“Sunlight – or his daughter. They’re the same thing, anyway.”

This is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read in my entire life. This entire chapter was absolutely breathtaking… I’ve never experienced anything like that before. You are so immensely talented 🥹

this was one of my fave lines so ilyyyy for noting it !!! she just instantly becomes this dude's world

Can i just say guys, holy fucking macaroni, like. I know i say this a lot, but the reception for hunger au has been like NOTHING ive ever experienced before, and im so incredibly grateful for it. Genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much-- writing hunger au has probably been my best overall experience of 2023 and thats all thanks to yalls lovely comments, bookmarks, kudos, and asks i get in my inbox about it. It's hard to believe this is real sometimes, you guys just blow me away ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Its still several hours from midnight for me, but i wanted to wish everyone a preemptive happy new year anyways :] heres to another year of hunger au, which is so very far from being finished, and i cant wait to keep writing it for yall!!!!! :DD and again, thank you guys so so much for such a crazy and wonderful response to my self indulgent fic, because without it this never would have grown to be what it is today❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy New Year everybody!!!! 🎆🎆🎆🎆🎆 See yall in 2024!!! :D

I keep think about the Ollie Paul fic if the reader was related to someone in the motorsports world, where in the song Taylor sings "talks business with my father" and Ollie is talking to them about racing (trying to bond) and they are nice and all BUT later privately they are like does this kid talk about anything else? And they tell you how they miss Paul

wahhhhhhh i love this 🥺 it makes so much sense... esp maybe paired with the other ask i got about her dad being like maybe involved in the fda, so ollie kinda wants to impress him but also keeps talking about ferrari stuff and her dad is very like "😶😶 okay yes sure but don't you have anything else in your life?"... but ollie is just doing it to be kind and he doesn't understand what he's doing wrong, he just wants to be a good son-in-law :( and yes her parents subtly trying to tell her about how they liked paul better........

Thank you so much for answering all my asks, I get excited for each bit of new info you share (even the heartbreaking ones, LEON, poor thing, it wasn't nice but he really does deserve to act out...) I'm coming to the end of my haw reread (I've been slowing down because I don't want it to end!), and we know that Matthew, between the asg and that final game against Leon, is trying to get over the thing he finally acknowledged was a thing/a thing he wanted... what is Leon up to in this time? (And is there anybody worrying about him the way Brady and Taryn are for Matthew?)

you're very welcome, anon! i'm glad you've been enjoying! ❤

leon during that stretch is up to similar things as matthew, that is, trying to get over it. he's mopey, and he's sad, and nursing a very tender heart, but he's so sure the thing with matthew is over, so he's trying to focus on moving on. just the slow process of trying to let himself heal, which is tough, because on top of being heartbroken he's honestly still kind of worried about matthew, so trying to heal involves hardening himself toward matthew in a way that just doesn't come naturally to him. he's a feelings guy, he's not good at not feeling.

connor fusses over him a bit, obviously, and gives him a place to wallow with with company when he wants that. his other close buddies on the team can see that he's down about something but they don't know the details, and don't do a lot of prying, because leon shrugs off any questions and is honestly pretty good at distracting himself while hanging out with his buddies. the thing is, leon doesn't really need people worrying about him to the extent that matthew's people are worried, because leon is less of a mess lmao. the people close to him aren't NOT worried, because he is clearly bummed out, but it's a different kind of worry. leon has an emotional support system and he's leaning on it, and the people he's leaning on trust him to talk to them if he needs to.

he is not wearing the stl t-shirt anymore, though. he is leaving it in the bottom of his dirty laundry for the foreseeable future.

Hugssss I’m sorry you’re having a rough go

thank u!! im trying not to like. bring it here too much bc it feels silly for me to mope about on a nsft blog but it just feels nice to get the thoughts out 💖

hi can you uhh. draw 4 from bfb. i know this is a weird request considering you mainly draw other things but i just really love your artstyle. thank you and have a nice day!!!

what a silly guy!!!!!

Sometimes when im thinking of you youll reblog something and it makes me happy

no way people think of me this is incredible

hi i absolutely love your sims! i was wondering (if it’s not too much) where her outfit + shoes are from !!! thank you <3

https://www.tumblr.com/simelune/745146106698235904/guess-who-went-on-another-date-these-two

hello !! thank u so much ;; i got you!

the top + skirt are here, and the shoes are here!

i think you are very smart :)

getting this ask was very sweet and wholesome until i went to dinner with friends & was amazed at the extreme ninja skills of our waiter who kept refilling my water when i wasn't looking because it would always be higher even when i thought it would be lower after drinking some... and when dinner ended i realized that my water's ice cubes have diminished both in stature & quantity.... and then i realized my water had ice cubes and ice cubes have water and when an ice cube's solid water form melts, it turns back into normal water; therefore, replenishing my water over time without human intervention

the fuvsjcdking VEST on noelle

noelle lei fashion icon <3

pls some [locked] facts? just a crumb of [locked] facts pls??

• she anticipated a normal, quiet, mildly upsetting life ahead of her. this glitz and glam is not what she expected nor wanted, but now that she's here, she'll make the most of it.

• has a deep fear of developing cyberpsychosis. the corporation owns the body she's tried so hard to make her own, and she doesn't know how much chrome it can handle. empathizes with those struggling with cyberpsychosis due to this.

• insecurities about her freckles have caused her to use fading treatments over the years.

• would like to be a parent, in another life. night city is too harsh and she doesn't want a repeat of herself, but she feels confident in her caretaking abilities.

every so often i reread all of your if the door wasn't shut series, just because it's my literal favorite thing i've ever read <3

i always love thinking about the what ifs because the whole series is so so good as you wrote it and you just put so many things into it that open up so many other thoughts and it just hits every single good spot in my brain

and i always think back to those posts you made about what if it was the reader instead joel in part two, because that was such an awesome and devastating thought. but today i was thinking about it and i was thinking what if it was still joel, and what would the reader look like after that, you know? like how would she deal with that for herself, and also how would she feel about tommy and ellie leaving? OR would she have gone too? i don't think she would have, but that's just me. i'm just very stuck on thinking about what the reader's relationships with ellie and tommy would look like during and after part two

okay i feel like i said a lot of nothing😭 but i just wanted to share my half baked thoughts about how much i love that series and all your writing

anon !!!! this is so so kind oh my god hello ??? thank you!!! that series is very near and dear to me, and honestly i’m super glad i paused where i did. and left it so open because it leads to things like this!!! this series is as much your guys’ as it is mine this way !!! also please please always share your half baked thoughts or ANY thoughts i love love love to hear them :’)

but i would LOVE to talk about this. so MAJOR spoilers for tlou part two below the cut!

OKAY so if it WAS still joel, i agree, i don’t think the reader would have gone either!

her relationship with joel was never going to be the same, no matter what he said or did, that’s fact! we know this! but after joel dies, i honestly think r would feel guilty. i mean, this guy practically raised her for years. she loves him. and she can’t help but hate herself for the resentment she always felt towards him through those years. she was valid in feeling that way, obviously, but she feels guilty over it nonetheless.

i sometimes think about what if it had been her instead of or alongside ellie who found joel in that basement. i think she wouldve wanted revenge on those people, but i don’t think she would’ve been able to go and get it. maybe if she was there, the likelihood would absolutely have been higher for her just up and leaving like ellie and tommy did, but i don’t think she could bring herself to do that to maria or jesse - and that’s because of joel. she doesn’t ever want to do to them what he did to her, and so she would probably be able to stay.

would she have hated herself for it? maybe. would she have thought about the people who killed him for the rest of her life? absolutely. would she have felt guilty forever for letting them get away? without a doubt.

i think ellie leaving, reader would understand. she would feel the same compulsion ellie did, but reader had always had less fight in her compared to ellie.

but tommy? tommy leaving jackson? nope. she’d go mad. she would go insane at him. joel lived the rest of his days regretting leaving her behind at jackson, and tommy knew that. so why would he leave her? and after seeing the damage joel leaving did to her? it would upset her to an extent i can’t even explain. AND it would easily have maria kicking him out, throwing her wedding ring in his face the moment he returned, even with his injuries.

now, there are two scenarios here. jesse goes after ellie, we know this. what would reader do?

first scenario, and what i think is possibly more likely, she would go with him. now hear me out, ok, i know this doesn’t go with what i’ve previously said, but this is jesse. this is her best friend. she’s had to save his ass before, and god knows how guilty she felt about that. so what if something happened to him out there? she would never forgive herself. so, she would talk to maria. she would have a conversation. and when she would come back, she’d be back with jesse, or maybe, not at all. because i don’t think reader would handle abby killing joel and jesse. i don’t think she’d give abby the choice of letting her live or not. it would be abby or the reader, and that would be it. but in all honesty, i love r and i think she could save jesse because i am delusional and that is too much angst even for me 😇

second scenario, she would stay behind. there are zero ways that jesse would leave without telling her. ZERO. but i think there could be a world where the reader just wouldn’t be able to leave jackson, that old fear from back when she was travelling with joel and ellie could come back full force, and hadn’t she already lost enough? i think in this scenario, jesse might just convince her to stay. i think he would enlist maria’s help, too. they’re probably the only ones who could convince the reader of anything. now, if reader didn’t go, we know what happens. jesse wouldn’t come back. i don’t think she’d be able to forgive tommy, ellie or dina for that. even though she knows it wasn’t exactly their fault, there would be resentment there that she just couldn’t shake. after all, jesse left for them, right? because they couldn’t let go of the exact thing that got joel killed. the only thing i think would stop r going full no contact with them would be jj. there would be no world where she would let jesse’s son grow up without being involved. just no way. and you better know she’d be visiting jj every damn weekend to tell him stories of his dad. and in this situation, i think that after ellie would leave dina, dina would go to the reader. they would raise jj together, because she would never turn her back on that kid. never. and dina knew that.

so, all in all, she’d resent them. she’d understand them to a certain extent, but i don’t think she would be able to go after abby like they did.

during part two, she would have a far better relationship with joel than ellie did anyway, and therefore a better understanding of him. don’t get me wrong, it still wouldn’t be great, but it was something. she would be able to see that joel wouldn’t want this for them, for any of them. he felt guilty enough for everything he had done, everything he had put them through, and he certainly wouldn’t want them losing everything to avenge him. he just wouldn’t.

basically - there are a whole lot of ways this situation could go, and i think you guys could think of even more. there’s no set ending for this series, which is one of my favourite things about it. we can all think of our own endings for it, and i love that :’)

also, i think the fact it could go just about any way just emphasis that she is human!!! humans are not always predictable, and they do not always deal with things the same way. and given that a very present theme throughout the games is being human and what that means and how it shows and how you stay human even in incredible situations is just :’) pretty cool idk

but hey if you ever want me to try and write a certain scenario, i could give it a go! no promises though!!!

pls give us updates on barcelona boy 🥰 i’m rooting for y’all and hope everything goes wells💓💓

bestiiee we had a beach date and then we went to the arcade and he won me a plushie 🥺🥺

Of course you can call me Carrie Anon, I'd love it 💜

Again, thank you so much for writing them. Dougie holds a special place in my heart, and Carrie is written so beautifully

P.S. I think Tumblr ate one of my previous ask...🙃

- Carrie Anon

carrie anon it is!!!! 🥹🫶✨ please know your sweet messages through the inbox have meant a whole lot to me!! :)

AWWE! thanks so much!! i’m glad i grasped onto writing a bit for dougie (he was already a pretty fun character and seemed he’d get into some banter with someone and carrie, with the vision i had of her, was the perfect person for that!)! and thank you for the carrie love! she’s a tough cookie on the outside but she’s got a lot of layers to her that i tried to bring out in the piece; because in other writings where she’s present, we don’t get that because we have annie’s POV or bessie’s! so THANK YOU!!!!

(AW NO WHATTTTT - i went and checked my inbox before answering and didn’t see anything there 😓 i’m sorry if tumblr ate it up!!!)

thank you so much carrie anon!!! :D

Alex & Skippy friendship appreciation post (gifset request)

life has been pretty tough recently (bad brain times as usual) but i just wanted to thank u for being around <3 i check ur blog from time to time when i see u on the tl or as a thought, and it always brings a smile to my face even if i hadn’t before that day :,)

you’re such a comforting presence and genuinely love u and eddie as always <3 ily as always and i hope ur drinking water and having a good day/night ! <3

anon!!! i love you!!!

this made me emotional!!! i'm sorry your mind hasn't been very kind to you lately!!! my mind hasn't been very kind to me either!!! so i'm with you. and i understand how important it is to have those little things to make you smile to keep you going. i can't tell you how much it means to me that i get to be a little thing for you!!!

i'm grateful to be here!!! i'm grateful to have you here!!! i think it is so special that we can both find comfort on this blog!!! i know i've said it before but. when i first made my first self ship blog, i didn't think anyone was gonna see it. i was gonna treat it like a little diary and i was gonna delete it after a few weeks. i never imagined it would change my life they way it did, by bringing people like you into it!!!

thank you, thank you, thank you!!! i hope things look up for you soon!!! i hope you find some peace and some happiness, i hope you're found by opportunities and experiences you've been hoping for, and until that happens (and after it happens), me & eddie are here, we're with you, we love you!!!