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honeymaecreations · 3 months

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God forbid you ever win

And I die from your misery

You won’t escape my revenge because

My headstone will stand and sing of your memory

I’m beautifully dead, a wonderland of white

Pure as snow, but not a leaf or blossom in sight

You pulled out my flowers and left behind your weeds

Now my garden’s forever tainted and I can’t seem to grieve

I tried ripping out your roots, but they’re buried too deep

You’ve ruined my soil and the land they called ‘me’

- honey mae

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honeymaecreations · 3 months

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I wonder

Sneaking down dirt paths

And

Driving in the rain

I wonder if you think of me the same

Do you curse the moon

maybe

Drink every fall

Or do you simply

Not think of me at all

I lie

To my friends and to God

But mostly

At night

When your ghost always calls

I lie awake in your memory

Because that’s all I am

A figment for you and your narcissism

It claws and strangles my body

How my worth’s in your hands

Caused I ripped out my heart and mailed it

But it came back unsent

You returned it, never opened

Just bleeding and dead.

- honey mae

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honeymaecreations · 3 months

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I remember the first time I felt it

That pain of being sliced by words and

The way she smiled after

Like it was nothing

Nothing at all

I wept in hopes she’d see the damage

That she had so casually caused

But she did it again

And again

Until my heart couldn’t bare the burden

Of loving my mother

Because she no longer loved me

I am not her child anymore

But a ghost of the youth she once held dear

I’m a reminder

Of all she lost

And all she can never be again

She is my creator yet biggest competitor

And as much as we both despise it

I am my mother’s daughter

- honey may

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honeymaecreations · 3 months

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My brother stayed with me

On that Friday night

He didn’t go to his game

Or answer his phone

He watched Barbie movies and

Made us unlimited pizza rolls

My brother stayed with me

On that quiet Saturday

He didn’t go to a party

Or hang out with his friends

He spent it playing on the porch

Spinning me around again and again and again

My brother stayed with me

On that Easter Sunday

He didn’t leave my side

Or make fun of me once

He made sure I was happy and

Had the fullest basket of eggs by lunch

I know now why my brother wasn’t there to pick me up

On that Monday afternoon

Because I remember the red water

And the way I climbed in with him too

I held his lifeless body because

I was too young to know

What the red in the water meant

And how it’d forever stain my clothes

- honey may

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honeymaecreations · 3 months

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