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steddiesupportpodcast · 7 months

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Meet the Podcast Team!

It's about time that we introduce ourselves, we're the team behind the Steddie Support Group Podcast 👋 Big thanks to @glitterfang for the amazing portraits 🎨🖌️

ALENA aka @peter-pantomime

Any Pronouns | Virgo | 30

I’m a veteran fan and amateur academic who loves analyzing individual characters and their interpersonal relationships, the plots, themes, symbols, and genre staples of pop culture media, and the dynamics between media fans and creators. I’m coming to Stranger Things from a long history of examining how fans participate in the process of making meaning through their interactions with media texts, and to Steddie from an even longer history of being emotionally devastated by blorbos and ships, the most notable being Destiel, Stucky, and Reddie. I love talking to people about all these ideas everywhere from Tik Tok comments to academic conferences, and so I’m super excited to have the opportunity to be a part of this podcast with so many wonderful people!

Guest & Host Appears on: Episode 4, 5, & 6

Twitter: @peterpantomime TikTok: peterpantomime Youtube: Peter-Pantomime

AMY aka @mojowitchcraft

She/Her | Scorpio | 33

I’ve been a fan of Stranger Things since day one, but fell headfirst into the Steddie hole last summer. There is no way out, I’m trapped, I’m stuck in here with them. Before Steddie I’d been an avid fanfic reader but I was always too shy to write anything. Over the past year my confidence in my writing has grown so much and I’ve met so many amazing and wonderful people in this community. Very excited to be part of the podcast team and lend my voice to our discussions!

Producer, Host, Guest & Promo Team Appears on: Episodes 1, 4, 6, 7, & 13

Ao3: weird_witchcraft Twitter: @mojowitchcraft TikTok: mojowitchcraft

ASH aka @steddiehands86

They/He | Gemini | 37

Joined the Steddie community around October and have been nonstop writing and cosplaying since. I have been writing on Ao3 since ‘09, but never so much as with this fandom. I’m so fortunate to be a part of this lovely group of people to talk about our brainrot in a safe, sane, consensual space… I’m also a Gemini, and like long walks in the woods.

Guest, Mod Tech & Transcript Editor Appears on: Episode 1, 8, 11 & 12

Ao3: steddiehands86 Twitter: @steddiehands86 TikTok: steddiehands86 Instagram: steddiehands86

BECCA aka @glitterfang

She/Her | Taurus | 35

I was a casual fan of Stranger Things up until Season 4. Now the brainrot’s got a hold of me and won’t let go. I’ve spent most of my time in this fandom as a small potatoes fan artist but have recently started writing fic as well! I love our little Steddie family and community and I’m just happy to be here.

Host, Guest & Resident Artist Appears on: Episode 3 & 9

Ao3: pizzabones Twitter: @glitterfangart TikTok: glitterfang Instagram: glitterfangs

BECKS aka @beccichu

They/She | Aquarius | 24

“Nope, you can’t start watching Stranger Things just because of him” were my thoughts last year after hundreds and hundreds of Stranger Things and Eddie Munson edits on tiktok. Well, after binge watching 4 whole seasons (the last one two times in a row) I fell head over heels for Steve and Eddie and into the Steddie hole pretty fast where I’ve been here ever since. I do write every now and then but my passion is cosplaying, talking about the blorbos nonstop and sharing my love for this community with others!

Promo Team

Ao3: MsBecciChan Twitter: beccichuu TikTok: beccichu Instagram: beccichu

BIRDIE aka @audacityofbird

She/Her | Leo | 39

Bird isn’t even her real name, but she wasn’t sure if going by ‘The Motherf*cking Lizard King’ would be appropriate. Bird has been a fan of Stranger Things since the start. The ensemble cast, nostalgia and the way the show wove music into it in such a beautiful way hooked her immediately. The brain rot didn’t set in firmly enough to scour Ao3 until 2022 at the release of Season 4 but then the rest was history. A fandom lover and fanfic reader/ writer at heart, but her favorite role in fandom spaces is cheerleading, beta reading and being a part of the community. The love for these characters and the stories run deep but her gratitude for the friendships she’s formed here runs deeper.

Guest, Mod Tech & Audio Editor Appears on: Episode 3 & 10

Ao3: audacity_of_bluejays Twitter: @audacityofbird

CADY aka @lostinadmiration

Any Prounouns | Capricorn | 33

Cady was a casual fan of Stranger Things until Eddie Munson flirted with Steve Harrington and then went and fucking died. She went online to cope with the grief, and stumbled onto Steddie art, which snowballed into discovering fanfiction, and landed her in a beautiful community of loving and supporting friends who love talking about those gay dudes! In the year of brain rot she completed two fics, has two neglected WIPs, and loves chugging out art. She also wants everyone to know she’s IYLO’s biggest fan and would love to discuss it with everyone and anyone!

Guest & Host Appears on: Episode 1, 9, 10, & 13

Ao3: lostnadmiration Twitter: @lostnadmiration TikTok: lostin_admiration Tumblr: lostin_admiration

DAE aka @strawberryspence

She/Her | Libra | 23

Dae has been watching Stranger Things from the beginning, falling in love with the friendships and found family tropes in its core. She has always had a soft spot for Steve Harrington, this only intensified when Eddie Munson was thrown in the mix. Dae spends her time writing Steddie fics (mostly angst), editing and having mental breakdowns about gay fictional characters.

Guest, Graphics Creator & Promo Team Appears on: Episode 4

Ao3: strawberryspence Twitter: @strawberrysomin TikTok: strawberryspence

JESS aka @mydarkdevotion

She/They | Pisces | 31

I’ve been watching Stranger Things since the beginning and fell in love so hard that I ended up getting Eleven’s 011 on my wrist in my cousin’s bedroom. I’ve been reading fanfiction way before stepping into Steddie and writing has grown more since then too. I guess you can say my friends see me as the person that would dive right into the danger (No tag reads/ No summaries) What can I say? I love surprises. Even if they end up in tears. Anyone who's seen my tiktok knows. But all in all just a real down-to-earth friendly person enjoying the thing I love.

Guest | Appears on: Episode 5 & 11

Ao3: MyDarkDevotion Twitter: @mydarkdevotion TikTok: MyDarkDevotion

KAYLEE aka @sweetz059

She/They | Libra | 24

Kaylee has loved watching Stranger Things since she was 16, reading cutesy Byler fics and appreciating all the found family the fandom had to offer, and always having a soft spot for Steve Harrington. They didn’t really dive in until Season 3, however, when she finally was given a character that they could see themselves in. One Robin Buckley. Which just intensified her love for Steve even more. Then Season 4 happened, and Eddie Munson happened, and Kaylee finally saw the perfect match for Steve. Now they’re one fic down, and who knows how many more to go, and she wouldn’t want it any other way.

Guest, Host & Producer Appears on: Episode 3, 6, 8, 11, & 12

Ao3: sweetz059 Twitter: @sweetz059 TikTok: sweetz059 Instagram: sweetz059

KK aka @knormalizeknitting

Any Pronouns | Taurus | 39

KK is a genderless void who has been a nerd since time immemorial so naturally they’re obsessed with Stranger Things. They were a “normal” level of into the show, for a total geek that is, until Eddie Munson appeared and the Steddie ship set sail. Now KK spends all their time projecting Steddie onto every fictional pairing that has ever existed in media and finding new ways to torture Steve Harrington before letting him finally kiss Eddie. They’re extremely excited to be part of the podcast, make new friends on the server and talk Steddie / ST with so many lovely people when they’re not giving Steve even more trauma on ao3.

Guest, Host, Audio Editor & Mod Tech Appears on: Episode 2, 8, 12 & 13

Ao3: knormalizeknitting Twitter: @knormalknitting TikTok: knormalizeknittin Instagram: knormalizeknitting

KRIS aka @kwills91

They/Them | Gemini | 32

I’ve written and read fanfic for many, many years, but it had been a while since I existed in a particular fandom. Then Season 4 of Stranger Things came out and I fell in love with Steddie. After mass consuming as many fics as I could get my eyeballs on, I decided that there weren’t nearly enough Steve breakdowns in them and began writing my own, and I’ve been unable to stop writing since. Hundreds of thousands of words of writing and millions of words of reading later and the brainrot is showing no signs of dying. And hopefully never will. Which is why I’m so excited to be part of this podcast.

Guest, Host & Mod Tech Appears on: Episode 2, 3, 8 & 10

Ao3: Kwills91 Twitter: @k_wills91 TikTok: kwills91

MANON @transmascsteveharrington

They/He | Aries | 26

“The binge watch format of Netflix shows hinders the growth and development of fandoms compared to linear released shows. Therefore it is unlikely that many viewers of Stranger Things will ever participate/form a fandom and read or write fanfiction-” is a sentence I once wrote in an essay in 2017 for my undergrad. Then the universe had a right laugh and several years, one gender crisis, and about 250k words of written steddie fics and countless words of read steddie fics later I am now here. I’m an avid writer and reader of stangst (Steve angst) and could talk about it for hours. That’s why I’m super excited to be part of this podcast.

Guest, Host & Producer | Appears on: Episode 2, 6, 8, 10, & 13

Ao3: ChristinMKay Twitter: @t4teddiemunson TikTok: ger_manon

SAGE aka @miserablekingsteve

They/Them | Virgo | 24

I watched Stranger Things back in 2016. Only because my mum was watching it in the other room, and I heard Joy Division’s ‘Atmosphere’ start playing. Causing me to come running out of my room and question what she was watching. Prior to that fateful moment, I was probably holed up, writing Torchwood fanfiction or listening to the audio dramas while live posting on tumblr. Safe to say I’ve been in fandom spaces for quite some time. Yet never had written anything with as much velocity as I did when Steddie quite literally dove into my periphery. What? Eddie Munson was doing Ketamine and being ridiculous, hard not to relate to that one. I’m super stoked to have had any opportunity to be involved in fandom this much and I’m excited to see where it continues to take me!

Guest & Promo Team Appears on: Episode 6, 8, 11 & 12

Ao3: miserablekings TikTok: miserablekings

SARA aka @3blackhearts

She/Her | Leo | 36

I’ve been watching Stranger Things since the beginning. I loved how creative and nostalgia-driven the show is. The death (maybe, hopefully not, let me be delulu a little longer) of Eddie Munson is what drove me to read my first fanfiction ever. I hadn’t resonated with a character that much in a long time and having his ending be so unsatisfying on the show led me to want a world where that’s fixed or never happens (shout out to AUs). Since joining the fandom I’ve found my niche by making podfics, and now this podcast. In real life, I work for a local non-profit and am a visual artist. President & Founder of the DILF Steve Harrington Fan Club.

Guest, Host, Producer, Mod Tech & Audio Editor Appears on Episodes: 3, 4, 5, 10, & 11

Ao3: 3blackhearts Twitter: @3_blackhearts TikTok: 3blackhearts

#steddie support group podcast #podcast team #ssgpodcast #ssgp #steddie podcast

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brainrotarchive · 7 months

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Where was I on November 5th 2020? I honestly don’t know but I remember the early morning hours of November 6th 2020. I was at home, peacefully sleeping and probably skipping classes. And I woke up to check my phone and was confronted with a string of messages that would change me forever. At this time I haven’t been actively watching supernatural since the beginning of season 14 because I was going through some shit and it’s not a good show, let’s be honest. And on that faithful morning my friend- the same friend that had told me years earlier to check out this really cool monster hunter show and accidentally introduced me to the worst brain rot inducing shit I’ve ever seen- texted me as followed (roughly translated):

8:30am: uhm

8:30am: what’s happening on tumblr destiel is canon?

8:31am: well cas said he’s totally in love with dean or smth

8:32am: that’s wild

8:32am: how many seasons were there? 11?

and then I woke up and replied, still very composed and confused (I think she stopped watching after season 8)

8:58am: no idea wtf

8:58m: yea I just googled

8:59am: apparently cas confessed his love

then it slowly started to sink in

8:59am: I WOKE UP A MINUTE AGO FR

8:59am: WHAT

I suppressed most of my memories of my thoughts and feelings in that moment but luckily I sent a voice message and explained it to her. I think I was crying??? Maybe I was just sick and tired. Anyways, I googled what’s going on and read a news article about what happened and how they immediately killed cas and I was devastated without having seen the episode at all. I remember my whole mind being occupied that day with nothing but my 15 yo biggest dream coming true in the worst possible way. I wasn’t on tumblr much during that time but the chaos was so present even in my real life that day. It’s safe to say that Cas’ love confession kicked a screw loose in my brain and I haven’t been fully sane since.

In the days that followed I watched the speculations about the last two episodes of the show with anticipation and hope on tiktok. And when the finale came out I had caught up with all the episodes I haven’t seen yet. I remember sobbing when I watched Cas’ confession and when I watched the finale I was so deeply disturbed by how awful it was I couldn’t even feel sad about Dean (one of my favorite characters ever created). All I could do was stare at the screen in shock and disappointment. The rest is history: Dean reciprocated his feelings but only in Spanish, I made an ao3 account to somehow cope with my feelings of rage and need for gay happy love and fix-it fics, I got sucked back into the brain rot at full force and even created an epic powerpoint to share my insanity with my poor innocent friends, Biden won the election.

On December 14th 2020 I texted my dearest friend @awhora and it’s still true to this day:

1:54am: I haven’t had a good night of sleep since destiel went canon for the first time

There’ll be no peace when you are done.

#please share your stories so I don’t have to feel like a loser #nothing but clownery over here #nov 5th #destiel #supernatural #spn #castiel #tumblr history

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lurkerviolin · 2 months

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What're ur feelings on Buck/Tommy?

BIG. The feelings are big, but can also tl;dr as - here for a good time, not a long time. 😂

Deadass, phase 1 of feeling while I was watching the episode was "What the FUCK?" because how did the Tommy tinhatters KNOW, I truly thought that was nuts, but then I just got so happy??

Because that was part of my experience realizing I was queer!! Saying something sweet to a girl and when she kissed me having my whole ass brain restart like - oh. So watching Buck have that did give me Emotions™ unexpectedly. I think most of my feelings are about him, more than Tommy - but that said I like Tommy! He's made himself endearing and I genuinely hope he's also in it for a good time, not a long time. It doesn't need to be some heavy, heartbreaking thing. Sometimes you just stay friends with the girls you kiss and it's more than fine, it's lovely!!

And anyway-- I'm still 🤡 about Buddie and I do think that has a real shot at being endgame bc apparently no matter how bad destiel hurt us, the brain rot killed the part of my brain that protected me from hope lmaooo. Still, even if buddie doesn't happen, I'm having a blast.

Basically: fics where Tommy gets to be a bunch of Buck's first times > fics where Tommy gets to keep him forever.

#thank you for encouraging my brainworms lmao #911 #tommybuck

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alethiometry · 1 year

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Rules: list eight shows for your followers to get to know you better.

Tagged by @aeide!

1. black sails. OBVIOUSLY. it's got everything. drama, intrigue, ocean gays, lying little wet rat twinks, anti-colonialist uprisings, caribbean history, grimy period-appropriate costumes, heartbreak, monologues, toby "saturday chillin don't fuckin @ me i'm chillin" schmitz calling himself daddy. everybody slays absolute cunt. it is THEEEE most perfect show ever created.

2. parks and recreation. rewatching p&r is an interesting experience because it was such a product of obama-era liberal america and the optimism just oozes out of every scene. also we don't like crisp ratt anymore. but it's also so genuinely funny and heartfelt and comforting! this show had a massive impact on my sense of humor, as well as i think framed failure in such a positive light: every character failed drastically at something over the course of the show, but through caring for each other were able to pick themselves back up and never let their shortcomings define them. i first watched it at a point in my life where i really needed that, so it has always stuck with me.

3. leverage. my comfort show to turn to when living in a post-capitalist hellscape that continues to reward billionaires for their moral bankruptcy while shitting on everybody else gets too depressing (so… like every day). is it campy and unrealistic? yes. do i care? no. sometimes you need escapism via direct action, heist hijinks, and extreme displays of bisexuality. also aldis hodge is one of the most beautiful human beings on planet earth.

4. supernatural. yeah yeah it's the hehe destiel meme show. but it was also tons of fun to watch every week, the worldbuilding started out fantastic (and then got progressively more and more insane), i think it's really the epitome of "really cool ideas with mostly lackluster execution". the bloody mary episode remains one of my favorite episodes of tv ever, and the fandom drama just keeps giving! i also met some of my dearest friends through the fandom, so maybe the real destiel love memes were the friends we made along the way.

5. twin peaks. the only show that made me so insane i went and got a tattoo of it. impeccable vibes, the experience of watching s3 and then memeing about it on reddit with everyone else who were all equally confused is an experience that will never be replicated.

6. love island uk. listen. fucking listen. i don't want this show to be listed here any more than any of you do, i'm sure. absolute bottom of the barrel brain rot that consumes my life and brings my workday to a grinding halt (thank you timezones) for the 2 months that each season is running. i absolutely have nothing good to say about love island uk other than it's sometimes really funny, usually unintentionally. but iain stirling's voice and those stupid neon pillows/beanbags and atrocious cursive font and catchphrases have wormed their way into my brain and nothing short of a complete lobotomy can remove it.

7. how to get away with murder. this wouldn't even be on here if saff and i didn't go on an insane binge of all six seasons last fall. but since we did… here we are. michaela pratt is an icon and has never done anything wrong ever in her life and i will die on this hill.

8. cunk on earth. this is probably recency bias speaking but oh my god i adore this show. it is exactly my brand of humor and i have so much respect for all the experts and miss diane morgan herself for making it through those interviews without breaking, because i would be fighting for my fucking life. this is the show that i will henceforth be recommending like a madwoman to all my friends.

honorable mentions: american vandal, derry girls, naruto, south park, dexter, elementary, orphan black.

i'm tagging: @winedark @seance @assassiyun @thatsouthernanthem @potsticker1234 @ciaramedba @doomcountry @thychesters <3

#tag games #cool story charlotte

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mansplainmanipulatemalewife · 2 years

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Do you take asks and if so, which mutuals do you associate with which trope? Just to have fun

I do take asks! I haven't really been here long enough for people to send me things but I do enjoy it 👀

Anyway I present you the mutuals as very real tropes that I definitely didn't just make up:

@meabeck my beloved mutual both here and on main 💚I think they have fluffy slice-of-life vibes

@demon-sneeze the rejected accidental engagement storyline from Hell's angel

@jesuschristassbutt "sabriel hookup on route to the destiel wedding"

@beloved-turtle-lord-kaira tooth-rotting fluff but like in a crack way

@emotionalsupportknife that moment when Dean remembers his brother does in fact have a sex life

@angelhannah Crowstiel hurt/comfort only the best for Bee

@fellshish Dean is just. he's so stupid. I love him. Miscommunication

@ghostdrools everybody lives dies!

@demonicsoulmates you'd think it would be the mafia AU but uhhh A/B/O

@mochachilled grace kink yes this is about the tonguetacles you know what you did

@teaghouls the honeymoon phase™

@restingdeanface fix it <3

@callalilycas cursed rpf it's kind of her speciality

@winch3stersgirl my brain is saying destiel/sastiel love triangle but idk why

@seasononesam Sammy’s psychic powers my beloved <3

@1967-impala weird metaphysics like we were discussing the other day

Hmm unfortunately there are a couple mutuals I also haven't got a chance to talk to enough to be certain (k1lljoys-make-some-noise, skttlz, scoutndemond, tomokarithedoggo etc) so uhhhh if ur reading this come say hi and I will attempt a vibe check also I apologise if I missed anyone if we're only mutuals on sideblogs it's possible that I haven't realised

#asks #these ARE all either things i have seen in fic or have created in my various attempts at writing but that does not a trope make #anon #the real question is which one of you posted this it has to be someone here 👁

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ultfreakme · 3 years

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The Desticule-Heller community is Cas, Supernatural is Dean and the writers are Chuck.

We, the ‘Cas’ are obsessed with the ‘Dean’, which/who is inherently good and has all the potential to be amazing but is fucked up and done some bad shit because of ‘Chuck’.

The show/Dean and Desticule-Hellers/Cas exist well together and have created some mindblowing things and are generally awesome together but the writers/Chuck hates us so the show/Dean is used as an instrument to say “FUCK YOU” to Desticule-Hellers/Cas.

This is all a giant cosmic joke actually.

#the brain rot is real #girl help #girl help i'm in too deep #desticule #hellers #destiel #deancas #i self-inserted so hard into an angel that i dragged y'all in too

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heirloommtomatoes · 4 years

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no im not og posting about spn in the year 2020 after i last watched the show in like. 2012 but why would misha outright spoil that he doesn’t think dean feels the same way thats. such a huge spoiler if its not a misdirection or troll why would he also repeatedly point out, completely unprompted, that cas dying was leaning into the ‘bury your gays’ trope if hes permadead someone stop the hamster wheel that is my revived middle school brain

#MAKE IT MAKE SENSE!!!#theres no WAY cas is permadead #just no way #esp since.......theyve literally shown ppl escaping the empty??? girl ..... cmon .....#no WAY #all the times??? dean went after cas to purgatory n all tht?? come on.....#yall think dean's just gonna go <3 ok bye! thanks for the homo love <3 and leave him behind???#even if he doesnt reciprocate that makes. 0 sense w the continuity of deans character and the show #cannot believe im using real brain energy to think bout destiel in 2020 #im not shaming destiel btw i just Really did not anticipate a revival of my middle school fuckckcing brain in this gddamn year.#hasnt cas died like. 15 times too i mean. again. cmon.#i doubt they'll have some grand kiss mutual love declaration that just doesnt feel spn to me? idk i havent actually watched the show since #i believe s5 #so idk if its changed a lot tonally since then from what i've seen it doesn't seem like it's changed a lot in thAT respect specifically #im losing followers for posting about destiel godspeed u guys escape the brain rot while u can <3 <3 <3 #everyone else im so sorry <3 <3 <3 #but anyways if dean reciprocates which im tryna not be a clown but yall it truly truly does not make sense to me otherwise fr fr #if dean reciprocates i could imagine him saying it (its in!!! the saying it!!!!!!) and maybe a forehead kiss or hand kiss or esp meaningful #hug that confirms it as romantic along w sam going with eileen and dean going with cas as further confirmation that its Romantic #misha calling it a homosexual romantic declaration of love added a decade to my silly little life #im speechless that spn of all things made a revival in 2020 insert that gif of andre the giant shaking his head with his hands outstretched #do Not even get me Started on how it just DOESNT make SENSE like. narratively. plot wise. if cas doesnt come back and dean doesnt #reciprocate like they literally have set it up. SO well. SO well! and to throw that away? i mean? what? the bookending of their storylines #w dean rescuing cas from 'hell' and doing it For Love as cas said? WHYY have cas SAY 'the one thing i cant have'!?!?!?!?#WHY ASK THAT QUESTION IF UR NOT GONNA ANSWER IT I AM A FERAL D O G

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sunshinefor-breakfast · 2 years

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Haven't written fic since I was 16 and writing destiel one shots lmaoooo but gay pirate show brain rot will do that to you I guess. Quick drabble for my take on what the Stede/Ed reunion could look like...

“Look here!” Stede calls, pointing excitedly towards the horizon. After weeks of rowing, the whole crew crammed into a tiny dinghy, they finally catch up to the Revenge. They let out a cheer at the sight. Stede feels his heartbeat speed up, and he can’t help but let out an excited whoop of his own.

Their excitement is short-lived though, as it appears they are not the only ones to have found the Revenge - so has the British navy. The two ships are pulled up close to each other, and, as Stede can see from peering through his spyglass, the British soldiers have already boarded the Revenge.

Stede sighs nervously, looking around at his wide-eyed crew. There’s no more time for what if’s, only confronting whatever they find on the ship in front of them. Whoever, or whatever, Ed has become, the only way now is forward. Stede nods towards the Revenge and Oluwande picks up his rowing pace, a breathless, joyous “Jim” escaping his mouth as he pulls on the oars.

They float up to the side of the Revenge and Stede nearly falls out of the small boat in his haste to reach the ladder hanging off her side. He clambers aboard his ship to find it in absolute chaos. The sound of violence fills the air - swords clashing together, limp bodies hitting the deck, cannon fire ringing. Jim is darting across the deck, throwing daggers at any British soldier they can reach. Ivan wields a large ax, swinging it in the direction of a particularly furious looking soldier. Izzy has his back to the mast, his dagger pushed into the stomach of a falling body.

Stede scans the deck frantically, looking for, ah - and there he is, locked in a vicious battle up by the helm, sword slicing cleanly through the air to smash against the blade of a British noble. Stede wastes a few moments in shock at the state of Ed: his face smudged with kohl, his hair tangled and loose, his stance unsteady.

He’d heard things, of course, stories from his crew about what Ed had become, books tossed overboard and friends left marooned, but this - this was worse than he could have imagined. The sight of it nearly has him climbing back into the dinghy and rowing away as fast as he can. What on earth has he done to this lovely, lovely man?

He watches in horror as Ed barely dodges a dangerously close blow and it snaps him back into reality. Whatever he did cannot be fixed if Ed doesn’t make it through this fight. Stede begins charging through the battle towards Ed, swerving around daggers and swords slicing through the air. A cannon blast peels into the side of the ship, deafening. In a panic, Stede cries out.

“Ed!” He shouts, voice laced with fear.

As soon as the words pass his lips, time seems to slow down. Stede will spend the next few weeks replaying these moments in his head over and over again until he’s not sure what’s real and what's nightmare.

Ed, distracted by the sound of Stede’s voice, turns his head away from the battle, eyes wide and confused. The British soldier he’s fighting takes this distraction as an opportunity and pushes forward to drive his blade clean through Edward’s stomach. Ed grunts in pain as the hilt crashes into his body, still staring in shock at Stede. The soldier lets out a surprised cheer before he suddenly falls to the ground, a bullet blown straight through the center of his chest. Stede can’t even bother to wonder where the shot came from as he watches Ed drop to his knees, sword dripping blood where it protrudes from his back.

“Oh dear,” he chokes out breathlessly, rushing through the battle towards Ed, a faint ringing in his ears. “Ed! Ed!” he calls, voice cracking. “Oh god, oh no, oh, oh, oh, Ed,” Stede reaches the other man just as he slumps backwards, falling to sit on his heels in a position that can’t possibly be comfortable with his bad knee. “I’m here, I’m here, I’m right here, just don’t - fuck - there’s no need to worry, no bother at all. It’s on the left side, see? No trouble at all. No trouble at all now.” He’s babbling, hands shaking as he falls to his knees in front of Ed.

Ed grunts in pain, reaching a hand to the deck to steady himself and turning his face upwards to meet Stede’s eyes. He huffs out a small laugh, gaze cloudy and body swaying off kilter.

“Ed,” Stede chokes out. He reaches towards him with a tender hand, moving to cup his kohl-covered cheek.

It’s like someone flicks a light switch across Ed’s face. He freezes, flinching away from Stede’s touch. “You - ,“ he growls, accusatory, his body tense. Stede’s hand stops dead in midair. You what? You’re here? Of course Stede is here, of course he’s here with Ed; he can hardly imagine ever being anywhere else again.

Pain flickers across Ed’s face, so briefly that Stede almost wonders if he imagined it, and then his gaze flattens, emptying into a look Stede’s never seen before, a look that is terrifyingly hollow and cruel. “You should’n ‘av come.” It’s the last thing he says before his body goes limp and he slumps forward onto Stede, unconscious.

#ofmd #gentlebeard #stede/ed #our flag means death #ofmd fanfic #blackbonnet fic #our flag means death fanfic #our flag means death fic #ofmd fic #ofmd fanfiction #no title we die like men #blackbonnet #ed x stede #blackbeard #ed teach #i cannot believe that this show brought me back here #i'm feeling more than a little embarrassed but also it was actually so fun to write again soooooo fuck it #mine

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grassoftheeast · 3 years

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You know what hurts?

The SPN writers had the chance to create the love story of the century, and they went halfway, and just dropped it. Killed them both. Bury your gays-- blah blah, yes, we been knew.

But I was thinking today, and I like someone who I know does not feel the same way. The normal human experience. But that's one of the reasons I love media and fanfiction. I want that love, I want that romance, but I don't get to live it out in real life. At least not for now. I'm a dramatic bitch (proudly) but I'm not living some dramatic, angsty with a happy ending love story. I'm young, it's not realistic, blah blah.

Supernatural had the chance to do that. They had the chance to have one of the most epic, incredible, harrowing 12-year long tales of love. Even after I've finished the show, I haven't entirely processed the fact that CASTIEL was literallY IN LOVE with DEAN FUCKING WINCHESTER. Like, my brain cannot comprehend that.

They could've had a Catradora typa kiss. Something amazing and incredible. It didn't have to save the universe. It would be great to have that queer representation, but what's fantastic about Destiel is just how much there was. How long it went on. It could've been great.

And in a way, it was. In some weird masochistic way, it was good. That kind of pain. The so-close-yet-so-far type of feels. Believe me, sometimes I love a good cry over just pure emotional pain.

But don't we just get to be happy sometimes? Don't we ever just get to love unapologetically, get that tooth-rotting fluff ending? Can't we get more Catradora typa kisses?

Can't we sometimes, between all the cruelness and the pain and the loss and the hurt, just have love?

#what is with me and these text posts recently?#im just an emotional wreck after that ending #destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #casdean #spn #supernatural

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emotionallyits2009 · 4 years

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i’m so deeply, deeply sorry to do this to you but this past fortnight has given me absolute brain rot and i NEED to know more about the jensen had a little crush on misha theory

again, so so sorry to put this in your ask box but i have to know

HHHHHHHHHGH once again i must stress that i try to know as little about these people as possible. but basically they had INSANE chemistry from the moment they met. go watch any scene between dean and cas in season 4 and tell me they don’t look like they wanna devour each other. the theory is that they were attracted to each other irl which gave them the chemistry that spawned destiel and jensen ackles is embarrassed that his little work crush was visible onscreen and spawned the most popular ao3 ship of all time

also some people think they fucked in real life but if you want facts about that you have to seek them out on your own that is my HARD limit my rpf days are OVER i will NOT read tinhat theories having to see the gifs where ***** gave ****** a boner onstage has already given me enough psychic damage to last a lifetime

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fast-food-fish · 3 years

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Supernatural, Brain Rot and Why I Just Can’t Get into it Right Now

Honestly, this isn’t what I intended my first post to be, but then something unfortunate happened.

This doesn’t actually start on November 5th. The origins of this post go all the way back to last April when I was heavily considering watching Roswell New Mexico against my best judgement. It’s actually quite ironic that that’s what caused me to get to where I am now, in the exact same place just with a different show. Basically what happened was last April a very polarizing? Offensive? Bad? (all of the above) Episode of Roswell New Mexico came out (you know the one). I followed a blog, then November 5th happened and they decided to start rewatching Supernatural and post about it. Now my brain is rotten.

I have a very underwhelming relationship with Supernatural. Originally I told myself I would never watch it. Mostly because of the queerbaiting. I was worried that I would be too attached to the relationship and it would never go anywhere, but it also isn’t something I would watch normally anyways. Now, and especially when I was younger, I watched a lot of teen dramas and that just isn’t what Supernatural is. But I decided to watch it for some reason and I figured that because I already knew Dean and Cas would never get together I didn’t have to worry about becoming invested in their relationship. I was wrong.

I only watched two seasons, and I don’t remember why I stopped, but obviously I never saw Cas and therefore never had the chance to become invested. After that I just wrote Supernatural off as being a bad show, until (and I know how insane this makes me sound) I watched like three days worth of CSI, which I would not ever recommend doing. It quite literally melted my brain. I’m sure that it was actually inevitable, and the real reasons I started actually wanting to watch Supernatural came later, but, now I’m invested; just not in the actual show, but the version that everyone on here talks about, the secret version that’s actually good. I became invested in Supernatural through posts analyzing elements of the show that I don’t think were even intended to really mean anything. But what really gets me, what really rots my brain is what it could’ve been. And I think that’s a relatively universal feeling. I see post after post analyzing every aspect of the show and like I know it’s not good, most of the people posting and reading said posts know it’s not good so what’s the point? Why this show?

It’s easy to just write all of it off as a severe case of brain rot, which is initially what I did for myself but I think it goes deeper than that. Now what initially got me interested in Supernatural wasn’t November 5th or even really Destiel at all, I mean like it was but it also wasn’t. What really happened that made me want to actually watch Supernatural was that I finally saw its potential. As I said before, I wrote the show off as bad, I never thought about what could make it good. And now this also ties into the final part of the title, the issue with Supernatural having potential is that I’m going to think about that all the time. I read this post and like I can’t get into it. Like seriously I can’t allow myself to think about what Supernatural on HBO would even be like because it would fully consume me. I think about that post alone like at least once an hour and it kills me every time. And there are so many other things like it, so many parts of the show that indicate there being something more, so many layers to every element of a scene, whether it was intentional or not. There’s so much to look at and read and there’s so much that could be done with these characters that just wasn’t.

I like to think there’s like three different versions of the show, the version that the writers wrote, the version that they accidentally wrote (ft jacting joices), and the version that fans have made. And like having actually looked into it now I see what makes Supernatural so appealing, I understand why people project onto Dean, I even project onto Dean. A lot of the things he goes through I have also gone through, just without all the monsters and shit obviously. I know what it’s like to raise your sibling and feel responsible for them and even if that isn’t something that everyone in the fandom has gone through there are so many other aspects of him to relate to. His repression caused by his trauma, his awful relationship with his father. His belief that he ruins everything he touches, that he is a bad person who can’t stop others from suffering. And that’s just with Dean alone and like I’m sure there’s more for him, my very limited knowledge of his arc comes from things my sister has told me and things I’ve read in posts. And I really don’t even think I could fully get into Castiel, like the idea of an angel who falls in love with a man is such a good concept, like just the fact that he defied his orders for Dean and like the line “the very touch of you corrupts,” it kills me. I don’t know what to do with it. Like the show has so much potential and that’s what kills me and that’s why I can’t get into it.

Like in all honesty Supernatural doesn’t so much interest me but perplex me. It’s like an experiment gone so completely wrong. And I apologize that a lot of these thoughts are half baked, as stated in the title I just can’t get into it right now. Prior to this I haven’t allowed myself to fully put time into thinking about Supernatural because I know it could consume me, but the more stuff I read and watched the more inevitable that actually felt. It really was only a matter of time before the brain rot kicked in.

#please feel free to add on to this and tell my why you like supernatural #what makes you so invested in the characters #or like send me some analysis of the show #i love reading long posts about it like it's all just so fascinating to me #as someone who's just starting to watch the show now #but also thank you to anyone who took the time to read this #i really appreciate it #supernatural #spn #destiel #deancas #dean winchester #my writing #long post

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