop top from Jirou’s merch line, and black jean shorts which fit the black and purple tie-dyed shirt he had on. Meanwhile, Sero was wearing gray sweatpants and one of those compress shirts you’re like 99% sure he stole from Katsuki’s closet decked out in all sorts of jewelry. Black studs in his ears, silver simple layered necklaces, and a variety of different and colorful bracelets. Lastly, Jordan looked very cute in black cargo shorts and a vintage Dr Pepper shirt that you just had to ask where he got it from later.

“Hell yeah we are! The music is fire! Banger after banger, dude.”

Kirishima’s wide smile was contagious, making you grin in response. Mina looked lovingly at her partner, before looking in your direction.

“You’re good though right? I hate to be that person but Katsuki mentioned you being overwhelmed recently.”

The rest of the group now looked at you with worried expressions, which made you wave them off and smile politely.

“Trust me it wasn’t this gig stressing me out, just my other jobs I took.”

Kaminari’s jaw dropped, making Sero bust out laughing. Sero leaned into the crook of Jordan’s neck, laughing into his partner as they watched him with a soft expression on their face.

“Jobs? As in plural? I mean no wonder you’re fucking tired.”

The group all made pokes at Kaminari’s comment, and you chatted for a couple minutes before having to cut down the conversation short. You were actually able to get Jordan’s number so he could tell you how to get that type of shirt and more. Happily, you quickly hugged all of them before making your way back stage.

“There’s my favorite photographer! I was wondering where you were at.”

Kyouka embraced you in a hug as she greeted you, Momo quickly following to do the same. She grabbed your face and examined you, making you raise an eyebrow at her motherly actions. Kyouka just giggled shrugged at you when you shifted your gaze towards her.

She eventually let go, huffing as she did so.

“You look like you’re seconds away from collapsing y/n.”

Momo was very stern and serious, with her hands on her hips and eyebrows furrowed, but you just couldn’t get over on how cute she looked. Wearing a white baby tee with jorts, of all things, but she pulled it off like a model. Her long wavy hair was up in a ponytail, which was fed through her hat that she was wearing. She had her glasses on as well, making you just want to hug her and never let her go.

Kyouka on the other hand was a completely different look.

Her signature look was alternative, not exactly emo or goth. She was wearing small back shorts with fishnets and huge dock martins that you honestly had no idea how she performed in. With that, was a baggy purple tank top with another set of fish nets under, and of course her fingerless gloves. Her makeup was a consistent black and purple set of eyeshadow, eyeliner, and glitter, and her hair was back in a messy French braid. (Which was most likely the works of Momo, who was the boss at any sort of braid)

“Okay I think that’s a bit of a stretch Mo, besides the night is almost over and then I have three days off. I’ll be fine.”

You rubbed Momo’s shoulder to comfort her, which prompted her to hold your hand and smile gently at you. You returned the smile, then turned to Kyouka who was now talking to the guitarist.

She finished up the conversation quickly, and when they were out of earshot she let out a loud sigh.

“I swear to god why do people try to change the set list minutes before we perform?”

You laughed, completely understanding her frustrations with people.

“Yes, people are very complicated. That is why you’re my favorite customer, I know exactly what you like and you actually allow me to be creative with it.”

That seemed to lift Kyouka’s spirits, because she gave you one of her rare genuine smiles. The two of you hugged, and her and Momo shared a sweet kiss along with some banter before the singer went onto the stage. Instantly the crowd lit up, screaming at the top of their lungs, and you were able to catch the look of pure love in Momo’s eyes. You slowly backed up, and got a quick shot of her, which she surprisingly didn’t notice. Kyouka was going to love this picture, you just knew it.

The concert was a huge success. Your whole group was able to come together backstage after Kyouka performed. There, all of you enjoyed each other companies, as it has been a while since the eight of you had all hung out in a while. You got a couple of shots of your friends, just for your own personal scrapbook, before you felt your apple watch on your wrist start to blow up.

“Uh oh it’s the boyfriend.”

Hitoshi made his way towards you and tried to look at the many messages Katsuki had been sending you. You knew to move your wrist away and push him away, him just smirking at you the whole time.

“Not my boyfriend. But speaking of, where’s yours?”

Hitoshi’s eyes lit up in realization, and he groaned at you before saying his goodbyes to the group.

Izuku looked over at you laughing with furrowed eyebrows.

“What was all that about?”

Catching your breath, you answered with a huge smile.

“He promised to meet up with Kam after the concert.”

Quickly afterwards, you hugged your dearest friends and promised to make plans with them soon before going out into the half empty area.

The headache came back almost full force, slowing you down greatly but you ignored it as well as the stomach pain. You honestly had no idea as to why the pain wasn’t going away, it was almost like the pain meds were making it worse. However, you knew you had to pull it together so Katsuki didn’t freak out like your friends had been.

After a quick phone call, you found Katuki in a hat and hoodie. You grinned wildly, picking up your pace and embraced him in a tight hug.

“Woah you okay?”

Despite the comment he gladly hugged you back, making you have to pull away first.

“Yeah, long day. How are you?”

Like usual, conversation flowed naturally between the two of you. In fact, you were so relaxed that you when Katsuki bought you a drink you didn’t think twice. One more drink wasn’t going to kill you, maybe it would even help with the damn headache.

“Yeah, the festival was actually bearable this year, it was triple the size of last year so there wasn’t too many paparazzi or just randos taking my fucking picture.”

You snorted at his tone, being able to translate ‘bearable’ to ‘enjoyable.’

“They really outdid themself this year didn’t they? Actually, Kyou mentioned the same thing. She said it was a lot easier to get in.”

Katsuki nodded as he sipped on his bourbon, looking as beautiful as ever. For once, you let the “intrusive” thoughts win and brought your camera to your eye and snapped a picture. Immediately, Katsuki snapped his head in your direction with flames in his eyes. However, you were not intimidated, and bursted out in laughter. The only thing that got you to stop laughing so much was the stomach pain becoming increasingly worse. You slipped out a few “ouches” but Katsuki didn’t seem to notice.

When you straighten back up, trying your best not to grimace at the throb in your head, Katsuki gave you a look that translated perfectly to ‘what the fuck?’

You sighed, allowing yourself to relax and really look at Katsuki. That must had made him antsy, because you noticed he started to squirm in his seat uncomfortably in your serious gaze. Payback.

“You just look so good right now, wanted to take a picture.”

A rose red blush bloomed across his face, his eyebrows scrunching together like they always do when he’s frustrated. Before he could respond, however, the two of you jumped at an obnoxiously loud click sound. The two of you searched around you, and Katsuki was able to find the source first. He jumped up and immediately started cussing out the paparazzi. You watched, slowly sipping on your drink. The dude looked pretty young, and was scared shitless of Katsuki’s booming voice and intimidating build. It didn’t take much for him to run away from the blond, which made him make his way back to your seats.

“Sorry about that.” Katsuki mumbled, and you noticed he was genuinely embarrassed. You had honestly never seen him look so ashamed, so you reached out for his hand and when your hands made contact he looked back up at you with wide eyes.

Not knowing what to say, you hoped the smile you gave him was enough for him to understand. He grasped your hand in his, squeezing it, before letting go to grab his drink. The blush on his face was still noticeable, but not as cute as it was before.

“They’re probably gonna come up with some dumbass story about us dating or something.”

He was still mumbling, which really irritated you. Katsuki was never one to mumble, everything he said was loud and pronounced. He meant every word that came out of his mouth, so sure of himself. That’s honestly what drew you in, his command. Now he was fidgety and talking so quiet, you didn’t even know he could talk that quiet.

Instead of pointing it out, you just chuckled leaning back in your seat enjoying the sparkling stars above.

“Well that’s just a rumor, a very false rumor that will be long forgotten in less than a month.”

You felt Katsuki’s piercing gaze on you, so you shifted so you could make eye contact with him. There was uncertainty in his eyes, something you had never seen before. He was timid, but he also looked stern and serious.

“What are we y/n?”

There was a newfound ringing in your ears, and along with the pain, your stomach felt nauseous. You felt your mouth go dry, and your heart felt like it was going to beat out of your chest. The maintained eye contact was eating you alive, only making these symptoms worsen.

Friends? You thought, but you knew, deep down, that wasn’t true. Deep deep down, you knew you were completely infatuated with the blond, wanting nothing more than to reach over this table and kiss him until you couldn’t breath. However, you could never admit to that. Admitting that outloud could ruin a lot of things right now. Not only your friendship with Katsuki, but possibly with Kaminari, Kirishima, Mina, Sero, and even Jordan. It would wreck you. You’ve worked so hard to maintain a good mental health, but you knew all that hard work would be long forgotten if things between you two would spiral. Mentally, you would spiral, putting you out of work for God knows how long.

No. You couldn’t admit to it. You didn’t care about those feelings you have for Bakugou Katsuki, you were not going to admit something like that.

“Katsuki.”

The tone in your voice was a warning, but of course that only challenged the blond even more.

“Because I know damn well we aren’t fucking friends.”

The words he chose were viscous, but you knew him. You knew he hid behind intense words and a deep voice.

“I don’t know what to tell you Katsuki-“

“Yes you do.”

His voice was louder, and that confidence and fight that you knew him so well of came back. The sudden outburst made your head throb, and you had to fight back a wince.

“You know that this? This is not some fucking friendship. But we sure as hell ain’t dating, so what are we y/n?”

A sigh fell out of your lips, mainly because of the increase in the negative feelings that you felt in your body. You couldn’t do this, not tonight, not when you felt like your whole body was going to burst.

“I’m sorry Kats, but we are just friends.”

Those words hurt when you said it, and you could tell Katsuki noticed it. The two of you kept this eye contact, but you felt your vision slip so you weren’t too focused on reading him.

“So your way of making friends is making out with them when your drunk and then after that maintaining a close relationship with them?”

“We were drunk-“

“That doesn’t mean shit, y/n.”

Katsuki was starting to get angry, you could tell. On any other day you would have shut him down. Yelled at him until your voice got hoarse, because he knew better than to snap at you like this, over something so unnecessary. But you couldn’t do that today, the exhaustion from the pain all day, along with mental and physical stress of the festival had defeated you entirely. You wanted nothing more than to just get up and walk away, but that wouldn’t be fair to Katsuki, so you stayed.

“Yes, it does. We got drunk, and because we’ve been single for way too long, we made out. After that we became close because of mutual interests and friends.”

At this point you felt like a parent talking to a child, but just like most children, Katsuki was having none of this.

“No, no y/n I’m not fucking stupid, and neither are you. That isn’t the whole story, there is something between us and I just can’t fucking figure out why you won’t do anything about that.”

He was standing now, making you look up at him. He was angry, sure, but you could tell there was more than that.

“Katsuki I don’t have to fucking explain myself-“

“Yes you do! Y/n you owe that to me. Why can’t we fucking date? Why can’t you be mine?”

There was a long pause between you two, the both of you holding your breath in dread and anticipation. You noticed the crack in his voice, only desperate to understand why you couldn’t just commit.

“I just, I can’t Kats. I’ve been through a lot recently and I don’t know what would happen.”

“What the fuck do you mean? Y/n, just stop beating around the bush! What aren’t you telling me?”

Growing annoyed, you rubbed a hand down your face, not caring about the delicate makeup you had put so much detail into this morning. You didn’t ever think he would snap at you like this, but you knew this conversation was coming. The more you called or hung out you felt him get more and more antsy, growing impatient of your currently platonic situation.

“I just have a lot on my plate and I have for a long time. I’m sorry but I just can’t risk a relationship.”

Katsuki just scoffed at your earnest tone, obviously hurt by your words. You saw his hands shaking, and the wave of nausea hit again.

“So-so what? So I’m just dead fucking weight to you? Do you even hear yourself right now?

You felt your heartbeat grow heavier, feeling that familiar feeling of anger making your blood practically boil. So you stood up too, ignoring the wave of fatigue that hit you and with as much energy as you could muster, you held your ground against the model.

“I did not fucking say that Kats and you know that. You know what I’m talking about, but your so wrapped up in your head you refuse to try and understand my position.”

“Position? Position?”

He’s walking away, a clear sign that his anger is starting to rise and he’s trying to control it. You just gave to be grateful that he’s still trying not to blow up at you, he cares about respects you enough not to do that. Katsuki quickly circles his way back to you, making eye contact again.

“I’m a human being, y/n. I understand pain and suffering, I understand hard times and being afraid. I also fucking care about you, and would be able to fucking take whatever bullshit you’re talking about. So the problem isn’t me not understanding your position, its you not wanting to deal with your emotions, because you’re a coward.”

There it is. There’s the harsh words you could see coming from a mile away. You knew he would say something like that, you knew it because it’s true, you are a coward. You didn’t want to face your problems a year ago and you don’t want to do it now. You drown yourself with work so you can avoid the real world, so you can forget about all of your mental and even physical health. You wanted to be angry with Katsuki, you wanted to fight back and argue until you won, but you couldn’t. There was no point.

You opened your mouth to say something anything, but you felt your breath go short. Slowly your surroundings started to spin, and you had to lean on a chair in order to keep your balance. All the pain and nausea started to hit you, and for a second you genuinely thought you were going to puke your guts out.

“Tch, that’s what I thought. Fucking hell.”

Out of the corner of your eye you saw Katsuki start to break. He leaned over and rubbed his face, not noticing the distress you were in. Because of the situation the two of you were in, you just wanted for him to home and sleep on it, and allow you to pass out on your bed.

“Look, y/n I’m sorry, I just-“

He sighed, struggling to find the words. You found focusing on his body language and tone helped distract you, so leaning on the chair you looked back up at him trying to look strong.

“I’m not trying to be a dickhead to you, I just need you to see this. I know I’m not crazy, but I’m crazy for you. What I said was harsh but I fucking meant it, I’m here for you godammit, so let me be.”

Finally he turned back to look at you, and you watched him as his face twisted in confusion

“What’s happening are you okay?”

You opened your mouth to speak, but at that exact moment your mouth went dry and you felt like you had just gotten hit in the head by a frying pan. It took you another moment to collect yourself. Katsuki tried to get closer to you but you refused to let him help you, so you moved away from him going to the other side of the chair.

“I just need to go home, I’m sorry Kats.” you slowly released your grasp from the chair and wobbled off, feeling your strength slip away with each step you took. You heard Katsuki call your name, and you would have felt fucking awful for leaving him alone, just standing there at the bar. You knew this hurt him, but you couldn’t think about anything because of the pounding in your head. Yes, this was stupid. You could have just asked for help, what was happening to you was not healthy, and you should have asked Katsuki to take you home. And yet, you couldn’t. You couldn’t let Katsuki see you like that. You wouldn’t ever let him pity you, ever let him think of you less. You tried to listen to what he had to say you really did, and most of it was true, but you didn’t want to give in. Not yet.

Somehow Hitoshi found you wondering and immediately knew something was wrong. Tears were streaming down your face and by the time his hands reached you, the ringing in your ears made you completely deaf. With your head spinning and the lack of energy you had in you, you felt your body double over. Slowly your hearing came back, but your eyes refused to stay in focus.

Before slipping into unconsciousness, you listened to a faint but familiar song playing from one of the nearby speakers.

You always knew how to push my buttons

You give me everything and nothing

This mad mad love makes you come running

To stand back where you stood

I wish you would, I wish you would

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

i wish you would

just a reminder the character Jordan is NOT mine but the lovely @kotoprincesa !! thank u so much for allowing me to use ur oc i love him sm🫶

LETS GOOOOOOOO PLOT PLOT PLOT this shit was a DOOZY bro how y’all feeling?? 🎤🎤 *grabs mic* well IM feeling fucking awesome like y’all this is so exciting omg are y’all excited??? bc IM excited!!!!!!

ANYWAYS (lol) as always if you have any questions or just wanna talk my inbox is open! have a great day y’all!

love ya!

fun facts! ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

- it’s gonna take a while for the fans to adjust but they’ll come to love the new couple🫶🫶🫶

- toshi and kam wanna wait to release it but sero literally could NOT wait to post his partner :((((

- y/n zones out a LOT when they don’t wanna listen and it’s very noticeable

- ko and tenya are 100% the type of couple to do matching stuff and you CANNOT change my mind

- idk where the idea of a goth clown came from, it was like 2AM when i wrote this. maybe that’s just like an inner demon of mine or smth

- mina had to fight kiri to wear actual clothes he was pouting like a baby and the rest of the squad was just watching giggling

- but of course once he put everything on he LOVED it and couldn’t stop kissing mina (that’s what made the gang walk away in “disgust”)

- Kaminari in crop top supremacy🛐

- sero LOVES him some jewelry and Jordan noticed and started making little bracelets for him (sobs)

- they for sure have matching spider-man pjs

- i CANNOT and WILL NOT get enough of momo and jirou like HELLO?

- but can we talk abt the SHIT yn had gone thru for this festival like😭😭 the poor thing is getting abused just for the good shot

- hitoshi is such an ass but he’s even MORE forgetful

- kam was pouting when he was late and had to make it up to him by cuddles and junk food (as one does)

- i fucking hate paps man

- so does kats

- i don’t rlly wanna do a fun fact on their fight so….

- hitoshi has like a spidey-sense when it comes to yn’s danger LMFAO

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she’s a doozy

#smau #social media au #bakugou x reader #my hero academia #bakugou katsuki x reader #my hero academia x reader #my hero academia social media au #mha smau

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not an ask but YOU'RE SO REAL FOR BEING A SWIFTIE AND A BNHA FAN. AND THE TAYLOR THEMED BAKUGOU SMAU?$?@?$,? IM JAWDROPPED /POS

i hope you have a great day im abt to go binge read the whole thing and will be hanging onto every update <3

I HOPE YOU HAVE AN EVEN GREATER DAY THANKU FOR READING LOVEY!!!❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷

no but like i knew i would be hitting a very specific audience when i did this but honestly i’m living for all the feedback

i obviously plan on doing more smaus for different characters/fandoms and i honestly wanna keep going with the taylor themed episodes-maybe doing a series that only hits a certain album

idk please let me know if that’s smth y’all like or if i should do another artist or just do a completely different theme

i think for my head cannons and blurbs im gonna keep doing song inspired fics bc that’s how my brain works 🤭

#smau #social media au #taylor swift themed #taylor swift #i wanna do a hozier one #or maybe conan grey???#idk y’all so many possibilities #but i feel like my music taste is all over the place #watch me do a megan thee stallion themed one LMFAO #honestly i should do a smau that only does one specific album #so fearless could TOTALLY be a royalty smau or smth #omg #epiphany #(taylor's version)#y’all i’m a genius #anyways i want to show off all my fandoms first #plus i alr have an idea as to what i want to do after this before committing again #having an ongoing series is like being a relationship #maybe #idk i’ve been single for a year now so #whatever i’m a genius and im excited for us and for what i’m gonna put out after this #but i’m also excited for y’all’s reaction to these last chapters #okay i’m done #I LOVE YOU BYE

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LMFAO THIS MADE ME GIGGLE

yes bae!! i’m not that talented to come up with titles that crazy creative only mother taylor 🛐

me looking over the masterlist to see which taylor swift songs i’ve already done so i don’t accidentally repeat one

(you should go look at the masterlist now 😉😉😏😏😘😘)

#smau #taylor swift #social media au

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me looking over the masterlist to see which taylor swift songs i’ve already done so i don’t accidentally repeat one

(you should go look at the masterlist now 😉😉😏😏😘😘)

#smau #social media au #taylor swift #the way i’m so stressed abt this #eyes bulging out #i’ve been doing so many midnights #i think i’ve done every album #except debut but idc #don’t hurt me

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.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

call it what you want

ATTENTION MY DEAREST READERS!!!! the character Jordan is NOT my original character, but an oc of the one and only @kotoprincesa !!! thought it would be fun to have a cutsy oc, so thank you koto!! i love ur oc🫶🫶

.ೃ࿐

THIS EP WAS SO FUN TO WRITE OMGGGGGG and the next couple chapters are a complete 360 from this so…enjoy it while u can

i hope everyone is still enjoying, i promise the next chapter is gonna be JUICY i alr have the title and UGH i’m so excited for the pain

as always i’m here if you have any questions or just random thoughts! i’m very easily entertained

also stream Hozier’s new song Unknown / Nth okay byeeeeeee

fun facts! ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

- toshi and denks are so gay your honor

- shopping hauls are a REGULAR in this chapter

- iida was very patient with ko

- in fact he’s an amazing shopper like he’s so chill but he also takes it so seriously

- (i like to head cannon he mellowed out after high school/college lmfao)

- ko has a new job!!! be proud of her!!! clap!!! she’s working with children!!!!

- everything is a race/competition in their friend group it’s so funny😭😭

- that’s honestly how sero got the guts to ask out Jordan bc denks beat him so he had to make sure bkg didn’t win

- obvs mina and kiri won

- I LOVE THOSE SPIDER-MAN MEMES HELP

- #Tenyafanclub

- i cannot imagine what queer photographers and model are going thru rn dear lord

- URANUS

- katsuki is such a good person to rage rant with, so much so yn called him later that night after their hang out and raged some more (he was smiling the whole time)

- KATS SAYING GOOD GIRL. i may be nonbinary but LAWRD help me

- i was this🤏 close to having yn post a meme that said “my coochie is tingling” but i didn’t want another “community labels threat” 🙄🙄🙄

- sero is living and i’m here for it

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its fine that its not a lt i was rooting for bkg neway! and i said that b4 i read it LAWLIE sorri sorri sorri! excited 2 read rhe rest tho!

ITS OKAY IM JUST MAKINV SURE YOU WOUFNT GET DISAPPOINTED THANK YOU FOR READING

MWAH!!!!

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hi yes hello.

i have an oc

his name is Jordan

i don't quite have a real person to use as a face claim but i do have picrews made for him.

or just one.

u can go find a face claim for him.

all i ask for is credit.

if u need anything more for him (if u choose to use him) then just ask me!

kool.

kotino prince :v

this is fucking sick!! thank you so much!!!

just one question, i may be mistaken but i see a nonbinary pin on the picrew but ur using he/him pronouns, i’m just double checking in order to get it right!!

i would love to collab with u!! i will definitely give credit

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YEAH IM CHILL SORRY IVE ACTUALLY BEEN SOCIAL SO ITS HARD TO POST EARLY

@hopelessdelusional

u ok?

pls be ok.

we need u

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.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

“Good morning sunshine!”

Were the first words you heard when you woke up. Your covers were violently ripped off of you, the cold air clinging onto your warm body. You already knew what day it was, you already know who exactly were standing over your corpse-like body.

Today was the dreaded doctor appointment. Izuku has made sure to come with every single time, claiming he needs to make sure they “get things right.” Since he’s almost graduated in med school whenever you even step foot in a hospital he’s already attached to your hip. As much as you like to complain, you really do appreciate it. He’s always speaking up for you and making sure you get what you need. If you ever got embarrassed about something or just forgot something Izuku is telling the doctor. (one time he even told the doctor about a bad case of diarrhea and you almost died on the spot).

When you were in the hospital, Izuku would hold your hand through every hard talk, any pains, anything that made you the slightest bit uncomfortable. He was always waiting in your room when you got out of surgery, and would even get in arguments with doctors when he didn’t agree. As much as you didn’t like having someone hover you, that was a very scary time in your life and you’re glad you had him.

The other person standing behind Izuku menacingly, was of course, your best friend Hitoshi.

It’s a known fact Hitoshi struggles with expressing his feelings, and he often isolates when he does have those hard feelings. Whenever the two of you get in fights you have learned to let him cool off, let him be by himself and let him come to you. If you were to come to him first it would only piss him off more, a mistake you will never forget.

With that being said, when you were first in the hospital, and all through your healing journey Hitoshi surprised you with how open and communicative he began to be. Late at night when you couldn’t sleep he would lay in bed with you, laughing at whatever friends episode was playing. (that show later began to be you and Hitoshi’s comfort show). He would fix your hair to how you liked it, and walk you as far as he could whenever you went into surgery. He also always brought your favorite clothes, blankets, and plushies, decorating the hospital bed.

When you were home he was even more considerate, but also very strict. Izuku and him would talk back and forth with all of your dos and donts. They were like hawks watching you, and you wouldn’t want it any other way.

“I hope you both die a slow and painful death.”

You roll over on your side, putting your back to them often like how a cat does when they’re mad at their owners. You heard Hitoshi snort, and you didn’t even have to look to know Izuku was standing with his hands on his hips.

The stance reminded you of the way Katsuki stands with only one hand on his hip. You always wanted to point it out but didn’t want to make him annoyed with you. You often wonder if because they grew up together that’s how that habit started.

“Come on n/n, hou got twenty minutes to get ready.”

Izuku walked away, not knowing where he was headed as Hitoshi sat down on your bed. You were able to see him out of your peripheral, he was just sitting on his phone. His thumbs busy texting someone, presumably Kaminari.

Over the past couple weeks Hitoshi and Kaminari have been constantly hanging out, texting, and calling. Whenever Kaminari filmed any videos he would invite Hitoshi to come over and “help edit the video” but you knew he just wanted to be with Hitoshi. Anytime you brought up the possibility of Kaminari feeling the same about Hitoshi as he goes for the blond, you are immediately shut down and the conversation gets changed. It was times like those that made you want to strangle your best friend to death. Which honestly, wasn’t that rare.

“I’m not leaving until you get up.”

You groaned obnoxiously, knowing it would annoy Hitoshi. Izuku’s footsteps started to come closer to the bed now, and you felt a soft thump next to you. Curious, you moved your head so you could see what was laid next to you, and you were pleasantly surprised to see an outfit Izuku picked out for you.

“Your comfy clothes, now i’ll be in the kitchen making you avocado toast and getting your meds out.”

Soon enough, the three of you made your way to doctor’s office. You were used to the odd looks you would get because of the two men who followed you everywhere. They were practically your shadows, never leaving your side. Thankfully the doctors and nurses were used to this and always greeted you with a warm smile.

“Alright miss l/n, i have to say you’re doing a lot better than last time.”

“You have Izuku to thank for that one.”

Swinging your feat, you watched your doctor chuckle as she watched the screen intensely. Izuku was standing next to you as Hitoshi chose to sit, two very different behaviors of anxiety being performed.

“However…”

You felt Izuku go stiff next to you, as well as Hitoshi in his seat.

“However?”

Izuku’s voice came out as a squeak, not having heard that in a long time. Probably since the first semester of college whenever he gets nervous. He still has those cute squeaks, but not as often as you’d like.

“I’m not liking the way your liver is looking y/n.”

The doctor looked up at you from the computer as you smiled sheepishly. Knowing how strict Izuku and Hitoshi get, they are going to kick your ass.

“I know you’re young and at that age, but you have a serious condition here, and you need to remember how at stake your body can get.

Now I’m not too upset at the way it looks, you could easily flush this right out with plenty of water and no drinking. But still, please be careful y/n.”

Izuku and Hitoshi were now looking at you, feeling their cold stare as you smile and nodded.

Of course you knew this was a possibility, but with everything else you’ve been doing for your physical health you just assumed it would balance out. Besides, you weren’t a raging alcoholic, you just enjoyed a nice drink here and there. Drinking wasn’t going to kill you, and honestly not even the consequences of drinking. Katsuki being a perfect example.

If you hadn’t drank that night then you would have never made out with the most beautiful man on the planet. Now that was the best thing that’s ever happened to you drunk.

(the worst thing was certainly when you went on that trip to arizona and got drunk right before you landed in a local sheriff’s office. that experience alone made you want to never drink again. thought it is a good laugh now two years later)

“I’ll keep that in mind, thank you.”

The car ride back was tense.

Music playing gently in the background as Izuku gave you multiple monologues about how dangerous you’ve been living. Of course you wanted to argue back, but you couldn’t find yourself arguing with someone you love with something so stupid. Instead, you listened and apologized, trying to make Izuku feel better. Hitoshi was nodding along annoyingly, adding extra details that only makes Izuku ramble more. that’s why you made him sit in the back

As Izuku rambled about topics that don’t even have anything to do with drinking you finally pulled out your phone to respond to Katsuki.

The two of you have been texting and calling a little too much for your comfort. You really didn’t know how to feel, but you couldn’t for the life of you pull away from the man. He had such a magnetic personality, you loved every conversation with him and wanted nothing more than to be in his life.

But that doesn’t mean you’re in love with him or something. That’s crazy talk.

After Izuku made his final rant, he had to get back home to Shoto. You all made your quick goodbyes, and once the other was gone you crashed on the couch. Hitoshi found his way to the couch as well, sitting on the arm rest and you could feel his stare.

“I think I’m gonna ask out Denks”

Your whole body jolted up, a new wave of energy hitting you after your best friend muttered those words.

A wide smile spread across your face as you scooted closer to Hitoshi, but that just made him groan and hide his now red face away from you.

“Don’t make this weird n/n”

You just laughed, now grabbing Hitoshi’s hand and playing with the bracelets on his wrist. You were so excited about this, because you knew that Kaminari would say yes in a heart beat, and you especially couldn’t wait to tell Katsuki.

“I’m so proud of you.”

Groaning even more, Hitoshi sunk into the couch and swatted you away making you giggle.

There was a comfortable silence after that, before your best friend spoke up again.

“When are you gonna tell Bakugou about your condition.”

You were now looking down, Hitoshi’s word like a punch to the gut. You fiddled with your rings, letting the question hang in the air.

“I don’t know.”

Hitoshi sighed, and you could tell he was looking your way now.

You really didn’t know. You just now had a good thing going with Katsuki, you didn’t want him to look at you any differently. You had no idea how he would react, and you certainly didn’t want him to react the same way all of your friends did. You could take care of yourself, you didn’t want him to look at you as weak when you told him. You needed to prove yourself to him. Needed to accomplish something big so he knew that even though you have this condition you can still kick ass.

Not to mention, with the festival coming up you really have slowed down talking to him. You honestly preferred it this way, it made you less attached. It allowed you to stop feeling so guilty whenever you did remember he didn’t know about your health, you just needed to finish this festival. After that maybe you’ll feel better and tell him.

Maybe.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

false god

i jinxed myself on the last post whoopsies

also not a lot of writing bc there’s a chapter coming up that’s gonna be LOADED so 😬😬

also i wanted to incorporate more smau stuff into the written things i think at this point it’s just bc i’m lazy😭

anyways love ya and have a great day!!! and as always lmk if you want any x reader images or just have any questions for me!! i’ll always answer 🫶

fun facts! ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

- no yeah i’m not kidding Izuku went full karen on some poor nurse and the doctor was like pissed at izuku at first but then checked over the work and was like….”fuck the kid’s right” LMFAO

- hitoshi CAN be sweet yes it’s possible

- izuku stull has his little motor mouth moments and i for one live for it

- ever since last week katsuki has been checking up nonstop

- momo is literally y/n’s mother

- hitoshi blushes rlly easily it’s so cute

- also HEEHEH KAMINARI IS GONNA ASK HUM OUT HEHEHEHHEE

- excited

- uh i think that’s all

- i’m sorry this chapter was so short i’ve been actually busy recently 😀

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