kurobachisagi 4ever happy holidays everyone 🎄🎄🎄🎁🎁🎁🌟💥

disco elysium + sunsets

Bonus:

ANDROID PRISMMMMM

You are a getaway car, a rush of blood to the head, but me, I'm just the covers on top of your bed. You steer away in a rear view mirror, make my head swim. I keep you warm and won't ask you where you've been, with your backless black dress soaked to the skin, when it's said and done, they're all scrambling and we're friends, we're friends, just because we move units. Strike us like matches 'cause everyone deserves the flames, we only do it for the scars and stories, not the fame, at least everyone is trying, everyone is shining. Everyone deserves the flames but it's such a shame, such a shame

they should have kissed here

idb where is your self preservation? WHERE IS YOUR LOVE?

maybe this is my curtains are blue moment, but its so fascinating to me that we are withheld from seeing wolfwood’s likeness again (from the moment he dies) until vash kills legato. after which, we see him multiple times in the closing act of the manga, as is . complete and all.

surely nightow drew that last panel the way he did bc it was aesthetically pleasing, easier to draw, or perhaps more relevant/emotional for the situation, but i reaally really like what it accomplishes in portraying vash’s grieving process . by remembering him through inanimate objects like his gravesite , through the punisher, or through unmentionables (constantly referring to wolfwood as He, or Him) as opposed to his own Body or Self, you feel a sense of distance and detachment . its something vash doesnt really unpack until that critical moment where he has to, as wolfwood says, make an important and complicated choice . & by that point, having honored his sacrifice and finally Answered wolfwood’s dilemma, we see ww again. in full. CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY literally so cool and awesome 2 me

the black dog makes me CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY

(damn- wanna be called a good girl too-)

Anyway scarlet witch on her knees?? Trying to kill us I can't, made me forget about my exam and go to bed with the stupidest smile like, wow

Just the image of her eyes looking up at you and how desperate she could be and djdjdkejkfkd

yeah praise kink goes crazyyyyyyyyyyy

good i made you smile!!! don't forget about ur exam tho!!! ur gonna do great!!

those big, sparkling green eyes looking up at u from beneath her lashes as she's on her knees, begging you to let her eat you out and make you feel good. powerful women on their knees <33333

I'm only active on this blog again bcz I'm supposed to be writing an essay that ive been procrastinating like CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY idk why I have to make things so difficult for myself it's not even a complicated essay I jst hav 2 write abt babylon 2022 dir Damien chazelle that's so ez wtaf but such is life I have 1/4th of it completed &I hate u assignements and I loveu making posts .. and wish I was done w this fuckng piece f shit univeritersty that I will miss forever so this is me peace sign

HOLY SHIT GUYS OH MY GOD (long post sorry)

so the awards ceremony is tonight and obviously I'm dressed up. I'm wearing a blazer that I don't normally wear, so I feel a little awkward in it.

I am also...... well endowed, let's say, so I can't button it all the way to the top, but I don't like the way it looks with none of the buttons closed, so I've been wearing it with only two buttons done, but wasn't sure if that was acceptable

In a moment of insecure boldness, I stopped by abelard's office literally just to ask if it looked ok. I said, "does this...look okay?" he stood up (I guess to evaluate my outfit better?? or to feel less awkward about me standing and him sitting???)

I then said, "like, with the two buttons? I don't think it'll..." and then I ATTEMPTED TO CLOSE THE BUTTON but it obviously wouldn't close, looked up at him and finished my sentence: "go all the way" he nodded and laughed/smiled and said, "uh huh"

Then me: "it's either two or nothing and I don't like the way it looks with none"

He said, "No yeah it looks fine"

and that was really it but OH MY GOD I cannot believe that I 1. asked his opinion on my outfit and 2. Mentioned that my jacket won't close and then SHOWED HIM how it won't close because my chest is too big 😭😭😭😭😭😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 I am so insane..........but also..... not like he wouldn't have realized that my chest is big anyway but like basically directly pointing it out to him to his face is crazyyyyyyyyyyy

BUT THERE'S MORE!!!

later I was walking in the hallway when my top button literally fell off and thankfully I caught it but I was like panicking like oh my god what if I can't fix this I'm gonna look awful

I walked past his office and he said hello, I stopped and said hi back, he asked me how it's going, I said "Good, but my button just fell off and I don't know if I can get it back on.." I stepped into his office and said, "I haven't tried to fix it yet but it looks like it just screws onto itself again." He came over to me and I handed him the button since he asked for it and without me asking or saying anything, HE STARTED TRYING TO PUT IT BACK ON FOR ME. which, very nice! but also. I WAS STILL WEARING THE JACKET and it was the button literally right on my...yknow, chest. So. He was trying to screw this button back on. While I was still wearing the jacket. HE WAS SOOOOOOO FUCKING CLOSE TO ME OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD and like he didn't touch me and was in fact trying very hard not to touch me so much so that he wasn't able to get it put back on. But like oh my god the image of looking down to my chest and his hands being there trying to screw this button back onto my jacket will be forever burned into my brain OH MY GOD IMAGINE IF SOMEOME SAW THAT?!?!?!??!?! like my back was to the door and he was sooooo close to me and right in front of me, I have no idea what that would've looked like from outside the office (his door was open) and then he told me to take my jacket off and try putting it back on that way so I did. imagine if someone saw him trying to put the button on and then saw me TAKE OFF MY JACKET ohhhhhh shit we could've gotten into soooo much trouble there lol ALSO under my blazer I'm only wearing a tank top except you can see soooooo much of my bra (mostly the straps but sometimes it slips down so you see more of my bra) so he DEFINITELY saw at least a little bit of my bra (at the very least the straps though maybe more? I didn't look to see how much was exposed but I pulled up my shirt anyway go make sure I was covered). also one of the straps fell down so I pulled it up and I *watched* his eyes look to my arm as I did that. So. 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫. anyway. this is all insane. I'm going to think about this for the rest of my life oh my god he was so close to touching me I wish he had </3 >/3 </3

oh wait i wish you could respond to my tags too but it’s really hard to make it work with the whole side blog thing but just know that i’m happy they make you happy 🫶 and i really do adore the new erebus child headcanons they’re so so lovely and cute (i’m such a sucker for a night god/goddess)

also do you have any music recs? i’m trying to branch out and listen to new things.

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of course!! (im scared of the dark but glad there's more darkness for you to enjoy 🫡🫡🫡)

MUSIC RECS FOR EVERY KINDA VIBE YOU COULD EVER WANT OKAY OKAY LETS GO

i will ALWAYS suggest noah kahan. my baby got it all, he got da upbeat (northern attitude and dial drunk), he got da angst (any other song on that album), he got da folk (any other song on that album pt ii) he got it all. trust in noah kahan and he will trust in you frfr

ummm what always gets me writing is some good ol' hozier. fan fav ig, he also got it all like my boy noah boah

can never got wrong with a little (a lot) of phoebe bridgers or boygenius, my grammy babies.

OH speaking of grammys, SZA eats every time. trust OH and while we on the rap-ish music, you gotta give my boy tyler the creator a try pls so so good

SAMIA MY BABY GIRL SHE WAS THE OPENER FOR MY NOAH KAHAN SHOW AND I CRIED LIKE A BABY BC SHE SANG A SONG THAT REMINDED ME THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE MORE SUCCESSFUL THAN MY EX, WHO CAN GO ROT

"die your daugther" and 'your mother's name' by susannah joffe are just so daughter of poseidon dying know she's not the favorite coded (whatttttt that's awfully specfic crazyyyyyyyyyyy)

solo by frank ocean is a no skip song. ever. could be dying and would let it finish playing before i call 911

AND MITSKI MY LOVE MY BABY SINCE SOPHOMORE YEAR KISSES TO MY GIRLLLLLL

okay ill stfu that'll last you a year, have fun!!

“Skinny” killed me with the line “people say i look happy just because i got skinny”

“Launch” brought me back to life before killing me again with “i just wanna get her off” I VOLUNTEER BILLIE !!!! More seriously it’s a BANGER i love it so much i was vibing hard

in “Chihiro” she sounds like her siren omg her voice is insane. I loveeee the refrain i know it’s gonna be stuck in my head for so longgggg

“Birds of a feather” makes me emotional idk why stop imma cry but the melody is so good im moving my head with tears in my eyes. And the post chorus lyrics made me loose it 🙂‍↕️

“Wildflower” is atrociously sad im not okay lmaooo “do you see her in the back of your mind in my eyes” and that’s when i died good fucking bye. Hits too close to home

“The greatest” fawkkk im not gonna say more

me crying over “the greatest” but vibing on “l’amour de ma vie” part1 when it’s two extreme opposites lmaoo. “L’amour de ma vie” part 1 is excellent tho. OOOOH PART 2 IS EVEN BETTER DEF ON MY TOP 3

“The diner” is so cool i love the melody!! Her ASMR at the end lmaooo i love that i want her to put to sleep every night

THE TRANSITION FROM PART 1 TO PART 2 ON “bittersuite” BROOOOOO I WANT IT INJECTED IN MY VEINS

STFU THE TRANSITION INTO BLUE OMHGGGGGGHGGGGGGGGGGG

without surprise “Blue” is fucking top 1 it’s so good it brings me to tears every time. I love how every songs are included in “Blue” part 1 like a little wink at every song. Part 2 is devastating but it’s just so good

“when can i hear the next one?” At the end of “Blue” is either a hint she is dropping a second album unannounced or she is shading us for wanting albums more often 😭

overall imma need a second listening, as usual but it’s EXCELLENT. Top 3 in order: Blue, Birds of a feather, Bittersuite (ask me again tomorrow and it’s gonna be completely different lmaooo)

(it looks better like that than with the ss it was stressing me out 😭)

THE TRANSITION INTO BLUE WENT CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY I LOVE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

listening to twin skeletons rn like

Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍

they keep looking at each other like this it's making me SICKKKKKKKKK i'm going CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY