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Pairing: Steve Harrington x Eddie Munson
THIS IS PART ONE OF A MULTI PART FIC
āGarden Songā will also be available on AO3 here
Synopsis: The year is 1991 and Steve Harrington is getting on with his life- a much quieter life since he finished helping save the world. Little does he know that Eddie Munson is about to come back into his life with the force of a human tornado, years after their last unresolved encounter, and under some of the worst circumstances imaginable.
Warnings: Throw the canon out the window, literally pretend vol 2 didnāt happen, canon-typical violence, sexual references, drug use, a car crash resulting in major character injury, this part isnāt explicit but further parts very much will be, Eddie has one leg lol, angst and major mutual pining, slow-burn
General content: named after the Phoebe Bridgers song bc I saw a Steddie edit to it that destroyed me, Eddie and Steve definitely have some kind of unresolved tension in this, Eddie being lowkey bad at reading social cues, Robin is featured a fair bit in this part, Eddie and Steve are great pseudo parents, lowkey a slow ish start but I promise it picks up in the next party sorry!! This is quite long and not 110% proof read so forgive me pls lol
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Someday Iām gonna live in your house
up on the hill
And when your skinhead neighbour goes missing
Iāll plant a garden in the yard then
Theyāre gluing roses on a flatbed,
You should see it, I mean thousands,
I grew up here til it all went up in flames
Except the notches in the doorframe
|Phoebe Bridgers- Garden Song|
Steve Harrington was always prepared for the worst case scenario.
Always.
Which is why when Robin Buckley called the landline phone of his small rental apartment on a Tuesday afternoon in mid June, he was relatively unphased by the state she was in on the other end of the line.
āItās Dustin,ā he managed to make out through the illegible sobbing mess sheād become, the words like a swift kick to the pit of his stomach.
āWhat- what dāyou mean? What about him?ā Though the gravity of the situation was apparent by Robinās inability to even catch a breath through the noises she was making, there was a jovial undertone to Steveās words that stripped them bare of the worry heād been struck by. āRobin whatās happened?ā He could hear a female voice in the background of Robinās end of the call, trying to coach her through her breathing which was now coming ragged through great, heaving sobs. Steve was fairly certain he could hear her fighting the need to blow her nose.
āThere was-ā a gulp of air in, āGod Steve. They cut him out-ā a shuddering exhale, āOut of the car but they donāt know if- and heās, heās in surgery and- but, you he put you down he wanted you called if anything happened to him Steveā.
While Robin spoke, Steve had woven himself and the phone as far away from the wall as its tether would allow him, hooking the receiver under his jaw and against his shoulder while he patted himself down in search of his car keys. Heād spent the majority of his morning on the hunt for supplies for his first teacherās assistant gig due to start in a week- life skills, a local high school, nothing overly fancy like his parents would have expected of him- and he was dressed simply in worn light wash denim jeans with a grey and green polo shirt tucked in. Heād cut his hair since growing up, though he wasnāt entirely sure when the growing up had occurred, just that it meant his hair was now slightly tamer than it had been in his late teens and smelled faintly of the much too expensive gel that inhabited his top drawer. A few days worth of a 5 oāclock shadow darkened the angle of his jaw, the swoop of his upper lip.
āOkay Robin- Robin,ā Steve swung his keys around a finger by the loop they hung off, trying hard to make himself heard over his friendās understandable hysteria. āRobin, I'm leaving to drive down now. You got my mobile number if anything changes while Iām in the car yeah? Yeah- okayā.
And so Steve Harrington, prepared for anything, began the 4 hour drive back to his hometown in Indiana with nothing but his shitty Nokia, a tiny collection of underground albums and the half full bottle of Jack Daniels that lived in his back seat for company.
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Nancy had been the first to move away from Hawkins after everything was finally done. Followed swiftly by Jonathan, and then, one by one as they got accepted to college or made other paths for themselves, the kids. Max had been the last of them to fly the coop, but it had taken her longer to figure out the logistics of leaving for herself, switching the locations of numerous kinds of physical and occupational therapy she endured for years. Eventually Robin had gone to college in New York, choosing to pursue arts. āMeet lots of other boobie loving lesbians like yourself doing thatā Steve had joked, much to her behest. Hopper and Joyce hadnāt moved far, just to a larger house with land that ran the border between Hawkins and the next town over; a fixer upper Joyce had called it when theyād brought a lonely Steve over to show him.
And then it had just been Steve, because Eddieā¦
The last time Steve had seen Eddie Munson, it had been 1988. All the Chrissy Cunningham shit hadnāt blown over as smoothly as the government had been hoping, but Eddie had fought hard to stay in Hawkins when theyād been forcing his hand to try and get him and his uncle to relocate under new names. Steve was under no illusion that things had been looking up for Eddie, still branded a killer by much of the town despite being proven innocent, but he hadnāt wanted to leave the kids.
Until one day, late October, Eddie had appeared on the doorstep of Steveās parentsā house- a monolith up on a hill, much too big and eerily quiet- Sabbath shirt and roughed up black jeans doing little to protect him from the bitey Fall chill, and had told Steve he was leaving. Just like that. Their goodbye had been bristling and brief, to say the least. Neither had kept in touch.
Finally, Steve had pried himself out of the clutches of Hawkins Indiana in ā89, cutting all contact with his parents and relocating to Michigan where heād been convinced by Robin to pursue the qualifications to become a teacherās aid. āAnd who knows then? Maybe youāll become a history teacher or a basketball coach- the possibilities are endless Stevie!ā Sheād spun to him over dinner one night. In the end leaving Hawkins had been like ripping off a bandaid. Momentary stinging, and then, nothing but a phantom itch every now and then to remind you that once upon a time it was there, a part of you. He called Jim Hopper once or twice every other week to check in, and that was as much as he had to do with the town where heād become a man these days.
Now Steve sat in the front seat of his car, hunched over the wheel in a way that had his back crying out in protest, the Hawkins district hospital looming large in front of him. Robin hadnāt called once on his way down- or if she had sheād been calling the wrong fucking number- and he wasnāt entirely sure whether to take that as a good or bad omen.
Steve wasnāt entirely sure he believed in omens really. Omens, or God, or fate, or luck. Not anymore. Perhaps because heād spent much of his time in Hawkins misinterpreting them. A āgoodā omen had more often than not meant someone would end up dead, or close enough to it. Like Eddie-
āOh thank Christ youāre here.ā
The passenger side door opened and Steve jumped a little, knees bumping the underside of the steering wheel. It was dark outside now, and he flicked the interior light on so he could clearly see Robin sitting across from him. Sheād dyed the ends of her short, light hair a vibrant shade of red on a whim (during a drunken phone call neither of them could really remember all that much of) and she smelled faintly of weed. Her eyes looked swollen and bloodshot from crying, and she sounded congested.
āHeās still in surgery but we don-ā
āRobin what the fuck happened?ā He pushed some of his brown hair back from his face.
āDustin and I, weāre down visiting Joyce-ā
āI know why youāre here Ro, I donāt- ugh? No, what happened with Dustin?ā He pinched the bridge of his nose and waited for her response.
When Dustin had left to go to college (and what a boozy send off that had been) heād been accepted into Columbia. It was just his luck that Robin was in her second year by that point, her apartment in prime location and on the search for a flatmate. Hence why the pair had been visiting Hop and Joyce in Hawkins together and Robin had been able to make the call.
āHe was on his way to his momās and there was a drunk driver in a fuckin Honda- heās dead so good riddance, but Dustinās seen better daysā
āYeah no shitā.
Steve rubbed his hands up and down his face in disbelief, not quite feeling real as he sat there trying to process what his best friend had told him. It felt, overwhelmingly so, as if he was waiting for the other shoe to drop somehow.
In silence, they sat for a long time. Robin took Steveās hand in hers, leant across to his seat and rested her head against the rough shoulder of his polo, placed their joined hands on her chest. Steve snaked his free hand up to her head, looping his fingers softly through the back of her hair to try and bring some semblance of comfort to her day. He wasnāt sure how long they stayed there for- a lifetime, an eternity- holding each other in the quiet without moving, but when they finally broke apart and stepped out of the car both their bodies were stiff.
Too fuckin old for this shit, Steve thought to himself, though 24 was not old.
Robin led him through the winding, sterile corridors of the hospital hand in hand, both of them husks of the people theyād been that morning before everything had happened.
Steve was vaguely aware of a niggling, scratching thought at the back of his mind- a memory more than anything. Himself, battered and bandaged, confined to a small section of this same hospital, keeping watch of Max Mayfieldās lifeless body like a dog standing guard, day in and day out. Jim Hopper coming to sit with him, telling him the feds and the government were handling everything with as little grace as theyād all expected, explaining the process to him thoroughly like a father might his own son. The way he would sneak into the small, too cold room theyād shoved Eddie in every waking moment he wasnāt with Max, huddling over his hospital bed and often falling asleep with his head resting against the foot of the hard mattress. Had keeping them all alive really been enough in the end? When it had been his job to keep them all safe. He still couldnāt answer that question.
He found that the feeling of waiting at a hospital hadnāt changed all that much in five years. Just that now, Robin was with him and he was not as afraid as heād been back then. The plastic chairs were still just as unforgiving on his body though.
Together, Steve and Robin, prepared for everything and nothing always, sat stoic wrapped around each other into the early hours of the next morning, until a doctor came and told them it would be āhours yet at leastā before Dustin was out of surgery- if he made it out of surgery- and to go to wherever they were staying and get some rest until a call came through. And for all the times theyād been drunk together since reaching adulthood, they both thought on the winding car trip to the Hopper-Byers residence that there had never been and never would be a time where they were less lucid than now.
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āOh no Mrs Byers, Iām good thank youā
Slowly, Steve rolled back into the river of consciousness, the living room couch almost swallowing him whole in his attempt to sit up.
āYou can call me Joyce, you know? I donāt biteā Joyce was bustling about in the next room- the kitchen- the warm smells of fresh brewed coffee and sizzling bacon wafting through to spark Steveās senses awake.
āHmm, reckon Iāll still call ya Mrs Byers thoughā.
Steve knew that voice. Male and light, never without an antagonistic edge to it. He frowned as he swung his bare feet over the couch edge and stood, a headache pounding violently behind his eyes.
Suddenly laughter erupted from the kitchen, Robinās husky giggle and Joyceās full belly laugh- along with the soft, deep chuckling of someone else, getting closer to Steve as he stretched out his arms behind his body and-
āOh. Youāre up.ā
Where Steve had changed his appearance to feel more grown up, Eddie Munson had metamorphosed into a 25 year old version of the freshly post-teen man heād been the last time the world had almost ended in ā86. The unruly mop of his shaggy hair had remained stagnant, however in the light of the living room it looked a shade or two darker than Steve could recall it being- like seeing someone for the first time in decades and realising the picture youād painted of them had been wrong all along. Oddly, he found, it stung.
āCoffee?ā Eddieās eyes had always reminded Steve of those of a deer, wide and the kind of dark that made him feel like they might swallow him whole any second. As they held each otherās gaze- Eddie just over the living room threshold, and Steve right by the couch- Steve found they had the same effect on him even now.
āWhen did you get in?ā A small look of defeat played across Eddieās soft features as Steve pushed straight past him, striding barefoot into the kitchen and ignoring the steaming mug held out in those long, ringed fingers like an olive branch.
āAbout 4. Hop picked me up. Still in bed now ācause of it,ā Eddie offered by way of response.
āIt was the both of you,ā Robin said, staring straight down into her plate of maple doused bacon and golden brown French toast as though it might hold the power to remove all the tension that had cropped up from the room, āDustin wanted the both of you called, if anything ever happened to him, I forgot to mention yesterday- you know how he always had that joke? You guys were like mom and dad?ā She huffed a small laugh, though she didnāt really find any of it amusing.
āMore like mom and dad in the middle of a bitter divorce settlement- fuck meā Eddie mumbled to himself more than anyone else as he set Steveās cup down on the bench in front of him a little too loud and moved a little haphazardly toward the refrigerator.
āAnyway,ā Robin always knew how to fill an awkward silence by talking, āThe hospital called this morning, Dustinās surgery went fine but heās not doing great yet. Reckon heāll be in for a long haul recoveryā
āNot surprising,ā Eddie spoke around a mouthful of food as he bumped the fridge shut behind him with his ass.
āAnd where exactly are you these days Eddie?ā It was as if Steve was watching himself speak to Eddie from outside his body, screaming no no no donāt do this shit to no avail as he ploughed on, āBecause I donāt recall having heard much from you since you left Hawkinsā.
Robin had her head in her hands at the kitchen bench, and Joyce had long since taken her leave and fled presumably to lay back down with Hopper in their room on the other side of the house. It was a cozy dwelling, despite its large size- the first homey house Steve had stepped inside that was bigger than a three bedroom. When he and Robin had arrived last night, bleary eyed, Hop had given them a brief tour, showing off the rooms theyād decorated tailored to each of their ākidsā. The dedication and love that permeated every surface of the home bore deep into the marrow of Steveās bones, a reminder that he may have found comfort for himself amongst these people, but he would never erase how unwanted heād been by his own parents.
āWell Steve,ā Eddieās voice held that same antagonistic edge it always had, āIāve been writing a lot these days and last night I flew in from LAX so, without further ado Iām gonna take a fuckinā showerā. He wove out of the kitchen and down the hall to the right, booted footsteps heavy and loud as he went, slightly irregular as they receded. Steve downed his coffee in six quick, large mouthfuls, ignoring the way it burnt his throat on the way down.
Somehow heād thought seeing Eddie again would be easier. Perhaps it was because heād never thought it would happen- though he supposed that was ridiculous thinking. Inevitably the kids would get married, start families. There would be birthdays to attend, weddings, funerals- they were fated to cross paths in a bizarre do-se-do this way for the rest of their lives. You cannot delay the inevitable.
Over the years Steve had come to terms with his sexuality like he was unpacking a box of old clothing. Trying pieces of it on one at a time until heād worked the whole ensemble out together. Robin had been there, of course, to help and to console, and to spend far far too many nights drunk and rambling with, and sheād been the one to ultimately introduce him to the label of bisexuality. Steve had never, however, come to terms with the unresolved attraction heād had in those last few years in Hawkins for Eddie. Heād told Robin of it only once, which he had little to memory of doing thanks to three quarters of a bottle of tequila and a sizable amount of cocaine someone from the Columbia arts department had gifted him for his 23rd birthday. He still had the Polaroid evidence that the night had ever occurred stuck to his fridge door back home.
āI donāt know whatās wrong between the two of you, but either promptly rectify it, or shove it literally so far up your ass that you can forget about it long enough to actually be there for Dustin when he wakes up, because Iām certain he did not leave strict instructions to call you both only for you to be bickering like this the whole timeā Robin, still dressed in last nightās clothing, pushed back from her spot at the bench as she spoke, hands flailing expressively in her annoyance. āAlso, Iām seeing Vickie today, so itāll be up to you two to man the fort at the hospital Steve.ā She stormed away down the hall, Converse squeaking on the floorboards.
Steve could count on one hand the amount of times Robin had been mad at him. The time heād left her stranded at the Family Video Store because heād forgotten to pick her up for four and a half hours after her shift. The time heād almost broken her leg in the Upside Down. Potentially the time theyād been stuck in the Russian elevator but he was yet to confirm that with her.
Still bristling, Steve poured himself a second cup of coffee, then a third, and added another notch to the tally of how many times Robin had been mad at him in his lifetime.
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The people of Hawkins, Indiana still looked at Eddie Munson like the town pariah. Chrissy Cunninghamās killer. No matter that the government and Hopper had tried their damned hardest to make all that go away as smoothly as possible- it turned out it was actually a lot harder than anyone had apparently anticipated to make years of predetermined judgement fuelled hatred disappear, regardless of someoneās innocence- people still hated him. Eddie hadnāt really been too surprised at the lingering distaste. He had, however, been surprised when Steve Harrington had intentionally attempted to rile him up over breakfast that morning.
Surprised may be the wrong word, all things considered. When Eddie had left Hawkins he knew heād been the last in a long line of people Steve had cared for whoād simply up and left him. Knew his parents never called when they werenāt home, and were rarely home as it was. Avoided him like a pathogen when they were. Knew that though the kids had all gone off to college, to have the lives theyād all fought to allow them to have, that their absence remained a festering wound in Steveās life, like a parent left iced out. And yet he had still left all the same. Standing on that doorstep, a chill biting into his body and his right leg fucking aching from the effort of walking all the way there, Eddie had still told Steve heād be gone from Hawkins two days later. There had been no trace of the man heād gotten to know so intimately at the end of the world when heād searched Steveās face for a response.
Eddie had kept in touch with all the kids, all the adults too. Dustin and El- surprisingly- spoke to him most frequently, Dustin emailing constantly and texting and calling, organising a small handful of DnD campaigns over the years that the kids, all long since adults now, had all attended. The others would call every now and then, but what he loved most was when they all saw him in an interview or saw his work in a store and called him just to extend their fondness.
It had been six months after leaving Hawkins that Corroded Coffin had made their break into the underground music scene, the other members choosing to follow Eddie out of their hometown when heād pitched his musical scheme to them drunkenly one night in Jeffās garage, and what a glorious break it had been. By the time Robin was calling Eddie, hysterical, to fly down to be there for Dustin after his accident, he and the guys were working on their second full studio album and had signed on with a major recording company. Heād put it all on hold the second heād picked up Robinās call.
āHowās the leg?ā Steve was driving them to the hospital, what Eddie thought might have been his fifth cup of coffee of the morning wedged haphazardly into his dashboard cup holder. The younger man hadnāt even showered before theyād made their way to the car together that morning, and he didnāt appear to have any spare clothes on him- just a half empty bottle of Jack, Eddie had observed in his peripherals as heād climbed awkwardly into the car.
āHm?ā
āYour leg,ā Steve mumbled, āHow is it these days?ā
āStill gone,ā Eddie found himself answering jovially, though his ring clad fingers ghosted softly over the spot under his jeans where flesh met metal, just above where the ball of his knee shouldāve been. Once was. āApparently they donāt grow back, soā
āIt doesnāt seem to, yknowā¦ hurt you as much anymoreā.
When the demobats had literally torn off the lower segment of Eddieās leg heād almost bled to death. Obviously. He still had vague recollections of looking up at Dustinās face above him as they both cried- the boy hysterically, begging whoever else had been there for help, Eddie softly and quietly as he accepted his fate- that drove him from sleep sometimes. No one had ever described it to him, but the small flashes of memory were enough. Dustin with his hands near black from the amount of Eddieās blood that coated them, the otherworldly chill that had seeped into his bones as darkness lay under him, arms open and waiting to pull him under. The scream that had tore through him as the others had lifted his body up roughly, hands all over him keeping his insides inside of him and clamping down hard on what was left of his right leg. āCanāt feel my footā he could remember slurring āsāit gone?ā. In the end it had been Robin whoād looked at him, unflinchingly calm and said, āYeah Ed, itās goneā.
As it turns out, hospital staff are less likely to suture off your fucked up leg stump neatly when they think youāre a cheerleader killer. Eddie had learnt this the hard way upon waking up. It had taken months for the mangled, raw end of his lower thigh to heal enough that Eddie no longer woke multiple times a night, sweat soaked and vomiting from the pain that burnt through his bones and flesh. The government had paid for and sourced him a brilliant transfemoral prosthetic, the black metallic contraption taking him years to be able to use comfortably thanks to the botched repair job that had been pulled on his body. He still fumbled walking on it even now.
āYeah it doesnāt,ā Eddie confirmed for Steve as they pulled into the hospital parking lot, āDoesnāt hurt so much anymoreā.
Hospitals made Eddie feel sick.
āWell letās hope Dusty Bun is still all in one piece hey? One Party cyborgās enoughā Steve exited the car, cup of coffee in hand, and shut the door a little too hard behind himself. Just like Eddie had placed his cup down a little too aggressively that same morning. Vaguely, Eddie had the sense that heād been called the Party Cyborg in the same tone people used to call him the freak, stepping out of the car and adjusting his worn leather jacket and well loved Iron Maiden shirt in an attempt to appear neater. It didnāt work, and oddly, what Steve had said stung like scraping the heels of your palms against pavement.
The staff overseeing Dustinās care gave the two men the basic rundown of what to expect before they were allowed through to see the kid. Completely shattered femur, removed his spleen during surgery last night, extensive but now controlled internal bleeding, minor facial injuries, broken wrist, still waiting for the anaesthesia to wear off, please donāt be alarmed by his appearance- heās not out of the woods yet but heās certainly better than when we received him yesterday. It hit Steve worst when they entered the room, left him doubled over in the far corner with his hands braced against his knees, Eddie could see it written all over his face. How did they all almost die only to end up back here? How the fuck was that fair?
āFuck man,ā Steve breathed, straightening and stepping toward Dustinās bedside, āfuck!ā
The kidās appearance hadnāt changed much since heād been a teenager, though the throes of puberty had left him looking almost mannish in the same way they did to everyone when they were fresh out of teen hood. Heād been stripped of his clothes, his bottom half covered by a sheet and the rest of him ensnared in the labyrinth of wires and tubing that exited and entered various parts of his body. Butterfly bandages held together a split on his lower lip and another through his eyebrow, sutures woven through a puffy, angry looking slash just below his hairline. A steady and sure beeping from the monitors at the bedside was the only assurance that Dustin Henderson was still alive.
āFuckinā Honda drivers man,ā Eddie said and instantly knew he shouldnāt have. Steve glanced over at him wide eyed and open mouthed, exasperated.
āShut up Munsonā.
Eddie wasnāt entirely sure when everything with him and Steve had gone so terribly wrong. Not that there had ever truly been anything established about the two of them. For a long time, while the world was ending, they really had cared for the kids like mom and dad, theyād shared clothes and weapons and shifted their sleep schedules to dance around each otherās, and theyād trimmed each otherās hair and shared cigarettes and joints by the fire a lot. Theyād touched a lot too, casually, in a weird timid way at first that gained comfortability as it became more common, until it was a daily occurrence. The kids never spoke about it, though they were nosy little fuckers- still were even in their adulthood- and neither had Steve and Eddie. The latter would have been lying had he said heād never felt anything for Steve Harrington, but then lying had been second nature to Eddie his whole life. Eddie leaving Hawkins had been the final act that unmoored them from their tether. He knew that much.
āIām gonna goā¦grab us some chairs,ā Eddie said finally, chewing on his fingernail as he spoke before spinning on his heel (the real one) and exiting the room. It was more surreal than anything heād ever felt, being the one waiting by the hospital bed. Roles inverted from the last time theyād all been here. The feeling curdled sickeningly in the pit of his stomach.
It took Eddie longer than anticipated to find a pair of chairs, though being only a medium sized local district hospital, he supposed that wasnāt necessarily the most surprising thing. When he finally returned, limping a little with the extra weight of the chairs and his still choppy prosthetic skills, he stood by the door just watching through the little window for a moment. Watching Steve knelt at Dustinās bedside, carefully grasping his cannulated hand in his own and speaking. Eddie couldnāt hear what he was saying, but he didnāt need to. Steve was the mom. Always had been.
When he finally dragged the chairs in with him, they set them up either side of Dustinās body, taking a hand each- carefully, so carefully because although the kid wasnāt awake they were both all too aware of how much of a bitch the pain of having shit probing in and out of your hands was- and just sitting with him in silence. It was a heavy silence, and Eddie found himself hating it, but he wasnāt like Robin. He couldnāt fill a silence just by talking and have people not hate him for it. So in silence they remained, for so long Eddie thought it might bleed into his bones. All the bones he still had, that is.
There was nothing pleasant about being stuck in a too small hospital room with Steve Harrington, who everything had gone so totally wrong with in ways Eddie couldnāt even remember. Didnāt even understand. But together they endured it, for now at least. When Dustin finally woke up and they could all breathe easier though, Eddie was going to crack Steve open, spilling him wide onto the pretty floors of Joyce and Hopperās house and find out what made him tick. What made him hate him so wholly these days.
For now though they waited, dutifully, like dogs, at Dustin Hendersonās beside in silence.
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Pairing: Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader
Summary: After a traumatic experience you enlisted the help of no one other than your drug dealer and close friend Eddie Munson to try and warm you back up to a list of physical contact, affection and intimacy related goals youāve set yourself. Months after the start of this arrangement youāre finally ready to try being kissed again, and Eddie is happy to help.
Warnings: Very brief mentions of SA (reader experiencing), Mentions of drugs and drug buying, Kissing, Pure and utter fluff
General content: Soft!Eddie, Eddie reading LOTR to reader, Titled after the song by Leith Ross of the same name that I had on repeat while writing, as an SA survivor the thought of having someone willing and lovely enough to engage in this kind of ārelationshipā with me came to me and was so comforting I had to turn it into something, this is pure fluff
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Youād finally become comfortable with half your list again. It had taken a while, months actually, but the flinching had ultimately stopped a few weeks ago, and though it was a small step heād celebrated it with you nonetheless, letting you pick a sickly sweet film from the Family Video Store for rent and smoking a joint with you that night while you watched it on the couch together.
Always his place, never yours- it was part of the exposure, you told him, but really you just loved the homey feel of the van- always your terms, never his. Youād made the deal with him over half a year ago, a few months after that guy hadā¦
You knew you could say assault, that it wasnāt a dirty word and that it didnāt make you dirty that it had happened, yet the word always seemed to grate on your teeth as it left your mouth. So you didnāt say much at all about it these days.
Regardless, Eddie had agreed before youād even finished laying the terms and conditions out to him, and so now the pair of you coexisted as comfortably as your brain would allow in the confines of his trailer a few days a week, more when you needed it. Today was one of those days.
The deal was this: Eddie would help you, slowly, regain comfortability- first with general physical touch, then physical affection. Youād compiled a list of things specifically. The end goal, ultimately, youād told him, was allowing yourself to engage in full blown physical intimacy again, but he could back out of that part when and if it ever happened if he so wished.
āLikeā¦ sex?ā Heād asked, a soft pink hue blooming on his cheekbones.
āEventually, maybe, yeah,ā youād responded before backpedaling with little grace, ābut yknow like maybe not ever, and absolutely not with you if you donāt wantā.
He really gained nothing from the arrangement, youād made that incredibly clear when youād set out to pose it to him, and Eddie didnāt mind. He was happy to be helping a friend, to be helping someone.
āCome,ā Eddie Munson tapped his knee with his long, ring clad fingers as he spoke, a book in his opposite hand, āIāll read to you sweetheartā.
From the kitchen you could just make out it was his very battered- well loved he preferred- copy of Lord of the Rings. Not entirely your thing, but heād been slowly reading it to you for about two weeks now, his voice mellow and soothing every time. You hadnāt found something about a man, or anyone really, comforting in a long while, but with Eddie you were finding lots of things that put you more and more at ease with each time you saw him. The reading was one of those things.
It was a warm evening, the air outside crackling with humidity, so Eddie was in a fading Iron Maiden t-shirt, his usual ripped black jeans on his bottom half. The silver chain that hung off his hip caught the dull trailer light every now and then if he moved a little, flashing Like a fireflyās call. It caught your eye as you made your way over to him, padding barefoot across the floor, and you were struck for a moment but the simple sweetness of him- so rough yet so gentle.
Your body sunk into the worn fabric of the couch as you sat beside him, curling your bare legs up under yourself and shuffling so you were just close enough to him that you could feel warmth at all the points you were touching- the ball of his knee and your knee, the supple top of your upper thigh where hip met leg and the coarse denim of his pants, the points of your elbows, your shoulders. It was one of the first things youād gotten him to help with, getting used to sitting in such close proximity to someone without feeling like they were imminently going to violate you, the warmth of another person not leaving you feeling sick to your stomach. Out of everything thus far it had taken the longest. Longer even than hand holding, than hugging.
āYou comfortable?ā He murmured softly, glancing over at you through his long lashes.
āMm-hmmā you hummed in response. You reached up to brush back some of his long, dark hair that was tickling the side of your cheek and you saw the ghost of a smile dance over his lips. He flipped open the book to a page in the early hundreds, where heād been keeping a gold and black guitar pick to mark the spot heād gotten you to.
āIt all depends on what you want,ā Eddie began reading and you leaned into him just a fraction more, shutting your eyes as your head came to rest softly against his upper arm. He smelt of weed and cigarettes, and faintly underneath the body spray heād put on when youād arrived earlier, of sweat. You didnāt mind.
Eddie had been your drug dealer first, and your friend second- though perhaps friends are always something else first- the two of you forming a close bond one summer when youād both been left behind in Hawkins by friends whoād made other plans. The only thing left for you to do was smoke weed, and the only thing left for him to do was sell it to you. Heād invited you in one afternoon, embarrassed about the state of his trailer but eager to show you his music collection and guitar, and the two of you had been close ever since.
After what had happened to you heād been nothing but respectful of any new boundaries youād set with him, and youād been eternally thankful for it.
āYou can trust us to stick to you through thick and thin- to the bitter end. And you can trust us to keep any secret of yours- closer than you keep it yourselfā
Trust. It was the reason youād picked him for your warped form of exposure therapy.
āBut you cannot trust us to let you face trouble alone, and go off without a word. We are your friends Frodo. Anyway-ā
āEddie?ā
āHmm?ā He tucked the guitar pick back between the pages, not at all phased youād made him stop mid sentence, and angled his body toward yours slightly. āYou okay? Itās pretty fuckinā hot in hereā he scanned your face for any signs of distress with his large brown eyes.
āIt is yeah,ā you agreed, shifting away from him slightly and pulling uncomfortably at your black tank top and denim cutoffs. You hadnāt realised how sticky youād gotten in the warmth of the van until heād brought it up. āIāve actually been thinking-ā
āWonders never cease,ā he teased with a grin and you scoffed at him, rolling your eyes.
āSeriously- been thinking,ā you met his gaze and held it, trying your best to convey the earnestness you wanted to be heard with, āI think maybe, if youāre still okay to, Iād like to try kissingā.
He sat up a little straighter, discarded the book completely. You had his full attention now, and you noticed he seemed a little nervous.
āTotally okay,ā he confirmed for you, āand you can stop it at any point and I promise sweetheart Iāll stopā
āI know Edās, thanksā.
He was playing with his rings anxiously in his lap, twisting them around the base of his knuckles and letting the silver catch the light slightly. You thought, not for the first time in your friendship, that his hands were quite beautiful, the kind of thing youād want to slow down and look at, to study.
āGod itās going to be like Iāve never been kissed,ā you mumbled to yourself more than him, a flushed heat simmering up to your cheeks, āhow embarrassingā.
Eddie shrugged, the movement freeing the guitar pick chain around his neck from under his shirt. He turned fully to you, a foreign kind of seriousness about him.
āYou sure?ā
You knew he wasnāt referring to you being embarrassing.
āYeah,ā you gave a small nod, your hair falling forward with the motion, āWant it to be you kissing me. Donāt trust anyone elseā.
The words eased some of the tension heād had about himself before youād said them, like releasing a knot, and he gently placed your right hand in his left. His fingers were calloused from years of guitar playing, but the feeling of them was comforting and warm as he brought your hand up to his mouth and pressed a soft kiss to the inside of your wrist, holding your eyes the whole time with his own.
āThis okay?ā His hot breath against your skin sent a jolt up your spine.
āYes,ā you managed to whisper in response, nodding ever so slightly. Anxiety had curdled in the pit of your stomach now, though you couldnāt discern whether it was for the experience of the incoming kiss, who was going to be kissing you, or that niggling fear that stayed poised in the back of your mind at all times.
Eddieās face was closer to yours now than you could ever recall it having been before, the expanse of his deep brown eyes threatening to consume you as the pair of you sat a moment, waiting. Up close you could see the faintest shadow of stubble that had begun growing across his jaw and upper lip, could see the pearly sheen of a scar just above his right eyebrow.
Impossibly, you thought, he shifted closer to you again and allowed you a moment to manoeuvre your legs up and over his so your two bodies overlapped.
āAnd this?ā You were shaking, you knew there was no hiding it with your legs on his.
āSāokayā.
Tentative, respectful fingers worked their way to the back of your head, threading through your hair, his other hand working to gently tilt your face up by your chin. There was a tenderness to his hands, to everything. You felt his nose just slightly ghost against the corner of your cheekbone right before he dipped and pressed his mouth to yours- softly first, like a caress.
It was Eddie that pulled away first, just slightly so he could look at you. The air between you was thrumming.
āAgain?ā Eddieās voice came out gravelly, his hands still on you. You softly brushed some curls of dark hair away from his face and gave a nod
The second kiss came unrestrained, but still tender. You felt as though he was pulling you underwater, languid and a bit giddy, the sensation enough to almost make you giggle.
Your mouths moved in perfect tandem, fluidity taking over. For every time your nerves gut punched you, Eddie was there, fingers woven through your hair, brushing across your cheek, down your neck- not to arouse, but to reassure.
When heād kissed you to the point of near breathlessness, you let your fingers snake their way down to his waist, dipping under the hem of his shirt to touch the soft trail of hair that disappeared under his pa-
āHey, hey, hey,ā he took both your hands in his, bringing them up to his mouth to kiss softly while he looked at you. āBaby stepsā.
āYeah,ā you gulped in a breath, shaking your hair away from your face. You felt hotter than ever, like heād trapped you in a steam room. āYeah okayā.
As the energy from the kissing began to dissipate, melting away like a wave crashed to the shore, Eddie pulled you in against him, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. He took his copy of The Lord of the Rings back in his hand, once again slipping the pick from where it kept your page, and beginning to read to you again.
He read for what felt like a lifetime, the low hum of his voice in his chest soothing you near to sleep before you finally spoke and broke the trance you were both seemingly in.
āKiss me again? Later?ā
āCourse baby. Wouldnāt do the whole āexposure therapyā thing any good if it was a one and done deal would it?ā
Baby. That was new.
He began caressing the length of your back, up and down, up and down, up and down, light strokes until you were almost drifting off against him again, a heaviness to your limbs and your eyes that you hadnāt comfortably felt around another person in months. Sleep claimed you, swift and unsuspecting, slowly first and then all at once as Eddie held you.
He was still sitting with you, asleep now himself, book spread open across your back when you awoke hours later in the quiet calm of the van, darkness enveloping the scene.
āEddie?ā
He stirred, pushing his long hair back away from his face and rubbing at his dark eyes, looking around in mild confusion before his gaze finally settled down on you.
āHmm?ā
āThank you for the kiss,ā you mumbled. You were still half asleep yourself, grogginess threatening to pull you under again before the words finished escaping, āWas a good kiss. Great kiss even, reallyā.
A hint of amusement played across his lips, his eyes already shut again and his head dipped back against the couch back.
āTell me ābout it later. In the morningā
You would.
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