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oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

tervis (oc) sightings

/ id: three screenshots from the video game pathologic. tervis, a hunched figure wearing long hooded robes and carrying a walking staff, has been digitally painted into each scene. the first shows tervis crouching on a metal walkway between two buildings in the factory district. the second shows tervis with their hand pressed against an infected house, looking balefully out into the night. the third shows tervis sitting against the wall of the railway station, observing the trains. end id. /

there’s no way i’m actually watching a youtube video on how to right click with the touchpad like a grandma what

oh yeah. the reason why i decided to reread tbhk (and thus it was able to hit me like a truck this time around) was actually not bc of mitsukou going canon but actually bc i maybe accidentally started a tbhk book club w my kids at work and wanted to check the contents of it justttt in case before i put the books in their hands

i feel like one day ill be 37 sitting in my studio with no ideas on what to draw and will think "hmmm. ill just draw men" and start sketching, and then when im finished ill look at the paper and dave strider will be there staring right back at me

gonna get personal in the tags sorryyyyy

shit i ran out of tags to use GKBKGKDKKDBJDMBMN ok rest under a read more 😭

so okay basically my doctor said sure i'll write you the prescription and also wait should i add it to your regularly taken meds page (so i can request it with a click when i run out)? and i was like yeah that'd be nice and i tried to explain that i thought i would only need for a short period of time but i still need it after many months so... but like he didn't care about the why lol

and anyway now that this has happened i'm like. gonna try to Stop doing what i was doing. there is no good reason to be in pain all the time and make my life harder when taking that dose of my med was working okay and making things considerably better. i don't need to punish myself. this is like so so so hard for me to internalize. being disabled is not a fault. even if it might be my "fault", even if i lowkey feel like i might have contributed to the condition i am in with like, bad choices or whatever, it's still not right to punish myself for it. i'm already unwell, i'm already suffering, what's making it worse gonna do to help? why do i need to feel worse just so i can think i got what i deserve for being in pain in the first place?

so yeah. going back to the higher dose. i hope that makes me feel less pain. i hope i can work without hating every second of it again. i do still hope one day i can get better and not need this med anymore, it's not like i've given up on that bc tbh a lot's still unclear and i will try and see if i can find answers. but in the meantime, no more punishing myself. i need to be okay. i want to be okay.

why do my sims playthroughs always turn kinda fucked up :'D

i think i actually owe my life to sony's noise cancelling headphones like quite literally

realized my math was wrong for how many credits i need and i need 2 more credits in any elective so i've just been looking through for the funniest classes to take. rn i've found an online walking class. where you walk. but it's an online class. it's worth 2 credits i might do it

awww basketball again

The second leg of the Stadium Tour is almost here, so I took it upon myself to make an all new bingo! Thats right folks, 24 brand new potential events that may or may not happen, all here in one place👌🏽 the good, the bad and the chaotic!

eighteen year old me: man i am not able to sit through everywhere at the end of time all in one go. i had to listen in three parts over a whole week just because it was too much at some moments, ya know?

twenty four year old me, who just sat through the entire six hour runtime and even had a couple glasses of wine during it:

I should post more here, but i just havent been playing ttrpgs at all lately and havent been having Ideas or anything. I could try to make fandom posts more often, but the dimension 20 fandom has gotten So Big since I was last a poster in it. I missed a single season like season five or something, and my horrible ADHD means i’ve been playing a very slow game of catchup. I try to watch a season if I catch it while it’s coming out but it still takes me a while, but i’ve skipped so many seasons in the process and I wanna go back and watch them but i never find the time anymore.

Especially because the dropout app on my phone is lowkey broken, if i play it Picture in Picture or while my screen is off for Just Audio, the app stops and i have to reopen it to resume, so i just keep the video open but i cant do anything else when i’m watching dropout cuz it closes, and i can’t just go desktop cuz my main podcast hours are when i’m walking to work. Is there a Spotify rss link? 

Anyway, i had a riz gukgak type url a few years ago, and then i totally deleted my entire main blog so. Actually, no, i just Moved??? I think i either forgot my password or- Oh no right, my DMs were broken and i got tired of it :(

Anyway, enough rambling, I was just reminiscing, I’m a littol stoned, but i’m really enjoying Burrow’s End. I’m on the finale rn but i opened tumblr and it closed and i havent reopened it yet cuz i Wanna Blog, and so i’m gonna get back to it in two minutes, but maybe I will try to post more :)

there are some bits of what they did with the rooftop scene that i like and others where i was like :/ this isn't as good as it could be. and this is an important scene lmao