Check out my Facebook group because I'm in needing of a distraction and why not start my own photography business and blogging/journalist thing and I'm doing it for my son... Abel Charles mclean was the smallest but smartest babies I've ever fallen in love with he wrapped me around his little finger from the moment he was born.. in that moment I knew when I looked into his eyes that he had me so wrapped around his little finger and he knew it too.. sadly he passed away due too SIDS 2 weeks after I gave birth to him and the day I lost him was the day I died... giving life to such an amazing little boy and then having him be taken like that at only just 2 weeks old.. I'm doing this all for him, Abel changed my life and continues to keep changing it. So my please go check it out and help me navigate and distract myself from this pain.. and he would of been 3 months old today and am I allowed to feel guilty that I'm trying to distract myself?

Merry Christmas everyone #cereal #ps4 #tryingtodistractmyself #imisshim https://www.instagram.com/p/BrzSIoZBXM7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1i1pqmjrdeqx2

Here is a photo dump because why not. A lot of emotions over the last couple of months. That first pic though, I think I'm dying over that piercing combo, I think I need them 💜💜💜 . . . . #toomanyemotions #stress #tryingtodistractmyself #girlswithbluehair #snapchatfilters #snapchat #girlswithpiercings #neednewpiercings #selfies #justbreathe https://www.instagram.com/p/B4JX-gNpz_M/?igshid=17k0ugy648joz

So I stumbled upon a stash of neon blue gel light up stuff in a box... not sure why I had them... but now I am having my very own little rave... all alone in my room... just me and the neon. Not much else to do. Laid up with a back injury so why not sit here and rave? #TryingToDistractMyself

Whatevs #whatever #ohwhatevermajorloser lol #snapchat #happyhumpday #tryingtodistractmyself

When you're a #professional #organizer and you watch your friend #pack 💼for a work trip before driving her to the #airport✈️ = 😔 #chooseyourbattles #breathe #tryingtodistractmyself (at Toronto, Ontario)

Love some timber in a kitchen #tryingtodistractmyself #house #kitchen #interior #heartofthehome

I miss you :(

This just keeps on happening....I see something that reminds me of you and then I go into daydream world and then when I get back to reality I realize that was all in the past

Sometimes, I roll off the couch and act like a ninja. Wait, sorry. I am a ninja