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wisteria-lodge · 3 years

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bird secondary transitioning from badger secondary model to lion secondary model

so i’m stumped.

at this point my secondary is so burned that bookkeeper badger is the only thing i know how to fall back on, and sometimes it can be nice, but most of the time it’s exhausting. normally i just procrastinate on whatever i have to do because i’m exhausted & burnt out, and i have to force myself to just sit down and work through it because at that point i have no other options.

at the very least it’s a model i got from my dad. he’s always emphasized putting in the work on projects and things, and whenever i would push through a hard day of homework (or just any work i guess) he would tell me that i was “a real trooper” and that he was proud of me. (he’s for sure a badger secondary haha!)

Using your Badger doesn’t sound at all fun. I’ll agree with you here. Model.

i think i’m pretty good at seeing things from other people’s point of view? and i can look at situations and relate to other people, and i do like doing that to some extent.

Good lord, I hope we can all do that, otherwise what am I doing writing about people with different primaries/secondaries than me?

i also have a friend who’s a total courtier badger, and i’m simultaneously envious of how charming is and sometimes a lil creeped out by it? bc i can usually tell when she’s putting on a voice but she also makes it so convincing it sometimes leaves me feeling a little tricked and manipulated… i know she doesn’t mean it that way? but still.

So we have a focus on *authenticity* here. Could be Lion. Could also be Bird, since those are the two Solid secondaries. I don’t talk about the solid/fluid distinction much, but the idea is that Badger and Snake secondaries bounce off their environments, they are literally fluid in the sense that they become the shape of whatever glass they’re in. Solid secondaries are stable, static. You are who you are. You work on your environment, your environment doesn’t work on you.

i think a large part of it boils down to the question of whether or not i always act the same around everyone, and whether or not this bothers me/how i wish i could act.

That is definitely the question. If you act the same around everyone (or feel weird and sticky when you don’t) that’s Lion. If it’s more ‘this is the face I have designed for these people/this situation,’ that’s Bird.

i don’t act the same around everyone. there is a certain set of behaviors that i adopt around my close friends, but i have a different set of behaviors for things like class, interacting with professors, or my parents, etc etc. (like for instance, with my friends i act very bubbly/sweet/cutesy. i’m energetic and cheery, at least on a good day.

So far this sounds like Actor Bird. You’re able to list the behaviors that go with each one of these faces, and that each of these faces have a specific utility & and purpose. (Friends! Parents! Professors!)

the way i act with my close friends is probably the most “me” i get. but any one of those behavior sets is really only a facet of my personality - some of them are larger facets, or come closer to representing the whole, but i’m not sure that any one of them on its own is truly “me.” i’m not sure i am a set of behaviors.

The fact that you think of your different “behavior sets” as “facets” instead of outright lies… like you’re not talking about them in any sort of heavy or negative sort of way… is also making me think Actor Bird.

but sometimes it feels like some of my friends talk about me in a way that makes it seem like that’s the only part of me they see? and that is not all that i am, and it bothers me & makes me feel like they’re stereotyping me a little haha. maybe that’s my fault for acting that way around them so much, but i’m not sure. how i wouldn’t? changing my behavior to show the more business-y side of me i guess would feel like pushing them away.)

It sounds like your social persona needs a little calibrating… but it also sounds like you’re consciously in the process of calibrating it. That still seems very Bird to me. A Snake or Badger couldn’t go off in the corner and calibrate behavior like that, they’re too influenced by whatever happens to be in front of them. And a Lion secondary… I think a Lion secondary would say that potentially pushing away a friend is an acceptable loss.

the idea that i could always be myself is very very appealing. would i like to be able to act the same no matter what? to some extent, yeah. i would *love* to always be that comfortable and unafraid.

Okay. You like Lion secondaries. And yes, they do look cool from the outside. But you’re romanticizing them. Lion secondaries are not always comfortable and unafraid, not even close. The more scared a Lion gets, the more pressure they’re under, the more direct and more “themselves” they become

but it’s not safe or reasonable to always show the more honest/closer/internal facet that my friends get. and i’m not sure i’d want everyone to see all of it? i don’t think i owe everyone i meet every part of me.

This is not the answer of a Lion. This could be any of the other secondaries, but not a Lion.

(i guess i’d like to be able to integrate certain aspects of my friend persona into my default public persona? like maybe some of the more talkative/outgoing/bubbly parts. i’m generally more quiet in public, usually because i can’t think of things to say. i think i might be getting better at that, but i’m also not wholly there yet.)

more people have seen the way i act with my friends because of how often i’m with my friends in public now. i’m not sure whether that bothers me or not. (i think it might. a little. but not enough to change the way i act around my friends. they matter more than how other people see me.)

This entire ask is about conscious, social calibration. You’d like your friends to take you a little more seriously, and you’d like the people in the rest of your life to see as more talkative and bubby. And making that change is just… a thing that’s on the table, apparently.

(and that is is not something every secondary can do, it’s super Actor Bird. You’re literally workshopping different parts you play. Also “persona” is a word a lot of Actor birds use.)

(“I’m quiet because I can’t think of things to say” feels really Bird to me somehow.)

i used to lie a lot, but i’m working on being a more honest person, which means i’m back to being bad at lying. i think it’s stupid to try and waste your time acting in a way to please others. i used to do that when i was younger, and it got me less than no where. i basically learned that someone is going to dislike you no matter what you try, so you might as well say whatever you think. maybe you want them to like you, but they won’t. why bother?

Interesting. We’ve got more conscious social calibration going on, but what you’re describing is a shift from a more people-pleasing Badger-flavored performance (we know you model Badger, you’ve got at least two strong Badger secondaries in your orbit) into a more Lion-flavored one.

I think I could sum up what you’re written so far as “I’m an Actor Bird who used to model Badger, but I worry that the sweet cutesy side of Badger is making my friends not take my seriously, and the quiet, fade-into-the-background side of Badger is making me boring and not fun in front of authority figures. So, I’ve decided to start building a Lion model, because Lion secondaries are awesome, but it’s still a model-in-progress.)

i guess i adopted a lion persona/model as a defense mechanism. there’s still something that draws me about the sheer honesty of a lion.

Yep. Here we are.

but i might be pulling that model more from anger/bitterness/hurt than anything else.

I’m truly not getting much anger/bitterness/hurt from your ask. If anything, you seem pretty empowered. The tone is“I don’t like the way I’m being perceived, but I’m working on changing it.” That doesn’t sound Burnt at all.

If i try to think about telling a lie or intentionally choosing to lie it just doesn’t work. people can always see right through it.

You don’t lie, you “show different facets.” You’re not an improviser. It’s hard and stressful to come up with a story, or a way to be, on the fly.

i can usually make lies work if i do it instinctively and not think about it

My guess it that when you’re “acting” it fundamentally doesn’t feel like a lie. You’re comfortable in that space, you’re used to it, so of course you’re convincing.

and i’m better at lying to people who aren’t my close friends.

Everyone is.

but if it has to be instinctive then that means i end up working lies into how i act, and start to lie more than i mean to or for no reason, and i don’t like that :(

Huh. I’m exactly not sure what to make of this, but I think it probably has something to do your Badger secondary model. I mean, you describe Badger secondary as “manipulative” and “tricky.”

so yeah. those are my thoughts. sorry for the length i guess? i’m not going to call it rambly bc i do think everything i said was important but uh. i wrote it out and then inserted more thoughts into different places so it maybe doesn’t flow as well or coherently as it did in the beginning. sorry about that ^^; hope you’re able to find something useful in all this!

((am i a bird. are you going to come out of this saying “oh haha you’re totally a bird!” bc if you do i might scream *i don’t even know what tools ARE-*))

Tools come in all kinds of shapes, my friend. What makes them tools is the way you prepare them ahead of time.

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rocketmanmadden · 5 years

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“Yes dingus, I like you back!”

So I came up with this idea of a Robin from ST fic in the middle of the night last night and I’m actually pretty happy with how it turned out! Also don’t mind the shitty title bc it’s currently the middle of the night again and I’m practically dead.

Also- Please send in more requests, list of people I write for is in my header :)

Summary- You and Robin are best friends, and she has a huge crush on you, thinking you are straight because you’ve yet to come out to her as bi. One night at a sleepover you decide to come out and admit your feelings to her that you are bi and like her, with the fear of ruining your friendship because you are unaware she likes you too.

You’re looking in the mirror applying your mascara getting ready for school.

“Today’s the day” you sigh to yourself, closing the mascara tube with a worried feeling in your stomach

The day for what? Today you and Robin are having a sleepover. That’s not unusual considering you do about every week, but this time it’s gonna be different. Tonight you’re coming out to Robin as bisexual, and she’ll be the first to know. You know she’ll be supportive for the fact she’s already out, but it’s not just that. You’re gonna express your feelings to her, let her know you like her. You have since you first met, you just never wanted to tell her and mess things up so you’ve kept this burning secret inside you.

You grab your backpack and start walking out the door as Steve’s car pulls up to your house

“Get in the car loser!” Robin yells out to you with that beautiful smile of hers

“You are always way to happy in the morning Robin. I wish I could wake up and have half the energy you have”

“I’m just excited that me and you get to hang out later and dingus isn’t invited” she sticks her tongue out at Steve, who’s driving the car

“You know I’m actually very personally hurt that I’m not invited to these weekly sleepovers” Steve says

“Mhm, sure you are” You say with a laugh

“I’m serious!” He exclaims “I would love to be able to paint my nails and do my hair and whatever else girls do at sleepovers”

“I got news for you Steve, that is not what we do at sleepovers. That’s so middle school” you tell him

“Mhm, sure you don’t” he mocks you

“Oh shut up and drive the car dingus” Robin says lightly punching him in the arm

You guys pull up to school and park the car, getting out and starting to walk to the entrance. You walk a little behind them today as you sometimes do, giving you some time to admire Robin. Everything about her was just so beautiful, the way she walked, the way her hair blew in the wind. Just every little detail makes your heart want to explode

“You good Y/N?” Steve says looking behind him at you “walking a little slow there”

Your head immediately looks up and you zone out of your thoughts, walking faster and catching up to them

“I’m all good, just kinda tired and zoning” you let him know

“Today is not the day to be tired and zoning Y/L/N” Robin says wrapping her arm around your shoulder, giving you a jokingly serious look which quickly changes to an excited one. “It’s Friday! Which means it’s our sleepover! As soon as hell’s over we have a fun night planned, wake up”

School goes by slowly, the day feeling so long. All you could keep thinking about was her arm around your shoulder, her touch, which you really hoped you would still have after you tell her everything later. You were for sure nervous, but you know Robin will make sure it’s all okay. When the last bell of the day rang you practically jumped out of your seat and ran to Steve’s car, making it there before he did.

You’re leaning on his car waiting for them when you see Steve and Robin walking up

“Did you get super speed or something over the last 7 hours?” Steve says

“You better watch out Harrington, I’m full of energy now. Like Robin said, I should be up and awake. It’s our sleepover, I’m excited! The faster I get out here the sooner it comes!” You say sounding full of excitement

“That’s the spirit!” Robin says high fiving you

Steve gets in the car, starting it and shakes his head “girls are so weird” which makes you and Robin giggle

You finally arrive at your house, and you and Robin get out of the car

“Thanks for the ride dingus!” Robin says

“Yep. Enjoy your night of makeup and painting nails and whatever else weird shit you do”

“Oh we will! Bye Steve!” You yell back to him as you open your front door and he drives away.

Robin throws her book bag down and heads straight to your fridge, welcoming herself to a snack

“I bet he thinks we do all this cool shit when in reality all we do is lay in bed, talk, watch movies, and eat.” She says popping grapes into her mouth.

“Steve always thinks into things more than he should” you laugh. “Just the way he is. At least tonight we have the house to ourselves, my parents are out of town. Not that we’ll even do anything bad” you reach over and grab a grape

“Hey, you never know. We could suddenly get very rebellious, surprise everyone.”

“Maybe we'll just have to do that tonight” You wink at her

You guys did the exact opposite. You say on the couch, ate a ton of food, and watched movies. You’re 5 movies in now and it’s about 8:30 pm, that's when you guys decide to head up to bed, and you decide you’re gonna tell her. It’s not like you’re sleeping yet anyways, you guys do this every sleepover. Just lay in bed and talk for a few hours. You’ll be alone. No movies, no distractions.

You guys lay quiet for a couple minutes, both tired from the school week, before you break the silence

“Robin?” You ask

“Yeah?” She looks over at you

“I need to talk to you about something important” you sit up and look at her so she knows you’re serious. “Really important”

“Is everything okay?” She sits up too, giving you a concerned face

“I hope it will be after I tell you this” you sigh

She gives you a nod, telling you to go on.

“Robin, I’m bisexual. I’ve known for so long now and you’re the first person I’m telling. I know you’ll be accepting of that because you’re a lesbian, but I don’t know if you’ll be accepting of the girl I like, and I could go through a whole long thing and let you try and figure out who it is but I’m not gonna waste your time like that. Robin, I like you. I love you. I have for so many months but I’ve been so scared to hurt our friendship that I hurt myself by keeping it inside.”

You can’t even explain the look on Robins face. A mix of shock, surprise, and confusion all at the same time.

“Woah” she finally replies, looking down at the bed

“Please say more than just woah Robin” you ask

She finally looks up at you and makes direct eye contact

“You’re telling me that you’ve liked me for months? And you didn’t say anything?” She asks

“I- uh- yeah I have, but I don’t understand what you’re trying to get at”

“You’re telling me you could’ve been my girlfriend this whole time now?”

“What?” You ask, confused

“Y/N Y/L/N, I have liked you since the day I first saw you, before we were even friends. I had the biggest crush on you, like the most huge crush. I mean, you haven’t noticed? I’m constantly putting my arm around you or laying my head on your shoulder. I don’t do that to just anyone. I’m so glad you came out to me now, like so so proud of you, and of course better late than never but we could’ve been dating for months!” Robin exclaims

Your face lights up, “You-you like me back?”

“Yes dingus, I like you back! I have for a long long time.”

“I can't believe this. This is crazy! If I would’ve known I would of told you so much sooner. How could I off been so stup-“ Robin cuts off your rambling by crashing her lips against yours in a passionate kiss.

“I’ve waited a long long time for that too” She smiles at you “and god your lips are even softer than what I imagined”

“It’s nice to know you imagined my lips, now I don’t feel as creepy for always wondering about yours” you giggle “that was the best kiss I’ve ever had”

“Be my girlfriend and there will be a lot more where that came from” she winks at you

“I would love to” you reply before latching your lips again onto Robins.

This night couldn’t of gone anymore perfectly. From you telling Robin, and your parents being out of town, everything just want so great. You spent the rest of the night cuddling with your new girlfriend, of course with many hot makeout sessions in between that. Talking and laughing, you couldn’t be happier. Finally your perfect night came to an end when you both were finally exhausted, both of your eyes fluttering closed and head rested on Robin’s chest, falling asleep in each other’s arms.

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corancoranthemagicalman · 3 years

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💜🌻💜🌻💜🌻💜 for the ask game:

Age: early twenties?

Pronouns/gender: I have anxiety so I actually remember your pronouns omg I think? She/her/dude oh there was one more

Zodiac sign: gemini? I'm kind of cheating bc you said your birth month in another ask but idk I'm bad at reading people

Romantic status: oh gosh I literally never think about this on Tumblr it like doesn't exist. Um you're pretty rad so...in a relationship?

Eye color: brown bc you seem warm or green but I think that's bc your icon is greenish

Hobbies: writing, drawing

Introvert/extrovert: I get extroverted introvert vibes

Fav season: uhmmm spring?

-🐧🌻

Hello, 🐧🌻!!! I forgot I even queued up this ask game!!! I don’t even remember if I was supposed to like be Secret Squirrel with saying if you were right or not so others could guess lol. Ah, well. I’ll go ahead and answer ya here!! So I guess if anyone wanted to take a gander at this before reading the answers here, come on over!!!

Answers undercut and hella rambling:

Age: correct!! I am in the early twenties lol. When I was younger, I think I gave off an older vibe than what I was because Dean Winchester-coded growing up too fast and trying to project myself as being older, but nowadays I think I act my age and I’m finally okay with that. Feeling secure in my life and experiences. Or at least getting there.

Pronouns/gender: On my bio it does say she/her/dude/boo ^^ [the about that I’ve got pinned includes “bestie” and “asshole (affectionate)” lol.] I am thee female but I don’t really care too much what ya call me. I put dude there semi-jokingly because I’ve seen some people genuinely not like being called dude, which is valid!! But terms of endearment like dude/boo/etc are what I grew up using as a natural dialect almost, so I constantly have to fight not to call everyone dear/sweetie/etc because I don’t want to offend people, but I never mind being called that myself. To COMPLETELY get sidetracked lol. But to also get sidetracked, I never asked for your pronouns, Penguin Sunflower!!! If you wanted to share those, let me know (but if not, obviously that’s alright too!!! you’ll always be 🐧🌻 to me).

Zodiac sign: I’m actually a Cancer, but close!!! I’m terrible at reading people, so you’re probably better than me lol. But if you see any zodiac readings and all of the cancers are about crying—yep that’s me.

Romantic Status: I also never think of this until I see people I follow talk about their significant other, and I have to remind myself bloggers are actually people and not just whatever their little square is. I am very flattered you think I’m rad, but no. I’m single as a pringle. :)

Eye color: I’m warm and fuzzy inside but also I feel Perceived in This House. My eyes are actually hazel, meaning I’ve got the brown and green happening.

Hobbies: Yeah, that’s them. I’m such a classic fandom blogger, ain’t I? A dorky little guy.

Introvert/Extrovert: Penguin Sunflower, my beloved anon, I’mma need you to know me less for a hot minute (completely joking.) But yeah I think I’m an Extroverted Introvert!!! That’s what I vibe with anyways. I can be the extrovert in the situation, but it’s exhausting lmao.

Fav Season: Mhm. This is difficult because honestly, it changes. I think at this moment in my life Winter is my favorite season though with Spring as a very close second.

Anyways, thank you for the ask!!! I appreciate it and I hope you had a nice day today 💕🌺🌺🌺💕

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yukipri · 7 years

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Hey, I want to start posting my own art but i don't know if i should do it on tumblr or instagram...which one should i choose? i noticed that you use both, but all your art has your blog URL... any thoughts?

Okay so here’s my best attempt to answer this, it got a bit long sorry! ^ ^;

I think different people have vastly different experiences posting art on various social media platforms depending on what you post, how you want to present it, how many followers you have, and how you regularly interact/WANT to interact with those followers.

I technically have an instagram which I tried to get myself to restart using after my last convention since so many cosplayers use it, and i tried putting a very small amount of art on there but tbh it’s already fallen back to its original use, which is to sometime post photos to tumblr through it ^ ^; I realized Instagram’s not a great platform for me personally to post art because 1) I personally do not have a lot of followers on it, 2) of those followers, many are rl people who found me through fb which i try to keep separated from my fandom blogs, 3) Instagram heavily controls image dimensions so it’s not great if you frequently post tall or long posts and the majority of my art is portrait, 4) Instagram is good for individual aesthetic images, not so great for long story-telling multi-page comics, which is a lot of what I do, 5) I’m not entirely sure how people find your blog on instagram since no reblogging and tags and stuff seem strange and most of the attention seems to come from people who already follow you, and I’m too tired to learn another social media platform now, and 6) Instagram is full of a TON of art theft and I’ve had too many personal bad experiences to have a good impression of the platform as a whole.

So uh, yep, in other words for me Instagram is mostly for cosplay, selfies, pet pics, and merch pics ^ ^;

I also post on Twitter, but that has its fair share of issues too. It, like instagram, is pretty bad for posting portrait images and works better with square/landscape aligned images. It absolutely SUCKS for long comics and multi-page things because the previews are awful. The text limitation is also pretty miserable for someone like me who loves talking a LOT on my posts. It also has a really weird HUGE hit or miss gap between art posts, and I feel like the amount of followers or comments you get per successful art post is far fewer than Tumblr, though others may have different experiences. It IS good for connecting to a less English and tbh far less America-centric community though ^ ^;

I personally prefer to use Tumblr as my main art posting platform for several reasons, some simply because I’ve been more successful here and that’s motivation to continue, and some also just because of what I post. This was the first fandom social media I was really active on, and I’ve been active for YEARS and have sloooooooooooooowly but steadily gained more success, bit by tiny bit through various fandoms (so yeah, tons of art posts with only single digit notes? been there, done that WHOO).

Because Tumblr’s been my main social media, I’ve gotten used to formatting my art specifically for it. Almost all of my art uses Tumblr’s ideal image posting proportions (2 width: 3 height, for those wondering, anything taller blurs), and I’ve learned to take advantage of Tumblr’s vertical scrolling to make posts that stand out when you speed scroll. I’m also the kind of artist who again, rarely posts a “look a pretty picture anyone can appreciate” type art, and more “here’s a really obscure hyper specific AU comic that you’ll have to follow all the links and read the text to appreciate,” type work. This latter means that being able to write long comments (and being able to put it beneath a cut), add links to other posts, and properly tag is really important.

I’ve also found that when I personally post this hyper specific content, on Tumblr and only Tumblr of my social media platforms do I get significant feedback. This is almost entirely because my own unique followers are truly amazing and I’m so incredibly grateful to them, but also partially because there’s so many methods of feedback for people at various comfort levels. There’s the askbox, which I can respond to publicly and where people can send anon if that’s easier. There’s IMs, which I can rarely respond to but it’s an option. There’s replies and comments in reblogs of posts. And there’s tags for people who want to ramble but don’t necessarily look for responses from me. The combination of all of these results in quite a decent amount of feedback that I can enjoy ^ ^; And again, this isn’t for every post; I find that art with less specific context, even if it gets exponentially more notes just don’t have the same type of feedback as my more specific content. And experiences will vary heavily between users, but this is just the community that I feel has grown around my own art here (Thank you all, dear followers, you’re all amazing ;A;).

Tumblr’s url is the one stamped on all of my work because it’s the one I’ve created my brand on, it’s the one that contains all of my content as I meant for it to be seen (comments, tags, links to other related posts and all) so it’s the one that most of my reposts on my other social media link to anyway, and also to be blunt, it has many more times the number of followers than all of my other social medias combined >.

Of course, Tumblr has plenty of cons too. As noted above, but horizontal images are CRAP to post on Tumblr bc they take the least amount of space when you’re vertically scrolling so even it’s a ridiculously huge and detailed long post, it’ll barely blip on most dashes. There’s a limit of 10 images, which can be annoying for me sometimes as a comic artist who has to work around that. Tumblr also does this ridiculously stupid thing where it resizes the image that appears on the dash so it’s really crappy quality and it’s a pain for people to open up the actual resolution image. Tumblr also has, ah, a very specific and rather hostile culture around many things, and depending on what you post you could get a lot of unsavory comments that will be a LOT more rare on other platforms. I’ve found that users on other platforms tend to understand the “You control what you consume,” concept a lot better ^ ^;;;; And given the above various forms of interacting with your followers that I’ve listed above, this also means that people have a variety of tools to make you feel like crap too! And then there’s all that stuff about safety mode going on recently, among other problems. Not a perfect platform, not by a LONG shot.

So which social media platform will be right for you? Again, it really, REALLY depends. If rl people follow you on one or the other and you want or DON’T want them to see it, that’s a factor. If you’re used to talking to your followers on one account and maybe they’d be interested in seeing something else from you, that’s an option. If you want to divide personal from fandom or combine them, that’s a factor. If you prefer more “artistic” or aesthetic art, perhaps instagram and twitter would work far better for you than me. If you have a certain art orientation you prefer, that’s a factor (again: Instagram = square, Twitter = square/landscape, Tumblr = portrait/square). If you want to write a lot of comments or post multi-page work, perhaps Tumblr is better. And of course, it certainly doesn’t hurt to try posting on multiple simultaneously and seeing what works for you, which could be everything!

But most importantly, please don’t get too discouraged if your work does not immediately get the response you were hoping it’d get. Gaining a following takes time and there are so many factors involved beyond your skill level alone, including the popularity of the fandom if it’s fanart, timeliness, frequency of your posts, and the biggest one is sheer dumb luck. Most if not all followers won’t ever comment. Most of your followers won’t even bother to hit like. It WILL feel exhausting and unrewarding and thankless if you go into it for the notes alone. So please, it’ll be hard but it can be a wonderful and rewarding thing to share things you’ve put your love and passion into, so enjoy drawing, draw what you love, and share because you want to share that feeling ^ ^

Sorry this got SUPER long, but I hope it was somewhat helpful! ^ ^;

#YukiPri replies #Anonymous #art #longpost #long post #YukiPri rambles

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5hfanfiction · 7 years

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Touch My Soul (Hold It Tight)

Based off a prompt I saw: “You give me a different fake name every time you come into Starbucks and I just want to know your real name bc you’re cute but here I am scrawling "batman” onto your stupid cappuccino"

The day wasn’t anything special at first. It was just another Tuesday morning and Lauren had just started her shift at Rise and Grind, the local coffee shop on campus. She was expecting her day to consist of dead zombie people in the morning and assholes in the afternoon. Which for the most part, she was correct.

It’s amazing that Lauren even kept this job, considering she hates people in general, but she needed the money for textbooks, and for her endless supply of ramen noodles.

When Lauren had given out the final coffee of the morning rush, she let out a sigh of both relief and exhaustion. There were still people strewn around the small shop, but no one was demanding anything fresh, and that was a blessing for her.

She was halfway through cleaning up some of the dishes thrown around and dirtied from the panic of serving what felt like every student and teacher on campus when the bell above the door rang, meaning another person was here to demand more from Lauren. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, counting to five, before turning towards the counter.

“Welcome to Rise and Grind, how may I help..” Lauren trailed off as she looked up at the girl who entered the shop.

She looked absolutely stunning.

Not because she was dressed to the nines or her makeup was perfect, but because she looked so.. real. Her hair was wavy and messy and her clothes were a little wrinkled, signifying she probably got up late and got ready in a haste, but the young barista decided it still suited her. Her lips were slightly parted from the heavy breaths she was taking, eyes hidden as she had her head hung low while she caught her breath.

“Are you okay, Miss?” Lauren asked, just to be sure she wasn’t being chased or was running away from a crime scene or something. You never know with college kids.

“Oh yeah!.. Yeah I’m.. I’m great!” The girl panted as she looked up at Lauren. Both of their eyes seemed to widen at the same time; Lauren’s at the beautiful chocolate color of the eyes belonging to to the girl in front of her, and the girl at Lauren’s.. well, all of her, really.

“Oh okay that’s um.. that’s good,” Lauren stammered, cursing herself for sounding so stupid. She heard the girl in front of her giggle, and while it filled her stomach with butterflies, it snapped her out of her thoughts.

“Anyways, hi again,” Lauren said with a laugh, “how can I help you?”

“Can I just have a basic bitch caramel frappuccino?” The girl said. Lauren raised her eyebrow at the girl, a hint of a smile on her lips. Fear immediately took over the girl’s face as she stammered, “I-I mean unless you like, like them th-then of course they’re not basic bitch drinks! I just always joke with my roommate about how every white girl gets one and now I feel like an Idiot I-I’m really sorry I-I just-”

Lauren cut off her rambling with a chuckle. “Don’t worry, I thought it was funny. I just didn’t expect to hear the words ‘basic bitch’ from a customer today.” The girl immediately heaved a sigh of relief, embarrassment written all over her facial features as she smiled at Lauren.

“Thank god, I thought I was going to have to never come back here again, which would have been a real shame..” The girl trailed off while smiling directly at Lauren while her eyes flickered with amusement.

Lauren was caught off guard for all of two seconds. At first she thought she was implying she liked the coffee, which was ridiculous because you could get the coffee she made there literally anywhere. Then she registered the girl’s tone of voice and it hit her.

'Wait.. holy shit she’s totally flirting with me,’ Lauren blushed at the thought. Immediately she tried to cover up her blush with a smirk. “Can I get a name for the drink?”

“Hmm..” The girl pondered for a moment, as though she actually had to think what her own name was, “Batman.”

Lauren deadpanned her, “Really.”

“Yep,” mystery girl giggled, then deepened her voice, “I’m Batman.”

Lauren threw her head back in laughter, unwillingly attracting the attention of some customers. “Alright cutie, whatever you say.” The barista’s eyes widened in realization of what she said after it was too late, and was opening her mouth to go into a panicked ramble in an attempt to apologize, when she noticed the flush of “Batman”’s cheeks.

'She’s cute when she blushes,’ Lauren found herself thinking.

She quickly pressed her lips together in a smile and let out a light laugh (to disguise her sheer relief) in response and began making the girl her drink.

After about a minute, Lauren handed the drink to the girl. “One 'basic bitch caramel frappuccino’ for a Miss Batman,” she giggled.

“Why thank you very much,” she paused to look at the barista’s name tag, “Lauren.”

“Hey how come you get to know my name but I don’t get to know yours?” Lauren whined, unknowingly amusing the beautiful stranger.

“I guess you’ll just have to be patient, cutie.”

Lauren groaned, completely unamused. She watched as mystery girl walked out the door, pausing for a moment to look back at Lauren and wave goodbye, which the barista happily returned, silently awaiting their next encounter.

A/N: Hey guys! So this is the first attempt I’ve ever made at writing fanfiction so I’m sorry if it’s not the best but I’ve been wanting to give it a try for a while. If you have any pointers for me or if you just want to say you liked it, please by all means leave a comment or something.

I might turn this into some kind of miniseries if you guys think that it’d be worth it.

Thank you so much for reading and have a great day!

-Katie

(Also my story is posted on wattpad, check it out here)

#UPDATE #one shot #AU #slash #camren #humour #romance fluff #submission #Touch My Soul Hold It Tight

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