#which was like. not normal? most ppl get like 3? and i was worried my acct was getting targeted or something
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Any Eda, Raine, or Reada in that beautiful sketchbook of yours? And sorry about the bots stressing you out.
not in my traditional sketchbook, but i do have this raeda piece i never got around to finishing 🥺 plus an owl beast doodle
#my art#myart#the owl house#raeda#toh#tysm btw!!!!!#as for the bots they actually stopped!#i was getting 100+ per day#which was like. not normal? most ppl get like 3? and i was worried my acct was getting targeted or something#i was worried my acct would be flagged for buying followers or smth idk#so i emailed support asking if they had any idea if/why my acct was being targeted#and if there was anything i could do#first they didn’t read the email and just sent me an automated response informing me that i could just block and report 100+ accts per day#and when i replied again i got a passive aggressive response from a real person that boiled down to ‘we don’t know why you’re#being targeted’#which was rlly all i was asking?? 😭#but anyway shortly after that i stopped getting any at all#i am free!#and i apologize to whichever staff member i annoyed by asking lmao#calamitycoyote-reblogs
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Workplace! Darling x Yandere! Jing Yuan
“Don’t worry you are safe in my arms. Who would dare would steal from the general of the seat of Divine foresight?”- Jing Yuan
The General of the Divine Seat of Foresight - Yandere Jing Yuan Characterization Part 1
1. How Darling Reader Catches Yandere Jing Yuan’s Eye
You probably work in same vicinity.
Maybe an impressive spar or fighting skills when training knights
Maybe a disciple like yanqing . forbidden disciple -master relationship he takes advantage of….
The last left of the high cloud quintet time (Dawn oc: a dusk based dan feng sister judge of ten commission I use most often as a former childhood friend)
Darling! Reader is maybe just extra nice to him as the general works so hard…or has hidden spy agenda or wants to climb that social ladder not so innocent intention so get what coming…
Darling Reader giving Yandere! Jing Yuan his favorite coffee, questioning his health, worriedly
Darling Reader letting him take naps at work, tucking a blanket around him in his office where he fell asleep at his desk and covering for Yandere! Jing Yuan until he thinks it’s something special…
2. Yandere! Stalker! Jing Yuan is patient, a strategist, and starts small…
Yandere! General! Jing Yuan He took note of every habit you had.
Yandere! General! Jing Yuan has secret sticky note on how you eat to put your hair up, write and tuck paper neatly away in folders.
He has a whole unofficial cloud knight report on little romantic preferences such as flowers or chocolates.
3. Yandere! General! Jing Yuan is down for you bad willing to play what type you prefer ..
From the stalker reports to which he is accommodating while not losing his gentleman charm
Yandere! General! Jing Yuan can play the good boy willing to be submissive doglike if needed often taking advantage to be cuddly
Smart! Yandere Jing Yuan willing to pull out his wits as the smart guy debating with you on equal ground and infuriating you to his amusement you are so cute when angry.
Yandere! Good boy! Jing Yuan But ever respectful on the surface…bedroom well every good dog needs a treat
Yandere! Bad Boy! Jing Yuan who if he reads if your susceptible to the bad boy type, he doesn’t mind being a bit more rough or commanding than usually taking advantage of influence, power, and his position…
Yandere! BDSM! Jing Yuan: you asked for it in his mind. a bird in cage a pet at his mansion he’ll take care of you the best clothing and treat dear…but never leave. (jumin han situation if ever played mystic messenger you can egg him on to be yandere/bdsm but normally not go that far. You must request pain. Bad ending as his pet/mistress…)
For more to make the union official read part 2
Also disclaimer yandere behavior not okay in real life keep to fantasy. Also draw line to physical abuse. Call ppl if yall need help
#honkai star rail imagines#honkai star rail x reader#male yandere x reader#yandere imagines#hsr jing yuan#honkai star rail#yandere jing yuan#jing yuan x you#jing yuan x reader#jing yuan
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AITA For telling my friend we talked behind her back?
Okay so this was a while ago know and everything’s resolved but honestly I still feel rlly bad abt the situation and am wondering how other ppl would view it
So I (15NB at the time) and my other friend, “Lizzie”(15F) were complaining abt some other ppl in our friend group. From my memory it was mostly stuff abt how some of our friends made weird comments about weight that made me and her uncomfortable (I’m on the curvier side and Lizzie used to have an ED) and some venting abt how focused some ppl were abt talking about boys (I’m aro and she’s lesbian). Obviously we could’ve talked to our friends abt this but I didn’t feel like the problems were that big of a deal and mostly just wanted to vent about it, albeit in a really bitchy and petty way. It was a pretty benign conversation I think the most harmful thing said was probably that we implied that one of the girls, Taylor(15F), wasn’t actually bi (a sentimient that was gross then and I no longer agree with)
Honestly the convo wasn’t that big of a deal in my head so when it ended I figured that was that. However the next day at school Lizzie told me she decided to bring our conversation up to 3 other of our friends without telling me and now their convo was focused specifically on Taylor. They were also complaining about things me and Lizzie had not talked about nor did I agree with. Stuff like that Taylor was bragging because she posted pictures of her with money on instagram and that she shouldn’t post such revealing pictures of her self (pretty slut shamy stuff the photos were literally just normal photos but she was wearing like a crop top or smth). I was pretty upset that Taylor had talked to other ppl about our private convo and I now felt involved with these opinions which I didn’t agree with (guess that’s just my karma for gossiping tho). But I figured this would just die down so whatever.
Turns out the new ppl Lizzie had talked to decided to go to the counselor and tell them that Taylor was being “unsafe online” which was crazy she definitely wasn’t. Both Lizzie and I were upset by this and now I was really worried because not only did I feel like I started this but Taylor has a really strict mom and I was worried that the counselor would contact her and Taylor would get in trouble for smth that wasn’t her fault and she wasn’t prepared for. So I told Lizzie that we should just tell Taylor we had talked behind her back and that we should warn her that the counselors might contact her mom and apologize. Lizzie got really mad at me and told me not to contact her.
So now I’m home from school and I’m really stressed out and then Lizzie and the three other girls contact me and told me they’ve told two other girls in our friend group what’s going on INSTEAD of Taylor. The two new girls disagree with what Lizzie and the others have done and are now mad at them. So now the friend group is divided and Taylor still doesn’t even know this is happening so at this point I tell Lizzie we should tell her but Lizzie says we should wait to tell her as a group in person the next day, but I think that would be really overwhelming for Taylor and I’m not sure if the counselor will have already told her mom by then, but Lizzie still says no.
So at this point I know I’m the asshole for talking behind my friends back, but here’s where I don’t know if I’m the asshole. I decide to call Taylor by myself and tell her what happened. I tell her me and Lizzie had talked behind her back and that had spread to other people and the counselor had gotten contacted. I told her that everyone else was just looking out for her in their own way, but that I couldn’t provide their perspectives so she should also talk to them to get their side of things, and I apologized for ever talking behind her back in the first place.
Obviously she was rlly upset and she cried but she thanked me for telling her. I told Lizzie and “her group” that I had told Taylor and they were all really mad at me for it saying that I made them look bad and that I thought they were stupid because I went behind their backs to tell Taylor what happened. I really tried to emphasize in my convo with Taylor that I didn’t know everyone else’s side and that they were all just worried abt her, but I guess it’s fair that either way I went behind their back to tell her.
Anyway the fight lasted way longer and developed into a kind of two sides thing where it was “ppl who thought I did the right thing” (me, Taylor, and the two girls who were mad at Lizzie’s group) and Lizzie’s group (Lizzie and the three girls who reported Taylor to the counselor). Everything’s resolved now and we’re all still friends but I’m still wondering if it was bad to go behind everyone’s back and tell Taylor what was happening.
So, AITA for telling my friend we talked behind her back?
What are these acronyms?
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Lol
Grace getting her facial and her phone keeps dinging because Sadie's in the middle if her bi-awakening.
Text #1: where u at?
Text #2 & #3: Grace! ?
Text #4: i thought u were coming 2 spin class!
Text #5: i gave lola3 ur latte
Text #6: r u really not coming? i'll save you Aseat just in case
Text #7: nvmnd. this class is huge. tried to fight off an old lady to keep your bike open. Ur welcome
Text #8: omg grace this place smells like wet socks
Text #9: kimberkyn says ur getting a facial. rude
Text #10 & #11: lola says hi BTW. Hi
Text #12: *picture of Sadie and Lola and Kimberlyn* bout to get sweaty!
Text #13: the instructor said we can't have our phones. so peace out! ✌️😋
*missed call*
*missed call*
Text #14: ohmygod grace answer your phone!
Text #15: ok. it's nothing. it's probably nothing. don't worry about it. it's fine. i'll tell you later.
*missed call*
Text #16: ok. so this is probably gonna get long and there will be typosz bc i don't have a lotg of time bcz i had to sneak 2 the bthrm bc i need 2 tell u something but we can't have our phones on the bikes which is so dumb bc I can multitask its not like I'm gonna
Text #17: sorry. lola scared me. o thought it was the instructor. anyway listen there is this girl. no. not just a girl. she is a woman. like a sculpted by the gods woman in this class and she has like. The most insanely perfect ripples i have ever seen and like her eyes are nice too BTW but we were changing un the same room and she just
Text #18: sorry i think the memory made me black out. God. Like. Look. I know it's not okay to objectify someone just because we're in a environment that encourages tight fitting clothing and vigorous rhythmic activity but u don't understand grace. she is gorgeous and omg she laughed when I asked if she knew where the vending machines were and i think my heart kind jumped out of my body because she sounded so sweet. and I want to talk to her again but I also can't fucking breathe because spin class is hard and i already drank all of my water and lola's too and i hate that ur not here. There I said it. I can usually be more put together when ur arounfe but
Text #19: her eyes are green btw
Text #20: not even like gross green. they are like perfect and not even the same color which is somehow even better and they have like stars in them not even lying
Text #21: and she has her hair in a braid and she got kinda sweaty so there's little wisps sticking out around her face and i never like licking sweaty ppl but like if she asked
Text #22: oh shot. i didn't mean that. idk why my mind went to licking her face instead of kissing her like a normal person
Text #23: that would b normal right? i mean iv nver rlly thought abt it b4. not really. but i watched glee. i know it usually hits in high school and obvi it didn't 4 me so this is mayb just bc i only had two donuts this morning instead of 3
Text #24: omg she asked kimberlyn if I have ibs while I was gone. I hate everythibg
Text #25: fyi i took a quiz a minute ago and turns out glee lied
Text #26: i wanted to ask lola if she has like a booklet for ppl questioning their. Preferences but i think mayb it would b easier if u asked for me
Text #27: fuck this is all so weird
Text #28: but also not. it's scary nit weird. like I thought admiring Walker got a little too intense but this is. This is something else
Text #29: ive eaten some beef jerkey and i think it's too soon to think about kissing her. it feels too invasive. so I'm just gonna keep watching her ass in class
Text #30: thnx btw 4 all ur help grace. U r rlly good 2 talk 2
Text #31: ^sarcasm fyi
Text #32: omg her name is lena. isn't that nice? i think that is the most beautiful name in the whole wide world
Text #34: i think she waved at me
Text #35: damn. it was oneof her friends walking outside the door
Text #36: her whole name is lena kieran luthor. and her birthday is October 13.
Text #37: and no she didnt tell me that i looked through her purse while pretending to have ibs and hiding in the bathroom. she uses Christian Dior perfume. i think I have a problem
Text #38: grace can u please call me so I can just leave??
Text #39: i feel like everyone knows. they keep talking about me i can feel it
Text #40: omg she helped the little old lady in front of me asjust her settings on the bike. She's so nice. i bet she saves puppies and orphans in her spare time. angel in disguise right there
Text #41: how long is this fucking spin class?!
Text #42: lola was talking about a gay show called the bold type. will u watch it with me so I can see how a normal heterosexual would react?
Text #43: lena offered me a drink from her water bottle and i didn't even worry about germs. I just went for it
Text #44: how long is ur fucking facial?! Y haven't u texted me back?!
Text #45: only 5 more minutes. I can do this
Text #46: I think lens was flirting with lola and I wish I had laser vision so I could set everything on Fire this is awful
Text #47: my heart is broken
Text #48: nvmnd. she touched my arm and said she likes my shirt.
Text #49: I'm wearing one of kimberlyns work out shirts BTW but that's not the point. She likes it on me. So kimberkyn is never getting this back
Text #50: omg! Grace! Grace!
Text #51: she recommended we get kombucha after class. Idk what that is but I would eat anything for her
Text #52: Lola says kombucha tastes like ass and kimberkyn says we have to get back ;(
Text #53: SEE THIS IS WHY I NEED YOU HERE YOU COULD VOTE TO GO GET KOMBUCHA WITH ME
Text #54: NOOOO ILL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN. GOODBYE BEAUTIFUL GODDESS GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD
Reply: lol
Text #55: ur laughing. i bear my broken soul to u and ur laughing
Text #56: Not Cool Grace
ANON THIS IS HILARIOUS 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Thank you so much for this, it has made my night! There's so many gems hidden in here... I'm in tears! 😂😂😂
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propaganda under the cut
Lorena Marquez: I LOVE HER. she has a grand total of 78 appearances, many of which are out of character and vaguely racist, and she got erased from continuity over a decade ago and has barely been mentioned since. but she’s fantastic and amazing and so fun and i miss her
Hobie Brown: Do people know about Hobie Brown? Yes, as of ATSV especially. Do people know about The Prowler? Absolutely. Do people know about Earth-616 Hobie Brown, The Prowler? (and I guess he's Hornet now but its. Honestly kinda really bullshit I'm ignoring that.) NO THEY DON'T. AND THEY SHOULD. He's like if Batman was awesome. Sorry Batman fans. He's Spider-Man's awesome friend who generally wants to be a normal guy and support his community in a normal way but keeps on having insane shit happen to him so like, having an alter ego in his back pocket to occasionally assume is useful. His older brother is a martial arts teacher who wants him to actually like learn how to fight correctly and then hes like uhh... I'll just invent a new thing haha. He's obscure on purpose. He has been mistaken for Moon Knight. His shit gets stolen like three times by ppl making the Prowler into a villain again which makes Aaron Davis Prowler really really ironic. PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT HIM after ATSV I'm so worried that he'll never appear as The Prowler again. Most of his 2010s appearances have been kinda weak and having him be Hornet is not really helping because they really did invent the fact that he was doing bad things as The Prowler. Not true. You made that up. I'm losing my mind over here.
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hi Sarah! asking this here as opposed to over DMs just in case someone needs it (and so it feels less urgent hopefully). anyway the job I'm trying to get is in peer support, which would make me a mandated reporter. obviously I'm tossing that rule right out the window til I move on or get fired, but while I have suicide hotlines and resources and such that don't involve the authorities, I'm almost certain I don't have any for abuse intervention. do you have any idea what to do in that situation, like with non-institutional resources? or should I just leave it? that option leaves a bad taste in my mouth, but like... the closest I've been to this hypothetical situation is gently urging friends to leave their abusive partners, so I'm a little bit out of my league here. tysm if you have any ideas/resources and no worries if not! (I'd have done my own research but like... idk I trust you more than random websites lol. might send this to some other ppl though if that helps take the pressure off)
Thank you so much for reaching out!! I am an adjunct instructor at two universities, at both of which I am also a mandated reporter. I add a disclaimer to my syllabi that students should *only* come to me disclosing sexual abuse, as well as the whole “thoughts of harming yourself/others”, if they actively want me to contact title IX or health services. I put in resources for Podmapping (Mia Mingus), Project LETS, and the Fireweed Collective, and offer in-class opportunities to draft a podmap / make connections with other students so that they have other options.
Project LETS is 1000% anti-cop, and has a resource for identifying abuse on their site. On the bottom of their site, they have a number that can be called or texted by anyone who needs support. Survived & Punished also has a superb guide to survivor support/defense that you might be able to learn from!
There’s also the short-term option of going to a peer respite center, if the person you’re working with wants to move away from their abuser but needs a place to regroup and rest first.
I can also offer you a bit of personal advice — I’ve helped friends leave abusive relationships and recognize / resist abuse from parents. The most helpful things I did were 1) to take a large amount of time out of my day just to listen & ask questions (e.g. if they describe an abusive behavior as if they deserved it, I’d ask “do you think it’s okay to treat another person that way?” And other phrases to start to deprogram them from the abuser’s logic) 2) include them in larger group activities with other friends, to help them build relationships and reverse isolation, and 3) be consistent - show up when you say you will, keep your promises, stay even keeled, even when they do something that infuriates or frustrates you (this is the hardest one).
There’s a delicate balance you have to strike, between treating them like a normal person / not with kid gloves, AND remembering that they need support that others may not. I think that, as a peer support worker, the most important thing you can do is to show and tell your client that you are on their side — not the side of their abuser OR the cops. Taking the time to listen, ask questions, and show up with kindness (even when they frustrate you) is a way of modeling that there are different, better ways of building relationships with others, relationships that your client more than deserves to have.
Hope this helps!
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Which Star is Which?
a lore breakdown !
First up Prime Starscream!
In my story Prime Starscream is there. He just doesn't go by Starscream, because having multiple starscreams and adressing them all as such can be confusing in writing and even speaking about them in the content of the story.
Because of that I have given him a different name. He goes by StormChaser (for his very grey appearance mostly but just sounds cool and looks like it could also fit him). He is still very much himself , the same prime starscream kind of attitude. With the acception now he's a "father". He's a mentor to Riot!Starscream (see below for him) this also includes Thundercracker and Skywarp by proxy.
His "son" Starscream being 2nd in command and StormChaser is Starscream’s personal advisor (aka dad follows me to work) and active commander of the seekers when he's not around. Stormchaser has taught Starscream everything he knows. Even the more...less diserable traits. But he does care for his seekers. He is less scheming for his own sake (sorta kinda) and more the sake of riot Starscream. Which lands them both in alot of trouble.
This is Stormchaser's Vessel. I also refer to StormChaser/Prime Starscream by his human alias i gave him. Sterling! He can have a more white sclera,but prefers the black when around other bots in vessels and not out and about.
All my vessel/human formers have tattoos like this to resemble their alt mode/bot mode. Some can be in chunks some can be more thin lineded
He also has a Conjunx who is a flyer like him, who's name is Fulminato. A younger very shamless bot who loves this goofy old man alot. No worries he is taken care of ♡
Next up! Riot Starscream!
Now my Starscream, who I dub Riot! Starscream because of the context of my story and just to remind ppl WHICH Starscream I'm referring to.
Now you're probably also wondering "that's just IDW Starscream" you are correct! However riot Starscream only LOOKS like IDW Starscream, his personality is completely different (some what). While Starscream is a schemer and a liar, he reassembled alot for Armada Starscream. This Starscream has never truly betrayed or attempted to kill Megatron at all. He is Acutally very loyal.
His schemes however has been more so to buster his own position and make him look good to Megatron. (Because we all want dad Megs attention in this army for better or worse). The biggest thing Starscream wants is respect from Megs and well , Megs isn't handing out respect like candy. So he does get upset and yes he has boosted maybe he could be more powerful than Megs. But never has he still tried to over throw him.
Certain events happen where Starscream is left perplexed about the Decpeticons as a whole. I won't go i to super detail but that how he ends up with the organic alien Ula!
this is Starscream's vessel! His alias name is Erza ! For the most ironic reasons. I kept a bit of G1 style in this despite being based on IWD. I have him a hairstyle more leaning towards that.
Both Riot Starscream and StormChaser exist in the same au world!
Last but least, TFA Starscream
First thing first. Tfa Starscream is not in my au with RiotStarscream or StormChaser. He exists purely on a TFA au I have (unamed) and he is just Excatly how he is normally almost 0 changes. Besides having a Techni Organic as a partner (it's complicated lol)
His vessel is aquire differently than my main story. But he goes by Cyrus for a human alias! This mfer has no chill when having this form. He is a extremely tall looking human about 6'4 to 6'6. Megs would be almost 7ft if he had one.
And that's it! Thats all the starscreams I have for now! Aks questions if ya want :3
#Lore#Lore dump#Au lore#Till all are one au#tfa starscream#tfp starscream#idw starscream#My starscream#Riot starscream#Ula#Proxy#Fulminato#Just writing shit#transformers#Tf lore#Tf oc#humanformers#My art
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Hey hey! Just wanted to clarify on that ask from before. I know it seems like a wild concept that people won’t accept Lazerbeak as a drone when there are wilder concepts in your fic XD. However, from my knowledge, a lot of tfp fans watched the multiple videos on yt about Lazerbeak where the person talked about how minicons in the cybertronian society are often overlooked and are thought of as “lesser than” the bigger bots simply because of their appearance. This sentiment struck me and many others because I hated the idea of Lazerbeak being called a “drone” simply because he didn’t act or look like the bigger bots. The minicon racism (if I may call it that) is quite common in the tfp universe and ppl who watched tfp and rid, getting used to being defensive over minicons, might have also felt that it was wrong for Lazerbeak to be a drone. Yk at least that’s what I think is happening based on personal experience. Idk if maybe someone has already explained it but whelp…I might also be overthinking it tbh :3
NEVERTHELESS! I feel like I need to point out that I’m actually super glad that you didn’t know some aspects of the tfp lore because TEG remains the most unique (in the best possibly way) interpretation of Soundwave and the tfp universe that I have ever read. Honestly I absolutely love the idea with the 1st tentacle and how alien Soundwave’s cybertron is in comparison to the “normal cybertron” that tfp fans are used to. I know from experience that knowledge of context might hold back creative thinking and yk context is good but diversions form it can likewise result in something as legendary as your fic:))
Anyways sorry for the long string of text again ⁽ˊ꒳ˋ⁾
yeah no worries, I know about that video. I found out about it after people kept telling me Laserbeak was sentient. I watched it and thought, "yeah... but Rachet does call Laserbeak a drone." which is entirely what I had based my headcanon on. Ratchet's statement preceded that video by, idk, 10 years, possibly?? and in the absence of any other context, I was following what canon literally stated, heh
it just makes me laugh that people's brains reject the drone idea so strongly, as we've already discussed xD I'm not mad or anything when people bring it up =)
and thank you again for the kind words! woo woo 1st tentacle >D
#primary tentacle is up there with the spoiler for Face the Light as fanon that I'm super super proud of#ask#anonymous#laserbeak the drone#heck tell you what#if I ever get to do canon TF stuff#you'll know it's me by the:#drone laserbeak#preponderance of Mirage#and enough kissing to make the geewunners pee their pants with rage
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HI HI I am talking abt the au bc my dad woke me up even though I don't have to be up for another 2 hours <3
SO. It is exactly what it says on the tin. Something rewinds time seconds before they find out who boy 412 is. And only the ppl who were on the bridge remember. Why does this happen well idk I uh. Haven't thought abt that <3 potentially the ring wizards being fucky. Anyway this is mostly fine for everyone because they're just. Back at their homes. Marcia takes the longest to realise she's not going insane but that's only bc she lives alone and when alther shows up like what the fuck was that. Then she realises. Marcia pretty much immediately takes action against the custodian because she was afraid to before because of The Consequences but domdaniel becoming eow is the alternative so. The first thing she does is shut down the young army because fuck all that shit and also because they are all extremely worried about boy 412. They try to find him but the only record of a "boy 412" that the ya has says he died 2 years ago at age 14 which obviously isn't right so they have to stop lookig for a little while bc. Things happen (the custodian realises what's happening and lashes out) and marcia is distracted for like a month. The heaps temporarily move into the wizard tower for safety. They shut down the custodian of course and reveal jenna as the princess and everything calms down and marcia is IMMEDIATELY back to searching for boy 412.
And he has been having kind of an awful time <3 when he was suddenly back in the young army he was upset for a few seconds but then went well. Of course none of that was real. That was far too much to hope for. And became even more depressed than he had been when he was in the ya before. He stops eating and doesn't drink very much and is rlly slow to follow orders and if it weren't for marcia shutting down the ya he would have died. He still nearly does bc the orphanages they all get sent to r so busy that no one notices anythings wrong until he faints one day seemingly out of nowhere. And then he ends up in hospital bc he still won't eat (do they have hospitals???? Idk they do now). And marcia finds him there <3 bc she had. Suspected. That he had perhaps lied about being "boy" 412 mostly bc he always looked rlly happy when they called him that or used he/him for him and that's a little bit odd if u r cis. So once everything calms down she goes to look for a girl 412 and well. Yeah she finds him and is very worried and upset and under the excuse of "the wizard tower sick bay could provide better care" she takes him home with her. And actually takes him to the sick bay bc he rlly does look ill and also hasn't been eating or drinking At All. And the sick bay concludes there is nothing physically wrong with him and as long as he just. Eats food normally from now on he should be fine. And then he gets to move in with Marcia <3 and most of the heap kids r there also bc they love hanging out in her apartment and messing with her belongings. There is slightly more to this but I'm leaving it here so I can go back to sleep <33
ohhhhhhh this is absolutely glorious I would have more thoughts but it’s been a long day so the only thing in my brain is “ooooooooh”
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Intrigued about a beginner's guide to being normal
this one has slowly become more and more of me projecting onto a character, yuniesky castellanos torres (aka conditional yuniesky). it deals with pretty heavy topics because i am really projecting so hard. honestly, if i write this, i may have to write a personal version & then a sanitized version the blb fandom will not find upsetting. ngl i am worried ppl are gonna think less of me for my yunie lore? i don't share the darker stuff, but ppl have liked the things i have shared! but also i have changed a lot of that lore! so idk lol
i'll use this summary as a litmus test, i suppose. warning for mentions of teen mental health treatment & gooning (if you don't recognize the term, you're probably fine) (unless that was a term only used at my rtc)
the story follows yunie from him joining blaseball up until all players were released. i have not written down that much, it mostly lives in my head. yuniesky runs away from a wilderness camp* in the moab desert and signs up as an employee in the city of moab. by the time staff find him, he legally belongs to blaseball and they can't do shit. he travels around to a few teams as a tech guy and meets conditional, the computer program, who has become incredibly unruly and uses its sentience to be a nuisance. and Yuniesky gets along with conditional. and since conditional is, like, a super important program that holds important information, yunie kinda just gets the job of being condi's caretaker. they become besties! yunie gets reborn as the shieve's s9 postseason birth and lives in their shadows (and works as their tech guy) for a long time. to avoid talking about where he came from & his past, yuniesky lies. and it's fine for the most part. nobody really talks to him. except for his grandma, who tracked him down like a fucking secret agent or some shit (haha. HAHAHAHA.) and is now doting on him, making sure he's ok, etc. his parents and siblings are too, but he's still pissed at them so he ignores them <3 being gooned** really broke his trust and now he struggles to be open in any capacity. so when his fellow teammates and shadow players ask about himself, he lies. and they keep building up. he gets worried that they'll find out, but luckily he is taken to seattle. crisis averted![citation needed]
yuniesky lands on the spies. he moves in with his grandma, which is really good for his mental health! but now she knows about his lying habit and wants him to stop. but there's two fucking shoe thieves on the spies so there's no way he's doing that shit. the problem? he can't remember what he lied about. he was 16 when he joined. he doesn't fucking remember! and even worse, they want to be friends. not just the former shieves, all of them. so yunie just. keeps lying. up until he gets closer with ivy, which was a TOTAL accident. ivy just needed to get out of a flash flood. then they needed homework help. then they decided he was their bestie/older brother. and ivy figures out that he's lying. and oh. oh it goes so badly. so bad. they have an argument at HQ (read: ivy yells at yunie about "betrayal" and "lying to your friends is bad" and yunie's like "you're not my friends lol. you're my coworkers. and we're spies"). yunie doesn't get why people are pissed. yunie thinks he is a good spy and the closest to normal he will ever be.
i didn't mean to type that much but whatever.
trigger warnings for the notes (basically an explanation of anything w an asterisk): residental treatment/troubled teen programs, ableism, mental & physical harm towards children with mental illness, kidnapping
*for those unaware: wilderness therapy camps are nomadic camps where kids are forced to walk a lot and it's supposed to be theraputic somehow. i'm not joking. you get landmarks you gotta be at, and if you're not there, you're punished. several kids have died in these programs because of neglect, because these camps run year-round in places like moab where it's hot as balls during the summer and colder than a witch's tit in winter. most of the camps are based in utah, supposedly because mormons have less strict rules on what counts as child abuse, but idk how true that is.
**i have no fucking clue what the actual term for gooning is. i can't find these companies anywhere. but in the rtc we called them goons. basically, a group of people are paid by a kid's parents (or sometimes the government) to come into their room in the middle of the night (usually 3 am), take the kid out of their bed, and force them into a vehicle and transport them to a treatment center. some kids don't learn that their parents paid for it until after they've arrived at the treatment center. gooning can leave victims with injuries and immense trauma.
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“hey, i might not wait til marriage but you are and that's fucking cool”🥹🥹🥹 this is so cute and made me feel so good AHHH <3
okay I need to SPILL.
first I wanna say i know this isn’t a big deal and when I eventually talk to him about it, he’ll be reassuring but I’m freaking out first and i wanna talk to the girlies first instead, but I do feel like I can tell him (bc if u can’t talk ab these things w someone, you shouldn’t have sex w them in the first place)
but bro I am FREAKING out HDNDNDND. we’ve been looking at rings. he hasn’t proposed because he said he still wants me to be surprised and stuff but we got carried away talking one night and he let it slip that he wants to marry me and somehow we started looking at rings. we went to a couple shops just to get general ideas bc I have no idea what I want!!
ANYWAYS. I was super excited and I had a full blown freak out earlier😀 I’ve been waiting til marriage my whole life (I’m 23) but he hasn’t, he had multiple sexual partners in high school and college and a couple before he met me. I was just thinking ab our future wedding night bc it’s getting super real now and I don’t think it’ll be that far in the future and I was like omfg. this whole wait and it’ll be over in one night. like “that’s so exciting, FINALLY” type thing bc the wait has been hard😭 I’m just a girl and he’s soodkdjdkskskksskso sexy😭
and then I was like…. It’s all over in one night
and I was like, wait. I’m a virgin virgin. he isn’t. even just fingering/head (which I literally cannot WAIT for😭) is gonna be new bc I’ve never had another guys fingers in me and whatever. and I’m not nervous at all, I’m so excited, I’ve waited so long as u can imagine JDJDKDK but I was like realistically, it’ll probably be overwhelming. and then ur meant to do everything in one go? even in most ‘normal’ relationships where people aren’t waiting till marriage, you don’t usually go from 0-100 in a single night😭 that’s kinda insane. like ‘oh you’ve only kissed a boy? well here is literally everything under the sun!”
and I think I just realised today, for the first time, that maybe that wont realistically be what I want. like doing some things and then the rest after. like we’re gonna be married forever (that’s the plan😭) so we have all this time to go it yk. not that I’d necessarily wanna wait super long after we’re married, but I just feel kinda… bad. like, he’s waited this whole time, just for me. imagine we get married and he’s super excited to finally get to hit and in like “actually……..🤣”
idk. I just feel a little alone because even the religious/non-religious ppl I know (who decided to wait just because), none of them felt this way. they were so ready to just jump in and start boning (as they should bc the wait hasn’t been easy😭) but idk I feel… idk. I feel like that might not be me, like I feel like I might need a little more time just to get used to like, everything in reality yk. bc it’s all fun and games saying it rn but I realised earlier, when I started really thinking about it, that I haven’t done anything and realistically, even ppl that don’t wsit need more time yk.
he obviously won’t make me feel bad for this either, he’s not a monster & he’s very understanding but I’m just spiralling.
this might not even be a problem, realistically the second we’re married I might not even make it to the after party and just be like “dick in me now pls” but… ifkdjdjddjdjw
I’m thinking too much lol. I’ve waited 23 years and it’s so real now that my mind is spinning. I’m sorry for the ramble but thank u for listening & for the girlie talk JDJDJDX💗💗💗💗💗💗 i love u so much
(I am sooo ready to get married tho😭💗)
i am so happy for you both!!! i really wish you the best of luck!
i think him being experianced will help out so much in the long run, but girl, there's nothing to worry about! if he's waited this long, what's a little more? like you said, you may change your mind but you said you wanted to wait until marriage. so i'm with you, why does it have to be your wedding night?
it sounds like he's going at your pace and he's in no rush to bed you either. you already know you're gonna talk to him about this so kudos! and coming from me, it sounds like you're ready for sex and that's awesome.
you're excited and that's the most important. (after loving and trusting your man.) trust me, it'll be worth the wait and i can't wait to hear about the proposal!
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Hopefully this doesn’t come off as bigoted, I almost feel it’s the nature of my question but that’s part of why I want to ask. I am lesbian and not bi, I love bi women, but I’ll admit that even knowing many I’ve never met a bi woman that settled with a woman, or anyone other than men. I feel a little bad saying it, I’m sure there’s bi women that have, but it’s noticeable when you haven’t met those people yknow?
Your post about game with women made me think on it. Do you think maybe bi women are less likely to end up with women because it’s a more stigmatized/harder to initiate relationship? Ssa relationships do face more scrutiny/hate but also you don’t always know if someone is gay/bi, and it’s easy to assume most people are straight and not get any negative feedback for that. Idk if that divide is anything you’ve noticed, I’m just curious if you might think it’s a reason.
hi no worries i know this is coming from a curious and respectful place! honestly im a mostly closeted bi woman so my experiences are very limited and it's prob different for every bisexual woman you ask, but i often credit this to there just being more straight dudes in the world than there are bisexual women/lesbians. like, when youre bisexual, it's always statistically more likely you'll end up with a dude, just bc there's so many of them you could potentially be into. that's very general though, and not how everyone experiences bisexuality. it's also not to say fear/internalised homophobia doesn't sadly play a significant part - it definitely can, i know first-hand. as a bi woman i often feel like an outsider or an amateur when trying to navigate dating women or ppl of other genders, and i feel it annoys them that i can't just be confident and experienced and normal about same sex relationships. which would be understandable, bc obviously everyone wants someone they can comfortably vibe with. i do think this initial hesitance and feeling like a fish out of water can be an obstacle for some (nowhere near all) bi women. could definitely be a contributing reason in some cases though! <3
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Hii….I am abee….I asked qstions before too…but decided to be known from now on…
https://youtu.be/Pen8IeNnxAE?si=OVh-ob9v4avNkwB2
So todays home not alone episode was filled with membrs praising doyoung which is what I live for….but my ask is abt some dfrnt moment…
1)35:09- 35:14
When membrs started to tell what ad would look good on jae,
dy: styler would look good on him
Jae:( pleased)
Johnny: STYLERRR??😏
tae: i am excited ( I am expecting the same nd looks at dy)
Nd cut…
What I want to say is…the way johnny reacted nd tae was expecting the same from his favourite…haha…they were so cute….poor dy he cant even support his bae without being attacked atleast with a smirk…
Nd dy is not that innocent just wants to show off jae is his bf nd always support him with high quality things….nd poor tae always gets nothing at all from his fav….
2) 32:8- 32:19--Another thing I noted was this moment…even though he didnt put JW in childrens line, but he does take care of him, nd worrys abt him…even johnny said it like " u r treating him like baby" ….nd JW is like why u act like that….I think dy is honestly kind ..he may hide nd lie for the sake of his job, but as a normal person he just cant stop be kind to others..nd I got it now why he said he prefer to be hated by someone rather than hating someone….haha…really cool…
3) 4:32 to 5:00 this moment when dy come inside of the house nd saw (hc,he,jh,jn) making coffe nd not helping with chores…ofcrs they lose , but there were lot of things to do , only hc come nd helped saying should I make it hyung,,…still dy nagged a little bit , to hc like it was not time to make coffees…haha…but I stand with him…there wre a lot to do if all members wants to eat..but they didnt even flinch from the seat..including jae who would jump if he hear the breathing sound of dy…so I kinda bit disappointed in that..I mean he said 3 times like nothing is started, ther is lot of things to do…but I think them all just woke up from sleeping ,so just let them pass..most of ppl gets grumpy when wakes up..nd dy is just a warry wart sometimes…but hc acted differently even tho he is the maknae…I wanted to point out that…
4) Here, I knw there would be 2dong content coming but they r hinting about it everywhere..like hc nd dy have the most reaction when eating..nd members approving them…
5) Lastly in the whole content ty called dy's name like 100 times…when u watch u will knw…haha…
Ps: Your works r amazing…a truly talented observer…hasoff...nd all the best for the future...
Home not alone ep3
Hm, I found this "Styler" Korean magazine. It's about stylish things, home decor, clothes. It has a little bit of vintage and artsy style? Not luxury brands. Think Poetic beauty rather than Prada.
There is also a cooling (?) humidifying (?) wardrobe by this name ���타일러, but I doubt Do meant this specific product. A big jump from perfume.
Do was right to worry as Jungwoo demonstrated during DJJ he doesn't know his way around even a normal kitchen. Do has a habit of being cautious and fussy.
The winning team was given a task by the producers, Johnny and Jaehyun seemed to get too interested with that (JN is famous for liking coffee, Jae wanted to get the final result). Jungwoo doesn't cook. I was surprised Yuta was so helpful, usually he is the one to slack the most. He was in good spirits, had fun.
I don't think Jaehyun cooks much. He is named the best cook, but I suspect he just knows how to make a few dishes following a recipe.
I'll add what piqued my interest.
18:07 - Despite everyone talking one by one, Do heard Jae's quiet "hyung, it's really tasty" and replied. Later on he followed the convo while grilling, he really is "all ears" constantly, doesn't go inside his head.
22:11 - Doyoung asked Haechan to make him a wrap (meat+kimchi, they didn't have greens), Hyuk said "I can't", but started on it right away. Yuta thought Hyuk really refused and prepared to do it himself. A small thing, but shows Yuta is not too well versed in 2Dongs (because he doesn't live with them to know such minute details).
22:30 - Yuta brought Do meat, but Do said Yuta should just eat calmly, Do will just make Hyuk make him wraps. I don't know if age order plays here any role, probably for Do it's just easier to burden Hyuk as a more close person (and he sat nearby). Kind of like guest/family member at the dinner table distinction? Both of the guys ate, so both should have been equally hungry/non-hungry.
28:23 - Did Jaehyun want to defend Do? As in, he is not the only person who reacts during movies? His words seem to be cut off. He didn't continue his thought about Woo.
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I do feel like sams expectations are too high. I do edit and have edited for YouTubers in the past. But even then it wasn’t so picky and specific. I do wish Sam could open his eyes a little and see that everything doesn’t need to be perfect. People have lives outside of work and plus. Regardless if the editing is not the greatest doesn’t mean the quality of the video would be bad. I could careless about the editing/how the video is edited. As long as the quality is fine even then I don’t mind. I feel like this is happening because Sam is stressed out on something in his life. I just wish that whatever it is he get sorted out. Same as for Colby. There’s no denying there’s stuff going on in his life. People got to think that these people have lives outside of exploring. I just want them to be okay and know it’s always fine if they take a break. That’s what I mostly miss about them hanging out with TFIL. I loved when they went to Australia with Corey. It was normal and I could tell that they were so happy to take a break from everything. I hope they are okay!
I’m stating this outside of anonymous as I don’t really care who thinks what on my opinion (as in negativity)! But I always listen. Everyone opinions matter so feel free to voice whatever on mine! Ily <3
i wonder if his problem is a mix of both his perfectionist tendencies and being scared that fans will not like a slightly different editing style. bc while most fans wouldn't care overall, i think a decent amount would have something to say about it and would not like it. i know i saw it somewhere (either reddit or twitter) that someone said "snc need to get an editor that knows their style. they have to, otherwise the videos won't be good moving forward" and there were ppl agree with said person so….
but that doesn't negate the fact that sam is too up-tight about this. there's a difference between "i want my video to look like that in the end" vs "i'm gonna hover over you while you work and micromanage everything you do to get the end result i want". like, you want to give notes? that's fine. but if you gotta give a note for every slight change in the edit, then clearly at the point you should just do it yourself. if you can't trust someone you hired to get the job done, don't hire them. especially if it's someone with extensive background in editing.
which again is why i feel like they should just hire someone that has never done editing before, or at the bare minimum knows after effects and that's it, and just teach them everything they want in a video.
both snc are just really stressed, and idk if it's continued stress from last year or what things they have planned this year, but it's clear that they are overworked. i would love for them to take a break this year (maybe not with tfil lol) and just… chill out. i get they need to post and i want them to, but if you're gonna be stressing yourself out, don't do it. take time to relax. no one would fault you for wanting a vacation or time off.
and i'm sure most anons, or anyone else, would agree with your sentiment so no need to worry about negativity haha
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all right, i have been in my trays for over 5 hours, with little to no soreness 😁 my bottom teeth, which are the worst part, are a little sore, but i'm expecting them to be worse over the night and over the weekend as they move with my trays.
i have 16 attachments, little buttons, on my teeth that will help them move better. i have 8 on the top and 8 on the bottom. getting them attached was fairly painless and actually the easiest part of the appointment. i also had some IPR, inter-proximal reduction (aka filing between my teeth), on my bottom teeth to make it easier for them to move. i personally did not like this part. it's supposed to be painless, but i have some sensitivity issues on my bottom teeth, so some teeth hurt a little when he was filing between them and i hated the sound of the electric file. but... the little gaps between my teeth, when my trays are out, are kind of cute 🥰
my tray change schedule is every 3-4 days, which seems a little quick to me, but i'm just the patient 🤷🏻♀️ from the videos i binged before my treatment the shortest time i saw was 5 days before a tray change. my tray changes are kind of unique, i have even tray days and odd tray days. each set of aligners is numbered and i change to an even tray on sundays and to an odd tray on thursdays. since i started my treatment today, thursday, i'll wear my first tray until sunday. then sunday evening i'll change to tray #2. i haven't fully decided yet if i'll change my tray during the day on sunday, but i saw a lot of ppl changing their trays at night to reduce the amount of pain. i may try changing it when i wake up, just to experiment, since i have no plans sunday, it won't matter too much if I'm in a little pain during the day 🤷🏻♀️
i said i was worried about eating... let me tell you, eating with the trays in is the weirdest sensation. for me, crunchy things are the weirdest so far. i can feel the crunch, but not against my teeth... it's hard to explain. and don't get me started on chewing 😂 i'm afraid to chew too hard, but i think this is something that i'll get used to over time. tonight during dinner, i basically swallowed my mashed potatoes in 2 minutes. as for my macaroni and cheese, i chewed VERY lightly (the pasta was a little softer than expected), and then swallowed. i did eat most of my food and even took home the leftovers for lunch tomorrow! i also have to be VERY careful about the temperature of my food. hot food (or water) can cause my trays to warp and not move my teeth correctly. with my mashed potatoes, i was putting a small bit on my tongue and, basically, throwing it to the back of my throat 😂 that way, the hot food didn't touch my trays at all. but i'm going to stick with cold food, like yogurt, fruits and cottage cheese for the coming week.
taking my trays out was a struggle. i know that it takes practice and i'll get better at it the more i do it. once my trays are out i floss and brush my teeth like normal and then put my trays back in. tomorrow morning though, i think i'll soak my trays bc i imagine they'll be pretty gross after sleeping in them. also... my lips are hella dry 😂 i have put on SO much chapstick in the last 5 hours.
anyway, that's my teeth update. I'm not sure if I'll get to making enough content for the coming week over the weekend, but i'll do my best! i hope you had a good week, please stay safe out there, and stay hydrated my friends! 💖
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hey kels i was scrolling through my dash and then i caught a glimpse of your new fallon drawing and i want you to know that i went absolutely buckwild and then i scrolled further to see the whole drawing and i'm pretty sure i squealed. kels ever since ive started following you and your art and fallon have slowly nestled yourself inside my brain its amazing how excited i get whenever u upload a new drawing. also ive noticed that i'm slowly but surely starting to sound more and more unhinged and wild like you. how the fuck do you have so much influence on me.
ALSO i love the new fallon drawing!! you are so right blue gold and white are just her colours they fit her v well!! and i love how much texture you used throughout the whole drawing and her shoes are AWESOME!! also love the whole winter fairy-ish vibe <3
ALSO i was wondering if you could like sort of,, idk explain your drawing process on this drawing? like if you did the colouring first or the lineart and stuff bc i just love how it turned out and id love to try something similar!!
AW!!! i am so hype for my awful girl to be Enjoyed so much!! she is my favorite dressup doll i love to play barbies with her most of all heheh. also i am THRILLED that my Unhinged and Unwell nature have rubbed off on u. i know i am a Strong personality and it makes me V POLARIZING (i am either LOVED or LOATHED i havent met many ppl who are just like meh abt me. i am an Experience) and its always a DELIGHT when someone finds my feral animal traits endearing or positive and kind of picks up on them. i think because life is short that we should all be as bananas as we please at any point in time. PURE ID HERE BABY
AND TY TY!! my girl has a strong aesthetic and this piece kind of went a liiiiittle against some of that (its a lot of hard angles vs i normally give her a lot of ovals and rounded edges) but for the setting its appropriate bc im trying to give her a bit more of a """"harsh"""" or """"severe"""" vibe (like as harsh and severe as she can possibly look which isnt very). i LOVE to use texture brushes they are such an easy way to get out of drawing details myself because i am SO lazy!!
okay i “”answered”” this i GUESS technically because i typed words in response but its a whole lot of jack shit so like. here ya go. SORRY PAL.
here are some more shoes as u can see i basically draw her in the same ones always except when i draw her in a plugsuit
OKAY THE DRAW IN QUESTION i kind of cheated on bc i literally just traced over one of my older draws i did for a very obscure au i made of who made me a princess (i am always doing such ridiculously niche shit i love to sit in my little sandbox and have no one else understand my barbie rps) BUT the process is the same as basically every draw i do like this. it is very simple so dont worry (or do, maybe)
i use 1-3 layers at a time and then immediately merge when i feel like im done and LIVE W MY MISTAKES if not!! anyway prepare to be massively underwhelmed heh
this is so funny i cant believe i literally traced my own drawing im a fuckin FRAUD im the laziest bitch i know. anyway. my sketches are way messier than this but it always starts out either scratch ass lines or color blocking w this bright ass magenta bc thats what feels right!!!!!!
HERES THE LAYERS I USED LOL i do all textures n shit as a clipping mask so actually i used 4 layers for this bc id set down one texture or pattern that was gonna overlap on a diff layer so i wouldnt have to work harder to erase and then BLINDLY MERGED to make things more difficult if actually i fucked up before that!!! work smarter not harder except when it is absolutely braindead to do otherwise is my motto
IF IM DOIN SMTH NICER like this then i usually make sure all my lines connect (this is also why i do a lot of angles and simple clear shapes when i draw) so i can set that layer as reference and USE THE FUCKING FILL TOOL BAYBEEEEE!!!!! this also makes it easier to fuck around with COLOR imho bc you can just rapidly swatch with zero efforts. i Love to take shortcuts. i Love to be lazy. i HIGHLY rec this, if i have colored smth that stays in the lines then its bc i connected the lineart and used the bucket fill underneath. if my lines dont connect sometimes ill make a temp line and erase after i filled. im dedicated. ALSO u can see here that my patterns layer is all overlapping and fucked up bc i didnt check and erase fully but i use p limited palettes in general so... IT DIDNT MATTER THIS TIME!!!!!!!!.
anyway after all that i lock the lineart layer if i havent already and color some of the lines for some PIZAZZ. easy way to immediately fake effort i do love to do that
HERES AN ACTUALLY MESSY SKETCH:
i do all of my fucking draws on the same canvas bc im a horrible little beast, so the only reason i didnt erase the sketch and use it for the colors layer was bc there were others on that layer already and i didnt wanna scoot them so i could cap the finished draw. i did NOT connect my lines for this one i colored like a toddler. who gives a shit we all die in the end anyway!!!
YOU DIDNT ASK FOR THIS BUT LINELESS MY LOVE... i just color blocked for this one alas i do not have process caps, i will do that next time i draw i guess if anyone wants that!!? i typically only use a single layer for lineless- block out the shape, alpha lock, then color and carve from there. EASY PEASY!! ive shown it before but i spent all my formative draw years on v limited feature programs (mspaint, oekaki, TEGAKI MOST OF ALL) so i dont explore tools much and do what seems easiest and most intuitive to me... im sorry i dont have any sick tricks or real process i am but a feral little clown drawing in the DIRT. also here is the tegaki overlay i use whenever i am Blocked or fatigued w procreate layout. it makes me feel NOSTALGIC and INSPIRED so i do this instead of like, actually getting on tegs2
this ended up long as fuck and FOR WHAT?? its just 10 images and several paragraphs of “sorry im the laziest fucker ALIVE”
#idk what to say here every time i type anything i thnk it makes me seem just completely detached from reality#its not untrue i GUESS. im Unwell but in a stable SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETED THERAPY AND HAVING FUN WITH IT kind of way#kels talks#damn sorry anon this was a whole lot of not answering you at all
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