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Friendly reminder to my mutuals (and idiot family) that I want you to randomly message me to ramble about your special interests, or the good day you’ve had, or the song that’s caught your attention this week, or the pretty girl that smiled at you and made your day better. I might not love the things you speak of on a personal level but I love you and I love these things for the way they make you happy.
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Your personhood is not evidence of an irreparable and damning perversion of some sort.
You are not dangerous for having sexual desire, you are not dangerous for remolding your body, you are not dangerous for understanding who you are and how to be happier.
You're amazing, you're brave, you're being reborn but you're still the same, you the boss of your own body in ways our ancestors thought only gods could achieve.
And you deserve peace. Go relax, man.
#autoandrophilia#force masc#forced masculinization#autoandrophile#black ftm#black masculinity#MDS Originals#got a little emotional making this one.#yeah its directed at myself#trying to get over various traumas that congratulate me for suffering and punish me for relaxing or indulging.#bc yknow. you're allowed to be happy and peaceful. dont get fooled into thinkin you always gotta be fuckin Doing Something#you'll burn out like crazy and make yourself physically ill in long lasting ways. ask me how i know.#instead find a masculine comfort in understading your limits standing firm on what they are regardless of who wants to push them.#this gonna sound silly but im fr....be steady; firm; and unyielding like a stone in this aspect. you will be better for it.
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“i can’t hide a love that has drained my body” studying for my arabic final
#don’t let this fool you i have cried twice over the grammar rules and something called eerab#you would think it’s a romantic poem but the description says it’s about a friend#yaz.txt#my translation may be wrong but that’s what i understood#also the second word literally means hold back like i can’t think of a direct translation but it’s usually used for saying hold backa breat#or suffocate#so that adds to it#i’ll add more after the exam
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i know the oscars are bs and that something like this happens every year but it's not even exaggeration i make because i personally love the movie when i say NOPE was a pure crystal decanter of cinematic elixir and it getting 0 noms for anything in any category at all is not just a insult but -legitimately- baffling
#sporadic warbling#yes i know its a movie about a man eating roomba with a scene where keke palmer throws sour patch kids at a praying mantis#its still one of the best examples of This is a Piece of Art and there is a Soul Inside of It i've EVER seen#and if you can't see that i just don't know what to say to you#every shot is master class#the lighting#the camera work and direction#the cinnamon tography as you might say#the acting#the layers and layers of parallels and homages#the symbolism#the muckfuthering sound design#you can feel the passion oozing out every single damn frame#and NOTHING????#fools fools the lot of you
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People love to say that any fuck ass show is god's gift just because it has gay people in it, or 'good representation', except for if that show is Riverdale
#they go oh you fools liking Riverdale we like good representation 😡#you are talking out of your arse#seriously direct from the hole#al is talking#riverdale
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after a long pause i finally finished my newest oc batch ^_^ this time for owl feather: the scholar's guild. the members are more or less different types of academics, or just nerds, with their own different niches. as usual, more specific info+closeups under the cut <3
Name: Mercury
Name Origin: The planet named after the messenger god
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 28
Guild rank: Guidmaster
Weapon: Caduceus
Ethos (Power): Aileron (Enhanced speed and levitation)
Flaw power is based on: Her evasiveness- Though her power has evolved (the levitation) once she became guildmaster as she became a pillar for her guild, and successor to the former guildmaster.
Notes: I can be your angle... or yuor devil
Name: Keid
Name Origin: A star whose name means eggshels
Pronouns: He/him
Age: 19
Guild rank: 3 star
Weapon: Chicken sickles
Ethos (Power): Computative prognostication (He can calculate the outcome of events in his own head, but he can’t see outcomes beyond the one he calculated)
Flaw power is based on: His overly cautious and ruminative habits, though he tries to play it off like he's way more chill and not constantly existentially overthinking
Notes: But which came first...?
Name: Alasia
Name Origin: A star whose name references Idalion Tablet, one of the oldest known contracts
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 15
Guild rank: 2 star
Weapon: Shovel
Ethos (Power): Erudition (Psychometry- The ability to read the past of any object by touch)
Flaw power is based on: Her extreme curiosity, while her inquisitiveness on it's own can be admirable she can often get obsessive about it.
Notes: She's an archeologist <3
Name: Dimidium
Name Origin: Exoplanet whose name means "half"
Pronouns: He/She
Age: 22
Guild rank: 4 star
Weapon: Double-ended flail
Ethos (Power): Vice-versa (Healing and reverse healing)
Flaw power is based on: His simultaneous obsequiousness and brashness- Two extremes that she fluctuates between in a way that's both unpredictable and unhealthy.
Notes: Generally stoic either way so it's hard to tell...
Name: Navi
Name Origin: Informal name for γ Cassiopeiae- A navigation point for Apollo 1
Pronouns: He/they
Age: 19
Guild rank: 3 star
Weapon: Arm
Ethos (Power): Kefi (Energy direction- He can channel his energy into powerful attacks into his weapon of choice, which they designed to be their own arm)
Flaw power is based on: Their over-zealous nature. Though passion is a good thing, their ferventness can absolutely make him lose track of himself.
Notes: A weaponsmith who’s figuring out more technological approaches
Name: Talitha
Name Origin: A star system, whose name means "Spring"
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 13
Guild rank: 1 star
Weapon: Plastic wand
Ethos (Power): Metamorphosis (Magical girl transformation. She can shoot beams out of her wand now.)
Flaw power is based on: Her extreme tendency for escapism, especially in idolizing fantasy.
Notes: She's a magical girl 💖💖💖
Name: Misam
Name Origin: A star whose name means "wrist"
Pronouns: They/them
Age: 28
Guild rank: 5 star
Weapon: Wrist blade
Ethos (Power): Rigor (Enhanced precision)
Flaw power is based on: Their surprisingly to-the-point, often cold-blooded nature.
Notes: Nerds can be cool too, guys.
Name: Perwana
Name Origin: An exoplanet whose name means moth
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 27
Guild rank: 5 star
Weapon: Lantern
Ethos (Power): Callous luminance (Physically palpable hard light, created from her lantern)
Flaw power is based on: Her tenancy to place the burden of guidance onto herself- Literally a guiding light for others. Mostly in regards to erudition, the symbolic connection between illumination and knowledge. She wants to illuminate everyone. But this can be at the cost of herself.
Notes: These are her summer clothes.
#finn's ocs#finn's art#oc references#YAY finally posted them#the smart guys set....#i was excited for this set regardless bc they all have their own like specific reasons theyre in the scholars guild#like different things theyre following. except for arguably talitha but shes like. a baby#shes more geeky than nerdy. but she would hang out in their huge library a lot and just sort of ended up joining#mercury herself is obviously the leader but her thing is moreso about spreading the message of the previous guildmaster (minerva)#while keid is more of a philosopher (so good at rumination might as well make a passion of it lol)#and like i said alasia is an archeologist (and historian!). and i describe navi as a blacksmith bc thats the title theyd be given-#but hes more of an engineer. doing cool new innovative things. so they and alasia have this sort of future/past passion thing#dimidium is a medic lol but bc of the way her power works its a bit more complicated#when i say reverse healing i mean he can literally just make you worse. Injury Power.#misam is like the edgiest of the batch for sure but dont be fooled theyre still more nerd than edgelord#the reason they can be so ruthless is because theyre very calculative about their choices#not in the same overthinking-type way keid is but in the sense that they can be a bit... ends justify the means?#not that they dont care about ethics at all but unlike keid they wouldnt get caught up in them#the most direct approach is the best one and all that. theyre a utilitarian.#(misams top was also more risque at first but i decided to have them button up a bit lol)#and perwana is an acolyte (aco-light. lol) in the sense that her goal really is just to spread knowledge#shes the most similar to mercury in that sense which makes her probably the first candidate for the next guildmaster rn#bc thats also the thesis statement of the guild itself!#they have a big open library for a reason. well. mostly open#but thats them :)
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truly though, i am comforted by the idea of regis being autistic because… consider. he’s been alive for hundreds of years and has been through so much turmoil and has had to commit to self-improvement and self-control and all of these ideals and principles. and in the same process of that, he had to examine himself—take a good look in the mirror, as the saying goes… though it may not be quite accurate in this case—why he faced these insurmountable issues in the first place which instigated and excerbated his vices in the first place. “treat the cause, not the symptoms.”
and the cause was that he didn’t like himself. he only drank to escape… from himself. so he could be a different self, one that others accepted, but one who very quickly became a terrible person—because that version of himself had none of his ever-so-dislikable and aggravating and unrelatable traits: his know-it-all-isms, his philosophizing, his overthinking. his lack of understanding the social cues he was surrounded by. everything that would “spoil the party.” the libation was the symptom of insecurity and disbelief that anyone could truly accept him for the way he is, unaltered, sober.
and even with all of this time, possibly the span of an entire human life, spent working on himself, spent trying to understand others—he learned two things.
firstly—after all this time—he cannot change himself. he has to live with, and possibly embrace, the parts of himself that long ago made him impossible to gain social approval. even if now, he is living a solitary and even somewhat isolated life.
(note: yes, he only spends three months out of the year nearby fen carn, and the rest of the year he lives in dilingen, in a city—while i don’t doubt that he was an important pillar of the community, with his altruistic tendencies, he also never mentions having any close friends in dillingen. he decided in one night to join geralt’s quest. he didn’t worry that anyone from dillingen would miss him…)
secondly—even after all this time spent trying to have a better relationship with and to fit in with society (and even though he’s become, if i may say with modesty, very good at it, exceptionally good at it), it’s still a very intentional factor of his life, something that takes a carefully prepared set of behavior and mental work. it’s still “mimicking.” again, the span of an entire human lifetime put into understanding people and society and he still doesn’t. there’s still much he does not understand, does not agree with, and even ridicules. he has integrated into the society, but he does not innately understand it. he only understands it through his uniquely analytical perspective, the perspective of an outsider trying to understand.
#the one post that goes: ‘you fool! masking IS my special interest!’#also his damn sensitive hearing. and his begrudging acceptance of the sun: ‘an unpleasant necessity’ to adapt to it#regis digging himself out of the grave: ‘is it always so fucking bright out here?’#txt#c: regis#at the october banquet.#regis and milva being holding back and being reserved at first but when their special interest gets brought up. …#by the way do you want a milva autism post. because i will also talk about her#do i dare maintag this. well whatever#the witcher books#emiel regis#the only thing i can think of at the moment thats not autistic of him is that he understands figurative meanings very well#and is not very direct. quite the opposite#however i think i can overanalyze this to the point where it does assist my argument
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this is completely unrelated to anything but i would like to talk about my shit directional skills
i took a bus home and guess what? it went the opposite direction my house was
I WAS ON THAT BUS FOR OVER HALF AN HOUR BEFORE I REALIZED AND THEN I WALKED HOME FOR LIKE 2 HOURS IN A NEIGHBORHOOD I KNEW JACKSHIT OF
AND THEN I KEPT DITCHING GOOGLE MAPS AND WALKING IN THE WRONG DIRECTION
I HATE BUSES I HATE WALKING MY LEGS ARE SO SORE WHY DID I JUMP OFF EVERYTHING I SAW FUCK I REGRET EVERYTHING
anyways being a multishipper in the sbg fandom is the greatest thing i have ever done
#school bus graveyard#sbg#i hate directions they are just a social construct to fool the naive#boom you exploded
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Summary: Ingo has a bad day, but Emmet brings home dinner.
This is one of the silliest titles I have ever given something
#submas#subway boss ingo#subway boss emmet#*on my hands and knees* this was supposed to be crack#still love how it turned out tho just not the direction i thought it would go#i am a fool tho considering i wrote it about food and like something about the innate human connection with food#listen man i like bake as a love language or smth i should have seen this coming#anyways#hope you enjoy!
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I think I should tell people "I love you" more . no tone tags . out of nowhere . etc etc . I love you in a way that doesn't need to be labelled . I love you and you deserve to know it unprompted without having to ask me if I still do because I always have and always will and I want you to feel that as genuinely as I mean it . I love you
#➳ the fool speaks#this isn't directed to anybun specific this is like . every single person i know actually#most likely including you yes you the person reading this#unless ''ily'' makes you uncomfortable then instead i simply just care about you and wish you the best okay :]
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Me: *fighting the urge to write Evajacks fanfiction*
My Gallavich wips: Uhm, hello? 🙃
My original work:
#being a writer is annoying honestly#so many ideas pulling me in every direction#Literally teased a Gallavich fic the last time I was on here lmao#I want to write evajacks smut though 😭#but I'm almost done with the first complete manuscript of my original work#fic can be my reward?#no no no resist you fool#and the Gallavich soulmate au was so fun#gallavich#evajacks#evangeline x jacks#ian x mickey#the ballad of never after#ouabh
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I think what makes Asch work as a static character is the fact that our UNDERSTANDING of Asch’s character is dynamic.
When we first see Asch, he’s a basically a giant mystery. All we know is that he’s strong and brutal, willing to allow his soldiers to kill Luke and his friends with the rest of the people on the Tartarus. We don’t see what he looks like until a few hours later into the game. His allegiance with the God-Generals is called into question when he tells Luke where they’ve brought Ion, but he remains oddly fixated on hurting Luke with his threat of puppeting Luke’s body to make him attack Tear.
And then Akzeriuth happens. It becomes clear just who Asch is and what his issue with Luke is. We get to play as Asch and see how much more knowledgeable he is than Luke, how long he’s been suspicious of Van, how many connections he’s pieced together on his own. Asch… is kind of cool. He’s the lost son of the Duke of Kimlasca. And he’s going to be working apart from the party in order to keep Van’s forces split.
Which is mostly true. But over time our contextualization of Asch will change. As Luke grows and starts reaching out towards people, Asch continues to lash out and push others away. He grows more irritable with Luke, refusing to listen to anything he says on the myriad of occasions that Luke reaches out to him. He only grows angrier every time Luke attempts to give him back his life. This is a little strange, given that Asch attempted to have Luke killed twice before (once on the Tartarus, and the second time when he attacked directly at the Keitzur checkpoint).
We find out that Asch believes he is dying. We come to understand that he wants Luke to keep Asch’s life, as taking his life back now feels impossible to him. Luke acts nothing like Asch, but Asch still wants SOMEONE to be Luke. But Asch refuses to explain all of this to Luke, to anyone, really. Asch is just as alone with his anger as he was when he was with the God-Generals. And, that’s anger that eventually erupts over in Grand Chokmah, where he tells Luke there is no recompense but to fight to see who the real Luke is and yells at Natalia—the person he cares about the most—to shut up.
Incidentally, this is the last thing Natalia hears Asch say to her before Asch dies.
It isn’t until his battle with Luke on Eldrant that Asch starts to progress past his need to blame Luke for things wrong with his life.
#tales of the abyss#asch’s whole deal for part two of the game is ‘IF YOU ARENT LUKE AND IM NOT LUKE THEN WHO IS DRIVING KIMLASCA’#Silly Asch#It’s Natalia#There’s a lot more I could say but this is a lot of words from a silly little guy#in the Asch manga there are multiple instances of Asch moodily watching long-hair Luke and going ‘WTF I WOULD NEVER DO THAT’#‘HOW ARE PEOPLE FOOLED!?!?’#Asch also does blame Van for the switch but most of his anger gets directed at Luke bc Van is off somewhere#And Asch has a direct mindlink to Luke and so it’s easier to channel it at him#Hilarious mental image of Asch essentially doom scrolling through Luke’s mind to see moments when doesn’t do what Asch would do
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you mentioned your character sheet having the fields "what kind of story do they think they're in" and "what role do they think they're playing in it"
i think this is awesome!
what else is on your character sheet?
oh my gosh. i was in the middle of answering this when i went to check something and clicked a link without realizing it was a tumblr link. it's gone. and. well. i'm sure you were not expecting as MUCH answer as i was putting there, anyway, so maybe it's for the best.
my character and worldbuilding sheets have an unhinged level of detail, because i use them not as a "fill this whole thing out before you get started" tool but as an "organize the information you include and thoughts you have so you can reference them later" tool, because (1) audhd and (2) i'm hoping the book i'm working on is the first in a huge expansive world that i'll still be playing in when i'm 70.
the character sheet is broken down into Basics, Role in the Story, Appearance, Communication, Backstory, Family,* Relationships, Personality and Psychology, Just for Fun, and Other (which is just a spot for if i need it, it doesn’t have any questions or prompts). and each of those has a ton of questions (except Other, as established in the previous parenthetical aside).
it's hard to say what i have in there that's the most important, or my favorite, or whatever, because it all depends very much on the character's answer. for example, most of my characters don't think they're in a story at all, they would say "this is my real life what are you talking about i'm not playing a role i'm trying to get to tomorrow," which means the questions you mentioned aren't all that fun for them, but they become very fun for a couple i'm writing, because Nat thinks he's living his best gay musical romcom life and Zari is convinced down to his bones that he's a lead in a deeply tragic romance - in reality, they're more like Merry and Pippin, and if they'd stop for a brief reality check maybe they'd reconsider picking up the Palantir.
these questions fall under "Role in the Story," which also contains fun gems like: personal goal, interpersonal goal, and team goals, because i get annoyed at character sheets that act like people just have one goal. and the full list of D&D skills and sets, even though i've never played D&D, because they seem useful. it also has "how much do they know about what's happening?" and "are they having a good time?" as some more example questions.
i have a lot in the sheet that would probably seem repetitive, but having similar questions in different categories means i think about them differently. i have "health" under Basics, for example, and that means if someone's using a cane it'll probably get mentioned there. but i also have "medical devices and mobility aids" under Appearance, because it tells me one thing that House has a bad leg because of muscle death and uses a cane, and another thing that the cane has flames up it and a skull handle and he uses it wrong. (if i'm misremembering House's cane please don't come for me it's been over a decade since i saw an episode of that show he's just still the most recognizable character i could think of with a mobility aid which is kind of sad)
possibly my favorite part of my character builder is this:
a cartoon by Tom Gauld (@myjetpack). it's right in the middle of my "personality and psychology" section. it's important for me to define what my characters do and don't know about because otherwise i end up with them knowing everything, and that's so boring. this comic just perfectly broke it down for my brain, so i plopped it in.
and a lot of my favorite questions focus on the contradictions and tensions and perception gaps inherent in being a person. what do they hate about the people they love, or love about the people they hate? what do they bring to their relationships, and what do they think they bring? what do strangers/authority figures/children/etc think of them, and what do they think people think of them? what's their biggest flaw and what do they think is their biggest flaw?
i could honestly go on forever about these; in fact i think this is still shorter than my answer that got deleted. so i'm going to cut myself off, but i'm happy to share more about them, and someday i may even post them for anyone else who might want them. i want to use them a bit first, though, to see what can be fine-tuned. in addition to character sheets, i've got sheets for Setting, Species, Religion, Nation, Magic System, Subculture (any group smaller than religion/nation/species that might have its own culture), and Scene (less worldbuilding, more to keep the details and goal of a scene straight in my own head, but still). these are all significantly less detailed than the Character one, but significantly more detailed than any one site i could find included when i was searching. and all my sheets, questions and prompts are gathered and compiled from all over the internet; i would not be able to provide sources because i did not bother to record them.
#*for the purposes of the sheet i define family as “the people you came from”#but that is not how i define it and is in direct opposition to many of my themes#sometimes we use language imperfectly because if we're obsessing over it at the building your character sketch stage#we'll NEVER get ANYTHING done#long post#character building#character design#character writing#worldbuilding#my writing#syf answers#sing-you-fools#id in alt text
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Simon Templar meets his match in the shape of Roger Delgado, as Peruvian police chief Captain Rodriguez in The Saint: Locate and Destroy (5.12, ITC, 1966)
#fave spotting#roger delgado#the master#delgado!master#the saint#locate and destroy#itc#1966#classic doctor who#most policeman characters in the saint fall into one of two archetypes: they're either competent but deeply suspicious of Simon by#reputation‚ if not downright vindictive‚ or they're bungling fools who Simon gives the run around and generally makes idiots of#the longest serving of course being Ivor Dean's Chief Inspector Teal‚ who sort of bridges between the types (he's generally good at his job#but his grudge for Simon clouds his judgement and often leads to embarrassment)#Roger actually gets to play a fairly different type of cop: he's both clearly a good‚ honest man but bears Simon no real ill will and#actually gently nudges him in the right direction. i mean it helps that the villain of the story is a nazi war criminal (even Teal would#side with Simon for that i suspect) but it is a nicely gentle performance compared to many of the other guest cops. unable to act himself#because of the power wealth and influence of the villain‚ you can tell Roger really wants Simon to succeed; indeed‚ even after finding him#in a highly compromising position after a gunfight‚ the captain gives Simon a whole day before he has to leave the country#also it's worth noting that this guest spot is like.. universally better than Roger's previous episode (the dreaded 1.10 The Golden Journey#aka The Episode We Don't Talk About)
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it's always "dysthymia" this and "general affective disorder" that and never "you're chronically emotionally numb because you've wasted all your ability to feel anything on one direction conspiracy theories in 2012-2016"
#I am unveiling deep lore about myself here tonight#my greatest personality flaw is I used to be a 1D girlie *and* a larrie too#before you stone me remember you yourself are not without sin. I know you. I've seen you in the trenches of early 2010's bandom.#wellington now-kiss-me-you-fool we-kinda-share-that-really RBB & SBB The-Hickey jungleworm babygate conchobar#if any of that meant anything to you you may qualify for a free lobotomy#one direction#1D#larry stylinson#memory lane used to be a classy neighbourhood now the whole street smells like piss and there's feral raccoons committing organized crime
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"Maybe I drink too much for a singer. Maybe I smoke too much for a singer. But it can be quite demanding, this life. So, for me to have those little vices, it's important." - Louis for The Telegraph
He even acknowledges himself that he smokes and drinks A LOT. but he sees it as his little pleasures in life. He says he needs it because he finds the life he lives demanding. He also once said that he needs a drink before the show to calm his nerves. So that sounds very much like he uses alcohol and cigarettes as a coping mechanism. That is NOT healthy. Wherever the memory loss comes from, he still has a problem with drugs and alcohol. He admits it in almost every interview! He just doesn’t see that it is a problem. Just like you :) instead of making fun of people who are concerned about Louis, you should at least acknowledge the fact that these concerns are very reasonable to have at this point. You don’t have to agree but making fun of it makes you look like a fool who is deeply in denial about reality.
#i'm not gonna acknowledge that at ALL#and i don't care if i look like a fool#at this point you have two choices: support local smoker/drinker louis tomlinson or don't support him#the secret third option of sending anons to people who don't care if he does or doesn't isn't really a thing#hate to spoil the whole parasocialness of it all#but you don't get a say in what he does or doesn't do#you only get a say in whether you support him or don't#and that's a fine line baby#but it's there#telling other people anonymously how unhealthy it is feels like it skirts the boundaries of unhealthiness in its own way if ya feel me#and as a heads up: this kind of handwringing nonsense is just gonna earn vintage smoking and drinking ads#i've got 'em for days#i have a scorching hot take i don't dare put on main but my lordt i'm thinkin' it#i keep going back to read the top of this and i'm floored that you can pull a direct quote#and then MISQUOTE it to fit your own alarmist narrative#to pinterest i go
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