hey so if tumblr staff could fix their fucking app so it doesnt freeze my entire phone and make it so i have to restart it just for scrolling for 2 seconds that would be fucking lovely

forgive the brief jesus chris superstar rant but. there is a very important difference between the pharisees being villains and the pharisees being antagonists. they're technically antagonists because they're actively working against the interests of our protagonist, but i don't believe they should ever be played as villains. they're not evil or bad or wrong. they're terrified just like literally everyone else in the show is, and their actions are completely justified. to me that's the entire point of the musical. it's not about christianity; it's about the impact the roman empire's brutal and violent imperialism had on everyone on all levels. including jesus and judas, but also including the pharisees, and even herod and pilate. when a powerful coloniser forces their presence on innocent people they are the only winners. everyone else suffers, even the puppet kings and high priests who look like they're reaping some sort of benefit from it all. that's roman propaganda. the romans kept native rulers like herod and caiaphas in power to maintain the illusion of provincial autonomy, and keep populations appeased and therefore under control. everyone in the show is acting out of fear of the romans. the one roman character we do see (pilate) is acting out of fear of his own emperor. it makes no sense to cast the pharisees as two dimensional Bad Guys, especially when the same productions that do that usually offer a sympathetic portrayal of pilate. it would be so easy to stage and direct a production in a way that makes it obvious that the pharisees are doing what they're doing because they truly have no choice, and not because they're pure evil and want to kill jesus for the sake of it. it's not only an antisemitic trope but also undermines a really important theme of the musical. if you can see the humanity in the violent roman governor installed forcefully on conquered land then you can afford some humanity for the pharisees too. they are victims of pilate and victims of rome just like everyone else

ur supposed to get one period a month yea? not me. i'm periodmaxing. we're on the fourth month of the year and guess how many periods i've had. brother, we are solidly on no. 7

how do you feel about the new tf2 leaks?

Oh it big sucks!

listen, this leak honestly makes me so mad im not even joking. not because of like, leaks like this cause so much trouble for the developers who own them (in how to combat it), or for the source licencees who are affected by the leak, but WHO it affects in this community.

say you've been working a beta recreation of 2Fort from Trailer 2 (since it's the version with the most footage), you've been working on it in your spare time for the past... 6 years lets say. you know the ins and outs of this map, you've watched footage and studied screenshots from around August 2006, and you've made an intense list of all the eras of 2Fort to ensure you have a timeline of eras so you know which to avoid and such.

so your beta 2Fort recreation is as accurate it can be from all the public media you could find from it. you've even gotten the sewers to be as low as they were in the beta combined with the higher water. there's some things left to your interpretation of the map, since the sewers have never been shown for example, and you push it out for people to play around on. this was basically your hobby for the past 6 years, and it meant so much to you to be able to create something with a love you can't put to words.

suddenly. the worst thing imaginable. a month after you post it? an entire developer repo leaks. and lets pretend it's got that version of 2Fort intact. that's a serious gut punch BUT, then you get comments from folks like "oh the actual 2fort leaked" "this is obsolete now" "oh well a recreation couldn't ever top a leak". it's demoralizing. it breaks their spirit for something they worked so hard on. the one thing you loved working on? well seemingly it doesn't matter now to the community you painstakingly made it for.

that's what hurts for me, is the people who've created content based off of things from TF2 (like the Spellcasters Witch), whom have made it from scratch, added their own personal touches like different outfits and hairstyles, to the ability to allow the user to recolour every part of that outfit. then a leak comes along and it seems everyone's ferally knashing their teeth at this leak. no leak can ever come close to the kind of love community members put into stuff.

that's why i hate this leak. and even with the 60 gigabytes of stuff that's leaked? people are still like "oh well this doesn't have everything 🙄". like sorry 60GB wasn't enough for you?

i hope we never see a TF2 leak again. this shit sucks and i hate the community around it.

I am so incredibly pro union and pro strike and also on the other hand I think that if hundreds of pharmacies around the country stop dispensing people their medications indefinitely, people are going to have preventable major medical emergencies. I've already seen two posts like 'disabled people stock up on your meds!' like you can just do that with prescription meds?? I think maybe if you've never been on a medication that you're only supplied with less than a week's worth of at a time you should be quiet and not talk about 'stockpiling'

obnoxious professor that I've had before and never liked told me (somewhat passive aggressively but thats justified) that my attendance thru out this semester was a huge issue and I was like. yeah thats real and I gave a very sincere and honest apology, explained myself without making excuses, and expressed that I meant no disrespect to him and thanked him profusely for his help after id been kind of a shit. mind you this interaction was only after I had to email him a second time because he ignored my first email for half a week. and now he's ignoring me again and not replying even though I had time sensitive questions about the work in my email. and like he called me a hypocrite bc I as a teacher obviously want my kids to show up but like. while again true i am a hypocrite. I did have students that struggled IMMENSELY with attendance and I had a hell of a time trying to convince them not to skip class but at least I had the presence of mind to fucking realize that if I was an ass to my chronically truant kids then they were just gonna be more likely to skip. like its just driving them away. I was always friendly w my truant kids and genuinely excited to see them in class and was as welcoming and accommodating as possible and you know what. they fucking showed up more. they trusted me enough to tell me ehat was going on or to ask me for help. like if you're just gonna fucking be bitchy with me and then ghost me repeatedly to put me in my place obviously I'm just gonna give up on trying to fix this. think for two fucking seconds. I'm a jerk but you're a dumbass

you fucking cowards

Whats a nice way to tell people that freaking out every time a massive corporation uses AI art and acting like THATS what shows they have no morals is silly.

feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

unfathomable emotions after showering

also.. i hit tag limit on this, so watch out for a very long post if you hit read more on the tags! 😨

Psa: if you get a paper round. And you have a mailbox which cannot fit your hand in. We can’t fit the paper in either! So you can: get a bigger one! Or, if you can’t afford that, perhaps don’t fucking complain when I can’t get the paper in, because it is an inch wide!!

honestly i know it sounds sleazy but if employers ask why there's a gap you can totally pull the "family emergency" card. they're not supposed to ask for specifics so they don't need to know the emergency is Seeing Hounds

hounds AND my nephew!!

Im pretty sure they only pick rec league basketball refs out of like the most insecure young men who apply. These guys fucking suck

not to get too real on this here *checks notes* personal private tumblr blog. but i'm genuinely terrified about the next thursday shift i have to work. with a full staff roster it's already hell on earth but my favorite coworker leaves next monday and another's looking for work elsewhere. and i have probable eds. and other undiagnosed health issues. that make it generally Unwise to stand on my feet for *checks notes again* ten hours in a day. so IMAGINE HOW IT WILL FEEL. WHEN [REDACTED] RESIGNS. AND THOSE TEN HOURS BECOME *checks notes again again* FIFTEEN. I'VE BEEN HERE TWO WEEKS

kitten rush is how i will die

also like my trip back to visit family sucked more or less but on the bright side my dad was. really nice for the whole thing. and while he we have a complicated relationship it made me really happy that he was so nice and supportive bc i was worried abt having to deal with him

who even give a fuck. yknow