I'm 21 now... my mom told me not to be too sad today

26.06.23

I'm lost, I'm pointless, I'm sightless, I'm scared and in hiding, I'm avoiding loved ones cause their questions make me uncomfortable, I'm without answers for them, I'm sleepless, I'm useless, I'm ill, I'm disappointing my mother and letting myself down, I'm a hypocrite and I'm frustrated and I'm angry and I fucking hate myself for the way I am, I'm feeling like not being anymore again

21.06.23

yo, couldn't sleep and now I'm low-key suicidal. I'm so tired and fucking scared. Shit feels empty and pointless once again. I'm scared of making bad decisions, fucking up my life and disappointing my mom

17.08.22

I feel like I can't ever feel actual hapiness again, because there will always be someting at the back of my mind or in the pit of my stomach, telling me - it is not real-, as if saying - don't you remember you're still sad -

09.10.21

I fear it might be getting bad again

02.10.21

I wish I was already dead. I wish I killed myself years ago.

31.08.21

This is a nightmare. I'm in hell right now. I wish I could cry, but I'm in a small room full of people a lot more competent than me. I still have 2h before I can leave. And my phone is almost dead.

When I get tired, tired like this, I loose hope for the rest of my life, I am never going to feel better again. All of this is in vain and I wish I could cry.

24.08.21

I'm not well, and it feels like that's never going to change

26.07.21

Why do I feel anxious?? I literally have zero reason to feel anxiety right now. Nothing is going on, yet I feel like throwing up.

10.07.21

I think I might be going through something right now.

07.07.21

Got rejected by the collage I wanted to go to. For some reason it feels like I’m letting down everyone who ever knew me. Like I’ve been lying to them and now they’re finally going to find out the truth.

02.07.21

I don't know what I am doing and I am terrified.

01.07.21

19 now, don't know how to feel.

26.06.21

I can't believe I felt good for six whole months and now I'm back here

In the mood to watch 'Bo Burnham: Inside' and then kill myself after that. Anyone wanna join in?

08.06.21

I don't feel like taking care of myself again. It's all so pointless, everything already gone to shit, it's irreparable. I'm so tired of struggling against myself day in and day out.

17.05.21