I'm stepping out of my antidepressants (sertraline/zoloft) and have just hit a full week on the lowered dose, and I am Feeling Things again. The thing about SSRIs is that they help with the dark emotions, but they also take away many of the other ones, or take the clarity off them and make them blurry... the whole point is that the brain no longer has to struggle with regulating its emotions on its own.

Long story short, just spent an hour weeping about my childhood experience as a lonely, vulnerable autistic kid. And that's okay. That's normal. That's allowed. Withdrawals from SSRIs and other neuro meds are a real thing and can manifest in different ways, and it's okay to have them.

How many people experience "brain zaps" from antidepressant withdrawals?

June 7, 2022

I think lowering the zoloft has made me angry which I quite enjoy (really helps with motivation and my avoidance tendencies) though I'm still learning how to manage it. Apparently it's a uncommon side effect

Lethargic is also what I would describe being on meds. I think especially as females we are conditioned to be quiet, do as we are told and have minimal feelings because we are already told we are dramatic or too emotional. Meds made this so much easier but it leaves you rather empty.

Another quote from the article " Often it's a sign that the SSRI was really covering up a preexisting emotional issue that got worse over time. Whether my rage fits result purely from SSRI cessation or something more innate, I know my desire to form caring relationships is bigger than them"

What is life without passion?

my possibly unpopular opinions on therapy/psychiatry

- Just like suffering is not inherent to womanhood, suffering is not inherent to humans. Just like it is not okay to just expect that women will be subjected to suffering, it is not okay to expect that it will happen to anyone and it's just the way things are.

- Therapy is not inherently wrong for trying to alleviate the suffering, but I fail to see the doctors acknowledging the fact that the suffering is a collectively shared experience, and suffering is caused by someone. Moreover it is the whole point of therapy to focus on just yourself, "take responsibility"(for the harm that was done to you?) and seeing what you can make do. Basically because again, doctors cant really tell their patients to go overthrow the gvt or divorce their shitty husbands. Thus endless copium instead of, yknow... something actually meaningful.

- Antidepressants arent inherently bad but they cant cure you. They are just psychoactive drugs. Caffeine, tobacco, cocaine, they all are psychoactive in one way or another, and your brain doesnt really care if the substance is legal, illegal or prescribed. It modifies the symptoms but it cannot actually cure you. Or something. If you struggle with depression/anxiety related issues, I would highly recommend that you try to look for a way to alleviate them that is not just you popping pills for 10 years in a row.

- Our society is purposefully built to fuck us up. Just like "dyslexia" is not a thing in societies that dont have a writing system, "ADHD" or "depression" or "anxiety" are non-syndromes, they show only in very specific circumstances. It is possible to reform the world so that it doesnt force suffering and disabilities onto people.

- Psychoactive drugs that actively alter people's neurochemistry and may lead to both psychological and physical dependency are catastrophically overprescribed and one day the big pharma will be held accountable for their crimes lol

- I repeat that I do not oppose psychiatric medicines as a concept. Psychiatric disorders fuck people up, I know it personally. BUT. Sorry but there is a difference between a socially-induced disorder like anxiety, and a disorder of a purely biological genesis like bipolar mania or schizophrenia. I dont think depression or anxiety are easy. But consider what, someone suffering from delusions in mania cannot CBT their delusions away, they basically have to be on meds. MAYBE think really hard of the pros and cons here. You are lucky to have a relatively healthy brain, dont wash it down the drain.

- Medicalization and profiting off of any suffering is highly concerning. The transgender pharma will also pay for their crime of persuading (otherwise healthy) people that they cannot exist and will literally kill themselves without unnecessary medications and surgeries.

- If you have agreed on me on the previous points but my opinion on transness triggered you, consider unbrainwashing yourself? Idk? Can't you put 2 and 2 together? These are literally the same kind of phenomena.

- I say it all as someone who has been on antidepressants for a long time, and also who knows many people who were on antidepressants for a long time. I've seen both huge benefits and huge debilitating side effects.

As a matter of fact I am also completely normal and can be trusted w

ok can you imagine though if trucy was put in any serious danger in aa4. like phoenix spends the whole game wearing different flavors of his poker face, ranging from "i don't care about anything" to "i know something you don't know". can you imagine him just completely dropping that mask he's been wearing for seven years even as he tries to remain in control—he didn't get through those years by relying on others, you know—but he's physically incapable of staying calm. this is the man who charged across a flaming bridge fifty feet above a raging river to try to help a girl that he promised he'd never give up on. the man who's there for anyone who has nobody else to turn to. who talked to a girl for only five minutes before she lost everything and immediately promised her that she'd never lose him. he might have matured in some ways over the years but he's still that emotional man who will move heaven and earth for anyone in need of help. the only difference is that now, trucy is his daughter—entirely dependent on him—and his light

girl revisits music she loved in middle school. 47 dead 238 wounded

There’s a Clexa discord? I miss writing clexa, I haven’t written anything for a while, basically since i finished the draft of my clexa inspired novel

Hope you’re doing well, i think you’re awesome and zoloft is anti depressant? I know that withdrawal feeling (while changing medication still on them) today is just over 11 years on them so the brain gremlins are hitting hard

There was, but you'd have to ask someone who is on it if it's active.

Zoloft is prescribed for depression/anxiety, but for me all it's really done is flatten how I experience things. No highs, no swings, just a constant, comfortable low that I'm sick of.

And from what I've learned today, I should have had a longer period of being weaned off it, to avoid the withdrawal symptoms.

FYI if you're on it. Be gentle with yourself.

bad news girls i’ve been off my 100mg of zoloft for a few days and just got back on it and feel like hell

mob psycho yuppie psycho crossover call that

crossover psycho

ARE we resuming the hypomanic episode

I forgot to refill my antidepressants before the pharmacy decided to be closed for too long and now I WANT my MF sertraline 😭😭😭😭😭

u kno when ur withdrawing from ur ssris and your brain does this

Jun 3, 2022.

For some reason i decided now was a good time to start tapering from zoloft (been on it like 4 years??) And realizing I don't think any kind of pill can truly cure me into being something I'm not. No pill changes personality

October 2021. i lost my grandma. this was hard. it was the first close family death for me.

January 2022. i fell down my stairs and injured my spine.

February 2022. i started pain medicine and physical therapy.

March 2022. the pain was excruciating. medicine and physical therapy weren’t helping. so i had to take a leave from work. i had a spinal injection, which also didn’t help.

May 2022. i had spinal surgery.

June 2022. i had my one month follow up with my surgeon, and lost my job and insurance. my anxiety grew.

July 2022. i got engaged. i applied for state insurance so i could follow up with a surgeon again and start post surgery physical therapy.

September 2022. i finally got state insurance, saw a new primary care physician, and was prescribed zoloft for my increased anxiety and depression due to the events that had unfolded.

October 2022. i started physical therapy. we celebrated my grandmas one year. then our family dog passed away from cancer.

November 2022. i decided to stop zoloft because i didn’t like the way it made me feel. it’s been 9 days since stopping and it’s unlike anything i could have ever imagined. the withdrawal symptoms are really bad for me. i’m having panic attacks. i’m breaking down at random times. my insecurities are chipping away at my confidence. i feel like i’m fighting a never ending battle with my demons. but i know i can get through this. i have to. i refuse to let this tear me down. this has to get better.

my sex drive is coming back, but at what cost?

my psychiatrist asked me if I wanted to change antidepressants but I would have to be taken off zoloft which would be An Ordeal. and while im obviously still very depressed, it's probably helping a little and I don't have side effects. but also maybe there's smth more helpful. idk. I'm also afraid that any new medication won't be covered by my insurance 😮‍💨