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relaxxattack · 3 years

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(i dont care to do c! tags bc theres. so many characters. if i dont say cc! then im talking abt the characters) normally i am not one to think much about the syndicate bc outside of ranboo being there to protect tubbo the syndicate Frustrates me a bit but. if phil starts to realize just how fucked over tubbo got by schlatt being erased from the narrative (and especially how shittily techno has treated tubbo) then i really hope they lean into like. the fact that the syndicate may soon turn into phil, niki, ranboo, and possibly the mystery member (im including mystery member mostly because i think tubbo is on good terms with almost everyone except like. dream, possibly wilbur but we'll see, and like the eggpire ppl but none of them are likely options but it is possible that the mystery member could just be neutral) all like. wanting tubbo to be safe and phil is *just* reasonable enough that i think he'd realize how unfair it is for tubbo to have been subjected to so much shit just for techno to introduce even more fear and the need to hide in his life

like phil already keeps the bee duo marriage and michael a secret, he lets tubbo come over and while of course its mostly from the semi lore vibes phil seems vaguely fond of tubbo already (i dont think phil and tubbo have father/son vibes tho, more just like. tubbo is just That Kid that adults cant help but adore even though the kid will rob them of house and home. slightly amused elder watching a tiny fucking gremlin make sex jokes and talk about soviet russia), niki from what i remember still cares about tubbo (probably because she cant redirect any anger towards him without realizing how unjustified it would be kcnsks she can come up with excuses for hating tommy but tubbo didnt do anything that niki has a problem with outside of her maybe having a bad view on butcher army if she knows about it?), ranboo is. ranboo. i dont need to clarify. and then like said theres a very low possibility of the fifth member *disliking* tubbo or being unable to sympathize with him.

people talk a lot about how techno needs to lose in a way that he cant easily come back from without introspection and i think while the rest of the syndicate standing up for tubbo would increase technos grudge against tubbo initially its also like. something that i think would maybe force techno to see tubbo as a person because now theres nothing techno can box (haha gettit. tubbox tubbo in a box tubbo getting boxed into certain roles by people who refuse to let him out techno esp doin this teehoo) tubbo into that wouldnt just. acknowledge that tubbo is a person. hes not apart of the government anymore, not planning any failed revolution, the most negative title to his name is being one of the nuke makers but even then thats out of fear and safety and techno knows that. otherwise tubbos current crimes are nothing thats special to tubbo (like. stealing and searching for evidence in ppls homes and stuff, the latter of which techno doesnr even know about). right now tubbos a husband, a father, a friend, a kid, *ex*-government, a person. and just.

i think that with how much foreshadowing about tubbos execution no longer being a secret amongst the witnesses and tubbo himself and soon being something that people close to techno like phil and ranboo know about as well (in that i want phil to learn that techno did it and for ranboo to learn about it in general bc hes just biased enough for tubbo and just smart enough that i think even if somehow he wasnt told who did it he could figure it out), and with the fact that tubbos lore has been confirmed to now be something thats actively going to be played into? i think (or at least hope) that it might spur phil and techno into finally seeing tubbos side of the story (and probably also get into the possibility of tubbo opening up to tommy and ranboo but i do think realistically either tubbo will try to play it off/not truly open up about how much its effected him or tubbo will at first shut down or go into complete repression mode, especially if phil and ranboo get the story from other people rather than tubbo himself [but god do i hope they confront tubbo himself]. either those two or tubbo talks about his emotions through fucking snapping at something/someone like he did at quackity when reminded of his execution, which as long as its Not tommy or ranboo ill absolutely be cheering on him for)

which is all a very convoluted way of saying uhh. *grabby paws at the ccs currently involved in the arc of clearing up personal misconceptions about l'manberg (and especially tubbos involvement and how easily those around him judged him based off of their versions of the story)* tubbo lore? tubbo healing tubbo talking about his problems? characters learning to see him as a person and recognizing how traumatized he is and that hes not uneffected but actively repressing any effects? please? (also ending note as the cherry on top of this essay that im sorry for dropping into your inbox: im kind of glad that tommys healing arc and tubbos possible healing arc are going to happen at similar times but are still separate. something something its nice to see acknowledgement that tommy and tubbo wont heal in the same way and arent going to know how to help each other but theyre still going through it together. their arcs are intertwining without removing their individuality and as someone w major co-dependency issues its kind of nice idk. you can be there for someone and still acknowledge that you have your own things to go through too and that while you wont be alone you shouldnt force those around you to support you. the bench trio are all helping each other out of free will and genuine love for each other while still realizing they have some problems they arent ready to talk about yet that arent forced to the open because theyre all doing their best to handle each other with care and i just. bench trio my beloveds. the kids are alright.) -🎭🎪 (also as the actual end note if theres ever a need to refer to me as something other than the emojis mask or eyez works fine but the idea of my name being the emojis is also Very Funny to me so do what you will)

im working on my aperture camera college assignment rn and my brain is sort of fried so i dont have an intelligent answer, but i got the happy chemical reading this.

yeah. i think we all know here that my favorite character is tubbo, and i REALLY hope we get him addressing anything that’s happened to him in canon. pretty much all of what you said sounds very good. *grabby hands* spare tubbo lore? please? spare tubbo lore?

perhaps during the three weeks wilburs off in the fucking woods (/lh) we could have a the-others-find-out-what-happened-to-tubbo-(and in DETAIL)-arc. pleaseeeeeeeee and ty

#🎭🎪#lol #anonymous

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my-twisted-head-space · 2 years

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I fall in love again

hey readers,

haha, i know probably no one will ever make it to this mini tumblr of mine, but if you do, congratulations! you must be one of the few friends that I have really trust - to a point that I share bout my wild fantasy and sexuality secret to you.

Alright, so - bottom line is I fell in love again. And guess what? it is again a ship that will not sail, a battle that cannot be won, i.e. a love that will never happen. The lucky dude ( or unlucky LOL) that will be receiving showers of love and care from me would be David!

David is truly a really nice good christian boy. He takes care of me (at least I view it this way) despite him being a pragmatic introvert who wants nothing but peace for he and himself. He even went all the way to ask if I wanted to get help from him to clarify stuff that I wanted to, despite him saying in a very bad way I guess. Perhaps, it is just his way to tell me that he had enough of me and he would never want to get in between of my dramatic unnecessary conflict.

I am sad that throughout this process, I hurt him. I chat him, I wanted to seek comfort from him, but I really need to understand that not all people gives the comfort you need, so I really should consider who to confide with. Some people are just gonna smash the bitter reality to you, and that might not be ideal for you. Throughout, I did not get the comfort that I had expected to receive from him. Again, it is a problem between me and my own expectations, and I have failed again. I am truly sorry, David. I really wish you to know that I truly am... :") I really hope we can be as close as we have been last semester, next semester, though :-).

Anyway, he is a very cute boy, kind, and spiritually filled. He is what you would call a boy that grows in the right way, as the Christians would want to. He is slightly childish too, which makes him even cuter :-). He plays with plushies, he 'talks' to them, and can be a tad sluggish HAHA, but it's just David being David, I would say. He smells very nice, because of his deodorant that he is very proud of apparently... HAHA (which also makes everything about him smells like that). Well, it smells good so, no issues here. Also, from the previous quarantine, I can't help but smell his true him without Deo HAHA ok sorry if this sounds creepy to you but I am just a man of smell, and I am extremely sensitive to it. I couldn't help but notice the distinctive smell, but yah it was not a very much pleasant smell but still reasonable. His smell was not unique as well I would say, as it belongs to one of the few classes of people's smell that I have identified previously. His smile is so bright and warm, that when you see he smiles, you would want to smile too :-). He is a picky eater, which is cute as well, and he has been trying his best to be in shape, although he is a tad plump-ish now, which makes him more cute. But when he takes off his glasses, damn, he is hot (Not in his sleep tho, LMAO). I think it is the vibes that he gives off when he is not wearing his glasses, and his glare/stare. His eyes made him much more hotter without glasses. It was a very sharp stare, and I can't help but be captivated by him. There are many other things about him that I can talk about, but let's just stop there for now HAHA.

Well, not sure whether he is exploring his sexuality, but I do have mixed signals about him. I think he might be bi or gay, but he is trying to suppress it because of his religion and the asian values that he bears, as well as the community that, I would say, are not very supportive of this. AND even if he is, I would think he would want to date his friend, let's just call him AW, HAHA instead of me... which is fair and expected I guess, as they have been friends for so long and his friend is hot and cute, not gonna lie. When I first saw him, I got the same vibes as Todoroki Shoto from BNHA LMAOOO, and would really love to get to know him, although David would not, because it is damn weird HAHA. It feels like I am invading his personal spaces..

But anyway, I am just happy that I keep finding new people that I can shower my love to, and I hope he does not mind it. I hope you are happy all the time David. I truly find happiness when you share the good things that happen to you or is about to happen to you. Take care and hope our fate intertwines for quite some time from now till the long future ahead!

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acrispyapple · 4 years

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why do you watermark official pics that aren't yours? i'm honestly shocked cybird hasn't had you banned for dcma laws + spoiling paid stories and epilogues, but you do you. you made it so i never have to pay money for any of the cybird games + mlqc. also i read why you aren't posting the sprites which is cool and all but you shouldn't be posting game elements either way. that's super shitty of you to do because spoiler THE ARTWORK ISN'T YOURSSSSSSS. the pic of victor on your twitter isnt yours 2

heya! i’ve already answered an ask like this recently and ignored the follow up ones because i don’t really wanna keep repeating myself. but since you’re very persistent and it’s still the same thing, here i go! putting under a cut because it’s long and has images – with stuff written on them! dun dun dunnnn (¯▿¯)

to start things, i’m the wrong person to accuse of being irresponsible with my posts because i’m very mindful of posting etiquette. have you not seen all my campaigns about not stealing from artists, from blogs, etc. i ask for permission for everything, even for random text i want to translate from someone’s post. even for cosplay i’ve seen other people freely post, i always go to the source and ask. i hope my answer clarifies things for you because i don’t really wanna have to repeat it again! (*^^*)♡

re: watermarks (complaint mostly about mlqc because i don’t really do it for cybird)

re: cybird

i’m not exactly a hidden secret blog, so i’m pretty sure cybird is well aware of me. plus, they’ve left comments on my blog in the past. sooo, there’s nothing shocking about it at all! maybe what’s shocking is you somehow expected cybird to not have noticed my blog all these years. do you actually know what the digital millennium copyright act covers? (dmca not dcma btw) as long as i know how to read and understand rules and i’m always within its boundaries, there’s nothing being violated. always post obstructed cgs / never full, snippets of 10 for screenies, never in consecutive order, etc. you should read the rules tbh, you seem unfamiliar with it. ☆

re: you never having to pay money for any cybird game

again, snippets = not full stories. everyone can post snippets. paid or not. that’s so weird that you feel you don’t need to pay for ~any cybird game~ anymore because of my blog. i haven’t been consistently posting paid content for so long. even ikesen epilogues. because i don’t have the time. and i’ve skipped posting a couple of events on my blog too. i don’t post ikerev / midcin consistently either. i’ve posted from two ikevam events in the past months with epilogue snippets. i guess you only played those? that’s hardly everything. nice attempt at creating an issue about me making cybird lose money tho! for someone who thinks i do dodgy things, you sure do like reading from my blog– if what you’re saying is true. but you seem to not know my blog content either. (⌒_⌒;)

i have another answer for this from an ask from 9 months ago:

re: not paying for mlqc

they allow posting everything from their game, i even verified with their team! but even i don’t have the time or post slot to post everything from it. i mostly post about victor soooo, i guess that’s everything you need to know about mlqc then? yay for you only needing victor! ♡

re: game elements

what?

anyway, moving forward to my twitter header:

it’s from this post i made, where i screenied scenes (and edited them a bit to look brighter and prettier) from the pv of the new chapters in the ch version.

now, i just put my username there as a marker and it was already covered in the first part of this ask. (how it helps me keep track of my posts, helps me when people are able to identify it’s from my blog and alert me of it being posted elsewhere, etc.) but i wanted to show it even clearer so you can finally let go of whatever it is you’re burning with. ( ˙▿˙ )

it just says acrispyapple on this screenie i took (that’s right, it’s just a screenshot lmao), it’s a random word or name. i made it small and inconspicuous so it wouldn’t distract from the image. the weibo watermark is bigger and clearer but i don’t use it– i can, but i don’t. when people see it, they know it’s official art and that’s it. there’s no “made by acrispyapple™©®”

(thanks for visiting my twitter btw! it doesn’t really have a lot of followers haha)

sooo, there’s weibo and its automatic watermarks (location can be changed).

“damn, all the users on weibo are claiming stuff as their own!!!! it’s not just a marker that a certain thing was posted from a certain blog!!! they’re claiming it as theirs even tho it’s clearly very easy to see that it’s one of many free-for-all official images!!!” (≧◡≦)

and i’ve seen people use the cards as banners for fanfics and other stuff, or even memes where they put random stuff on it like this:

but writing a random word on it, just because you know my blog is somehow a great sin? it’s not even acrispyapple.tumblr.com ✿

would it maybe make you feel better if it wasn’t just acrispyapple? i can use random words and it’ll still serve as a marker for me lmao

anyway anon, it pays to actually listen and read before you get mad and accuse. i’m not breaking any rules and i’m very much aware of what’s not allowed and what’s allowed. (^ ^*)♡

edit:

i kinda like it. (^◔ᴥ◔^)

side note: if you have a vendetta against me, you’re free to have one. but please don’t try to make stuff up just to yell at me. you can hate me quietly from afar or just avoid me altogether. or if you want to find a reason to yell at me, at least try to educate yourself about what you’re planning on yelling at me about. it’ll save me time trying to explain stuff! i also don’t like wasting my post slots for the day. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i would suggest looking at my actual content first, so your lack of knowledge of it doesn’t give you away. also, try asking yourself if you really think cybird’s en team would miss me after all these years and if you’re somehow the only enlightened one who can see all my ~misgivings~? are you aware of mlqc’s rules?

it’s funny because i’m not even close to covering everything for mlqc and there are blogs that cover far more than i do. i answer a lot of asks (i wish asks were paid content, as in i get paid to answer asks), but game content-wise, i’m faaaar from covering everyone. unless you really consider victor the whole game (♡). in which case i’m still missing his ch11 and ch19 screenies and one date. oh and the recent rumors&secrets! if you take a look at my posts, it’s mostly announcements, asks, fanart, general info, avatar posts, etc. i think you blindly went in with salt. ( ˙▿˙ )

i don’t really interact with people unless i have to talk about reposts and fanart-related stuff. i also just talk about games on my blog. so i don’t know what i could’ve done to merit your hatred. maybe you dislike that i ask for basic courtesy or that i enforce rules given to me by artists? i’m always polite tho. hmm, mystery-desu! ✩‧₊˚

#asks #anon #personal #saltier than the dead sea #plz come because i have watermelon #(っ˘ڡ˘ς)#showing comic sans some love

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nokikissa · 5 years

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Whooooooooo did it, beat the story of borderlands 3 now. It took me 42 hours but I think I got still like some of those fight wave of enemies arena things I could do but I’ll look into that later, I did all the crew challenges and side mission outside of those type of things.

Story and character wise it was a bit of a mixed bag, there were a lot of things I like and couple things I really didn’t like, but all in all I had fun, the gameplay was excellent, and most likely I will play it again, to co-op with buddies or to try out different vault hunters.

Putting more in-depth thoughts about some story and character things under the cut, extreme major spoiler warning as I’ll be talking about like big plot moments and such.

I quite like most of the new characters they introduced in this, I’ve only played Fl4k and loved them, but from everything I’ve seen I feel like I’ll love the other new vault hunters as well. The Calypso twins were delightful villains, very entertaining but also like I couldn’t wait to get to kill them lmao. And then there’s like Ava, I loved her and her relationship with Maya that was good stuff. And Wainwright I quite liked as well, and I was very happy that Hammerlock finally has a boyfriend and is in a good relationship. And also Lorelei and Clay were both good too, tho I probably like Lorelei more of those haha.

How it handled some old characters tho.... That’s a bit mixed. Like I liked a lot of them: Lilith, Eliie, Tannis, Maya, Zer0, Sir Hammerlock.... Even Rhys! They got Rhys down surprisingly well in my opinion! Obviously he was bit more comedic and doofy but like it was still reminiscent of how Rhys acted in like comedic moments of tales, I could recognize where they got his personality from and so on, it was fine!

...Which makes it even more baffling that they fucked up Vaughn so completely that with Vaughn it feels like the writer maybe got a super vague description of the character at best which had been passed down through multiple people twisting it around like a game of broken telephone. I just don’t understand where they pulled some character traits for him at all.... During the game I tried my best to ignore his existence, which worked well for a long while until the game made you go back to pandora and made him story relevant again, god every time he spoke my reaction was like “please shut up...”

But. I knew that was coming. The Commander Lilith DLC and promotional pics and so on made it clear ahead of time that I would not like Borderlands 3 Vaughn. I had had time to go through the stages of grief and resign to being all well I’m gonna be one of those salty tales fans and keep on drawing content of like tales Vaughn and ignore the rest of the canon for him.

So anyway I was really liking the story during like the Promethea Atlas Vs. Maliwan Arc actually, Rhys and Zer0 and their interactions were fun, Katagawa was an enjoyable villain as well, I just hope the fandom don’t make him annoying to me... So yeah that arc was good and fun.... and then the Promethea Vault happened. I am still a bit on the fence about how I feel about Maya getting killed off. On one hand, I did not see that coming and it did get an emotional “Nooo D:” reaction out of me, which well I’ve seen games with similar character getting killed off scenes that are supposed to be a big deal but my reaction is just like “ok”, like Borderlands 2 with Roland for example. But like yeah I didn’t want her to die, and it feels like kind of a waste cos let’s face it in 2 she didn’t have that much personality since the game didn’t do voice lines for the vault hunters reacting to the story etc. So now she was finally getting to be her own character I feel like aaaand then she dies. :/

And then we moved on to the Eden 6 arc and initially I was excited all Oh get to meet Hammerlock’s Boyfriend! But soon my excitement soured............

So Aurelia’s evil now huh.... And like cartoonishly evil...... Man I hate what they did with Aurelia in this game, it really smashed my good mood coming from the promethea arc to this.... Like in pre-sequel sure she kept claiming herself to be evil and a bitch and so on, but yet when Jack did like actually horrible shit she did not agree with those, she felt bad about Felicity’s fate and didn’t agree with Jack killing the scientist, she even objected when Jack was killing off all claptraps! But nah here’s she’s evil, murdering people left and right and also fucked Troy Calypso cos idk she evil now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Like god............ I really didn’t expect Aurelia of all the characters whose portrayal I’d be having this much issues but here we are... I guess I’m more pissed about it atm cos as I said with Vaughn I knew what was coming, but with Aurelia I kinda feel Bait and switched by the promotional material cos in all of those that I saw they showed like both the Hammerlocks and Wainwright standing next to each other so you know I was expecting her to be an ally, like maybe she and Alistair had started to tolerate each other and so on but NOPE! Go kill this character you like! Thanks a lot gearbox...

That’s the major issues I had with characters I suppose, Tho it is a bit disappointed Maya and Zer0 were only vault hunters from 2 that showed up. Would’ve been fun to get more personality for more of them. I did find some echo logs involving Krieg at one point which were interesting, aaaand according to like the sort of background filler assets Axton does porn now lmao. Also hmm where were Athena and Janey? Fiona and Sasha? So many characters missing... I know they’ve said probably more characters show up in dlcs, but still. Story wise kinda funny tho, like did Lilith contact the vault hunters from 2 for help at all? Were all of them like “sry I’m busy ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ “??

Also one weird bit about the Eden 6 arc, it felt kiiinda out of place for borderlands that there were npcs being all “Oh man I sure love the Jakobs family they treat me well”, borderlands has sorta been all “the gun corporation suck” beforehand... I suppose the Promethea arc was bit too pro corporation in some way, but with that at least mostly the npc I saw were like “Rhys says he’s trying to do good with atlas... hm we shall see how that’ll pan out...” suspicion, but with the Jakob there were characters being all oh Jakobs is so great such good corporation :)

At the end side of the game you could get sooo much lore about like sirens which I loved, translating the eridian artifact things like clarified on like how sirens come to be and all which is great! According to that siren in her life can choose who specifically inherits her powers after she dies, or “release her powers into the unknown” which when described kinda gave me the impression that it’ll pass those onto some baby that’s born at some point, which yay clarification on the whole are sirens born as sirens or do they get their powers later: answer is both!

And it appears that Angel decided to pass her powers onto Tannis before she died? Which is interesting. And aw Maya chose Ava to inherit her powers.

That ending tho..... uhhh isn’t Elpis an inhabited place? How did that whole thing affect the people living on elpis lmao....?

And god that ending credits song, it is fitting but I just can’t take it seriously asfsfdggs...

i guess I’ll now move onto talking about the gameplay....

The gameplay was great. Same old Borderlands gameplay except with some improvements making it better, and that is exactly what I wanted from the game.

I especially love the way the guns are now and how much variety there is between the manufacturers, and even within them! Like previously I rarely liked to use shotguns in borderlands games, but in this one I fell in love specifically with the Maliwan Shockwave shotguns, and when one I had started to be too low leveled I desperately tried looking for new one everywhere lol.

And also Atlas gun’s smart bullet gimmick is so good especially now that I played on console, I know I joked about that before the game came out I’m sorry Rhys lol.

I really enjoyed the environments in the game, the planets looked cool and unique, and the maps were interesting. And god some of them are so huge! Which does cause some issue tho... They are weirdly stingy with ammo vending machines. In previous games they usually had ammo vending machines before like boss fight rooms, but in this one nope! Most of the time they only have those in like beginning of the map or like where fast travel points are? That’s annoying... And another issue is that the maps are big and sorta maze-like at times, so even though you have the mission marker in the mini map, I still needed to constantly open the map to see how to get to it, you can’t just go straight in the direction of the mission marker.

Gotta say, I was bit disappointed that we only visited Athenas to get Maya, I was hoping we’d return there cos the planet was very pretty but nope....

Fl4k’s gameplay was really fun, I got the skill that lets fl4ks pet heal you and man that skill is a lifesaver, there were some boss fights I survived purely because of Mr Chew keeping me alive by reviving me lol.

I did encounter few glitched that caused me to have to restart the game cos some mission objective got stuck somewhere and I couldn’t advance, that was a bit annoying. But it was only very few and like well into the game, compared to the hours I played it feels like a pretty good track record for playing a game right on it’s release haha.

So uh yeah. In summary again: Extremely fun gameplay, mixed bag story and characters. Had fun, will play again.

#lol enjoy my +1700 word thoughts on the game #pointless text post is pointless #bl3 spoilers #i really mean the spoilers thing for real yo #borderlands 3

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sillyfudgemonkeys · 5 years

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Persona Problems: Apathy Syndrome, Mental Shutdowns, and Reverse Cases

Sooooo uhhh I can’t sleep so might as well ramble about this.

Comparing and contrasting the 3, ranting on why Mental Shutdowns are called Mental Shutdowns and why it’s stupid, and trying to fix PTS’ Reverse Cases.

An issue I’ve had with P5 tbh (I think I’ve talked about this before), but while thinking about it I realized that......my own idea of fixing P:TS’ Reverse Cases instead....made me realized some complications (I mean the complication was there to begin with but I’ll get to that).

Anyway I’ll save Reverse Cases for last since I’m sure most of you are only here for P3/5. 8U

So one thing that bothered me in P5 is.....the fact they call Mental Shutdowns well...Mental Shutdowns. I mean because....it’s just Apathy Syndrome (or at least, how it’s called by the public, “Mass Lethargy Syndrome, which we find out in P4D, as a similar case is happening there).

Well let me explain what each one basically is.

Apathy Syndrome. is basically when a person’s shadow goes on vacation in P3, and Nyx/Full Moon bosses be giving out those vacation tickets like Oprah when well....the Full moon comes around. 8U I mean technically the person’s shadow gets “eaten” by a Dark Hour Shadow (and yes it’s their shadow, MegaTen says “psyche” but it’s clarified more that by psyche they mean shadow). Basically, while there are technicalities in HOW the shadow isn’t in the person’s body, the fact remains it happens because the shadow is not in the body. As for what happens to the person, they usually go into a coma/vegetative state and will die without medical help.

Mass Lethargy Syndrome:

Now let’s look at Mental Shutdowns. It happens when a Shadow Self is killed.....ok.....so basically that means the Shadow is not there anymore. The Shadow is not in the body. Basically the same exact thing as Apathy Syndrome. What happens to the body? Same exact thing as Apathy Syndrome, they go into coma/vegetative state and will die without medical help. I mean sometimes they’ll die right on the spot for no good reason(ok maybe not RIGHT on the spot, stupid delay reaction Okumura....fudging things up), but of the 3/4 we saw, we know 2/3 (dunno if I should count train guy, but Wakabe and Kobayashi def count) died because they fell in traffic and not by whatever Okumura conveniently got. Also this doesn’t count Ichiko’s friend who was just in a coma, so it seems Okumura’s reaction is.....VERY rare. Btw fun fact, in P3′s 1st movie, something similar happens at a train station that mirrors Wakabe/Kobayashi, someone gets Apathy syndrome and falls in front of a train (I know it’s the movie, but the game DOES say there was a delay and the movie spells it out for us it’s cause of a body on the train tracks so.....there might be some weight to the movie).

Now PTS....I’m....I’m mostly gonna focus on Reverse Cases, I mean this anime has Apathy Syndrome but I don’t recall it (or I didn’t get that far into it), and the wiki states it’s when a Persona is taken or destroyed, while Reverse Cases (as well as Kagenuki) specifically mention Shadows....and I dunno it could be P:TS being weird again and not knowing how the relationship between Personas/Shadows work, but then again Kagenuki was used so that people could tell if that person has a strong shadow and thus strong Persona and....basically I don’t think the creators through it through or the wiki is missing some info. ANYWAY, Reverse Cases are similar, it’s where a Shadow is forcibly taken by another Persona user for a certain goal of summoning something more powerful by gathering those Personas (if any of you Arena/Ultimax fans feel like you might’ve heard something like this before yeah I think they repurposed P:TS’s thing), and when that happens the person is turned inside out! Whoops! Well that’s a bit different, but hey same concept, shadow leaving the body (THAT BEING SAID it’s understandable why it’s called something different, the outcome is different compared to AS and MS). (btw Kagenuki is where you pull a Shadow/Persona out but it’s used to relieve stress or some BS, it’s temporary and....it’s kinda more like you are forcing someone to summon their Persona rather than take it....unless you are discount Strega aka Marebito then they are trying to actually take it).

Fun Fact: P2IS I believe is the first place that showcases Apathy Syndrome (or whatever we wanna call all 3/4 of these things), as the character Yukino experience similar symptoms when her Shadow Self commits suicide. P2IS didn’t have a name for it but....just a fun fact. 8U

Anyway before I pick apart P:TS’ mess, lemme get back to P5. Why the fudge do they call it something different? Like I GET MS’ process is a little different, but the outcome is pretty much identical, esp to the public....who are the one’s naming the phenomenon. Like us the players know it’s different, one is caused by the Dark Hour and is temporary, the other is caused by Goro being an asshole and it seems like this one is a bit more permanent....BUT THE PUBLIC DOESN’T KNOW THAT! To them it should be “Apathy Syndrome/Mass Lethargy Syndrome has returned and a new phenomenon ‘Psychotic Breakdowns’ has emerged!” you could possibly connect them due to both showing up at around the same time, but calling AS something different? No, to the public it’s pretty much the same, people are becoming vegetables and we dunno how to help them. In all honesty, just because the way shadows are leaving people’s bodies are a bit different, I don’t think it warrants a new name...in fact I think it can be confusing “Wait isn’t it basically the same thing? How/why is it called something different?” it just raises unneeded questions. And no you can’t make the argument that ‘maybe AS wasn’t well known’ because 1) it’s mentioned later in P4D (and I think even in Arena), albeit by a different but similar sounding title and 2) even a small town like Inaba’s murder mystery was still being alluded to in P5 about 5ish years later in-game....and Iwatodai is a city and it was being talked about on the news A LOT.....so no it’s not a small town/city thing.

But...”Well why aren’t you complaining about P4D’s re-name?” Probably cause the rumor of knowing the cause of MLS vs AS/MS. MLS is associated with the cursed video, while AS/MS are unknown to the public..... Or maybe AS was just known as MLS to the mass public or it’s a phenomenon where a bunch of people fall to AS, I need to replay P4D tbh if there are additional details I’m missing, but the fact remains that, to the public, MLS has a possible root cause while the other two do not so it’s possible to let that slide....tho it brings up the fact MS should either be called AS or MLS.... Esp because there’s also the fact that P4D is probably taking place in Tokyo (P3/4/4D basically just call it “the city,” but I think it’s heavily hinted to be Tokyo, heck a quick google search lead me to a LMB festival look alike, aka Tokyo Idol Festival so....yeah 8U). Which makes it even more jarring for P5 since WE KNOW it takes place in Tokyo so why are they using two names for the same thing??? It’s like.....calling the Chicken Pox something like “Polly Pocket Pox,” same symptoms, we just feel like calling it something totally random and new now for no reason even tho it’s literally the exact same thing in everyone’s eyes. 8U

Anyway end rant on P5′s annoying alt naming, now for P:TS.

So.....Reverse Cases are a bit of a mess....both in the show (damn it be bloody) and.....lore wise (not new to P:TS bless its soul....haha soul....pun not intended). Lore wise it doesn’t make sense. I mean P3/4D/5′s way of doing it we basically have different ways of doing X1+A/B/C but we still get the same Y (basically X+A=Y, X+B=Y, and X+C=Y for P3/4D/5 respectively, X=a shadow leaving, A/B/C=the different forms aka Full Moon/Cursed Video/Goro-murders). RC is different, it’s end result is different even if say.....it’s the same as P5 (P5 involve another human harming another Person’s shadow so yeah). So with PTS, instead of X+C=Y, it’s now X+C=Z (Shadow leaving+basically stealing and absorbing the shadow=a person explodes).....so with PT X+C≠Y.....and that’s.....that’s some problems. Because PTS equates the shadow leaving with the person exploding (we’re ignoring AS in this universe cause....we don’t need more problems).

So....to fix it.....I originally thought “maybe add one more thing to the equation!” Have it be X+C+D=Z. With D= maybe the shadow goes berserk before it’s eaten and that’s how the person is exploded. Kinda similar to how Personas can turn on their user in P3 and strangle them....or in P4 the Shadow Selves....do something that kills them. I mean they both try to kill their hosts and seem to do different things to get the job done, and how they do it could result in a different outcome (P3 it’s strangulation tho not sure if traceable, P4 it’s unknown, PTS it’s explosion). There fix right? Nope.......I realized, thanks to P4 esp....there’s an issue....And this exists with how RCs already operate not just my fix it tweak. The issue is that.....once the person is killed, the shadow self (and by extension the Persona) disappears with it....

“Ok how is that bad?” Well the point of the RC are that the Marebito are gathering Shadows(/Personas) to make themselves stronger (and so that what’s his face can summon something, keeping it vague for spoilers but hey already dropped a spoiler so whatevs). But.....as soon as the Person explodes that Shadow should cease to exist. Rendering everything moot.

Which means we need to change PTS again, and we can do it a few ways thankfully! I mean you might have to rewrite PTS for some of the options but.....like it already needs rewrites so klnvkds;vna Anyway here’s what we can do:

No RCs! Instead it’s just Apathy Syndrome a new wave. What ain’t broke don’t fix it. Personas/Shadows are still stolen, but we just keep the symptoms as AS and just call it AS (or MLS, I’m down for either)

Might be an issue with getting the police involved, so either with the revamp have Shadow Ops be involved

Or make it so the police think AS in PTS has a different patter compared to P3′s so they think it might be a group or some BS.

Keep the RC, but don’t make it about stealing shadows/personas to make something stronger or summon something. Instead just make it about a (or a group of) serial killer(s)!

Either they just use their Persona to explode people

Or they utilize the Kagenuki to draw out the shadow self to do it for them!.

Use both 1 and 2, by which I mean I guess pull a P5 (aka have two going at the same time like P5 has with Mental Shutdowns and Psychotic Breakdowns, and RC could be the reason the police get involved), AS is when they steal the shadow, RC is when they wanna kill a person without the weird as time delay MS has at times.

I feel like I had more to say but it’s late and.....I think I’ll just end it here. 8V

#persona 3 #persona 5 #persona trinity soul #p3 #p5 #pts #tbh I should replay P4D cause I can't remember if Mass Lethargy Syndrome is the true public name for AS or #if they are doing what P5 is doing and calling the same thing by a different name #persona problems #persona 5 problems

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phanbliss · 5 years

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i'm asking out of a place of wanting to understand, so please don't assume i am accusing you or attacking you, but regarding a post you reblogged recently, it was an ask where templeofshame claimed that if dnp weren't together it would be kind of like "baiting" us but i really don't think that's fair? they haven't EVER said or pretended to be in a closeted relationship, only been friends that joke a bit about their occasionally romantic tendencies, i have friends who think me pt.1

this ask is long due to there being several messages, so i’m putting it under a cut. the post in question: x

me and my best friend are together when we’re really not. we’ve said so, but eventually just stopped denying the claim while occasionally joking about it. i think its unfair of us to act like they owe us something? they don’t owe us a “coming out” (i agree with op tho that coming out has issues of it own, but its the most relevant term) neither do they have to tell us if they aren’t together.

however we perceive their relationship is our business, and as long as we aren’t toxic about it pt. 2 then really we shouldn’t care about ppl calling us “silly shippers” cause shipping them isn’t weird or rude, i, myself, truly believe they are together, but i don’t think that they owe us anything. they are real people with their own complex lives that we may not understand, heck, that THEY may not understand and they are just living their truth. for whatever reason, they may feel that they don’t want to tell people that they’re in a relationship (if they are in one) pt. 3but neither do they feel the need to (and in my opinion, shouldn’t feel the need to) explain and clarify their status to us.

it isn’t in any way baiting or manipulation. if we decide to invest our lives and our time into writing fanfics and making art then that is our choice! they are obviously fine with it so long as it isn’t shoved in their faces, but they don’t owe us clarification, maybe i’m misunderstanding something, i just don’t think it’s fair to say that they are being manipulative pt.4simply by being themselves?

they are their own people with their own reasons for keeping private or not telling us. they have never pretended like phan is real, have even denied it in the past, never made merch or something that has catered to shippers specifically. they have simply let us be (even if dan was quite rude about it before, but i believe he has improved a lot over the years) and made some quips about it. they choose to share parts of their lives with us and however pt5 the phandom reacts to that is our “issue”.

in summary, i believe that it is unfair to say that if they aren’t together it means we have been baited and manipulated and “wasted our time” because i really don’t think that’s fair to the good times we have had while shipping them. they are real people that owe us nothing about their private lives and can hide or reveal as much or as little as they want. i do believe that some people DO “queerbait” irl, especially ytbrs, but dnp have never pt.6acted fake or overly romantic to seem like they’re in love, their bond, in my opinion is genuine, and whatever we read into that is valid, but it doesn’t mean that they owe us an explanation.

i think i should end this now, but before i go, know that i do NOT intend this to be a dig at anyone, just wanted to share my perspective and ask your opinion about what i’ve just shared. i just see ppl acting like dnp could qb us and it kind of makes me think. have a nice day, take care, peace out! end

ooof anon, i appreciate that you sent this to me, but i’m really not the right person for it! i’m not one of the smart people in this fandom, nor one of the cool ones, so discussing things with me over anon is not as fun and rewarding as sending an ask to one of the popular people haha. but i’ll reply with my thoughts anyway!

we’ve had discussions about this on IDB before and my opinion hasn’t changed since the last time i said anything on this subject.

TO BEGIN WITH: i in no way believe they are consciously encouraging the shipping to make money. they are two people in a long term relationship that navigate a difficult world of being queer, being popular and trying to stay private.

1) “me and my friend” - while i definitely appreciate and understand that, we have to try to not compare dnp to ourselves if we want to make a proper point. i could say that me and my friend x haven’t talked in 2 years but i still consider them a friend, which doesn’t mean that it’s the norm for everyone - same goes for the “me and my friend” arguments concerning dnp. i don’t mean you necessarily, i mean things i’ve seen over the years. “me and my friend always say i love you! we live together! we spend all our time together! we’re platonic!” - that’s awesome but it doesn’t mean anything about dnp

2) i don’t think @templeofshame acted like dnp owe us anything. i took it more as like at this point, dnp admitting to having been platonic this whole time (lol i’m laughing while typing this) would have been a form of queerbaiting. templeofshame never said they owe us a “coming out” or anything like that

3) you have to remember that their audience is largely queer. to a lot of the younger fans, they are some sort of role models and maybe even eye-openers when it comes to their [fans’] own sexuality. they are most likely aware of this and definitely accept it.

4) the biggest thing i guess i should explain is why i believe that them having been platonic this whole time would have been some form of queerbaiting and… and there is no way to put it while still being nice? so forgive me, this is my opinion and i’m not trying to start drama.

they DEFINITELY benefit off phan. they have since the start (or at least dan). back in their younger days, people didn’t really ship them as much as assume they were a couple, that’s how they behaved and most people would jump to that conclusion. when shit hit the fan (vday + general life stress) and dan started lashing out, shipping got real hard. and dnp could have left it there, could have left shipping as that elephant in the room that we’re not allowed to mention, but no

slowly, gradually, they went back to accepting shipping. they haven’t denied anything in years and in many ways they encourage it. and really, no one will make me believe that they - as in the joint brand of dan and phil - would be as popular as they are without the shipping. lots of people watch them for their chemistry and hear of them through phan. they themselves no longer shy away from it - see tatinof fanfic scenes, their fanfics in tabinof, all sorts of things i’m too tired to mention - lots of recent things from this year.

so yeah, i believe they are very aware of phan and accept it, and if they accepted it while being two bros in ~other relationships~ or ~perpetually single~ then yeah, i would feel it’s wrong. not because they said something outright but because 9+ years of certain behaviors are as good as admitting to it.

they are basically out at this point, both as not being straight and being a couple, and i’m happy they got there on their own terms.

bottomline - i firmly believe they’re together and all that is missing is an actual confirmation - which we don’t ‘need’ - but if they weren’t together, we’d be right to be upset by this point.

idk if this answered your ask but i’m really tired and as i said, i’m dumb so you’re better off asking someone cooler than me hah :)

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aharris00britney · 6 years

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ASKS 08

rip it’s a lot of stuff, some good, some weird….

Anonymous said: do you like eating ass? I bet your booty is thicc and juicy :)

idk who would even send this but ummm I’m a bottom so yeah.. that answers that wedhfnsh have u nice day/night <3

@thesimpley2k said: your cc is so beautiful! and you’re a britney stan :) ily sis

thank youuuuu omg ily2 lmao I don’t voice my Britney stanness much but once B10 starts getting more hyped up I’ll be back up there! Thank you again and rip original make me MV

Anonymous said: Oof I need all of your wip hairs right now

oof you haven’t even seen half of them sweetie ;) I have 10 wip hairs as of now so like… you’ve seen 4 on this blog through edits/playlists. the rest are on my patreon and some go on my wips section in my discord (omg shameless plug im sorry but its true)

Anonymous said: Can we gift you packs through origin?

if u want?? idrk how that works tbh ;-; if u did tho like rsdfgfbvc thank you!!! I prob will only buy packs that I can use for cc from now on tbh ;-; my computer is at that point where i need to be really picky about stuff, plus imo they arent worth it wedfgdbfn i regret buying most of the SP’s

Anonymous said: Are you posting a shorter version of the Zoey Hair as shown in your latest post because it looks amazing?!!!!!

thank you!!! That is basically what the idea of it is lmao, but I think im gonna make an accessory hair clip for it too. Not 100% sure yet tho

@agentwashsims said: Crying over the wip hair and the grimes reference! Okay you’re still perfect and ily that it all okay bye.

aaah thank you! grimes is so good omg Art Angels is my favorite album but there are a lot of ongs on Visions I like as well. I like a little bit of Halfaxa toooooo

Anonymous said: Hi, would it be possible for you to just reupload the lydia hair post? As it’s marked as sensitive content, I can’t see the picture and I’d really like to be able to have a look at it before I download it.

Hi! I emailed tumblr support about it since it has been over a month since it has been up for review. Hopefully they get it worked out soon <3 there is a picture of it on my download page if you want to look at it there

Anonymous said: Hey, how do I do Patreon? I want to but i’m new to all those things of Patreon cause now I want lots of hairs that need it, and I wanna learn how can I Patreon you!

Hello! Hopefully you see this haha. Patreon is sort of like Netlfix in it is a monthly charge for goods. To get 3 cc hairs early each month, it is a $1 pledge. Higher pledges get better rewards(such as watching me work on cc, getting to vote on hair releases, and more). I think that Patreon is a great way to help support creators as long as they do it right (no exclusive CC). I really hope this helps you and thank you so much if you decide to pledge any ammount <3

Anonymous said: When are going to upload your maxis match hairlines? Like in a post

oml I am horrible lmao I deleted them and don’t seem to have them backed up, but I will maybe make more in the future?? I honestly don’t find them that usable on most hairs but everybody is different so we will see <3

Anonymous said: Is the black braided hair on your April Playlist a WIP? If not WCIF it cuz it’s gorgeous <333 Ily.

issa wip for Juneee

Anonymous said: how old are you?

18 d2f m4m

Anonymous said: What is your Origin ID?

spotharris

Anonymous said: Hey! I 🖤 ur content btw and I wanted to just like clarify something. Ur posts say u can recollect but don’t include the mesh. What does that mean exactly??? Do people still need the mesh for the recollections to show up in game?? Sorry if this is really dumb, I’m a new simblr. Thx!

hey!! sorry for the super late reply omg, welcome to simblr!! it is kinda crazy here but hopefully u can find ur peeps and make a nice home :) anywaysssss i think u mean recoloring, which is like when people add different colors other than the 18 EA base colors. I don’t allow people to use the meshes mainly bc I know that sometimes I have to go back and update things and this way the recolors don’t have a broken mesh and require that person to redo their package.

Anonymous said: whose ur fave member of lOoNa

my rankings as of right now: Kim Lip, Go Won, Olivia Hye, JinSoul, HyunJin, Chuu, HeeJin, Choerry, HeeJin, HaSeul, ViVi, and then YeoJin

also omfg if u have jinsoul/kim lip/choerry limited edition mix&match photocard and would like to gift me it then umm PLEASE they are impossible to find and i need for my collection ;-;

@disneynsims said: I am also a massive Britney Spears fan, and I have to say I appreciate you naming your hairs after her songs. I do make one small request, that a hair eventually be named after one of her best bonus tracks, “Up n’ Down”.

omg Up N’ Down is one of my least favorites on femme fatale grfbg but thank you!! I don’t really name hairs after her songs anymore :(

@issharky said: you’ve improved so much over the time! ive been following (on tsr and tumblr since i joined) since like 2016! ♥ still love your blog!

ygvhbjn i didnt have a tsr but go awf lmao thank you!!! i was a mess in 2016 and a lil of 2017 <3

Anonymous said: Ur such a babe austin

thx for sending this @dogsill ur a babe too 😘

Anonymous said: Discord? Patreon? And this are how a good simblr die

oof discord is literally like a groupchat thing but go off also patreon makes it so i release 3 hairs a month when before it was like 1 or 2 so ummm

Anonymous said: I have recently downloaded blender to make cc hairs, but I can’t zoom in, rotate, or do anything basically. Do you know of any tutorials that explain how to use it well/ in detail? (I have a windows laptop). Anyway, I recently discovered your hairs and I am in love!! Thank you for making so many beautiful pieces of cc!

urgg i really wish i could make video tutorials and stuff for blender and hairs :( I have tried about 3 or 4 times to record/stream and it is so laggy and just pure shit on stream and twitch. I kind of just learned stuff as i went in blender but a must have is a mouse of some kind, otherwise it is 10x harder

@alexschmidt629 said: Hey! I hope you’re doing a bit better than the last time you made your last post! I’m sorry to hear about all of that, being a senior is so difficult and college stuff is even more difficult. I hope you’re doing better!

thank you! I’m doing a bit better now :)

Anonymous said: holy shit it sounds like everything that literally could’ve gone wrong did. wishing u love and luck bb. and also i think its absolutely FINE that u put ur stuff up on patreon early, it’s still free in the end!! its just a choice to actually compensate cc creators for all that they do for us. god that person was just so rude and im kinda surprised at how kindly you took it. props to u xx

yeah dsgf everything kinda went shitty the past few months but hopefully it all turns itself around :) and I try not to pick at any rude anons/asks in general bc I feel like by doing that it just causes more attention on the issue and more people/trolls want to jump on the band wagon. Thank you!!

Anonymous said: Oh honey, you need prayers and I wish you the best of luck with fasts, college, moving, and the rest of your life. Stay strong hon you got this!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

thank you <3

Anonymous said: hi is there a version off the Ella hair that has a bun in the back or am I crazy? probs crazy honestly, but thx for answering

I think you are thinking of my Maja hair? It has a different bottom but it has those same bangs! It is here

#asks #oml it was at 247 so im sorry if yours isnt in this

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joonie-beanie · 6 years

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Welcome To The Wild Side [5]

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Genre: Superpowers + College AU

Rated: T

Words: 4,144

A/N: Look an update no one asked for but I felt like writing this story so hahhhhh. Also...an outrageously long update. But splitting it into 2 parts would be pointless, so here we are.

Over the course of the next week, nothing too out of the ordinary happens in your life or around campus. A few fights, and issues with silly graffiti on school buildings, but no red-eyed madmen or anything of the sort.

Just…

You stare down at the test grade in front of you, the first of 5 tests grades that make up the entirety of your class grade. The C- registers in your brain loud and clear, and with the next test right around the corner, you choose to set your pride aside for once and message your friends to ask for help. Sadly, both of your good girlfriends are too busy with work and their own homework to lend you a hand in studying.

Flopping backwards onto your bed, you stare at the ceiling, your phone lifted above your face. After a few seconds of internal debate, you click open your messaging app and open a tab to create a new chat group.

[The Only Girl] invited you to the chat “That One Girl And The 7 Dorks”

[H O B I] joined the chat

[Agust D] joined the chat

[H O B I]: Nice chat name. Creative.

[Eldest Hyung] joined the chat

[Agust D]: God please no do not drag me into another group chat

[Eldest Hyung]: You could always just silence the notifications.

[Eldest Hyung]: But that would be R 0 0 d

[Jeon Seagull] joined the chat

[Jeon Seagull]: Yoongi is already rude tho

[Agust D]: I’m still your hyung even in this chat, you fucker.

[TaeTae] joined the chat

[RM] joined the chat

[TaeTae]: Yoongi

[Jeon Seagull]: Yoongi

[TaeTae]: Yoongi

[ChimChim] joined the chat

[ChimChim]: you two prepare to get your ass’s beat I will sit out of this one

[RM]: Suga hyung please don’t kill JK yet tho he owes me 10 dollars for pizza

[Jeon Seagull]: fuck I can’t believe you remembered that

[The Only Girl]: Um.....

[The Only Girl]: I made this chat to literally ask one simple question to the 7 of you but suddenly you’re talking about beating asses.

[H O B I]: Whoops

[Agust D]: what’s your question then?

[The Only Girl]: Oh, I was just wondering if anyone out of the 7 of you is good at math. I need some help

[TaeTae]: SHe neEDs sOmE mILK

[Jeon Seagull]: Nice. 9/10.

[RM]: I can probably help. Just gotta work around our schedules.

[The Only Girl]: Really??? Awesome! I’ll hit it up so we can work out a time then.

[RM]: sounds good!

[Eldest Hyung]: Good guy Namjoon

[The Only Girl]: Btw…I think I have it figured out but who is everyone? ;; I don’t know all your weird nicknames yet.

[H O B I]: Oh! TaeTae you can probably figure is Taehyung. RM is Namjoon, Agust D is Yoongi hyung, ChimChim is Jimin, Jeon Seagull is Jungkook, Eldest Hyung is Jin hyung, and I am Hoseok lol

[Jeon Seagull]: Dammit hyung you should’ve made her guess!!

[The Only Girl] changed [Eldest Hyung]’s nickname to [Eldest Oppa]

[The Only Girl]: WHOOPS HAHA DIDN’T KNOW IT’D CHANGE FOR EVERYONE

[TaeTae]: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[Jeon Seagull]: HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Eldest Oppa]: …this is surprisingly really cute

[Agust D]: not for the rest of us.

[The Only Girl] changed [Eldest Oppa]’s nickname to [Old Guy Jin]

[Jeon Seagull]: BETTER

[ChimChim]: oh my god it’s like she’s one of us.

[Old Guy Jin]: TEARS

[The Only Girl]: ANYWAY Namjoon I’ll message you separately. I’m going to bed now. GOODNIGHT

[RM]: Sounds good. Night.

[H O B I]: Night!

[ChimChim]: Good night!

[Agust D]: All of you shut up and go to bed

3 days later, you grab your bag and step outside to lock the door to your apartment, momentarily ignoring the new bloody shoelace that rests on the cement by your feet. That’s the 4th one in the last 2 weeks, but since nothing had ever occurred because of them, you’ve just come to assume there are some squirrels nearby having some intense fights.

Nudging the bloody lace with the tip of your converse, you push it over the balcony and begin walking away, not bothering to watch and see where it lands. After all, it’s already 3pm, and with the library being a 15 minute walk away, you’re currently running behind to make the set time you and Namjoon had agreed upon.

Either way, you make your way onto main campus, wincing as the wind causes you to stumble from behind. You hadn’t heard anything about there being outrageously strong wind today, but damn, this wind is really making you stumble.

In fact, the wind somehow follows you all the way to the library, a particularly hard gust causing you to fall forward and jam your knee and palm against the cement steps just as you had intended to climb them.

“Oh shit, are you ok?” a random girl asks, coming to your side. You smile, laughing off the pain and assuring her you’re ok. Then, the wind finally seeming to have relented, you limp up the rest of the stairs and enter the lobby of the building. Namjoon is there waiting for you, and he glances up from his phone, waving when he sees that you’ve finally arrived.

“Hey--! ...are you limping?”

“Yeah, uh…a really nasty wind shoved me as I was climbing the steps, so I fell,” you explain, and Namjoon frowns.

“If you want I could--,” he begins to say, and then his words stop. You look up just in time to see his cheeks flush pink, and he coughs, awkwardly looking away.

“There’s a spot on the second floor I go to study, if you’re not opposed,” he switches topic, ignoring the way your eyebrows have raised suspiciously.

“Wherever is fine,” you respond, deciding to let it drop, and Namjoon nods. Taking the lead, he guides you up the stairs to the second floor of the library. You maneuver through some computer areas and shelves with specialized books before Namjoon pauses. Ahead of you, hidden within rows of bookshelves, is a fairly large circular table.

“Wow I would have never found this,” you admit in awe, glancing around the space which almost looks like it could be from a fairytale. Namjoon smiles proudly.

“Right? I basically lived in this library for a semester before I found it, so I doubt a lot of other people know its back here. Great when you want to study in peace, though.”

“I bet,” you laugh, and with that, you and Namjoon settle in. First, you pull out your last test, and, despite being ashamed, ask him to help you work through the problems you got wrong. To your surprise Namjoon seems to know exactly what equations you need to use and when, and immediately sets out to help you understand why you’d gotten the answers wrong.

“This might be a silly question to ask but…are you a genius?” you ask after a while, looking up at him in awe. He sets his pencil down, lifting his hand to rub the back of his head somewhat sheepishly. On the table between you is your test, all of the problems you had gotten wrong fixed by Namjoon, who had quickly and efficiently managed to reach the correct answers your professor had written beside every question.

“Not a genius, but uh…sometimes the guys tell me I am.”

“Well shit, I’m with them.”

Namjoon laughs. “You say that now, but I’m also the clumsiest of everyone too.”

You roll your eyes, cracking a smile. “Hey being clumsy has nothing to do with brain smarts. That has more to do with hand eye coordination, so maybe you should work on that.”

“Of course,” he agrees somewhat sarcastically, his eyes trailing you as you stand from your chair and bend down to dig your wallet out of your bag.

“I’m gonna hit up the café downstairs and buy a coffee. Care for one?”

“Oh, sure. Lemme grab my--,” he begins, standing to search his pockets, but you stop him.

“My treat! No worries.”

“But—”

“You took time out of your day to help me out, it’s the least I can do,” you smile at him, waving over your shoulder as you start out of the area. “Be back in a minute. Sugar and Cream?”

“Please.”

“I’ll grab a handful,” you say, and with that retrace your steps out of the hidden area. Within minutes you’ve made it downstairs and have attained two small coffees for both you and Namjoon to enjoy. Before heading back to the stairs, you shove some cream and sugar into your pocket, pausing when all of the sudden a short burst of wind comes out of nowhere. Your hair ruffles, a sting burning your cheek, and you glance around.

Where the hell had that wind come from?? The door was too far away for there to be a gust that strong…

Suspicion lingering in your gut, you hurriedly grab your coffees and jog for the elevator. Luckily it’s already on the first floor, so you step right in and head back upstairs, still walking quicker than usual as you weave your way back through the bookshelves.

Namjoon immediately looks up when you return, though the smile drops from his face as soon as he sees your furrowed brows and the injury on your cheek.

“Woah, what happened?” he questions, and you blink in surprise as he raises his hand and brushes his thumb against your cheek. There’s blood.

Your eyes widen, and you move to check it with your own hand before you realize you’re still holding two coffees. You had felt the sting but…how had you gotten cut?

“Hey so uh…this may sound strange but…has anything weird been happening lately? With you, I mean,” he clarifies, and when you look up at him, he’s looking over your head, eyes scanning the rows of books surrounding you.

“Anything out of the ordinary?”

“Besides the wind that somehow followed me all the way to and inside of the library? Nothing much,” you laugh somewhat bitterly, your eyes locked onto his face as you begin to wonder just what’s going on in his mind right now.

“No, say…bloody shoelaces in your path or anything like that?”

He glances down at you. Your eyes widen as you remember that, indeed, you had been coming across bloody shoelaces for some time now, and the look on your face alone is enough to confirm Namjoon’s suspicions.

“Fuck we gotta get outta here,” he curses, turning around and grabbing both of your bags. You stare at his back in shock, watching as he begins haphazardly shoving the papers on the table into your backpack.

“Namjoon?! What the fuck is going on why do we—?”

“So a while ago this girl in one of my classes approached me, asking if I would be her project partner. I said yes and didn’t think anything of it, but as soon as we started spending time together she got super clingy and possessive. Crazy level. Said she wanted me to date her and be hers, but at the time I was already going on a couple dates with a different girl, so—”

“Namjoon,” you interrupt, glancing around frantically as wind breezes through the area, books rattling on the shelf. Sadly, he’s too busy recounting his horror story to remember

“—I told her no. I started backing out of study dates for the project, so I wouldn’t have to see her, but then the girl I was actually going on real dates with started to have weird shit happen to her. The bloody shoelaces, the wind—”

“Namjoon! Oh my god,” you gasp, dropping the coffee to the ground and moving to grip the back of his hoodie as all of the sudden a short, black haired girl appears from around a bookshelf. The wind circling around her causes her hair to whip in all directions, and when she meets your gaze, she scowls, eyes flicking downward. You follow her stare, and note that she’s looking at how you’re clinging onto Namjoon, but right now you’re too scared to care.

She looks about ready to kill.

“—and the guys made me report her to the police and I got a restraining order, so I was hoping that would help. I also haven’t been around any girls in a while since then, but—”

“Namjoon!” you yell just as Namjoon’s crazy stalker screams out, “YOU BITCH!”

At that, Namjoon finally turns around and realizes that his worst fear has come true.

“Oh, fuck.”

“Don’t think I didn’t see you the other day!” she exclaims, rage in her eyes, and when she sees both your and Namjoon’s confused faces she continues on, “Before that attack on campus! I saw you two holding each other in front of the mathematics building!”

You and Namjoon glance at each other, confusion in Namjoon’s eyes and realization in yours, as you remember how you had bumped into him and he’d steadied you. Of the few interactions you’d even had with Namjoon she’d managed to see that?!

“Listen,” you try to explain, holding your hands up calmly, “we’re just—”

At that moment, she flicks her finger and a small blade of wind careens towards you. Instinctively, getting a bad feeling, you move out of the way, gasping in surprise when you feel a small wound open on the side of your neck. Namjoon stares in shock, watching as blood begins to trickle down your skin. The wound isn’t that deep, but still—if you hadn’t moved out of the way…

“Hey, stop. This is going too far,” he finally speaks up, finding his voice and standing his ground. Namjoon steps in front of you, his hand lifting backwards to push you closer to his side, and at the protective gesture the girl’s rage intensifies.

The wind around her spirals out of control, whipping books off of shelves and even causing a few to topple. Nearby you hear screams, and thankfully someone yelling about how they’re going to get the building security.

“Obviously you’re more than friends!” the crazy screams again, taking a step forward. “I saw her buy you a coffee, and she’s wearing high-tops too!”

“Oh my god,” Namjoon groans, but before you can ask what wearing converse has to do with any of this, the girl lashes out her arms. Cursing, Namjoon jumps in front of you, taking the brunt of the damage as a painfully strong wave of wind causes you both to go flying. Your back hits a bookcase and you fall to your knees, but you know staying here is too dangerous, so you grab Namjoon’s wrist and begin to run.

The girl yells after you, but obviously she doesn’t know the aisles of books better than Namjoon, who quickly takes the lead. After a few moments of running you exit the maze of bookshelves, and Namjoon dives behind a nearby computer station, tugging you with him.

You fall to your knees, bracing yourself against his chest as he winces and tries to catch his breath. It’s at that point you notice the cuts in the back of his sweatshirt, and the shallow gashes that line the skin of his back beneath.

“She can uh, turn her wind into blades if she concentrates it enough,” he explains, and you grip his shoulders, bending down to look him in the eyes.

“Namjoon, what the fuck! Why is she—what does Converse have to do with any of this??”

“Oh, so,” he sighs, looking a little embarrassed. “In order to reject her I told her that I have a kink for Converse and only date people who wear high-tops—”

“Oh…my god.”

“—which I made up, but at the time the girl I was going on dates with actually did wear high-tops, so…that’s what started the bloody shoelace thing.”

“As in ‘here is what your white shoelaces are gonna look like if you continue getting it on with my man’?” you clarify, and he frowns in distaste.

“I suppose so.”

“Freaky.”

“Yep,” he agrees, and then pulls you in closer to him when he hears the psycho girl scream, a huge gust of wind blowing through the area. You both hear any of the bookshelves that had remained standing crash against the floor in the background.

“So…run or continue hiding?”

“Security should be here soon, and if we run there’s a higher risk that she’ll be able to hit you with her wind. If we stay put I can at least protect you better,” he whispers, and when you open your mouth, likely going to tell him you don’t need him to protect you, he hushes you.

“I’m the one with the healing powers, remember?”

At that you find yourself with nothing to say, and simply remain hidden against Namjoon as you both wait for security arrive. Sadly, before they can, the girl finds you. She steps up right next to your hiding spot, eyes narrowing as she spots the way you and Namjoon are pressed together in fear.

“Fuck—”

“Run!” Namjoon interrupts, grabbing your wrist and pulling you to your feet. He pushes you ahead of him as you both make a dash for the staircase. Another lash of wind cracks against Namjoon’s back, and you hear him take a painful inhale of breath, stumbling, but he continues running right behind you.

And, finally, just as you both reach the staircase and jump down the first few steps, a group of 5 security men meet you half way.

“Wind powers,” you say out of breath, attempting to give them some kind of warning, and they nod. Preparing their taser guns, 4 of the guards rush onto the second floor, while the fifth guard grabs you both and escorts you downstairs. You hear the girl screaming in pain behind you, but don’t bother looking back. You simply wrap your arm around Namjoon’s middle and attempt to support him as his body begins healing his injuries.

An hour later, when the girl is finally taken into custody, you’ve given your statements to the police, the area of the attack has been documented, and Namjoon’s wounds have nearly healed, the police allow the both of you to return to the second floor of the building to retrieve your things.

“You okay?” you ask as you both carefully step over the rubble, digging your backpacks out from a pile of books.

“Yeah,” he confirms, turning to smile at you apologetically. “I…sorry you got dragged into all this.”

“Hey, no worries,” you laugh, “I know you didn’t mean for this all to happen.”

“True,” he says, quietly laughing as well, and hands you your backpack. You thank him with another smile, and then start back towards the stairs together. However, just as you’re about to reach the staircase, Namjoon grabs your wrist, stopping you. His cheeks are pink again, just like they had been earlier.

“I…I know you know I didn’t mean to drag you into this, but…I wanna make it up to you.”

You blink. “Make it up to me? How…?”

“Well I…I have the ability to heal other people too. It’s very, very minimal compared to my self-regeneration ability, but still…you got hurt because of me, so if you’d let me I’d like to heal you.”

“I mean…sure, Namjoon—”

“But, you have to close your eyes while I do it,” he interrupts, utterly serious, and you blink.

“Do you have to like…get naked to heal me or something?”

“No, nothing that strange,” he responds, breathing a laugh, and you roll your eyes.

“Fine, I trust you.”

At that, Namjoon smiles, apparently happy by your admission, and he leads you over to a table nearby. At his request, you hop up on the surface, setting your bag down, and Namjoon nods.

“Now close your eyes.”

Breathing deep, you do so. You can’t deny the fact that your heart begins beating quicker within your chest, nervous at not knowing what he’s doing, but also somewhat excited as well. Yet, you aren’t left waiting long, because soon enough you feel something press against your knee, and within seconds the dull ache from falling on the stairs earlier begins to soothe.

At first, you’re not sure exactly what part of him is touching you, but you soon realize when you feel his warm breath against your skin as he quietly questions you if your knee feels any better.

“Y-Yeah,” you answer, trying to keep a blush from rising to your cheeks, and, satisfied that he’s done what he can, Namjoon then grabs your wrist and lifts up your palm. He gets to work healing the small scrapes on your palm next, and when you feel his nose brush against your skin too, all of your thoughts are confirmed.

He heals people by kissing them.

Oh god.

“Like I said, my healing is only minimal, you’ll probably still be sore after this, or will have scabs, but it at least speeds up the process,” he mumbles against your skin, and you nod, wondering if he knows that basically breathing against your skin tells you exactly what he’s doing.

But, even so, at his request you keep your eyes closed. After all, he’d seemed pretty embarrassed about admitting this little extra advantage of his power.

“Two more,” he comments once he’s finished with your palm, and before you can even recall where your other two injuries are, his soft lips are pressed against the skin of your cheek. If his kiss wasn’t for the sole purpose of healing you, you’d probably be blushing furiously right now. Fuck, you may be anyway, but—

At that moment his fingers skim the line of your jaw, his lips leaving your cheek. He gently tilts your head to the side, and you feel his hair brush against your chin as his head dips down, lips pressing softly against the area on your neck which had been cut earlier.

Your breath actually catches in your throat at the feeling, and your fingers grip the edge of the table, heart skipping a beat in surprise when you feel Namjoon begin molding his lips against the sensitive skin.

Oh god.

This one feels a little different than the other kisses.

“N-Namjo—”

“Hyung! Y/N! Are you ok?! I heard that—”

A voice suddenly calls, footsteps pounding up the stairs, and your eyes fly open just in time to see Taehyung appear. He looks out of breath, worry creasing his face, but immediately his words stop and the worry fades into something more…smug when manages to catch sight of Namjoon kissing your neck right before the older male jumps back.

“OOoooooh!! Hyung you sly dog!” He cackles, grinning ear to ear, and Namjoon’s face flushes bright red.

“Taehyung, it’s not what you think! I—!”

“Oooooh! Time to tell the group chat!” He teases, grabbing his phone from his pocket, and Namjoon is immediately in action. He grabs his bag and makes a dash for Taehyung, but before he can get there Taehyung tosses his phone into the air, and, in a blur of motion, suddenly transforms into a hawk. He catches his phone in his mouth and then soars over the balcony down to the first floor. Namjoon curses, chasing after him, and you’re left sitting there in shock.

Then, finally, you find that all you can do is laugh.

Truly…what are these boys?

[TaeTae]: FOUND NAMJOON HYUNG KISSING Y/N IN THE LIBRARY. RIP

[H O B I]: WOAH WHAT

[Jeon Seagull]: Hyung how could you

[Agust D]: Couldn’t keep it in your pants, Joon, could you?

[Old Guy Jin]: Can’t say I didn’t see this coming. Didn’t think Joon would be the first though

[TaeTae]: …wot

[ChimChim]: “the first”/???

[RM]: Holy shit all of you shut the fuck up. I was HEALING HER.

[Jeon Seagull]: MHMMMMMM

[RM]: I’m going to murder all of you. It wasn’t even a real kiss

[TaeTae]: Oh, just kissing her neck then?

[H O B I]: whatttttttttt

[The Only Girl]: omg all of you stop. He really was healing me.

[Agust D]: that’s what he made you think lmao

[RM]: GUYS

[The Only Girl]: and if you technically want to talk about “the first” you’ll have to talk to Jimin

[ChimChim]: omg Y/N NO

[TaeTae]: WHAT

[The Only Girl]: he used his powers on me to make me feel attraction towards him so I kissed his cheek

[ChimChim]: Y/N NOOOOOOO

[The Only Girl]: Walking into work now BAIIIIIIIIIIIII

[Agust D]: ….Jimin

[Old Guy Jin]: smh

[RM]: you motherfucker

[Jeon Seagull]: Better lock your door tonight hyung

[TaeTae]: I second that

[ChimChim]: IT WAS JUST A JOKE. GUYS PLEASE.

[Jeon Seagull]: No mercy

[ChimChim]: fuCK

#welcome to the wild side #wttws #bts superpower au #namjoon fic #namjoon x reader #jimin fic #bts college au #yoongi fic #jungkook fic #taehyung fic #jin fic #hoseok fic #bts fic

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bitter-blogger · 7 years

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Hi anon from eariler I just wanted to clarify it was not reading your posts about emma and stuff that made me realize I didn't like Dad! Dean but more just meta on Dean focusing on how horrible it would have been to have that much responsibility at a young age. I didn't mean for it to come out sounding like you talking about something you liked made me realize why I didn't like it. As for what you said I definetly agree that raising a kid for Dean would be more rewarding than raising Sam. Pt.1

I might be projecting but the idea of having kids is intimidating to me for many reasons but one big reason is being afraid of getting that responsibility. I have my issues and my family has had their issues we are no where near as fucked up as Dean and his family. But it has left me worried if I should ever be a parent because of those issues Even tho I'm not a fan I can see how Dad! Dean can be rewarding to Dean. But I think it would still be intimidating to him. pt2

He's sorta a mess I mean its only natural after being through what he has. So he might feel intimidated about having a kid of his own. He was great with Ben but I think its a relief for him when someone has more responsibility for the kid than him or at least equal responsibility. Feeling there is more someone to back him up here in a way he didn't have before. I guess having chance to live and not have to feel so responsible for so much anymore. Im biased tho what you think? pt.3

Haha oh well that’s ok then. As long as I’m not spreading Emma negativity subconsciously lol

I completely understand wanting Dean to be free of responsibility. Being a Dean fan means being aware of how often even as an adult Dean gets held responsible for Sam’s actions and for Cas’ decisions by fandom and the narrative, so I don’t blame you or anyone who just wants him to be free of that. But again, I feel that canon gives Dean 1, responsibilities it doesn’t make sense for him to have such as being responsible for the actions of other adults in his life and 2, only responsibility for bad outcomes. No one ever says, “Sam went to Stanford because Dean raised him right.” No one. The good things that happen to Sam are always viewed as happening in spite of Dean and John, while drinking demon blood happens because Sam is pushed by Dean. Sam opening the final seal is because Dean didn’t support him right. Sam eating healthy and exercising is in spite of Dean. So in current canon, responsibility is very firmly a negative thing for Dean whereas being a parent includes highs as well as lows like your kid growing up to be a nice person, intelligent, and kind. Those kinds of things usually get remarked upon as that child being “raised right” thereby attributing some responsibility to the parent for positive outcomes.

There are just certain people who just really want kids, different personality types maybe, and I think Dean is one of those people. From my own life I know a lot of people who had bad childhoods are scared of having kids because they’re scared of messing those kids up, but a lot of people with bad childhoods really want kids because they want to be the good parents their parents weren’t. I think Dean is the latter because we see the way he interacts with kids and because the narrative chose Lisa and Ben over Cassie as being Dean’s dream life. To me that’s the narrative telling us that Dean wants to be a parent. I don’t think wanting kids is the better response to having a bad childhood, just one of many responses. There’s nothing wrong with not wanting kids; parenthood is not for everyone and definitely not needed for a happy ending.

Imo, the most intimidating thing to Dean about having kids would be making a conscious decision to do it. Which is why kids like Ben and Emma and, hell, Krissy or Claire would be better for him and a more attractive situation for him. These kids already exist, what they need is a parental figure. With the stress of making the decision to bring someone new into the world gone, I don’t think Dean would be any more intimidated to raise these children than your average parent (who of course feels some intimidation, that’s natural).

In my opinion, Emma would have been the perfect child for Dean, amazon and all. She’s already a supernatural creature so it’s not like he has to protect her from that world, she’s stronger than him, she’s self-reliant, but there are important things Dean could still offer her like a home and love and support. There is an aspect of her not being totally dependent on him, which is appealing. Unlike Ben, he wouldn’t be obligated to change his life completely for her (although, personally, I still think getting out of hunting would be good for him). Having a baby in canon verse might admittedly be a bit too much for him. I can see that. Babies require constant supervision. Having a superpowered teenager? Not as much responsibility. Possibly, the perfect fit.

Anyway, again, just sharing my personal reasoning, not trying to argue, because it’s ok either way.

#can i just? it's also why i hated the whole storyline that cas has always been rebellious?#because while the 'i did all of it for you' line can be really bad and negative #there is an aspect of recognition in dean holding some responsibility for cas' positive actions in s5 ie going against the angels #but then it was revealed cas was like always going against the angels and it was blah as a dean fan #i don't know why i'm so tired rn it's the middle of the afternoon but idk if i'm making sense sorry #i think imo i find--my english teachers would be so disappointed in me lmao #anon tag #ask tag

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flowisk · 7 years

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fmk variation: (jack, buzzo, lisa) + (milton, johan, claptrap) + (admin, flowey, a dog)

omg.... haha. god.ok this is for the version which is like.... ‘• get randomly assigned as your lab partner for a whole semester,• get trapped with on a broken elevator for ten hours• get as my employee trainer for my new job at McDonalds’ so yeah i’m going to answer this.{ jack, buzzo, lisa. }wow. tough crowd. tough crowd.• get randomly assigned as your lab partner for a whole semester look. it would be buzzo. he’s a scientist. and Presumedly if we’re in any position to be like. doing lab work, it would be in a relatively non hostile environment. dude was a student at some point. i mean... i think buzzo would know more than me on this subject so he’d probably talk down to me a little but assuming I’m Not Brad it wouldn’t be so bad. buy him a coffee at some point maybe.• get trapped with on a broken elevator for ten hours you know. it’s hell? like ok. there’s no option to this where i can pick jack and it wouldn’t be worse so i’m going with this one. jack would be a fucking awful partner and an even worse employee trainer (dude’s a fucking abysmal boss) so yeah, 10 hours in an elevator with jack. it probably wouldn’t be great to be the only thing he has a possibilty of venting frustration at for 10 hours, but somehow those other options are actually worse.• get as my employee trainer for my new job at McDonalds lisa. i’m not sure what kind of boss she’d be? i could imagine some potentially cool ways that could go okay. i don’t think she’d be too gungho about a job at mcdonalds, so i can’t imagine her like... being super uptight about things. older lisa: ‘dont spill a vat of oil on urself kid’. {milton, johan, claptrap}• get randomly assigned as your lab partner for a whole semester ummm im tempted to say milton but actually johan, because id rather not be caught in an elevator for 10 hours with him and his psychological bullshit (yes they both do that but johan is demonstratably worse about this). johan is focused on doing well all the time ok there’s no way you’re getting a shitty grade with johan as your lab partner. like maybe he’ll orchestrate the death of your family or some shit or see you as a pawn for a conspiracy he’s enacting or lock you in a burning building but god? your grade would be good? and anyway if you’re useful to him on any level he’d probably be chill bc he has an image to maintain in a public space.• get trapped with on a broken elevator for ten hours milton. milton’s whole life is basically them being trapped in an elevator anyway so it’s no different from any other conversation you’d have with them. milton would just be like ‘oh. you’re booored. i see . unfamiliar feeling. i can’t relate. i see you’re paying more attention to me now that you have nothing to occupy you. i wonder if you’ll stop talking to me when the elevator opens’ etc etc some passive aggressive bullshit with trust/abandonment issues even though milton refuses to admit theyre passive aggressive or have abandonment issues. id assure them id still talk to them and as it turns out theyre probably the reason the elevator stopped in the first place because they’re lonely af and seek attention in maladaptive ways.• get as my employee trainer for my new job at McDonald claptrap. i might have to ask other people to clarify instructions but he’d be pretty chill i think. idk seeing him in bl2 he’s not too bad of a boss... he’d probably give really long lectures tho about mundane things... he’d like someone looking up to him. i do wonder if he’d ever assert his power being like ‘ahahaha im ur teacher!’ but i think he’s too concerned about being liked to seriously be too bad of a boss, and all of the times he’s done that in bl2 have just been kind of silly and non-harmful. out of the three people in this category he’d definitely be the most chill and lenient with mistakes. just a bit prideful about training you, probably. he’d tell you that you did a good job minion. he’d probably brag about teaching you your shit all the time after he stopped being your employee trainer, but that kind of thing it’s just... it’s claptrap. who can be mad.{admin, flowey, a dog)• get randomly assigned as your lab partner for a whole semester flowey. kind of precocious kid. read everything in the world once or twice and at least some of that has probably been academic. i think flowey probably has the experience of reading a lot of information they know but don’t quite understand. i’m actually unsure how casual conversation would go there... would flowey be annoyed with me when i didnt know things? probably. but i think being given an environment where he can learn things he’d be a somewhat good if occasionally disruptive student. might get people going ‘oh you have that partner’ but eh, it’d be ok.• get trapped with on a broken elevator for ten hours definitely a dog. i mean. out of all the options ive gotten so far that’s p much the chillest person to get stuck in an elevator with. would be cute and not expecting much emotionally out of me. we could sleep in the elevator.• get as my employee trainer for my new job at McDonalds admin. I Know That Sounds Unorthodox but like... admin was actually p chill to the people of gehenna when they were running things. it’s just. that they wanted to be appreciated. and listened to. and you can’t make sock puppets in real life so although i’m sure admin runs a forum with sock puppets somewhere else, in managerial duties they’d prob just be a bit bitter and pa. but they like leadership roles so as someone who was like, listening to them? they’d probably be pretty chill? i bet u if you said ‘thanks for teaching me’ theyd beam a bit. even if they didn’t show it. (on the other hand if you were ungrateful theyd prob be PA about it ‘all the time i put into this workplace... and the people here don’t care about me...’ etc) I think admin’s actually good at leadership positions despite their personal issues re: that so i think it’d be chill tho.

#replies #necromin #yeah man thank you. fun to think about

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obaewankenope · 7 years

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I thought I was following you already?!? I just read back to page 25 of your blog, seeing many great discussions and meta (and seeing you deal with more than your share of idiots), and knew I had to (re?)follow you right away. You're great. Your blog is great. And I only rediscovered it because of your poems for Swung by Serafim, which I saw on flamethrower's blog and recognised your name. ...I hope this didn't seem weird.

Dammit, sorry. Wasn't the poems that got me coming here, they just reinforced the decision. It was the future HP Disability article, which I really want to see. I'm ASD too (along with the requisite mixed handful of accompanying diagnoses, like ADHD and OCD and Depression and Panic and Anxiety and and and-), but I know I sometimes get caught in thinking about people the way the people in my family I don't associate with anymore do - racist, ableist, and more. I try not to, and part of doing (1/2) that is educating myself. Both about things I didn't initially see a problem with, and about things (like HP) that have been a niggling disquiet in the back of my head for a while - I enjoyed HP IMMENSELY, and it will always be one of my big loves, like Star Wars and Transformers and some others, but I have been wondering what this discontent was about for some time (apart from dissatisfaction with the ending and general stuff you can expect from a HP fan nowadays). (2/?) And a lot of it comes down to representation, both missing and flawed. Disability and MOGAI (Marginalised Orientations, Genders, and Intersex - I heard it somewhere, and prefer it to listing categories, as it means no-one can exclude anyone, intentionally or otherwise, by omitting a letter. Plus it sounds like Mogwai, and makes me imagine us as gremlins, ready to wreck shit if you treat us improperly) matters are both ways Rowling fell down, and reading your article might clarify my thoughts.

Hey there! It's not a problem that you decided to follow me after that poem on @deadcatwithaflamethrower's Swung fic. That's honestly as good catalyst as any heh. I'm pretty impressed that you saw anything good in 25 pages on my blog tho lol, I thought it'd be all random stuff and rage haha.

As someone once reminded me, the first thought you have is the one you're trained to have while the second is the one you choose to have. So long as we think about what we do, say, think or feel, we can always seek to better ourselves and decrease the discrimination and prejudice that is so rampant in society. One of the most important things we do as people, as developing individuals who learn to reason and think about things, is the ability to recognise when something bothers us and to try and discover why. I, personally, love HP, it was one of my favourite series of books and I am terrifying when it comes to HP trivia, but I became aware of the problems and issues in HP eventually through a lot of personal experiences and such. This led me to look at everything I read with a more critical perspective, and that's why this HP disability article even exists. Fortunately, not everyone takes it upon themselves to write a mini thesis on one of their favourite book series because it's an example of continued discrimination—though perhaps that's a pity since the academic world could do with a few more theses like this one imho.

When we look at representation of any minority or group, whether they're a majority or not, the problem always lies in the fact that some people just never do the research into it all and they work with flawed assumptions and perspectives. Or, if they do research, they use a limited number of sources, that may not be as reliable as they'd thought. And then you get an absolute disaster of confusion and inaccurate portrayals of so many things. Like with HP. There are a lot of things in HP that are inaccurate, misleading, or, honestly, just plain rude. Some of us like accurate portrayal of fae and do not appreciate the way JK has treated them. The same with historical figures and so on. Or Latin. Oh the Latin is disastrous honestly. And the colonialism. The focus on one magical language. On Britain having a giant war and this being the 'end of everything' for the magical community—such a hark back to the old view that Britain was the centre of the universe back when we had a frickin Empire that enslaved people and owned all but 22 countries on the planet at one point or another.

As you can see, there are many things I have a problem with with HP but my most pressing one is disability. It's one of the least investigated aspects of HP and there is no detailed overview of every form of ableism present in the series, which is something I'm working to rectify. Why? Because my friends inadvertently gave me the idea. Now I'm working on it in the hopes I can use it as a thesis for a Disability Studies MA that I'm hoping to get. Either way, it's going to be a long, detailed critique of HP and its treatment of disability and the ableism inherent in it.

So, if reading my article may help you in furthering your understanding of your own feelings towards HP and JK then I hope it does. And I will be writing an abridged version of it at some point, removing a lot of the flowery 'academic-speak' trash so it can become a tumblr post for everyone on here to read as well. References will be kept of course, but I'm not gonna do that stupid fancy dandy language.

If anything, I'll probably just swear a lot.

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