FNAF Mikes and Vanessas talk about money struggles,,

The anon who sent the ask about rereading Reinvention here, I’m so glad it still holds a special place in your heart as it does for me too.

My favourite parts have always been how you describe Evan’s avoidance at the start (even now, so many years later, he remains so relatable). Bringing the nail polish to Connor and painting his nails, the thought behind the gesture and the way Connor still holds his hand out after everything and let’s him do it and just can’t seem to really give up on Evan. All of their moments together make me feel so soft. Evan laying under the tree with his head on Connor’s chest, and Connor beckoning him down from his own tree when he climbs it and seems to be stirring with emotions he doesn’t know how to put words to. The encouragement to take medication, the reminders, the forgetfulness. The acceptance on what might not be the healthiest thing, but it’s what’s there and needed right now, so there’s no judgement.

And then they’re together, and you have Evan’s mother who is distant because she has to work so much, but is accepting and comforting when she does find out. In comparison to Connor’s parents who are too much all the time, too close, and yet aren’t immediately okay with things. The constant and stark differences between them that makes the two even more aware of their own difficulties with their own respective family.

Also just. The characters being allowed to break down. The affection means so much but the tears and them being unsure and Connor hitting the wall at one point. It’s everything to me. They’re both allowed to struggle and slip and not know what to do, and they both find ways to keep getting up after it. They take the paths they take and they’re allowed to live their lives as they each want to. They’re together but allowed to be individual, and maybe that’s not the easiest thing but they manage it and they do it well

This is probably in part incomprehensible as it’s nearing 5am as I type but yeah. Your writing is so well done and it still holds up brilliantly all this time later. Thank you for sharing it and for keeping it up so it could be found again

^ Literally this is how I feel right now. Like, not to respond with a reaction gif to a tumblr ask in the year 2023, but... Oh my gosh. This was not incomprehensible to me it made complete sense and it made me genuinely tear up a little bit because I did not expect this level of love about something that I Created. It's words like this that make me want to write so much again. I just sent a screenshot of this message to my friend who actually convinced me to write Reinvention and he said, "Haley you are a writer!!!". And I guess I am! I just really forget that sometimes.

I think the funniest part about a lot of Reinvention is that I was writing it as an undiagnosed 18 year old who had never experienced love before, not in the conventional way, and so when all of the comments would tell me how good I was portraying depression or anxiety... Well. It's funny in retrospect. I can definitely say for sure that I put a lot of me in those boys when I was putting pen to paper and a lot of the interactions were, I think, just how I wished that I would be treated. It's the little things.

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. This was so unexpected, but appreciated more than you could know. <3

current fav genre: dan reaching for phil during jumpscares

UPDATE: ive had a few asks requesting to add one more clip from don’t scream (sorry i missed it!) so ur wish is my command !!!

saw fight club in the cinema…i think i died

Vigil - 2x06

I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess

This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.

I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕

Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.

The video is still on YT.

whatever og text i had in mind for this post about ko shibasaki looking like sayama in this movie is completely cancelled on account of utsumi (this character)'s first name being kaoru and i only found this out cause i was looking up her name just to be sure when making this post

like jesus christ i legally have to make this post now

being depressed is like experiencing full gravity on the moon and watching every other bastard float around while you stomp wretchedly from crater to crater

girls will say they’re tough shit until 7 by catfish and the bottlemen comes on

Shit Post venting hour let's go:

Trans Bro/Trans Dirk has endometriosis (*enBROmetriosis, because people are shitty and don't get that guys have it, too), even AFTER getting a hysterectomy, because, unfortunately, sometimes our bodies are just transphobic like that. (True story, bro...) He doesn't get symptoms regularly post-op, but when they hit, they hit like a plane-wreck - it's a huge disaster for one, and it also becomes everyone else's business.

Trans Dave doesn't have endo, but still goes through a lot of pain relievers for normal cramps. He forgot to tell Bro they were out of medicine last time.

Cue Bro stuck hugging the toilet, sick from how much pain he's in as soon as he wakes up, and Dave doesn't hear him call out for healing.

As soon as Dave hears Bro talking about Advil, he immediately remembers his mistake and realizes why Bro's been extra volatile lately (PMS/PMDD/etc).

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

saw a post where someone was super upset about people posting early morning routine vids and complaining that it's promoting hustle culture or whatever and, like, yeah probably some influencers are trying to do that, but also. sometimes. people are just morning people. and are more productive at 3 or 4 or 5am than they would be at 8 or 9 or 10pm. and if that doesn't apply to you, they are not evil, you are simply not their audience.

the Damar Hamilin situation is horrific for a lot of reasons, obviously, but it still just... i am honestly at a loss for words at how the NFL is&has been handling it.

like, this wasn't a mistake or an accident, this was a function of the game&a clean play. there was no foul, as far as i could tell or have heard. an extremely healthy&well trained young man almost fucking died as a function of the game, &the NFL is not only trying to deny their callousness at the event in general:

they have got whole cardiologists on deck trying to explain what happened like it wasn't a CLEAN HIT THAT STOPPED HIS HEART ON NATIONAL TELEVISION:

[image text: From your perspective, what are the possible causes of Hamlin's cardiac arrest?

Dr. Baggish: There's a long list: there are genetic and congenital abnormalities which could be at play, I know there's been speculation about the blunt force from the tackle, but I would say that it's really premature to make any speculation. In fact, to jump to a conclusion would be a mistake. The diagnosis of commotio cordis, for example [which refers to a fatal disruption of the heart rhythm from a blow to the chest], is what we call a diagnosis of exclusion, meaning other things have been eliminated. We would never conclude that unless other factors have been ruled out. /text]

this shit is fucking evil.

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Hi, just want to say your Mirai is such a both cool and cutie person, and those statements goes to other Pokemon ginjikas, too!

ps: Just noticed that Mirai has a damaged left eye on a few posts, does the final grand big battle in game is the cause of it?

You don’t know how much I jumped at this ask [VERY POSITIVE BY THE WAY]

AHHHHHH 🥺🙏 THANK YOU SO MUCH Mirai is my pride and joy.. to hear that people like him so much makes me do flips. Same with the others!! I’m overjoyed to hear you like them that much!!!!

As for his eye… I’m glad you asked. Yes! During the final battle when facing the opponent Miraidon [his… father actually 🫢] his face is slashed thus leaving that eye permanently damaged.

Again, thank you for asking!!!

ur boostle art makes me want to tear a phonebook in half with my hands i love it so mcuh

my honest to god reaction to that

it’s so amazing to hear that from THE boostle artist himself i’m actually so honored you have no idea, they make me extremely ill in the head!!!!