Gotta love working with a man who rubs your face in it every time he "helps" with anything. 🙄 He also does it every time you miss anything. But if he misses something it's not a big deal.
Scale still broken. It kinda looked like 184, which is not quite possible but I am saying 184 to my brain so I can be super super happy today.
I am still eh on my job. I want nothing more than to quit and take the summer off. But money, fuck.
I just want to be able to go for walks whenever, read all my books, clean, caregive without trying to work all day every day.
I probably need more time off.
My vacation was amazing, I tried to stay as cheap as possible. Did I lug around bags of veggies & home made food? Yes I did.
I did spend a couple dollars on coffee/tea, & 1 lunch out. I didn't suffer food envy.
It was good. Apparently they don't make my favorite jello treat anymore, so that was sad. Lucky I saved some of the containers, I made myself some yesterday. Lime flavored. Not my favorite but it will have to do.
Current goals for habit/behavior:
2.5 hours + standing.
Hydration
Daily walks
1/2 hour cardio
3x weighted workouts
Continue to lose weight until I hit goal.
I am apparently so over the weight loss part already, I just want to be at goal already. I figure 20-30 more pounds. That will still leave me heavier than a normal gal but it will allow me to focus on body recomp and calorie maintenance.
I don't want to spend money on clothes, knowing that they may change again soon. Ugg.
What else? I want to quit my job. Did I say that already? 🤣
I had a conversation with my supervisor this evening about why I’m not going to train the 2 “a/p bookkeepers” in my department on what I do and I’m not going to pick up what they do. Because I’m not a bookkeeper (my title is a/p clerk) and I get paid shitty pay and I’m not going to equalize our jobs until our jobs and pay are equal. If they want that done, they can wait until I leave this job and they hire someone else. Or they can give me a big fat raise and change my title. Until then, I will do exactly what is on my AOA.
I just got so pissed talking to my supervisor (who is also a very dear friend of mine). It’s kind of amazing how people’s tunes change when they become part of management. Like, she is getting screwed over in pay and responsibilities just as much as I am if not more, and yet she was sitting there telling me what our boss says about this and that and making excuses like it’s the gospel.
I don’t understand the loyalty our boss gets from people, either. Just because she drank the kool aid doesn’t mean I have to. And you can damn well 100% count on the fact that she will toe the company line (which exists to make money because it’s not a non-profit) (that’s literally why every company exists unless they are a non-profit) before she will try to give her people a fair deal. She is not there to give her people a fair deal. She is there to help the company make money. WE THE EMPLOYEES are the only ones who will stand up for ourselves. Unless we have a union, no one else is there for us besides us. That’s just how it is. I don’t understand why anyone thinks any different.
when my work takes 4 grant proposals I did a shit ton of work on, but they never cosigned, and throws them in a blender, filters off all the important details, and then claims my bosses/coworkers totally came up with it all on their own and then demand I help them with proposed cost and what to prioritise WHEN NONE OF ITS MY FUCKING JOB!!!
I was in some real barrel-scraper group projects back in high school, but even the worst of my teachers assigning the worst of said projects didn't just flat refuse to respond when I asked to be shown a skill I needed to complete my portion of them, which puts them miles ahead of the team I currently work for as a mid-career professional with 2.5 years' tenure at this company.