Trust your gut feeling when it‘s telling you you‘re not ready for something. There‘s a difference between being scared of doing something and knowing deep down that you‘re not up for it. Simply because it doesn’t align with your soul. Yes, you should get out of your comfort zone and explore every now and then. But when your gut feeling is telling you that it‘s just not for you, don‘t trick yourself into thinking it‘s something you gotta do to „get out of your comfort zone“. People outside of you will tell you their opinions but make sure you take them with a pinch of salt. Know your values and the path you want to take on and you are the only person who has a right to meddle in that business. No one else. Often times we let other people cloud our judgment and make us doubt our own values. „You should do this; at your age you need to do this; aren’t you just scared of trying something new?“ But stop yourself to ask „is this really what I wanted? Or am I just doing it for them?“ It always starts with small steps in the wrong direction and then suddenly you‘re on a completely different path.

You said you were just like me

and suddenly I started falling for me too…

Nothing but pure love

I feel for you

Nothing but respect

I want to give you

Nothing but a hug

I want you to feel

And all that you are worth

Is what I want you to see

The brightest star in the night sky

Beautiful in its truest form

Always there when all seems lost

The only one daring to see through

That is who you are

And that is who I am

If you mind to look closely

This was written for myself

A loving heart can not deceive

It will not be out to get attention

It will be solid as a rock

Trying to withstand all the waves that crash onto the shore

A loving heart can not be selfish

It will be only wanting to give

It will be soft as a cushion

Only wanting the other half to be beating in sync

A loving heart does not want many

It will be only focused on one

It will be loyal to the core

Just wanting to be seen by that one person they adore

Attention

If you find yourself craving attention and love ask yourself what you‘re denying yourself at the moment. Are you taking care of yourself? Are you treating your body right? Are you giving yourself enough attention at the moment?

Try to work on that first before seeking it from outside.

You who my heart longs for

Why are you always hiding?

Why do you only shine your light on me

When I‘m surrounded by darkness?

Are my cries for help the only sound you hear?

Where are you when I laugh? When I‘m happy?

When I want to give love?

Is my misery the only thing you see?

Why can‘t I have you when I‘m longing to share?

To share my joy, the bliss and the sunny days?

Where are you when I‘m shining with the sun?

Crossing paths only when I‘m hiding in the shadow.

Tell me… is my light too bright for you?

„Look at me when I‘m speaking, I have a lot to say. Look at me when I‘m smiling cuz I know I‘m beautiful. Look at me when I tell a joke cuz I know I can be funny and look at me when I reach another goal cuz I worked hard every day to get there. Look at me… when I break down and pick myself up again. Look at me when I say I‘m fine and pretend to be happy. Look at me when I get lonely but say I don‘t need anyone. Look at me when there‘s unshed tears in my eyes…

...just, look at me to see me.“

I said „no“ today

Self Love

The other day I watched Jay Shetty‘s insta live where he talked about his new book „8 rules of love“ and what stuck with me was this one thing:

„Self care comes out of comfort but self love comes when you‘re experiencing discomfort.“

It resonated deeply with me cuz it‘s so true. Whenever I went through a hard time and picked myself up again I felt this immense leap of faith in myself and a lot of self-respect and… love. Cuz it just showed me that at the end of the day I will go through all of my difficult days on my own. Even if I can rely on friends and family, I will essentially have to deal with my problems on my own and I have been working through it all on my own so if that doesn‘t deserve some respect towards myself I don‘t know what does.

just in the mood to be kissed…

The desire to be liked

I think for some of us it‘s hard to let go of control when it comes to getting to know people. As a control freak myself I often find myself wanting to be in control of how other people see and feel about me. I have noticed that even if I still continue to be authentic I have this underlying desire to appear likable. Wanting to influence their judgement about me just because I think they‘re nice. I mean… it‘s human nature I guess. Wanting to be liked by others. But it gets problematic once I find someone attractive and want to get to know them better. My desire to be liked gets automatically prioritized over my own desires. My own needs and wants. What do I want? Does this person even have what I‘m looking for? It‘s astonishing how easily I forget myself while trying to be appealing for someone else. How easily my thoughts get clouded with how they might be thinking about me. Even though the focus should be on me and how I like them. Because in the long run you‘re gonna regret having neglected your own needs in the beginning just to get a person to like you. In the long run you‘re gonna want to have a person who‘s able to fulfill your needs. In the long run you‘re gonna want to have a person you chose as well. Not just the other way around.

Why not me? Why not me?

Isn‘t it crazy how we‘re all just floating on a giant rock somewhere in space?

It annoys me that most people will never get to know the real me. And how they feel they have the right to judge me based on their perception of me. I am more than my body, my degree, my occupation or my talents. I have a whole galaxy inside of me but all they see is darkness…

I want to pause my life for a moment to just exist. I want to feel warmth surround me without having to worry about the future and I want to fall in love without being worried about the past. I want to simply exist and exist in a simple way. I want to endulge in the sweetest little moments and remain there for a while longer than it actually lasts. Cause life can be so hectic and stressful that every second feels like I‘m on a moving train that has got no brakes. I want to truly live in the moment before it becomes just another memory.

shaking you by the shoulders and telling you that change is a natural byproduct of growth and that you shouldn’t blame/judge/be disappointed with your past self for making choices that you made because you didn’t know any better. telling you that you were genuinely just trying your best. imploring you to practice compassionate self-awareness so that you don’t only forgive your past self for the mistakes you made, but thank your past self for getting you where you are today in your journey

Why do we run?

Being alive especially during this time period I‘ve always felt this heavy pressure on me to accomplish something in my life. Looking at all the young entrepreneurs and stars and what not who became wealthy and successful in their own field of expertise. I‘ve always compared myself to other people’s success and envied them asking myself „okay what can I do better so I can get a step further to my own success?“ This mindset had kept me up on my feet at all times running towards a goal that I have never even defined exactly in the first place. It was just some mystical place in the future that I’ll achieve someday if I put in the hard work now.

However, now that I reflect on it.. it never made me happy. I love working on new things and challenging myself, yeah but I‘ve only ever enjoyed myself when I hadn‘t set a specific goal in mind that I needed to achieve. When I just let go of all the restraints that kept me chained down to the ground. And I‘m wondering, do we really have to run? Why should we accomplish anything? Isn‘t existing alone enough to be worthy of a good life? Why do we think that a fulfilled life needs to be earned?