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it’s giving jacob the sweet kisses in between harsh fucking, such a jacob thing to do.

Finding it hard to move on with my day after this 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

Publishing has always been a fucking nightmare, but now it’s a layer of hell. It’s not enough that writers be good at what they do. Writers have to maintain an active social media presence and cultivate a following. Be available.

They have to be conventionally attractive enough to look good enough to see on a screen, aesthetically pleasing, kind, funny, up-to-date on trends, socially aware but not so controversial that they turn off a brand from California from slapping their discount code on a video promoting a book.

They have to do all of this with no media training, with little help from the companies that are supposed to be doing this for them.

Of course, a lot of this isn't possible for say, the 40-something mother of two who teaches English at a school and writes on the side. She’s boxed out of an already complex industry that already has enough walls.

On some level, I think authors have always marketed themselves a little, but we’ve reached such a crazy point where we’re demanding the author become the influencer. Accessibility in publishing has narrowed from an inch to a sliver. And that inch was hard enough to get in as is.

imagine one day you’re on your third flight of the day doing your silly little flight attendant job and you’re exhausted, and ready to be home, and you’re smiling and dissociating as your greet passengers as they come on board and suddenly in walks jensen ackles, dean winchester himself, and he smiles and says “thanks” as you hand him a silly little disinfectant wipe. You proceed to hand the basket of wipes to your coworker as you rush to the bathroom to have a full blown panic attack because DEAN FUCKING WINCHESTER is on your flight and you are going to have to talk to him and interact with him and be professional and pretend you aren’t having a meltdown cause you would know those eye crinkles ANYWHERE. Imagine you’re taking dinner orders and you’re repeating to yourself in your head “be profesional, smile and ask for his order, just breathe” and he proceeds to order the cheeseburger and a whiskey neat and your brain short circuits and in your most sarcastic tone out of your mouth comes “yeah sure thing dean” AND THEN YOUR BRAIN EXPLODES CAUSE YOU JUST SAID THAT OUT LOUD TO JENSEN FUCKING ACKLES!!!!! Anyways he laughs and says “my wife says that all the time” then you proceed to die and blackout and work the rest of the flight on autopilot yeah imagine if that happened 😅

here’s the thing. the absolute joy and wonder i feel whenever someone tells me they came across ahb! and are now taking an art history course / majoring in art next year / went to their local art museum for the first time in ages is exponential. when yall send me your favorite artworks and tell me about them or tell me you went to x museum to see x painting mentioned in ahb??? it’s just so so wonderful. because never did i think something i wrote out of love for art and love for art history would lead anyone else to research art or talk about it or seek it out for themselves and that’s so much more than i could ever imagine would come out of a very timid first attempt at creative writing/fandom involvement.

i wrote it out of love and y’all have all reciprocated that love tenfold and ran with it to talk about art and explore it and share it with me and those around you. and it’s just been a very special incredible thing that makes me emosh. :,)

Sorry I forgot Hanneman suggested Byleth undress after they show up with a different hair color. And I miss Hanneman. And also while swapping between Houses and Hopes and seeing Hanneman pop up to help in a Hopes paralogue is just devastating since he doesn't ever actually join you at all and I am denied my old man rights.

So I had to draw this. Thank you for understanding.

I jokingly thought before that reading Junie B. Jones as a kid turned me into a feminist, but unironically, it kind of did.

I honestly think it comes down to the fact that Junie B. was not only allowed to be "weird," but her character arc never concluded like other girl characters would. In other media featuring "weird girls," the girl always ended her arc tamed - by force or convince, she would be prettied up, she would smile and be polite, and she would never speak out of turn. She would be perfect then, and would shed her veneer of individuality with the freedom that is conformity. As a kid, I noticed that girls weren't permitted to be "weird" like boys were. So when I read Junie B. Jones, I loved that she was frankly just fucking weird. She said things out of turn, she was rambunctious and imaginative and she was a realistic portrayal of a little girl. I loved reading those books because the narrative taught her lessons without punishing her for being weird, if that makes sense. So often, narratives punished weird girls for the crime of being a socially unacceptable girl, not for any true wrongdoing like lying.

Anyway, I just think it's interesting, because I watched and read a ton of books and shows and movies featuring girls and women, but none of them truly empathized with (or even tried to empathize with) weird girls on their own merits and capabilities and terms, or embraced the idea of a "socially inept/unacceptable" girl without punishing her in some way for her supposed ineptitude.

I wonder if Lilia had ever been thanked for all he’s done?

I just want a scene where’s he’s thanked for all the love he gave and still gives.

Malleus: “Thank you for loving me unconditionally for 200 years. Thank you for hatching me. Thank you for raising me to the best of your ability and always being there for me.”

Silver: “Thank you for loving me. Thank you for finding me and waking me up. Thank you for showing me all the ways you love me through your actions.”

I just think he should hear it you know?

“Thank you for your love. I love you.”

And here it is. The true start of this big tale.

Here I present to you, my greatest work to date:

TOWER OF MISTAKES

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saw being filmed in 18 days. it being thought of/made by two Aussie grads. it being filmed entirely in the same building/warehouse. the actors only getting like 2 takes on a good day. a lot of the 'iconic' editing aspects (eg the photos) being added in bc they didn't have the film coverage. the plot being interesting. the characters being entertaining... the soundtrack being a banger... 'hello zepp'!!.... THE TWIST... dips n kisses saw (2004)

"I hope you told your brother how much you loved him, because you're probably never gonna see him again."

"..."

"Was that too dark?"

"YES!"

"Sorry."

sorry I know it’s 2023 the show has Been over but on any other show. your best friend confesses their love for you and dies. the very act of confession is what kills them because its their moment of true happiness - just telling you they love you - so the act of confession, of loving you, becomes happiness for its own sake and sacrificial death all at once.

on any other show. perhaps this would not insignificantly impact the character who was confessed to and would be further addressed in the text of the show. as you do when such fundamental worldview changes are introduced to characters that they now have to reconcile with along with the loss. perhaps this would even be a subplot, an arc to their character development. on any other show.

on the show where - just two seasons ago - said character Did have an entire arc and subplot dedicated to mourning the loss of their best friend who was killed in the context of battle, without any added significance such as. I don’t know. telling the other they’re in love with them which is the very thing that kills them. after the audience is deliberately shown that the character mourns for them in a distinct way compared to other characters, who mourn him as a close friend or paternal figure. which perhaps would beg the question: what is the distinction then. and the answer is: don’t worry about it. You Are Watching Supernatural

being attached to that moment qifrey held a baby one time and my ideas for the future :)

to me the fact that the narrator makes the shifting mound take the form of a princess is so funny

he had to pick something that was the right mix of not a difficulty to kill and something we wouldn't have a qualm ending the life of and he seriously thought, hmm. yeah. princess.

ohtani announcing that he’s happily married without any news of even a partner is such hajime energy

hold me together.

kenny ortega, descendants 2 / holly black, red glove / nicole homer, underbelly / ada limon, a new national anthem / k c cramm, christmas eve forever / kenny ortega, descendants 3 / the crane wives, curses / silas denver melvin, let dead dogs lie / natalie wee, least of all