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rainbowvolt · 10 months

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I tried this once already but out of nowhere I got attacked by the overwhelming notion that my antics are pointless and that the world around me is crumbling and so I deleted the entire message and took some time to journal out my feelings in the classic rambling poetry style that I have perfected over the years. It didn't make me feel better nor did it provide any fresh prospective but I'm feeling better today so I came to the conclusion that if nothing matters then I'm going to go back to inviting just a little bit of chaos into the everyday lives of people I have never met just because at least im having fun that way. That being said, what the fuck is up gamer? I put on some sublime to write this one to bit now amazon music is playing beck (loser) but I actually really like that song so I'll allow it. Anyway I was on hinge the other day, because just like you I am chronically single, and unlike you I do care because being alone with my thoughts for too long drives me insane and to do shit like this for fun. So I'm swiping and I'm complimenting I mean just imagine me turning on the God damn charm, and I match with this one girl who I think is attractive and we're chatting it up and suddenly bam, no reason at all, I lose all interest. I just felt like it was pointless to even keep talking to her my heart just wasn't in it so I did, I stopped. I probably still could hit her up if I wanted but the truth is it's just a lot of work, relationships that is, and I don't think I have the time to dedicate someone that I want to be able to dedicate. It's weird. Life. Love. Happiness. I try to remind myself that happiness, at least the way that we see in happily ever after movies and books, doesn't really exist. The best you I can ever hope for is to be content. And I'm not sure if that's true or if that's pure unfiltered copium that I'm doling out to myself on a strict rationing schedule so I can make it through the throes of years long depressive episodes. I've considered therapy but whats a therapist going to tell me? Oh you're unhappy for literally no reason, just take these pills? I've done that ya know, the pills didn't make me happy they just made me numb to the world around me and incapable of emotions. Plus my job would kick me out onto the streets if I sought out help, I already got a waiver for it the one time and if I get back on them I'm afraid it'll be game over for my career. So I guess I'm kinda screwing the pooch here. It's always like that, coin tosses and horse races I guess. I just want to break free. I don't know if that'll solve it all, but I want the option to at least seek it out. I used to believe, genuinely, without an ounce of fucking irony that my depressive thoughts and feelings, and my borderline schizophrenic tendencies were genuine fucking shortcuts to creativity. I would sit there and really channel them into my poetry, but you know what? While some of that shit is undoubtedly the best I ever wrote, it wasn't because mental illness is some sort of magical potion, it's not because hurt and pain breeds greatness, it's because I was just being truthful I think, as raw and true as I could possibly be. And I've read some of it to people ya know, like my mom and a few friends, and they just say it's so good and I guess I appreciate their support but it's not good, it's bad ya know, i was trying to share a piece of me that i rarely let anyone see and I guess people just saw it as a piece without the deep emotional relationship that it has to my psyche, maybe I gotta specify like hey this is real shit. But ya know I've also been trying to breed a mental positivity, I try to tell myself good job and "hell yeah dude" for anything that could be considered an accomplishment. I wouldn't say it's the most effective but maybe it's doing a little something. This whole self awareness thing is kinda new to me, obviously, like I seriously lived the first 8 years of my life without a single thought, I remember like watching TV or having a conversation and it was just static upstairs.

Which is kinda funny actually cause now all I fucking do is think. Ugh. To be a frog. A mindless bug eating happy little frog. Those guys have got it made. Love frogs. A ray of sunshine in an otherwise dark and disappointing world. That and when people say bazinga. That shit is hilarious. Also, you have to say bazinga, that's the whole point of this. We've established a raport and now I'm cashing in pal, you gotta say bazinga, you owe me. And if you don't I'm reporting you to PepsiCo. They will bottle and carbonate your ass. You'll be sold worldwide. I wouldn't risk it just fucking say bazinga. I'm dialing them right now, doot doot doot look I've only got a few numbers left last chance bud

I, an autistic person who is currently wearing a flash t shirt, have been asked to say.. that word. Irony aside.. no. I'm not falling for your silly tricks, your insightful-incel Seinfeld style stand up routine, and so.. I turn it back on you. You have to say 'wubba lubba dub dub'. I'm exchanging all my favours, my coupons are going straight in to this uncomfortably shaped vending machine and my goodness something better come out. It's time to make good on your reputation, time to come forth and fulfil your destiny, to do what must be done; it's time to whip out a test tube or two to help Frankenstein some confidence into that ugly little lump of brain mass and say the damn words. Say. The damn. Words. Wubba lubba dub dub.

#i love this #it reads like Seinfeld but interesting instead of mildly offensive

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flyingcookierambles · 3 years

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sadness over a3! eng i guess

oof just on my 700th day.....

kinda sad because of the announcement about A3! ENG server shutting down soon due to financial difficulties at LIBER/CYBIRD in the past two years (covid-19 related, etc.). according to a rather in depth reddit comment that had links to LIBER's publicly available financial reports + some financial reports from LIBER's parent company, Aeria, in english, covid-19 really hit LIBER hard since they had to cancel many money making events, from pop-up shops for the typical anime merch trinkets (keychains, plushes, pins, etc.) to the huge in-person events (voice actor meetups, the stage plays of MANKAI LIVE, etc.). due to shrinking player base on the ENG server + major loss of profits on both JPN and ENG servers, LIBER had to choose one or the other and they chose the JPN one, which i totally understand since it's way bigger there and the JPN fanbase will continue to give the franchise money more often. also, another person found a financial report/estimate from the google play store or something, and A3! ENG only made ~$20K to ~$10K in the past few months, which i guess is not enough to keep a server and localization company afloat.

i got pretty attached to the characters and it was a great game to help get by during college. and honestly, while i am very sad about this, again, i understand why LIBER did this, looking at their financial report from 2020. I would LIBER save the entire franchise rather than shut all the servers down, making us all unable to see our favorite actors ever again, even if it means that we ENG fans will have to go thru the extra steps of finding/reading fan translations, wikis, etc., to read any further stories from where A3! ENG left off. still, A3! ENG's localization was something special. i'm saying this as a TKRB JPN player who read the wiki for all the character voice lines and then had to see the official TKRB ENG localization make Yamabushi Kunihiro a rapper for some reason? lol. it was....weird.... meanwhile, all the memes and slang in A3! ENG didn't seem out of place and all fit their personalities because 3/4 of the troupes were all high school to college age and 3 of them were ~Gamers~. Out of all the gachas i've played, i feel like the only other F2P gacha game that had this incredibly smooth, all cultural jokes/puns translated in a way that still makes sense/fits the character/doesn't require a galaxy brain and some TL note to understand, is probably dragalia lost and that's only because it has frickin Nintendo localizing/publishing it globally for CyGames. Nintendo. i'll eventually read the fan translations of A3!'s Act 3 on the wiki, but it won't be the same without Kazunari's super high-energy influencer slang of "'whoa fam! that's totes 'blammable, gotta take a pic!" or Itaru's gremlin Gamer speak of "lol get rekt noobs" or Tsuzuru's tired dying breath of "that ain't it chief." the appropriate slang and relatable meme speak of the localization really helped humanize these characters as people of their respective ages, rather than just a typical formal speak or some directly translated JPN slang -> ENG that turns out super awkward that can be found in bad localizations.

going back to the reddit comment too, the death of A3! ENG servers could have bad repercussions in the future for other joseimuke games. josei, if you for some reason have been in the anime fandom but still don't know this term, is basically the genre of stories/video games/media/etc aimed at women. it's the mature adult counterpart to seinen, media aimed at adult men. basically shoujo/shonen = elementary/middle school/high school aimed while josei/seinen = high school/college/adult aimed if that helps. Joseimuke is a part of josei that is not specifically romance. while some josei/joseimuke can overlap with otome, aka female aimed dating sims/romance media, they have many things about them that make these all separate genres. one of the official A3! ENG translators and a known fan translator of another joseimuke gacha, Mahou Yaku/Wizard’s Promise, minami, goes more in depth with this in a twitter thread.

A3! was an actor raising game, and a big part of it was found family and relationships that were platonic. yet it got advertised as an otome, which has more connotations with dating sims and brings to mind other shoujo/otome games and anime where the cast is all high schoolers and the setting is most often in a high school. but, other than some characters making flirty jokes or implied to have crushes on Izumi/player character, many character relationships with Izumi are platonic and not romantic at all. Spring Troupe in the game also jokingly calls themself a family. the entire Mankai Company is basically found family. plus, since the game actually has time passing in story and the characters age with each year, half of the characters aren’t even in high school anymore. a large majority of them are in college or are graduated by now, with only a few still in high school. i’m not surprised if a reason that some people left the game was due to feeling bored with the slice of life/not romantic story, feeling that they were lied to about it being an otome, which was falsely advertised since it is a game meant for the older teens/adults demographic of josei/joseimuke.

i’m worried that other japanese companies will look at this shut down as a “josei/joseimuke doesn’t work well in the west” and never localize other josei/joseimuke gacha games like Mahou Yaku, EnStars, Twisted Wonderland, Helios, etc.

while i like otome and shoujo, i, as a 23/soon to be 24 year old college graduate and now tax paying adult, want more stories that have more mature themes and characters that are more my age so i don’t have to feel awkward when i’m playing some dating sim and i, a literal 23 year old adult, and trying to woo a 16 year old. it’s...a little awkward to say the least. i would gladly welcome more mature media that is categorized as josei/joseimuke.

sorry if this is all over the place, but overall im just sad that A3! ENG is shutting down. i don’t know if i’ll join the JPN server yet. i’m def going to read the Act 3 story via fan translators on the wiki, but A3! gameplay was...boring lmao. as much as i love A3!, im sure that the constant event grind/burnout and boring rng gameplay turned people off too and i dont blame them. i felt the burnout bad since i participated in basically every event since day 1. it. is. rough. i’m not joining the hellish thunderdome that is the JPN server and im not ranking anymore as a F2P player lmao. literally had to play almost every waking free moment to get into the 30%-20% bracket as a F2P person and i never got to top 20%-10%, much less top 1% lmao. i’m don’t whale enough lol.

i feel like i should probably just. crack open my genki 2 textbook and uhhh totally legal pdf copy of tobira. so i can just. get the JPN version of games in the first place so i don’t have to worry about getting shafted since overseas fans are often considered expendable.

i wish that, when any games that are online end, gacha or mmo or anything, anything online, companies will let fans archive things. or like. release a book that is just the story text or something. like. CYBIRD is letting us still technically play the game and have the story and all, but what if they eventually later shut everything down? why not just release a pdf/ebook that’s just the text of the eng localization for some money? i’d buy it. for nostalgia and rereads and all and also archiving purposes. i think i’ll try to help with any english localization archive projects if i can so that the hilarious and incredible localization that was a work of love from the translation team doesn’t just disappear forever.

well.

that’s it for now. as i said, guess i’ll head to the app for one of the last times to read the last unread stories and mini stories i have left, then the wiki for Act 3, and then i guess i’ll crack open genki 2 and bunpo.....

some fun random links for you to think about!

random ffxi article that came to mind (if ffxiv ever shuts down in the next 20 years or whatever i’d be cool to get a statue of my character at the end)

and death of a game playlist by NerdSlayer Studios on Youtube that has me thinking a lot about game preservation and losing MMOs and games

the lost media wiki and blameitonjorge’s lost media iceberg

other gacha games i’ve played that have shut down that i think about sometimes because the loss of A3! ENG isn’t my first rodeo:

terra battle & terra battle 2 (1)

AFTERL!FE

(related kitsu post link for archive reasons)

#rambles #games n junk #sad over a3! eng loss #a3!

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legends-live-in-memories · 3 years

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I Have Too Many Opinions. ep. 1

lmao. i got encouragement to post my opinions on fandom things and now i want to make a miniseries doing just that. so here i am. doing just that.

im putting it under the cut cuz this was 4 whole pages including the disclaimer. yes i put a disclaimer and i explain why.

Anyways, here is the first piece in what inevitably will become fandom info dump, this time on thomas astruc’s writing on miraculous ladybug. but only some of my opinions cuz we would be here all day otherwise.

So… a disclaimer before I begin…

I do not hate Miraculous: Tales of Ladybug and Chat Noir (yes i'm using their government name). I am quite a fan of the show actually despite its faults. I am also older than the intended audience but was obviously younger when the show first aired which is how my interest was piqued (the fact that its been 6 years and only 3 seasons says more about the show than me being a fan for that amount of time but also i never want to rush content creators cuz they're doing their best) and due to my age, there will be inherent bias in my approach of what i'm about to say as there is in EVERY opinion. The fact that it is an opinion should imply the presence of bias but most people tend to lack the critical thinking skills required to draw that conclusion ANYWAYS…

If I did hate the show I would not have this blog nor would I be even writing this because i tend to not give more than 2 seconds of thought to things i actively dislike (some of yall should give this a try) and i'm allowed to like things that are designed for an audience that i was originally a part of but grew out of. (I don't suddenly stop liking things because I'm older despite what many younger fans seem to believe about older audiences. I also don't need to be ‘allowed’ to do anything cuz i wasn't asking for permission anyways.)

This will not be character bashing, astruc bashing nor fandom bashing cuz, again, that would imply i hate any of those elements and if i did, i would not dedicate brainpower to them. Analyses and criticisms of media are fun and engaging and required if you wish to produce good enjoyable content. Now most of this should be already assumed and self-explanatory but people on the internet like to play morality roulette roll dice on purity culture and I rather have documentation that I am in fact not bullying fictional 14 year olds or a grown man. But alas, people get trigger happy whenever someone has less than 1000000% positive opinions on something they like and will throw out words they can't define (gaslight, baiting, toxic, problematic, gatekeep etc) in an attempt to defend their blind devotion,

which is not needed, if you like something you never have to defend it, even if i don't like it. If you respond to anything I post saying you disagree with me, I will not argue with you. I won't debate back and forth and try to convince you that the things you like are wrong. Unless you are being absolutely tone deaf to what i'm saying, you wont get a negative reaction from me. So don't try to fish for a fight. Please. I got metaphorical hands for days and I'm mean, you don't want me hurting your feelings on the internet. Do yourself the favour. Difference of opinion is how we get diversification in media and is inherently a good thing. Now that that's out of the way, please don't ever let me have to say that again. I beg.

Now onto the fun stuff

I didn't know what I wanted as a first topic so my trusty internet friend @moonlitceleste suggested astruc’s writing…

AND BOI do i got some opinions on ole tommy boi. Again I don't hate the dude. In fact, he has worked on a few shows that had defined my childhood, including but not limited to W.I.T.C.H. (all eps available on youtube for those interested, 2 seasons, general fun time all around).

So I don't think he’s scum of the earth but I do think his approach to writing mlb specifically has more misses than hits.

The first big miss is that he has no idea how to write 14 year old girls. At all. Almost every girl he has ever written feels like some terrible archetype built entirely for marketability and childish projection and pubescent self-insert (kind of). He has never been a 14 year old girl. I have. In fact when the show first aired, I WAS around the (assumed) age of the mlb characters. The behaviour he passes off as quirky or awkward or just the character’s genuine personality tend to perpetuate harmful stereotypes of teen girls found in the media and are never actually addressed as harmful. they just get swept under the rug. Marinette’s exuberant collage of teen heart throb model boi Adrien Agreste and her very painful almost fan worship she has of him (which flip flops like a paper sandal in the rain) being portrayed as a cute school girl crush uwu, Chloe being the y7 Regina George, Alya being the token best friend of colour with her ‘sassy’ personality (i want y'all to imagine me eyerolling so hard i bust a vessel in my eye), Kagami being the very damaging Perfect Asian Child stereotype. And before y'all get on your dusty soap box and defend going on about “BUT IT'S FOR CHILDREN”,,,, know this.

i don’t give a solid fuck.

Not one.

Children arent stupid. Children are always going to remember the richy bitchy blonde who bullies the art kid, and the big kid, and the shy kid, and the non white kids, and was only nice to her equally rich white friend who she probably had a crush on or was only ever civil to her equally white lapdog. They're going to remember the half asian girl who was never allowed to actually be asian or the only black girl who existed solely as a soundboard for enabling bad habits or chastising the main character for the same habits she enables in the first place (boi aint THAT a topic for later). Like do i really need to explain that alya chastising marinette for taking max’s spot in gamer just to play with adrien rings absolutely hollow when she actively encourages her to sabotage the contest she’s in just so Kagami doesn't win?? Like I don't have to explain that right?? Again kids arent stupid and its quite something that Mari gets chastised for proving herself the best video game player regardless of her intentions just cuz it comes at the expense of max’s feelings/ego but is actively encouraged to sabotage not only kagami but herself by extension cuz kagami is ‘competition.’ Adrien is not a trophy to be won. And no I don't expect 14 yrs old to be perfect and to always make good decisions but these decisions are never addressed as being bad decisions. they get swept under the rug cuz those decisions were necessary for the ‘plot’ but astruc can barely keep characterization consistent and his characters suffer for it and it's the same children you preach are watching it that suffer as well. Cuz guess what? I KNOW 14 yr olds aren't like that cuz i've been there done that (this is the last time i'm saying that i promise) so I know astruc is just metaphorically throwing darts to figure out who says and does what without consideration for pre established personalities to drive the stalemate plot along. The same kids you say are watching this don't know that that's not how preteens work and will absorb and internalize those dynamics like baking soda and vinegar. Cata-fucking-strophically.

And I haven't even gotten to the boys yet. Which honestly doesn't require much explanation anyways cuz they suffer the same fate as the girls. Tired archetypes with nothing to give them life. Nino falls into Adrien’s person of colour token best friend who dates the female lead’s person of colour token best friend so they can have cute double dates uwu. Except the plot goes nowhere and we have no inclination of romantic development beyond moments that only act to actively convince me to anti ship the lovesquare (i don't want to do that so i self indulge in fanon that actually cares about the characters and plot. may i interest you in True Sight on AO3?). Max is the residential nerd but it doesn't matter (cuz he and everyone are dumbed down for the sake of ‘plot’), kim is the sports jock (which interestingly subverts the asian comedic relief stereotype but only barely) and luka is cute older guy ™ that wears black nail polish and is in a band. The point of all this is to say there is no depth in the characters. It's especially blatantly obvious with the characters astruc doesn't like (chloe). Again, it being a show for kids is not an excuse to be absolved of putting effort into the characters you make.

This is one of the biggest misses astruc has. I haven't even gone into all the nuances of this particular miss. And i havent gone into how that works against him in the plot either. Mostly because the plot itself hasn't gone anywhere and partially because I wanted to go into the plot (or lack thereof) separately as its own miss.

AND BOI is it a miss.

SO home boy astruc wanted to reap the benefits of a serial show with ‘engaging’ plot without putting in any of the work to make a linear storyline and relying on the episodic format for, again, marketability. You can't have the best of both worlds, you are not Avatar: The Last Airbender. Which btw has a lot less episodes and a desired end goal that didn't involve top dollar. Legend of Korra did but that's not the point and it had its failings with that too. I challenge you, tell me how many episodes actually contribute towards a plot point or introduce new thematic elements to the show? Can you name them? I can and I'm going to include the plot points that moved the story in some direction if only temporarily. Yes only temporarily for some of these and i will explain later. (if you're in the server you already saw this list *wink*)

25/26. Origins- self explanatory, the beginning of the story,

24. Volpina- introduction of the grimoire and Master Fu (kind of) and no, Lila is not a plot point,

28. The Collector- proper introduction of Master Fu,

37. Sapotis- introduction of Rena Rouge,

41. Syren- introduction of new aquatic power ups,

44. Anansi- introduction of Carapace,

47. Frozer- introduction of new ice power ups,

48/49. Style Queen- introduction of Queen Bee,

51/52. Heroes’ Day- introduction of Mayura and mass akumatization,

66. Startrain- introduction of Pegasus,

67. Kwami Buster- Marinette wears multiple miraculouses,

68. Feast- backstory as to how the miraculouses were lost,

69. Ikari Gozen- introduction of Ryuko,

70. Timetagger- introduction of Bunnyx,

71. Party Crasher- introduction of Roi Singe and Viperion,

73. Chat Blanc- alternate timeline that essentially means nothing but got a reaction out of fans anyways (myself included)

77/78. Love Eater/Battle of Miraculous- Marinette becomes guardian and other heroes lose their miraculous,

New York Special- other heroes exist and there is an American miraculous box,

That's 21 episodes. 21 out of a heaping 78 plus 2 specials. Everything else was just your typical akuma of the day episode and everything that happened outside that had no lasting consequences on the plot thanks to the miraculous status quo. Was it entertaining to watch Lila stir the plot of the class dynamic? Hell yeah. Too bad it meant nothing by the end of the episode cuz we were struck with miraculous status quo. She literally doesn't appear again until Heroes Day. that is from episodes 25 all the way to 51, she means nothing and yet she is treated with the severity of a b-villain/rival thing. She means nothing by the end of Volpina if I'm being honest. She is only relevant for 20 mins of episode time she’s in then it's back to magic status quo that undoes any shift in dynamics and relationships. It's like Spongebob who can't get his driver’s license. The worst part is I actually like Lila and I wish the story treated her with the seriousness we as an audience are expected to treat her with. Despite being painfully inconsequential by the end of each of the 3?? 4?? episodes she’s in, it's entertaining to watch a character create drama just because.

Too bad it means nothing.

Astruc is constantly building up suspense to something ‘important’ only for it to not deliver and fans are constantly having the rug pulled out from under us. Oblivio teased us with a reveal only that gets undone cuz memory akuma. Chat Blanc teased us with romantic development but that gets undone cuz time travel bullshit. Feast introduced more miraculous lore and the history of the guardians but that means nothing by the next episode or ever (i'm not including any reference to the season 4 trailer cuz i've been around the block a few times and im familiar with this lil dancy dance). Heroes Day teased us with a possible future team of heroes but that gets undone in Battle of Miraculous cuz ????? why?? (here's why; astruc was having a jolly ole time letting us know how irredeemable Chloe is at the expense of shooting his own stagnant plot in the foot. Again, discussion for later.)

Too bad anything that slightly swerves off course from the akuma of the day gets undone or ignored. Too bad nothing has any lasting consequence. I mean, if anything did, the episodes would have had a consistent order and release schedule so im not scrambling to watch the leaked ep in Portuguese or something while the french dub is two episodes behind while the english version hasnt even been dubbed. I really wonder how he plans to conclude the show when he’s so afraid to step out of the corner he painted himself in.

Again, not going into nuances. If you want you can ask for more specifics (i doubt anyone would) but this is really just a slightly detailed general overview of my opinions on astruc’s writing.

I was going to include another miss in his approach to this show but imma save that for another time.

How’s that for a ‘first’ post?

#mlb #opinions my guy opinions #i dont wanna tag this as salt #but mlb criticisms and analyses #IHTMO #the hashtag for this series #thomas astruc #miraculous fandom #miraculous ladybug #miraculous: tales of ladybug and cat noir #yes the government name again #come get yall juice #miraculous

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zugzwangz · 4 years

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7-16-2020

I haven’t been here for a minute and that’s not how it should be. This blog started out as a semi daily journal. The problem with that is that people (including myself) only tend to journal when things are bad. That’s when we talk about our insecurities and our fears and shit. It's because we are uncertain of what's next and sharing how we feel is a good coping mechanism.

Before we go on let me say that this is not gonna be a depression post. Everything is fine, everyone is well and I’m VERY crossed.

I mean it hasn’t all been peaches and cream, the start of this year really put me in a situation I’ve never been in before. I’m sure ya’ll can relate. I was stripped of all the fat in my personality and I was just left with myself. Unfortunately I didn’t like myself at the time so for a while there I was a drag.

In California the start of the madness happened in the middle of March and we didn’t go full lockdown till the beginning of April. I still had a job at this point and I wasn’t afraid. I was never alone really. I had friends around me 24/7 and frequent female company. Things were ok. But then you know April comes around and not even one week in, I begin to lose it a lil bit.

For one the girl I was seeing at the time was crazy immature and excommunicated me out of the group I established. Which was super weird because we didn't even sleep together or really date that long, so she really had no justification to play the victim of any kind. But yeah anyway this sucked because no I was just alone with no one to talk too really.

THEN my funding got cut for both my job and my research project, so I was left with no work or nothing to preoccupy my time and personality with. So now I’m in the red both socially and financially.

Right around this one beacon of light hit me, and she was really alright. She was naturally pretty and a straight bro. Honestly she was this very strange mixture of hick, leftist, and gamer. It was really entertaining. She was very intelligent and called me out so many times. We had good conversations. But she was forsure not over her Ex and I was not myself while around her which eventually pushed her away. Which is a nonchalant way to say she blocked me outta nowhere. Did I deserve it ? Idk really. I was being weird forsure. Boundaries between the two of us were not set properly and she saw me at my lowest. And my guy you don’t wanna see that. Like I get why she left. Her story Arch was tiny. But I’ll always remember her as that tiny girl I met during Covid.

So after losing my job, my research project, my friends, the girl, and then also my hair (don’t ask). I was honestly in the strangest zone in my life. I spent so many days in bed. Forcing my eyes to stay closed to make the day move faster. I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror because I didn’t like the person looking back and dude I couldn’t afford the things I had grown accustomed to.

You can’t do that forever though. Like you can’t just live in this state of self pity. I mean I can’t. And I didn’t.

So post the girl leaving, we had Four new roommates move in one ima air out right now and the other who I misjudged. Actually I misjudged both. Shocker right? Byrice, Pavel, Ted, and Uncle. When I met Pavel he was this stinky dude with like no possessions on him. He was constantly buying weed from me and to put it simply he was a mess. Then there was that fuck head white entitled motherfucker Byrice. OMG he was the worst person. The dude was ripped out of his mind but he was a sociopath, he was such a strange dude. He was super disrespectful and only stayed around for a month. So right after he left we got Ted. Ted is great. He is this older dude but he has had the worst life. He is trying to make it in the weed world and that's about as much as I can tell you.

So, right after Ted moved in Pavel began to restructure his life and began to talk to me as a friend and mentor. I learned how similar we were and honestly he is like a brother now. He is the funniest dude. We put structure into each other’s lives while talking through all our issues. Everyday we told each other 3 things we wanted to accomplish in the day. No matter how simple it was. Overtime the goals got more ambitious. And by June I was me again. Covid actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I’m playing Door Dash. Playing the UI system, all the while getting ready to apply for the big tech job that will change things entirely in January.

So Finally we get to the most current chapter in my life; Uncle. Uncle is not my real Uncle. He is Pavel’s Half brother. And the Dude is fucking wild man. In fact we are gonna need another PH just to talk about it.

So Uncle is this Active military Assassin dude who is like IRL Extraction. He goes to different countries on some black ops shit and kills whatever threat the government assigns him too. He came into our lives because he was brought down by the only power in this world that can dismantle a man of his almost fictional status. No not al qaeda. No not PTSD. Divorce LMAO.

He came to our place about a week ago. I can’t accurately write about him because of how ridiculously wild this dude is. I’ve never encountered anyone this powerful and well connected since my oneitus’s dad. I think I’m going to stop here because i want more drink and need to finish some more work before we hit midnight. Anyway things are ok. Im 24 now. I’m dating again. I have a plan and structure. I have excellent role models and the future is so bright I need sunglasses my dude.

NO PROOF READING ONE TAKE DRAKE.

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imadeletingmysocials · 6 years

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My scores for E3, because apparently now i’m a dumb 4channer who thinks this /v/ meme shit matters, like it’s not gonna affect sales or anything it’s pointless as all hell [this is lenghy, but hear me out ok]

EA:

4/10 - people will probably play the games regardless of how shitty this presentation was but... It felt pretty insulting.

Battlefield V is probably gonna make a lot of money regardless cuz people like war games and it seems pretty well done, the more footage they have shown seemed better than their weird advertizement that made world war 2 seem very wacky, which honestly regardless if you’re a sexist neckbeard or not, seemed like a poor advertizement move.

TinyBuild:

No one watched this lol and it was just 1 GAME and a fun cute musical that made people who aren’t strong enough to musicals die, 6/10 because it made nerds die and their song is catchy, i dont really care about their 1 game.

Microsoft:

9/10 - I'm giving this much of a high score because I would play practically almost all of these games showcased (they’ll probably be available on PC which I’m biased for cuz I have a gaming PC), no kidding, I pretty much liked everything I saw and it was fairly straight to the point. Many gamers don’t appreciate the finer details of each game and think they’re generic but that’s just fanboys who haven’t played a single game outside of their favorites.

Also my cousin uses those Xbox One netflix rip offs that gives you games so i’m happy for him. The presentation had a lot of diamonds in the rough games that will I will probably appreciate more over time (they might even become cult classics like Metro or Dying Light) than any of other games at other e3s. As for the stuff I won’t be playing: It’s mostly harmless so eh.

There was an abundance of trailers! It was like one after the other, pure goodness, it seems as if they left out all of the Sports games to EA to present and the only thing they showed that might not be anyone’s cup of tea was “Forza”, but honestly? I appreciate it, it seems like a good racing game even if I’m not one to buy racing games.... But the more you think about the number of good games presented, the less you’ll think about that, I mean they showed DEVIL MAY CRY 5!!!

...The Funko Pop game made me scream though.

Bethesda:

8.5/10 I cannot deny that these are games I will want to play regardless if they’re good or not. Sad to see nerds not enjoy the opportunity to meet ANDREW W.K. but I’m glad all of the divisions they own are making sequels to stuff I already like, so pretty much Bethesda played it safe.

Devolver Digital:

8/10 It’s like that one b-movie film your college students made and you had a laugh with creating.

Square Enix:

5/10 seriously, 30 minues of just trailers? Most of which we saw?? I guess it could be worse but who uses E3 screentime for mostly MMORPG deals! The new stuff was too vague to be excited about too.

Ubisoft:

7/10 - I liked it when they made funny quirky things and their games are probably gonna be okay like usual, Ubisoft has dedicated fans that like their collectathon games they release every year, and it’s usually that one game you play when you’re bored and got nothing else, it’s okay.

Gamers hate fun and dancing and all that stuff but I kind of find stuff like that exciting, while nerds who never went outside and who are sensitive as all hell to any representation of fun find it “cringey”. A panda dabbed, and that settles it, Ubisoft was the only E3 Brave enough to dab this year.

PC Game Conference (it was fairly long):

I know none of you watch this one cuz y’all fake as hell but listen... Fuck you LOL, these are the type of games people actually play over 400 hours and really get people’s money. Like these are games built to last that might be on the best-selling Steam front page for MONTHS, like how Frostpunk was comfirmed last year during this conference, PC Gaming has been known for sleeper hits that nobody knows about (because the attention goes to cinematic experiences on consoles most of the time) but suddently everyone’s playing it.

PC gaming has always been an alternative lifestyle and seeing as many people didn’t watch this one, that just proves the point that it still relatively alternative. Maybe it’s because everyone sounds dumb as fuck when saying “PC GAMER MASTER RACE” and acting like an elitist.

The PC Gaming conference is always more of a talk show than a regular E3 which is why I respect it every year, fuck the hyperactive gamers that just wanna see flashy trailers, this one’s more SOPHISTICATED!! It feels a lot more human and less artificial. Either way, lot’s of what you might’ve expected: Simulators and Survival games you’ll probably spend 3 years playing until they make a better minecraft clone.

Gamers like to act as if they’re tired of Battle Royale (already? It’s a new fad it still is here to stay for a little more) but the numbers and success of it doesn’t lie that it isn’t a fad that proves itself to be highly tempting to try out for developers. Go cry to valve that they didn’t release Half-Life 3 cuz you haven’t played any other FPS game without even researching that Valve pretty much fired all of it’s developers and you’re just being annoying.

I feel as if I need to comment what I saw at this e3 cuz nobody watched, they made a mod I liked from skyrim into a fully-ass game, they’re rebooting Star Control which not a single gamer today knows of, the HP Lovecraft open world detective game also seems very good. YAKUZA IS COMING TO PC!!!!!!!!! Killing Floor 2 stuff, Road Redemption stuff, SHARK RPG, cute indie games, Jeff Goldblum was there, Wall-E with a gun in VR which seems to have promissing good vr design by Insomiac games (yes the spyro people), 2 games about Taxi driving... Like sure I think it’s a good format for story telling but.

A cell-shaded art game, star citizen is still being made, and it’s gone to the point nobody really wants it anymore even if it’s... Still being made you know? So most guys are wrong that it was gonna be canceled. After that was the technical graphic card stuff which gamers don’t have enough capability to understand, stuff like 9k laptops that SELL a lot mind you. Rich people love that technical stuff.

A space defense sim game, Don’t Starve Sequel, Just Cause 4 detailed explanation of the engine, Overkill’s The Walking Dead gameplay which has been in development hell for years now now has a release date, I discovered Clementine’s voice actor is white... Go figure, a literal pixelated roguelike (not what you think it is, it’s Noita),

Theme Hospital REBOOT!!!! YES!!!!!!!!! And the doctors were cute. Probably one of the funniest games presented... Followed by REALM ROYALE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. That harvest moon clone with a cute art style is still being made: Ooblets, no release date sadly. Anno is still going, cyanide and happiness still exists? and they’re making a battle royale? lol okay. How was Hitman 2 not announced during Square Enix?? Anyways it’s here at the end, the trailer was amazing and it’s coming out this year.

I don’t have that much strong feelings because it’s just a normal conference and not a special one you know? But I’ll give it a 8/10 or 7/10 im not sure cuz I seem to like most games and I found Frankie cute.

Sony:

Yo usually Sony makes like a huuuuuuuge thing about their conferences (like this year they didn’t even showcase indie games) but this year they started from a church for the sake of immersion?? It reminded me a little of their first E3s during the 90s, and it almost felt like a indie gathering for musicians, I swear to god, Sony is borderline experimental trying to balance out their E3 across stages. Jeb played the banjo and people just ACCEPTED it... AND THEN someone played some JAPANESE FLUTE? aRT. It might come off as a bit arrogant for some tho.

Nerds hated it and thought it was bizzare, which is why it means it’s good. HAPPY PRIDE MONTH BITCHES. Anyways could have been a little more fast-paced... But then again when it was fast-paced it was just like: Huh? What was that? I’m a big Resident Evil Fangirl, RE2 was my childhood but ignoring that for a sec: finally, Death Stranding gameplay, remins me of shadow of the colossus but post-apocalpytic, survival horrorish and abstract sci-fi.

Kind of feels more Metal Gear than MGSV did already Cuz Norman Reedus sounds like snake a lot more than the 24 hours guy, and because from what I’ve seen in the footage, someone acts like Otacon to “Sam”. I think most now can figure out the plotpoints of this game with what has been established. I might be a bit sad at the fact that this will be a PS4 exclusive just like Metal Gear Solid 4, which I still haven’t played fully because it’s PS3 exclusive and I only have a gaming PC.

Also this E3 was surprisingly entirely SINGLE PLAYER, I sorta don’t believe in the “single player doesn’t exist” myth honestly, especially now. I’m not sure if that makes Sony’s E3 better or worse, maybe it needed more variation, like I’ve commented, usually they have an indie showcase which this year did not. There were few games shown but for what it was worth, it’s still interesting... But yeah just 5 games? No Spyro? (easy picking), nothing extra? I can understand why many people felt this E3 was upsetting.

8/10.

Nintendo

Here it is, the most overhyped developer of all of E3, the source of “Nintendo wins E3 by doing nothing” memes because Nintendo fans really don’t care about anything except Nintendo and then act surprised when they only care about Nintendo when they try to be a little more open-minded (and fail) even if other E3s probably make more games built to last in comparisson, cuz we gay people only care about NINTENDO YOU KNOW? Shade asside...

I was pleasantly surprised this E3, it wasn’t just a series of okay at best releases, a strong 9/10.

tHAT WAS WHAT I WROTE IN PREPRATION....

BUT THEN???? IT WAS JUST THAT??? NO PRIME 4 NO ANYTHING LIKE JUST 3 GAMES BASICALLY? (maybe there was 5 games but eh) I mean smash is good.. It’s pretty much just an update of the last smash, every character is REALLY FUCKING GOOD BUT.... JUST THAT? jeez.. Like, the only stuff I wanted from it was Mario Party and Smash... Okay maybe that 1 Mecha game. Also I guess fornite is now on Switch but I can play that anywhere else really.

I guess a 7/10 is all I can give to just Smash, if there was a little more I’d give it a 9/10 for sure but... ehh Just Smash? jeez, fuck... i MEAN I kind of get it, Nintendo doesn’t do “e3″ normally, they usually do 1 big game at E3 and then wait a couple of months to do that little seasonal announcement thing they do across the year, ugh.. Okay. Yeah I guess i shouldn’t have expected much. Still isn’t it weird that Miyamoto was in Ubisoft’s E3 but not this one??? what!

Anyways

#e3 #i'll post that image at the end individually #long post #Sony #Nintendo #Bethesda #Microsoft

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survivorsentinelislands · 7 years

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EPISODE 1: I REALLY REALLY HATE BEING MEAN, BUT... ~Daisy

Me, before the cast reveal: I'm going to win, know that

Me now, seeing Sam is here: She's going to kill me again

This One World twist is fairly interesting at the start. I know Nehe, and Coffey was in my first Tumblr game, so there are people I am familiar with here. Those small bonds can help a lot in this game.

But holy hell is this snake annoying. I have a decently high reaction time. The game does not react fast enough for what I want to do with it. I only ever hit the wall despite knowing I pressed up way before it hit the wall. That's my luck though, isn't it? You also only get +1 when the wheel stops which is just a pain in everyone's asses.

I'm making a mental note to make a lot of confessionals, going for that 5 visibility baby!

Walking out onto this beach I am ready to experience a game i expect to be amazing. The last time I played a org I think I was a little too open. I shared more than I needed and I made people feel like it was my way or the high way. This time around it's new people. I have to play the social game but laying low at the same time. This first challenge points out the comp beasts from those who will most likely lack in challenges. When it comes to flash games I suck but I don't need a bad first impression off the bat. Tonight I'll talk to everyone before tribes are established and just try to be a good sport and make people like Nehemiah and want to work with him.

First confessional of the season!

So, we're placed in a One World chat. Now i've never played a One World survivor org before so I'm not sure if we're going to stay in here the whole game or until we officially get split into tribes. I hope it's not One World the whole game, I have enough trouble keeping up with one tribe let alone the whole game.

After reading through all the bios of the other contestants it dawned on me that I'm the oldest player in the game. Yes, at 22 years of age I am the oldest person in the game (maybe, three of us are 22 but still). Only four people in the whole game are above 20 years of age. Oldies alliance maybe? We shall see. There's even someone who's only 13 years old! Yikes, almost 10 years younger than me! (Also STEVEN, you took my Mari avatar, darn you.)

DAISY and DARIAN are so far the only two people I've had actual conversations with. They're both pretty nice.

And then we get to NEHE. I know NEHE from a previous ORG and while we did work together there, I don't know if I want to work with him here. He has a penchant for making things unpredictable and crazy and I just don't know if I want to deal with that again. Ideally, he would be placed on the other tribe. And ideally he would be voted out before the merge or a swap. It would just be easier on me that way.

Going into this game, I want to play a flashier more strategic heavy game than I did in my first org, Myanmar. I want to make big moves and if I can, play the role of the villain. To quote the infamous Abi-Maria Gomes "Villains have more fun"

Salty

HIYA XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Its josh and here i am for my first confessional im gonna try to do a lot better with confessionals then i did my first game LOL anyways i haven't talked a whole lot this season cause im lowkey waiting til we get on tribes but thats tht also i like cats KK BYE XXXXXXXXXX

I *CLAP EMOJI* AM *CLAP EMOJI* COMING *CLAP EMOJI* FOR *CLAP EMOJI* DARIAN *CLAP EMOJI* FUCKING *CLAP EMOJI* GOGGIN.

WATCH YOUR BACK, YOU SNAKE BITCH. CALL ME A FAILURE? I'LL MAKE YOU A FLOP.

Hello! I don't remember if I have made a confessional for this game yet. I am happy about this game because I know quite a few members of the cast! I just hope that I can make it to the same tribe as some of them lol. Also I am not a fan of snake...

1 Word to describe this tribe: Ugly

Number of people you actually like on this tribe: 1

Number of people who still haven't added you back: 2

Number of people you like on the other tribe: literally all of them

On a scale of 1-10, how much would you rather be on the other tribe? 12

I hate this tribe and now I hate this game and we better just win a bunch of immunities so I don't have to actually socialize.

Last night I did what I could with bonding (or more so having communications with people). Coming into the game I knew Keegan, Steven and Alex already prior. Those 3 were the obvious instant connections I needed to reach out to. Others I talked to happen to be Josh, Sara, Logan, Darrian and John. Oh how I love John and Logan. I get vibes and good ones from them that I want to build off of. Possibly an alliance who knows. One thing I learned from my first Org is to not play so hard. I got into huge trouble with my tribe mates that I wasn't aware of because I was egotistical and controlling. This game I want to be used and useful. I am now Nicobar tribe and I want to show them that I'm useful. I'm still gonna talk to my entire tribe and make them like me. If we loose a challenge I don't want them feeling like we got to get rid of Nehe. I want to be useful. Not gonna help so much in this upcoming reward challenge just for the fact that trying to control what our flag looks like will put a bad target on me. I gave my ideas and we'll see what happens.

My Tribe Opinions:

Alex: I played a Skype game with Alex before and tbqh I don't remember shit from it. Just that I went farther than him. I think it was the Challenge. I like him but I can feel he's a player and I want to get on the good side of that player before lines become drawn.

Daisy: I didn't get the chance to speak with Ms. Daisy on night one but day 2 we hit it off. Maybe not the most beneficial conversation but I gotta find something to commute with her on. I like her and she doesn't give me the gamer vibe but the social vibe. So socializing with her may be good for me.

John- UGH I love John. Like literally anyone else to be an ally with can go through a test of some sort cause I want John and I want John now. Something about him just screams yes to me. So I'm gonna work for an alliance with that guy.

Josh- The convo with Josh didn't pick up much last night but we can chat and further that up. I don't know how I feel about Josh. Maybe alliance maybe not. I can myself voting out Josh.

Logan- Love Logan too. Logan seems to be a player but one I can align with. I just have to watch how I act to people like that. Thats where I get myself in trouble. Im a player at heart and when I meet another player I like let my ideas spew out and they hold it against me. Cue my blindside in my first org.

Sara- Our convo as of now is Hi, Hi......Yeah not seeing myself building anything with her. But not gonna stop. Why give someone a reason to vote me off.

Stevie- Just started like JUST started talking to Stevie and I am in love. We have the same interests and like our conversations is heating up with how much we are alike. I think this conversations speaks for itself in which we will align.

Steven- I knew Steven from many Skype games. Like many Skype games. We have this joke where when we see each other we scream each others names. I don't want o necessarily work with him cause I know he's a player but like it;s nice to know I have someone who i could possibly manipulate.

All in All I like my tribe and we'll see how we fit in challenges. Till then I will talk to my baes. Josh, Logan and Stevie.

I did the challenge late last night and sent in a random time. I didn't know that these people would have been that bad at snake for me to come in second place after only playing it maybe ten times. Wowzers.

But I got this cute little statue that's being referred to as Sentinelese Blood Oath, or I'll just call it my ticket back into this game, which is what it does. I know the other person from the opposing tribe has this too, so this is just a bit of information that is pretty fun to have. I can rejoin the game if I beat someone in a challenge and judging by how snake went I'm feeling pretty confident. My hope is to not have to use it. While it's great to get back in the game, my game gets severely tarnished by having to return after being voted out. So my hope is not have to use it, but it's nice to have this sort of back up, where if things go wrong I can go right back into the game and try to screw someone over.

This challenge is a ton of fun too. I love graphic designing, and I've made a pretty bomb ass flag for my team. I've gotten on their good side, which is fantastic. If we win it's even better. In my life I either want to be a music teacher, an ESL, or a graphic designer. (YouTube is on the backburner until I can get some video editing program). That being said, it's nice to know that things I do for fun can help out in this game.

For alliances, I'm becoming fond of Nehe and Coffey. Josh is a fun addition too. Those three are probably the ones I'm most comfortable with, but it's too early to start things in my opinion. It'll form eventually, just not right away.

We're officially split into tribes! No more One World! I'm so happy for that, I can finally keep up with who's all around me. As far as first impressions go, I haven't really talked a whole lot with everyone but:

SAM: She's pretty awesome. We're similar in age, she's a graduate student and I just finished undergrad. Plus she seems pretty into the game which is a good thing. I'd definitely consider an alliance with her

DARIAN: He's okay. We've talked a bit but it hasn't gone anywhere. I don't dislike him. He's also been pretty helpful with the first challenge.

BRANDON: No thanks. Awkward "conversations" and I feel like we have nothing in common.

CARSON: tbh i don't see myself ever working with him. Unless it's a necessity.

ELENA: She hasn't even accepted my friend request so...

NED: Seems pretty cool, I'll have to talk to him more to get a better impression

ELIJAH: He likes togepi.

MATT: I gotta get talking to him more, I think we'll get along really well.

I think that's everyone. Not a whole lot to say actually. I guess it's only been a day since the game began and a few hours since we were divided into tribes. I'm interested to see how these people play when it comes down to tribal time.

I'm iconic so stfu

Ashley told me not to put my last name. So I won't.

I really like this tribe. I've got some people I LOVE and some that I can build new connections with! And our tribe flag is awesome!!! I hope this goes well!

Alright let me set something straight. I do graphic designing as a hobby. It's my favorite freaking thing to do in this world next to playing survivor ORGs like it's my life.

Benjamin, I'm surprised you and your horrid opinions got 5th place in this series. Who are you to give the flag I made a four in Effort, where you give the other tribe a seven? What the actual fuck? I put a texture. I put different handwriting. I overlaid those fucking candles AND added a border around them so they'd be layered and look pretty as FUCK.

Those Elephants were the cutest thing in existence. I made that cute design of the lines by myself. Let's be real, aside from picking the fonts I made the entire flag. And for you to give it an effort of four, a creativity of five, and a six for visual appeal is absurd. You my friend are now on my shit list for the remainder of this game.

Also, "Sorry guys but it’s a little sad." Who the fuck are you? "However, it looks just like the buff with little to no change" shall I direct you to:

http://wwwimage.cbsstatic.com/base/files/styles/596xh/public/101917_d01507.jpg and http://vignette4.wikia.nocookie.net/survivor/images/4/4b/Gota_Buff.PNG/revision/latest/scale-to-width-down/150?cb=20130201071144

OR http://vignette2.wikia.nocookie.net/survivor/images/6/6d/Luzon-flag.jpg/revision/latest?cb=20140227215029 and http://vignette1.wikia.nocookie.net/survivor/images/9/97/Luzongreenbrain.png/revision/latest?cb=20140123212853

The tribe flags are SUPPOSED to match the buffs in a way ya twat. The Indian elements from the design are BECAUSE the location is in freaking India! What else am I supposed to do? I know that what I made was the cutest shit since the Power Puff Girls. Your opinions are bad, and you should feel bad.

well well well! im here!

and i have this cute lil vote canceller with me!

im sitting pretty, but i gotta get to talking bc im not going home first

Ok. Well. That just happened. The hosts posted in the chat about searching in the woods for advantages and what not. So i was like, ok... I'm down. I have the luck of a dead animal but maybe ill get close lol. Well, I got close, and than i got closer, and closer. AND THAN I FOUND THE IDOL. FIRST TRY BITCHES. hahahah This is sooooooo awesome. Just what i needed to keep my footing in this game for a while. I can't wait to share all this good news with elena! She's going to freak the fuck out. Like!!!! She has her advantage and now I have mine <3<3

:::Quick Catch Up:::

So as of now this is Day 4 on the island and I think everything is going alright. On Day 3 I kinda didn't speak to anyone as I was not in a good space mental wise. Day 4 was the day I needed to build up on the conversations I had from days 1-2. Basically every conversation I have with someone is a conversation that shows I'm a least trying to get to know you and form a bond with you. That't the impression I want to leave on people. "Nehe seems cool and interesting to work with". Today Alex approached me about possible forming an alliance and obviously the gamer of me is like "fuck yes I'm golden". But i can't think that. My first org I was so confident that I was playing a good game and I got cocky. I told Alex I would love to align with him and he asked me who gravitated to me social wise. I told him John and Logan and he told me John and Josh before mentioning that having at least 5 people so if we loose immunity. So that 5 is possibly gonna be the alliance though I actually favor Stevie more over Josh. Today is the immunity challenge in which I fucking hate flash games. One thing about me is that I suck horribly at flash games so the fact this is the first immunity challenge sorta pisses me off. I tolerated Snake game but now i gotta do 1/3 of these comps which I settle for the stackers cause it's the easiest.

:::If We Loose:::

This goes safe to say that the first person gone from the Nicobar tribe is gonna be Steven. Or at least that legit is gonna be my vote. Steven makes no effort to talk to anyone or seem like he gives a shit about this game. So easy vote. All anyone has to do really is say his name and I don't see anyone campaigning to keep him. Because I was adventurous I decided to explore the forest and I got a punishment for doing so. I received an auto self-vote against myself at my first tribal which I hope happens soon tbh so I don't gotta worry about it getting used against me. I was instructed that I can tell someone or keep it to myself and one thing Nehe learned from his first org is if it's not important keep it to yourself. So this is gonna be a little secret :). I spent a hour and 30 minutes on call with Mr. John Coffey confirming an alliance with him. We agreed kinda to duo it out but not let anyone pick up on it. He voiced his concern about Stevie and Logan playing the game before together as well as not knowing where he stood with Alex who he had played with before. I don't wanna be cocky but for now I think I'm in a good spot with Logan, Stevie, Alex, and John and I will be soon making a proposition to align with both Logan and Stevie in the upcoming days.

:::Reward Results:::

I kinda am disappointed that the judges had no taste what so ever. One said we didn't have effort yet I know they bitch asses saw that texture and complexity of the flag. See the other tribe decided to do an art work while we decided to do what was tasked and build a fucking FLAG. I don't necessarily we lost what the prize for the reward was but I'm pretty sure there was an idol in that feast even tho they said there was no Tyler Perry idol. I don't know what that means by the way lol. I just personally feel our flag was an amazing and deserved better judging. But you can't win them all.

I talked to John for roughly twenty minutes about a game plan. It was going swimmingly. Right after we finish Daisy messages me saying "hey, want an alliance with me and Logan?" I'm not going to deny an alliance so of course I say yes. But she wants to bring with Josh or Sara. Neither of those people were anyone I planned on working with. Nehe and John are the ones I'm rooting for but it's also crazy as hell. I'm telling John as soon as he calls me on Skype, but the fact of the matter is that I am now caught in the middle. Since they're forming it really quick. Daisy even said she didn't know Sara that well but wanted her in. So it's looking to be a fairly destructive alliance that I'm not a fan of.

I'm so glad we won immunity whew!! I like this tribe so far and I'm getting really good vibes from john Coffey and Logan and those r probably the two people I want to work with most tbh

I feel like a held my part in challenge quite well being that I scored 4000 points more than Nicobars TOTAL score, I just don't even know who half these people are on my tribe so anyone of them can go tbqh except for Ned and Darian bc they're kings but I would have no problem backstabbing anyone honestly bc I love being messy.Why am I like this?

This is my first confessional!!

Forst impressions: the game has barely started and I have very few thoughts on what's happened so far. I'm mostly trying to socialize as much as I can.

I spoke with Logan, and they were interested in creating an alliance. I asked who else we should include, I had been thinking Alex. Logan agreed and suggested Josh, but I don't think he's even responded to being asked to be in the alliance. He should want to be in it though, we da best.

When we were on one world I spoke with Keegan and made a little connection there. Hopefully they survive to a swap or merge. We talked about how we both used to play Tumblr/Forum RPGs, it was a beautiful bonding moment.

On a more negative note, I really really hate being mean, but I feel like John is probably going to be voted out early, or at least should be. He did like really bad in the first challenge that determined which tribes we got put on, and he mentioned being the first voted out in another season so I'm worried he might not be a strong player?? idk John please don't hate me when you see this <3

Also the challenges have been fun so far!!

bye!

***(four minutes later)***

I was just told that John Coffey is very famous in tumblr survivor. I'm sorry please don't hate me

We lost immunity! That fucking sucks! Carson and Matt could not figure out level 27 of super stacker and that makes me so mad. I finished the whole game in like 2 hours maybe and I had to go back and redo multiple levels to show them and was watching a movie fhslafksf if they had asked for more help or something or tried harder maybe we could have won so like that fucking sucks!

I REALLY like Keegan! He's my favorite on this tribe and then there's Ned who I feel like I haven't talked to at all but I also think we haven't talked because we're just automatically like 'yup we're working together.' I'm just hoping we can get the numbers because I haven't actually talked to too many people so hopefully I won't be first boot.

this frog tied me up and im SO HAPPY

like i was so scared about tribal bc ive talked to literally ZERO people, and now im SAFE!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh this is so lit im so happy.

with my vote canceller, im like.... im just AHH

What an eventful time we've had! First, we win the reward challenge and got some food. Presumably there was an idol clue or something hidden in one of the food items but alas it wasn't in my Kit Kat wrapper.

SAM and I have been talking a fair bit and we've decided to work together. Which is fantastic. I trust her enough and we both seem to be on the same page about where the tribe needs to go. We want active, invested players in the game.

Which leads into the immunity challenge, which we lost by only a small margin. It's a little frustrating, especially since it was so close. I've never won a first immunity challenge, RIP me.

SAM and I discussed the vote a little bit, deciding we needed to talk to NED, ELIJAH and BRANDON. They're all decently active and we both get good vibes from all three.

I hadn't told anyone but my vote was leaning towards CARSON. He hasn't really been around much and hasn't done great in the challenges. He also hasn't spoken a single word to me so I'd have no issue writing his name down, except...

CARSON got lost in the forest and is going to be absent from tribal. DUN DUN DUN. He's safe but also won't be present for any strategy around camp. That's good and bad for him. Good because he might have been the first voted off. Bad because he's losing valuable time to make bonds with people.

Speaking of the forest, I found a VOTE DOUBLER in the forest! I get two votes instead of one at any point up to the final 5! Hallelujah! Hopefully I can save it until after the merge but we'll see how things go up until then. My only hope is I can play it properly.

Going forward, I'm going to try to rally SAM, NED, BRANDON and ELIJAH into voting together. It doesn't matter which of the other three we target, as long as the five of us work together we're golden. If I can bring MATT into the fold that gives us six votes against either ELENA or DARIAN.

Here's to hoping this planning pans out and I'm not the surprise first boot.

So, we lost this immunity challenge. At this point, my main ally is Sam, primarily because I know her from Bangladesh. I would love to work with her and be a duo, and I hope she's on the same page. I have NO idea what the tribe is thinking as to whom they'll vote out, but people are telling me that nobody's talking. Either they're being honest, or I'm being left out of something big. In a perfect world, I'd like to see Matt or Elena go home, just because we haven't talked, but who knows what'll happen. This could be the first time I'm first boot.

If everything goes as planned:

SAM, NED, DARIAN and myself are a close group of four. 4 for $4. We've talked with ELIJAH and BRANDON and the six of us are voting MATT. As far as I know, MATT hasn't really talked with anyone about the vote so hopefully he's gone and i'm safe.

ELENA is a bit of a mystery to me. She hasn't responded to my messages so I don't know what's going on with her. Unless her and MATT are working together and voting me. The worst that can happen in that situation is a tie.

I'm hoping this vote goes smoothly and MATT is voted off in a 6-2 or maybe even a 7-1 vote.

KK SO THIS IS SUPER LATE BUT ANYWAYS I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF FOR DOING WELL IN THE CHALLENGE AND WINNING LIKE I DID NOT SPEND TWO HOURS PLAYING BUBBLE SHOOTER TO LOSE YOU FEEL ME?????? Also i need to socialize more but honestly i am having a hard time connecting with people Sad react KK BYE XO

Hey! I'm excited to be in another game and I'm gonna try my best not to get medevaced or sleep through any challenges this season. No promises though cus unexpected naps have been my thing lately.

I'm glad that I don't know very many people in this game.

I've met Sam and Stevie and played multiple games with them. Idk how Stevie feels about playing with me but I love Sam and would be down to work with her. It's always a pleasure.

Darian and I had a messy experience in fans vs first boots together. He made about 3 different alliances within the first 30 minutes of our tribe swap. It ended in me voting him out after Danny Gluck went off on him in the tribe chat and declaring immediate tribal. Darian disliked me for a long time but we have been talking a bit and he seems cool with me so we'll see what happens

I played with Alex in Malaysia and immediately we have seemed to pair up this season. He says he's my final 2 and he's mine as well. I just hope playing with him doesn't turn out as messy as it did the first time.

As it's been one world I've been talking with Elijah, and though he wasn't on my tribe I really like him.

So onto our tribe so far. We just won the first challenge! I spent so long playing that dumb shape game and I never want to see a fucking smiling polygon in my life.

I have been talking a lot with Nehe. We had a call and basically decided that the two of us and Alex would be a pretty good trio and we could just ride it out. 5 will make majority when we eventually do vote.

Daisy and I have talked a bit and bonded over queen Marina and the Diamonds

I like Logan

Steven has not answered my two attempts at talking to him I fear being rejected a third time

Stevie and I hvent talked much game yet but I think I'm open to working with him

Josh and I haven't talked all that much but I like him

I really like talking to Sara, she's probably one of my favorites other than Alex and Nehe

I went on call with Alex and we talked about solidifying our alliance with Nehe, and apparently right after that call, Daisy added Alex to an alliance with Logan and Josh. Thanks for the invite girl! Idk what's going on with that but stay tuned folks

So yea that's all for now :p bai

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