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yanderes-galore · 2 days

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hi! I want to request a lil scenario for Gojo. His darling is getting ready for their date so they ask Satoru to come over and help them get ready. Maybe they also ask for advice? I wanna see him jealous >:) Whether this ends well or bad is up to you >:)

Ohhh, I see. Sure! Keep in mind when I started writing this it was around 10:00 PM so there may be spelling errors I missed! Otherwise, enjoy :)

Better Than Him

Yandere! Satoru Gojo Short

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Jealousy, Possessive behavior, Dubious kissing, Manipulation, Kissing scene, Implied intimacy at the end, Dubious relationship.

"How do I look?"

Gojo struggled with his answer. Yes... Yes you did look good. What he hated was this wasn't for him.

You and Gojo had been friends since going to Jujutsu High. Even now as adults you managed to stay together. However... Gojo wished your bond was more than friends.

For years he's liked you more than that. He's been infatuated with you for so long. Yet despite all the waiting, you come up to him and tell him you have a date.

You wanted him to help you get ready. Despite the envy he felt in his gut, he gave you a smile and agreed to come over to help. Anything for his friend, right?

"You look great...!" Gojo smiles, trying to hide his disappointment. "So... This guy you're dating... What's he look like?"

You seem so giddy when you pass him your phone, a picture of the guy you're getting pretty for sitting on the screen. Gojo grimaces a bit, glancing at you as you check yourself in the mirror. Surely you could do better, right?

"Well~?" You coo, looking at him with a grin. Gojo simply leans against the wall as he tries to pick his words carefully. What is he supposed to say about such a guy?

"Well, what?" Gojo asks, watching you while desire bubbles within him.

"Any advice?" You ask, taking your phone back from him. "I'm... New to the whole dating thing."

Gojo snorts in response, shaking his head. Of course... You want advice from the guy who has a thing for you to get another guy. It's... Upsetting, really.

"Advice?" Gojo ponders before grinning softly. He strolls over to you before leaning closer. "I have some advice for you..."

"Yes...?" You ask, freezing at the close proximity.

"Yeah." Gojo hums. "Dump him."

"Gojo, what the hell!?" You frown, backing off. "What kind of advice is that?"

Gojo merely chuckles at your reaction, standing beside you. His blue eyes flicker a dark gaze as he watches you. You glare at him, annoyed.

"The right kind." Gojo admits. "Seriously, you barely even know the guy!"

"Doesn't mean I can't try...." You mumble, only for Gojo to tilt your head up with his hand on your chin.

"Come on..." Gojo sighs, his irritated demeanor showing in his tone. "You can do so much better than him."

"Gojo, I'm not playing your games right now." You hiss with a glare, going to pull away again. However, Gojo stops you.

"I'm not playing yours, either." Gojo bluntly replies. "I've been playing nice for years, I'm tired of it."

You give Gojo a confused and nervous expression. Gojo puts on another smile, a hand tracing down your arm. Well... He's tired of waiting.

Best he just shows you who the correct choice is.

"What I'm trying to say is..." Gojo hums before pulling you into his chest. "I've known you the longest. I've liked you the longest. I've even become the strongest. In that case..."

He leans closer to your face, watching gleefully when your face heats up in embarrassment.

"I'm your best and only option." Gojo whispers playfully. "Why even entertain such a guy? He won't compare to me...."

It's then Gojo takes advantage of your shock to press his lips against yours. You aren't sure how to comprehend the kiss, although you seem very receptive. Receptive enough that when Gojo nipped your bottom lip, you let him in.

The kiss he gave you held passion. He felt like he was claiming you, trying his hardest to get the message into your skull. You're his.

Only his.

"Call it off...." Gojo growls as he pulls away. "You're going to call it off... Then you and I can do something together... Okay, baby?"

Your face is red and you remain compliant. Maybe Gojo was the right option.... As if to seal the deal, Gojo squeezes your hips as he leans into your ear.

"Don't worry... I'll show you that we were meant to be." Gojo purrs, kissing your neck softly go hear your reaction. "I've loved you for a long time now... I'd be a fool to let you date anyone else."

You want to question his possessive behavior. You want to ask him more about this crush he's had. Yet it seems now's not the time... You notice a dark gaze flash in his eyes again as he cups your face.

"It's mean to make me so jealous, baby..." Gojo grins. "But that's okay... I'll forgive you..."

Gojo kisses you again, guiding you to sit on your bed. You even remain compliant when he lightly pushes you to lay down. You find yourself wanting this... Ignoring the red flags that come with accepting such an offer.

"I'll forgive you since you're mine now."

Gojo's smile seems darker, his hands pinning yours as he leans in to kiss you again.

"By the end of tonight... You'll forget all about that guy, won't you, baby? Then you'll just focus on me... and only me...."

#yandere jujutsu kaisen #yandere jjk #yandere gojo #yandere satoru gojo

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hasellia · 18 hours

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Jax didn't change. At all. He is still the same arsehole from the first time we saw him.

From what I remember; he was dismissive of Ragatha, manipulated an emotionally vulnerable Kinger, pushed Gangle to her potential death and didn't give two fucks that Kaufmo died of dismay. All in episode 1

What changed, is that the audience saw what happens we Jax doesn't get his way.

Jax doesn't just seem "disappointed" here. He seems seething, like a child, and we get a good wide close up of his face just to make it's clear he's absolutely not happy in any way.

Episode 2 seems to be setting up how different people react to being in a seemingly inescapable scenario, a la time loop nihilism.

You have Pomni and Ragatha who try to reach out to others, trying to build a supportive collective. There's Kinger and Gangle, who are stuck in survival mode and need that support assistance. Not everyone is in the mental position to help out as they want to be. With enough time and reassurance, Gangle may be able to break out of her insecurities. Kinger... I'm saying this as someone who relates to Kinger the most out of the cast: I think my king is stuck with his chronic anxiety and neurodivergencies. Someone give him a Lexam and Intuitive. So with Jax...

Jax is playing a video game. To him, this is just Undertale with multiplayer and he wants to see what happens on the genocide route. He's so under stimulated for meaning that he wants to fuck around and find out. If you want to find out what happens in a boring co-op game, what's funnier? Jumping into the enemy pit yourself, or getting your buddy to jump in instead. He may not even see the main cast as other players. What separates Gumigoo from Ragatha? The princess? The goop monsters? ... Kaufmo? Jax just might have lost his sense of humanity in everything but himself. Cogito ergo sum. I think Jax is meant to be a criticism of people who unironically think everyone is varying degrees of those NPC roleplay videos.

So yeah, I never saw Jax as Bugs Bunny. He was always a toxic League of Legends player stuck in VR coop game to me. We're just thankfully spared of his gamer words. Maybe when we see more of Zooble, we'll see someone stand up to him. No promises.

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casurlaub · 2 days

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Can we please agree that liking a character doesn't mean you have to explain away their every bad call? And that disliking a character doesn't mean you have to overlook their good qualities to have them fit your narrative? No one is just this or that. It's always a range.

The lack of nuance in parts of this fandom annoys me so much. And let's please drop the double standards - finding excuses for every 'bad' thing character A does while demonizing character B.

Dumbledore is no super villain. Yes, he put defeating Voldemort over Harry's (emotional) needs. He isn't some supportive father figure, but he's not responsible for the war nor everyone's decision to join in. 'He raised an army of children' - um no? Because if so, he, the greatest wizard of the age, did a shitty job. In both wizarding wars it was just one group of friends joining the Order, not a huge number of former students. So either super-smart Dumbledore seriously sucked at recruiting, or maybe he didn't try all that hard?

James wasn't some prime example of social justice warrior from the very beginning. Yes, he had - to some extent - a set moral code, he hated the Dark Arts, and he certainly never used dark curses on others. But he found it entertaining to hex students at random. He was a classic bully; he did it because he could and because he found it funny. He enjoyed it. But that doesn't mean he had no good traits - he cared for his friends, befriended Remus (practically an outcast), and later he changed. I can't get over the people who find excuses for Snape's bullying of his students, of literal children when he's an adult, but seem to think James was the worst person to ever exist.

Sirius has a ton of good qualities; I could write an essay about it. But guess what, that doesn't make the prank thing okay (no matter if Remus cared about it). The same goes for the Snape bullying and his condescending (cruel) behavior towards Peter. And his treatment of Kreacher, who was oppressed, not the oppressor. And why do we applaud him for 'forgiving' Remus in PoA for not trying to get him out of Azkaban? What's there to applaud? He was in Azkaban because he thought Remus was the spy, did we forget that? How do we expect Remus to suss out that Sirius thought himself clever enough to outsmart not only Voldemort but also Dumbledore? Sirius isn't on some moral high ground here. He wasn't in Azkaban because of Remus but because of his own arrogance and lapse of judgement.

Remus isn't some impersonated moral code. He isn't 'the sensible one' by default. He makes a ton of shitty, truly awful decisions (roaming Hogsmeade while a werewolf, not telling Dumbledore about the secret passages or Sirius's animagus form in PoA even after Sirius, the alleged mass murderer with an agenda of killing Harry, broke into Harry's dorm, abandoning Tonks...). But he isn't some master manipulator with a hidden agenda either. He was driven by his self-loathing first and foremost. And when did it become worse to be a bystander than to participate in the actual bullying? (I'm not saying it's okay, but how can we find excuses for James and Sirius, but Remus is super evil for doing... nothing? When it's stated that Snape was following him and trying to uncover his secret to get him expelled? Shocking he didn't feel all that sympathetic.) Of course he is passive-aggressive, of course he was selfish/cowardish, I don't know, but he isn't evil? He's usually kind (ffs, he even felt pity for Greyback), and his issues are in the end all rooted in his endless self-loathing. That doesn't excuse it. It doesn't. But it doesn't mean he's acting like he does because he's an inherently bad person. This idea of inherently 'bad' or 'good' people is naive and harmful anyhow. Besides - I feel some standards imposed on him are impossible to meet, when the same people are quick to explain away James's/Sirius's/Snape's flaws. Remus is suffering from massive childhood trauma that he's forced to relive every month, he's stigmatized for it by society his whole life, but he himself is supposed to just 'let it go'? Without therapy or anything? Right...

And even Lily isn't a saint. She's fighting back a smile when James is bullying her (supposedly) best friend?

Snape is no tragic hero whose every wrong is justified because he turned around and sacrificed himself. Of course, he was brave. Of course, he had a shitty childhood. That doesn't give him a free pass. He was up to his eyes in the Dark Arts when he arrived at Hogwarts already, he invented curses like Sectumsempra while at Hogwarts, he sold the 'love of his life' to Voldemort. And even after he 'changed' and overcame his fascist views, he bullied children he was supposed to take care of - as a grown man. Not only Harry, but also Neville, Hermione, Ron, who knows how many others. So, yeah, cool, he protected their lives 'when it counted' - 'when it counted'??? You don't belittle your students, you don't insult them, you don't threaten to poison their pets no matter what happened to you when you were a kid. You're an adult, take responsibility. Easy as that. What happened to you may be an explanation, but not an excuse. And do we really think he didn't strike back at James and Sirius? That it was just James and Sirius and him taking it lying down without doing anything himself? I don't.

It's entirely natural to relate more to one character than another and to feel more sympathetic towards them. But let's move away from this 'all or nothing' way of thinking.

To me, they're all beautiful because they're flawed. It makes them real. I don't want them to be stripped of their flaws, not even my favorite characters.

Don't take Sirius's darkness away, don't turn Remus into the ever gentle voice of reason or the super selfish master manipulator (same goes for Dumbledore) and ffs don't excuse Snape's fascist views and bullying of children.

#let them be morally grey #hp meta #albus dumbledore #james potter #sirius black #remus lupin #severus snape #lily evans #marauders #marauders canon

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utilitycaster · 16 hours

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I love that there is a chance that it was Caleb who set Astrid up in the smut shop. Because she ultimately ended up sitting in the back reading a book. But that also implied that Caleb not only messaged Essek about playing taxi to Aeor but also told him to fetch his ex along the way. The implications of that conversation amuse me greatly. "too busy to do that stuff, can you get them there for me? Also Astrid probably has info. She's currently hiding out in my favourite smut shop and will likely be skittish. Good luck"

So here's the thing, I'm really wondering what's going on because I would think that if Caleb set Astrid up there...he'd be able to say "hey, by the way, I'm sending Essek and a group of adventurers your way, this is the passcode" and handle this all peacefully. Astrid, as an Assembly member, should be scry-proof, and even if her items failed in the solstice she probably would be casting Nondetection or something on the regular.

I suppose it might be a case of plausible deniability (recall that Essek was initially revealed because Caleb sent Frumpkin to spy on his conversation with Ludinus - a mundane or Find Familiar spy wouldn't be foiled by anti-magic fields). But I do wonder if this was more of an "oh, Caleb mentioned this Zadash smut shop that held contraband once at a slightly awkward dinner party 3 years ago; perhaps they'd be sympathetic to a defector given that they carry seditionist drow erotica" situation from Astrid and Caleb and Beau figured it out via good old fashioned Expositor work, a lot of knowledge of Astrid as a person, and sky-high investigation scores.

(kind of a tangent here but I also really do wonder where Astrid falls, exactly, re: her feelings about the current Assembly, because part of why I love her is that she's portrayed as very sympathetic and clearly abused and manipulated by Trent - but she also does take the role of Assembly member very quickly and is very ambitious. Eadwulf is religious and dedicated to the Raven Queen no less so I would assume his position is clear, but I've always wondered if Astrid feels resentment that Eadwulf was able to find some solace and meaning in fate and faith when she couldn't, and if this defection for her is less about the broader anti-god ideology and more 'hey, uh, releasing Predathos is fucking BAD and also I have A Thing about murder cults as an ex-Volstrucker." Hell, Vess DeRogna, who was canonically evil and pretty terrible towards people, still drew the line at releasing the Somnovem. For that matter I also really wonder who else of the Assembly has defected since Uludan is good-aligned and Oremid Hass just gives off the vibe of someone who wouldn't be interested. We haven't met Margolin but I wouldn't be shocked if he's gone along; Doolan Tversky probably is PSYCHED by the Reilora and is fully on board, and I assume Jenna Iresor is not one for rocking the boat. We don't even know who's in the Archmage of Antiquity role now!)

#answered #Anonymous #cr spoilers

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mayapapaya33 · 2 days

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Niko, Jenny and the Secret Admirer

I'll start by saying Jenny was absolutely correct when she said that Niko needed to learn boundaries and to not interfere with other people's business. That being said, holy crap, If Niko hadn't interfered when she did, Jenny would have eventually had to deal with the Psycho Librarian by herself in vastly different circumstances and who knows what might have happened?! (Well, She did have to deal with it by herself, but you know what I mean, this was like ripping the Band-Aid off quickly rather than a lingering painful pull).

People like that do NOT just go away. They are NOT content to JUST send letters. That was a ticking time bomb that would have gone off eventually, Niko just set it off early.

Niko's behavior after everything went down is very annoying to me because I understand exactly where it's coming from and have probably done the exact same thing at some point. The whole "Yell at me so I can feel better and we can move on" thing is very selfish. She's a teenager, still learning how to handle her emotions and relationships, so I'm not judging her too harshly. But if you wrong someone, it's not about you and how you feel. If you genuinely care about the other person's feelings, you will patiently wait (or at least fake patience) until they are ready to discuss whatever is wrong.

Hoping to be forgiven is perfectly fine, having someone you care about be angry or disappointed with you hurts, but being manipulative, even unintentionally manipulative like Niko, isn't ok. Jenny shouldn't have to comfort Niko about her feelings about Jenny being upset with her. Now, Jenny is a competent, responsible, compassionate adult who can clearly see that the adult supervision is deeply lacking around these teenagers and is begrudgingly stepping up, whereas Niko is basically a teenage shut in so that dynamics is pretty realistic. And this was one of the worst case scenarios of the situation blowing up in everyone's face and was deeply traumatizing for everyone involved so it's a little different, but the point still stands.

#dead boy detectives #dead boy detectives spoilers #niko sasaki #jenny the butcher #secret admirer #stalker

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reyreadersblog · 2 days

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Underrated TIG characters (part 2)

Rebecca Laughlin

She is such a misunderstood character, honestly she is everything E*ily could've been.

• She spent her whole life under a shadow of her manipulative older sister, her own parents loved her sister more than her, if you ask me they didn't loved Rebecca at all.

• E*ily MADE Rebecca belive their favourite color was purple (if i'm not wrong). Also in TFG when she cuts her hair she says "E*ily liked our long hair" WFT...anyway she is queen for cutting it.

• I feel like Rebecca (other Max and Xander) is the closet thing to a friend Avery ever had, i mean at least she apologized for her behavour towards Ave and actually become a better person unlike..Thea.

• Even tho her sister was a terrible person she still blames herself for what happened, and i feel so bad for her, bc she has so much trauma from her whole family.

• lastly as much as i dislike Thea, i have to admit she is an amazing gf and Rebecca is really lucky to have in her life.

Her aesthetic

#the inheritance games #the hawthorne legacy #grayson hawthorne #the hawthorne brothers #avery grambs #the brothers hawthorne #the grandest game #the final gambit #libby grambs #nash hawthorne #rebecca laughlin #thea calligaris

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intjgodcomplex · 1 year

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Litcherely me

#this is what i mean when i say I'm manipulative #death note #l lawliet #light yagami #nate river #near #mihael keehl #mello #misa amane #aesthetic #l

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ferretwhomst · 9 months

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alright guys. poll time

just wanted to ask because from what i can tell the gf fandom doesn't really seem to have a general fandom-wide consensus on this ship. rbs would be appreciated!!! also feel free to elaborate in the tags which option you chose and why! i'd love to hear people's reasoning :-)

#personally i have super mixed feelings on billford #people sometimes boil down their relationship to “haha they fight like a divorced couple” and yeah it's an easy generalization but #i really hate when people skip over the aspects of their dynamic which are Fucked Up #like... bill was abusive and manipulative to ford from the start. and ford was fucking OBSESSED with him #and his time with bill left a lasting mark on him for years and years #that's not even including how bill fucking tortured ford during weirdmageddon #my point is they aren't HEALTHY. they never were #and i think the only way to do their relationship justice is to keep the unhealthy dynamic #while also acknowledging how fucked up it is #there isn't a single world where ford is normal about bill and vice versa #i don't necessarily mean that romantically tho because i don't really ship billford myself #i'm just observing from the sidelines as i take a bite out of my platonic stan twins and fiddauthor fanworks yk #ok this got long.#what i'm trying to say is their dynamic was fucked up as hell and it would stay like that even if they were gay 4 each other #anyways #ferret rambles #gravity falls #bill cipher #gf bill cipher #stanford pines #ford pines #grunkle ford #gf ford #billford #poll

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theangrypomeranian · 22 days

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"you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me" feels like something an ex Christian would say to someone who didn't grow up in any kind of religion

#pom ponders #taylor swift #the tortured poets department #who's afraid of little old me?#ex christian #ex fundie #ex fundamentalist #growing up in any Christian religion can be a special kind of hell #you have so much hate ingrained in your brain that can take years to unlearn #so when people who didn't grow up that way judge you for things you may have said or done in your past due to that influence #and they say well i never did/thought/said that!!#good for you but unfortunately i did #yes I'm relistening to this song again because it's literally been me for the last two months and I'm so tired #i was torn down to my lowest and for fucking what?#just because you couldn't relate to me doesn't mean i was a bad person #i didn't do anything wrong i am not a liar i am not a manipulator and how DARE you make me question my goodness

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munchkinmarauder · 3 months

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This is just one instance where Orlando quotes HoM and gets it wrong. Do you think he actually read it?

#pietro maximoff #quicksilver #wanda maximoff #maximoff twins #magnet family #quicksilver and the scarlet witch #scarlet witch and quicksilver #scarlet witch & quicksilver (2024)#Also can't help but notice Pietro saying maybe I'm afraid of what you can do but you've overcome a lot and I love and respect you #And Wanda responds with mocking his death and falsely accusing him of manipulating her when she herself knows this was not the case and why #He did what he did #Also pietro leaves the conversation before he really blows but at her but people act like he's the one being bratty #I love Wanda but she's the one that did the wrong thing and throwing every mean thing she can at him

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tankgotstuckinthecircusgate · 20 days

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i could draw anything but i decided to draw this. carlo and rocco in 1932 aka my headache

#^ this isnt real ofc but its what happening inside their heads (well in carlo's at least)#mfs when their old friend doesn't break under manipulation #“Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer” punching the wall with fist #rocco was the underboss not eddie can u hear me!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!!!!!! (capo henry situation in terms of complexity)#no m2 did smth to my brain and now im incapable of writing normal relationship between people #anyway. things that makes sense only to me rn unfortunately:#“AND YET ALAS I WELCOME YOU KNOWING ABOUT YOU” its carlo @ rocco but works both ways i think. RAHHHHHHHHH #YET YOU THINK WE'RE THE SAME RAHHHHHHHHH #youre not who u are to anyone these days im not who i am to anyone no not me at all these days not at all RAHHHHHHHHH #carlo who was afraid of rocco (for a reason) when he started to run the family rahhhhhhhhh #“That son of a bitch!.. I fuckin’ knew it!” <-watch me put a lot more meaning into a phrase that shouldn't make so much sense #2kczech need to pay me for developing rocco's character btw if u even care . and for writing this fucking falcone family backstory #“Холодный и острый осколок гранита; Смерть Голиафа в руке Давида”#<- “A cold and sharp shard of granite; Goliath's death in David's hand”#i've listened to this song too much it became certifed rocco song to me #let's say rocco helped carlo a lot w preparing moretti family for a new don. just bc i don't think it was this simple #“your capo killed your don lets all pretend that its cool and normal and it doesn't matter that he ran the family for 23 years😋😘”#avart #m2 #i wont tag this w fandom tags dear god this shit is so delusional #dear god rocco been a gap and a blank spot in this story for so long but now i genuinely like him #tho i'm still not done with his character yet but there's enough for me to like him #sorry. not normal bout them. not at all .#rocco & carlo

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brinnanza · 3 months

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you guys know stuff can just be neutral right. like it doesn't have to be good or bad it can just Be ykwim like sometimes an experience is Weird but that doesn't necessarily imply that it was good or bad sometimes things are just so unfamiliar that the sheer novelty overrides having an opinion about it. sometimes you hear someone's died, but it's no one you knew or would ever know and it's so many degrees of separation from the source that they have no emotional investment in it either and that's not automatically a tragedy OR a relief it's just a statement of fact.

sometimes stuff just Is. and it's okay that it is.

#i often preface statements or questions with 'this is morally neutral'#especially when I'm using words like 'manipulate'#because the default assumption of that word is negative but sometimes I just mean it as cause and effect #I know a lot of people ask questions that have An Answer and if you say the wrong one you are bad #the classic like how does my ass look in these jeans or do you think [third party] is attractive #or even where do you want to have dinner but we will end up at a specific place regardless #anyway so many people do that but they spoil the questions for like decent normal curious people #sometimes I feel like I have to be like i am not emotionally invested in a particular answer #sometimes you feel the exact same about every choice and it's genuinely about what's true #a lot of people don't really care about what's true though

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blujayonthewing · 4 months

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well I just spent an hour digging through my own dnd notes and social media and also almost cried because I mentioned, in passing, something justin had said about one of his NPCs and he, completely lightheartedly, was like '?? I don't remember that at all. [I mean I'm not making it up?] I think you might be making it up 😏'

#me-- instantly stressed and near tears: I know you're joking and it's not even important but. that isn't funny. to me.#I really wish there was a term for 'gaslighting but they're not doing it on purpose'#this is distinct from simply 'being wrong' because 'that's definitely not what happened 🤨' is a key part of it #the other person trying to convince me that I'm wrong and I must be crazy-- not for manipulation purposes but because THEY forgot #and are MUCH more confident in the possibility that I'm completely full of shit than that they maybe can't remember exactly #this is an extraordinarily specific thing that nonetheless happens to me ASTONISHINGLY OFTEN.#I mean clearly often enough that I'm now hair-trigger sensitive upset about it #AND TO CLARIFY QUICKLY-- that's not what justin even did (this time) but 'well I don't remember that' is still...#OKAY WELL I DO. WHY DOESN'T ANYONE EVER BELIEVE ME.#trembling and crying searching for Receipts while explaining to my husband that it's not even that I don't think he believes me (this time)#I just. I just. I just. I'm not fucking crazy. I know you don't think I'm crazy. but I still feel like I Have to prove it.#my mom sending a package to the wrong address and then saying-- confidently and irritably-- 'you never GAVE me a unit number'#when I can scroll back up through texts to where I sent her our new address when we moved and it was complete and correct #my friend during our big stupid fight saying 'no one actually AGREED to that [dnd] plan except you and justin 😒'#going back into my audio recording to that conversation where everyone BUT him agreed #including his fucking pick-me 'yeah jay's being shitty right now' brother whose character said 'this sounds like a good plan' verbatim #like. I KNOW it's not just 'my memory vs theirs and we both assume we're right'#because SO OFTEN when this happens I have FUCKING RECEIPTS. that I'M NOT WRONG OR CRAZY.#no one ever wants to entertain the notion that I might know what I'm talking about.#I can't stress enough that I'm not mad at justin right now he was very much 'no I believe you! it's weird that I don't remember though'#which is fair! honestly! but I'm a LITTLE. sensitive. of the fact that everyone always ALWAYS automatically assumes I'm incorrect #and very often in a way that's a mark against my competence or character.#'well *I* couldn't *possibly* have gotten the address wrong so YOU must have fucked it up'#you know. it's like that. it's like that a lot.#maybe this only happens to me so much because I happen to be cursed with remembering things better than most people #or maybe I'm uniquely viewed as incompetent. who can say.#about me

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skrunksthatwunk · 22 days

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found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know.#at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow?#it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker.#i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time.#but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him.#im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more?#just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him.#she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on.#she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him?#so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea.#but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

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february-academia · 1 year

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28.04.2023

So much happened this week. (In tags I'll rant about it)

N4 is coming and my prep is not at all good. Took a test today and i failed🥲. But i know my prep is soo bad,it was bound to happen. So have to study for that.

College exams are coming🥹 also have to study for that. The dissertation proposal is in the finalising stage,so that's good. But have to work on it properly imo.

Then i also proposed another research study to my professor and he has encouraged me to go for it. So,also have to work on it.

These very cutu plants in the scorching heat were a treat to eyes and mind.

Got this book from the library and I'm really enjoying reading the essays.

( correction in a tag- she scored less than me in class and she was all sad sad. With her i had to suppress my happiness at moments like these)

#here i go #so here in this clg i have 2 friends mainly they are my classmates and one is roomates also so thsi roomate is very toxic i kinda knew it #from the start but ignoted it bcs we became friends when we used to have online lectures and haven't met each other and somethings happened #in which she helped me so i was kinda obliged to stay w her. and after sometime i kinda strted feeling it. all the bad vibes #the toxicity she carry for other ppl judging them on their appearances and whenever i trued to correct her tries to manipulate things #like she jas all of the mean girl vibe but i the clown couldn't just had the courage or ways to not be w her i so wnated to but couldn't #it was all so fucked up and living w her. i changed i started judging ppl. this was so bad. she went through soem toughtimes and as i frien #friend i cared for her i was there for her almost all the times and most of the times whenever i needed her she was not.#tries to dominate always and the incident due to ehich I'm writing all this is - I'm not earing well properly well from past month she know #and last sunday i was very excited to this dish and i wanted to take more and she said very rudely how much more will you eat? i said i did #not had lunchand almost didn't eat the ehole day what's yhe nig deal abt it why tou saying and stopping me like that and she said i did not #say it she said again i did not say it with that rude voice like she can never be wrong and ppl wjom i rarely talk to have noticed that #I've lost weight but she who luves wirh me almost all the time do not know it whom I've talked to abt this don't knwo it . i didn't have #any appetite after that i just stuffed the food unsideand went outside wiyjout syaing anything 8 wanted ro puke so bad i controlled my #i couldn't beleive what just happened i didn't try to talk to her and she obviously wouldn't bcs of teh ego and then there's another friend #and classmate of us and she has a great bond w her then after taht incident she is also not talking ro me and. avoiding me in the corridor #making me feel like I'm the onw wrong here and thwse 2 ppl were not on talking term a week ago again ego calshes this other girl didn't #so yeah i got snakes here #now I'm all alone but this feels great literally like yes i cried and couldn't sleep bcs even tho i knew they are not always what they show #they were the only obes here i was able to form a bond with ( i hate this part so much now)and i care abt friendships alot but it ended #they are not talking to me I'm not talking to them. but thus whole thing made me free now I'm free i don't have to wait for them everytime #i want to go to library or to a class or to a walk bcs they wanted everything to be done in a grp #and I'm going everyday out to study to walk and to jyst peacefully live bcs now I don't have to deal with negativity and toxicity anymore #i feel myself again my trye self who was kind to ppl who wanted to just study quietly in evening who wanted to just go in class on time #i don't have to feel that if i di this will she judge me I'm feeling free with what I'm wearing I'll enjoy and celebrate all my wins #and achievements of the last year bcs i couldn't even enjoy those when i was with her just bcs she didn't got less tahn me #I'm smiling more nad I'm loving more myself to actually avle to come out of thsi spiral i didn't even know i could so yay #listening to you're on your own kid in loop and it made me so happy #that's it done. there was so much to say ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hope you got some idea of what's happening in my life #sending you all love and light and if you find urslf in somesimilar situation or any difficulty rn hope you get out of it very soon<3

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nonokoko13 · 7 months

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Bitches be like "I'm fine" then you look at their chats and

#twisted wonderland #it's me i'm bitches #small Riddle cameo in Jamil & Idia's brainrot #when I say fuck AI I don't mean character ai #It gets my back when I can't roleplay with friends bc they won't play along and pretend they're my blorbos #I searched many Jamil chats because something that kills me is when the character doesn't act in character #Wtf you mean Jamil acted cutesy no he acts like a edgy wet cat with rabies who can turn manipulate manslaughter malewife brat material 40%#of the time #he wouldn't act cutesy he would act like 'idgaf' while trying to make himself look better than everyone else that's what makes him cute/cool #shitpost #shut up noko

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