Addressing characters as if their media is also their last name, such as: sans undertale, sunny omori, nimona nimona (bc i think its funny). It’s a vibe

Reflecting on Heavensward

Gonna drop it under a cut cause why not.

I would have to say that looking back to how I was going into heavensward versus how I left heavensward. It was probably a large difference, in both my personal life and in my character’s life. 

To start, I came into the expansion looking forward to everything that it could offer me, but for a while? Nothing really changed. I only ever spoke to two or three people often, and would be in a group chat that my previous FC would do. Throughout the expansion I...admittedly hit one of the biggest walls I have since starting back in the ps3 beta phase. I just, couldn’t think of how to move Keru forward in terms of story, and how to have him show growth in actions and in mindset. And for a while. I thought it was enough to just challenge him, his morals, his own willingness to fight for what he believes in. And I feel like more and more I’m setting up and accepting where Keru as a character seems to be going, and just, thinking of how to move him forward and broadening his own horizons.

As for ooc stuff. Well. The expansion’s been quite interesting for my life. A lot has happened over this time? I found confidence in myself. Found myself able to stand up and fight back when people tried to wrong me. I grew. I made decisions that not everyone may agree with, and hell some I wish maybe I could’ve done it differently. But I think the most important thing I realized is that I’m finally knowing who I am as a person, and coming to terms with a lot of things I never could’ve thought of. And even when there were times I’d spend the day in tears feeling terrible, and just not have the drive to be on XIV all the time. I have been drawn back time and time again, and that’s because of the people I met in the game that honestly make me feel like I’m not as terrible as I often feel I am. People that see what I do and just...think it’s great. That they like it. Before heavensward I didn’t really do much as an artist, I didn’t think I was good enough. But the kind things I’ve heard from my followers and people I didn’t fully know. It made me smile. Made me pleased to see that I did something good.

I think the most important thing I took from the expansion. Is that I have people that I can say that have seen me at my best, and at my lowest, and that in spite of that. They’ve stuck around, because in truth they have my back. And I think going forward into the expansion. I just want to focus on the things that I enjoy, and just step and enjoy myself again. With people that make me laugh and bring me a whole lot of joy.

And I do feel I need to give some very big thank yous to people who are part of the reason I’ve gotten to where I am.

@khujatotayuun Because since I’ve met him till now. He’s been someone who’s had my back, fought for me, and helped me when I felt down and out, plus he makes me feel secure and just all around better.

@gharials-or-bust someone who I do think is such a sweetheart and .I like hanging out with, even if I am silent often. I think if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be where I am now? Both relationship wise and just in general.

@thetreewaffle A friend that honestly never fails to bring a smile to my face. Because he’s so kind and genuinely sweet and is understanding, and that has been there for me when I’ve needed.

@lauranis Someone who has made me grow more comfortable in my art style, and someone who takes the time to talk with me even if briefly.

@dayst-ffxiv and @aetherical-shade two people who I’ve recently talked to more and have learned how much I enjoy their company. They make it easy especially if I’m fumbling a bit.

@valourheart-xiv this goober helped me out a lot when it came to feeling down as well. In his own particular brand of helping of course.

@loosenedchains that potato of a pink friend, he’s someone that I think I’ve run a lot of the early heavensward stuff with, and one of the few reasons I think why I’m so comfortable as a WHM? Because he and I always worked exceptionally well together.

@bramble-star because even though we may not talk much I do enjoy talking with you. 

I’m sure there are others I’m forgetting here and I’m sorry if I did but these are just some that do come to my mind. But from the bottom of my heart. Thank you all. I may have struggled lots over this expansion, struggling to find my mindset, but all of you really helped me get it together.

✊😌

Made this shitty meme in honor of the idea not being able to leave my head.

The way i live knowing my best posts are shitposts when im lowkey an art blog

Hhhhholy fucjk… it’s sirius! Collector oc <333

Nonbinary clown-core is just when u go home and have to unbind. Like. [Removes camisole] [removes sports bra] [removes sports bra] [removes sports bra] [removes sports bra] [remo—]

CACKLING. CURSED CAT! ALASTOR FOR UR PERUSAL 😭😭😭

LETS GO LESBIANS LETS GO‼️‼️‼️ FUCK KETHERIC

Doodles based on a little ramble I did of what my grims would be like in school,, kinda? (Ft: The PalisMAN for the first time ever) Will be continued,,,

Just watched legally blonde and UGH elle woods? Such an icon. I love her so much. Warner’s an ass and I hate him. Vivienne honestly has vibes of like. How the patriarchy etc etc pits women against each other for no real reason? They just? Do? And then the fact that Elle continues w/ law, fuckin WINS, and the fact that she dates Emmett is a footnote? Like. The prize was her finding herself, not finding a boyfriend. Love her, love the movie. Hope the 2nd one is as good

Introduced my history teacher to the legendary scammer, holder (and distributor) of shitty copper, tumblr celebrity: Ea-Nasir

How did he not know of him

Me, listening to astarion’s voicelines to fix meltdown (it wokred):

Aight i understand yall kar’niss simps but this bitch is STUPID. i rlly just told him to gimme his lantern and walk into the shadows. Tbh i love a man willing to kill himself for me /j