I have to be honest here: when Aloysius asked me to write a piece to be featured on his blog, I was a little nervous. I stopped writing years ago, and even then, I was only ever moved to do so when I was so fed up or “raging with passion” about something that I dug the hell out of a keyboard.
And then came the golden question: what do I write about? My dwindling love life, my two years in the already-exhausting workforce, or trying to hold my life together by a single damn string thinner than the end of my eyebrows? And then I decided: fucking all of it.
So, here are some of my truths and some of my revelations, as I write them from my father’s childhood home in Haiti.
Career
Being a Black Woman in a Predominantly White Workplace
Why is it that whenever a Black woman who is in a position of influence makes (professional) decisions - popular or unpopular - that are rooted in merit and morality, instead of succumbing to workplace politics and bullying, that she is all of the sudden “unapproachable” or “difficult”? Or both?
I’ve had this conversation with many of my Black women friends - young and old. The first consensus is that we all experience this at some point and sometimes throughout our careers. The second consensus: it is exhausting and frustrating and it impedes us from doing our work with excitement although we continue to do it with confidence.
As much as I’d love to offer a solution, I really don’t have one but I do have a few thoughts.
Tolerating this sort of behavior in the workplace is detrimental to our efforts as professionals and to our morale as human beings. Yes, Suzanne, we’re human beings - just like you.
I support the creation and existence of Black-owned and predominantly Black spaces, but I also acknowledge that these spaces don’t (realistically) reflect the demographics of the general workforce.
Fleeing to predominantly Black spaces doesn’t necessarily eliminate the problem, nor does it offer an appropriate strategy for addressing this issue.
Love and Romance
Reciprocity/Unrequited Love
Reciprocity is important - not in the tit-for-tat sense of gift exchange and acts of service, but in the sense that in any romantic relationship, love, care, attention and commitment should be reciprocated.
One reality is that most of us know two things: 1) when our love is not being reciprocated and 2) when our love STOPS being reciprocated.
Another reality is that some of us continue to invest in the relationship in the hopes that - one day - our prospective romantic partner will suddenly realize “how special [we] are” and seize the opportunity to love us blind and mute, despite the reality that they continuously devalue us daily by allowing us to wear our hearts on their sleeves while they wear theirs on their genitals. (*deep breath*)
I can admit that, in the past, I’ve put a prospective romantic partner on such a high pedestal that I’ve completely ignored the fact that I felt and KNEW that my love was not being reciprocated. I can also admit that I’ve also been on the other side of the coin and that I’ve taken advantage of someone’s love without reciprocating it; I am not proud of it. In either case, I continue to ask God for clarity.
Emotionally-Unavailable Partners
In my very young and naïve days, I co-wrote an article titled, “How to Love a Man who Doesn’t Know How To Be Loved”. It was an overly-ambitious attempt to give life to a false understanding of what I THOUGHT was one of the pitfalls of my “situationship.” (Key word: situationship. Bitch, I done grown.) Our downfall had nothing to do with his emotional availability and I hope to truly make amends with this person one day. Anyway…
The fact that I was even capable of producing a piece like this speaks to the diseased “pick me” mindset that I was riddled with and that we demonstrate when we pursue emotionally-unavailable partners.
Potential
Some lovers keep us paralyzed with the very unoriginal idea of “potential” - both perceived and promised.
The potential of true romance: I call this “layaway love”. It’s the idea that: 1) our lover promises us a future (e.g. marriage, a family) without any commitment in the present (e.g. exclusivity, titles); we dwell on these promises and fail to realize that we are being led on. And 2) that we perceive our lover as having the potential to be a great romantic partner and caretaker because of scattered romantic gestures that serve as a glimmer of hope when they aren’t otherwise being a complete terror in our lives.
The potential of stability: I think that, all too often, women - especially professional Black women - fall into the trap of sticking around because “he has ‘potential’.” And all too often, we get flack for overlooking someone with “potential” for someone who is already established as if we don’t have the liberty to date men who are already established.
In either case, “potential” can sometimes keep us in stagnant and unfulfilling relationships and situationships that we have no damn business being in.
At the root of all of this tolerance, is the perception that you can’t do better. And you can. You always can.
Finances
As a lifelong medical patient, former student and now a severely indebted post-grad, my relationship with money has always been more like an anxiety-filled acquaintanceship. Up until about a year ago, opening up a bill - especially a medical bill - used to give me anxiety.
I am now at a point where I feel like I’m in control of my finances even though I have a massive heap of student loans and I continue to have medical expenses. There are three systems that I now swear by: auto-pay, scheduled payments and payment plans. These systems take the anxiety out of the process by somewhat removing me from it and allow me to comfortably live with the understanding that I cannot afford to pay it all at once and that’s fucking okay.
I am learning about financial literacy at my own pace and remain steadfast in my sentiment that nothing is wrong with living modestly.
(Also, checking your credit score. I was scared for years to check my credit score. I finally checked it about two months ago, and holy guacamole, does it look good!)
Health and Lifestyle:
Stress: Stress ages you; it robs you of your joy and peace of mind and it can fucking kill you.
Some people in your life are living and breathing stressors. I’ve learned that, when dealing with these people, you can be sympathetic; you can be empathetic, but you cannot carry everyone’s load and you cannot be everyone’s savior. Eliminating stress can sometimes mean ending your relationship with these people. That is okay.
If your job brings you insurmountable amounts of stress, but is unfulfilling, unrewarding, and you don’t feel appreciated, leave as soon as you have the means to. Come up with an exit plan with a solid deadline and take your talents elsewhere.
Meditate, surround yourself with people you love and who love you and visit places and do things that bring you joy.
Health: My father always says, “In life, two things are certain: aging and death.” In a sense, you are only responsible for the life you lead and the condition in which you meet your demise. Take this to mean whatever you want.
At 25, I realize that while many things were and still are out of my control, I’ve missed multiple opportunities to be the healthiest I can be. I am taking small steps to ensure that I live a STRONG life, regardless of whether or not it’s a LONG life.
Newark City Learning Collaborative is “building Newark’s college-going culture”. Please encourage high school seniors to email [email protected] for information about the college and financial aid application process!
Hi, there! I have a big exam next month and decided to create an exam study kit to organize and increase my productivity. I hope this exam study pack help your final exam. Good luck with your exam, everyone! We can do it!
Exam Study Pack Including
Final Exam Schedule
Final Exam Time Schedule (week)
Weekly Study planner
Monthly Style Study planner
Essay Planner
Glossary (definitions & terms)
Note
Click HERE to download the printable (PDF). Please save the file to your computer and open with Adobe Reader DC. Use Adobe Reader, otherwise, it will not work correctly and colors may display completely different. Please let me know if you are having trouble downloading the file.
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By the way, I decided to post a new printable item each week (every Saturday). Tomorrow I will post “Free Printable Thanksgiving 2018 Wine Labels” including using a Japanese pattern. So please come back to my blog tomorrow!
I have to be honest here: when Aloysius asked me to write a piece to be featured on his blog, I was a little nervous. I stopped writing years ago, and even then, I was only ever moved to do so when I was so fed up or “raging with passion” about something that I dug the hell out of a keyboard.
And then came the golden question: what do I write about? My dwindling love life, my two years in the already-exhausting workforce, or trying to hold my life together by a single damn string thinner than the end of my eyebrows? And then I decided: fucking all of it.
So, here are some of my truths and some of my revelations, as I write them from my father’s childhood home in Haiti.
Career
Being a Black Woman in a Predominantly White Workplace
Why is it that whenever a Black woman who is in a position of influence makes (professional) decisions - popular or unpopular - that are rooted in merit and morality, instead of succumbing to workplace politics and bullying, that she is all of the sudden “unapproachable” or “difficult”? Or both?
I’ve had this conversation with many of my Black women friends - young and old. The first consensus is that we all experience this at some point and sometimes throughout our careers. The second consensus: it is exhausting and frustrating and it impedes us from doing our work with excitement although we continue to do it with confidence.
As much as I’d love to offer a solution, I really don’t have one but I do have a few thoughts.
Tolerating this sort of behavior in the workplace is detrimental to our efforts as professionals and to our morale as human beings. Yes, Suzanne, we’re human beings - just like you.
I support the creation and existence of Black-owned and predominantly Black spaces, but I also acknowledge that these spaces don’t (realistically) reflect the demographics of the general workforce.
Fleeing to predominantly Black spaces doesn’t necessarily eliminate the problem, nor does it offer an appropriate strategy for addressing this issue.
Love and Romance
Reciprocity/Unrequited Love
Reciprocity is important - not in the tit-for-tat sense of gift exchange and acts of service, but in the sense that in any romantic relationship, love, care, attention and commitment should be reciprocated.
One reality is that most of us know two things: 1) when our love is not being reciprocated and 2) when our love STOPS being reciprocated.
Another reality is that some of us continue to invest in the relationship in the hopes that - one day - our prospective romantic partner will suddenly realize “how special [we] are” and seize the opportunity to love us blind and mute, despite the reality that they continuously devalue us daily by allowing us to wear our hearts on their sleeves while they wear theirs on their genitals. (*deep breath*)
I can admit that, in the past, I’ve put a prospective romantic partner on such a high pedestal that I’ve completely ignored the fact that I felt and KNEW that my love was not being reciprocated. I can also admit that I’ve also been on the other side of the coin and that I’ve taken advantage of someone’s love without reciprocating it; I am not proud of it. In either case, I continue to ask God for clarity.
Emotionally-Unavailable Partners
In my very young and naïve days, I co-wrote an article titled, “How to Love a Man who Doesn’t Know How To Be Loved”. It was an overly-ambitious attempt to give life to a false understanding of what I THOUGHT was one of the pitfalls of my “situationship.” (Key word: situationship. Bitch, I done grown.) Our downfall had nothing to do with his emotional availability and I hope to truly make amends with this person one day. Anyway...
The fact that I was even capable of producing a piece like this speaks to the diseased “pick me” mindset that I was riddled with and that we demonstrate when we pursue emotionally-unavailable partners.
Potential
Some lovers keep us paralyzed with the very unoriginal idea of “potential” - both perceived and promised.
The potential of true romance: I call this “layaway love”. It’s the idea that: 1) our lover promises us a future (e.g. marriage, a family) without any commitment in the present (e.g. exclusivity, titles); we dwell on these promises and fail to realize that we are being led on. And 2) that we perceive our lover as having the potential to be a great romantic partner and caretaker because of scattered romantic gestures that serve as a glimmer of hope when they aren’t otherwise being a complete terror in our lives.
The potential of stability: I think that, all too often, women - especially professional Black women - fall into the trap of sticking around because “he has ‘potential’.” And all too often, we get flack for overlooking someone with “potential” for someone who is already established as if we don’t have the liberty to date men who are already established.
In either case, “potential” can sometimes keep us in stagnant and unfulfilling relationships and situationships that we have no damn business being in.
At the root of all of this tolerance, is the perception that you can’t do better. And you can. You always can.
Finances
As a lifelong medical patient, former student and now a severely indebted post-grad, my relationship with money has always been more like an anxiety-filled acquaintanceship. Up until about a year ago, opening up a bill - especially a medical bill - used to give me anxiety.
I am now at a point where I feel like I’m in control of my finances even though I have a massive heap of student loans and I continue to have medical expenses. There are three systems that I now swear by: auto-pay, scheduled payments and payment plans. These systems take the anxiety out of the process by somewhat removing me from it and allow me to comfortably live with the understanding that I cannot afford to pay it all at once and that’s fucking okay.
I am learning about financial literacy at my own pace and remain steadfast in my sentiment that nothing is wrong with living modestly.
(Also, checking your credit score. I was scared for years to check my credit score. I finally checked it about two months ago, and holy guacamole, does it look good!)
Health and Lifestyle:
Stress: Stress ages you; it robs you of your joy and peace of mind and it can fucking kill you.
Some people in your life are living and breathing stressors. I’ve learned that, when dealing with these people, you can be sympathetic; you can be empathetic, but you cannot carry everyone’s load and you cannot be everyone’s savior. Eliminating stress can sometimes mean ending your relationship with these people. That is okay.
If your job brings you insurmountable amounts of stress, but is unfulfilling, unrewarding, and you don’t feel appreciated, leave as soon as you have the means to. Come up with an exit plan with a solid deadline and take your talents elsewhere.
Meditate, surround yourself with people you love and who love you and visit places and do things that bring you joy.
Health: My father always says, “In life, two things are certain: aging and death.” In a sense, you are only responsible for the life you lead and the condition in which you meet your demise. Take this to mean whatever you want.
At 25, I realize that while many things were and still are out of my control, I’ve missed multiple opportunities to be the healthiest I can be. I am taking small steps to ensure that I live a STRONG life, regardless of whether or not it’s a LONG life.
Barnes and Nobles is gonna start serving food and alcohol.
Everybody’s cracking jokes about how it’s a desperate attempt to stay relevant in the age of Amazon.
But you know what? Props to them. This is exactly what Blockbuster didn’t do. At no point was Blockbuster like “Hey, movie rentals aren’t the lucrative enterprise they once were. Perhaps it’s time we become known for our cheesy garlic bread.”
Are you a woman of color who needs money for college or grad school?
Here are 100 scholarships to choose from:
Unless otherwise stated, all minority scholarships are applicable to women from underserved ethnic groups, including African Americans, Hispanics, Native Americans and Asians.
Arts Scholarships
Girls* Who Illustrate Awesomeness Scholarship
Apply here.
Blanche E. Coleman Foundation Scholarship
For more information contact the foundation using this information.
National Society of Arts and Letters Scholarships
Apply here.
Bev Sellers Scholarship
Learn more here.
BMI Foundation: John Lennon Scholarship
Apply here.
Worldstudio Foundation AIGA Scholarship
Apply here.
Women in Film Foundation Scholarship
Learn more here.
Education Scholarships
Nancy Larson Foundation College Scholarship
Apply here.
Minority Doctoral Loan For Service
Apply here.
National Academy of Education Spencer Dissertation Fellows
Apply here.
STEM Scholarships
Mickey Leland Energy Fellowship
Apply here.
Software Testing Scholarship
Apply here.
ASM Undergraduate Research Fellowship
Apply here.
Dr. Nancy Foster Scholarship
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AWG Minority Scholarship
Apply here.
National Institutes of Health Undergraduate Scholarship Program
Apply here.
Stan Beck Fellowship
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APS Minority Scholarship
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AICPA Minority Accounting Students Scholarships
Apply here.
Mae & Mary Scholarship
Learn more here.
The Generation Google Scholarship
Apply here.
Microsoft Minority Scholarship
Learn more.
Charles Shelton Veterinary Medicine/Technology Scholarship
Apply here.
Brown and Caldwell Minority Scholarship
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Surety & Fidelity Industry Intern and Scholarship Program
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¡Adelante! Fund Scholarships
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Elliott C. Roberts Scholarship
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P.L.A.Y. Scholarship
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Society of Hispanic Professional Engineers Scholarships
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Gates Millennium Scholars Program
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National Medical Fellowship Scholarships Program
Apply here.
SanDisk Scholars Fund
Apply here.
Hispanic Scholarship Fund
Apply here.
General Merit Scholarships
Udall Undergraduate Scholarships
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Fulbright Scholars Program
Learn more here.
Courage to Grow Scholarship
Apply here.
BUICK Achievers Scholarships
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Coca-Cola Scholars
Apply here.
Xerox Technical Minority Scholarship
Apply here.
Burger King Scholars
Apply here.
Roothbert Fund Scholarship
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Liberty Mutual Scholarships
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State Farm Good Neighbor Scholarship
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LPGA Foundation Scholarship
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NCAA Minority and Women’s Enhancement Graduate Scholarship
Apply here.
Discover Student Loans Scholarship
Apply here.
Scholarship America Dream Award
Apply here.
AXA Achievement Community Award
Apply here.
Catharine Lealtad Scholarships
More info here.
Marine Corps Scholarships
Apply here.
La Unidad Latina Foundation Scholarships
Apply here.
Jack Kent Cooke Foundation Scholarships
Learn more here.
GE – Reagan Foundation Scholarship
Learn more here.
Fundación Kinesis Scholarships
Learn more here.
Jackie Robinson Foundation Scholarship
Apply here.
National Association for the Advancement of Colored People
Apply here.
Ronald McDonald House Charities African American Future Achievers
Apply here.
The Paul & Daisy Soros Fellowships for New Americans
Apply here.
Omega Phi Beta – Reach for the Gold Scholarships
Apply here.
Questbridge Scholarship
Learn more here.
Ron Brown Scholar Program
Apply here.
United Negro College Fund
Learn more here.
DAR American Indian Scholarship
Learn more here.
Frances Crawford Marvin American Indian Scholarship
Learn more here.
Business Scholarships
American Bus Association Diversity Scholarship
Apply here.
FormSwift Scholarship
Apply here.
17oxen Digital Marketing Scholarship
Apply here.
Les Dames d’Escoffier International Scholarship
Apply here.
AICPA Minority Accounting Students Scholarships
Apply here.
Morgan Stanley Richard B. Fisher Scholarship Program
Apply here.
National Society of Hispanic MBAs Scholarship Program
Apply here.
Herman J. Neal Scholarship
Apply here.
HACU Scholarships
Apply here.
National Black MBA Association Scholarships
Apply here.
Surety & Fidelity Industry Intern and Scholarship Program
Apply here.
The Hyatt Hotels Fund for Minority Lodging Management Students
Apply here.
Minorities in Hospitality Scholars Program
Learn more here.
RICOH Scholarship Program
Learn more here.
Consortium for Graduate Study in Management
Learn more here.
Social Science Scholarships
ASA Minority Fellowship Program
Apply here.
Ronald E. McNair Scholars Program
Apply here.
Harry S. Truman Scholarship
Amount: $30,000 | Application Deadline: February
Apply here.
American Library Association Spectrum Scholarship
Apply here.
Fellowship on Women and Public Policy
Amount: $31,000 | Application Deadline: September
Apply here.
Jennings Randolph Peace Scholarship Dissertation Program
Amount: $20,000 | Application Deadline: November
Apply here.
Judith McManus Price Scholarship
Apply here.
Thomas R. Pickering Undergraduate & Graduate Foreign Affairs Fellowship
Amount: Up to $37,500 | Application Deadline: December
Apply here.
Martin Luther King, Jr. Scholarship Award
Learn more here.
Congressional Hispanic Caucus Institute Scholarship
Learn more here.
Law Scholarships
American Bar Association Jeanne P. Gray Diversity Scholarship
Learn more here.
Backfire & Backfire, P.C. Law School Diversity Scholarship
Apply here.
NALP Diversity Scholarships
Amount: Up to $30,000| Application Deadline: Varies
here.
Sidney B. Williams Scholarship
Apply here.
Communications Scholarships
The Jacqueline Woodson Fellowship for a Young People’s Writer of African or Caribbean Descent
Learn more here.
Proofreading.com Scholarship
Apply here.
The LAGRANT Foundation Scholarships
Apply here.
Leonard M. Perryman Communications Scholarship for Racial Ethnic Minority Students
Apply here.
National Press Club Scholarship for Journalism Diversity
Apply here.
Chips Quinn Scholars Program
Apply here.
Allison E. Fisher Scholarship
Apply here.
Emma Bowen Foundation Fellowship
Learn more here.
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The list with more art scholarships – here: http://www.scholarshipsforwomen.net/art/
I’m so happy more opportunities are coming up! Scholarships are in effect a gift of free cash. Free cash is very popular in every society and nation. So the applicant and recipient of scholarship money has worked very hard and has much to offer our society and is a deserved winner. It is still a free cash gift… GET IT!
These presentations shows you how to write a winner scholarship: