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astralnymphh · 2 days

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YES PLEASE. BLOCKBUSTER ELLIE?? 90’s?? SIGN ME UP. WHERE DO I PUT MY NAME??😖😖🙏

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a/n + cw; OMGG AN EMOJI ANON i haven't seen you guys in a hot minute, but YESSS BLOCKBUSTER ELLIE!! specifically x customer reader. it's a cute duo! and let me relay why from my very scrambled 3 am jot-down. was going to make this a blurb, but it better translates through something more structured. ++ SFW! kinda mean!reader tbh (but ellie likes that), very fluffy you might squeet, quickly written, awkwardness, ellie being a nerd. [first pic from amoaeIIie on pinterest]

Imagine Ellie, in her blockbuster getup, leaning her butt into the edge of the register counter, jamming to whatever is playing on her hand-me-down walkman; earsbuds in, eyes downcast, head bopping slowing - soundly unaware of you awaiting service on your over-due rental. "Hello?" your volume divides the soft ambiance of the store, but it isn't enough to rope Ellie's mindspace from the clouds. Calling out again, "Hell-looh?" you extend beyond the cash register and wave your hand - nothing, nada.

How the hell has this girl not gotten her ass fired yet?

After numerous roadblocks, a brazen last resort comes into play. You cut around the counter briefly to take things into your own hands (literally) because you have not the time, nor the patience, for her slacking off.

Beryl eyes drop sharply to the walkman in her pants pocket when a single earbud is spooled from her ear, assuming it fell - but to her surprise, it hung low from your finger, and a glance above that finger was your face. Risen of one brow, flat-lined of your lips; impatient.

And her entire focus blanks out when you begin to speak, curtly and satirically, "Hey, I know busting out your Dad's old walkman in public makes you feel cool and whatnot, but you're on the clock." handing the slim cord back over to a stunned girl, flushed behind the pop of her freckles. Maybe your tone of voice sent her higher into the clouds, past a coven of angels, because her lips part narrowly and remain still for a single second - save two or three. Or maybe it's 'cause you specified it as her 'Dad's' which was.. spot on.

And whatever excuse she had quickly cherry-picked for you, hesitated audibly in her throat before it split from it, "O-Oh, right, shit sorry - was about to end my shift n' thought the store was empty. My bad." scrambling to stuff the other earplug in her pocket and avert all attention to you. Very eagerly.

"Looks like you've got a late fee on this one.." her pitch pummeled deeper, and coarser as she concentrates on the clunky screen she hunches slightly to use. Scrunching the freckles of her face together, hogging the blue-lit screen. Poor girl probably forgot her glasses at home. "Annnd are you looking to rent the sequel?" she peeks her auburn head from the screen and holds up the cased movie, tracing her index over the plastic cleft, tapping twice. "To this - it has a second part."

There's no denying it: she is cute - and guilt rolls your guts around for being so snippy and sullen to her earlier. But based on her demeanor growing enthused the second she saw what movie you had in hand - she doesn't seem to care a hoot.

"Out of stock," replied you, indifferent-sounding - and strking; crossed arms, bent knee, stiffly-standing. Comparable to a millpond. "Guess I won't be the only person with late fees." you take a breath to jest, shaking loose strands of hair from your eyes.

"Haha," you're no world-class comedian; that joke wasn't all that funny, but the need to hurl any affirming noise at you, was necessary. Relenting to reflex. What can she say? Love at first sight! "Yeah, that seems like the agenda these days," Ellie sighs out, molding the plump of her lip under her teeth and reshapes it into a dorky smirk. Isn't she just a sweet chocolate-box of adorability?

"Hmm, bummer."

That hum and word trips into her ears, knocking some brain-cog, and an idea limns her features; they glow wide. "Actually - um, I've got a copy of the sequel at my place. Technically it's my Dad's, but.." her pitch fluctuates, mindlessly thumbing the case between two fiddly hands. "Maybe you can - if you want, not pressuring you or anything - come over?" she throws a pointed thumb backwards, motioning a potential future. "Watch it? If you weren't planning on watching it with somebody else."

Slick trick to seeing if you're single; of course you'd watch movies with your boyfriend - or girlfriend.

"Hmmm.." you hummed longer this time, and this time it admitted the mushrooming of an almost aggravating anticipation in her belly. Like you meant to torture her with 'hmms' and nothing but 'hmms' as your answer hung high in cloudy abeyance, until, "What's the name on your tag - ah, Ellie."

"Yeah?"

"Ellie," you confirm her name twice, and speak it to enthrall her full-scale attention. Made it sound fucking sugary sweet, through a swirly whisper and a twist of your head. "If you can give me a discount, or a full wipe on that late fee, then yes. It's a date."

Light panic ensues. "Date?" she croaks and laughs it off, "I mean - pshh, guess that's one way to put it." backtracking to her hunched, elbows-on-the-counter pose.

"You put it that way."

"Yeah, I just.. didn't wanna admit that." immediately, she uncurls her spine again, relaxing her muscles to somewhat peer at you. "Sure. No more fees." Rounded eyes lost - adamant on indirectly staring at you and the space below you, because Goddess forbid a stroke of idiocy flickers through her while gawking at you.

The store runs dead-quiet in the background of your conversation, leading you to one golden question. "Your shift over after this?"

Oh damn, her cheeks are pink. "Uh-huh," bet she's oblivious to that red-hot beam nearly bursting the seams to her face, too. Nasal lines fold as a severe smile tugs, shadowed by her bent thumb poking at it. "Takin' my car?"

And that's how you pick up girls at a video store in the 90s - the Ellie Williams way.

this isn't even the full idea

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adaki · 4 months

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What the silverman stellaron sees when my team approaches idk

#I don’t go here #but I logged on again to claim dr.ratio and I thought my team was kind of silly #welt is my favorite though. would risk it all.#honkai star rail #hsr fanart #hsr #dr. ratio #welt yang #hsr argenti #argenti #welt hsr #tingyun #tingyun hsr #tbh this is entirely my guess on their personalities #myart #theis is sketch >_<#THE TUMBLR IMAGE QUALITY KILL ME LMFAO

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aroaessidhe · 2 months

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2024 reads / storygraph

Those Beyond The Wall

sequel/companion to The Space Between Worlds, set a decade later

character-focused sci-fi set in an area divided in two, the rich protected city on one side and everyone else in the post-apocalyptic desert

follows a woman who works under the Emperor in Ashtown, keeping the peace

when mangled bodies start showing up with seemingly no murderer, she’s tasked with finding the cause, and finds out that it’s the result of corruption spanning both cities and multiple worlds

explores oppression and messy revolution, police violence and apartheid

bi & polyamorous MC

#Those Beyond The Wall #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #space between worlds sequel!!! honestly I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it….. In general I enjoyed it and I think it had #a lot of important things to say but also maybe highlighted some weaknesses(?) in both books?#or - I guess just the fact that the sff stuff (which skews a little more magicy here) is kinda small scope relative to its potential #and more there to serve the plot and characters. Which actually maybe is the point. idk- there's def mixed reviews lol #it has a messy unlikable MC (like actually - when half the weak ass reviews are saying the MC is annoying you know they are Actually a #complex character) and some interesting relationship dynamics #it is pretty solidly a sequel - I wouldnt read this without reading TSBW #cara does show up in here& tbh her characterisation felt quite different to me? unsure how I feel about that? but maybe it's the biased POV #also to be clear: polyam MC; not a polyam romance or anything #(there's - kinda a romance? or various feelings floating around and she 'ends up' with someone. feel like i would have liked that to end #more subtley but that's probably my personal taste lol)#man some of the 1 star reviews of this are kinda.....just racist though. can we get some measured critique in here #as I said i am not entirely sure how I feel about it but not quite in a way I can articulate.... idk! i think it's worth the read tho #it's maybe one of those revolutions that feels solved a little too easily in the end - but then also is it solved or is it just that the #narrative has to end at a certain point

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thebuttsmcgee · 2 months

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Man. I just get so actually legitimately sad each time I remember that toh ended and that we live in the post-toh world. Like it really is over.

Ms Dana Terrace has said that she'd like to do more given the chance (and after some quality time off of bigger projects, just to chill), but as far as we know, it's the end.

Heck, we barely got anything after the final episode, no books, no special merch, no dedicated little chibi shorts, nothing really, aside from the, thankfully fun, get-togethers of the cast and crew!

Idk. Ah well actually nah, I do know, that this show just meant an enormous lot to me. Incredibly huge, the kind that you can't break away from and wouldn't want to anyway. The kind that feels like, man, where would I be without it.

Happy 1 Year, to the end of The Owl House. Thank you, The Owl House.

I hope the future is bright, for all of us.

#The Owl House #TOH #Owl House #and tbh. its also why I havent exactly been posting as much!#I just. really miss it man.#and thinking so hard of how great it all was. gets me choked up for real lol.#I do hope theres more for us in the future. I really cant say for certain.#Cause to be less sentimental and more analytical for a moment #TOH was d1sney's biggest original ip hit that wasnt a movie for both such a long time and in a good long time!#Yes yes the internet doesn't always entirely mean the reality of things (which is why financially bcg is their biggest hit technically)#but to actually think back upon it all #TOH always had news articles and video essays and huge followings on tons of communities #especially on youtube! which isn't that easy! Youtube will always be dominated by bigger named things so the fact that toh DID get trending #number 1 more than once? Was incredibly impressive. And not just that but the viewer demand and count were through the roof! Huge in general #television numbers. All to say that is is that toh was an enormous hit. both financially and to people. so. yeah. It's. kind of in the air?#I guess? that no one really knows what could happen. I mean hell amph1bia is still getting books.#Granted....lets not forget ofc that disknee really. really. reaaaally doesnt. like. toh. ×^| but who knows!#personally? still hoping for a save the light styled game someday. or just some game that I can play on my switch someday.#but yep! Enough of my rambling. Thank you for everything The Owl House. really. Truly.

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭#and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!!#''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/#''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍#I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ????#what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly.#vent //#SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it)#(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl)#delete later #dandyshucks

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rivilu · 1 year

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Everyone's on about Miguel beefing with a 15 yo, which sure it's funny, but y'all are letting the Spot, "I now declare this child that MY INVENTION inflicted this anomalous occurrence on, my lifelong nemesis", the ULTIMATE beef haver, to go unchecked.

#spireverse spoilers #across the spiderverse spoilers #you know at least miguel has the excuse that 15yo or not Miles's actions might cause TWO whole dimensions to collapse #assuming both pavitr's and miles' own dimension have a similar population to ours #thats SIXTEEN BILLION LIVES at stake babes #yah like no i'd also be going kooky crazy in his shoes #ofc his handling of Miles' situation wasn't good but that's not. precisely his job? Breaking the news shouldve fallen on Peter and Gwen #yanno. his actual friends? but they skirted around the subject too much so woops it falls on Miguel now #the most emotionally unsuited for this task guy possible. woopsies.#get ready for the most projection filled fight of your life kid cause it sure is cheaper quicker and easier than therapy!#I jest and the projection part is true but tbh i think too many people in the tags are interpreting Miguel being antagonistic to the rest-#as him having personal beef with children instead of him focusing (too much) on the bigger picture. like..isnt that his entire personality?#the 'fate of the multiverse' guy? cmon now.#the main issue is that miles Does Have To TRY- that's part of the canon event in the first place #trying and failing. if his plan of keeping him trapped until jeff died had worked then his dimension would most likely also collapse #if anything the way things are set up rn is sooo interesting because miles IS precisely on the way to fulfill a canon event #the question is - are they going to play into that- or is there going to be a twist. Gwen's realization that Her dad could in fact Quit -#comes to mind #i for one would find it really funny if the plot of the next movie is trying to convince jeff to quit his job but i doubt it jxnsn #my guess is that since this is basically the variation of the trolley problem where the singular person on the tracks is one you care about #(but said person is simultaneously also on the 5 person rail because if they don't die everyone does)#and miles has decided to just go and stop the fucking trolley itself fnsjsj #the plot's gonna go a bit more all out . /Beyond/ the previous scope- if you will #the only sticking point i have with this movie in general though is pavitr sticking with the group like.#“obviously he would've stuck with miles- he wouldn't want the guy to die!”so you think he prefers the version of events where everyone does #his friends? his aunt - whatever family he has- his girlfriend? EVERYONE?#yeah like nah until he can solidly know that shits gonna be fine in his home world i don't think it makes sense for him to fuck around more #yanno?#not that I dont want to see more of him- on the contrary I fuckin love his design to bits #just saying if miguel drops the bomb that his universe collapsed and my guy switches sides i would not be surprised

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camgoloud · 5 months

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i simply feel that if you burn shit in your roommate’s skillet you should then feel the obligation to be the one who scrapes it out and cleans up

#sometimes i think about the fact that i’m literally the only person who’s cleaned the kitchen in this place for the entire year and a half #i’ve lived here and i get. a little pissed off #i’ve tried being polite and bringing up the problem without explicitly pointing fingers by leaving cleaning products (which i bought)#out on the counters and sending a text in the group chat like ‘hey! 😊 i got these wipes for us! i think that all of us could #use these a little more often so that the kitchen doesn’t get so gross!’ but it seems that everyone either has no sense of shame or just #genuinely doesn’t mind living in filth for the periods between the marathon cleaning sessions i do every few weekends when i have the time #one of the guys who lives downstairs will just walk right by me cleaning up on his way to the fridge and pretend he can’t see me #which is still better than the other one (the one who just burned shit in my skillet) who once saw me cleaning and asked if he could help #and when i got all pleased and asked if he could maybe take the trash out for me while i was cleaning counters (a small and simple task!#when he’d literally asked me if there was anything he could do!) he visibly deflated. said ‘well i’m not really around here much [so it’s #not my trash in there etc.]’ and wandered off. without doing anything #like. HELLO???? you could have just been like the other guy and pretended you didn’t see me doing all the work if this was how you were #going to be about it #but i guess he wanted to feel good about himself having offered/expected me to just say ‘oh no thanks i love being your housekeeper 😊’#tbh i really need to be more assertive and be like ‘hey guys i’m sick of this’ and maybe. bring up the Sexism of it all. because.#you know. the whole situation feels pretty gendered #was complaining about all this to an irl friend the other day and she said i should start a chore chart but i don’t want to be responsible #for maintaining the chore chart either! take on the mental load of managing the housework and also turning into Resident Bitch for asking #men to do things for me. you know. there is simply no way out here #there is another woman who lives here as well but unfortunately i don’t think she’ll be much help in forcing the issue because. she doesn’t #clean shit either!#actually in the days since she moved in the shower drain in our bathroom has become horrendously clogged which. well. i mean not to point #fingers but one of us has got about two inches of hair and the other has got a foot and a half. so #i also simply feel that if you clog a drain you should be the one to unclog it but i’ll probably do that as well #sorry for the massive tag rant by the way i really shouldn’t make myself out to be some kind of martyr because i’m not particularly neat #myself but…. ooooh god if the bar isn’t all the way down in hell #anyway i just did a whole bunch of dishes but i left that one skillet to soak passive-aggressively overnight #i don’t think the aggression will come across though because i think he genuinely won’t even pay attention to the fact that it’s still #dirty and i’ll end up being the one to clean it tomorrow #caseyposting

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running-in-the-dark · 14 days

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things are going well with the kitchen. my father-in-law was here to help again today, and this time I decided to stay in my room and let the two of them work on the kitchen on their own. it was just too annoying the last two times.

that was the right decision. my husband called me over a few times when they had questions and even that was almost too much. but anyway, I'm glad he helped (again), and we'll be done soon I think. that'll be nice. I'm really excited to organise all the cabinets!

I got a lot done in my room, too. one wall is almost entirely taken up by Billy shelves now, and there's a huge Kallax on the opposite wall (it's three stacked on top of each other actually so it's a 3x6 - it almost reaches the ceiling and there's also stuff on top of it). it's just about enough (I have too much stuff, I know). did a lot of organising; I think I've unpacked all my boxes now, unless I find more in the storage room - which is currently so full that I can't check :')

unfortunately I did too much yesterday (built two shelves for my room, and did a lot of sawing with a stupid tiny hand saw because it's the only one I have), so my arms and especially my hands hurt very very badly last night. the pain kept waking me up. then, it disappeared at some point during the day. I immediately forgot about it, and only remembered when it started hurting again even worse than before 😭 soo tonight is gonna suck.

#I think if I can do things tomorrow I might even clear my table/desk finally! that would be lovely #I also sorted my rainbow high dolls by colour finally and it makes me stupidly happy every time I look at them #basically an entire 80 cm and 40 cm Billy shelf are just those dolls tbh 😅😅😅#it does take away a lot of storage space but it looks so pretty and makes me happy so whatever 💖#it's also great because now I have to consider if a new one would even fit instead of just buying them like I did for a while #there's only a few more that I want to get and I'm not in any hurry to do that. that feels very nice. not that frantic impulsive need to ge #as many as possible as fast as I could #my brain really sucks sometimes #annnyway. I think having all my lovely things nicely organised so I can actually get to them and see them and not forget I even have them i #really gonna help #and having it all in my own room with my desk and my bed like. well like a kid I guess 🙃 is also really nice #it would be nice if we had a house with plenty of rooms but we don't so this is the best solution for everyone ❤️#annnd now I've got to try to sleep 😬 scary.#personal

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leejeann · 10 months

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17-y/o me “Man, what if I was a boy and then I could date my girl best friend who is straight, surely there’s no deeper meaning to this” vs Imogen “Man, it sure would be easier if I was just into girls, surely there’s no deeper meaning to this” fight

(I’m only at episode 5 as I post this, so don’t tell me if I’m right or not lol. I just immediately saw myself and thought it was too funny not to post)

#I know the deeper meaning on 17-y/o me could go a couple ways #so I'll clarify that it wasn't a ''oh shit I'm a boy'' moment it was an ''oh shit I am Not Straight'' moment #but tbh my relationship with gender is the shrug emoji most of the time #so I guess the other isn't entirely wrong lol #anyway this is too personal for a silly heartstopper post back to paris shenanigans #heartstopper #heartstopper season 2 #heartstopper spoilers #lee speaks

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catcze · 8 months

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Oh man the brain is not in a good place rn ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

#「 🐈‍⬛ 」 strawberry.milk #I don’t Even know if it’s actually a big deal or if I’m just paranoid of making mistakes and am blowing it out of proportion in my head ⁉️⁉️#fuck man I hate it when this happens because it keep me wide awake and second guessing everything I’ve said and done the entire day #LMAOOOOOO #accidentally offending/hurting someone because I intended my statement to b a joke and it ended up landing poorly is literally a nightmare.#and if I realize to late I’m always so scared that they secretly hate me then and that they never want to talk to me again.#I’ll spend my whole day second guessing everything I’ve said and done and ill blow it out of proportion and I’ll think that every thing #that I’ve done has hurt or offended someone in some way and that sucks #it makes me want to rip my skin off lowk ⁉️ like I hate the thought of offending someone just from my negligence tbh #HI This is a cry for help if I ever say or do something stupid please tell me so I can remedy it and peacefully solve stuff and not #find out too late and go insane with doubting myself and convincing myself I’m a terrible person HAHHAHAH #if I ever take too long to respond. or if I delete a reply/chat I’ve sent days after I sent it. that’s why HHAHAHHAHHAHAHA

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solvicrafts · 4 months

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I'm terrible at remembering Hellenic holidays and legit didn't even realize Theogamia was coming up until today, which honestly explains so much

#hellenic polytheism #Zeus is one of the few deities I really haven't had much interaction with and tbh one of the reasons #is because I still have some lingering religious trauma that is too personal to talk about here #tbf Zeus himself never did anything to me. it's actually much more strongly related to some followers of his from my later childhood #from back when I was just starting out. so I've kept up a bit of an emotional barrier between us this whole time #and finally broke it down this week after he reached out to me #I feel a tad guilty now that I decided to start my Theoi plush line with Artemis since I already had most of the supplies #but I plan on covering all of the gods including Zeus #I just can't afford to make ALL of them right now #I wish people in the pagan community didn't interpret myths so literally and come away from them with the absolute worst interpretations #of the gods. I guess this falls into UPG territory but Zeus is actually really patient and chill #he's the one god out of the entire pantheon that I've been consciously avoiding and trying not to be noticed by due to that past trauma #and he's actually been extremely understanding and forgiving of me for that

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wrecking · 8 months

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edit: i ended up just ranting abt like the current vibe™ in the tags... sorry abt that but like also whatever i don't care anymore

#d #my food therapist really said the most real thing on planet earth when she said i'm meeting me at the same time everyone else is #i feel like a cringey overzealous emotionally dumb teenager who's a total embarrassment to everyone around me while i'm trying 2 say fuck i #cuz like this is the first time in my entire life i feel like i get to actually explore my identity and do like normal young people things #and i feel just. so so exposed in the sense that everyone is watching me make a fool of myself without a single shred of self-awareness #and it makes me so fucking mad cuz like i'm finally happy with myself!! i'm finally starting to feel like a fully formed person #instead of a 2d projection or an object or something monstrous hiding in the shadows because that's how i've spent until now imo #and like. it's hard to emotionally make peace with the fact things in my social life are changing because like. there's some part of me #that thinks that maybe if i stayed in that miserable place that maybe i wouldn't have any of the problems i have now #and like my life is a lot better. and i know that and i wouldn't change a thing. but like emotionally i guess i'm just #processing it as a fault of mine to have changed bc it's changing my relationships to others #and this isn't about any one specific thing like i've been having lots of small growing pains with a lot of ppl in my life rn i just am lik #there's a lot happening to me rn emotionally so i feel like everything i do is a fuckup and i'm just bracing for more people to go ig #which might happen or it might not and tbh either is ok at this point. i need to do this in order to live i think #idk why i'm even rambling about this i just have a lot of thoughts and i want to share them i guess. not like it does anything but like #what else is this app for at this point lmfao i barely even want to talk on here anymore because i feel like everything i say on here is #just pointless. i'm thankful i have a strong support system rn cuz genuinely i don't know what i'd do if i didn't like #i feel like everything is so much more emotionally Big to me on E and it's kind of hard trying to figure out how to manage it #like i'm basically finally getting to be me. for worse AND for better. and i just am like. insecure on some level i guess #not even over my appearance tbh i've kinda made peace with that. moreso my personality and what things i share with others #this whole post is so wholly unnecessary but i feel like i'm going to go insane if i don't get this out of my head #i've genuinely been avoiding talking about my emotions or my private life on here because i don't exactly feel safe on here anymore #which is like great. love it when my primary outlet for like. socially interacting with people casually gets compromised i love it #i literally softblocked like 30 ppl off of here so i could talk abt my weird sex stuff and my body and my deeper thoughts with ppl i trust #and then i still am too conscious about it! this always happens when i make a blog for myself to talk on #maybe i'm just not meant for talking abt things

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steorran · 10 months

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tbh, tumblr live is not an entirely horrific idea to me in theory. i have many fond memories of spending hours in tinychat rooms with my pals from other websites and i wouldn't be opposed to adding something like that as a feature. but this datamining cloutchasing from people who mostly aren't even active tumblr users is not appealing

#it is genuinely possible that i have at least 3 followers to this day who were on tinychat with me in ~2010-2013 #they probably no longer recognize me due to name/icon/gender changes but i may still remember #tbh i think my issue is that i don't really want livestreaming (one person broadcasting to many) but i would potentially enjoy a chatroom #which is i guess a different thing entirely

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fingertipsmp3 · 6 months

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What is going onnnn

#logged onto fb today as you do when you enjoy wasting your time #and uh. my brother changed his profile picture. and my other brother LIKED IT #THESE MEN DO NOT KNOW EACH OTHER. the first brother; i have known he existed my entire life #he is my dad’s son from his second marriage. i am from his fourth. which is fine #the second brother; i found out he existed in july #dna website told me he was my uncle but i was like ‘that literally cannot physically be possible’#my dad’s parents were well into their fifties in 1966 and my mom’s parents would not have had a son in 1966 and adopted him out #like what would have been the point. my uncle was already born then and my mom was born a year later #if they’d had a child between those two they simply would’ve kept him #also i looked up this man and was like ‘he looks exactly like my dad in the face’ so that was when i was like. i think i know what happened #here. i think my dad aged 23 cheated on his second wife and did not know that this fling produced a child #so yeah i’ve communicated with my second brother. but i guess he decided to go looking for further answers and added my first brother #which i completely understand because i am a useless person tbh. i’m bad at communicating and i don’t have a lot of information for anybody #like my first brother had our dad for 39 years. i had him for 11. i also don’t have the easiest time talking about him because it was a #traumatic loss for me. so.#like i said i don’t know what they’re talking about if anything. i don’t know if my first brother even knows who this man is. he accepted #the friend request? but that doesn’t mean a lot. maybe they found each other on a different dna site #that would be really funny actually #i hope they’re getting along. i mean they probably are. they’re the same age and actually have some similar interests weirdly #i mean one is into heavy metal and the other is into historical reenactments but they both like dogs and fantasy novels #my dad’s dna must have so much fucking information in it. it was literally like ‘okay all of this man’s descendants are going to be 6’+#even the women; with dark hair; dark eyes; round faces; and they are going to spend all their downtime reading books and drinking tea #and have an inexplicable knack for training dogs’#it’s WEIRD. it’s so fucking weird that he had four kids and the two he didn’t even raise STILL fit into this mould #personal

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shiocreator · 1 year

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I survived another year on this planet and I'm making it all your problem

I'm here and going to cause havoc

#Salt speaks #Happy birthday to me i guess #Dear gosh this entire hour has been awful because of my intrusive thoughts and the testing date literally tomorrow after my birthday #But I'm still here I'm still alive #This will be a good fucking day or so help me #They may be keeping me hostage to take some stupid fucking tests soon but im still here and i can bite people i have teeth and can use em #Please ignore these tags im tryna practice false confidence; I am the smartest hottest person in this damn room and i can kill people #I can kill people if needed i am the smartest strongest hottest person here they'll never catch me #Highly reccommend making jokes like that tbh actually made me feel better for a sec #Vent #Should i tag this as vent i probbaly should even if it was just in the tags okay then

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rosicheeks · 1 year

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Babe I gotchu.

22, 23, and 27?

22: are you a morning person?

LOL no

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

Oh boyyyyyyyyyy depends on how truly lazy I am.

If I feel somewhat productive I LOVE painting for hours and just letting my creativity flow 💖

If I’m ‘don’t want to get up’ lazy then I used to just chill on my couch with my trusty bong and watched a movie or binge watched a show (usually ended with me passed out taking a 3+ hour nap)

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

I’m not a huge gum fan tbh. I guess fruity?

#bro I am the sleepiest person you will ever meet #I don’t say that as an exaggeration #I can literally sleep all day if I wanted to #so that makes mornings incredibly hard to get up and get going #especially when I’m feeling depressed and dont want to face the world??? going back to bed and hiding under the blankies is the best option #lately it’s been SO HARD for me to get up and going #back at my old place I was a little better…. still didn’t love mornings but I wanted to get up early so I could enjoy the sun #and get as much done as I could in a day #but ever since I moved I don’t have that motivation anymore #lazy days are very very very few and far between like I don’t remember the last time I had a lazy day with 0 obligations #I think the fact that I don’t really have a job I always feel like I should be searching or applying or something #but I do remember back at my old place and I would have a few lazy days every now and then #where the lazy would win and I would just chill on the couch the entire day #I mean I do miss the lazy days with my ex tbh #just chilling with someone and not caring what time it is… just having to decide what to watch and what to eat #the days #I don’t remember the last time I chewed on some gum #I think it’s cause when I worked in bridal you can’t chew gum so I just stopped #I’m more of a mint girl I guess #thank you for the questions babe!#ask #anon

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