wow, "dead Dad" is a challenge ... now if "DeadMom" the list is miles long! (and thats before even counting the Disneys)

oh hey, Cinderella has both dead parents!

Haha, I was just joking in that post, my Taylor challenges are over for the time being! I will sketch you a little Cinder-Taylor for his Dead Dad Disease diagnosis tho. Unfortunately, it is terminal, but not for him

(I wouldn't be surprised or disappointed if everything is resolved and Freddie brushes past the whole situation immediately next ep, but I think we all think it would be neat to see Taylor actually upset his dad is dead)

Damm unit swap Kanade is so spoiled she has a whole 6 songs to herself while Ena, the unit protag, has literally zero to herself, like damn girlie rly flexing that trauma huh

Hey serious callout time

Never thought I'd make this kinds post tbh

I first have to say please do not witch hunt, harass any of these individuals nor my account, I am only looking to inform you about the situation at hand.

If you try to witch hunt, dox or harass me you will be blocked. I do not condone any if that shit.

First of all must say this callout is about the recent AU appearing in the Pizza Tower Fandom called Asylum tower.

The AU compromises of peppino in a straight jacket commonly used to detain violent, unpredictable or malicious intending mentally unstable people, which on record has been used last in 1956. Peppino has a unamed mental illness similar to schizophrenia, psychosis and delusionry (despite the creator claiming he has none/unspecified*)

* which causes confusion with the straight jacket since if he wasn't mentally unstable why would he need a straight jacket

As someone who has experienced/ has had family who've experienced psychosis, delusionry and schizophrenia this is highly disrespectful and glorifying the aspect of Asylums and mental illness.

The creator has been harassed for these reasons exactly *either in a constructive or harsh way* but has either deleted all claims or come back in a non professional manner.

One of their posts which has now of today been deleted from their account had an untasteful way of handling the situation along with a disrespectful PTSD joke at the bottom.

I find it highly suspicious that someone would delete this covering up their distasteful way of handling things. And not actually point out the AUs many many problems

1. The term asylum isn't used anymore and is often associated with torturous conditions, unhealthy ways of coping and treatment and is only used in serious films/serious TV series and is glorified by hollywood. The term used now is mental clinic or just hospital in general.

The way they treat patients now is much better but from personal experience than I share with others and my family is it still torturous and brutal and half the time you end up worse or , worse case scenario the end doing suicide. So using this theming must be treaded lightly.

2. Straight jackets are no common place anymore and are mostly used In Hollywood as a way of dramatization of a scene in general and is a very unethical way of treatment. Using it for simple means like psychosis, delusionry or schizophrenia is like killing a thief for taking an apple. Unethical and a ill stereotype. In general not a fun cute wholesome thing and shouldn't be bounced around.

3. White padded rooms are are the stuff of movies and really padded rooms are torturous and not a fun thing at all that is not funny in a comic light that they re trying to portray.

4. The handling of this situation on the creators part is fishy at best, as I said one of their explanation posts was unprofessional and made a half baked joke that is honestly offensive. It seems like they are really try to play up the victim card here. I understand the feeling of being harassed since I have been under that light as well, I understand the stress but these posts/way of handling things from all parties has been a mess.

The creator has stated that some traits that the pulled are meant to be funny but they simply don't line up.

Claiming that a character isn't crazy but your clearly making them crazy in a straight jacket doesn't look good and is honestly doing the opposite for you.

Honestly these feel like cover up lies as well as dismissing the criticism given.

There's is nothing comedic about this au in its current stage, and honestly it should stay that way. The AU is distasteful all round.

People are dancing around this and making fanart similar to the clover kit situation. Only no one is acknowledging the larger image and only think at base value.

I'm pulling myself away now and anyone involved in the Asylum AU/ fanart chain please do some research/ please pull yourself away as well. This is not a quirky thing and never will be. If you condone this I'm not gonna block you but i will raise an eyebrow.

More of the... au!

cavemen is a bit of a wrong term to describe all of them. Only the DJs (Debu) are technically cavemen - The Music Men (Zebramen) and Minis (Zebraelves) are in their bronze age.

Making their stripes be everywhere like a zebra was a big brain move tbh. They look so interesting.

I'm disappointed to say that I don't have too much made for the Zebramen, but to be fair, they are pretty much like humans with lots of legs - A lot of their lore is just our lore, but I still have some stuff I thought up

In the first post, I said they found the glowing, Debu mouths to be sacred, and that they draw their dead and their shamans with it. Well, what if that isn't just an artistic choice?

I realize it would make them less shamans and more like divine warriors but what they do is chew bioluminescent fungi that stains their mouth with its glow and also acts as a stimulant, literally endowing them with the strength they saw in the Debu. However, it's also poisonous, and whoever makes the mistake of actually swallowing the fungus after chewing it would get deathly sick and die.

The Zebramen don't actually know it's poisonous and see anyone who falls to it as someone who just wasn't worthy. The divine meth didn't like you, so you have to die...

Also, these warriors are, surprisingly, usually dressed in very drab or green clothing, in order to dissolve the dazzle camouflage effect of their stripes.

The Debu! Sexual dimorphism isn't horribly drastic, but the women do have a furry underside for their young to cling on.

They're the most behind technologically, less because they aren't smart enough for it but more because... they just don't need to.

Their bodies are hardy and are very well adapted to their environment, they're strong enough on their own. They're still cavemen, though to give them credit, they're the ones making the caves and they are farming.

Toolwise they're still using just stone tools and pottery. They do have a slight advantage in their medicinal knowledge as they are mostly herbivorous and know the most on what plants kill you and what plants make your stomacheache better.

They don't have any domesticated animals either (because no beast of burden is big enough for them), they do most of everything themselves. As a matter of fact, they're so good at doing things themselves, they're often the Zebramen and Zebraelves' beasts of burden - teaming up with them to be a mode of transportation and other tasks.

It's very handy to have a big, strong, fast thing that makes its own stable on your side.

Their caves! They make their tunnels themselves. There's a main room and a smaller one for the children, and they have a dedicated Fire Room shaped like a vase and a spout exiting their quarters so the smoke doesn't kill them. This is where they have the most art since everywhere else in their homes is in complete darkness, which is what their glowing mouths are for. Their cheeks are particularly loose in order for them to stretch the corners of their mouth out and look big in the dark.

Speaking of their glowing mouths, they call their kisses "sharing light" :)

extra note: the original art for this was made by the zebramen - made by zebramen in debu homes! Abandoned (or forcefully abandoned) tunnels are often taken up by Zebramen for renovation, and often mark it as such by making footprints on the ceiling with ochre!

Heya! I really appreciate how manage to get each fanfic you write to really carry the voice of the character youre writing about! Like how in the lucifer/angel fic a lot of the text is packed with lucis inner monologue compared to how much dialogue goes on, really gets to how lucifer is really in his own head, and just from the words you use and how you write a reader can see a lot of that inner monologue consists of overthinking and all his other little quirks hes gained from so much isolation and rejection over the years.

When I thought about it, compared to the vox/alastor fic you wrote, its much more dialogue, and a lot of the internal thoughts and text is more observations about vox (some of them sarcastic, others analyzing things like vox's body language) and amusing descriptions of the situation.

Im just wondering, do you plot all these details in your head, or do you jot them down on paper? IMO it seems like in general some fanfics struggle with keeping the character's voice when describing things outside of the dialogue ,and tend to sound like its being narrated/observed by the writer, rather than a look inside how the character thinks/talks. It can be a tricky thing to really get a characters voice down TBH

Thank you VERY much! You've basically just gone and told me, "Hey, you know that thing that you really enjoy doing and is important to you? Yeah, that's great!" hahaha, so please know that this message is greatly appreciated. I LOVE.

I am a huge outliner for every single fic I write, except the occasional single-scene NSFW oneshots that kinda write themselves! But character voice is usually actually not heavily involved in that outline, haha.

I think for my first Proper Fic (TM) on AO3, The Sword of Damocles is Swinging, which was a 60k word character study of Hawks from My Hero Academia, I did do a lot of outlining regarding his characterization and how I wanted to portray that because I felt like if I didn't write all of it down then I wouldn't be able to wrap my head around him. But this type of thing has very quickly become a matter of "code-switching" into a character's head for me, basically. Characterization has always been really important to me, and I remember back when I was in my "1k words is an accomplishment I'm genuinely very proud of" stage of writing, it was the thing that made me the most nervous, because I was afraid of not being able to write characters that felt like themselves.

What actually really helped with this is that I spent like 4 years doing Homestuck fantroll OC roleplay, haha. It was the perfect combination of "these are my characters so I automatically know all there is about them" + "but they are their own distinct characters with different personalities and inner voices, so it's still great practice," and then ofc roleplay being a very rewarding, collaborative, and social activity as well that gets posted in smaller, easier-to-write chunks than an entire fanfic.

For the Hazbin characters, I mostly rewatched some of their big scenes (like most of the Angel episode, or Lucifer's intro) for a reminder and a point of reference, paying particular attention to their body language, the intended vibe of how they're portrayed, and the way they talk, but it's less note-taking and more like that moment before a choir starts singing where the teacher blows a whistle to remind them where that note is, haha.

Anyway, basically, we're all reaping the rewards of me being a long-term roleplayer who's really into writing in third-person limited rather than omniscient. 🤭

An example of one of my actual outlines below the cut if you're still interested! It's chapter one from Happily Ever After, and Other Shit Nepotism Can't Buy because I am Not sharing my nsfw outlines, HAH:

As you can see, some moments are quoted almost directly bc I thought of neat lines while outlining, while others are fairly loosely outlined because I know it's going to be easy to write once I get there and I'm not accidentally already writing it in my brain. Sometimes large chunks of scenes write themselves, like the entire ending to this fic:

thinking so hard about . when exactly in the martian timeline they hated and loved eachother can u help me .. cause after turkey 2010 they had their love moments as well and even in 2012 they had their buddy buddy moments so idk !!! they’re confusing

OH MY GOD IM SO SORRY I MEANT TO REPLY TO THIS AND THEN I JUST COMPLETELY FORGOT, SO: hello :D

This is something I think about often as well. Teammates are a weird dynamic in F1 because you're forced to compete for the same resources and against each other in the WDC, but at the same time have to still think combined for the team, for the WCC. I think teammate relationships are like being siblings or like being in a marriage(actually I think Mark has said this before haha.) You can never fully hate or separate from each other, even if you go through rough patches, because you're stuck together and have had the same experiences, for good or for worse.

Turkey 2010 is funny because I think that was one of their first bad moments as teammates, right? And I love that RBR made them take that couples therapy, "us in our get-along shirt", picture. That's what I mean by going through the same experiences, like yeah they were probably pissed at each other but were also probably bonding over the hilarity/awkwardness of RBR making them do damage control.

I just think it's probably difficult to stay upset with someone consistently when you're constantly working with them, and you've also experienced the highest highs and lowest lows with each other. I think I referenced this in my Martian champagne pics post but it's kinda funny when you look through all of those shared podiums that Mark always seemed to be way more willing to spray Seb and smile at him when Mark was the one who won(Literally 3/4 of the pics from that post when they were both at RBR were from Mark's wins.) Like it was such a "I can't stay mad at you 🤭" relationship with them. Like with Mark in particular, it feels like whenever he got a better result, he was mostly like "I shall forgive your transgressions." But then 2013 was kind of the last straw for him, with Multi-21, and especially since he really was getting crushed by Seb and not even getting any wins like in the prev years. But then, by removing himself from it all when retiring, he was able to take a step back and see what it was like to not be in constant, direct competition anymore.

Idk if I'm the best person to ask as I don't think I'm in any measures a great Martian scholar. But these are my thoughts :D I just think being teammates in such a competitive environment can result in such love-hate relationships and that Martian is one of the greatest examples of how it fluctuates. I think it'd be really difficult to try and parse when exactly they were on good or bad terms. For me, tbh I think it kinda correlates with Mark's results because I think with just that whole situation, where they were in as teammates directly competing at the very top, it was a lot easier for Mark, rather than Seb, to start feeling resentment as he was generally drawing the shorter straw most of the time.

Basically, teammates(Martian especially) are bonded through triumph and trauma

hey! owner of the species here. (https://www.tumblr.com/terraliensvent/748247327120277504/i-think-theres-a-whole-issue-with-cs-as-a-whole-i?source=share)

i only rehired the devs becaus half of then were not doing anything at all, and the other half were not being very nice to those who werent doing much! also, one dev was making me extremely uncomfortable. I understand how this could come off this way!! but tbh i made this species as a personal project because of terras shutting down, and it kind of hurts to say its going to turn out like the hellhole that is.

Terras is very complicated in terms of drama right now and i feel as though comparing a species that is just starting out and maybe not the greatest to another one that has repetitively made wrongs, angered many members, etc. is a little unfair!

im super sorry if I am rude in any of this, i am trying not to be petty or mean or anything, i am just a little upset that you thought of it this way! its okay though.

i also probably am going to leave terras just because of how it is right now, i was considering just making my species a one off and moving on but I really like ARPG things, and was planning for mostly a non-monetary spending community, and kindness.

sorry this isnt super terra related anon, if its not terra-y enough feel free to ignore!

post related

im gonna be fr anon, you did not need to defend ur species. it wasnt even named so if anything my post wouldnt have really gotten you any negative press

they also sent this ask:

"same anon who replied to this i dunno if its about me but if it is not then sorry if i!!! was like rude or something im very stressed rn"

i think you may be overthinking a little with this one, try to mellow out a bit. i dont think u come off as rude but maybe a bit panicked, maybe rethink if youre ready to handle a responsibility like this? not everyone is right for handling large communities and thats ok

Introduction again

It’s been a while since my last pinned post and a lot has changed. I deleted it cause I decided I wanted a new one.

The basics

My name is Edie

I’m from Aotearoa/New Zealand.

I’m 20

She/her

I’m autistic (likely autHD actually but the ADHD hasn’t been diagnosed yet)

I’m a lesbian

I’m an animation student on the weekdays, a musician and a essay writer on the weekends.

Aquarius sun, Capricorn moon, Aries rising

INFJ

A witch who’s extremely lazy with her craft.

I’ve been on Tumblr since 2014! You may have known me from…

Many cartoon fandoms. Too many to count. (Spanning from 2014-16)

Emo bandom tumblr circa 2017-18. Particularly the Fueled By Ramen/Decaydance bandom.

Early Scenecore tumblr in 2018. (I still have a few selfies and hit posts from then gaining notes).

Britpop/early alternative music bandom 2019-2021

And since then I’ve just kind of been doing my own thing and mainly using this blog as a personal moodboard and an outlet to post ideas I don’t want to share anywhere else. I do post about a lot of things I like, but I’m not tied heavily to fandoms anymore - I mostly just lurk. That being said though, don’t be afraid to talk if you share a particular interest with me. I always need to infodump!

What I post

Stuff I find pretty. This blog is mainly a moodboard. I keep wanting to expand out of it but I always give up at some point.

Stuff that makes my brain go brrrrr! Mainly bands + shows.

Music stuff! I mainly like to post lyrics from songs I’m writing that are a work in progress, and sloppy covers/demos that I feel aren’t polished enough for my other socials. I also do cheeky self promo of my songs that you can already listen to. You guys should stream my E.P ‘Thing Is Me’.

I’ve been aspiring to write long form essays about things I’ve been passionate about for ages. I don’t think I’ll directly post them here, but once I get my Substack up and running you’ll be able to see them getting crossposted here.

Stuff I like

Feel free to talk to me about any of these things cause they’re my main special interests!

Music history from the 60s-2000s. In terms of what specific period I’ve jumped to at the moment, I’m fixated on mid-late 2000s indie music, twee pop of any era (mid 80s-present tbh), + some of my old favourite scene bands lmao. I’ve been nostalgic for them lately.

Skins UK (yes I know how 2014 and sad of me). I’m a Cassie apologist so leave me alone if you think she sucks lmao. That’s my Blorbina and my adopted little sister who’s currently got a song + a Substack essay series being written about her. In all seriousness though, I find this show to be very misunderstood in general.

Sighthounds! I love all dogs in general but the pointy ones are my favourites. I have a Greyhound, he’s my best friend :,) When I move into my own home one day I want to have another Greyhound + a Borzoi!

This is a very casual one of mine but (in case you can’t tell from what I mostly reblog here) I love fashion! My fashion tastes span the same general group of decades that my music history knowledge does. Much like my current music fixations I’ve been inspired by the late 2000s, but what I actually wear on a day to day basis is never one particular style. I mix and match a lot.

bla bla bla DNI time

Don’t follow if…

You meet the typical DNI criteria (no ists or phobes of any kind please! Just basic bare minimum human decency)

No pro ana (one of my special interests being skins + me seeing myself in a disordered character you made the face of your little circle does not give you a pro ana free pass around me. I’m not disordered myself + I ask you don’t follow me because I don’t want to accidentally trigger anyone by letting people of your group in my space.)

Same goes for general S/H blogs!

That being said, if you are already vulnerable seeing me potentially reference any of these sensitive topics in anything I post/talk about don’t follow me for the sake of your own well-being if you know it will be triggering to you. Stay safe ILY. I do try and tag though and you can always ask me to do that if you wish.

No creeps of any kind! Please do not send me anything sexual, or talk to me about anything sexual unsolicited you will be blocked immediately.

Okay that’s everything! If you’re cool I hope you enjoy following me. Please listen to my music. ‘Edie VC’ on every platform if you want to. You’ll like it if you like twee/folk/dream pop Xx

All the tags below are for my interests, aesthetics that people could say match my vibe, as well as my face tag (if you want to know what I look like) and my text tag. Hopefully I can make some cool new mutuals.

I've been meaning to ask this for a while but tbh I was hoping it'd stop before it became a regular thing, but that didn't happen... so anyway, I'll just cut to the chase, why do you keep calling the nabateans lizard people? This just feels wildly inappropriate tbh, to give a *fictional* group a label that carries such heavily antisemetic qualities. You are full on calling a group of shapeshifting dragons, one of which is head of a continental institution of power, and who hide their ability to shapeshift, an antisemetic label, and you are missing how this is actually worse. It has been exactly 0 weeks since I've seen people calling the nabateans 'lizard people' and then turning around saying they're jewish coded, and then calling people who don't like rhea antisemetic. Bc theyre 'lizard people' and therefore 'jewish'. This is literally so fucking offensive. Can you please at least come up with a different thing to call them? Bc this shit is just blasted in the main tags literally every single day and tbf it's extremely draining to see people constantly throwing that term around like it's nothing

I was debating whether I should reply to this given how I received a similar ask a little over a month ago from a notorious troll, but for the 1% of chance that this ask isn't another troll, and because I feel like it's important to put words on things, I'll give a complete answer -

under the cut, because it's long!

First of all, unless I missed a post after checking on the archive, I do not think I ever used the words "lizard people", except when it is to talk about the varying degrees of "weird" and "yikes" some takes in the fandom smell like.

If I did, however, I apologise, it was obviously not meant to make an antisemitic statement or whatever it is you think it was, as you might now I am not an english native speaker, so some idioms or association of words don't immediately lit a red light, I made some blunders some time ago and immediately corrected it when someone pointed it out (like, the word "bamboula" refers to an african dance, but the second you say "bamboula" in France you're immediately suspected of being racist, because it was used as a common slur in the 1910s and is still used in some, uh, far right conventions, I guess). If you have a post in mind, then feel free to share, and I'll edit it accordingly!

The tag I use for general Nabatean content is "lizard family time?".

Now, as you can guess after, I supposed, reading this blog and especially, content tagged with this, well, tag, I use it to tag cute/warm/random/fluffy artwork, headcanons, shitposts and whatnot. As the name suggest, I use it to tag content I like about Nabateans acting like a family.

As for, I supposed, the "lizard" mention that might make people confused, Nabateans are a race of fictional people in a fictional game who can turn in giant beasts, all beasts we have seen so far have reptile-like qualities or are, generally speaking, from the reptile family (a dragon, a turtle, and a... bird/griffin thing). Now, calling them "reptilians" felt a bit too close to a slur, but there were harmless jokes around about Rhea, because of her draconic form, having cold blood thus liking to sit on warm rocks, and I found it cute, thus I adopted the "lizard fam" denomination, and ended up with the "lizard family time?" tag.

Short story, long story : this tag is obvioulsy not meant to convey anti-semitic theories and thoughts about real people in real life, but to tag content about a fantasy race of shapeshifters who sometimes shift in giant reptiles who act as a familial cell.

Which brings me to my second point -

(and one I already developed a bit in the previous post)

Fire Emblem is a series who always had fantasy "humans" interact with another fantasy race of people being able to turn in other creatures, mostly dragons.

Fire Emblem Fodlan's take on those creatures is :

People who were genocided,

People racially profiled by their enemies who had a hand in said genocide,

People who hide those traits,

People who are religious,

People who are depicted by someone as ruling over the world in secret,

People who are depicted by the same someone as "hoarding money" and deceiving everyone,

People whose blood, according to the same someone's rhetoric, corrupts humanity and is the reason why the World sucks,

People who are constantly othered by their enemies, who cannot see them as being able to live with them, nor having "human feelings" because of their race,

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The someone mentionned above comes from a country that names its people with names and surnames (and evern particles!) kind of similar to a real world country.

I do not think the developers of this game wanted to make a "Godwin Points : the Game" version of Fire Emblem, but there are a lot of clues someone who knows even very little of the recent World's History might catch and compare to, well, some events that happened.

As such, I do not think me calling Nabateans "lizard family" is an antisemitic label or calling them "lizards" is the only reason why, to some people, Nabateans are "jewish coded", to borrow your own words. I just made a bullet list of other "reasons" who might lead some people to believe this.

Anyways, I always advocate against insulting people or giving them labels based on their opinions about a bunch of pixels from a fantasy universe, so you can dislike Nabateans and not be called anti-semitic, just like you can not vote for a female character in a harmless poll and not be called a misogynist, just like you can like a bisexual character and not be called a homophobe, etc, etc.

Racism, homophobia, sexism, ableism, antisemitism... are real-life legal concepts and notions that exist and encompass real situations, with real people, and real consequences.

Suggesting I might be anti-semitic because I quote Zephia call the Divine Dragon Alear a "lizard" is ridiculous, when we all know, even you, who sent this ask, what anti-semitism is and what it entails in real life for real people who are subjected to it.

Using real life notions and legal concepts to defend a bunch of pixels is puerile and ultimately says more about the one who is using those notions, thinking they can be easily distorted and used to talk about fantasy characters from a video game made by devs who forgot to hire a continuity guy, than whatever point he wanted to make.

As such, I do not think calling fantasy men and women who can transform in dragons/turtles/griffins-bird things "lizards" is offensive, but bringing up real-life discriminations and situations people are experiencing as we speak, to win an internet argument over fictional characters, is, imho, offensive.

If you do not agree, then you are free to block this blog and the contents I post (curate your Tumblr experience, the block button is here for that!), you can even report it to whoever is in charge of moderating this platform ; I do not think I breached any ToS and if I did, I would much prefer the Tumblr staff to tell me how and why, than someone who sends a message via anon asks who is, from what I can deduce from your ask, annoyed at seeing opinions - as smelly as they can be - about a video game.

Centrists are Zionists be fr. If you’re not for Palestine, you’re aiding zionisism and genocide. I love your blog but sometimes I wonder how you can even like Harry given that he represents pretty much everything you rightfully don’t like.

see, i think u gotta be more careful with not making distinctions bc that's similar to the rhetoric ppl use to equal anti-israel = antisemitic and other bs. i think centrism in this case is cowardly and a cop-out without doubt, as well as willfully closing ur eyes to the very clear situation at hand - but some ppl also are more centrist with their positioning bc they have a job to lose for example. in terms of celebs i think 98% of statements and engagements were centrist tbh, as i said it's mostly about PR for these ppl, but then hozier got jumped for being centrist which i didn't get at all. i thought his statement was very pro-palestine, he shared resources, and it's not even the first time he's stood up for palestine either so idk what some ppl are expecting tbh, this is the best u'll get apart from kehlani. florence, who this message was originally about, did share a "violence from both sides is wrong" typa thing at first too but then she signed the artists for ceasefire letter and shared more pro-palestine stuff.

i don't think harry represents everything i don't like but i'm def a more critical fan of him than others bc of my own moral code etc. i know as a woc my views won't always line up with a rich white man - at the same time i also don't look up to celebrities as moral pillars or political figures tho. obvs i wouldn't support someone who's some far-right idiot or whatever but i also don't expect harry to have the exact same values as me and i'm also not like "oh harry posted about supporting koala babies, i'll do that now", like it's insane to me how there was a statistic that [insert percentage here] of young ppl registered to vote bc tswift posted about it, like i don't need a celeb to tell me that, u know what i mean? i think the stan war that some ppl made out of the israel/palestine situation the past few weeks has actually been very crude. for me personally it's more about how these celebs are using their platform rather than my fave singer posting 3 sentences about how killing children isn't right and that's enough activism for the year lol i don't need the validation that i'm "stanning the right person" but it is good for the movement when someone who has millions and millions of ppl following them, some who do look up to them and value their opinion (see: swifties who signed up for voting), bring awareness to the humanitarian emergency and repost important info/voices. especially in this case hollywood voices matter bc it does bother israel a lot, part of their pr has always been to include celebs to spread their propaganda (see: hailee steinfeld taking pictures with the idf). anyway atp i don't expect harry to say anything, at best it would be a very centrist take as well which it pretty much always is when harry dares to say smth (vote with kindness) and it is disappointing bc he has such a die hard fanbase, but i was more worried that he'd say smth very dumb tbh bc so many ppl around him are so openly pro-israel. his activism has always been lackluster at best and again, i'm personally not expecting him to be the spokesperson for every issue in the world or try look for that from him, but idt anyone can be apolitical in this climate and especially not when u built ur whole brand on kindness.

ok i just read ur last post and i wanna say im so happy u used tolkien to create conflict instead of wendy😭😭 i dont wanna bash other writers but im so happy w the way you did things i love it

iluvshuhua asked:

ALSO i wanna say PLEASSEEE STOP BEING SO NERVOUS ABOUT RM BECAUSE IT IS SOOO GOOD😭😭😭😭 I LOVE IT😭😭😭😭

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hi darling! i hope you don't mind that i combined both you ask messages into one! i thought it might be easier to find both of your questions answered this way, so as not to send you on a wild silly goose chase! <3

i'll leave my answers under the cut! its mostly like a long winded rant about pep love interests/my reasonings and me coming to terms with feeling confident and standing by/loving rm as a fanfic <3

thank you! no shame to other writers either and forgive me for being slightly controversial, but i think painting wendy solely as the villain and making stan out to be this saint is like...quite misogynistic?

like it was definitely a two-sided situation, i think that wendy wanted stan to be something he couldn't, stan tried too hard to be too much and fell short half the time and tbh...stan did probably just blow wendy off a lot for kyle by accident because he was subconciously in love with him. which honestly...wendy is kind of a saint because that would have made me The Joker. but at the same time, i think her and bebe had a similar confusing thing going on.

...and, to me at least, they were just a square peg and a round hole. they ultimately, were not right for each other romantically ( as far as my pep headcannons go, wendy is a lesbian with comphet which...stan is very pretty i get it ) and that's okay! its confusing being a teenager, communicating is hard and stressful and you run back to what you know! you like someone and you just...really want it to work, so you fake it until you make it.

their relationship just never seemed malicious to me. one of my favorite moments in pep actually is chapter three during spin the corona bottle of truth where wendy and bebe kiss and stan and wendy had just broken up...and she looks at stan absolutely horrified because shes scared and stan just smiles at her like everything is going to be okay. it felt like really beautiful closure.

they're just...they really are platonic soulmates to me. like stan is her stan and wendy is his wendy. their souls are intertwined but not in the way they originally thought. i think her and kenny share stans best man/woman speech and bebe and marj share kyles <3 cartman please die...

speaking of cartman. i also did not want to write...sorry to be contreversial again...kyman into pep. that just...pep is really wholesome and wonderful and that was not the energy i wanted to put into it. it has very insidious energy...cartman in pep exists only to be a sort of comic relief antagonist and secretly push the style agenda and thats all.

i did write his character and a lot of the other side characters int the rm world, which is a lot gritter, a lot more fucked up and nightmarish. so look out for all your faves...but probably a little shadow shrouded.

onto tolkien...really, i just leaned pretty heavily into that episode of south park where kyle and tolkien are making the tiktok videos and stan just genuinely seems jealous and mad as hell and distraught the whole time.

like that more than making wendy into this really lame evil exgirlfiend or mucking up my nice fanfiction with evil eric cartman...having our first male lead be sad alcoholic punk rock emo boy golden retriever childhood bff secret crush who is kind of unstable and unreliable with a heart of gold vs. like beautiful well put together mysterious well spoken very reliable and stable boy billionaire...millionaire...opulent...idk hes rich.

he just felt like the right second male lead for my sweet emotional cute little heartstopper romantic coming of age dramedy.

and i felt really bad putting tolkien in that position to be villainized because he really is an amazing and warm character! but again...i did need some kind of catalyst for chaos. my apologies tolkien.

also...to me, he is really not a villian? like hes a high school senior who likes a boy. which is hard enough. you make a lot of mistakes in hs and do a lot of things you regret. like i feel like tolkien regrets saying those awful things to stan and stan vice versa. the grass is always greener and they are perfect foils.

plus i have definitely been very heinous to people i have considered my romantic rivals over stupid crushes ive had. hes not a villian...him and stan just like the same beautiful ginger boy and handled it immaturely. but they have the makings to be great friends tbh, they are both kind and lovely. i too would go to war for kyle matthew broflovski.

no tolkien slander! tolkien i'm sorry i nerfed you and fed you to the wolves in peppermint! YALL BE NICE TO TOLKIEN WHEN I WRITE HIM INTO RM! ITS MY TOLKIEN REDEMPTION ARC!

okay, moving onto the rm portion of your ask: thank you so much.

i'm so glad that you love it because i really love it! and messages like this really ground and validate me in writing my truth.

i think that a lot of my anxiety comes from how randomly successful peppermint was and the fact that it has 7k hits? 7.6k i think? but also...the tags right now are so dry, a lot of the sp fandom has died out and i am posting r.m. at a time here it is probably not going to get the same traction as peppermint...and i'm trying to tell myself that that is okay! it is just...overwhelming knowing one of your fanfictions has 500 views n the other one has 7,000.

also, another thing that made me nervous about it is that i am writing a lot more side characters into rm? which is scary because i have only really honed stan and kyle ( but i will say i do feel very comfortable writing kenny, bebe and marjs personalities...their backstories with their families is a little nervewracking though ) so i am scared of misrepresenting those side characters from a lack of information.

rm is also...kind of loose in terms of south park. it does have a strong baseline in south park but i built a very different world around it. like even raven and jersey, who very clearly from name, are stan and kyle but very different characterizations of regular stan and kyle. so i can understand why people might be heistant to read it. its a lot easier/more palatable to read pep, in the regular sp setting, with regular stan and kyle just chapstick scented...then immerse yourself into rm, get used to crazy law student jerseykyle and mysterious punk rock star ravenstan and that its in new york and...more grown up.

but! the people who love rm...really love it.

and that is enough for me to keep writing it and feel good about it.

it has a very loving and attentive fanbase in all of you, while i am still piecing it together...i do feel strongly about my lore, world building, characterization and storytelling ability through rm. and i am learning to stop beating myself up for shit i cant control. <3

rm is a good fanfiction, it makes me happy, i like it a lot, i think its cool as fuck, i think its vey iconic that the boys can flirt and get sent to horny jail in rm, i like the drama, the mystery...i would rather it be well loved intimately than put under the microscope the way i felt pep was sometimes because of its popularity.

thank you for validating me and i am excited to share my stories with you and all of you.

-uncle nina <3

Giving the Ikesen guys modern outfits (because I can) <Pt. 2>

Yeah, we’re doing this. I've probably put way too much thought and time into this. But at this point I have to share it. Why the Ikesen guys, you ask? Because they have the most traditional clothes, especially seeing that nowadays western-style fashion is present everywhere! Let's get it!

→ PART 1 HERE, if you missed it!

How did this post even came alive? Tbh, I was just browsing Pinterest and one of my secret hobbies is that I like to thirst over fashion runways and designer stuff. Not that I would ever buy them, or have the money to buy them, but I still enjoy it for some reason haha. So one time, I was looking at an outfit and suddenly a warlord popped into my head. That's when I decided that I'll do a full detailed research on this. Inspired mainly by their armors and color palettes. (First I thought about drawing the outfits myself, but my drawing skills are questionable, so I edited them instead. My editing skills are better, I promise.)

Also, as I said; these are from fashion runways, so almost everything is from luxury brands and/or quality designers. So not the 'typical' street fashion, because I figured it would be more interesting this way. Plus since I needed a lot of jackets and blazers for the guys, I'm thanking Balmain, because most of these are from their shows XD.

Takeda Shingen

At first this wasn't quite the outfit I invisioned for him, but after I completed it... You know, it's for the better. He needed something big, something voluminous. I also got mafia boss vibes, like with Nobunaga and this time I really went for it with the coat. The one-piece suit underneath gives a nice contrast and introduces a new accent color! This isn't really in Shingen's palette, but it did good for the whole picture. I was hesitant once again about the boots, but other shoes would have looked wrong so, Shingen will slay the high lace up boots! I added a subtle accessory to his big coat and a hat as well. I feel like he would look good in it!

Uesugi Kenshin

I found a lot of big, fancy fur coats for him, but I ended up using the smallest and the least fluffy out of them haha. Kenshin is elegant and graceful. They mention it all the time when he's fighting or when they talk about his mere presence. But he's ruthless as well. So something 'painfully' beautiful was the idea. It's a mix of styles and textures with the big fur and checkered jacket, but the long satin suit with a trail underneath. Plus black dress pants. And I may or may not have given him discreet high heels. He needs to look taller next to Shingen lol. He got leather gloves as well, it was to make the outfit complete!

Akechi Mitsuhide

I know his official nickname in the game is the kitsune, but c'mon! There so many cool clothing pieces with snake designs! I. Just. Had. To. The simple shirt and long skirt-like pants underneath his green coat are to tone down the outfit, because of the pattern. He got some fancy leather dress shoes, in sleek black color as well! Then the coolest piece in my opinion is that big, bedazzled snake that is hanging around his neck! I also wanted to put something to his waist, to make a contrast, then I found these funky glasses with similar snakey design, also some resemblance to the biblical term 'serpent in paradise'.

Kicho

Well, Kicho is canonically a woman in history. So I dared to give him a more feminine silhouette and garments. His outfit is the most subtle and simplest beside Kanetsugu's. (And mostly my style, I would gladly wear this! XD) The pants' material and its color shifts slightly, so it has an elegant feeling! I also gave him discreet heels, unintentionally this time haha. The top is a shorter winter coat, made from a thicker material and I have to admit that the detail in the front wasn't there at first. I cut it out from a dress and edited it on and it was a really good idea! Plus Kicho got a small Gucci handbag, because he's THE beauty king lol.

Mori Ranmaru

I don't know why I associated him immediately with butterflies, but it's a thing now! At first I found this adorable coat/poncho and I knew I had to use it! But I needed something under it, so this simple white turtleneck seemed a good contrast. Then the slightly loose pants just looked too cute with the boots! So overall I think it's and adorable, lively outfit, just like Ranmaru! It's not as colorful but I can definitely imagine it on him!

Ishida Mitsunari

I admit, maybe I've gone a little overboard with him. Again I'm not sure why I associated these long, dangling pieces of fabric to his outfit, but Mitsunari would look absolutely precious! It's a bit chaotic over there, I made it from a lot of asymmetrical coats, dresses, suits. Also the colors are a bit random, but I think it could work? He would make it look good, any day! There's also a graceful vibe to both the outfit and Mitsunari!

Tokugawa Ieyasu

I had different plans for him at the beginning as well. I wanted a darker color palette and a 'skater-boy' theme, if it makes sense? But in the end that's how it came out. I feel funny about the printed pants, but he rocks it! I had some problems with the white turtleneck under the asymmetric coat, it still looks weird the way it's under it, but I hope it's not that disturbing! The colors are mostly muted, but that dark, wine red does good for the full picture!

Sarutobi Sasuke

I'll be honest, I feel the least accomplished and proud about this piece but I tried! I wanted to mimic his ninja outfit, but spice things up with this so-called 'tech-wear'? Tech fashion, I think that's how they call this kind of style. I had this idea because it matched him as a ninja, as an astrophysicist and a genius in general haha. I tried to put some more color into it, than the muted grays, I hope it helped!

Kennyo

I really wanted to keep the traditional feeling of his robes this time! I think I gathered good materials for it, but the top robes look a bit weird and all-over-the-place. The pants are baggy, and maybe the black is too much, but it doesn't need to be colorful, it's Kennyo we're talking about haha. Don't ask about his shoes, I just went with it, it felt right. The purple cape thing behind him was a last-minute idea, but I think it was a good decision to bring back his another main color, beside this dark yellowish shade!

Well, this was quite the work!

Especially writing the descriptions, but I definitely wanted to do them, to show what were my intentions and ideas! I hope it's understandable and not that repetitive!

Hope you enjoyed!

You're just the chill person in the fandom, you never have any drama, which is pretty cool

Thank you!! I had a few misunderstandings before, which I think it's pretty normal especially on a text-based medium, but I try my best to not give in to endless arguments because in my experience, I feel that once a debate starts, it's hard to solve it because everyone just wants to 'dominate' the discussion and the actual topic that sparkled the argument becomes less and less relevant as it gets charged and amplified with other things.

Not blaming this phenomenon per se, I think dominance is a natural instict that tends to drive all creatures, most humans hopefully only exercise it in the form of verbal/textual fights but the primal force that drives it is the same - to be right, hence to survive.

I've had my fair share of feeling upset and physically sick over online quarrels, but as years went by and I became more mature, I realized that I shouldn't allow some pixels on a screen to affect my mood so badly, it is unhealthy for anyone who constantly exposes themselves and engages in such things. So, for self-care before and foremost, I decided I'd start doing all I can to avoid myself getting involved in it. I care about myself and so I can't allow myself to have trembling hands while I type a reply, I don't want to shiver and feel hot at the same time, I don't want drama to poison all of my thoughts and find myself turning over and over on the bed with my legs kneading into the mattress to release stress because my nerves can't relax enough.

During my break from the Hetalia fandom is when I slowly learnt this lesson. I found myself occasionally being blocked or unfollowed for mere misunderstandings or simply because the kind of content I was providing was no longer pleasurable for someone else. Yet those people didn't actually leave me on bad terms. So, I realized that those actions aren't made to make others mad, but simply out of self-love, and it's very valid, healthy even! So that's when I started curating my dashboard, I unfollowed or even blocked people whose posts tended to give me a negative emotional response rather than positive. Not because I hated them, no, they're free to do whatever they wish with their blog and so do I. And, out of all the arguments I happened to have in the past (mostly in the Pokémon fandom, tbh), maybe just 2 or 3 times it ended with my interlocutor or me changing our mind. All the other times, it ended at the exact same spot where it started, neither them nor I changed opinion and the only outcome was feeling angry and stressed over the two cents of some stranger online.

Many people use their virtual space to cope, and one way you can cope is to have a corner all for yourself away from negativity and drama of any kind, because perhaps you already experience enough of it in other parts of your life, and so you want a little, safe island all for yourself. It's not a crime, it's not a lack of respect, it's healthy. Stop for a minute and ask yourself "is what I'm feeling right now a good emotion? Is this making my mind feel better, or is it polluting my thoughts? What do I hope to get out of this interaction? Is my hoped outcome likely, or is it not?". We have a saying in Italian, it's "the game is not worth the candle". It means, if after some thought it turns out the negative effects something has or could have on you might be more than the likeliness of a positive outcome, then it is fine and wise to call yourself out. It's not a defeat, it's self-preservation.

Tag Game to Better Know You

tagged by the very lovely @zozobruh thank you SO much for thinking of me <3

What book are you currently reading?

it WAS Time is a Mother, the poetry collection by Ocean Vuong, but it's currently lost on the london subway :( next on the list though is Secret History, my friend got it for me for christmas and I really wanna start!!!

what’s your favorite movie you saw in theaters this year?

I'm ngl I don't think I've been to the cinema yet this year!! But I'm very excited for Asteroid City (which I might get to see this week) and Barbie. I am becoming very unhinged about Barbie tbh-

I will say though, I REALLY wanna see Banshees of Inisherin that u mentioned in ur own post!!!

what do you usually wear?

monochrome (with the occaisional splash of red or blue), short skirt & long jacket (like the cake song), lots of jacket pins. I wore a dress on saturday that was a bit risky in terms of my dysphoria but i FUCKING LOVED IT ACTUALLY. I also adore my new barbie crop top-

how tall are you

5 foot 10-ish I think??

what’s your star sign? do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event?

I'm an aires and I have the same birthday as Nathan Fillion, Mariah Carey, Christine Sydelko from Vine & apparently a bunch of tiktok stars I've never heard of lmao

do you go by your name or a nickname?

my name, Envy. A couple of people have tried V against my will, I hate it tbh

did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child?

When I was a child I did not even know I was a girl lmao. I wanted to be a rockstar and I *am* in a band though, so????

are you in a relationship? if not, who is your crush if you have one?

oh boy lmao (I'm single and mostly fine with it. I think I need to figure myself out a bit before I think too much about this one)

what’s something you’re good at vs something you’re bad at?

I am good at playing guitar. Not great, competent. I lack the focus to really grind out the practice to break the barrier into being Really Really Good at something. So I guess I'm bad at learning??? But my actual answer to that is I'm bad at picking up on social queues/figuring out where I stand with people

dogs or cats?

I love them both, I love going to someone's house and they have a dog, but I'd personally rather live with a cat

if  you draw/write, or create in any way, what’s your favorite  picture/favorite line/favorite etc. from something you created this  year?

A lot of what I've written this year are song lyrics that are NOT ready for anyone else's eyes lmao. You can have this little snippet from an Our Flag Means Death fic I'm working on though:

The dull Toronto sky barely seemed real as Ed stared gloomily out of his studio apartment window. The whole city felt fleeting, a hastily-painted backdrop to an imitation of life that looked as if it could start peeling away at any moment. He remembered coming here with his mother as a teenager, resenting the city’s skyscrapers for blocking his view of home, all the friends he had to leave behind. It was childish to feel that way again, Ed thought, but he also knew he couldn’t help it. Stede made him happier than he’d ever thought possible, and everything that came between them was cruel in its indifference. They hadn’t arranged when to see each other again – that was normal, Ed needed to know his schedule before he could commit, and he normally called from a payphone once he had something to offer. But the wait until then didn’t make it any easier.

what is something that you’d like to create content for?

I want to make a video game lmao. I started designing a top-down shooter a while ago to see how it felt and I. It activated all the special interest neurons in my brain I want to make game mechanics and spend ages making little pixel art icons bc I will get v obsessive about the art style and- but that's not really what the question was lmao. Uh. I've only recently started getting into writing fanfic and stuff, I'm writing for Our Flag Means Death right now but I had some ideas in high school for Doctor Who fics that I might dust off at some point-

what’s something you’re currently obsessed with?

YuGiOh, our flag means death, whatever Ryan Gosling has going on right now

what’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year?

my year has NOT been going how i expected it to at all and some of it stings a bit, I won't lie, but that's unfair of me because things are really, really good when I get over myself and really think about it. I am happy, I'm just a little bit insane, but I'm leaving the place that is making my mental health tank in about a month so things are looking up!! and they were already good, I just!!!

what’s a hidden talent of yours?

I am good at So Few Things, I would not hide a talent, I am trying to seem like a good hire

are you religious?

No, but I think the sense of community and catharsis and connection to something so much bigger than myself I get when I see my favourite artists at a concert is close to the feeling I think a lot of people are chasing, and can feel, when explorign their faith. I would say I'm some kind of spiritual but I think that feeling just comes from Us, not because there's something Bigger out there

what’s something you wish to have at this moment?

A reason to leave this island Right Now I'm moving up north to be with my friend in a month and I could NOT be more excited but this is going to be the longest month of my life lmao

going to tag @school-marm-charm if u fancy sharing!! No pressure though <3

re: your tags on the post defending people being dramatique about reblogs; whoever ghosted you over that is a dick, but also there has GOT to be a happy medium between "fuck you if you don't reblog everything you feel positively about" and "fuck you for asking for reblogs" like omg, tumblrinas plz, i am begging for like half an ounce of nuance i know this is the internet but please for the love of the blorbos stop the madness *headdesk*

I mean, yeah, I don't actually think guilt/shame is a good motivation for engaging with fandom, for a lot of different reasons, and tbh the overall tone of the post I just reblogged is probably more abrasive or something than what I've reblogged before or said myself. I mostly just reblogged this one because apparently I can't get over how hurt I feel over the whole basically-being-ghosted-by-a-long-term-friend thing (especially given that it made me feel really insane in a specifically neurodivergent way, like, "either I have massively misinterpreted literally everything about this relationship for years because I fundamentally don't understand friendship or social interactions in general, or you didn't mean anything you said to me, or you changed the rules at some point and didn't tell me").

but it's also just...deeply frustrating that even the mildest posts saying "if you don't do some very basic things to support the fanworks you like, you will start seeing a lot less of those fanworks, because those creators will get discouraged and stop producing it" gets categorized as whining or guilt-tripping when it isn't, it's literally just describing cause and effect. there are other posts scolding fan creators for expressing that discouragement or asking for a little damn engagement because we just want to feel like we're part of a community, all of which just contributes to the atmosphere of discouragement.

and it feels increasingly bizarre to me the more time I spend on Instagram, following all kinds of artists and small businesses, all of whom talk a lot about how important engagement is to what they do and how much their work lives and dies by The Algorithm and how crucial it is for people to take a few seconds and boost stuff they like because otherwise it just gets lost to the void, and I don't see the same backlash there of "well you should just be satisfied with creating for yourself, you shouldn't worry about stats, stop whining for attention, stop guilt-tripping people," whatever. granted, it's a different matter when there's money involved, because with a small business whose only source of advertising is social media, we're talking about someone's actual livelihood, but there's a huge amount of crossover with literally any artist--fanartist or otherwise--given that loads of them do also have Patreons or Ko-fi links or shops with physical items, or maybe they don't start out that way but when they build an audience organically they're able to bring in some actual money. and I've definitely seen people who aren't primarily selling things, who really are just producing art as a hobby, but still ask people to share their stuff because it encourages them to make more, and that seems to be seen as perfectly legitimate, except on Tumblr and also Reddit. fanfic is a little different because it's inherently an extremely bad idea to monetize, so there isn't the angle of "of course you want to share this so your favorite writer can keep food on the table!" but it doesn't seem like a huge stretch to say it follows a similar principle, right? if you like it, it just makes sense to support it in some small way, because then you're more likely to keep getting it? and if you don't make any effort to support it, then you can't complain when you stop getting it? (making this very basic point got me downvoted on r/Fanfiction because of course it did.)

and, I don't know, I personally get really discouraged begging for reblogs, and it would feel a lot better if I didn't have to. not even just my own fic (although, yes, especially that), but original posts about helpful resources or awesome Kickstarters or fic recs or cool free games or "hey this artist is doing charity commissions, look at their awesome art, please reblog so they can raise money for this important cause" mostly just all kinda fall into the void. not that I'm at all unique in that respect, obviously; anyone who doesn't have a big audience deals with that frustration (while people who do have big audiences get to deal with different problems, as I understand it, although I certainly wouldn't know from experience). it just sucks, you know?

For the latest ask meme: 🍭 🪄 💌

Hi there my dear! 🧡

🍭why did you start writing?

I've been writing creatively since I was a kid, although it has waxed and waned as an adult. In terms of fanfiction, I've only written for Bridgerton and its all here lol. What made me start writing for this show? This scene right here is mostly to blame lolol. Also I saw posts around that time saying people thought Benedict would probably secretly be a bit kinky… and Sonnet 29 just fell out of my head.

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic?

I post and then freak out and go offline for a few hours. Every time its a mixture of relief it's written and anxiety it's not good enough for the requester. Yeah I know it's supposed to be fun haha. And usually try to catch up on sleep as I often write in the wee hours when I have insomnia. I don't 'celebrate myself' at all - that sounds very strange to my ear (I'm British, we will roast ourselves to hell and back before we would ever compliment ourselves lol). So yeah post and ghost is my style lol.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

Oh so I have a queue of requests, which I'm aware is a huge privilege, but also a burden of expectation around doing a good job for all these lovely folks. Some of those are exciting but they are so nascent I have no idea how I'm going to write most of them. I was excited to write It Had To Be You, but it takes a backburner to requests (it's really just a love letter to my fave movie, that precisely no one asked for haha) and tbh I have no steam left in my tanks for it at the moment.

Thanks for your ask lovely 😁🧡🧡