*protectively tightens hold around the hurt/comfort tag on ao3*

🌸🌼🌷 —ft. nepenthe & mallory

I'm bored. I need motivation and drive to write.

Does Wars carry any resent towards Marigold for not introducing him or at least making him aware of who his father is?

Was part of her reluctance because she didn’t want Wars to follow in his father footsteps as a knight or soldier? Or, did she just not want Lincoln to be involved in their lives? She must’ve known when she was sick that she would be leaving Wars completely alone in the world.

Warriors’s feelings about his mom are really complicated. He does feel resentment towards her for never telling him, but he also feels terrible for resenting her.

Part of Marigold’s reluctance is that she didn’t want him to become a knight. The other parts we will learn with time.

And as someone who did have someone close to them die from illness, they won’t always know that they are going to die. If they do know, it doesn’t mean they’ll give a deathbed confession or that they’ll even be well enough to make one.

..........

Studio on Saturn is doing a giveaway

Honestly? I don't feel all that bad for Umbrella Pogo. I rewatch season one and I'm just like...oh no. Who couldve predicted this. Enabling abuse upsets some people. Possibly even the people who were abused.

i wish i had a fwb that like had all the exCt same interests as me. we could play video games together and like be autistic and infodump and like suck eachothers dicks . you know . that would be nice

they wouldnt egen have to do anything to me actually i just want to suck someones dick honestly. surely there are guys out there who like smash and mario kart and zelda and dq11 and pokemon and are gay/bi and socially awkward and like getting their dick sucked. Surely. if i was lesss shy and retarded i saear i would be so much happier i just want like a fwb and a minimum wage job idc literally thats all i want in life.. i dont care about anything else . shit source of income is bettwr than nothingn bc like i dont have bills to pay you know if i was making money and had someone i was comfortable enoigh to be intimate with i would literally not have no mental illness

Me, gnawing off my own arm in frustration: FINE is there a cheat engine table for this--

Some divine genius, musing on the forums: I mean, the saves are totally comprehensible and you can open them with notepad++ if you just want--

Me, now enlightened: A thousand blessings on your house for averting the fury aneurysm I was dangerously close to, I'm going to make my character a tiny god.

just frustratedly rotating asmodeus in my head because the specific content i want of him doesn’t exist and i don’t have the brain space to make it

i hate so much how the world and the awful people in this country have been making my internalized transphobia and dysphoria so bad

like its so hard to keep up with loving myself and seeing myself as equal and valid and feeling like people see me for who i am, when i know that most of the population rn wants me dead or to not be who i am which would also kill me

being trans feels so lose lose in todays society and it’s quite literally become the heaviest part of my life in the last year give or take.

this will be my discussion topic in therapy tomorrow 😵‍💫🫠

fuck four-month period classes, all my homies hate four-month period classes.

I remember my brothers and I were talking the other day and my brother was saying he remembering me getting in trouble a lot for like...not moving fast enough and having like a leisurely attitude as a kid. Of course I had no idea what he was talking about but I was like...yeah that tracks tbh

God I just want to crawl into a hole sometimes.