Infinity Train au again.

If the numbers increase with badness then how could Bonesaw possibly have so many while Siberian lacks any at all? Bonesaw is good actually, that's her whole deal. Trust me.

They're like an evil Tuba and Hazel.

Manton is on another train car, having a not good time.

Thinkin’ about The Siberian

I was sitting on a draft that said something to the effect of “Worm AU where Manton pulls an NBC Hannibal and moonlights as The Siberian on top of being a globally respected parahuman studies researcher. Is this anything.”

Then I thought about this a little more and realized that this might not be far off from what actually happened. There’s a throughline in Manton’s interests, in his trajectory through life, where he’s trying to figure out what you can use powers to get away with doing to people- about identifying constraints and overcoming them. 

He’s the guy who somehow credibly catalogued, and got his name associated with, the fact that powers generally can’t be used to pop people like balloons, and he did so reasonably early in the timeline, in the nineties at the latest. That’s.... an interesting direction to take your research! When people are just coming to terms with the fact that parahumans are real he’s out there taking careful note of whether they can manifest their powers inside people to instantly kill them. How did he test that? What capes did he collaborate with to test that? What did those conversations look like? Did the IRB at a minimum issue any revise-and-resubmits?

And then, of course, he gets picked up by Cauldron (also known as the infinite untraceable victim depot) to work on improving the vials- gaining a sufficiently in-depth understanding of what they are, how they’re made, and what they can do to people that when Cauldron told Legend that Manton had gone rogue and was the one creating C53s, he found this plausible. You’ve got the guy who’d later become the backbone of the Slaughterhouse 9 basically systemically cataloging every conceivable way a power could violate someone’s physiology- first from without, and then, at Cauldron, from within.

Then, when he pulls the trigger and gives himself powers, the resultant ability is essentially a distilled refutation of the Manton Effect- a minion that can obliterate anything, eat anything, delete any material from existence, viscerally dismember people in a unity of conventional and esoteric, power-enabled violence. And he’s insulated from the consequences of his actions on two levels- in terms of Siberian’s invulnerability, but also in the discrepancy between his form and that of his minion. He mixed the vial that gave him that power himself.

Essentially- I don’t think Siberian is something that just happened after a psychological break following a messy divorce. I think Manton basically pre-committed to becoming something like The Siberian, spent most of his career working towards some form of transcendence through superpowers, and the messy divorce was downstream of the cracks starting to show as he got closer and closer to what he’d been chasing.

Now to segue into a complication that’s more directly supported in the text- it’s Worm, it’s always complicated- Master powers spring from loneliness. My theory is that while Manton wanted apotheosis, and while he’d probably been gearing up for a rampage for a while, he genuinely didn’t want to do it alone; he wanted a sidekick. Hence why he bothered pursuing a family in the first place, hence why he fed his daughter a vial, hence why his own projection ended up looking like his daughter after he accidently made her explode or whatever with the bad vial- a monkey’s paw restoration, giving him back a facsimile of the person he wanted to take along for the ride, and making his capacity for violence inseparable from her presence.

This is why he joined up with the Nine rather than remaining a solo act; it’s why he engages in a bad imitation of the Parent/Child relationship with Bonesaw; and it’s why he seeks out Bitch as a candidate. His interest in her candidacy parses to me as genuine- Even moreso than Bonesaw, even moreso than Jack, Bitch has arrived at a no-frills fuck-you-I-do-what-I-want outlook that’s very appealing to Manton. He wants to have a murderer-daughter relationship!

But Rachel got where she is the hard way, by having a life that sucked a lot, by getting near-constantly kicked around! She has a clear reason to be so angry! Even if all my postulations about Manton having a long game are complete bullshit, there are several stages at which Manton had to actively opt in to the same lifestyle and reputation that Bitch was forced to adopt as a basic survival tactic. He didn’t have to start eating people! He’s a tourist! His “freedom” is inseparable from his distance, his disguise. Rachel’s “freedom” is just the freedom of having nothing left to lose.

All of this to say- In an interlude in which Bitch has an extended internal monologue about how people with families have the opportunities to be assholes and monsters to a captive audience, it is absolutely not a coincidence that she’s scouted by a would-be parental figure who proceeds to be an asshole and a monster in front of a captive audience, before trying to buy her affection with a puppy. In rejecting Manton, Rachel dodged an esoterically-packaged but ultimately very familiar bullet.

How would you rank the members of Cauldron in terms of hypothetical parenting skills?

there is a fic about this very thing if you would like to see

I considered just copy pasting "distant and emotionally neglectful" for all of them but,

Doctor Mother: She raised Fortuna all right didn't she. Didn't she

Alexandria: Places high expectations on the kid and they definitely feel it. Also overengineers many trials by fire to fuel the kid's personal growth, but other people (e.g. faculty, bosses, daycare employees) are not allowed to administer those trials unless given explicit instructions

Eidolon: Somewhat protective and not bad in the beginning, gets increasingly insecure about his parenting skills over time and buries himself in hero work. Child most likely drinks a vial to get attention and becomes his arch nemesis

Contessa: She tries her best -> child eats ice-cream for dinner -> police can't find enough evidence to make the charges stick -> the case goes cold -> she tries her best ->

Number Man: Reads parenting books in secret and attempts to follow them to the letter. Gets flummoxed and disgruntled when the child doesn't behave in exactly the way they're supposed to. Starts reading classified cia manuals on enhanced interrogation techniques instead

Custodian: Enjoy your surveillance state kiddo

Slug: Most likely to raise a child who isn't damaged by their childhood

William Manton: We saw how this turned out

I just realised I didn't even rank them. From best parent to worst

Slug

Custodian

Number Man

William Manton

Eidolon

Doctor Mother

Contessa

Alexandria

An MHA x Parahumans Crossover idea

Because I did the same thing for RWBY x Parahumans.

Which members of the MHA cast would each member of the Slaughterhouse 9 try to recruit for their "Try-Outs" the way they did in Brockton Bay?

Hatchet Face: Okay so in canon Hatchet Face doesn't get to make a selection, because he's dead and the others are picking his replacement; also we never got much of an insight into him beyond 'Serial killer vibes' now for the RWBY version of this I picked Tyrian for matching vibes and there is a very straightforward obvioucs answer here, but you'll see I saved that for later. The least important member of the nine can pick a minor character so: Moonfish, the guy with the teeth

Mannequin: For someone whose whole modus operandi is to find Tinker class Capes who are trying to make the world a better place and break them there really is only one option in the MHA cast and that is Mei Hatsume.....Try not to think about the fact that Mei's Quirk is related to her vision and not her genius and so there's an easy but symbolic way for her to pass Mannequin's challenge of "Change yourself"

Crawler: Crawler's nominations are a unique thing, he doesn't nominate people with any intention of the actually surviving and joining the Nine, all he wants is the strongest possible opponents to fight so that he can keep on evolving and that makes things simple; I considered Deku, Shiggy and Allmight but really, the best possible challenge for Crawler would be All For One, something that gives him a chance to evolve to fight multiple different threats at once.

Bonesaw: Easiet possible answer: Dr Kyudai Garaki/Daruma Ujiko, the Nomu scientist; of course Bonesaw wants a grumpy grandpa mad-scientist to join the family.

Burnscar: Okay so hear me out, in canon Burnscar forewent her opportunity to nominate in order to visit someone she was in the Parahuman Asylum with; so I think that yet again she'd forego her chance in order to basically veto someone else from being nominated. In this instance I'm gonna go with the idea that she saw Shoto's burned face and selected him/the Todoroki family as off limits for the rest of the Nine....Also because when she's not in serial killer mode she's a weeb and a dork and the idea of her being awkward as fuck but thinking that this is clearly the start of a romance is amusing to me.

Shatterbird: She takes fighters and cold blooded killers, or people she can mould into cold blooded kilers....I like the idea that she was weighing up several options, maybe Endeavour, maybe Mirko, maybe Lady Nagant but then she heard about Katsuki Bakugo; a promising young hero who has already proven his abilities, his capacity for violence and has already been kidnapped by one villain team seeking to poach him. Immediately she decides that he's the only possible candidate.

Siberian: In canon he recruited Rachel because she was an outcast who reminded him of his daughter and I honestly considered the idea of taking one of the Heteromorph heroes like Froppy or Mina but then I had to slap myself and realise that Himiko Toga is the obvious choice....Also Toga and Burnscar can be Yandere together.

Cherish: Again, in a situation without Alec Cherish would just pick whoever reminded her most of Alec and initially that was gonna be Todoroki; son of a bastard and clearly the favourite....When Burnscar denied her that I like to think she debated picking someone close to Shoto, like Momo just to be petty, but whilst scoping out UA she found someone whose personality reminded her of Alec; I think she'd nominate Neito Monoma....Granted Shinsou's power is closer to Regent's but Cherish picked her brother to get him killed, I think we all want Monoma dead at least a little.

Jack Slash: Okay this gonna be another 'Cop-out protag vs villain match up' but hear me out....I think Jack would go looking for Stain and be unimpressed in the end, the same way he was with Oni Lee and then start looking for other candidates, if Hatchet Face was dead than I can see him wanting Aizawa as a replacement, if not then maybe LeMillion for the potential and the opportunity to break someone heroic....But, in canon he forewent his chance to nominate in order to have his game with Theo; and I think if anyone's gonna piss him off like that and make him second guess himself and change his plans....It's gonna be Deku, the kid who started with no powers and who even the Hero Killer respects; of course Jack Slash is gonna want to tear him down.

When I was starting the S9 arc, I really hoped Siberian would just be an indestructible human. Like, baseline human strength, none of the physics fuckery, but cannot be stopped by anything at all. Woman who could walk through an Endbringer. I still like the concept, especially considering how primally she fights - being slowly torn in half by a baseline (well, hysterical-strength) human is even more terrifying to me than being torn up in five seconds by canon!Siberian.

I also tend to think of canon!Siberian's power as "playing in creative mode". Do with that what you will.

even beyond the first name i think manton was purpleguycore. he has a dead daughter and a side gig in magic science stuff and a dubiously furry alter ego that he uses to murder people and eventually gets crushed to death by an animal-styled machine before returning numerous times due to plot contrivances (read: bonesaw). truly the man behind the slaughter(house) (nine)

This is what arc 26 was like right

Isabella and the Pot of Basil

William Holman Hunt, 1868 // Arthur Trevethin Nowell, 1904 // John William Waterhouse, 1907 // George Henry Grenville Manton, 1919

William Manton was the original cat boy in Worm

On February 24th 1303 The Battle of Roslin took place. 

This is one of the largest battles within Scotland during the First Scottish War of Independence, and has been largely glossed over in our history books.

Although many of the details are debated nowadays, without victories, like at Roslin on this day in 1303 we may never have been able to secure victory at the most famous of all battles at Bannockburn over 11 years later.

As the English army advanced through Scotland in another retaliatory campaign for the Guardians earlier expulsion of Edward I’s sheriffs and bailiffs, they initially met little opposition. The accounts talk of the army being divided up into three divisions, which approached  Roslin mid February and made camp.

IIt was while in their respective camps that the English divisions were surprised by an attack led by mounted Scottish knights, led by John “The Red”  Comyn and Simon  "The Patriot" Fraser and some sources suggest William Wallace although we don’t know this for sure. The Scots had ridden overnight from Biggar and attacked the occupants of the first camp, the survivors of this assault then warning the occupants of the second camp. The men in the second camp collected their arms and defended themselves against the Scots who had moved on from their first target. There was vicious hand to hand combat, in which the English almost succeeded in gaining the upper hand. However, rallied by their leaders the Scots renewed their assault and took the camp. No sooner had this combat ended than the third English division appeared, presumably better prepared for action than either of the first two. Again with the encouragement of their leaders the Scots re-entered the fray and to the astonishment of all won their third victory, though not before putting the survivors of the first two battles to the sword and taking their horses.

While the defeated army was acting on behalf of the English king, it is also likely to have contained many Scots loyal to Edward. The English army, in line with normal practice of the time, appears to have been split into three ‘battles’, or divisions, while on the march, each commanded by Sir John Segrave, the First Lieutenant of Scotland for Edward I, Ralph Manton, the Cofferer (Treasurer) of Edward I, and the third under either Sir William Latimer or Sir Robert Neville. There is unfortunately no information on the reasons behind the army being split in this way. Fordun, who was writing in the 15th century, states that it was simply due to the lack of suitable camping ground to accommodate the entire army, whereas others, such as Buchanan, writing in the 17th century, think it was a tactical disposition. The fact that medieval armies did generally fight in three divisions does suggest that there is more to the decision than the availability of camping space, as does the fact that the army is reported to have arrived in Roslin already divided into three. Scots:

There is very little specific information available on the Scots army, save that the force were mounted, which allowed them to carry out the surprise attack, and that they were under the command of John Comyn and Simon Fraser.

The earliest accounts seem to offer unrealistically high numbers, especially for the English army. This inflation is likely to be nothing more than pro-Scottish propaganda geared toward glorifying the scale of the victory, but I myself am not too convinced about this, for reasons I will come to after going through the numbers. According to Scotland’s Sovereignty asserted by Thomas Craig the English consisted of 30,000 men split into the three ‘battles’ which consisted of three brigades of knights and at least 10,000 mercenary soldiers. Now Craig’s account wasn’t written until 1695, a time when Scotland was still an Independent country with a great pride in it’s past victories, that’s not to say it should be dismissed, again I will come to that. Here is a brief description of the battle by the Scottish Chronicler John of Fordun, who lived between 1360 and c. 1384

. …there never was so desperate a struggle, or one in which the stoutness of knightly prowess shone forth so brightly. The commander and leader in this struggle was John Comyn, the son… But John Comyn, then guardian of Scotland, and Simon Fraser with their followers, day and night, did their best to harass and to annoy, by their general prowess, the aforesaid kings officers and bailiffs… But the aforesaid John Comyn and Simon, with their abettors, hearing of their arrival, and wishing to steal a march rather than have one stolen upon them, came briskly through from Biggar to Rosslyn, in one night, with some chosen men, who chose rather death before unworthy subjection to the English nation; and all of a sudden they fearlessly fell upon the enemy.

Forduns account also embellishes the story with the tale of a love affair, I have posted about this before, in my own mind it is a good yarn, but medieval battles were not fought over the love of a woman, this is not Braveheart we are describing here!

The Scots are said to have numbered anywhere between 8 and 10 thousand, again all these numbers are from historians telling the story between the 17th and 18th centuries, so we have no real way of knowing for sure how accurate they are.

As to the dead, well I have used Wikipedia in the past and they had numbers on their page, these now seem to have been removed for some reason, in fact the whole post there is quite pathetic, all it says under casualties and losses is that “At least 16 knights captured” on the English side, nothing on the Scots losses. All of the historical sources state that the Scottish army slaughtered many of the English force; however, no specific numbers are quoted, though Sir Thomas Gray says in the Scalacronica, a Northumbrian chronicle of the era states that Ralph Manton was slain, apparently by Sir Simon Fraser, and Sir Robert Neville is also thought to have been killed during the second Scottish attack. Given the information available from the sources and the surviving place-name evidence, it does appear the casualties on the day may have been extremely high, I am from the area and there are some great place names said to have sprung up from the battle, Shin Banes Field; The Hewan and Killburne, Killbrne ( A burn being a small stream) is said to have been discoloured with blood for three days afterwards.

I have to try and bring this long post to an end by explaining why history seems to have so few real facts about, what was a massive victory for the Scots. Well from an English point of view it was a humiliating defeat, so they are not going to write about it in any real depth, it is also said that this was a secret or a punitive expedition, this would suggest their numbers were nowhere near the 30,000 quoted in places.

On the reasons the Scots history books have little about Roslin, between Fordun in the 14th century until Craig in 1695 there is nothing I can find, well that comes down to history being written by the victors. Yes the Scots won a famous victory, but who was at the head of this victory? Well the subject of a post exactly two weeks ago, John Comyn III of Badenoch, nicknamed the Red, sworn enemy of Robert the Bruce and murdered by Bruce. The Scottish King may very well have suppressed stories of John Comyn’s prowess as a warrior at a time he would have been only interested in his own achievements, even after his death in The Brus  by John Barbour written around 1375 there is no mention of Roslin, The Brus was written for King Robert II to honour his namesake,Barbour was paid a pension for life for this, he wasn’t going to boast about Comyn’s exploits in it was he!

The pics of the memorial were taken by me an a cold February day in 2016.

worm sesh! 8/29

hmm..

oh no its siberian isnt it

jesus christ

eeeeeeeeeeeeuuguh

ok hold on

william manton… Manton effect interesting this might be wild and random but what if noelle is the daughter

ok nevermind

welp

Welp no wonder u guys wanted him to escape

hahaaa..

make him huh

<:/

man what the fuck

also i noticed she changed her name from rebecca to alexandria well ig its her hero name i thought it was too regular name to be hero name or she was doing sm shite like the new wave heroes

i suppose that makes sense

ok but if coil is supposed to Win what happens if taylor umm have to fight him : )

spams him w phone calls

coil is making you insane girl

i can feel taylor popping a nerve from here

good

god damn

ur survival instincts r going crazy

now u just sound like when vista was being fatalistic

and if he gets a trigger event from ur death what then

i dont think hed Juust recover no wife and daughter is a little hard

iinteresting

lmao just Cope

hm thats a little too much in wanting the phone aint it

i wouldnt act like that in front of supervillains

a shame ur power isnt stealing other ppl's powers but u have to do w what u have i suppose…

good luck

sure ill believe that it was just hard work

cmon trickster

shit

true

so , FUcking TRUE.

its very hard

horror bug attack go

jesus fuck taylor

did u have to fuck him with bugs

i like when taylor thinks of how shed use other people's powers

John Owen, John Flavel, Thomas Watson, John Bunyan, Thomas Brooks, Matthew Henry, Christopher Love, Thomas Manton, William Perkins, Samuel Rutherford, Richard Sibbes etc

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Animal skin by Bryan Dunn is a Siberian talking to rachel song

OH SHIT YEAH. I know this one already and I was looking for a character to connect it to so I'm just gonna shoot back an "Oh Shit Yeah" to you asap and then listen to it for specific lyrics.

Thursday 3 May 1832

8 ½

2

fine morning – F48 ½° at 9 ¼ a.m. in my bedroom - had π- half hour before getting up breakfast at 9 ½ - sat downstairs with Mrs Acker an hour at least - from 12 to 2 35 - out walking with M- went to look at the house at Snape - planning alterations etc and talking over Mr W. Crewe’s letter which π- read me and received this morning his answer to her asking his advice about Snape he wrote sensibly properly and kindly saying in fact that he not knowing her mother could hardly give an opinion regretted they could not meet at the bazaar on Tuesday then consulted her about his own affairs which π- would have us talk over before she could listen to mine  half hour at the Lawton arms to see off in the red rover coach - see off the 2 Miss Lawton Anne 19 and Elizabeth 13 going to their mother at Bedford - home at 2 40 - luncheon - Mr L- drove out Mrs Akers and M- and I were 1 25 hour tête à tête from 3 40 to 5 5 - when I heard the carriage and ran off that they might not find us together I entered into the subject of ourselves her being so changed and having no feelings

SH:7/ML/E/15/0064

of former times remaining she talked of time and circumstances as her excuse yet it came out it was all since Holland and she had thought me careless about her I mentioned her letters should we burn them she thought it would be better nobody felt at forty as at fifteen and in less time than that how feelings changed! Mr Broughton Stray had only been married  eight or twelve years I forget which thought I had better do the best I could and make myself comfortable I made no particular answer she thinks she shall not be long lived it is change of life with her may not get over it all her feelings changed she does not know why her interest for William Lawton greater than for her own family or even for little Mariana whom she brings up and will have with her would leave her little bit of personality to William rather than Percy sometimes thinks it wrong her family should be so secondary with her Snape to be her mother’s for life and afterwards to her sisters during δ-‘s life but then given up to π- she said something of mentioning my living with her but I said I thought she had better not name me her great anxiety is to live in this neighbourhood while William is of age and for her schools etc asked if I would promise this which I got off saying we could think of that hereafter I was always ready to do all I could to do good Shibden would not agree with and my not living there she settles very easily - dressed – dinner at 6 ¼ - tea at 9 – Mrs. Ackers invited me to their marine cottage and Mr. A- offered to take me in his yacht (no carriage room) to Cherbourg about or on the 7th next month – no telescopes, he said, like those of Dolland in St. Pauls’ churchyard – and Manton for pistols to arm my courier - came upstairs at 11 - M- with me 20 minutes - then again from 12 for ¾ hour - we talked of Willoughby Crewe she denies all but sisterly regard and interest for him we talked over Cameron Watson having said she wanted to speak to π- as if about giving me warning which I thought however might not be the thing mentioned my having advertised said she was a dawdle and not clever enough for me but I had no thought now of giving her warning should keep her to see what was determined on with Louisa Belcombe we talked over myself and my present it seemed to have my old set leave me rather than I leave them (I had before explained about the Percivals and how I could not do otherwise) and now I must either keep the new or have none about which last nobody could care less than I should I should far rather have none than not the best or very good but if π- threw me adrift I must seek someone else she had then the door  in her hand and made no answer she had contrived to tell me the first thing she had seen and flirted with Lord [Snelsmerdale] and told him she hated all lords and had laughed and gone on in this way which after all he must have thought vulgar enough  she said this morning she did not think my society would suit and I might take my lords and dunes perhaps we can never really suit again – rather showery day – F55° in my bedroom (no fire) at 11 ½ p.m. wrote out Monday and Tuesday till now 1 ½ tonight