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Sabosan announces they're dating and Luffy goes all overprotective mode and won't stop telling Sabo "If you hurt my cook we will not be longer brothers, do you hear me?!!?!?!" and Sabo is like "?? How come he doesn't get threatened! I am your brother!" and Luffy is just like *shrugs* "Because Sanji won't hurt you" and Sanji gets all offended because "Hey! What are you implying?!" / "I dunno. Sanji's just too good".
And then Sanji has a crisis the whole day about it because he is still trying to see himself as a good person and then you have Sabo who is in the same boat but going "Then do you think I could hurt him????" / "No. No, no. No! But-- But you know." / "I do not know, Luffy. You're an awful liar, spit it out." / "MmmMMmMmMmm. Sabo's too reckless. You died and it hurt. And I don't want Sanji to get hurt either" / "So... The only thing I have to do is... Not die?" / "Yeah!" / "I think I can work with that, Luf."
#this got sad quickly#it was supposed to be funny??? i am so sorry god#but i think after sabo becomes a bigger part of luffy's life luffy is scared he might leave him again#also after wci luffy is way more protective of sanji ofc#not in the sense of thinking he'll get hurt easily but in the sense of possessiveness#sabosan has a healthy and very cute relationship tho nobody gets hurt#one piece#revolutionary sabo#black leg sanji#monkey d. luffy#sabosan
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Taking pride in One's own appearance.
#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at#also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat.#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#doodlebyte#'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance...#you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral#anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn#sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town#i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming#id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country#plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure#all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities#and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this#which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match.#and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc.#just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it
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i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D
#undertale yellow#uty#my art#<- ifg#spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad#that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways#CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO???#i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly#but THE CUTSCENES?!?!?#JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD#ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO#LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER#ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD#BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK.#AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE#n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of#everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS#WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING#AAND THE GROUP HUGG#I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD#AND THE FUCKOGN#THE F U C K I N G#AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD#to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho#and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump#just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece#anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way#this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to#oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig
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This is kind of a view on q!Bad's current personality and it's heavily based on my own experience with my personality and how quickly people will define you by your worst traits during your worst moments. I Mostly wrote this for my own peace of mind but feel free to read and engage however you want :D
I've been seeing the sentiment that q!Bad is being his true self rn, because he snapped and went "back"(?) to his true self.
I disagree. q!Bad isn't being the person he "really" is. He's being the person he becomes under extreme emotional distress.
Was he always a good manipulator? Yes. Was he always hypocritical? Yeah. Was he always paranoid? Yep. Was he always somewhat morally dubious and willing to do what others wouldn't? Yeah.
Did he ever really cause harm to anyone before this arc? Not really. He annoyed people a lot, but it was never the way it is now.
All his worst traits have amplified and his good traits are somewhat surpressed. And he has traits that are unusual for him. Like, he's been awfully meaner to people and doing dangerous pranks that he normally wouldn't. He was always capable of a degree of cruelty and violence, but not towards his friends.
The worst part is before the eggs went missing he was dealing with a lot of emotional turmoil, after the furniture shit and being imprisoned on no proof. Like it has been shit upon shit for q!Bad lately. Like his trust issues have been sky high, and it really culminated today, with him telling q!forever outright that he's not welcome in his home...
Anyways, the person q!Bad was when he was stable/"under normal conditions", was kind, caring, helpful, trustworthy/reliable, protective, paranoid, childish, hypocritical, a bit of a liar, and a bit of a manipulator. That was so much more his true self than what he is now.
However this arc is one that might permanently alter how q!Bad is as a person. I honestly don't see him return to how he was before and if he does, it'll take awhile.
I'm sad.
#qsmp#qsmp liveblogging#q!bbh#q!bad#q!badboyhalo#I guess it makes me a bit sad#because i have a personality disorder#and i get defined by how i am when i'm at my worst#like one third of the year put together i might be so down i'll be at my worst#But the remainder you'd never know I had a personality disorder#ugh#bring me back to the time when everyone was against the federation#and the only infighting was about silly things that got resolved quickly
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i am such a clown. decided to make stickers for my siblings even though i have ZERO design skills or knowledge of any programs that allow you to rotate text except for powerpoint. so i made them in powerpoint. (this took, mmmm, maybe 6-8 hours btw.) then had to find a website that would print and mail these stickers to me. no i don't want 50 stickers. i want one circle sticker and one rectangle sticker. oh that's not an option anybody wants to give me? okay then i guess i will buy 16 circle stickers (the least offered) and 50 rectangle stickers (the least offered. why not 16 also? a mystery). one of the designs is for my sibling's band, so if they like it theoretically they could use the stickers as merch or something lol. but i'm not holding my breath, on account of the aforementioned lack of design skills. i get away with a lot among my family because they're all so willing to react to my questionable creations with aww look, she Tried! but that probably doesn't work for strangers who are fans of my sibling's band. so i guess they will just have 49 extra stickers that they can idk stick to streetlight poles or something. not my problem.
#i originally designed them on graph paper. with like a compass and everything#i learned something new today!! apparently you can curve a text box around a circle!!!!!! that saved me some time#this all came about because my sister was telling me how sad she was that she lost her water bottle because it had a sticker on it#that she had gotten from her travels. and i was like awesome i'll just make her a new one#girl what! you don't know how to do that!!! CLOWNNNNNN#also i don't actually know what the original sticker looked like lol which is probably for the best so i can't 1) plagiarize#or 2) compare my shoddy workmanship to that of an actual professional#i thought about commissioning an actual graphic designer to do this but i quickly got overwhelmed with logistics#and it's so close to christmas i didn't really want to deal with the timeline issue#i really should have done this three months ago but of course i procrastinated#anyway. the website kept being like are you SURE you positioned that image correctly?#and i was like nope! but i don't know what else to do so let's just try it and see what happens :)#it looked fine in the preview. living on the edge over here. the extreme sport of sticker designing
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surprise art attack!!! here’s @deityofhearts ‘s cashmere, everyone’s favorite whimsical tiefling
#pose taken directly from the kikuomiku4 album cover bc i’ve been listening to UFO on repeat for idk how many days now#finally gave me the inspiration i needed to do something like this it’s like both sad and super whimsical#actually tbh it gives me more wishful vibes now that i think about it but 1. idk what wishful looks like and 2. cashmere design my beloved#kikuo just in general has a lot of whimsysad and/or fundark which is why i love him#tbh ufo has quickly shot up to one of my fave songs it’s the iconic accordion and the tempo being unstable in places#uh anyway ignore me being a kikuo nerd again#wahhh this was fun to work on it has consumed me these past three days#jumping up and down hehehehehe#glad i finally cut to the ‘it’s done *collapses*’ stage of the arting process bc i’ve been having trouble finishing pieces lately#man i WISH i could come up with poses this good on my own. idc i’m still proud of this#my art#ok yeah i just got the time total. 12 hours#i knew it would be a long time but i didn’t think that long#tbh a lot of that was spent inefficiently bc i kept having to resize the image up when i realized the pixels were too crunchy#and when you make an image bigger the lines get blurry so then you have to redo them. yeah i had to do that TWICE. like a dummy.#12 hours used to be like par for the course for me but i’ve finally gotten faster. or maybe i’ve just stopped doing as many full figures#lol
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I'm watching the flashback sequence at the start of 4.11 Family Business for research purposes (yep, research, mhm) and I paused to write some stuff down, then discovered that this was the frame I paused on:
I've been staring at it for an entirely unreasonable amount of time. The way you can see the shattered shards of his heart in his eyes... Matt Bomer is powerful as hell.
#James: 'things were good then.' Neal: 'what changed?'#and he does this sad little shrug#I can't get over it ;-;#I'm pretty much the 'I've looked at this for five hours now' meme#also 'research' is quickly devolving into pleasure#I've already got a couple more episodes lined up to watch just for fun#goodbye sleep schedule#it was nice knowing you for this brief 3-day stint of accounting courses#white collar#neal caffrey#matt bomer#girlwriting#wc.fslir
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#sorry im thinking abt death again#because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died#that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from#time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed#i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she#died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way#my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today#for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days#and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt#future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her#last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that#and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving.#sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless#others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club#i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her#stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i#dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my#family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters#probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno.#i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity.#again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a#full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length#unrelated
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Why did no one warn me that I was going to cry when playing Spiritfarer!
#spiritfarer#i’m sad#I had to deal with Gwen’s passing on#now the old woman said I’m smothering#I’m pretty sure she passing on next#I got attached to these characters way to quickly#I can only find comfort in the sheep and the cat#and perhaps the raccoon and shark man#they don’t die right?
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Sabo still struggles with memory loss. He had his childhood back, of course, he remembers Ace and Luffy and everything they did together. But he doesn't remember some stuff. Some anecdotes Luffy tells oh so excitedly? He can't recall that those happened. And if he does, it's all blurry and never at all like Luffy says. But he never says anything because that would break his brother's heart, to know his older brother isn't fully back with him, so he nods and smiles and pretends he knows what Luffy is talking about every time.
His room is filled with Post-it notes. Stupid, really. Dumb stuff. But he has all the meetings he needs to remember and the missions he has to do, along with everything he wants to write down at some point properly. The walls are covered in pictures of the people he loves (Luffy, Ace, Koala, Robin... All the others that have ever meant something to him because he refuses to forget somebody again).
He keeps writing dumb stuff down. Anything. He refuses to forget. He denies the possibility of doing it again.
But he forgets. Sabo keeps forgetting important dates. Important parts of his life, like his past with his brothers (he forgets a random adventure they had that he swore he had talked about the day prior) and crucial things he has to do. He has a hard time picturing his memories. Putting them in his brain. Turning them into images. Saying it's frustrating is a huge understatement.
Koala helps him out, of course. She's hard on him so he finishes his paperwork, but she knows it's difficult sometimes. She's his personal calendar and diary. She informs him of what he has to do during the week and always tries to talk and talk about anecdotes that she knows he still remembers but knows he loves to hear again.
His mental health isn't the best either, but he refuses to acknowledge it. There's a revolution at hand, he can't stop working. And fighting. And doing more and more and more. But sometimes it's just too much. Sometimes he goes into depressive episodes he can't control, and the medication is either addicting or the worst thing that has ever happened to him. Sometimes he's a bit too intense. Koala says he needs to calm down, that he has a problem with his fixation on the revolution and his past. Sabo keeps saying that it's fine. But he sometimes forgets or has blurry images of the fights and the people he has killed, filled with energy and excitement and like he has the power of a God. He doesn't like those. Enjoys the moment. Hates to forget it. Hates to know what he did during it too, even if it was for a good cause. Despises the look Koala gives him, also. Makes her promise not to tell Luffy about all of this.
But it's fine, he keeps saying. Sabo will keep trying to never forget anything ever again.
#hello i am very sad#i struggle with memory loss because of depression and shit and i thought wow yOU KNOW WHO ELSE STRUGGLES WITH MEMORY LOSS???#this post is kind of like 'guess the disorder' type of thing#it's bipolar disorder btw i just didn't get too much into it#i mean i think sabo is bipolar that's a personal headcanon of mine#which btw the only info i know about it is deep research and two years of psychology in high school#something something i wanted to know if i was bipolar bc i haven't gone to therapy in........... uh.... a while. but i highly doubt it#now i just have a lot of info#anywayyy got real dark real quickly right#sabo i love you i don't want to hurt you but you're just so angst material#one piece#revolutionary sabo#koala one piece#asl brothers#monkey d. luffy#tw mental instability#tw depression#tw medication
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❛ your hands are scarred from murder, and yet I trust them completely ❜ (Hope to Edward)
"Murder? Who told you that lass?" well it wasn't like she was wrong, it was just that he hadn't really told anyone that yet. Sure stories of pirates existed in this world, they were fairytales though, and the reality of it was far darker. And that was just the pirate side of it, the assassin side? Better to just stick to his story that he'd been a sailor. So much blood on his hands, and he wasn't sure he could say it was worth it. Still, for once he let his usual humour drop, "you shouldn't. Last person who did... well she's long gone now, they all are".
@hcpefuldreaming
#there's not a man or woman that i love left standing beside me | edward kenway#interactions | edward kenway#hcpfuldreaming#death tw#well that got sad quickly
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Obligatory Beach Episode
A beach episode that got a little sad, I'm deeply sorry about that. But it's wavewave, so. Here. Take. Shockwave is a lot sweeter here, but his mind is back in order. :)) You'll see why. :)))
"Alright, shut up, we're here." Soundwave spoke, dropping his pack in the sand. The beach was pretty peaceful, but wouldn't be for long. The waves almost looked welcoming.
Soundwave let his cassettes loose before flopping forward on the sand. The cassettes giggled madly before taking off in all directions.
"Do not go too far out to sea, I am not built to swim and I'm not about to make Soundwave be the lifeguard." Shockwave warned as he laid out a tarp on the beach to sit on. He sat as slowly and gracefully as he could manage before gently patting Soundwave's back.
Soundwave grumbled a bit as he laid there, doing his best not to inhale sand as he calmed down. He was injured, he knew that, but couldn't be bothered to patch himself up. Shockwave would probably do it himself if Soundwave didn't.
"You made an impact crater." Shockwave observed quietly as he checked Soundwave over. It was really his spoken version of checking in with Soundwave to make sure he was doing okay.
Always casual observations. That was his "I see you and I understand your emotions" action. Soundwave idly supposed it was Shockwave's way of saying "I love you" when he didn't have the bearings to do it.
Soundwave hummed in acknowledgement to the observation, almost laughing at the simplicity of the statement. Shockwave hummed back a little before starting to gently turn Soundwave over so he could patch him up.
Shockwave's hand worked swiftly and gracefully, rinsing the wound out, welding it closed, and securing a little temporary plate that was similar to bandages to the area to ensure that it would be protected and held together.
Then he let Soundwave roll back over before starting to sift through the sand for specimens to study. Soundwave watched for a moment, laying a hand on Shockwave's blaster.
Shockwave's helm fins perked up at the subtle invitation to narrate how he felt about what he was thinking of, and he excitedly seized the opportunity.
"I like the earthly oceans pretty well, actually. They are quite biodiverse. There is always something new to learn and observe, and since we don't quite need oxygen like the humans do, we can observe for longer and learn more." Shockwave spoke, his voice lulling Soundwave a bit.
Soundwave listened eagerly to Shockwave's voice, allowing it to invite him to rest after such a long war of Cybertron finally ended after such bloody battles.
Ravage trotted up and planted herself on Soundwave's back and Soundwave hummed a bit as he decompressed back into the sand.
"You're having a good time, huh?" Ravage teased. Soundwave chuckled and nodded. Ravage seemed satisfied with her host's response. "Good. You deserve to rest, Sou. That was a tough final battle."
"Are you hurt at all, Ravage?" Soundwave asked quietly.
"No, thank goodness. None of the others are hurt in a way that matters either. Rumble has a new scratch on his paint, but he's proud of it. And Frenzy has a dent, but they're very pleased with it." Ravage offered the rundown with a smile, kneading Soundwave's back.
"Oh that's good..." Soundwave murmured, going back to listening to Shockwave. Shockwave had his optic about three inches away from a clam that he held delicately between two fingers.
"What is Shockwave doing?" Ravage asked softly.
"Observing a clam. Don't be surprised if he pries it open." Soundwave supplied absently as Shockwave narrated some more.
Nothing interrupted them, and Shockwave guided Soundwave down to the water late that first night at the beach, offering a dance, which Soundwave gladly accepted.
Soundwave played music through his body, humming to it as he held onto Shockwave's shoulders and swayed with the scientist. They had nowhere to be, no one to see, nothing that took priority now. So they danced together.
Shockwave was even less graceful as he struggled to dance in the sandy, watery environment and he laughed as he fell over. Soundwave laughed as he fell with him too, gently bumping his helm to Shockwave's.
Silent "I love you"s passed between them as they interacted.
The night changed slowly into day and day into night, over and over, and it seemed more and more like a dream each passing day of bliss and rest.
Soundwave wouldn't realize for a long time that he was dead, it was more realistic than any of the dreamworld simulations he'd been put through to break them as training.
But the realization eventually came when Soundwave hiked to the mountain that was on Cybertron that didn't belong on his earthly island with all of the flora and fauna of earth on it.
The Cybertronian mountain had its own flora blending nicely with the earthly flora of the island. But it was unmistakable as Soundwave stepped onto the metallic ridge where he prayed the most.
The mountain was where some of Soundwave's dead cassettes would be buried...but they were all accounted for, even the dead ones.
Soundwave had been so tired and relieved after the war ended for him that he just accepted them back into the fold, with literally no questions asked.
They were dead. So, was he dead as well?
The gods had deemed it necessary for Soundwave to rest in his own personal paradise with all of his cassettes as illusions or actual the actual sparks of each one. Shockwave himself was also dead, he was there first actually, but knew his role in this dreamlike, happy world of Soundwave's island paradise.
Shockwave reassured him that they could leave physically any time Soundwave wanted, but this was a world curated to his needs and desires that they could come back to at any time.
Soundwave took the reassurance with a soft sigh of relief and decided it would be fine to stay there for a while longer before going out to see who he had to meet up with once more.
#the obligatory beach episode for my boys but it got sad quickly :(((#also shockwave has no business being so sweet here but i have no regrets in making him sweet to his partner :)))#wavewave#soundwave#tf soundwave#tf shockwave#shockwave#cassetticons#transformers#my writing
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#the autistic experience of coming back from your vacation and realizing you got kicked from a discord server youd just joined#and barely spoken in#and sitting there in trauma hell trying to figure out what on earth you did/said THIS time#the worst part is since im not in the server i cant obsessively comb all mymessages and study them for. bad social#like i THINK i know what i did but it seemed to resolve fairly quickly????#im so sad. i was so stoked to finally be in a server abt my spesh#everyone there was so nice and chill too and im just like waughhhh i wasn';t even abrasive like i usually am i was just chilling!!!!#lays on the ground#why cant i just be normal#why is making friends so hard!!!!!
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#its probably because i got a double dose of antidepressants but i need to vent#i'm tired of feeling tired#i don't even know concretely what i want to talk about#but the latest reblogs have been on my mind alot#i don't think the past year would have affected me as much as it had if it wasn't for the shunning and silence that#that comes with talking about microaggressions and racism in fandoms#its one thing to have a bad experience with a few people#its another when most of the people you knew just watched it happened#i know people dont believe ne#its easier to say im the 'aggressive one'#its just sad because i don't even have to be black online#im sad i feel like i have to choose#but the fandom was the first time i had so many nonblack friends at once#and i regret it so much#funny enough my dad always warns me every year about that kind of stuff#about the importance of keeping your distance from non-black folks#because of how quickly they turn on u when you're labelled difficult#he told me that again yesterday and he has no idea any of this stuff happened#that im on antidepressants now because i didn't listen to him#needless to say the second i finish my fic i don't want anything to do with p5 again#the only reason ive even continued is cause i love my story so much#i dont see the point in putting so much of my heart out in a fandom not safe for black folks#then again what fandom even is#delete later
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Yk how I say to ground myself in the reality of Byler endgame I think about stuff like the love confession becomes a sound on acting TikTok like Laurie's confession to Amy did?
Do you know what went viral for Milkvan? No, guess.
Maybe the thing your ship is known for shouldn't be "I don't love you" just a thought not great marketing for that to be the memorable one 💀
It's used for cosplayers and actors etc. in application to scenes where people ACTUALLY don't love each other like girl...if someone doesn't know about them in this show THIS will be their introduction. And if you think that doesn't happen, that's how I found Bridgerton and Little Women(2019).
There is at least SOMEBODY out there who this was the first thing they saw of Stranger Things. Volume 1 ended and what ppl took away from it wasn't "he can say ily and is waiting to" it was that he doesn't, they just went along passively with it when he did. But they were actively invested in him not so it's still more famous 💀.
But like- I'll stop but- the speed at which this was just accepted as fact and people got on their tiktoks to apply to other things like-. There's more nuance and depth to this one to play as an actor bc there's more nuance and depth internally resonating to him than the ily speech.
#like it has been over a year and his ily speech did not compensate for the amount of attention on that one#it's bc of his parents! bestie if you still have to argue that that means it was not obvious enough in the show#what was that one TikTok sound? where the boy doesnt love his gf? what is that from again?#oh yeah thats what you want people to say about your ship#we got memes about how sad will is#thats still better bc it means you want him to be HAPPY#this was SO quickly accepted as fact#byler#stranger things#anti milkvan#general audience#'the main ship the ga loves' bestie the ga gave up on them like THAT and started using their broken relationship for their acting careers#(valid)#general audience elmike
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MMU oc post! I've been wanting to make a post about him for ages :)
Fyodor Arcady
- Alek's twin brother
- his name is Fyodor, after a saint that was associated with his birthday (9th Nov) see this post for more information on that and where I got the inspiration
- in school he spells it Theodore, in the same way many people hc Aleksandr as going by Alexander
- talking of school, he attends a fancy business school in America, as his parents are divorced when they were both 10
- Aleks went with their mother, and Fyodor stayed with their father. Not that they really had a choice because their father wanted Fyodor to be the one to take over the company and so chose him
- he's going to be the heir to his father's business, even though Aleks is actually the older brother (by like 7 minutes)
- they keep that hush hush and say Fyodor's the older son
- he's fine with that, he wants to take it on and Aleks doesn't
- things are... difficult between him and Aleks
- they both come from a 'broken home' so there's already that stigma, not to mention both their parents are famous (actress and businessman) and right in the public eye
- their parents are always comparing them, like their mother will say "Fyodor, can't you be more like Aleksandr? He's got such good English manners, being in America has made you quite uncouth" while their father is all "Aleksandr, couldn't you be more like Fyodor? He's very confident and business minded, all that countryside has made you soft"
- they both miss each other so much though
- he looks more like his mother, same dark coloured hair and sharp jawline but he didn't inherit her height (Aleks got that) so short
- they both have a slight smattering of freckles though
- really sporty, good at football (ig he'd call it soccer???)
- but quite bad at maths, which of course makes him worry at a business focused school
-once cheated on a maths test so his father would be proud of him, but felt so guilt ridden he stole it back in the middle of the night and claimed the teachers must have lost it
- Fyodor is charming and a smooth talker, and has no problem lying unlike Aleks
- hates pranks, he thinks they're distracting and annoying and time consuming
- he lives with his father in a fancy penthouse flat in Boston, but never actually stays there
- his father likes to flaunt his wealth, so everything in the flat is all new to show off what the Arcady fortune can buy and it never really feels like a home
- so he mostly stays round friends in the hols
- he (and Aleks) wonder why they can't go and stay with their brother once in a while, they seem to have enough money for everything else, why not travel???
- (each parent thinks that the twins 'picked' a parent and so aren't interested in having the other twin come and stay)
- he's in love with the flat's housekeeper's daughter
- he always leaves her favourite flowers in a vase on his bedroom windowsill to let her know he's thinking about her, and writes her secret letters when he's at school
#this got sort of sad really quickly huh#he is very NEAR and DEAR to my heart#murder most unladylike#mmu#mmu ocs#alexander arcady
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