Hey guys, what'd I mi-

Welp... I'm never sleeping again.

i do not care what happens in the future with buck and eddie and their romantic relationships because none of it is going to change the fact that eddie loves buck to the core

ag7 core ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

i can’t believe this is really happening 🥹🥹🥹🥹

yes, and??!!! 1.12 ❤️

Had some more thoughts about the weewoo show

I want Buck to have a really great relationship. I want him and Tommy to have fun and to push each other and be good to each other. I don't want any fizzing out or cheating or bad behaviour. I want it to be healthy. And when it ends (because it will) I want it to end well, with no hard feelings and with gratitude. I want Buck to know what it's like to be desired and giddy and free.

And then I want Buck to see him. And I want him to feel that, and feel afraid, and come to terms. And I want him to know what it's like to love someone in all the ways, enough that you'll wait.

And then I want Eddie to fall, almost without knowing. I want it to jolt him out of his hard-fought, hard-won control, to scare him a little. I want big feelings and inescapable certainty. I want him to decide to walk towards what he wants for once.

And then I want them to fall together, choose each other, want each other at the same time. I want hungry kisses and heartfelt words. I want blinding smiles and foreheads touching.

That's all.

Ryan is soooo going back to PR jail after all this 💀💀💀

Me contemplating painting a tee with ‘To the core’ written on it because it is now my entire personality

The Captain of the Silvermane Guard? He’s young, exceptionally handsome, respected by all those who know him. He comes from a noble, wealthy family, he’s kind hearted and brave, loyal to his people to a fault, and he never wavers in his dedication to protecting them even when he’s on the verge of collapse. By all means, you would think someone like him has everything and more a person could long for in this world. It’s unfortunate that it’s all a mask and nothing more. I don’t see someone’s who has the entire world in the pan of their hand. More like… someone who has been forced to bear the weight of it on his back for as long as he can remember. Has he ever once in his life been asked what he wanted? Does he even know? Can he name to you his closest friends, or the last meaningful relationship he was in without having to stop and mull it over?

I can admire his more impressive qualities, of which their are many, and still feel a vague sense of disgust at a population who would expect someone who hasn’t even had the chance to live yet to lay down his life so they can continue their own uninterrupted. Where is the justice? If someone born into that kind of privilege can be sentenced to a prolonged, inevitable death in the freezing cold, surrounded by monsters and fallen comrades, what the hell is there to hold out hope for? I won’t pretend to understand what happened with the last Supreme Guardian, but all I know is that for a planet that claims to embody Preservation, it’s pretty damned pathetic that no one thought of looking to alternate solutions instead of sending their sons to die every few years. To allow a tyrannical monarch to segregate the population in half and leave the less fortunate side to rot should have been a cal to serve her head on a platter and take control back of their own destiny.

What was done to those guards that they were okay with leaving some of their people for dead instead of standing up for what was right?

What came first, the people of Belobog losing faith in the idea that circumstances could improve if even just a fraction of them stood up and rallied for change? Or the previous generation breaking down their children to the point where complacency and absolute obedience was the only thing they were permitted to do?

But things are improving now. Belobog has outside help, allies, friends. They have options. It’s time to let the guards live instead of expecting them to sacrifice their bodies and souls to death only to raise their children to do the same thing.

If I could ask the Captain two things it would be this: what does he truly want? And would he ever willingly force his own child into the position he is in now? If the answer is no, then somewhere song the way, someone failed the guards.

It was painful to hear the truth so candidly, for they had grown complacent when facing the imminence of death at every dawn and laying their fallen brethren as dusk settled. It was not to say that it was a merciful thing, it was to say that they expected it, it was the way things had always been, would always be. He had seethed with the unjustness of it for so many years, trod the path of his forefathers and accepted that he would die, it was fate, for someone to stand up and ask who wanted this ? who asked for this, there wasn’t an answer he could give that was truthful. No one wanted to die. The men he had marched into battle with that had lost their lives had wanted to live more than anything else, when someone had seen them huddled around a fire laughing heartily, sharing meals together, living together, it became so excruciatingly obvious that none of them had asked for this. He does not take his position as captain lightly, for as much as it is a shackle he has always walked with it with pride. It was an intrinsic part of who he was, but to ask what he wanted, would he be an honest man if he answered that this was all he had ever coveted, that it was not imprisonment, condemning young men to die for the sake of preserving normalcy. Not many were brazen enough to speak up against the Supreme Guardian’s will, it had encompassed belobog for decades, in the wake of her death things were changing but it was like thawing frozen, brittle cogs. Everything would take time, it was an inevitable thing that, because these people had become accustomed to survival, not living. This commanding letter imbued with all that fervent emotion makes his chest ache, because he knows it’s not wrong - he knows he does not have the answers that they might want. But when they ask him, implore him for his own feelings, is this what he wanted ? would he force his children to take up the mantle and die for the people of belobog. He looks haunted by that revelation, because he knows that his truth is not in accordance with the Supreme Guardian’s will that had dictated so much of his life. “ No..” it sounds pained, like he were gritting it out from between his teeth, like every breath in the wake of change was excruciating for him. He was having to learn about himself, about others, when his whole life had been shaped for one thing and now he was left to reel in the aftermath of it, change wasn’t easy - it wasn’t pleasant, it hurt. “ I would not condemn anyone else to walk the path I have, it is far too imbued with suffering and death.” he could envision the other’s hands clenched into fists, grabbing his white livery and shaking him until he realized that he did not need to die for them, no one wanted him dead. “ If I was afforded the opportunity I would leave this place.” it’s such a blasphemous thing to say, that his whole soul keens beneath the weight of it. “ I have spent much of my life protecting it but all I have wanted is to leave.” wouldn’t it make others recoil from him, knowing that the pristine white of the captain’s uniform was stained with the desire to walk away from it all. The death was too much, when someone asked for him to be honest he thought he may be crushed under the corollary of his confession. “ Their words are harsh but they are not wrong, Belobog needs to change.” and this letter he crumples up, he doesn’t throw it away, he thinks if another’s prying eyes were to lay upon it they too might suffer with the revelations he did. 

is it time to bring back ‘i love you to the core’ bc i feel even more insane abt that one now actually 🫡

its just like....

something something how easy it is for an abuser to make their victim seem like the monster and we’re witnessing this through neil and billy and how the fandom would rather put all the blame on a 17 year old kid than the grown ass man we canonically know keeps him on a short tight leash

Every cell is telling me "run"

Okay, with how things are looking and all the interviews popping up around it, it's really looking like Buddie's gonna go canon either by the end of this season or the beginning of next

Literally everything is pointing to them going canon (mainly Mr. Guzman being let out of PR jail lmao) but I can also see ABC waiting until next season to actually make it official. Here's my reasoning:

It's a new network and there's gonna be an entirely new audience of people meeting these characters for the first time

People need to see why Eddie wouldn't be with a girlfriend so Marisol is (unfortunately) still in the picture so he can break up with her

With the combined Cruise Ship disaster, Madney wedding, and only 10 episodes for the season, it's pretty packed with content

It's confirmed we're getting Buck and Eddie "friendship" scenes in every episode, so that could be a way to help warm up the GA to the idea of them being a couple

We wouldn't want them getting together to feel rushed

I hear your screams about them having 5 seasons of buildup and teasing, so them getting together right away wouldn't be "rushed". But again, it's a new season on a new network with some people as a new audience. To those who haven't seen the show before, Eddie breaking up with Marisol and immediately going out with Buck would probably feel rushed or forced to them so they'd need a bit more buildup to get behind the idea of "Buddie"

Alternatively, I can also see ABC doing what FOX did with Bobby and Athena in season one;

Having them go on a full on date at the end of the season (or it could just be one of them asking the other to hang out, nothing out of the ordinary) and at the start of next season they're making out against the fire truck 🤡🤡🤡

I'm just saying this now so if they don't go canon this season I won't be (too) upset lol

We'll have to see! They're coming back in several hours🥰🥰🥰 See y'all then!!!

(I may or may not be live posting my reaction to the episode on here 👀)

Holy shit do you see what’s trending on Twitter for kpop? Jm is being harassed by the taes and vice versa. What the fuckery is happening

https://twitter.com/kthvord/status/1672658586500202496?s=46&t=dj6IWYnNWdRnKOacuM4I1g

Oh I've seen all that shit. We've been reporting all morning. Even Jhope solos are on our radar today. I mean, look at this shit

This is twitter on a fucking daily basis now. Since the vermin can't ship without shitting on Jimin, this happens. This is what is called setting up your fav. And hear me out, that up there is disgusting and Jimin solos are just as bad but here is my thing. This was posted today

Go to the comment section and the quoted tweets you will find JJKs and Suga solos posting their favs and how high they debuted. Jimin debuted higher than both Suga and JK and you will not find a single PJM tweeting Jimin's achievements. Do you know why? Because this is none of their business and they don't set up their fav. Now who will Jk solos and Suga solos blame when blinks start attacking JK and Suga? Who?

This is the problem with stan twitter. Idk why we can't just celebrate our favs without dragging anyone else. It's really not that hard 🤧

Anyway, I learnt something new today

Anyone else collecting their jaw off the floor or is it just me?

Cowards being too scared to hate Kaiden these days is a real shame ngl

(Also on my DeviantArt)

Updated designs for Light Gaia and Perfect Light Gaia in my Light Gaia-Dark Gaia roleswap AU. It’s tricky to strike a balance between it being recognizably Chip (or something that could become Chip) and being weird and monstrous like Dark Gaia. I’ve tried several iterations of Light Gaia’s design, and I think this latest attempt has the most “final boss” feel. Throwing in a bit of Solaris inspiration definitely helped. It’s still nowhere near as weird as Dark Gaia, but I think that fits considering their respective personalities and the ways they interact with humanity in this AU.

im VibRaTiNg I feel normal about this-------