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animeyanderelover · 10 months

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Who I think would be the least to most difficult Yandere to deal with from the Wolf Pack in Twilight. Let's talk about the worst aspects of them that make them dangerous.

(Yes, I am having a brainrot right now.)

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, delusion, clinginess, manipulation, guilt-tripping, stalking, agression

Least to most difficult

Embry Call

Embry is "probably" the most harmless shape-shifter from the entire pack and that is mainly thanks to his shy, reserved and considerate nature. In comparison to most of his fellow wolves at least. He is pretty much the only wolf who is too scared and way too embarrassed to approach you directly after he's imprinted and he gives everything way too much thought. You can't even guess how much thought, care and practice has gone into the moment where he finally dares to start a conversation with you. He wrecks his brain and his nerves even more when he plans to ask you out. Obviously he's still obsessive, possessive and clingy but those traits of his are toned down thanks to his quiet and somewhat flustered personality as he cares about how his darling perceives him. A rejection would be the worst thing that could happen so he's very careful with the way he acts around you and the people you love most. He doesn't want to ruin any meaningful bonds you have with others because of him, wants to be accepted by those people if he could have the best possible scenario.

It is important to mention that he's still a little creep who stalks you for the first few weeks, unable to approach you with his jittery nerves. Whilst this dies down for the most part if you two are a couple and you understand and accept the situation that you're in as his imprint, bad habits hardly die down fully. He's not someone who falls very easily victim to negative and violent thoughts so it's safe to have him with you when you hang out with your friends or fellow family members. He gets jealous after a while sure but surprisingly enough he gives you a while to notice that he's in a slightly uncomfortable position with the lack of attention. Believe me, there are people who have way worse jealous reactions in comparison to Embry's more needy tugs on your clothes all of a sudden as he tenses up when the lack of attention starts affecting him. In general he prefers to not stick out or make a scene. It's within his own comfort and yours too. That results in Embry being able to not come over as a pushover or someone unneccessarily overbearing unless he senses that something is wrong.

The fact that he is somewhat aware that some of the stuff he does stalking isn't something he should do also pays off to him being as considerate as he is. Even if he has a hard time accepting this, Embry knows that personal space matters to you at times too. He could spend every waking second with you but before he risks you growing annoyed and tired of him, he at least makes the effort to leave you alone for a bit. What contributes to him caring so much about your own wishes too is his talent to stay in tune with your own emotions. Embry is very sensitive around you and for that picks up your current mood and it always affects him too. It allows him to be great at comforting you silently when you feel down but on the negative side it also means that you can't keep stuff hidden from him since he senses it when you're lying or are nervous about something. He relies on you, opens up about his own feelings which he normally never tells anyone, and for that reacts very emotional and desperate if he fears that you might leave him. Can you really leave him despite knowing all that?

Seth Clearwater

Seth is in all honesty such a sweetheart and devotee but there are a few things that play in him not being at the bottom of the list. His young age and the naivety when it comes to imprinting are two major parts in it. He has so much to learn about shape-shifting and about the world in general, has only heard stories about imprinting so that leads to him romanticizing everything about it when he finally finds his other half. You're his entire world the moment you locked eyes with him and ever since that moment, Seth has been unable to leave you alone. I'm not kidding, he follows you everywhere and wants to be always with you as he sees this as sort of normal. You're his imprint, he's supposed to stay with you and protect you. Telling him to leave or asking him for some time alone rarely ever works and the only thing you earn are tears blurring his eyes as the thought of leaving you hurts and scares him as his young age leads him to heightened separation anxiety. There are no bad intention of guilt-tripping you behind those tears but it manages to make you feel bad most of the time anyways.

You often find yourself gullible around Seth as he's so easily emotional. If Embry gets influenced by your emotions, Seth exhibits them even stronger than you. If you're happy, he is too but if you're sad, he's even more so. He's terribly sensitive so if he really notices that you're deeply miserable, he starts crying in most cases as he's unable to hold his emotions in. He never means to do anything harmful by being such an open book but his strong emotions coupled with his need to stay with you all the time can be mentally exhausting at times for you. On a positive side note this is what allows him to handle his jealousy better than some of the more experienced wolves though as he's joyful when you are, even if you're not paying attention to him at the moment. Be careful though, he's still one of the youngest of the pack so in moments where he does get furious, he has more troubles not keeping his emotions under control and channeling all of his negative feelings onto the person who elicited them in the first place. This gets especially out of hand if he has shifted.

Seth finds himself relying on you far more than he should, especially in the relationship since he's younger than most other members of the pack. This means on the one hand that you can manipulate him the easiest but it also means that he greatly panics and doesn't know what to do if you're emotionally hurt besides crying with you and acting overbearing. In the worst case he has a meltdown because he experiences your emotions so much stronger. Something that isn't even directly his fault but also plays into his placement is his sister. Leah has yet to find her imprint and remains incredibly bitter about Sam has imprinted on her cousin so I imagine her being very adamant to not let Seth suffer from any pain now that he has found his imprint. If Seth loves you too much to fully blame you from any pain he goes through because of separation, Leah will blame you and cause you to feel bad. At the same time she also realizes that her brother is a tad bit too obsessive and tries to teach him how to love someone in a more normal fashion if you're too soft for that.

Sam Uley

Surprisingly enough, Sam ranks fairly low on this list. I think that is mainly because he's very mature for his age and the fact that he was the first one to shift and had to explain and help everyone who shifted after him is a huge attribute to this. He's the alpha of the pact so that automatically forces him to take up more responsibilities than other members as he makes the decisions most of the time and additionally his pack tends to be a rowdy bunch so he has to remind them at times to snap out of it and act their part. With the most experience stocked behind him, it's perhaps unsurprising that Sam is aware about the fact that his imprint bond causes his feelings to dwell on the borderline of being unhealthy. So he makes the effort to control himself in order to not overwhelm and scare you away from him, he's very careful how much of his emotions he exposes around you. Sam has to stay in contact with you though as any distance for too long physically hurts him. He might be considerate but be aware that he won't leave you alone for too long either.

His experience and practice as the first wolf of the current generation enables him to be able to spend time with you around people without feeling all the time jealous or possessive. It's not a safety hazard to go out with Sam in public places as he lets you spend time with friends or interact with random strangers. He actually puts trust in you unless you prove him otherwise and that trust comes with more freedom for you as you know that he won't interfere unless you signal him so or unless he thinks that something is wrong. You're actually able to talk and rationalize with the alpha if something does bother him and both of you can negotiate certain stuff simply because he acknowledges your own feelings and wishes and tries his best to find a middle ground where both of you are comfortable. Sam leans more into the protective than possessive side and since you're his imprint, he sees it as his responsibility to guarantee your safety and happiness. I feel like especially because his father has given him and his mother troubles, he'd be very determined to make you happy.

Now that we've shaded enough positive things about him, let's talk about the bad stuff which is precisely the fact that he's the alpha and feels like it's his responsibility to make you happy. Because this leadership really shows at times in the relationship because especially if his darling isn't someone who speaks up, Sam will take pretty much control over it. He's very dominant and whilst he isn't domineering and only makes decision which he thinks are best for you, if he has set his mind to something it is very difficult to convince him otherwise. Yes, he is negotiating but only if you agree to his conditions or otherwise he won't let you leave. If something is an absolute "no" in his mind, it'll remain that way and there's literally nothing you can do. If you go against him even if he forbids you something, you'll truly experience all the reasons why he's still dangerous. If you go against a rule he has set, you'll lose his trust and not only that, Sam will grow very strict. Restrictions are suddenly interfering with your life as you fully experience him taking full control for a while. Until you've earned his trust back.

Jared Cameron

We're now entering the zone where things get out of hand, starting with Jared. Now, you might wonder why I've placed him above Sam because on the surface, Jared appears to be rather harmless. He's extroverted and constantly cracks jokes to elicit laughter or a smile out of you. Truthfully speaking though, Jared's problems already start with his perception of the imprint bond. He sees nothing wrong with it and he never questions his thoughts and his actions as a result either. Separation from you is literally one of the worst things you could do to him as he experiences pain and a few of the worst mood swings you'll see. He constantly switches back and forth between moping on the floor in misery to growling at other pack members, irritated and unmotivated. You always have to stay in some sort of contact with him or otherwise he'll ask you immediately why you couldn't come over to him or at least call him or send him a mail. To avoid all potential troubles Jared might experience if you aren't with him, you oftentimes are forced to spend entire days with him. Without a break.

Now, Jared cares about his darling and wants them to be happy with him but if they ever ask him for a short time alone, he'll only end up with a mix of confusion and hurt. He can spend every second with you because you're his imprint, you should feel the same, shouldn't you? The previously mentioned misunderstanding of his view of the imprint bond gives you only more of an headache because Jared is literally unable to understand or accept that you want your privacy at times too and want to spend time without him. Both of you might have gotten into arguments about this a few times already yet you got nowhere as Jared is always too dense to comprehend what you demand from him. What do you know about the imprint bond anyways? He's the shape-shifter, not you. This particular mindset is something that he goes by rather strongly and makes the situation only worse at times. You're human, you don't understand what's going on right now and just like that, Jared has written all your arguments and opinions off as your lack of understanding of his world.

With him around, it's impossible to have a decent conversation with others as he despises it when your attention isn't on him. He starts distracting you and if you try to ignore him or shove him away, he'll only get worse. There are also times where he just doesn't like a person for no rational reason and for that is always very wary and on guard around them. If they get anywhere near you, he'll glare heavily at them. It can or can't go well with him when you're with others he doesn't feel safe around. The moment he pulls you closer to him and you realize the growl vibrating inside his chest, you know it's time to leave though because you're not risking it as soon as you know what he is. Jared is willing to resort to emotional blackmailing if he sees the need for it and once you have him kneeling in front of you, hugging you and sobbing to not be mad at him and to not leave him, you'll find yourself stuck. Once he has realized that something works on you to convince you to not do something, he remembers it and uses it again. Especially arguments are always cut short for that reason as he hates getting in conflicts. Let's just stay happy like this.

Quil Ateara

Quil is almost similar to Jared in a few ways. Both wouldn't necessarily appear all that dangerous upon the first few glances. Quil himself is a very cheerful and happy individual and that only intensifies upon imprinting on you. He's charming and he's constantly complimenting you and in a few ways he's actually a bit better than Jared is. He is handling his jealousy better as happiness is something that makes you look only more beautiful so he just endures it for a while before he starts making sarcastic jokes, something you'll hopefully realize and turn around to give him the attention he so sorely craves. Quil is often taking you outside too because whilst he also enjoys just being somewhere with you where no people and no other distractions are, the city offers the chance for fun dates which he wants you two to have so there won't be such a big isolation factor. Physical separation from you is not something he can deal with at all though and even if he tries, he's unable to do anything after a while as your absence pains him greatly. You often have to come back to get him back on his feet.

Quil harbors a similar mindset as Jared in which he thinks that you probably react the way you are because you don't understand what's going on but differently from Jared, he tries to sympathize with you. Or at least give you the illusion of doing so, a strategy to appease you in order to not get into an unnecessary argument with you. That's a problem with Quil. He backs off and follows your wishes for a while so you calm down before he goes to break them again and act the same way, trying to justify his behavior by saying that he slipped up and that it isn't that easy for him to stay away from you thanks to the imprint bond. He's much more likely to use manipulation on you and it's frightening to think how much he actually calculates behind his happy grin. Technically speaking Quil's darling experiences more freedom than Jared's darling would but the main reason why Quil is higher is because he's far more unpredictable. Jared is with his behavior very frequent to the point where you can anticipate his reactions, Quil on the other hand is much more sly and frankly spoken, scarier.

This man takes matters into his own hands if he sees the need for it and that is a very frightening aspect. Sure, he won't kill or hurt humans unless he's given a good reason but whilst all the previous shape-shifters wouldn't go necessarily much against humans because it's their job to protect them from vampires, Quil will. He's almost apathetic to someone who has harmed or hurt you in any way or form as in his eyes, only someone truly evil could hurt you. It's difficult for such people to gain any forgiveness from him. Even if you forgive them, even if this is a person you still want in your life, if they fail to convince Quil, it's over. He will cut all ties you have with that person and even if your sadness breaks his heart, he views the connection with such a person only as toxic and as a guarantee to get you hurt again. Better cut ties before it hurts more. He doesn't shy away from using threats and intimidation to get the message across and the worst part about it is that he's lying to you. He tells you that he doesn't know why that person is suddenly avoiding you whilst comforting you all at the same time.

Paul Lahote

I think it's obvious why he's placed that high but let's jump straight into the mess that is Paul anyways. His temper is already short as it is so just imagine what it's going to be like once he imprints on his s/o. Paul, from the moment his world has shifted upon looking at you, acts incredibly possessive and dominant, jealous and aggressive. Being with you isn't just something he wants, it's something he needs and whether you like it or not, he's from that point on always sticking with you. Partially he might understand your point of view but at the end of the day, he's feeling incredibly entitled and even desperate as he just can't be away from you. He can't! Why can't you understand that? His entitlement is very difficult to handle as he essentially sees himself due to the imprint bond as the only one who is meant to protect you and who can protect you. So instead of being fully grateful if someone else helps you, he's pissed off that they interfered with a bond they couldn't even begin to fathom. You're not a victim to his ire but he's slightly mad when you ask someone else for help since that should be him.

As his possessive and protective obsession spikes his anger issues into space, you see yourself faced with multiple problems once you know what Paul is. His emotions are out of control as even the smallest thing could set him off at any time. One wrong glance from someone, one insult that is whispered behind your back or even a joke from a friend of yours that comes over wrong in his head. He tends to get angry over even the small stuff which you would usually brush off and don't pay too much attention too. He can't just ignore it if someone teases you or says something rude to you, even if it comes from someone you're close to. Not even to mention that his possessive side leads to increased jealousy to the point where he growls even at your close friends. He seems to trust no one with your safety besides himself. His overprotective behavior makes him on top of it all very overbearing as he's constantly hovering around you and makes a big fuss over you as soon as he realizes that you're in any sort of pain. He gives you even less space in such cases as all his instincts scream at him to take care of you.

There's definitely a big isolation factor alongside his limited patience. Paul does practice to control his temper but the amount of times he suffers from a relapse is saddening as much as disappointing for you as his feelings always get the better of him. In order to prevent anything bad from happening, you have to spend most of your time alone with him which Paul doesn't mind but you definitely do. You constantly have to neglect other people as Paul consumes almost all of your time for himself because otherwise he can't be reasoned with. You know he's very sweet and funny if he's alone and has your attention only on himself but the moment anyone else is around you two, he always seems to be on guard. Even his own pack members aren't an exception to that. If you want to do something alone, you need hours to convince Paul who doesn't want to hear any of it. You need to call him though multiple times an hour or otherwise he'll come running after you. Once you've left his field of vision, he's worried sick as his irritation increases every minute.

Leah Clearwater

We've nearly arrived at the top of the list now and the second place goes to the only female shape-shifter in the pack: Leah Clearwater. But why? Well, I feel like there's one big event that pretty much influenced her life and changed her personality. That's the day where Sam, her ex-boyfriend, imprinted on her cousin Emily and broke up with her. She was happily in love before her heart got torn apart and she hasn't forgiven Sam nor Emily fully for it. Worst is that Sam is now her alpha and she's seeing him and Emily being happy together far too often which only worsens her heartbreak. Even if Emily is his imprint, she can't get over it and it isn't until she locks eyes with you for the first time that she's for the first time able to understand why Sam made the decision he did. You're happiness, you're a cure and an absolute joy in her grim life and Leah knows that she'd do anything to keep you safe and happy. Alongside with the imprint bond comes a feeling of pressure unlike anything she has experienced before though as with the sheer ecstasy comes also stress and an overwhelming tightness in her chest.

Leah is insecure. Insecure and terrified. Whilst she has now gotten over Sam, the pain and the previous heartbreak now shifts into something else. Insecurity, fear and paranoia that somehow she'll lose you too. She doesn't want her heart to be broken again since she knows that she'd never recover if you would reject her and it's this paranoia and fear that turns her into this bitter, possessive and jealous woman. Sam and Emily have shaped her and she'll never recover from those issues throughout her entire life which means that she'll never learn how to deal with her emotions. Worst is that she doesn't even try, differently from some other wolves. I mean, even Paul tries to control his anger issues even if he fails but Leah never seeks treatment to better herself. She has better control over her ability to shift anyways and with the rest of her broken emotions, she doesn't see the need to practice to better herself. Instead she lets her fear guide her to act incredibly possessive and overprotective. She wants to do well but her reactions are always far too extreme as soon as she notices that something is wrong with you.

Her open insecurities are her main problem in the relationship as she's quite often worried that you'll find someone who you like more than her. Believe me, she knows that she is hard to be around but she can hardly reason with herself as her feelings always take control over her. She might not be as openly aggressive as Paul is but she'll definitely scare people away from you too. She gets very easily jealous and that can even apply to family members and closest friends of you, even if she knows herself that you value them only platonically. There's little to no respect she shows someone as soon as they've triggered her as she insults them in a bitter tone, poison seething through her words. She never apologizes to them either as her pride holds her back and she only feels guilty when she realizes that she's hurt you by acting so rude. Leah wants to shield you from feeling even an ounce of the pain she had to go through but that unfortunately leads her to cutting people out of your life as soon as they've made you cry. She doesn't care what their motives are, she'll never forgive them. They just have to stay away from you.

Jacob Black

Did you see this coming? Jacob and Leah are at the top of my list for the exact same reason. Both used to be very deeply in love with someone but both were rejected because that person loved someone else. I give Jacob the price of being the most difficult one though because I feel like he'll exhibit everything in an even worse way than Leah. Why? Because at this rate Jacob just doesn't care anymore. Paul cares about his darling and tries to control himself, Leah ocassionally cares and feels guilty, but Jacob just doesn't anymore. He's done with being hurt, done with being left behind for someone else. Now he has finally found his imprint, the person most important to him and he decides that he'll never allow history to repeat itself. That's why he's willing to go very far and use very low tricks to manage to get close to you as fast as possible as he's in a desperate rush right now as every person around you is suddenly turned into a potential rival in his eyes. He feels bad about it if he sees that it has a negative effect on you but he shoves it all away as he prioritizes his own needs.

Jacob is sure that if you give it a try with him, you'll soon forget about the sadness you experience. In his mind you two only need each other and no one else is really needed. He definitely lives after this philosophy as he makes you his absolute priority and neglects and ditches everyone else and expects you to do the same. If you don't do the same and actually meet others and prefer to spend time with them instead of spending time with him, he'll hold it against you and even more against the person who has such a bad influence on you. He pushes anyone away from you who hurts you even once or whom he simply dislikes for being close with you and since he's so incredibly clingy and no one really likes him with his sultry and rude attitude he always has around others, your social contacts begin to wither away. He's openly mentally unstable and very toxic to the point where everyone around him notices. Yet no one is able to reason with him and make him listen. Not his pack, not his alpha and not even his own father. If Bella tries to help him? That'll just end in a disaster as he has lost all sympathy for her.

From all shape-shifters, Jacob is also the one who uses guilt-tripping and emotional blackmailing the most without shame. Leah uses emotional blackmail sometimes too but not nearly as much as Jacob does. As soon as you start going against him and question the undeniable control he wants to have over your life to feel a little bit more secure, he's always resorting to it. Whether it's him justifying it all with the imprint bond or blaming Bella for having broken his heart previously and having made him this way, he does everything to take your mind elsewhere and stop you from protesting, stop you from leaving him. He can lose his cool for a moment and start shouting at you if you prove to be stubborn although at this point he has probably already started crying in hopes that tears will tug at your heartstrings. There's a point where he snaps though and that's probably when he's just unnerving as he threatens to hurt himself if you try to leave him. Do you want to risk it? I can tell you that he'll definitely start neglecting taking care of himself until you come back to him.

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heart-of-a-rebel16 · 9 months

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Buckle up lads, I’m about to have what I can only describe as a category 5 autism event.

(long post incoming)

so there’s this song by Will Wood called Against the Kitchen Floor, and besides the fact that it slaps hard, it reminded me way, way too much of what I view Kallus’ and Zeb’s relationships to be like (at least from Kallus’ point of view)

There’s several lines I really want to highlight, but on the whole the song fits excellently. Long analysis of lyrics and heavy conjecture under the cut!

Lord knows I owe you more Than I'm pretty sure I ever could give anybody But I can't pin down what normal people want from foreign objects Bottom shelf erotic products like me

I like to think that Kallus probably has little to no idea how being a normal human being works because he was with the Empire so long. He and others have been used as tools for so long that their sense of self worth is highly diminished. As such, when he enters a relationship with Zeb, Kallus doesn’t know what to do or even if Zeb truly wants him because he’s himself. That’s also reflected in the next line ‘So I could hold your hand but, keep you at arms length’

I swear, I'm really trying It just don't come natural to me to think that you'd want me for me I swear, I'm really trying Oh, I'm sorry, I promise, I'm doing my best I just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet

This line also fits really well with what I was taking about above. Kallus wants to love Zeb, but he doesn’t think that he’s human enough or deserves it.

…I only know that I'm still lonely That morbid sort where even company can't cure me And the more you reassure, the less I trust

This one is a bit self explanatory, but I’ll do it anyways :). The more Zeb assures Kallus that he loves him, the less he believes it, because he views himself as a charity case. He’s incredibly lonely, but he can’t bring himself to love the one person that truly loves him back.

The vertex of my redemption arc The searching on that virgin heart I'm catatonic in your arms Crying, "How did I cause so much harm?"

This is one of The Big Ones. Besides the point that one of the lyrics is literally ‘redemption arc’, the last part fits almost too well with the Purge of Lasan and Kallus’ role. Yet, Zeb is literally the vertex of his redemption arc; he’s the one that pushed Kallus to ask questions about the system he was a part of.

I'm down pounding my head against the kitchen floor Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours Don't say "I'm sorry, but this can't go on" I know you've got scars of your own But hide my knives before you go I'll either live or die alone

This is the second Big One. Zeb is just as scarred as Kallus is (maybe even more so) and Kallus helped create some of those scars. The guilt he feels is immense, and the line ‘Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours’ fits so well it makes my chest ache.

I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress I promise, I honestly wanna prove improvement's possible I swear, I'm so fucking sorry I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all

Again, Kallus wants so badly to love Zeb, and he wants to prove that he can be human enough to return Zeb’s affection, but he doesn’t believe that he is or can be a good person after everything he’s done. Nevertheless, he still decides to try his best

(@seth-silver-ink)

#This was the thing I was talking about yesterday #Now that I’ve sufficiently embarrassed myself I’ll take my leave #star wars rebels #sw rebels #swr #agent kallus #alexsandr kallus #garazeb orrelios #zeb orrelios #kalluzeb #will wood #against the kitchen floor #character analysis #I might make art for this sometime idk #Also I welcome other analysis of lyrics! I like hearing what y’all have to say

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practically-an-x-man · 4 months

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Eros 2, Storge 3, 4, and Philautia 1, 4 for Eris and Kestrel?

Oooh thank you so much!!

OC Asks - Seven Forms of Love

2. How important is sex to them in a relationship? Do they see it as something essential to their happiness? Would they be able to remain in a monogamous relationship with someone they loved without sex?

Eris: Doesn't see themself as an innately sexual being. Where they come from, babies are born sculpted from clay, and while some of the Amazonians certainly do have... relations, it's not treated as highly as it is in modern human societies since procreation obviously does not require sex. This doesn't mean they don't enjoy sex, and they do, but they don't see it as essential to their happiness or the relationships they may have.

Kestrel: Kind of a similar response. They also don't see sex as essential to their happiness or relationships, but they do view it as a very particular form of human connection - not essential by any means (aspec-positive Kestrel ofc), but a very unique experience. It's almost like skydiving to them: some people do it regularly, some people do it once, some do it not at all, and all of these are completely valid and justified, but it's a very particular experience that can't quite be replicated if you haven't done it.

3. How far does parental approval (imagined or expressed) impact upon their current sense of self-worth? What might they sacrifice or attempt to achieve in order to ensure the approval of their parents?

Eris: Doesn't really have parents to begin with. He fell into the "it takes a village to raise a child" crowd on Themyscira, with a roughly equal connection to the other Amazonians. She's sure she's disappointed them, following war and conflict indiscriminately the way he does, but he doesn't let it bother him. Really, they barely think about Themyscira at all most of the time.

Kestrel: As for their current self-worth? They've learned to come to terms with everything they once did to their surrogate family. But there was a long time where they were weighed down by guilt about it, and felt very worthless (even monstrous) as a result of that. It's not that they don't want to make amends, it's that they're scared to go back and risk making things worse

4. Does your OC have any siblings? If so then did their parents have a favourite growing up? Has their relationship with their sibling changed in adulthood? If they don't have any siblings then do they perhaps feel they have missed out on an important relationship? Do they have any especially close friends who go some way towards filling that role?

Eris: No "siblings" of the traditional sense, but I feel like they were compared to Diana a lot growing up. I mean, she was the pinnacle of being an Amazon, the best of Themyscira, and it probably resulted in a lot of resentment because Eris was always woven of a different thread. But again, they don't think much about Themyscira anymore, and they rarely if ever interact with Diana

Kestrel: No siblings, but they're a little grateful about that. Siblings would've just been more people they could have hurt during their tumultuous period, and more guilt to deal with in the present. Now, Warren's brother Dale has filled that void a bit, and Kestrel treasures that relationship, and they have more found family at Fablehaven to supplement it (they view Kendra and Seth as their niece and nephew, for example, and they adore having family connections like that)

Does your OC have a healthy sense of their own worth and value? Or do they see themselves as failing to live up to their original potential? Perhaps they are convinced of their own sinful or inadequate nature?

Eris: Generally has no issues with self-worth. He knows who he is, he knows he's violent and combative and more than a little amoral and he's comfortable with it. Once or twice, he's had flashes of regret for what she's done, but those are few and far between (parasitized!Rick in Acrimony calling them a monster was one of those moments, since that came from somewhere so close to the heart) and largely they're very secure in who they are.

Kestrel: Still struggles a bit with self-worth sometimes, though they've gotten worlds better than they once were. There will always be a thread of that deep within - undervaluing their abilities, feeling like they're innately untrustworthy despite their actions always speaking to the opposite, etc. - but the worst of it has passed.

4. Which of your OC's qualities makes them the most proud? Do they think more people should be like them in this regard? Or do they quite like being rare in possessing it?

Eris: On a base level, she's proud of her skill in battle. Of course he is, after all he's made for it. But on a deeper level... I don't know that they're proud of any individual qualities or character traits. In their mind, they exist as what they are, completely neutral, and trying to find something to be proud of is more likely to send them into uncomfortable throes of morality that he really doesn't want to deal with. She doesn't really think about herself much, at least not as much more than a vessel for conflict.

Kestrel: More than anything, is proud of their growth, and proud for everything they've tried to be. Nothing comes naturally to them, so they take a lot of value in the person they've worked to become - a pretty good person, they might add. They have their share of insecurities and mistakes, but they're proud of being able to crawl out of that darker place and make something of themself. They'd say this is unique for a changeling, but not as rare among humans

#this has really made me realize how similar eris and kestrel are actually #i mean they both avoid interpersonal connection. only eris does it bc he doesn't care and kestrel does it bc they're afraid to hurt someone #they're very similar characters at the base of it but with very contrasting views on the world. i think it's interesting #my friends!!!#answered asks #ask game #my ocs #oc kestrel #oc eris

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claymorexpunisher · 2 years

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Poppin The Question- Ch.5/10 (Werewolf!Shield) (18+ Fic) (Repost)

Summary: Got nothin' to say about this chapter, lmao. Enjoy and leave comments if you did (or didn't). I think this was quite literally my very first WWE fic. Wow!

Tags: 18+, M/M, smut, fluff, angst, angst with a happy ending, hair-pulling, hair kink, daddy kink, name-calling.

Word Count: 17,916

A few months later, the boys and the rest of the RAW roster were gearing up for WrestleMania.

And Roman, being the winner of that year's Royal Rumble, was both annoyed and excited that he once again was going up against Vince's first-born golden child, Brock Lesnar.

The fans were also pretty excited at the prospect of having a new and fighting champion as well.

It had been 5 months to be exact.

And it had been just as long since that night in the woods.

Roman, Seth and Jon never talked about that night.

The boys themselves were on good terms, however.

They were talking, joking and just being best friends again.

But no matter how much he tried, Roman just couldn't shake the guilt that he's felt all this time.

He knew Jon was right.

He knew he had every right to move on with his life, and to have fun again.

After all, it was Alexis who ended it.

But...there was something else he wasn't telling the boys.

While Roman was an alpha he had a bit of a submissive streak.

Even the fans picked up on it sometimes while he was doing something as innocent as sparring against someone, or even interacting with his boys.

And while Alexis started off being supportive and tried to indulge him whenever she could, it ended up taking a huge toll on their marriage.

She never belittled him for it, though.

She never made him feel less than because he was an alpha who just so happened to enjoy being cuddled, fucked and told he was good after a hard day's work.

Or that he did his best, and that that was enough.

But she just wasn't satisfied and Roman didn't fault her for ending things.

Alexis knew he swung both ways.

And she knew that he found both Seth and Jon attractive, and she was okay with that.

She trusted him and she knew he wouldn't fool around with anyone outside of their marriage, much less with people so close to them both.

Some people would view their past relationship as a little more than unconventional, but Roman appreciated how open and accepting she was when it came to who he was, at least in that regard.

And he appreciated being able to talk to her about that kinda thing.

But he just couldn't stop thinking about the whole encounter.

And after tonight, unbeknownst to Roman, he was going to be feeling way worse and confused.

Roman was deep in his thoughts when Jon found him and slung his arm over his shoulder.

''How's it goin', champ?'' Jon drawled with a smirk.

Roman couldn't help but chuckle in amusement as he locked eyes with Jon.

''Hol' up now. I'm not champ just yet, babe.'' Roman laughed, only to get a playful eye roll in response.

''Don't roll your eyes at me, Mox.'' Roman growled equally as playful.

Both men started aggressively rolling on the ground, their bared canines snapping until Seth, overhearing the conversation, found them and cut in with a laugh.

''Alright, enough you two. You got this in the bag, Big Guy.'' Seth remarked as he joined the duo and sat on the bench that the pair once occupied.

Roman ducked his head a little at the compliment as he and Jon dusted themselves off and got up off the floor, and he shot both men a grateful grin.

''We'll see.'' He conceded.

Jon gave Roman a gentle and affectionate head butt and chuckled, ridiculously endeared.

''So modest.'' Ruffling Romans wet hair, Jon joined Seth on the bench.

''I just wish I didn't have to do this shit all over again with Brock, man...'' Roman flashed them an irritated look as he took a generous swig from his near frozen water bottle.

Both Jon and Seth understood where Roman was coming from.

They couldn't count how many times they were shoved into the same boring feuds with the same people every week without any real payoff.

But they felt especially bad for Roman because Brock was nowhere near a deserving opponent.

''I know, bro.'' Seth said, his tone full of sympathy.

Leaning against Seth, Jon eyed Roman's tense back.

''Tonight's your lucky night, Uce. I can feel it.''

Roman dumped his now empty water bottle in the trash bin and ran his fingers through his hair.

''Let's just hope it's a decent match at least.'' Roman sighed, leaving Jon and Seth alone with their thoughts as Roman got called for his match.

----- The match that night left Roman both exhausted-emotionally and physically, but also absolutely elated.

Finally, he was Universal Champion.

Finally, they no longer had to deal with Brock...well, that was until the powers that be decided otherwise.

Still, all Roman wanted to do was go to the hotel and sleep the night off.

But Jon and Seth had other plans.

''Congrats, Big Dog.'' Seth smiled at the exhausted man.

''Thank you, thank you.'' Roman smiled back tiredly, adjusting the title up over his shoulder.

Roman laughed a little painfully as he felt Jon plaster himself onto Roman's aching back.

''We goin' out to celebrate?'' Jon bounced excitedly against Roman's back making him laugh again.

But his brow furrowed when he felt more than heard Roman's tired sigh.

''We are gonna celebrate..aren't we?'' Jon raised a ginger brow as Roman shrugged, wrinkling his nose in distaste at the mere thought of going anywhere except to his hotel room for the night.

''...Fine. You're the champ, so you decide how we celebrate.'' Jon conceded.

Roman sighed once again, this time in fond exasperation.

''I honestly just wanna sleep, man... Maybe we can do something tomorrow night after RAW...?'' Roman offered, but Jon was having none of it.

''Cmon, man- look, tell ya what. Why don't we crash together- like old times! Huh? Crack open a beer or two...or three?'' Jon laughed, the two men joining in.

Slinging his arm around Roman, Jon ruffled his dark hair, smiling encouragingly.

Roman reluctantly nodded, smiling fondly at the small yip released by the ginger.

----- Not even 2 hours later Roman, Seth and Jon piled up in bed to sleep after knocking back a couple beers.

Well, all except Roman.

With all his exhaustion, Roman couldn't for the life of him get some sleep.

Getting up groggily to stretch out his limbs, Roman ran his fingers through his thick black hair, and after he sluggishly walked toward the bathroom to relieve his full bladder, he strode over to the door to leave their shared room.

Where he was going, Roman didn't know.

But he just needed to get out of that room and gather his thoughts.

But his actions were interrupted by a sleepy voice coming from the bed behind him.

''Going somewhere, Ro?'' Jon asked gruffly.

His eyes peered curiously up at Roman from where he rested against Seth's stomach.

''Yeah. Going for a run maybe, I dunno.'' Roman shrugged, still facing the door.

''Thought you were exhausted.''

Roman groaned irritably as he caught Jon’s suspicious and borderline icy tone, and he rolled his eyes before he turned around to face the ginger.

''I'll be back, alright? Relax.'' He replied, raising his voice an octave, causing Seth's body to give a small jolt even in his deep beer-induced slumber.

Roman bristled with jealousy as he watched Jon run his fingers through Seth's curls soothingly.

He wasn't jealous of Seth, really...

He wasn't.

And the last thing he wanted was for them to go back to square one but, he just didn't know how to voice his thoughts and fears to either of his friends.

He was their pack leader.

The strong one.

The one they turned to when they needed to.

The one who kept them in check, kept them in line.

He knew they trusted him with their lives and vice versa, but he just couldn't trust them this time.

Not with this.

Not when his brain was constantly muddled with these conflicting feelings since that night in the woods- hell, ever since he could remember.

''What the hell's your problem, man?'' Jon whispered harshly, not wanting to disturb Seth again.

''Aren't I supposed to be the bratty one of this group? What's your deal?'' Jon finally stood up and he crossed his arms over his chest.

Roman scoffed dryly, shrugging his shoulders.

''That's just it, isn't it?'' He remarked.

Roman's hands played with the drawstring of his sweatpants simply for something to do.

As he looked down at his pants, he didn't see Jon’s brow furrow in confusion.

''What are you talkin about, Ro?'' Jon exclaimed.

His frustrations were beginning to escalate.

''Just forget it, Jon.'' Roman sighed, shaking his head and not wanting to get into this.

He got the shock of his life when he was met with Jon’s furious blue eyes and his hand firmly gripped Roman's chin.

Roman shrugged the hand off roughly, snarling softly under his breath.

''No. I will not forget it, Roman.'' Jon growled.

''Jon, I'm warning y-'' Roman started, only for Jon to interrupt.

''Oh, we're startin' that ''my dick is bigger than yours'' alpha bullshit again, are we?''

Seth woke up alarmed to see Roman and Jon scuffling on the ground for the second time that day, only this time the growls and snarls he heard coming from them were anything but playful.

He stood up and immediately pulled both men apart.

''Are we really doing this again?'' Seth looked between Roman and Jon who were glaring daggers at one another.

This wasn't exactly how he planned to spend the evening after having a few drinks with his boys and some much-needed RnR.

He shoved Jon back when he lunged for Roman again, clearly fired up for whatever reason unknown to Seth.

''Okay. Both of you, calm down! Jeez...what happened now?'' Seth continued to glance between them, waiting for an explanation, when Jon finally exploded.

''He's doin it again, man!'' Jon pointed at Roman in an accusatory tone to which Roman responded with a glare of his own.

''Seriously, dude? You are such a child, dawg!'' Roman sneered.

Then he moved toward the door again and rested his forehead against it when he was stopped once again, this time by Seth's hand on his shoulder.

His eyes flashed angrily when Jon spat his next words, more so speaking at Roman than to him.

''I'm a fuckin child for wantin to know if you're okay? For wantin to fuckin help you!?'' Jon bellowed, shrugging off Seth's calming hand as it came to rest on the back of his neck in the placating way the three of them always did when either one was stressed or fired up.

'''Hey.'' Seth said.

''Lower your voices, guys. We don't want security coming.''

''Fuck that!'' Jon roared, being shushed loudly by Seth as a result.

''No! I'm sick o' his shit! We're your best friends! Your pack! It's our job to know if somethin's wrong, you prick!'' Jon spat again.

However, Roman didn't take the bait.

Instead, he gave Seth a dry look.

''I honestly don't know how I dealt with his ass when we got split up.''

Seth blinked at that.

He was more than a little shocked by Roman's comment and he felt Jon flinch slightly due to their close proximity.

Seth watched as Jon then just quietly moved toward the bed, hooking one ankle over the other once he laid down.

Jon didn't look at either of them.

Seth couldn't even begin to understand what was going on with Roman.

He never spoke this way to anyone, ever- much less to Jon- unless they genuinely deserved it.

''Dude, what is up with you-'' Seth clamped his mouth shut when Roman flashed his now bright yellow and angry eyes at him, the wild look in them started to make Seth nervous.

They stayed that way until Roman caught sight of the wounded look on Jon’s face that the ginger quickly tried to hide.

''Babe...I'm sorry. You know I didn't mean that...'' Roman slid into the spot on the bed next to Jon and he ran one of his large hands smoothly over the other man's buzzed cut head, biting back a sigh of disappointment when he was met with no response.

He tried to hold Jon’s face only to be shoved away.

''Nah. Don't worry bout it, Ro..'' Jon shrugged, feigning a nonchalant attitude.

''Just go. You're right, you don't owe me nothin'.'' Jon shrugged again.

''It's cool.''

''.....Can I show you guys something?'' Roman asked shyly.

His palms began to sweat.

He couldn't believe he was about to do this, but he knew he had to.

He wasn't gonna lose them again out of fear.

Or out of shame.

He was going to be honest with them like they deserved, no matter the outcome.

He had to trust in them.

He did trust them.

Roman nervously reached for his phone that he had placed on the bedside table.

''We've seen it already, Ro. 'Member?'' Jon quipped like a smart ass, unable to help himself.

''Don't be a dick, Mox.'' Roman replied.

Jon was about to make another smart-assed comment, until he noticed the slight tremble in Roman's hands.

''Okay, I'm sorry.'' He made his point by affectionately squeezing the back of Roman's neck.

He and Seth watched as Roman fiddled with his phone, until he pulled up a video.

And on that video, a well-built man- about Roman's size, give or take- laid at another equally well-built man's feet.

Roman didn't dare look either Seth nor Jon in the eye.

And he didn't know if their silence was something he was grateful for or not.

''Rome...'' Seth started to speak but he cut himself off when the man on the video motioned for the black-haired man on the ground to unbuckle his top's jeans.

Once the man's cock was exposed, the black-haired man took the shaft into his hand, and he gave the head a few small kitten-like licks and he stroked it slowly as his top showered him with praise.

Before the video could go on, Roman shut it off and tossed his phone onto the bed as if it were a ticking time bomb. '

'This was a mistake...'' Roman said in a quivering voice.

He strode over to the door, ready to bolt again.

''C'mon, man. Stop running.'' Jon implored, his tone void of the malice and anger from earlier.

All that was left was frustration and sadness.

Roman held the knob in his hand so tight that Jon had to pry his fingers off of it.

He sighed in defeat, and followed Jon to the bed with Seth sitting to his left.

''Get on your knees, Ro.'' Jon was the one to fill the silence as it began to consume the room.

He gave Roman an expectant look and it was returned with a blank expression from the Samoan.

Jon rolled his eyes at Roman's hesitance.

''Cmon, Ro. I need my cock sucked and you need to be told you're a good boy.'' Jon replied casually, not missing the sharp intake of breath from Roman.

''I-I don't think so, man...'' Roman stuttered.

Jon leaned forward with his elbows resting against his knees.

''So, what? You're just gonna keep it all bottled up inside and keep bein' a dick to us instead?''

''Oh, because you're such an expert at sharing your feelings,'' Roman snapped.

But Jon was unbothered because he knew Roman was just lashing out at him out of pure fear and nervousness.

Instead, Jon rubbed a hand down his own face, and he tried to calm Roman down.

''You'd do this for me, right?''

''Thanks, but I don't need the charity.'' Roman scoffed as he rolled his neck slowly when Jon let out a loud groan.

'Dude, it's not charity!'' Jon was going to go on but instead, he pulled Roman into a heated kiss, taking advantage of Roman's surprised gasp to expertly lick into the man's mouth.

Then he pulled away, panting hard and his mouth glistening.

''Look, I think we've all established that we're attracted to each other. Right? Cool. So, what's the problem? Let us do this for you, man!'' Jon nudged him encouragingly, but Roman still didn't look convinced.

Rather than press him, Jon beckoned Seth in front of him.

''...Okay then. Get on your knees, Seth.'' Jon commanded and he smiled when Seth got on his knees in front of him without objections, to Roman's utter shock.

''Good boy.''

And with that, Jon stood up to unbuckle his jeans, batting Seth's impatient hands away with a mild scowl.

''Did I say you could touch?'' He asked firmly, even though Seth's eagerness made his cock stir in his jeans, and Roman wasn't too far behind.

The latter of the three grabbed one of the pillows on the bed and he laid it across his lap over his raging erection as he watched his two best friends.

''Did I say you could touch?'' Jon asked again, punctuating his words with a firm tug to Seth's curls until Seth responded.

''I-I'm sorry, Sir...'' Seth whimpered, sighing when Jon loosened his grip, and he ran his blunt fingernails over Seth's scalp in silent praise.

Seth watched patiently as Jon continued to remove his own clothes.

Once that was done, Jon motioned to Seth's clothes, and he gave him a single command.

''Off. Now.''

''Yes, Si-'' Seth went to respond before being cut off by Roman's soft rumbling voice.

''Can I do it?'' Roman asked as he looked Seth straight in the eye hungrily, making the raven-haired man smirk.

''What?'' Jon raised a brow as he watched Roman's aroused yet still tentative features carefully.

He laid on his side and cupped Roman's chin to make Roman look at him.

''You wanna undress 'im?''

Roman nodded jerkily and he cleared his throat to respond properly.

''Yes, Sir.”

Roman sighed once those two words came out of his mouth.

The words felt so right as he said them.

He practically purred in delight when this time his scalp was scratched lightly by Jon, who nodded his approval.

''Okay. Go 'head.''

Jon sat back and watched Roman undress Seth, while giving his own cock a few firm tugs.

Eyeing Roman intently, he knew the man was nervous.

Almost like he was measuring his movements, expecting Jon to correct him at any second.

In an attempt to soothe Roman's nerves, Jon sat up and kissed a patch of skin on Roman's shoulder that was peeking from his tank top.

''It's okay, Ro. Seth knows what I expect of him. You don't. Let's just relax and have some fun, alright? It's just us.''

Kissing that spot on Roman's shoulder again, he stayed sitting at the edge of the bed, and he flashed Seth a dimply and devilish smirk when they both could tell that Roman was starting to relax.

Undressing Seth in record time, Roman sank back down to his knees and took Seth's cock into his large hand and smiled up at him with a wicked glint in his eye before he gave the head a long swipe of his tongue.

''Fuck...'' Seth gasped, smirking down at Roman through hazy eyes.

Roman returned the smile and he began to breathe through his nose to Seth further down his throat, making him and Jon groan.

Jon’s hand began to pump his cock faster, growing impossibly harder as Roman pulled his mouth away from Seth's cock to ask, ''You missed my mouth on you, Seth?'' Roman asked with a seductive smirk.

Roman's full lips glistened sinfully with spit and precum as he looked into Seth's chocolate brown eyes that began to shine with pleasure.

All Seth could do was release a deep, guttural groan and he nodded enthusiastically as Roman's mouth sank down onto him once again.

Resting his head against the sheets, Seth turned his head, and he aimed that same lustful smirk at Jon who watched the scene intently.

''Seems like we're not the only ones enjoying ourselves.'' Seth laughed.

''You like watching us, Sir?'' he purred.

'You like watching him suck me off- fuck...! He's so good at that...'' Seth grunted through clenched teeth.

Seth threw his head back against the sheets and he released Roman's hair from the bun that the man pretty much always sported after shows or on his downtime, and he carded his fingers through the strands then fisted it into his hand as Roman brought him closer and closer to the edge.

''I know we've done this before but...shit,'' Seth chuckled breathlessly.

''I didn't know you were this good of a cock slut, Ro.'' He praised and let his eyes flutter shut in pleasure.

Roman's mouth moved down to Seth's balls to give them some attention, and at Seth's words, one of his hands palmed himself over his sweats and he damn near mewled with his mouth still pleasuring Seth.

At the sound, Seth's eyes reopened, and he looked into Roman's glassy brown eyes that now looked more like a stunning bronze as the wolf in him struggled to contain itself.

''Oh really?” Seth grinned wickedly.

''You like that, Ro?'' Seth cooed seductively.

''You need this, uh? You need to have your mouth filled with a big hard cock. Hm?'' He continued filthily.

Roman couldn't believe his luck.

If he weren't so focused on bringing pleasure to Seth, he'd pinch himself right now.

And he'd beat himself up for being so stupid.

Of course, Jon and Seth understood him and tried their hardest to indulge his needs.

Of course.

Roman replied with a sharp nod as he swirled his velvety tongue along the head of Seth's cock.

''Yeah. Thought so.'' Seth quipped.

Both men were so engrossed in their activities, that they missed the moment Jon stood up to grab the small bottle of lube he always kept in his carry-on bag.

Roman struggled to not let out a whimper of disappointment when he felt Jon shake him by the shoulder slightly.

''Oh, you don't wanna get fucked? Okay, my mistake.'' Jon lifted his hands, trying to keep a straight face as he made to put the bottle back in its original place.

Seth and Jon burst into laughter as Roman hurriedly stood up to grab Jon to try and stop him.

''No.'' Roman stuttered.

''No?'' Jon raised a brow.

''I mean- fuck me.'' Roman tried again as his cheeks burned in embarrassment or arousal-both, maybe.

After the three of them got themselves fully undressed, Seth and Jon settled Roman onto the bed.

Seth was in charge of keeping Roman as relaxed as possible while Jon stretched him open gently.

Before too long the Samoan's hips tried their damnest to match the delicious rhythm of Jon’s fingers.

His moans escalated when he felt Seth's large hand firmly wrap itself around his throat as the man whispered filth into his ear.

''You want it?'' Seth whispered huskily.

His lips took their time to nibble and suck on the hot skin of Roman's neck before moving back up to his ear to whisper more filth.

''I might get in there after Mox.'' Seth chuckled huskily, playfully biting Roman's scruffy chin.

Eventually, Jon slowly withdrew his fingers, deeming Roman ready for him.

As he slowly entered Roman, Jon let him gradually adjust to his girth.

After a little while, he started to move his hips a little faster, gripping Roman's hips tightly for leverage.

''How's that?'' Jon breathed.

All Roman could do was moan in response and roll his hips even more enthusiastically against Jon’s.

He clawed at Jon’s forearms as the sensations of Jon thrusting into him and Seth whispering and mouthing against him overwhelmed him.

His body felt like it was on fire in the most delicious way possible.

''Don't stop...! Please...'' Roman whimpered.

Their golden eyes locked as their bodies moved in unison.

Roman's eyes lost focus on Jon’s as he felt the head of Jon’s cock brush up against that bundle of nerves.

''Ohh, that's the spot, is it? S' that feel good? Look at you taking me like a good little cockwhore.'' Jon’s words came out slurred as his thrusts continued.

''I think you can do better than that, Sir.'' Roman smirked.

''Harder.'' Roman commanded.

''Was that a challenge, Ro?'' Jon lifted a brow as he asked.

He felt his balls tighten as Roman continued to smirk at him while he looked at him through his lashes.

''You can take that however you want.'' Roman shrugged.

''...Pin him down.''

Roman's breath was taken away as Seth pinned his wrists above his head against the bed and Jon started jackhammering into him.

At first Roman's mouth remained open in a silent moan until his body began to tremble and small whimpers left his lips.

''Got nothin to say now, huh?'' Jon growled, grabbing onto Roman's raven-colored locks roughly.

Jon blinked back the beads of sweat that started to pool along his face.

Then he attached his lips to Roman's for a couple of heated seconds until Roman pulled away and it was like a dam had been opened.

''Please.'' Roman whimpered under his breath repeatedly.

He bit back a wince only to let out a guttural moan when he felt a sharp yet delicious tug against his nipple, and he keened loudly as Seth released the tender bud from between his teeth and he soothed it with his tongue.

''Think he wants you to come inside him, Mox.'' Seth said, as he started to lazily stroke Roman's cock between his and Jon’s bodies.

''Yes...'' Roman hissed.

''Fuckin give it to me. I want it, please. Need it so bad, Sir. Wanna come inside me, sir? Huh?'' Roman babbled, only to get his breath taken away again by Jon’s hands firmly against his throat.

He felt tears prick at the corners of his eyes at the overload of sensations coursing through his body as he was being choked and used.

His eyes rolled back into his skull just as Jon reached his peak, releasing a long growl of pleasure along with a sharp bite to Roman's neck that had both Roman and Seth's cocks twitching in arousal.

Jon shivered pleasantly as the mild copper taste of Roman's blood flooded his tastebuds while Roman's entire body shook as Jon’s warm release gushed inside him, and he started to struggle against Seth's strong grip.

Once Seth released his wrists, Roman held onto Jon and Seth, and he shared a heated kiss with Seth.

Roman's own release came soon enough when Seth wrapped his mouth around him, bobbing his head enthusiastically until Roman was left shivering with aftershocks, tears caused by overstimulation streaming down his cheeks.

Roman felt warm all over when soft kisses and caresses were peppered everywhere the men could reach and before Roman knew it, he was sobbing uncontrollably, hiding his face into the crook of his elbow as his body shook with silent sobs instead of the pleasure from a few minutes earlier.

''I'm s-sorry...'' Roman cleared the tears away from his throat and wiped his eyes, not meeting Jon’s nor Seth's concerned eyes.

''You alright?'' Jon asked as he lied next to Roman on the bed once he had cleaned them both up.

His fingers carded soothingly through the Samoan's dark hair in an effort to soothe him while Seth continued to pepper soft and loving kisses along Roman's neck, making the man bare his neck to give Seth better access.

''Yes...''Roman sighed pleasantly as he slowly came back down from his high.

''Thank you, guys. And I'm sorry for actin like such an asshole to y'all...I promise I won't hide shit anymore. Okay?''

''We're gonna hold you to that.'' Jon winked.

''... Are we gonna leave this guy's blue balls hangin'?'' Roman asked with a teasing smirk.

''Noo.'' Seth whined through soft laughter.

Roman licked his lips, eyeing Seth seductively before his eyes shone golden again, and he nipped at Seth's nipple playfully, laughing as the man released a gasp of surprise mixed with pleasure.

''You can't just do that, babe.'' Seth whined again in protest.

-----

The next morning, the boys woke up in an extra good mood.

But instead of getting in their usually early-morning workout at the gym, they rolled around in the sheets and spent the day together, getting in their workout without having to leave their room.

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hearteyesandviolence · 2 years

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The Wilds Season 2 Thoughts: Episodes 7 and 8

I've been dreading these eps. Not just for the angst. For the uncertain future ahead. But here we go.

-Rachel taking charge is a really nice character choice

-The splinter in the boys group is interesting, but I just don't have enough investment in the characters for it to mean much.

-For my money, Toni making Dot feel guilty after she saved Martha's life is just as bad as any guilt she puts on Shelby.

-Part of what I hate about how the show treats Toni is they never seem to give her enough moments to be strong. All the girls get their ugly moments, but they also seem to get moments of great strength to balance that out, and I feel like that's lacking for Toni.

-I have to say, Seth is a pretty well done character. Acting like a romantic comedy lead while being a predator is an upsettingly real choice.

-Not what I should have focused on, but damn, they couldn't have photshopped that Navy Pier picture a little better?

-Look, I don't hate the boys. I don't. But it's not great that my favorite male character on the show, with the possible exception of Agent Young, has been Hallucination Ben Folds.

-And so we get to the scenes I’d been dreading for a year….I was prepared for fighting, yelling, tear filled breakup scenes. This was worse, though. The silence. The short accusing, look. The small,quiet disdainful comments. And finally that damn head shake. It broke my heart so bad.

That said, I do understand Toni’s mind in this moment. Not defending it, not saying it’s all healthy, to Shelby, to the others, or to her. But I understand it based on what we’ve seen of her struggle with her emotions. Just last episode her girlfriend telling her she loved her caused her to snap at all her friends. Of course something like this is going to send her spiraling. And of course her brain is going to go to an angry place and bring her back to that thought that maybe if Shelby had acted, Martha could be in a hospital right now. That’s not fair to Shelby, and I think deep down Toni knows it. But she can’t turn it off. It’s why she barely says anything to her because she doesn’t want to say something she can’t take back. For me, when she agrees with Shelby that there’s no way back, it’s not because she thinks Shelby is unforgivable, but because she doesn’t think she can get herself out of the ugly headspace she’s in. I think she regrets it soon after. Certainly in the bunker. I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s where “when you’re alone, all you can hurt is yourself” comes from. Hell, I kind of wonder if the copter hadn’t shown up when it did, if she might not have tried to make amends with Shelby right there.

-As frustrating and heart breaking as it is, Erana acted the hell out of Toni’s breakdown/lashing out.

-Geez, after months of us cooing over Shoni sharing clothes, they really knew how to use that to break our damn heart.

-I remain sad that Toni gets little to do out side of the Shelby or Martha relationships. Obviously l love Goodfoe together so much, as well as her sisterhood with Martha, but she’s got so much potential as a character on her own and it feels so unfulfilled.

-It's a bad wig, but I actually do kind of like Shelby’s trauma haircut.

-The bar scene. I cannot believe it. We got an AU in the show. Amazing.

-So. Femme Toni. I have mixed feelings. Obviously, she looks amazing. And as someone who mostly resides in the masc realm, but likes to step into high femme from time to time, I actually really connect with seeing a masc girl go femme. But. It's also a very short walk to devaluing what has been put forward for Toni thus far. But it's also Shelby's dream, so who knows if it has deeper meaning? I don't know. It simultaneously kind of wowed me and really rubbed me the wrong way. Which is kind of this season in a nutshell.

-Thinking on it, maybe it was to give us a sign from the beginning that something was off? Using some dream logic? I dunno. It's a choice, I'll give them that.

-So Shelby's working for Gretchen. But based on the dream, and her muffled scream at the beginning, it's not something she feels good about. Based on the song choice, maybe it was the only way to bring Martha back? I really hope we get season 3 so I get can get some answers.

-Rachel taking care of Martha for two eps is fueling my Reidburn ship.

“I never won't love her.” That is such a beautifully awkward expression of undying love.

-Canon Leatin. I cannot believe it. What a beautiful thing.

-I'm dead serious. Hallucinatory Ben Folds is my favorite man on this show.

-Back in season 1, when we hadn't seen Martha in the flashfowards, I had a hunch....that she might take over Nora's role as the confederate....I still think it's a possibility, for the record....at least I think she's involved, if only as a bargaining chip.

-The boys were fine.They were. But the girls are amazing. And giving me half of a good show and half of an amazing show is so damn frustrating.

-The Toni/Shelby bunker reunion is of course, way too brief. That moment of them looking around and suddenly staring right at each other could have been beautiful but they rushed it. Still, it’s a nice picture of where I think they’ll go if we get a season 3. I think Toni will try and reconnect with Shelby and Shelby will be uneasy around her because she doesn’t want to lie to her…

-Seriously, this all works so much better if it's a cult rather than a social experiment.

-This better not be where the show ends. The cast trapped on an island with Seth. That would be so goddamn depressing.

-The acting on the girls side was fantastic throughout, but I think MVP of the season has to go to Reign Edwards.

-I love this show. I hate this show. I'm meh about this show. It's such a goddamn rollercoaster.

-See you in season 3? I hope. I'm not optimistic. But I'm not hopeless either.

#the wilds #the wilds spoilers #The Wilds Season 2 Spoilers #toni shalifoe #shoni #goodfoe #shelby goodkind #fatin jadmani #leatin #leah rilke #ben folds #Martha Blackburn #dot campbell #rachel reid

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23 and 17 for any one of your oc's!!

ALSO I LOVE YOU BYEEE

HI RENAA !! LOVE UU AND TY 😭😭💐

17. — WHAT IS THE WORST THING YOU HAVE PUT YOUR OC THROUGHT STORY-WISE?

This is a tough question because all of my ocs have been through traumatic events that changed their lives completely and I would say that Elijah is the one who has had the worst time, but it's a delicate topic, so I'm going to opt a little more for Seth, who's a character I don't usually talk about too much. To begin with, Seth has a bit of a special behavior, acts as if nothing in life matters to him, he does what he wants when he wants and without measuring the consequences because for him life does not have any type of value or emotion on its own, and it doesn't have a goal either. Seth from birth was a mistake and both of his parents were drug addicts with a toxic relationship so he never knew what a family was, although his mother tried hard for him; #he always gave him all the love she could and took care of him and protected Seth from his father, but one day when he came home from class he discovered that his father had killed his mother, and after that his father committed s*ide in front of him. Without a doubt that was an image that was recorded in Seth's head forever and that changed his perception of life towards something that has no value or meaning.

23. — WHAT EMOTION IS THE HARDEST FOR YOUR OC RO PROCESS? HOW ABOUT TO EXPRESS?

Continuing with Seth, the truth is that he has a hard time processing most emotions. No one ever taught him to recognize them so it's something completely unknown; although if something costs him, it's undoubtedly sadness. Guilt and pain are two things that he feels very often but is not able to express in words and they are what he has carried since his childhood. The worst of all is when it lasts so long and he explodes since he will do it in the worst possible ways and is capable of harming even those he loves the most.

#tw death #tw sui implied #tw murder #Zephyra needed stability in her life #and seth's instability. forgive the redundancy. was what made them break #since in one of those overflows of emotions he hurts zephyra #oc: seth #oc ask game #ask game #oc extras #vinny.ocs

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Ficlet: Split

Story: Split Word count: 1,131 Relationship(s): Seth Rollins & Roman Reigns Prompt: "It hurt when I saw you with [name]." Also available at: AO3 and Wattpad and dreamwidth Summary: Roman worries about history repeating.

"What did I do this time?" It was so easy to fall back into the patterns of being a little brother. Seth never meant to and his actual older brother was one of his closest friends, but he hated that it never took much to make him feel young and awkward again around Roman.

Roman just shook his head. "It's nothing." After a moment, he added, "It hurt when I saw you with Hunter, that's all."

"Hunter?" Seth sputtered. "This is about Hunter? For fuck's sake, Roman, he's one of our bosses! Of course I'm going to talk to him."

"There's talking," Roman replied, meeting his gaze head on, "and then there's talking. You can be civil with the man without looking like he's going to offer you the corner office."

"Fuck off. You know it's not like that." Seth sat on the bench beside Roman and watched him tape up his wrists. Normally he found the ritual relaxing, but at the moment it made him want to reach over and fling the roll of tape across the room. "He was asking me if I thought there was any chance of the company getting Jon to re-sign."

"Jon," Roman echoed, sadness thick in his tone. "We're already calling him Jon now, huh? I guess that makes it pretty official."

Seth lifted a shoulder in a shrug. It was hard to think of WWE without both of his Shield brothers there, but he was trying to be realistic. If Jon wanted to leave, that was that; all the cajoling in the world wouldn't stop him. "I'm just trying to get used to the inevitable, I guess." He bumped his shoulder against Roman's. "One day, I'm going to have to start calling you Joe."

Laughter burst out of Roman's mouth and he shook his head. "Fuck. I can't imagine a world where I'm calling you Colby. It just doesn't sound right."

"You can stick with Seth. Or Rollins. I'm sure I'll be answering to both when I'm eighty," Seth added, "if I live that long."

Roman shot him a look. "You will. Becky will make sure of it."

Seth looked away, feeling his cheeks heat up a bit. His relationship with Becky was still in the very early stages, so not many people knew. He couldn't resist telling his Shield brothers, of course, and after they had teased him mercilessly about finally getting his head out of his ass and having the guts to ask Becky out, they had both told him they were happy for him. Becky was friends with Jon and Roman too, and it was such a relief to have all the people he cared most about all together.

Or at least they had been. Now with Jon leaving, the balance was going to be off.

Clearing his throat, Seth tried to rewind the conversation. "So why are you upset about me talking to Hunter? You talk to him too."

Roman pulled his hair back into a ponytail. "I do, but you two were always on a different wavelength. What you did with The Authority—that wouldn't have worked with me or Dean. Jon." He shut his eyes for a moment. "I know a lot of people thought Jon would have been the one to break away, and I guess that put me at the other end of the spectrum as being the least likely, so then people would expect it. But you... you made it real."

Seth stayed quiet for a moment, dogged by guilt. If his defection felt real, that's because in a way, it was. He never stopped loving or respecting his Shield brothers, but he had still been selfish back then. He still wanted his shot and he wasn't too particular about where he stepped or how hard he dug his foot in to get one step closer to the top. "It had to feel real if it was ever going to work...."

"I know. And it catapulted all of us." Roman reached over and curled his hand around the back of Seth's head, pressing their foreheads together. "It's just that it's hard enough losing Jon, you know? Seeing you with Hunter makes me feel like I'm losing you too, but here, in plain sight, and somehow that's even worse. At least Jon will be in Japan or Las Vegas or wherever. You're going to be right here."

"I'm not going anywhere," Seth insisted. "Hunter isn't... handpicking me for anything. It was honestly just about the likelihood of re-signing Jon. That's it."

Roman sat back just enough to meet Seth's gaze, and his eyes were glistening. "You're sure?"

"I'm positive—"

"Because I will totally go over your head and tell Becky on you. Don't think I won't." Roman was smiling, but it didn't reach his eyes. "And you know she'll side with me."

The relationship was still too new for Seth to say for certain, but he nodded anyway. "There's nothing brewing, Roman, I swear. No schemes, no plots, no new storylines. Hell, maybe they'll try cutting us both loose too. Get rid of the spectre of The Shield and create some new faction to erase us from their history, you know?"

Roman shook his head. "Won't ever happen. I mean, they can try, but it won't work. The three of us made something special and they can take it off the Network or whatever else they want to do, but the fans will always remember." He leaned in and gave Seth a hug. "So I don't have to call in Becky?"

"No. Especially since you'd just tell her a bunch of embarrassing stories about me." Seth's chuckle was laced with melancholy and he hated that he wasn't completely consumed with what should have been one of the best times of his life—the lush, lively first days and weeks of a promising new relationship—but the reality of Jon leaving had cast a shadow over everything.

"Bro, she already knows most of your worst stories, remember?" Roman teased. "That's how you know she's a keeper. She knows all this shit about you already and she's still willing to hear you out and give you a chance. Talk about the Luck of the Irish—for you."

Seth shook his head and stared up at the ceiling. "You know, just once—just once—I'd like someone to say how lucky she is. I'm definitely a better catch than that comedian."

Snorting, Roman stood up and rolled his shoulders back and forth. "That's a pretty low bar."

"I know, but still." Seth got up as well and hugged Roman. "So we're good?"

"We're good." Roman's lips twitched in a wry smile. "But if I see you with a steel chair in your hands, all bets are off."

#combatfaerie fic #shield fic

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Bimonthly Media Roundup

- Barbie (Movie) - Hell yeah it's here! Got to see this with my three closest gal pals and the energy at the theatre was fantastic, it was genuinely heartwarming to see how many people were dressing up in their best cutesy/pink clothes in the spirit of the film. The movie itself was also great, one of the funniest things I've seen in a long while, pitch perfect casting, on the nose but still entirely accurate social commentary, Incredible set design, and another life affirming-You are who you choose to be story. If I had to complain I'd say that Barbie should have spent a bit more time actually enjoying aspects of the real world in order to justify her decision at the end, but I understand that they didn't want to mess with the pacing so it's whatever. This movie was pure fun, I'll definitely be showing it to my parents when it comes out on streaming. Oh Also! AroAce Barbie rights baby, she's one of us now!

- The Magical Revolution of the Reincarnated Princess and the Genius Young Lady (Anime) - Alright, so this was a nice little story. The couple was genuinely cute both in terms of the individual characters being interesting in their own right and also having a lot of nice moments together, I appreciated how much of the story actually had interesting and relevant things going on outside of their relationship, and I'm shocked and enthused about how actually openly queer the story ended up being by the end-No ambiguity here these girls are gay as hell. I actually wish it was a bit longer - I went to the manga expecting more content and while there where a few nice extra scenes for the most part the anime covers all that's out so far. I wonder if the novels go deeper, I'll keep an eye on that as I'd really like to see if the dragon heart fusion plot went anywhere, it kind of fizzled out in the anime. Still if my main complaint is that I want more than that's not too bad, it get's a major thumbs up from me.

- ENNEAD (Webcomic) - Ah yes, the webcomic I wouldn't quite call a guilty pleasure as I don't feel guilt for enjoying a story with such a unique setting and aesthetic, genuinely engaging writing, and stellar art direction, but which nonetheless feels like one given how much I would never recommend it to anyone I know. I just don't have the mental fortitude to defend the sheer amount of trigger warnings this story would have to include before jumping in. That aside, It was on hiatus for awhile but has picked back up so I binged the new season and am enjoying the slightly lighter tone so far - At the very least the protagonist and love interest are getting a lot of cute, banter heavy, nice moments together which is a welcome change from seasons 2 kind of necessary but still tough to read mass of suffering. Also on a meta level, drama aside, it's pretty funny to see Horus trying defend the genocidal, war crime committing, unapologetic bastard that is Seth on the grounds that he's pretty and sad and is trying his best now okay? He's his poor little meow meow.

- When the Third Wheel Strikes Back (Webcomic) - For some reason a bunch of these chapters either got uploaded or translated all at once as their was like 15 with a new one each day there for a minute. Which, great! this is a fun one to binge. When they are well written, the "Please stop including me in the plot I'm just trying to live quietly" protagonists can be a lot of fun as they keep getting dragged kicking and screaming into increasingly world-altering bullshit and that's this story to a T. The humor in general is pretty great so far, and while we don't know too much about them yet I do like both deuteragonists, I'll be happy to see more of their interactions as a trio.

- Link Click (Anime) - Finished our rewatch of season 1, onto season 2. While I'm interested in the plot, I do still wish they would have spent more time with our leads outside of their job as I still don't feel like I know them very well, but eh at least their likable and serve the rising suspense well. The new OP is super cool with it's full scale rewind giving new meaning to each visual and overall the series still looks great. I like the design of the new villain though I hate the "overtly evil anime face" that he (rarely) and his subordinates (often) use - It just makes me irrationally angry with it's lack of nuance I guess.

- Lego Monkie Kid(Cartoon) - I'm a fan of Journey to the West and Sun WuKong adaptations in general so I decided to check this out despite not really being the demographic or a big LEGO fan. I'm a couple episodes into the 2nd season so far and my general opinion is that I like it but don't love it yet. The animation and voice acting is great and lego-fication aside I do like the character designs, I just feel that for now there's not enough of a central plot/lore information on the cast and a bit too much basic fighting for my taste. Mostly I just want them to address how the other journey to the west counterparts relate to the original story (are they reincarnations? Ancestors? Why does the Monkey King seem completely uninterested in them?) and feature more non-fighting related character bonding. Anyway, MK, Mei, and especially Red Son are all fun so far and I love the Macaque's demon design and the "Sun WuKongs bitter ex BF" vibes he's giving off, exited to see more of all of them.

- Ace Attorney Investigations: Miles Edgeworth (Video Game) - Hmm. Well I have to agree with the general opinion that the first one was one of the lesser games in the series - I did like some of the new characters like Badd and Lang but man did the cases drag and feature a lot of uninteresting nonsense. I'm not too impressed with the 2nd game yet either though there has been some funny writing moments and Sebastian is kind of hilarious, so I feel like it will probably be better than the first.

- Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom (Video Game) - Getting a bit burnt out from the sheer amount of Stuff to do in this game, but I did enjoy infiltrating the Yiga base and hanging out with them, they're pretty fun. Might take a longer break from it here soon and finish the game at a later date like I did with Persona 5-Great games but man is there a lot of content.

- Crazy Ex Girlfriend (TV) - Getting into the endgame now, the meta jokes are pretty fun and I appreciate the themes of self-reflection and making amends that this season has going not only for Rebecca but for the other characters as well. Songs still slap as well.

Listening to: Sway Cover and Eat Your Young Cover by Reinaeiry, Fast Car by Tracy Chapman, 10 Things I Hate About You by Leah Kate, That's What I Want by Lil Nas X, I Wish and Gravel to Tempo by Hayley Kiyoko, What'll It Be and You Do/Don't Want To Be Crazy from Crazy Ex Girlfriend, Rule #4 by Fish Inside a BirdCage, and This Will Be (An Everlasting Love) by Natalie Cole.

#weekly roundup #my post

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Why Leah Clearwater has some Feminist Appeal. At Least Until it Gets Better in the Series. If it Ever Will. (Unlikely)

This may not be a battle or a competition, but with people praising Rosalie Hale (including yours truly), I think Leah should also get a lot of consideration.

In other words, some of why many people like her above all other characters.

(Even though her and the other native women’s portrayals in the story [books and movies] are also problematic in themselves. Link HERE about why.)

My enthusiasm will make this post a lot less formal in tone and less intellectual than my usual posts. I don’t really apologize.

Before the Cullens came back, it seems everything was going well for Leah. She was deeply in love with Sam Uley, her relationship with Emily was close, she has a strong sense of community and a lot more support than some white Twilight characters, her dad wasn’t dead, and it seems like she was eager to start college. Normal, everyday, but fulfilling things.

But the Cullens do come back.

The Cullens

Look, I love vampires and have read Twilight a bunch of times with affection, but this was a shitty thing to do to the entire reservation. Leah in particular has it really tough:

Leah loses the love of her life to a compulsory shapeshifter/werewolf phenomenon.

She loses her best friend, Emily, when envy and resentment and guilt enters the chat.

She has to keep a secret from her other friends and not hang out with them anymore, like how Sam, Paul, and Jared did; thus losing her previous, unmentioned social group.

She becomes the least liked member of her new group, just like Rosalie with the Cullens, she refuses to hide how unhappy she is.

College seems a postponed dream; the thing she could’ve used to escape but now can’t.

College has turned into an escape plan from when it was something to look forward to as the beginning of a new part of her life....

There’s a suggestion in the fandoms that her dad may have died from cardiac arrest when either she or Seth transformed for the first time. If this is canon, then if the Cullens didn’t come back they wouldn’t have transformed.

As a werewolf, she’s the only female onw and her menstrual cycle has stopped. (Does this mean she can’t even have kids even if she chose to have them? Who knows, she feels like a freak now.)

None of this was done with her approval or will.

She has no reason to like the Cullens and a lot of reasons to want them to not exist, particularly when they chose to come back despite the wishes of the indigenous people who know of them. Plus, for Leah and the rest of the pack members, you could say things would be a lot easier if the Cullens were just human-killing monsters who didn’t also have a deal with them. They and Leah wouldn’t have to tolerate their proximity, which triggers the werewolf numbers and transformations.

Leah’s still grappling with how to accept the fact that Sam is gone forever. Then she hears that Bella not only doesn’t hate or dislike them--she wants to become one of them?! She thinks she loves one of those monsters?! She thinks they’re good?!!!! (What I imagine Leah is thinking/feeling.)

So she also dislikes Bella, who seems to accept or not see the danger & injustice that is the Cullen family by wanting to be one of them, or never truly sits down in a kiki with Leah to discuss the hows and whys.

I too wanted like to be a creature like a Twilight vampire for the strength and speed alone. I don’t/didn’t even need the beauty part. Also, I wouldn’t drink humans even if I killed several by accident as a newborn because I simply don’t have to have blood on my hands if I don’t need to.

But Leah isn’t a monster for not liking Bella b/c of reasons already stated. She’s allowed to acknowledge her own hurt and anger.

We can’t judge a person’s morality or value by how much they annoy or discomfort us.

Not only does it make no logical sense, because it makes no sense and people do it anyways, it is selfish and cruel.

How are you going to determine a person’s morality of all things on how much you feel about them, especially before/without getting to know them? (Unless they are doing extreme and glaring acts, like rape. Fuck rapists.)

All an answer and reference to some people saying they don’t like Leah just because she didn’t like Bella and the vampires and treating them “unfairly” by actively avoiding them or openly glaring at them.

Vampires have historically fucked her tribe and have personally fucked her life up. They are the enemy to her and a danger to the people she loves.

I bet that many people would feel the same without having to be a Quileute if Twilight vampires suddenly existed.

So to Leah, Bella looks like a traitor of humanity and a supporting agent for the hurt in Leah’s life.

And Bella’s rejection hurts Jacob.

Which goes into what else I like about canon Leah. She shows empathy when it was so easy for her not to. She is able to develop the capacity to see others’ perspective and make a genuine connection between herself and others.

Jacob

She sees how Jacob suffers from the rejection of someone who he’s very much in love with and can’t help comparing it to her own plight with Sam. And more importantly, she frankly tells Jacob about it with little shame or in defiance of judgement. This also allows her to very bravely confront Bella alone in a house of vampires whose venom can poison her with one bite and who don’t regard her very highly.

Jacob didn’t regard her very highly either, because she didn’t try to hide her pain.

But she did that anyway, for him.

Emily

It’s clear that though things are tense between them, Leah still wants a relationship with her cousin, even though things will never be the same.

Does Leah envy Emily and still wish (subconciously) that Emily and Sam break up at some point before she decides to consciously move on? Possibly/probably.

Did she probably think that Emily “stole” Sam in an errant thought? Maybe. There is no evidence of either.

But again we have to remember she was in love with Sam and didn’t become a werewolf until much later, maybe in the events between New Moon and Eclipse, so she was literally in the dark of why Sam abandoned her.

For her freaking cousin of all people.

She went to a wedding that, by all rights, could have been hers! But she went anyways to support her cousin and unconsciously try to move on in doing so.

Sam and Emily

For as far as we know, Leah continued to be in love with Sam well into Breaking Dawn. But, she decides it’s best to save everyone the trouble and run to Jacob’s new pack.

Was it self motivated/oriented and a way for her to get away from pain? Yes. Was it also a way to keep some sort of peace without ruining relations more? Also yes. She still cares about Sam and Emily, and realizes that this is best for everyone. It isn’t a selfish act at all but a brave and selfless one.

Maybe everyone else (Sam, Emily, etc.) will come to realize it, maybe they won’t. Doesn’t change that the situation wasn’t getting any better, but even worse. Even Jacob comes to realize this.

And two things can be and often are true at the same time. (It’s called a paradox.) You can look out for yourself as you also try to remedy a situation you and others are involved in, especially when the situation came about because of conflicts between the involved parties.

You have to look out for yourself--you’re the key and the element, so to speak. What else would happen? How else?

If not a Queen, what else?

Rosalie

Leah is more appealing to me in a lot of ways because I can easily relate to her experiences as a POC woman. That doesn’t mean I can’t relate to Rosalie at all.

Leah is different from Rosalie more due to their very different backgrounds but their priorities are very much the same: self, family and loved ones. They both work on achieving some sort of balance between all three, but Leah is a bit more self sacrificing or readily empathetic.

A) Now it’s no secret that Leah hates vampires. Yet, when she hears that Rosalie would not be that against Bella’s death so she can get Renesmee to herself, what does she do?

She takes the time to understand without demonizing Rosalie’s lack of (as the Victorians and the Enlightened call it) “womanly” compassion for Bella. Or really prioritization of Bella’s life.

She sees, with her own presumed infertility, that she and Rosalie have something in common and is able to reason and see the parallels between the two of them.

Part of this could also be argued that because Leah’s not a changeless vampire and has the ability to at least have biological changes. Even if her fertility status is questionable, Leah still has the chance that she’d be able to give birth since Meyer’s whacky lore allows for a lot of stuff don’t don’t make biological sense.

Leah’s the very first woman werewolf after all. Who knows what she’s capable of? Leah herself doesn’t really know yet.

However, if we argue this we’re ignoring how we got to the place where we’re relying on fertility to justify Leah’s suffering.

Meyer makes both women being fertile as the only means of autonomy/value that has been denied them by outside forces and events.

Both are reportedly gorgeous women. Both have had their lives ripped away from them by events totally out of their control.

B) Even with others pressuring Leah or rebuking her for feeling the way she does, she continues to both feel for others without unconsciously agreeing to act and feel how others want her to feel and act. Very much like Rosalie, who also does not apologize for how she feels, only explains.

Rosalie apologizes for the way she acted, but didn’t do so for how she felt about Bella and just explained it. Leah does the same when she speaks to Jacob in BD.

Still, both women see violent, seemingly selfish actions, like killing Bella despite her not being an obvious threat, as a means of protecting their loved ones or the integrity of their social unit. They are willing to do the “dirty work”, as some might call it. That willingness is admirable, even the act is gruesome.

What marks them as different is that as a native woman Leah already comes in with the community-above-self mindset, whilst Rosalie is thinking more in terms of family and self.

While the white domestic-to-community space and the vampire world are largely more nuclear/individual-oriented, indigenous tribes emphasize community and family, which is more towards what people of the late 2010s to the present are advocating for.

Leah escapes Sam’s pack knowing/seeing it as her making it possible to alleviate both her own and Sam/Emily/the other wolves’ negative emotions and pressures that her presence brings.

It’s empathetic, emotionally resilient, and mentally adept of her. She has taken care of herself and others all at once. (Now I’m repeating myself.)

Leah

Here’s what @therealvinelle says about Leah (Link to Post):

It's in part because she's a great character, she's easily the most interesting of the shapeshifters (I do love Sam, but he's not Leah). She's the only girl and struggles with that, she has a tragic love story, we get to know her better in Breaking Dawn in a way we don't get to know most of the minor characters in Twilight.

It's also because Leah is one of the very few non-white woman characters in Twilight, and easily the one who gets the most screen time, attention from the narrative, and personality. Her actor in the movies is an actual Native American woman. That matters.

Here’s what I think and add to that (not a contradiction):

A) Meyer does let Leah transparently see other women’s needs apart of from her own while also looking out for herself.

She makes room for others (conceptually) enough to really look at what they are doing when she can, compared to Rosalie who also, in her own way, prioritizes herself and the group over one or two member’s feelings.

B) She’s frank with her actions and words about her experiences as a woman in a male dominated sphere...to the men who do no care to listen.

C) Worryingly, it’s like she is the character chosen by Meyer to shoulder all or most of the load of being an example of healthy living/adaptations within the Twilight universe.

D) She’s still burdened with the load of not only the other character’s expectations but some people’s hopes and desires for how Twilight “should” have been! Here I am waxing poetic about how she is so cool, yet why should I heap all of the responsibility of clearheaded-ness on this fictional woman character when I could on myself, Meyer, and you...anyone who takes the time to read anyway.

E) *Everything I said about her comparison to Rosalie.

Finale

Unfortunately, Meyer ties most of her narrative function to the fact she was dumped and must deal with the prospect of her being unable to have kids of her own with her being the only female wolf in tribal history.

Poor Leah. She is also one of the only characters that is almost un-conflictedly emulation-worthy but has been held back by Meyer’s and--admittedly my own-- ignorance of Quileute/native gender politics. “Almost” because she seems to have been ready to kill an unborn child along with its mother, but then again the wolves didn’t know what kind of danger Renesmee would present to their tribe so....point is, she is the most eye-catching and one of the least “problematic”.

Leah is a good (by genre) gothic romance heroine and the modern romance heroine, but she suffers for being so....why?

Because she isn’t white and Meyer is while also having never seemingly regarded POC outlooks. The latter person trying her best to make a character/love story benefits from being white (Bella/BellaxEdward).

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First, I LOVE what you are doing, thank you so much.

Second: any that focus on the baby foxes—aside from just Neil punching Jack?

All the older foxes have stories that go more into their character, we can see why they are assholes (and almost excuse them). Any for the baby foxes (particularly Jack) like this?

Alternatively, any where the older foxes are held accountable for their asshole actions? (Andrew forcing Aaron’s withdrawal, the chocking incident, the speedballs, Matt’s attacking Kevin for stuff that isn’t his fault, Nicky’s kissing Neil, Andrew’s drugging of anyone he considers suspicious, etc.)

Ok, so Robin Cross and Jack are future foxes discussed in Nora’s extra content. Robin has some in-depth fics written about her backstory, most notably the true crime podcast AU ‘Red Rabbits: Season 2,’ below. We found a bit of Jack’s past in ‘Lessons In Cartography’ (chapters 19 and 20), and a bit of Robin’s in sequel ‘The Cartographer and the World’ (chapters 8 and 13), find both here.

I’ve also got some accountability fics for you. - A

Robin & Jack:

fics featuring the freshmen here

Jack and Sheena being assholes here

Neil fights with Jack here

‘pick up all the pieces (and what’s left of my pride)’ here

‘Red-Breasted Fox’ here

og foxes held accountable:

Confrontations about demisexuality/Andrew's soullessness here

Foxes feel guilty about Andrew here

New finds for Nicky kissing Neil here; master list here

Andrew apologizes to Kevin here

you may also like:

some with Jean reacting to Kevin’s role at the nest: ‘playing on’ and ‘Staring at the Sun’ (updated) here; ‘give your tears to the tide’ here

‘creature of habit’ here (fix-it fic for Nicky’s character)

Aaron’s ptsd from withdrawal here

in-depth fics for Robin Cross

Teaching a caged bird to fly series by Charcoalll [Rated T/M, Collection with 4 complete works, Last Updated Sept 2021]

Part 1: Sunrise over Home [M (we say T), 7870 Words]

Robin Cross is regretting ever signing with the Foxes more and more every day. But when a disastrous day at court leads to emotions culminating, she has a much needed talk with her coach. Turns out her recrutation wasn't as random as she thought, but why would Andrew Minyard off all people have an interest in her?

No matter what, it all ends on that cursed roof at midnight.

tw: violence, tw: negative self talk, tw: bullying, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced csa

Part 2: Guilt, Fault and Blame [T, 9093 Words]

Whatever that night at the roof meant, it changed Robin's life rather quickly. On the edge of a life she never thought she could have, she has to make some thought decisions.

What is Andrew's true intentions?

What does he want with her?

And is Steven still in controll of her from his prison cell halfway cross country?

Or; Robin begins driving with the monsters from practice and suddenly everything changes.

tw: anxiety, tw: drugs, tw: alcohol, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced murder of a child

Part 3: Never felt Safer [T, 3465 Words]

Robin finally earned Andrew's attention. Now she's standing in front of the biggest changes her life has seen, but as it seems it's only for the better.

tw: violence

Part 4: Secret Privacy [M (we say T), 15790 Words]

5 times Robin saw the emotions others seemed blind to, and 1 time it was painfully obvious.

Or Andrew and Neil through Robin's eyes.

tw: alcohol, tw: blood, tw: panic attacks, tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: slurs

Red Rabbits: Season 2 by bloodydamnit, jeni182 [Rated E, 282064 words, complete, 2020]

You’re listening to Season Two of Red Rabbits, the Case of the Newark 9. My name is Robin Cross. I’m number 8. And I survived.

Disclaimer: This season is dark. We won't pretend it's not. It's dark and it's not for the faint of heart, but we really tried to make every single action we take justified. Nothing that is tagged under abuse or otherwise is current and it is in no way detailed, whatsoever. We really took every reference seriously and there will be a list of triggers before every single chapter. It's part of the reason why getting this story out took so long. We want you all to know we have been double and triple checking ourselves to make sure every topic in this Season is handled properly. If there are any questions, please message us via the links in the AN of ch 1.

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: referenced kidnapping, tw: referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: scars, tw: implied violence

accountability

cause and effect by clarodelune [Rated G, 2682 Words, Complete, 2020]

cause-and-effect [ kawz-uh nd-i-fekt, -uh n- ]

adjective

1. the principle of causation.

2. noting a relationship between actions or events such that one or more are the result of the other or others.

or: in which andrew understands actions have consequences and that losing kevin might just be one of them.

tw: implied/referenced violence, tw: implied/referenced non-consensual drug use, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: ptsd

hand over hand series by lackingsoy [Rated T, Collection, 4 complete works, Last Updated August 2020]

Part 1: the deal's done [4091 Words]

"Does it hurt," Allison's voice was bleak.

"What do you think," Kevin replied, somehow managing to sound steady despite his closed throat.

Allison looked at him, eyes remarkably cool for someone who went toe to toe with Seth and other despicable players. "I think," she said, lips popping on the last word: "You, Kevin Day, are heartbroken."

Five fingers, one promise, and the end of a lifeline. Post-hotel scene, the long hours after but before Neil gets picked back up by the Foxes, wherein Kevin stares into the face of his wounds, Allison extends an olive branch, and Renee decides, in the privacy of her own mind, to stop playing mediator.

tw: implied/referenced violence, tw: alcohol abuse, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced abuse

Part 2: domestic bliss [4251 Words]

It was a vindictive, vicious sort of triumph, Kevin supposed, that made him turn his face to meet Andrew’s gaze. To rear his head just a little, bare his throat. A steady dark line, marred and patented.

Abuse aftermath is seen to seriously by Wymack and Abby; consequences are left in the hands of the Foxes; and a few finally make unprecedented moves. Kevin just wants to die, so maybe nothing's different. (Except it is; has to be.)

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced violence

Part 3: you asked for this (he didn't; you spat in the face of him) [1326 Words]

“You were supposed to be better,” Renee said. “For him.”

“That was never the deal,” Andrew told her.

Re: the loud crash. What actually happened when Renee sought out the Monster(s).

tw: violence

Part 4: a minor inconvenience, a smaller promise [1022 Words]

Aaron looked like he wanted to die this time. His shoulders shifted side to side, uncertain and uncomfortable. But his eyes were very clearly honed on the discoloring still visible on Kevin's neck, Allison's intensive powdering long washed off, and the darkness that passed over his eyes could've been misinterpreted for anger and maybe stupider still, regret.

tw: implied/referenced violence

Like Damned Guilty Deeds by EmilyScarlett [Rated M, 1679 words, complete, 2017]

The first time Jean and Kevin train together again after the events of the books.

tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: anxiety

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Split (Epilogue)

Characters belong to Pixelberry

Summary: A change in the King’s behavior becomes the catalyst to revealing secrets buried beneath the surface.

A/N: Thanks to @dcbbw for prereading!

Warning: This series will contain sensitive and NSFW material. If you read, you acknowledge you are 18+.

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Alexandria’s eyes fluttered open as the early morning sun peeked through the curtains of the bedroom she shared with Liam. She softly smiled as her eyes traveled down her body that was currently wrapped and tangled in the bedsheets, landing on her exposed bump. Liam lay at the end of the bed with his hand resting on top of her belly as he softly whispered to it.

“... I know your mommy has done a wonderful job keeping you safe and comfortable in there, but you’re already four days late. We’ll have to work on your punctuality.” Alexandria couldn’t stop the giggle that escaped her. Liam glanced up and smiled sheepishly. “I’m sorry, my love, did I wake you?”

“No,” she chuckled, reaching down and running her fingers through his hair.

Liam crawled up the bed next to her and leaned down, placing a soft kiss on her lips. “Breakfast?”

“Yes … but I need to get up first … they’re sitting right on my bladder.”

Liam chuckled and stood from the bed. He reached down and helped Alexandria up; her large belly made it nearly impossible for her to do it herself, not without a massive struggle that left her out of breath.

Alexandria was now four days past her due date. She and Liam, along with their friends and the rest of the country, were growing restless as they awaited the arrival of the crown prince or princess. The doctor had assured the King and Queen that the baby was perfectly healthy and that going over the due date was normal and nothing to worry about.

In the months since finding out she was pregnant, Liam and Alexandria had spent time preparing for everything that they could. The nursery was put together, they had read all the books, and they had listened to any advice given. And Liam had grown increasingly more protective over his Queen and the precious cargo she was carrying. He frequently checked on her, made sure she was doing nothing that he would consider to be too much, and anything she asked for, she received.

Alexandria didn’t stop Liam. She often smiled and shook her head at how overwhelmingly cautious he had become and at how much he worried over the littlest things. He was utterly endearing, and despite the not-so-pretty side effects of pregnancy, she wouldn’t have traded a single minute of experiencing it with him by her side. Seeing him already a doting father made her heart swell, and even more anxious for their little arrival to finally make their appearance.

During the pregnancy, Liam and Alexandria had continued working through everything that had happened just over a year prior.

Alexandria worked on letting go of the guilt she was still holding onto. Despite what others told her, Liam included, that was her biggest obstacle to get over. She struggled initially, questioning if there was a way she could have known, if there was something that she missed -- other than the obvious. After months of working through it, she was finally in a place where she was able to say that, no, none of what happened was her fault.

Liam worked through the betrayal of his father and what he had done to his mother. He often wondered how different not only his life would have been, but Seth’s as well had they had a relationship; if they had grown up together instead of being ripped apart at birth. There were a lot of what if’s that he worked to let go of over the past year, knowing that in the end, none of them mattered.

****

After breakfast and showers, Liam headed to his study to do a little work while Alexandria waddled her way through the corridors. She was told walking could help move things along, so walking is what she had been doing the past few days, among other things she and Liam had been trying. On top of the walking, she had more than her fair share of spicy foods, and she and Liam had been more than productive elsewhere.

While walking, Alexandria heard a sound that caught her attention. She glanced up to see Drake down at the end of the hall, making beeping noises as he signaled with his hands as though he was directing her. “You’re such an asshole,” she chuckled as she shook her head.

Drake let out a bark of laughter as he walked up to her. “Feeling ok?”

“As best a beached whale can be expected to feel, I suppose.”

“Stop it,” he chuckled. “Pregnancy looks good on you. What do they always say … you’re simply glowing!” he spoke in a mocking tone.

“Well, thank you,” Alexandria smiled. “What are you up to?”

“Nothing. Just walking around.”

Alexandria stopped and looked up at Drake. “Liam sent you to check on me, didn’t he?”

“Yes, he did,” Drake nodded with a grin.

“He’s such a worrywart,” she shook her head.

“He is, but he’s also so excited that I think he may burst,” Drake chuckled.

Alexandria laughed but then stopped walking. She pressed her hand against her belly while her other hand went to the wall to steady herself as she looked down. “Uh, Drake … I think I just burst …”

Drake’s eyes went wide at the small puddle at Alexandria’s feet. “Holy shit! Uh … ok, ok, ok … um, it’s gonna be ok!”

Alexandria slowly looked up at Drake, seeing the panic in his expression. “Just call Liam.” Suddenly, she felt a sharp pain that started in her lower abdomen and shot right around to her back. She doubled forward, and her face grimaced in pain. “NOWWWWW!” she groaned through gritted teeth.

****

Hours later, Liam sat at Alexandria’s bedside in the hospital, holding her hand as she squeezed it tightly, helping her through another contraction. Because of her low blood pressure, Alexandria had been unable to get an epidural and was going through the labor au naturale. Her hair was matted, and her neck, chest, and forehead were flushed and glistening with sweat.

“You’re doing great, my love. I’m so proud of you …” Liam’s voice trembled as he whispered in her ear once the contraction had subsided.

“Liam, if you cry … I’m going to cry,” her voice cracked. “So, I’m going to need you … to pull yourself together.”

Liam tearfully smiled as he kissed her temple. “I’m sorry … I just don’t like seeing you in pain.”

“Well, this pain is necessary … to get this little one out. So … it’s the good kind of pain,” she replied through gasped breaths. She gripped Liam’s hand and screamed as another contraction ripped through her.

Just then, the doctor came into the room. “How are we doing, Your Majesty?”

“They’re coming closer together,” Liam answered for Alexandria, who was unable to speak at the moment as she caught her breath.

“Let’s check and see how far you’ve progressed.” The doctor gloved up his hand and checked Alexandria. “You’re about … 7 centimeters. Hopefully, it won’t be too much longer, ma’am.”

****

“Liam … I don’t think … I can keep doing this. I’m so tired.” Alexandria had just worked through another contraction. She covered her eyes with her hand as her shoulders began to shake with silent sobs. It had been hours, and she was completely exhausted.

“Hey.” Liam leaned down, removing the cool cloth he had placed on her forehead to press a soft kiss there. “You can do this, Alex. You’re the strongest, most incredible woman I’ve ever known, and you’ve done absolutely amazing so far.”

“Stop sweet-talking me,” she cried.

Liam smiled. “No sweet talk. Just the truth.” Alexandria looked at him with a fatigued expression, and he brushed his hand across her cheek. “If I could trade places with you, I would in a heartbeat, love. But you’re so close … I know you can do this.” Alexandria gave him a determined nod, and he leaned down, pressing a kiss to her lips. Just as they parted, another contraction came. Alexandria cried out as she squeezed Liam’s hand with a crushing grip. “I’m here, love. Breathe …”

As Liam helped Alexandria through her contraction, the doctor came in to recheck her. He smiled at the King and Queen. “10 centimeters. Are you ready to meet your little prince or princess?”

“Yes,” they both replied in unison.

The doctor chuckled. “Alright. Sir, I’m going to have you help her sit up a bit and slide behind her.”

Liam nodded and rose from his chair at her bedside. He helped Alexandria sit up and positioned himself behind her so her back was resting against his chest. Alexandria immediately grabbed hold of Liam’s hands, threading their fingers together and squeezing; he could tell she was nervous. “I’m right here,” he whispered in her ear.

“On your next contraction, I need you to push, ma’am.”

Within moments Alexandria gave her first push.

****

Forty-five minutes later, Alexandria dropped back against Liam’s chest. “They’re never coming out,” she cried, shaking her head as her tears fell; her body was covered in a sheen of sweat as she gasped for breath.

“We’re almost there, love. I know you’re tired, but it’s almost over.”

“Ma’am, give me everything you’ve got on this next push, and it should be your last. One big one. Ready …”

Alexandria gripped Liam’s hands and lurched forward as she pushed. After a moment, instant relief suddenly filled her body, and she fell back against Liam’s chest. A few seconds later, they heard the tiny cry for the first time.

“Congratulations, Your Majesties. It’s a girl.” The doctor held up the baby -- their baby -- and Liam and Alexandria both stared at her in astonishment.

Alexandria turned her head back to look at Liam; she reached her hand up and wiped the tears from his cheek as her own fell. Liam leaned down and kissed her softly. “I love you so much,” he whispered against her lips. “I’m so proud of you. You were incredible, Alex.”

The doctor finished up with Alexandria, and a moment later, the nurse came over with the baby, laying her down against her chest. “We’ll give you two some time with her before we move you to your room in the maternity unit.” The doctor and nurse stepped out, leaving them alone with the baby.

“Liam …” Alexandria choked out as they both stared down at her in awe.

Liam couldn’t wipe the smile from his face, feeling his heart swell with more pride than he thought possible. “Hello, princess,” he tearfully whispered as he stroked her cheek with his finger. “I’m your daddy.” She was perfect and already had him wrapped around her tiny finger.

Alexandria brushed her thumb across her forehead before gently pushing up the tiny pink hat that she wore. She had a full head of dark hair. “Look at all of her hair,” she tearfully chuckled, and Liam grinned. “She’s beautiful,” Alexandria smiled, wiping the tears from her eyes with the back of her one hand while the other rested against the baby’s back.

“Just like her mother.” Liam kissed Alexandria’s cheek before she rested her head against him; her body was feeling the effects of the hours and hours of labor. The two sat in silence as they stared at the baby, both feeling an overwhelming sense of love. “We need to choose a name for our princess,” Liam broke the silence.

Alexandria gently shifted the baby from her chest to cradle her in her arms, and she stared thoughtfully down at their daughter. Only one name came to mind, and she smiled. “Eleanor.” She heard Liam let out a soft breath, and she turned her head back to look at him.

Even more emotion filled his eyes as they looked down at the little girl in his wife’s arms before moving to meet her gaze. “That would be a great honor to my mother.”

“I think it suits her.”

“Me too.” Liam reached his hand up and wiped his cheeks before resting it down on top of Alexandria’s. “It’s perfect. She’s perfect.”

****

Alexandria had been moved to a private room in the maternity unit. Drake, Olivia, and Maxwell all stopped by to meet Eleanor. Even Uncle Leo even made a surprise visit. Before heading to the palace, he offered to take on some of Liam’s workload during his visit to allow him time to spend with the newest addition to their family.

Now it was just Liam and Alexandria alone with Eleanor, marveling at her as they took turns holding her.

Liam couldn’t get enough. He couldn’t stop looking at her, memorizing every little detail from her small button nose, her full head of hair, down to her tiny fingers and toes. He had heard of the term “over the moon” and was feeling exactly that.

Bastien, who had come in to meet the newest member of the royal family, watched Liam fawn over his daughter. He held her in his arms as he walked around the room with the tiny bundle in his arms, unable to wipe the smile from his face.

Shortly after Liam had laid Eleanor down in her cot, a knock came on their door. Bastien opened it and the nurse stepped inside. “We’re going to take the princess to the nursery to do her hearing screening,” she smiled.

Liam and Alexandria both nodded. “Liam, go with her.”

“Ok,” he smiled. He rose from the edge of the bed and turned, pressing a kiss to Alexandria’s forehead. “We’ll be right back. Try and get a little rest, my love.”

Liam pushed the small cot holding Eleanor down the hall as he walked with the nurse and Bastien to the nursery. “We’re going to take her right in here.” The nurse took the cot, pushing it through the left side of the large nursery to another nurse who was waiting inside before stepping back out. “The doctor will be here in just a moment, sir.” She curtsied and stepped away.

“How are you feeling, dad?” Bastien smiled as he clapped Liam on the shoulder.

Liam couldn’t contain his proud grin as he shook his head. “We’ve wanted this for so long … it’s kind of surreal. I’m just … I’m so in love with her I already.”

“Regina has been calling to check on you all.”

“Dammit,” Liam grumbled. “I forgot to call her in the midst of everything going on.” He pulled his phone from his pocket, and he and Bastien stepped away from the door for a moment while he called Regina.

Inside the nursery, the nurse stood and smiled down at the small princess while continuing to wait for the doctor. The other nursery door on the right side of the room opened a few moments later, and she looked up, curtsying to the King as he stepped inside.

“How is my little girl?” he asked.

“We’re still waiting for the doctor, Your Majesty.”

He nodded and stepped over to the cot; the nurse noticed a limp as he walked. “Is your leg ok, sir?”

“Yes, it’s fine. It just has a kink in it from sitting with Her Majesty.” He looked down at Eleanor and scooped her up into his arms. “I’ve been looking forward to having this first moment alone with her,” he smiled.

“She’s quite perfect, sir.”

He looked her over and nodded. “That she is.”

“Let me go see where the doctor is.”

The nurse stepped out of the room just as Eleanor began to fuss a little. He gently rocked her in his arms, brushing his thumb across her tiny cheek.

“Sshhh, it’s ok. Uncle Seth’s got you …”

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Absolute Favorite Books I’d Recommend to Anyone

This is a list of my top-tier favorite books that I would recommend/talk about endlessly to pretty much anyone (in no particular order). I know people probably don’t care but I just like talking about books I love so here we are.

Beloved - Toni Morrison

~ Based off the real story of Margaret Garner, a slave woman who escaped slavery and when captured killed her child in order to prevent them from ever being enslaved again, Beloved tells the story of a mother named Sethe, born in slavery who eventually escaped and is haunted by the figurative demons of her trauma and the literal (arguably) ghost of her dead daughter, who she herself killed. It is an excellent exploration of the horrors of slavery and of the haunting legacy of the institution for those who were subjected to it.

Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov

~ If you’ve been on Tumblr for a while, you probably know what Lolita is. The story of the predatory Humbert Humbert who lusts after, rapes, and kidnaps the “nymphet” Dolores Haze. An excellent construction of how predators, unreliable narrators in their own right, hide behind fabrications, almost-believable excuses, and pretty words to make their actions seem maybe not so bad. In the words of the book itself, “You can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style.”

Ulysses - James Joyce

~ Notoriously one of the most difficult books in the English language, Ulysses lifts its structure from Homer’s Odyssey to tell the story of a common man, Leopold Bloom, as he goes about his day. Yes, this book takes place over the course of only one day. We follow Bloom as well as Joyce’s literary counterpart Stephen Daedalus through their thoughts and actions, gathering details of their lives previous throughout. It’s a book that, in my own words, “is life”. It is sad, funny, strange, vulgar, disgusting, beautiful, revelatory, sensual, and nonsensical all at once. Joyce aimed to create a reflection of life through his stream-of-consciousness style which some people might find confusing, but I personally find absolutely beautiful and honest and realistic. The prose is also gorgeous, but that could be applied to everything Joyce wrote.

Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte

~ The classic gothic book that tells the tale of Heathcliff and his ultimately destructive love of Catherine Earnshaw, whose eventual marriage to someone else and the general mistreatment of him by her family drives Heathcliff insane and he spends the rest of his life trying to take revenge by abusing and torturing the next Earnshaw and Linton (the family into which Catherine marries) generations. If I’m being honest, I like this book mostly because of how wild and dark it is, but the writing is also genius and beautiful. I think the book also carries an interesting view of the destructive nature of revenge, overzealous love, and othering.

A Tree Grows in Brooklyn - Betty Smith

~ A coming-of-age story at the turn of the century that tells the story of Francie Nolan, a young bookish girl growing up in a lower class family in New York City. It tells about her father’s struggles with alcoholism as well as her mother’s struggles to deal with that and at the same time raise Francie and her brother. Francie is confronted with a strange, uncertain world as a young girl, but tries to face it with bravery throughout childhood

Little Women - Louisa May Alcott

~ Another coming-of-age story, this time about four young sisters: Meg, Jo, Beth and Amy March. You are probably familiar with this book already; it’s had more movie adaptations then I can possibly remember off the top of my head. It’s the story of four sisters as they try to navigate growing up, love, and loss during the mid to late 1800s.

The Color Purple - Alice Walker

~ A novel that tells the story of Celie, a young black woman who is raped and then married young to a man who will go on to use and abuse her, through her letters to God. Throughout the novel she meets Shug Avery, a woman with whom she eventually falls in love and begins a relationship with. Through this and her eventual freedom from her abusive husband, she is able to gain at last her own sense of self and take back control over her life, a life no longer ruled by the abusive men around her.

The Bluest Eye - Toni Morrison

~ The tragic story of young black girl Pecola Breedlove, who wants nothing more than to have blonde hair and blue eyes just like the women she sees in the movies. Both a deconstruction of the whiteness of beauty standards as well as how these standards can utterly destroy vulnerable young girls, it is also an exploration of the people who allow these sorts of things to happen, including Pecola’s mother and father. The Bluest Eye, I think, showcases one of the aspects of Toni Morrison that I like the most, that I aspire to the most: her ability to enter the minds of all people, even people who you might despise at first. Her characters, especially Cholly in The Bluest Eye, are ones you might not entirely sympathize with, but they will always be ones you understand.

The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath

~ Based off of the author’s own experiences as a young college student, The Bell Jar tells the story of Esther Greenwood, whose depression over her place as a woman in a patriarchal society as well as her inability to choose a life path for herself leads to a suicide attempt and a subsequent stay in a mental hospital. A very nuanced portrayal of mental illness, especially anxiety and depression, The Bell Jar is an extremely moving and relatable story for me and clearly is as well for others. It is a classic for a reason.

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings - Maya Angelou

~ A memoir of Angelou’s childhood, this book tells the story of her experiences living as a black girl in the south with her grandmother and brother as well as her later years living with her mother. It also tells of how she was raped by her mother’s boyfriend when she was around eight or nine, and how she struggled to live with that and find her voice, both literally and figuratively. A wonderful book about overcoming struggles and the power of words and literature in such times.

Invisible Man - Ralph Ellison

~ Ellison’s novel tells the story of a young black man, never getting a name in the text, and his feelings of invisibility and his struggles to find a place in society to belong. His struggles only lead him further into despair, until he decides to “become invisible” as people seem not to see him as a person anyway. Invisible Man is an exploration of American mid-century racism and the isolation it causes to those subjected to it. Not only that, but it is surprisingly relevant to our times now, especially on the subject of police violence. (Personal anecdote: When I first read this book, when I got to the aforementioned police violence part it was right in the middle of the BLM resurgence last summer and I cried for a good twenty minutes while reading that chapter over how nothing had changed and it still hurts me to think about it. Embarrassingly, my dad walked in on me while I was crying, and I had to quickly explain it away.)

A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man - James Joyce

~ The title basically says it all lol. This book tells of the coming-of-age of Stephen Daedalus (the same one from the later-written Ulysses). His sensitive childhood, his awkward and lustful adolescence, his feelings of Irish nationality and Catholic guilt, and his struggles to fully realize himself, both as an artist and a human being. It is a very hopeful story, and one that I love mostly because I relate so much to Stephen Daedalus as an artist and as a person.

One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

~ A magical-realist intergenerational family drama, Marquez’s book traces the various lives and loves of the Buendia family over the course of (you guessed it!) one hundred years. A beautifully written, at times extremely emotionally moving and chilling masterpiece, Marquez in a way retells the history of Colombia, of its colonization and exploitation.

Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy

~ A classic Russian novel of society and love, Tolstoy tells the story of Anna Karenina, married, wealthy woman with a child she adores. However, she falls in love with another man, Count Vronsky, and comes to a tragic end for her love. The parallel story of the novel is that of Konstantin Levin, a wealthy landowner who also struggles to find fulfillment in his life and understand his place in society.

The Sound and the Fury - William Faulkner

~ A novel that features an entire family of unreliable narrators, The Sound and the Fury details the fall of a once-prominent southern Compson family and always-present place of the past. There are four different narratives: Benjy Compson, a mentally disabled man who is unsure of his surroundings and of time and only knows that he misses his older sister Caddy; Quintin Compson, the eldest son and a Harvard man both obsessed with his sister retaining her “purity” and the fact that she failed to do so and had a baby out of wedlock, going as far to claim it is his baby in an attempt to preserve something of the family reputation; Jason Compson, who is the caretaker of Caddy’s daughter and believes her to be going down her mother’s “sinful” path; and Dilsey, the black maid of the Compson’s who unlike the people she cares for is not weighed down by their history. The narratives take place in different time periods and is in a stream-of-consciousness style. It’s a deeply dark and disturbing novel about the haunting nature of the past, a common theme in Faulkner’s work (see Absalom, Absalom! for more of this).

Song of Solomon - Toni Morrison

~ It is the story of Milkman Dead, a young black man growing up in the south and his relationship with his very complicated family. To say anymore would be to spoil the novel, but I will say that it is an excellent book about family, self-fulfillment in a world that tries to deny you that, and, like The Bluest Eye, exhibits Morrison’s excellent character work.

Cat on a Hot Tin Roof - Tennessee Williams

~ A play which takes place on the patriarch of a family’s birthday in the oppressive heat of the midsummer south, Williams’ play explores lies, secrets, and how repression only results in anger, frustration, and sadness. It’s a tragic but brilliant play that I think was very ahead of its time. If you’ve read it (or do read it) then you know what I mean.

Giovanni’s Room - James Baldwin

~ This book tells the story of a young man and his love of another man named Giovanni while he is in Paris. It is a book about love, queer guilt, and has what I would call an ambiguous ending. There is uncertainty at the end, but there does seem to be some kind of acceptance. It is a bit of a coming-out story, but more than that it is a story of personal acceptance and at the same time a sad, tragic love story.

HERmione - H.D.

~ An underrated modernist masterpiece, HERmione is a somewhat fictionalized account of the author, Hilda Doolittle’s, experience as a young aspiring poet dating another poet (in real life Ezra Pound in this book named George Lowndes) who is a threat to her both physically and emotionally. It explores her own mental state, as she considers herself a failure and falls in love with a woman for the first time (Fayne Rabb in the book, Frances Gregg in real life).

To the Lighthouse - Virginia Woolf

~ People think about going to a lighthouse. They do not. A couple years and a war passes then they do. That may seem like a boring plot, and you may be right. However, To the Lighthouse is not much about plot. It is more about the inner lives of its characters, a family and their friends, on two different occasions of their lives: one before WWI and one after WWI. Woolf explores in this novel the trauma that results from such a massive loss of life and security. Not only that, she also explores the nature of art (especially in female artists) in the character of Lily Briscoe and her struggles to complete a painting. It’s a short novel, but it contains so much about life, love, and loss within these few pages.

The Heart is a Lonely Hunter - Carson McCullers

~ A southern gothic novel about isolation and loneliness in a small town. Every character has something to separate them from wider society, and often find solace and companionship in a deaf man, John Singer, who himself experiences a loneliness that they cannot understand. There are various forms of social isolation explored in this novel: by race, disability, age, gender, etc. A wonderful, heart-wrenching book about loneliness and the depths it can potentially drag people to.

The Waste Land - T.S. Eliot

~ A modernist masterpiece of a poem, Eliot describes feeling emptiness and isolation. The brilliance of it can only be shown by an excerpt:

“Your arms full, and your hair wet, I could not Speak, and my eyes failed, I was neither Living nor dead, and I knew nothing, Looking into the heart of light, the silence.”

“The river’s tent is broken: the last fingers of leaf Clutch and sink into the wet bank. The wind Crosses the brown land, unheard. The nymphs are departed. Sweet Thames, run softly, till I end my song. The river bears no empty bottles, sandwich papers, Silk handkerchiefs, cardboard boxes, cigarette ends Or other testimony of summer nights. The nymphs are departed. And their friends, the loitering heirs of city directors; Departed, have left no addresses. By the waters of Leman I sat down and wept . . . Sweet Thames, run softly till I end my song, Sweet Thames, run softly, for I speak not loud or long. But at my back in a cold blast I hear The rattle of the bones, and chuckle spread from ear to ear. “

(My personal favorite line from this poem is, “I will show you fear in a handful of dust.”)

The Trial - Franz Kafka

~ The protagonist of the novel, Josef K., wakes up one morning to find that he has been placed under arrest for reasons that are kept from him. Kafka creates throughout the novel a scathing satire of bureaucracy, as K. tries to find out more about his case, more about his trial, but only becomes more confused as he digs deeper. There seems to be no rhyme or reason to the world he lives in, and the more tries to explain it the further the more that proves to be the case. An excellently constructed novel and a great one to read if you would like to be depressed about the state of the world because, though Kafka’s work is a satire, like a lot of his other work, it manages to strike a strangely real note.

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead - Tom Stoppard

~ An absurdist play that is a retelling of Shakespeare’s Hamlet from the perspective of minor characters, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, who in the broad overview of the original play, do not matter. Throughout the play, they question their existence and the purpose of it and through that Stoppard dissects not only the absurdity of life, but how fiction and theater reflect that absurdity inadvertently.

As I Lay Dying - William Faulkner

~ The novel details the journey the Bundren family makes after the death of the family matriarch, Addie, to bury her. Each chapter offers a different narrative from the family members and those who surround them, revealing some ulterior motives to them “going to town” to bury Addie. The patriarch Anse desires a pair of false teeth, and the daughter Dewey Dell is pregnant and needs an abortion, as there is no way for her or her family to support it. It’s about the powerlessness of people in the impoverished south. The Bundrens are constantly subject to forces beyond their control, struggles which would be easily solved if they had the money to spare for it. There is more to the book, but that is my favorite reading of it, that of class. Faulkner’s ability to create distinct voices for every one of his characters shines through here.

And, last but not least:

The Collected Poems - Sylvia Plath

~ All the poems Plath wrote during her tragically short lifetime. The best way to demonstrate or summarize the book’s brilliance is just to show you. This is her poem “Edge”, which appears in the book:

“The woman is perfected. Her dead Body wears the smile of accomplishment, The illusion of a Greek necessity Flows in the scrolls of her toga, Her bare Feet seem to be saying: We have come so far, it is over. Each dead child coiled, a white serpent, One at each little Pitcher of milk, now empty. She has folded Them back into her body as petals Of a rose close when the garden Stiffens and odors bleed From the sweet, deep throats of the night flower. The moon has nothing to be sad about, Staring from her hood of bone. She is used to this sort of thing. Her blacks crackle and drag.”

HOPE YOU ENJOYED! HAPPY READING TO ALL!

#dark academia #books and literature #toni morrison #james joyce #tennessee williams #virginia woolf #william faulkner #sylvia plath #plays #poetry #can you tell i like southern and modernist lit lol?

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Ikemen Revolution hc: Black Army with a MC who curses a lot

♠︎ Ray Blackwell:

He thinks its funny at first

Then he thinks its weird

Why does this woman cuss so much??

Of course, when he tried to talk to you about it, he got an ANGRY reaction (an: thats right, Ray its 2021, we don’t judge people like that >:( )

Which in turn, made you curse more

After a while he doesn’t really care one way or another

He actually curses with you now

You, Ray and Fenrir are usually cursing about the magic tower, or the Red Army Sirius almost fainted when he heard you guys

He also thinks it makes you look unafraid and strong

He would never say it, but he honesty admires you for not caring what people think

♠︎ Sirius Oswald:

Mama mode ✦ activated ✦

Oh no no no, not in HIS house you don’t

Will try to correct you

When he heard you say the F word when you dropped something, he internally screamed

Starts giving you lessons on how to be a “proper” lady

You curse with some of the other guys just to get a reaction out of him now

If you though he would let it go after a while, you were dead wrong

Lectures. Lectures. And did I mention lectures?

No matter how many times he hears it, it scares the living daylights out of him

Kinda low key likes it though once you relationship becomes more... Sirius 😏

an: Lol made a dad joke for ya Sirius! Before you lecture me, yes I know the correct spelling of the word “serious.”

♠︎ Luka Clemence:

Pure angel 😇

Why have you done this to him?

He is scared, confused, and everything in between

He has only ever heard a few of these words before, and started trying them out himself

BAD IDEA

Sirius lectured you two for hours until he decided you wouldn’t do it again

But, you did

So you had to tell Luka he shouldn’t say those words

You knew Jonah would cry if he heard his baby brother speak that vulgar, and you didn’t want to be the cause of that

Luka doesn’t really care what his brother thinks, but he can see it upsets you so he stopped saying them

That is, until you heard one very loud and very rude one slip from his lips when he burnt dinner 😬

♠︎ Seth Hyde:

🤭

AlIcE? wHAt diD YoU jUsT SAy?

You thought he was intense when taking care of his sister? You should see him now

He is watching you like a HAWK to make sure you don’t do it again

He never wants to hear these words come out of your mouth

He says you are too ‘innocent’

Cause he’s the definition of innocent 🙄

He tries giving you other words instead of the ones you’re using

Yeah, that lasted bout 5 seconds

He gave up eventually

But he still frowns and makes a face like he’s going to cry when you cuss

He laid it on so thick, you stopped

Way to play the guilt card Seth

Fenrir Godspeed:

Bro, he sometimes curses more than you

He is a gentlemen when you first arrive, but as he gets closer with you, he drops a few curses here and there. Just to test the waters

After a while you, him and Ray just become the 3 musketeers 🤪

He thinks its awesome that you don’t act ‘proper’ all the time

He knows the feeling of not always wanting to be what people consider perfect

He loves your wild side

You wanna wear a dress and be innocent? Great! You wanna wear leather and cuss? Great!

It doesn’t matter to him, as long as you’re there, he’s happy :)

#ikemen revolution #ikemen revolution headcanons #ikemen revolution ray #ikemen revolution fenrir #ikemen revolution seth #ikemen revolution luka #ikemen rev #ikemen revolution scenarios #i love them so much guys #I cant breathe they are all perfect #my baes for life 😍

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Poppin the Question (Ch. 5/10)(Werewolf!The Shield) (18+ Ship Fic) (Repost)

Summary: Jon and Seth have a proposition for Roman. One that throws him in for a loop … (this fic was first posted in 2018. I can’t believe.)

Tags: 18+, M/M, smut, fluff, angst, angst with a happy ending, hair-pulling, hair kink, Daddy kink, name-calling.

Word Count: 17,916

A few months later, the boys and the rest of the RAW roster were gearing up for WrestleMania.

And Roman, being the winner of that year's Royal Rumble, was both annoyed and excited that he once again was going up against Vince's first-born golden child, Brock Lesnar.

The fans were also pretty excited at the prospect of having a new and fighting champion as well.

It had been 5 months to be exact. And it had been just as long since that night in the woods.

Roman, Seth and Jon never talked about that night. The boys themselves were on good terms, however. They were talking, joking and just being best friends again.

But no matter how much he tried, Roman just couldn't shake the guilt that he's felt all this time.

He knew Jon was right.

He knew he had every right to move on with his life, and to have fun again.

After all, it was Alexis who ended it.

But…there was something else he wasn't telling the boys.

While Roman was an alpha he had a bit of a submissive streak.

Even the fans picked up on it sometimes while he was doing something as innocent as sparring against someone, or even interacting with his boys.

And while Alexis started off being supportive and tried to indulge him whenever she could, it ended up taking a huge toll on their marriage.

She never belittled him for it, though.

She never made him feel less than because he was an alpha who just so happened to enjoy being cuddled, fucked and told he was good after a hard day's work.

Or that he did his best, and that that was enough.

But she just wasn't satisfied and Roman didn't fault her for ending things.

Alexis knew he swung both ways.

And she knew that he found both Seth and Jon attractive, and she was okay with that.

She trusted him and she knew he wouldn't fool around with anyone outside of their marriage, much less with people so close to them both.

Some people would view their past relationship as a little more than unconventional, but Roman appreciated how open and accepting she was when it came to who he was, at least in that regard.

And he appreciated being able to talk to her about that kinda thing.

But he just couldn't stop thinking about the whole encounter.

And after tonight, unbeknownst to Roman, he was going to be feeling way worse and confused.

Roman was deep in his thoughts when Jon found him and slung his arm over his shoulder.

''How's it goin', champ?'' Jon drawled with a smirk.

Roman couldn't help but chuckle in amusement as he locked eyes with Jon.

'Hol' up now. I'm not champ just yet, babe.'' Roman laughed, only to get a playful eye roll in response.

''Don't roll your eyes at me, Mox.'' Roman growled equally as playful.

Both men started aggressively rolling on the ground, their bared canines snapping until Seth, overhearing the conversation, found them and cut in with a laugh.

''Alright, enough you two. You got this in the bag, Big Guy.'' Seth remarked as he joined the duo and sat on the bench that the pair once occupied.

Roman ducked his head a little at the compliment as he and Jon dusted themselves off and got up off the floor, and he shot both men a grateful grin.

''We'll see.'' He conceded.

Jon gave Roman a gentle and affectionate head butt and chuckled, ridiculously endeared.

''So modest.'' Ruffling Roman's wet hair, Jon joined Seth on the bench. ''I just wish I didn't have to do this shit all over again with Brock, man…'' Roman flashed them an irritated look as he took a generous swig from his near frozen water bottle.

Both Jon and Seth understood where Roman was coming from.

They couldn't count how many times they were shoved into the same boring feuds with the same people every week without any real payoff.

But they felt especially bad for Roman because Brock was nowhere near a deserving opponent.

''I know, bro.'' Seth said, his tone full of sympathy.

Leaning against Seth, Jon eyed Roman's tense back.

''Tonight's your lucky night, Uce. I can feel it.''

Roman dumped his now empty water bottle in the trash bin and ran his fingers through his hair.

''Let's just hope it's a decent match at least.'' Roman sighed, leaving Jon and Seth alone with their thoughts as Roman got called for his match.

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The match that night left Roman both exhausted-emotionally and physically, but also absolutely elated.

Finally, he was Universal Champion.

Finally, they no longer had to deal with Brock…well, that was until the powers that be decided otherwise.

Still, all Roman wanted to do was go to the hotel and sleep the night off. But Jon and Seth had other plans.

''Congrats, Big Dog.'' Seth smiled at the exhausted man.

''Thank you, thank you.'' Roman smiled back tiredly, adjusting the title up over his shoulder.

Roman laughed a little painfully as he felt Jon plaster himself onto his aching back.

"'We goin' out to celebrate?'' Jon bounced excitedly against Roman's back making him laugh again.

But Jon's brow furrowed when he felt more than heard Roman's tired sigh.

''We are gonna celebrate…aren't we?'' Jon raised a ginger brow as Roman shrugged, wrinkling his nose in distaste at the mere thought of going anywhere except to his hotel room for the night.

''…Fine. You're the champ, so you decide how we celebrate.'' Jon conceded.

Roman sighed once again, this time in fond exasperation.

''I honestly just wanna sleep, man… Maybe we can do something tomorrow night after RAW…?'' Roman offered, but Jon was having none of it.

''Cmon, man- look, tell ya what. Why don't we crash together- like old times! Huh? Crack open a beer or two…or three?'' Jon laughed, the two men joining in.

Slinging his arm around Roman, Jon ruffled his dark hair, smiling encouragingly.

Roman reluctantly nodded, smiling fondly at the small yip released by the ginger. -------

Not even 2 hours later Roman, Seth and Jon piled up in bed to sleep after knocking back a couple beers.

Well, all except Roman.

With all his exhaustion, Roman couldn't for the life of him get some sleep.

Where he was going, Roman didn't know.

But he just needed to get out of that room and gather his thoughts.

But his actions were interrupted by a sleepy voice coming from the bed behind him.

''Going somewhere, Ro?'' Jon asked gruffly. His eyes peered curiously up at Roman from where he rested against Seth's stomach.

''Yeah. Going for a run maybe, I dunno.'' Roman shrugged, still facing the door.

''Thought you were exhausted.''

Roman groaned irritably as he caught Jon’s suspicious and borderline icy tone, and he rolled his eyes before he turned around to face the ginger.

''I'll be back, alright? Relax.'' He replied, raising his voice an octave, causing Seth's body to give a small jolt even in his deep beer-induced slumber.

Roman bristled with jealousy as he watched Jon run his fingers through Seth's curls soothingly.

He wasn't jealous of Seth, really…. He wasn't.

And the last thing he wanted was for them to go back to square one but, he just didn't know how to voice his thoughts and fears to either of his friends.

He was their pack leader.

The strong one.

The one they turned to when they needed to.

The one who kept them in check, kept them in line. He knew they trusted him with their lives and vice versa, but he just couldn't trust them this time.

Not with this.

Not when his brain was constantly muddled with these conflicting feelings since that night in the woods- hell, ever since he could remember.

''What the hell's your problem, man?'' Jon whispered harshly, not wanting to disturb Seth again.

''Aren't I supposed to be the bratty one of this group? What's your deal?'' Jon finally stood up and he crossed his arms over his chest.

Roman scoffed dryly, shrugging his shoulders.

''That's just it, isn't it?'' He remarked.

Roman's hands played with the drawstring of his sweatpants simply for something to do.

As he looked down at his pants, he didn't see Jon’s brow furrow in confusion.

''What are you talkin about, Ro?'' Jon exclaimed. His frustrations were beginning to escalate.

''Just forget it, Jon.'' Roman sighed, shaking his head and not wanting to get into this.

He got the shock of his life when he was met with Jon’s furious blue eyes and his hand firmly gripped Roman's chin.

Roman shrugged the hand off roughly, snarling softly under his breath.

''No. I will not forget it, Roman.'' Jon growled.

''Jon, I'm warning y-'' Roman started, only for Jon to interrupt.

''Oh, we're startin' that ''my dick is bigger than yours'' alpha bullshit again, are we?''

Seth woke up alarmed to see Roman and Jon scuffling on the ground for the second time that day, only this time the growls and snarls he heard coming from them were anything but playful.

He stood up and immediately pulled both men apart.

''Are we really doing this again?'' Seth looked between Roman and Jon who were glaring daggers at one another.

This wasn't exactly how he planned to spend the evening after having a few drinks with his boys and some much-needed RnR.

He shoved Jon back when he lunged for Roman again, clearly fired up for whatever reason unknown to Seth.

''Okay. Both of you, calm down! Jeez…what happened now?'' Seth continued to glance between them, waiting for an explanation, when Jon finally exploded.

''He's doin' it again, man!'' Jon pointed at Roman in an accusatory tone to which Roman responded with a glare of his own.

''Seriously, dude? You are such a child, dawg!'' Roman sneered.

Then he moved toward the door again and rested his forehead against it when he was stopped once again, this time by Seth's hand on his shoulder.

His eyes flashed angrily when Jon spat his next words, more so speaking at Roman than to him.

''I'm a fuckin child for wantin' to know you're okay? For wantin to fuckin help you!?'' Jon bellowed, shrugging off Seth's calming hand as it came to rest on the back of his neck in the placating way the three of them always did when either one was stressed or fired up.

'''Hey.'' Seth said. ''Lower your voices, guys. We don't want security coming.''

''Fuck that!'' Jon roared, being shushed loudly by Seth as a result.

''No! I'm sick o' his shit! We're your best friends! Your pack! It's our job to know if somethin's wrong, you prick!'' Jon spat out again.

However, Roman didn't take the bait. Instead, he gave Seth a dry look. ''I honestly don't know how I dealt with his ass when we got split up.''

Seth blinked at that.

He was more than a little shocked by Roman's comment and he felt Jon flinch slightly due to their close proximity.

Seth watched as Jon then just quietly moved toward the bed, hooking one ankle over the other once he laid down.

Jon didn't look at either of them.

Seth couldn't even begin to understand what was going on with Roman.

He never spoke this way to anyone, ever- much less to Jon- unless they genuinely deserved it.

''Dude, what is up with you-'' Seth clamped his mouth shut when Roman flashed his now bright yellow and angry eyes at him, the wild look in them started to make Seth nervous.

They stayed that way until Roman caught sight of the wounded look on Jon’s face that the ginger quickly tried to hide.

''Babe…I'm sorry. You know I didn't mean that…'' Roman slid into the spot on the bed next to Jon and he ran one of his large hands smoothly over the other man's buzzed cut head, biting back a sigh of disappointment when he was met with no response.

He tried to hold Jon’s face only to be shoved away.

''Nah. Don't worry bout it, Ro..'' Jon shrugged, feigning a nonchalant attitude.

''Just go. You're right, you don't owe me nothin'.'' Jon shrugged again.

''It's cool.''

''…Can I show you guys something?'' Roman asked shyly.

His palms began to sweat. He couldn't believe he was about to do this, but he knew he had to.

He wasn't gonna lose them again out of fear.

Or out of shame.

He was going to be honest with them like they deserved, no matter the outcome.

He had to trust in them.

He did trust them.

Roman nervously reached for his phone that he had placed on the bedside table.

''We've seen it already, Ro. 'member?'' Jon quipped like a smart ass, unable to help himself.

''Don't be a dick, Mox.'' Roman replied.

Jon was about to make another smart-assed comment, until he noticed the slight tremble in Roman's hands.

''Okay, I'm sorry.'' He made his point by affectionately squeezing the back of Roman's neck.

He and Seth watched as Roman fiddled with his phone, until he pulled up a video.

And on that video, a well-built man- about Roman's size, give or take- laid at another equally well-built man's feet.

Roman didn't dare look either Seth nor Jon in the eye.

And he didn't know if their silence was something he was grateful for or not.

''Rome…'' Seth started to speak but he cut himself off when the man on the video motioned for the black-haired man on the ground to unbuckle his top's jeans.

Once the man's cock was exposed, the black-haired man took the shaft into his hand and he gave the head a few small kitten-like licks and he stroked it slowly as his top showered him with praise.

Before the video could go on, Roman shut it off and tossed his phone onto the bed as if it were a ticking time bomb.

''This was a mistake…'' Roman said in a quivering voice.

He strode over to the door, ready to bolt again.

''C'mon, man. Stop running.'' Jon implored, his tone void of the malice and anger from earlier. All that was left was frustration and sadness.

Roman held the knob in his hand so tight that Jon had to pry his fingers off of it.

He sighed in defeat and followed Jon back to the bed with Seth sitting to his left.

''Get on your knees, Ro.'' Jon was the one to fill the silence as it began to consume the room.

He gave Roman an expectant look and it was returned with a blank expression from the Samoan.

Jon rolled his eyes at Roman's hesitance.

''Cmon, Ro. I need my cock sucked and you need to be told you're a good boy.'' Jon replied casually, not missing the sharp intake of breath from Roman.

''I-I don't think so, man…'' Roman stuttered.

Jon leaned forward with his elbows resting against his knees.

''So, what? You're just gonna keep it all bottled up inside and keep bein' a dick to us instead?''

''Oh, because you're such an expert at sharing your feelings,'' Roman snapped.

But Jon was unbothered because he knew Roman was just lashing out at him out of pure fear and nervousness.

Instead, Jon rubbed a hand down his own face, and he tried to calm Roman down.

''You'd do this for me, right?''

''Thanks, but I don't need the charity.''

Roman scoffed as he rolled his neck slowly when Jon let out a loud groan.

''Dude, it's not charity!'' Jon was going to go on but instead, he pulled Roman into a heated kiss, taking advantage of Roman's surprised gasp to expertly lick into the man's mouth.

Then he pulled away, panting hard and his mouth glistening.

Rather than press him, Jon beckoned Seth in front of him.

''…Okay then. Get on your knees, Seth.'' Jon commanded, and he smiled when Seth got on his knees in front of him without objections, to Roman's utter shock.

''Good boy.'' And with that, Jon stood up to unbuckle his jeans, batting Seth's impatient hands away with a mild scowl.

''Did I say you could touch?'' He asked firmly, even though Seth's eagerness made his cock stir in his jeans, and Roman wasn't too far behind.

The latter of the three grabbed one of the pillows on the bed and he laid it across his lap over his raging erection as he watched his two best friends.

''Did I say you could touch?'' Jon asked again, punctuating his words with a firm tug to Seth's curls until Seth responded.

''I-I'm sorry, Sir…'' Seth whimpered, sighing when Jon loosened his grip, and he ran his blunt fingernails over Seth's scalp in silent praise.

Seth watched patiently as Jon continued to remove his own clothes.

Once that was done, Jon motioned to Seth's clothes, and he gave him a single command.

''Off. Now.''

''Yes, Si-'' Seth went to respond before being cut off by Roman's soft rumbling voice.

''Can I do it?'' Roman asked as he looked Seth straight in the eye hungrily, making the raven-haired man smirk.

''What?'' Jon raised a brow as he watched Roman's aroused yet still tentative features carefully.

He laid on his side and cupped Roman's chin to make Roman look at him. ''You wanna undress 'im?''

Roman nodded jerkily and he cleared his throat to respond properly.

''Yes, Sir.”

Roman sighed once those two words came out of his mouth.

The words felt so right as he said them.

He practically purred in delight when this time his scalp was scratched lightly by Jon, who nodded his approval.

''Okay. Go 'head.''

Jon sat back and watched Roman undress Seth, while giving his own cock a few firm tugs.

Eyeing Roman intently, he knew the man was nervous.

Almost like he was measuring his movements, expecting Jon to correct him at any second.

In an attempt to soothe Roman's nerves, Jon sat up and kissed a patch of skin on Roman's shoulder that was peeking from his tank top.

''It's okay, Ro. Seth knows what I expect of him. You don't. Let's just relax and have some fun, alright? It's just us.''

Kissing that spot on Roman's shoulder again, he stayed sitting at the edge of the bed, and he flashed Seth a dimply and devilish smirk when they both could tell that Roman was starting to relax.

''Fuck...'' Seth gasped, smirking down at Roman through hazy eyes.

Roman returned the smile and he began to breathe through his nose to take Seth further down his throat, making him and Jon groan.

Jon’s hand began to pump his own cock faster, growing impossibly harder as Roman pulled his mouth away from Seth's cock to ask,

''You missed my mouth on you, Seth?'' Roman asked with a seductive smirk. Roman's full lips glistened sinfully with spit and precum as he looked into Seth's chocolate brown eyes that began to shine with pleasure.

All Seth could do was release a deep, guttural groan and he nodded enthusiastically as Roman's mouth sank down onto him once again.

Resting his head against the sheets, Seth turned his head, and he aimed that same lustful smirk at Jon who watched the scene intently.

''Seems like we're not the only ones enjoying ourselves.'' He laughed.

''You like watching us, Sir?'' Seth purred.

''You like watching him suck me off- fuck...! He's so good at that...'' Seth grunted through clenched teeth.

Seth threw his head back against the sheets and he released Roman's hair from the bun that the man pretty much always sported after shows or on his downtime, and he carded his fingers through the strands then he fisted it into his hand as Roman brought him closer and closer to the edge.

''I know we've done this before but...shit,'' Seth chuckled breathlessly.

''I didn't know you were this good of a cock slut, Ro.'' He praised and let his eyes flutter shut in pleasure.

At the sound, Seth's eyes reopened, and he looked into Roman's glassy brown eyes that now looked more like a stunning bronze as the wolf in him struggled to contain itself.

''Oh really?” Seth grinned wickedly. ''You like that, Ro?'' Seth cooed seductively.

''You need this, uh? You need to have your mouth filled with a big hard cock. Hm?'' He continued filthily.

Roman couldn't believe his luck.

If he weren't so focused on bringing pleasure to Seth, he'd pinch himself right now.

And he'd beat himself up for being so stupid.

Of course, Jon and Seth understood him and tried their hardest to indulge his needs.

Of course.

Roman replied with a sharp nod as he swirled his velvety tongue along the head of Seth's cock.

''Yeah. Thought so.'' Seth quipped.

Both men were so engrossed in their activities, that they missed the moment Jon stood up to grab the small bottle of lube he always kept in his carry-on bag.

Roman struggled to not let out a whimper of disappointment when he felt Jon shake him by the shoulder slightly.

''Oh, you don't wanna get fucked? Okay, my mistake.'' Jon lifted his hands, trying to keep a straight face as he made to put the bottle back in its original place.

Seth and Jon burst into laughter as Roman hurriedly stood up to grab Jon to try and stop him.

''No.'' Roman stuttered.

''No?'' Jon raised a brow.

''I mean- fuck me.'' Roman tried again as his cheeks burned in embarrassment or arousal-both, maybe.

After the three of them got themselves fully undressed, Seth and Jon settled Roman onto the bed.

Seth was in charge of keeping Roman as relaxed as possible while Jon stretched him open gently.

Before too long the Samoan's hips tried their damnedest to match the delicious rhythm of Jon’s fingers.

His moans escalated when he felt Seth's large hand firmly wrap itself around his throat as the man whispered filth into his ear.

''You want it?'' Seth whispered huskily.

His lips took their time to nibble and suck on the hot skin of Roman's neck before moving back up to his ear to whisper more filth.

''I might get in there after Mox.'' Seth chuckled huskily, playfully biting Roman's scruffy chin.

Eventually, Jon slowly withdrew his fingers, deeming Roman ready for him.

As he slowly entered Roman, Jon let him gradually adjust to his girth.

After a little while, he started to move his hips a little faster, gripping Roman's hips tightly for leverage.

''How's that?'' Jon breathed.

All Roman could do was moan in response and roll his hips even more enthusiastically against Jon’s.

He clawed at Jon’s forearms as the sensations of Jon thrusting into him and Seth whispering and mouthing against him overwhelmed him.

His body felt like it was on fire in the most delicious way possible.

''Don't stop...! Please...'' Roman whimpered.

Their golden eyes locked as their bodies moved in unison.

Roman's eyes lost focus on Jon’s as he felt the head of Jon’s cock brush up against that bundle of nerves.

''Oh, that's the spot, is it? S' that feel good? Look at you taking me like a good little cockwhore.'' Jon’s words came out slurred as his thrusts continued.

''I think you can do better than that, Sir.'' Roman smirked. ''Harder.'' Roman commanded.