hey. can we talk about how juno steel starts with juno and nureyev looking into a mask and then throughout the entire series they always keep up some type of facade with each other and with other people

Just did the Elminster interaction in Act 2, and it really is so so sad just how...agreeable Gale is to dying for Mystra's favor.

I really really despise her, just to start. Preying on young wizards (based off what I've seen/what Gale told me/the line Minsc says about how his people keep their boys and younger men away from Mystra to keep them safe) to groom them from literal childhood to be her desired? Disgusting shit. The power balance aside (because there is no way you could ever balance those scales), the fact she tossed him aside when his desire to give her something that would allow him to learn more (which is all he wanted) just shows how little she ever cared. To have a goddess dump you for a mistake, only to come back and tell you to kill yourself for her forgiveness is monstrous to the normal person.

Gale? He says yes.

You get a scene before the Ketheric fight where he's sitting under a starry sky he conjures(?), and he's so scared of dying for her. Gale obviously is struggling with this decision as you make your way through Act 2, and to have him crack and show how he truly feels, despite trying to grin and bear it is so sad :(

He doesn't want to face the fact that he doesn't want to, that the feeling that should be "deep down" is actually right along the surface, screaming to him that he doesn't have to die for her, he can do so much more in this life. Tav is that voice but above the surface, and the way you hear his voice hitch when they're in Moonrise Towers when he tries to go and prepare himself live in my head rent free.

In conclusion, Mystra can go yeet herself into hell.

Thank you for coming to my TavTalk

WHY does wine taste so bad

oh shit

hey guys, how many calories do you think were contained in a single shot of Ahab's Crosshairs? time sensitive question.

This has been my experience on T so far. I'm having fun.

gender is a performance and the trope for today is Dramatic Irony, with themes of Change, Multidimensionality, and Personhood

I need to kiss a man on the mouth NOW

why you so rodot

the robot is mostly just my legs tbh }:p /j

men should be covered in blood more often. so should women. so should most people. its very sexy of them.

changed my T method from injection to gel a couple days ago and I'm so fucking mad??? this is so easy? it's quicker, less stressful, and overall about the same cost (approx $0.68 per day vs approx $0.60 per day). admittedly it is a slight lower dose (141.75 mg per week vs 200) but yknow what! if its too low we can always increase it (admittedly doubling the price but eh) and I am more than willing to pay a bit extra for not having to deal with doing an injection every 7 days. it sucked! for me personally. I have no issues with needles, but for some reason my body just reacted very poorly to it (spasming, pain, went temporarily half deaf and blind the 2nd time I did it). I dreaded it every Tuesday! this is so much easier!!! Cannot believe I made myself do like 9 months of injections I am insane. wtf.

I just got orthotics to correct the pronation in my knees and holy shit. there's so much less pain and fatigue just from standing.

I love my friends

I don't think I tell this to them enough. I think i tell it to them too much. I think all the words in the world couldn't capture my care for them, but I think a biting emote does it pretty well. I think-no I know-they love me too, but I think that can be hard to remember some of the time. I think that knowing that, and that love in general is a journey. I think its a process. I think it's something you can't ever get completely right and I think that's the beauty of it. I think the beauty is hoping (because it's hard for me to let myself know) that they'll be there for a long time yet. I think it's terrifying letting myself be known and loved again and again. I think its horrible how every time we make plans for years down the line there's a nagging pit in the back of my mind that tells me I'm fooling myself. that we won't know each other in 2 years because why would any friendship last that long. why should these people be any different than the ones who came before. that I'm expecting too much. but i think you have to do it anyway. i think if you don't, it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. an ouroboros cut off from anyone or anything else. and I don't think that's the type of life I want to lead. I think in a lot of ways I'm still an anxious kid who's hoping their friends don't leave them behind. I think in a lot of ways I've grown from that kid. I think little kid me would look at the friends I have now and cry. I think they would cry out of joy and i think they would cry out of horrible tremendous grief that it took us this long to find people like them. I don't know if they'd be able to believe that this one will be the one to finally stick. I think sometimes I have a very hard time believing that myself. Some days it is all I can do to stop myself from being the one who leaves first. Or to let myself be lost in the background. or to stop any number of thoughts about how I don't deserve them and they know it creep into the forefront of my mind. I think it is later than I really should be awake, all things considered, but I think I need to express my love and my fear somewhere. I love my friends so much.

was looking at myself in the mirror and facial hair is starting to grow in ‼ Really small mustache hairs but like! holy shit! that's mine!!! I grew that!!! And during practice today I noticed that I'm 90% sure that my arm hair has gotten thicker/darker/longer whatever and just. I'm so fucking happy???

Foaming at the mouth I fucking love being trans. I love being part of my own creation I love the inherent freedom from gender binaries (if I'm not going to be passively percieved as masc by most people anyway then why not get silly with it) I love it! I love being a tranny!!! I love my girlhood I love growing into a man I love being accepted into the fold by groups of guys. I just. I love being trans!!!

"gender is stored in this" "gender is stored in that" WRONG. Gender is disposed of in the Sharps Container.