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I'm looking at buying a new prebuilt custom pc since my laptop is on the verge of taking the big sleep (as old ass computers do)
And as its showing me all these options for Memory cards and video cards and processors and shit I realize i have no damn clue what Any of these things are, What they do, and which ones I need
Like pls sir I'm a silly clown of an art student ive no clue what half of this stuff even means. Explain it to me as if I've never touched a computer in my life
#like pls i dont knoe the damn difference between intel and amd#i just need a system that i can use for vtubing and animation#thats all i want#pls#why cant it be easy#its fine that its expensive#but what the fuck am i shopping for???? QwQ#starr stuff#rambling#dont mind me#i COULD probably ask my brother#but he really wants me to just buy the parts for him to build it#like dude pls#just help
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shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.
#lua talks#this is actually for myself#its easy to feel like i've been overreacting. specially when i cant remember why im upset with them#is this a vent post? it doesnt feel like one but maybe?
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dear life,
i am not mad at you. just fucking confused.
#dear life#like seriously wtf#im so confused#who am i#im so tired#nothing makes sense#life is confusing#like give me a fucking break#why am i like this#idk what im doing#why do i exist#why cant it be easy#why do i gotta struggle
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why does my head hurt <== has been recreating tectonic plates with my teeth
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i really thought i was over him but then he just shows up at the place i work and boom! i’m not. this isn’t fun for me at all. neither of us will talk to each other, it’s like we’re both just waiting for the other to do something, and i just want to shake him and yell at him to give me a clear sign about what he wants. i’m so tired of living in this constant “he loves me he loves me not” cycle because i don’t he’s living in a constant “she loves me she loves me not” cycle. he seems so okay. but then again maybe he’s just a good actor. i don’t think he sees me falling apart, so maybe he’s doing the same thing. maybe he’s drafted a million texts to me that he never pressed send on. maybe i’m not insane. i just wish we were closer so we could talk about these things. i wish we were in school right now because we would have classes together so we could actually talk. i wish it was easy. maybe i’m too dramatic, this is a high school crush after all, but i am in pain.
i’m sorry for lowkey trauma dumping on y’all but i needed to write this down & i feel safe enough to post it here and maybe get some advice? or comfort?
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I’m unraveling as the seconds pass
#i hate me#is it me?#mental breakdown#mental illness#mentally tired#why cant it be easy#why cant i just be happy#why cant you love me#why do i bother#feelings are dumb#tw relaspe#anxiety and depression#i cant handle this
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a silly little doodle of him,,
#i've been doodling him EVERYWHERE hes easy to draw and i am normal#arion makes stuff#dhmis#don't hug me i'm scared#red guy dhmis#why is this gaining so many notes so rapidly#even my horse plinko post took a few days to get to 600+ this was posted yesterday and yet we're on 632 so far#WHY ARE YOU ALL GIVING THIS SO MANY NOTES IT TOOK MAYBE 45 SECONDS I CANT#1k#2k#hall of fame#can't believe i complained at 2k notes. babe try 17k#gnomeantics original 🌟
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Perfect Couple
They need to be right beside each other or they'll die
#svsss#moshang#shang Qinghua#mobei jun#sqh#mbj#scum villains self saving system#scum villain self saving system#the scum villain's self saving system#scum villans self saving system#scum villian self saving system#Mobei juns trying his best making Shang Qinghua his noodles ok#can you look Mobei in the eyes and say you wont eat what he made???#no#Shang Qinghua cant either#thats why he WILL down that charcoal that was ones noodles#how did it get like that??? no one but Mobei knows#also Mobei trying to handle court alone without Qinghua means hes gonna be WAYYY more irritated at stupid demons#he'd think about how Qinghua could deal with all the court work EASY and then hea ignoring the demons talking to him to go hunt down his#husband to hold him and not let him go for an hour#ahh theyre so#💕💕💕💕#nibbelraz#my art
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I drew @mrghostrat 's Streamer AU Crowley :D
I kinda don't like how this turned out, but after The Great Art Block of 2023, I'm trying to recover with a sort of "any art is good art" outlook? Like, "I'm not too proud of this, but I'm proud that I am drawing"
So any art at all is a win right now 💪💪💪 (+ I'm so obsessed with And They Were Streamers right now it's unreal)
#love this fic sm#idk why his chair is so big oh god wait that wouldve been an easy fix#FUCKKK IT WAS ON ITS OWN LAYER#i rage closed the file without saving tho so i cant go back into a version with layers oops#lets say that its big cos he needs more room to sit weird#(falls off smaller)#ineffable streamers#good omens#crowley#good omens streamer au#and they were streamers
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my bad for not adding skizz won't happen again
#i didnt forget him I promise I don't know why I left him out#i love zkizz this is a sin I should repent or something#tt#i think its cause I don't have a good design for him and this was a lower effort drawing and i cant just draw him normally#he has to be weird and fucked up u know#and I've drawn him a lot but I didn't want to put in the energy at the moment#same as to why they arnt laughing in this drawing#cause I can't just slap an XD face on them and call it a day cause their poses would look weirdly stiff#then I would have to complicate the poses and I didn't feel like doind that cause I'm lazy#no its cause I spent a lot of my drawing energy earlier and I didn't want to burn out so I cut a few corners#i dont know where the line is sometimes#what's low effort and what's me trying to take it easy#I hope this doesn't come off as me venting I'm trying to reflect haha#anyways silly skizz doodle#this should inspire me to stay up a little later to do a few skizz designs tho#wegh
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I can't get over Wilson straight up dragging Cuddy and House to Cuddy's mom's place and forcing them to make peace with her. He's got House actually giving a decent apology even though he doesn't mean it, and Cuddy completely conceding and giving up control over the situation by telling her mom she was wrong and they could compromise. And then when they attempt to go off the script Wilson gave them, he's just standing there glaring at them threateningly, and suddenly they snap back in line. That's why he's so scary. He's got everybody on a fucking leash lmao.
#Hes insane and everybody knows it#so they just go along with whatever he tells them for their own safety#Cuddy and House know Wilson the best and thats why its so easy for him to drag them around#you cant tell me they werent TERRIFIED of making him mad in that scene by not saying what he told them to#Like the laundry scene between him and House where he tells House he could make him do his laundry if he wanted#Mans got power and hes not afraid to use it#its definitely pretty privilege too lets be fr#house md#house#greg house#james wilson#hilson#wilson#hatecrimes md#hate crimes md
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Ever think about Date’s view on family and how that relates to his character? When Mizuki asks him to define family, he just awkwardly offers that its like being blood related to someone. It leaves a bitter taste in his mouth and Mizukis, but like, he literally had no idea what a real family looks like. He’s an orphan, a man who grew up with no family and no name, but he doesn’t know that yet. He has no memory of his past, no way of knowing if there’s someone out there waiting for him to come home, if he even had a place to call home. His only frame of reference for a family is Mizuki and her parents. Deep down he knows it’s not right, not loving, but it fits the mold of a nuclear family, man and woman, blood related, so that must be what family is. When he’s asked to take in Mizuki, he’s absolutely clueless because he literally has zero frame of reference for how a child is supposed to be cared for. He puts distance between them because this isn’t his place, he doesn’t have the right to love this child as his own because he isn’t the real dad. There’s no place for someone like him in a family. And it’s baffling to him to hear that Mizuki not only loves him, she needs him because he is her family. Date believes he’s a nobody, just a sad, lonely man with no name who absolutely does not deserve this kind of love. But he has it anyway because he chooses it, he makes something that neither he nor Mizuki have ever had before. HES HOME
#aitsf#ai the somnium files#kaname date#mizuki date#just crying about the date family for the millionth time nothing new#also i just had this realization that like date literally had absolutely ZERO clue what he was doing#cuz its not like he remembers his own childhood so he cant use that as a frame of reference for how to treat his own child#and yet despite this he does a much better job than renju and shoko ever did just because he like. actually loves mizuki lol#honestly kinda fucking insane that date was asked to take care of her instead of hitomi#like renju has a choice between his long term friend who hes really close with and who he knows has lots of experience in childcare#versus his silly friend who lives in the smallest apartment with tons of debt and has literally never seen a baby before#then again thats probably why he didnt choose hitomi cuz he probably wanted to keep mizuki separate from the family he actually cares about#also for meme purposes its just like date is like wow renju youre literally the worst dad ever#and renju is like well okay hotshot if you think its so easy then how about you raise my daughter asshole#and date is like okie and does a significantly better job at it#i love kaname date so fucking much you guys will never understand what we have 😩
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Kouhei: Mizuki may not be able to be honest with himself with regards to Yoh, but if it were me, if I did the things he did, I think Yoh would have caught on. Mizuki may not say much, but I think he shows how much he likes Yoh through his actions. I tend to say exactly how I feel. In Mizuki's case, he doesn't say what he thinks. It's almost like he's choosing not to say it, that's his thing. I can't just say that he should say what he feels in words no matter what. I think he should keep being himself, and Yoh's the one who should be paying more attention.
Atsuki: You're wrong. I'm sure Mizuki hasn't realized that Yoh doesn't realize. I'm saying, Mizuki doesn't realize that Yoh doesn't know how he feels. I think that's part of the reason why he acts the way he does. I think there's a chance, at least. Yoh should be thankful for what he has going on. Mizuki is taking care of his housing and food. Mizuki comes home right away without going to after work dinners or anything. He gets paid a lot! He's got a very good environment to work with. On top of that, I think he could help Mizuki out more in different ways - Sorry, I misspoke! He could help Mizuki out by being more straightforward with his feelings, without just keeping it all in.
#my personal weatherman#higuchi kouhei#mashiko atsuki#*#faiza gifs#gbrwhijbgfvihbh TWO DENSE PEOPLE COMING TOGETHER lmaoooooooo#also NOT kouhei not being able to stop laughing when acchan was like 'oh yoh can help mizuki out in different ways!'#yeah atsuki YOU DUG URSELF INTO A RIGHT HOLE THERE nuvfihbfsbvhc#anyway i LOVE how they both just GET their characters. like its SO easy for us as an audience to say#'oh why dont they just TALK'. but they both ARENT talkers.#like how kouhei says: you cant just FORCE segasaki to speak bc thats not who he is!#while atsuki is like yeah but yoh acts the way he does bc mizuki hasnt realised that yoh hasnt realised that he has feelings for him!#so how else is yoh meant to act! ANYWAY#THEY THOROUGHLY UNDERSTOOD THE ASSIGNMENT!
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and time can always heal ya if you let it make its way into your bones
#NOTHING'S EVER EASY!!!!!!!#tO BE HONEST IM NOT EASY ON MYSEEEELF😭😭😭😭😭#i dont know why that clementine is there#but i like the overall vibe of this#happy new year! cant wait to hear this live <3#hoth#my mb#louis tomlinson moodboard#holding on to heartache#dailytomlinson#trackinghappily#trackinghome#tracksintheam#m
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i hate having memory issues
#“if you cared you would remember” / people thinking youre lying to them about things you did/didn't do / i am incredibly easy to gaslight#entire chunks of my recent life just. gone without warning#people who know more about me than i do myself#why cant i have a functioning brain#vent#sparks speaks#re the gaslight thing my psychosis + memory issues + regular weird realistic and/or semi-prophetic timeline dreams make me#incredibly prone to questioning reality and manipulable all the time. and i hate it#i wish i could believe in my own senses#unreality mention
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"Prisoner @purgemarchlockdown ! Milgramblrgram has judged you guilty for your crimes! It is time to meet your judgement. As the wardens' fang, I take that responsibility upon myself!" (Aka, Esquest Bad End be upon ye 👊) TW for Amane's cult mindset.
You open your eyes.
The temple looks the same as it always has. The thought usually comes as a relief – after a particularly difficult hero, the return to routine is a blessing. Seeing everything back in its place always fills you with a sense of peace. God once explained that all of existence is a circle. Something about eternity and cycles and perfection. You didn’t quite understand, but you enthusiastically told Him that you did. You didn’t want to appear as a clueless child. And anyway, you grew to love the loops.
But not now.
This time, your head whips around, looking for something that should be here. Well, it shouldn’t be here, but you expected it to be.
You pace the chamber’s echoing floor, but there’s no sign of it. Did you really expect it to be here? Did you really get your hopes high? You should not have been so naive. The hat isn’t here. How could you have been so stupid?
“What are you looking for?”
You nearly startle at the voice. God stands behind you. He does not sound pleased.
“N-nothing!”
The word come out in a panic. Then, as you’re struck with the realization that you just lied to God, your eyes drop to the ground. “I mean… it’s nothing of importance.”
He steps closer, and you shy away from His suspicion.
Despite the glare He shoots up at you, God’s voice is even. “Are you sure?”
“Y-yes. I thought… last time there was…” You take a moment to collect your thoughts. God pauses as you do so. He is always patient with you. He loves you, after all. You inhale. “The last hero tried to change things, but they did not. I knew they couldn’t,” you lie, “so I was just seeing the proof.”
“Yes, they failed. There is nothing to look for here.”
“Of course.”
God leaves you, then. The temple drops into silence. He is right. There is nothing to look for. You aren’t quite sure what emotion you’re left with. Your chest feels as empty as the chamber around you.
The next hero, however, finds out exactly what you were feeling. They take one step into your cell, and you tear them apart.
It all happens in a moment. It shouldn’t be them walking through the door. You scream, accusing the flailing hero of things they never could have done. You cry, accusing yourself of things you never should have done. You let your claws tear however they please.
Looking at the mess before you, you feel like the monster everyone feared you were.
You don’t really care.
That is, until God appears once more. He looks on the scene with disgust. It’s the type of face the villagers would flash your way before turning away to whisper something. It’s the look you saw from your parents, a silent warning about what was about to follow. You knew this situation was no different.
You were monstrous, and you would be punished as one.
“This type of behavior is not why I chose you.” God says. “I chose you to be special.”
“I understand.”
“Come with me.”
This was right. This was just.
Your feet remain stuck. Es...
No. You do need to do this.
These voices, they were wrong last time. Only one person had proved undoubtedly correct this whole time, and you should have listened to Him from the beginning.
There is a reason everything is circular. The loops make sense. Routine means perfection. Change never brings anything except pain. This time, you will be good. You will be good enough.
You follow God.
Your chin is held high. You need no saving form heroes, or voices, or anyone. You’re right where you’re supposed to be. You’re special. You may not be perfect, but that is why you must endure these lessons. God must love you so much, since he is willing to teach them again and again. How patient he must be.
He turns his face away, in time to miss one last tear that slips down your cheek. You hear the smile in his voice.
“There’s a good girl.”
#milgram#esquest#amane momose#hi pal!!! I absolutely love esquest and I'm so sorry my first fanwork of it is like this adsfsdf 😭#this is all in fun and i hope you like it still :')#shhhh dont tell the others but you get the fancy formatted drabble >:3#i mean i was going to do esquest fic -- why Not try my had at the style?#if it wasnt meant to be angst i 100% would have included a waivy-voice ask...#i know not all the lore has been revealed but i hope this can still hold up ;-;#i hope youre taking it easy -- and i cant wait to see more of the story!#ive been hyped to see what youve been cooking up 👀#i mean uhhhh Face Your Judgement !!#drabbles#milgramblrgram#tw cults#tw child abuse#(implied)
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