drew a picture of my nine realms oc and the entire file somehow deleted before i could save it life is cruel

it’s just me and this essay by hanif abdurraqib against the world

blocked anon get off your self-righteous high horse

also my therapist said I could say kill yourself a long time ago so

( patting Raum's head ) This bad boy can fit so many traffic violations in it.

One thing I can say with almost absolute certainty is that by the time she grows up, Miri will have acquired essential life skills if they continue to allow her to participate in household chores such as doing laundry and cooking (they should get her something to stand on and child-safe knives and stuff but idk) like these activities will help her to develop autonomy and clean, healthy habits. Anyway what I’m saying is that it is so so so good to teach children independence and autonomy (within their limits obviously) so that they can take care of themselves when they grow up and don’t have to Google things like “how to do laundry” or “how to cook X” or “how to fix a toilet sink” etc. so good on the daddies for allowing her to participate in housekeeping so far.

it’s just sorta hitting me that we know like almost nothing about what the fuck majima was doing in 5 when he was supposed to be dead??? like???? he was in on katsuya/mirei’s plan and caught onto what was going on really early and whatnot but. what the hell was he DOING for all that time. he just shows up at kurosawa’s at some point with zero explanation how or under what pretext or anything. how did he fake his death in the first place? how did he get it announced on the radio and put in the news despite there being no body or anything to prove that he died?? I have so many questions about his side of the story it’s insane how much was brushed off bdhffdjdjdjsjdnd

should I sometime share the absolutely out-of-my-mind paranoid drawing I did while I was in the psych ward in October or no

i saw a post recently that was talking about how people won't stop working bad jobs like customer service just because they no longer have the threat of starvation from making no money, and that is a very true statement!

but in that same post they also said that eventually even the worst jobs people will "never wanna do" will eventually be automated, with one of the examples being roadkill pickup.

Which that didnt make sense to me in the context of the larger post, there are absolutely gonna be people who will wanna pick up roadkill. Its quite literally a hobby for some folks.

like, the statement "people are still gonna find fulfilment working "bad jobs" like house cleaning or garbage pickup" is true!

BUT saying it with the caveat of "oh the *real* bad jobs will just be automated" is unrealistic, both because how the hell are you gonna automate something like roadkill pickup?? and because i think some people underestimate just how "bad" a job can be and still be appealing to someone else

this isnt super coherent probably but it's been on my mind since reading that post because it was kinda like "huh i guess a lot of people just dont know about this sorta thing"

wataru giving me his mask(wailing and sniffling super hard

Sigh I deserve to hold someone so very close dig my fingers into their shoulders and mush my face into their Chest or Neck I deserve to Hurt Them and Make Them Uncomfortable. Siigh. I would want to be hurt, but Hrm. Vows, sort of, alongside ?? Either way, I couldn't hurt anyone and I would feel Awful if I did. I don't trust myself with that considering how I've hurt people in the past not realizing The Damage I was doing [It May Have Been In Sixth Grade But Yuck I Was Awful Terrible Bad And I Don't Have Many Memories Around That Time]

I think I'd trust others to hurt me rather than I hurt them.

Thinking about a sadistic dom telling me where to cut and jerking off to me actually doing it

Litteraly I was so happy when ppl started posting cleaning vids bcuz I saw a lot of comments saying that just. Seeing other people clean it made them feel more motivated to clean their own spaces, and I generally think that's good for ppls mental health. BUT. Was fucking horrified to see "cleaning overload" vids where they will pour GALLONS OF DIFFRENT PRODUCTS fucking anywhere they can. 1) that's wasteful. And 2) DONT FUCKING MIX CLEANING SUPPLIES

These are videos on YouTube and tiktok so like. I know a lot of kids see them and I know how kids are and they will want to hop on the trend bandwagon and try it at home and sure maybe nothing will happen but a shit load of wasted (expensive. Mind you) products, but it could get ugly very quickly, and they could make something pretty harmful.

Just put my art tablet down for a break (after 9 hours of background painting ;0;) n blorbo thoughts instantly popped up

Thinkin' bout some of the tags on one of the Eclipse asks, one of them was something like "If he had a small to worry about he might mellow out a bit" (not sure if that was the exact wording) but I'm now thinking about sometime after he eventually meets Y/N n hits it off as friends. I can imagine he might legit want to show them what he does in the agency, y'know cause he like what he does makes him happy. They both technically work there too, I'm sure there's some string he could pull to be like "Want to come watch me work for a day?" n then it's just a small day of (explosions) fun.

(Also giggling at the thought of Eclipse telling Y/N the only rule is legit to just stand behind him n you're good)

Stretch those hands!! Drink some water!! I applaud your perseverance, but now it's late!!

The ask was about a little soulmate in particular, which Y/N admittedly is not, but he'd still want them safe! He's giddy to show off, and Y/N is curious about new gadgets, so they'd definitely enjoy a little lab day!

Y/N is a little surprised to realize that they are the voice of reason in this combination, and that little rule just has them looking like :| for a moment before they double check - that's really safe? He's not gonna get hurt? Please don't get hurt - they have bad experiences with hurt animatronics - and yeah, that kind of concern would make him opt for less explosive and less dangerous experiments and demonstrations.

That's not to say they aren't explosive at all! They still make for a good show, and Y/N may come back home with just a little soot on their clothes, hair frizzed just a tad from static electricity, and Sun/Moon just immediately fret no matter what since they know just where their little rival spent their day gfhdjs

im like "I don't use showers as a trauma response I just like being clean" then take three boiling showers a day when I'm alone and Scared and say things like "do you ever wish you could unzip your skin and put it in the washing machine?"

Molly telling Lucien if he kills the Mighty Nein then their blood will be on both their hands...my heart--

im like oumas whole “i HATE liars i detest them i hope they all kill themselves (literally can’t tell the truth to save his life)” except instead of lying its hating