successfully revamped my blog theme !!!

shilling debut or die like pls pls pls learn abt testar pls pls pls be interested in these silly singing boys who must brave the waters of malicious supernatural beings and antis

WAIT BIG BRAINED THOUGHT:

Sam does smth stupid hoping Dean won't find out.

Someone rats Sam out to Dean.

Sam gets in trouble and a lecture from Dean (bc Dean is a parent and he is Sam's parent I will not accept criticism on this matter).

Later, Sam makes a group chat consisting of everyone who could have told on him to Dean and just sends this video:

im gonna vent in your askbox i hope thats alright, but genuinely deangirls who are also hellers are so. delusional. like even if someone doesnt "ship" wincest like... incest is a theme of the show? like you cannot meaningfully do analysis of the wincest show without talking about wincest. and when hellers try to make every moment about destiel (even when it would be more apt to talk about wincest, like in the siren episode!!) it just. frustrates me so bad. i feel like samgirls + wincesties have a better understanding of the themes of the show (esp s1-5) like. genuinely.

ok to be frank, i wasn't originally gonna post this and just let it sit in my inbox/be deleted and you got your vent and etc. but i'm gonna use it to push back a little in places i'm frustrated with the wank in this fandom. i'm sorry that it's your ask, anon, that prompted this--i have nothing against you, and completely understand your frustration. however.

(btw, in good faith, i'm going to take your usage of "hellers" to be like extreme destiel-only shippers, not chill destiel shippers, as per the original meaning of the term. also note that everything i say here is based on my experience of the FIRST FIVE SEASONS, aka core spn.)

i agree that incest is a big theme of the show--or i should say, incest subtext. there is no actual incest between the show's main family (aka the winchesters) aside from mary's demon deal. is this due to the network? is this due to kripke's creative vision? we'll never know. it can't be ignored within a full analysis of the show, but to say that one can't have meaningful analysis of the show without discussing the incest subtext ignores the conversation that supernatural has with masculinity/gender, american folklore, race, class, etc--whether these conversations are done well or not. i'm not saying you are doing this, but there is a tendency of wincest shippers, as with destiel shippers, to focus solely on sam and dean's relationship, as if there is literally nothing else that matters in the show, which is just blatantly false and prevents people from having a fuller understanding of the show, just as wincest shippers claim to be frustrated about.

and the other thing is that yes, while i do feel that wincesties (using this broadly to also encompass the entire winchester family) have a better understanding of the show than those who don't engage with the incest subtext, i don't actually think that samgirls or deangirls better understand the show over one another. i know i jokingly make posts about this, but it's mainly out of frustration with the dean-centric hellscape that is what the spn fandom is. the true fact of the matter is that it doesn't matter who your favorite character is, it just matters the way in which you understand their motivations and engage with that. i'm sometimes critical of dean because i love him, but i think a lot of the stuff he does gets glossed over by both the fandom and the show, while sam does enough self-bashing on top of the bashing canon already gives him, resulting in a fandom who, when combined with ignoring him in favor of destiel, doesn't choose to engage with the text critically and question why the narrative repeatedly slams sam but praises dean, when they both are complicated people. but i don't think that means you have to necessarily be a samgirl to fully understand the text. especially if you're ignoring dean's plights and positioning of victimhood/survivorship (as sam is too) because he's just not your favorite character. imo it makes someone just as short-sighted.

Top 5 times Misha ruined supernatural

Wow that's a great one @chiazu thank you!!

I mean I could just say by being himself and ugly but you said top 5 so here goes.

I will try and make this all Misha and not Asstiel moments.

Top 5 times Misha ruined Supernatural.

1.) Sucking up to Singer. Alot of things I will mention here is due to the fact Misha sucked up to Singer and became his little pet. Eye bags is smart and knows whose ass to kiss.

2.) Staying WELL over his time. Asstiel never should have came out of that lake in S7. But again friends with Singer, so when Sera fucked up the budget and Singer got more control of course eye bags comes back. And Misha says yes because again he knows he will NEVER get a gig like SPN again.

3.) Forcing his way into photoshoots. Again cause he was friends with Singer (and took a pay cut cause the man is just an attention whore and cares more about being seen then money.) He gets to be the 3rd wheel and stick out like an ugly sore thumb off the show now as well as on it. Also then his fans think he is a lead. Lol no.

4.) Taking away from Mark.S finally SPN scene/Crowley dying. I think this was more Singer/Dabb giving Mark.S a big fuck you. Just like taking him out of the bloopers in S12. For daring to point somethings out to them. But I'm sure Misha really had to be forced into getting attention too. Having Asstiel die in a lame way isn't a bad thing. I mean it's what his character deserves but to do it right after Crowley and when we all knew Asstiel would be back yeah. Fuck Singer and Misha for that one. They would rather piss off one of the few good actors on the show and keep the useless dead weight cause one sucks up to them while other who can act btw dares to say something.

5.) Now the show is over instead of being thankful and showing appreciation to the show that put up with his talentless ass. Eye bags forever the classy good looking man he is. Wants attention and pandering to shippers only does so much. So now he wants everyone to believe he was picked on and he had a smaller trailer then J2.

Well duh you fucking cunt, your an over the hill bad actor, side character. While they are the stars of the fucking show. You wouldn't have a job without them. Remember you didn't have a job for over a year without them? Singer go only do so much for you.

And that he didn't enjoy working on the show. While not outright saying J2 where Jerks to him (cause he still needs to let on to Cockley cunts he and Jensen are BFFs in RL.) But hinting enough to get sympathy and make J2/SPN look bad.

He can't even lie convincingly because if the show was that bad and the environment so awful. Why come back after S7? Why take a pay cut to stay on? Why cry like a bitch when you found out J2 wanted to move on?

I know you said 5 things which I did but you can't mention Misha ruining Supernatural and not mention the worst ship ever.

Bonus mention!!!!

Another way Misha ruined the show and the fandom was Destiel.

While yes Misha didn't come up with it and there is nothing wrong with ships and shipping. Fuck every show/Movie we watch or book we read we all ship something. Some don't even make sense or aren't canon cause thats the beauty of shipping.

Unless you are a loser that tries to make fake ships canon and then cry queer bait and how everyone is homophobic for not shipping you ship. Get a life no one likes you. Just FYI 🤪

But Misha ever the loser and attention whore. Has made the Destiel ship and Destiehellers one of the most entitled loud bunch of unlikeable cry babies ever to exist in a fandom and thats saying alot.

So thats why it gets a special message. XD

In short Misha is gross inside and out and seeing less of him is amazing.

Thank you for the ask anon. That was fun.

If anymore has anymore send them my way.

i have VERY good fancic taste if i Do Say So Myself (i say so btw) so if you want i will literally just send you a list of a bunch of fics and short summaries and stuff... they will Probably not be bandom related and there May be a lot of supernatural BUT. STILL.

IF U WANT TO I WOULD LOVE THAT ACTUALLY and i havent browsed much spn fic yet so its ok if theres lots of it :3

btw guys i’m using ‘spnwin’ as the general tag for the show, ‘spnwin 1x01’ etc for the individual episodes, but i’m still using tags such as ‘spn spoilers’ ‘spn meta’, ‘spn spec’ because life is too short for making separate specific tags for the winchesters. it is all supernatural to me anyway. it is the dean show okay

“You’re a terrible liar” - Cas ft. Fleetwood Mac

is this a compilation? is this an amv? i don't know, but here's three and a half minutes of cas telling lies, telling sweet little lies.

[cw: brief clips featuring blood/injuries/angel blades/holy fire molotovs]

some notes under the cut:

- if you need episode numbers for any of these clips for use in Other Projects, hmu!

- this is in no way complete and i'm gonna spend the next several weeks waking up in a cold sweat remembering clips i should've included instead but. here we are. i couldn’t think of any really good ones from s4 or s13-15 so i’m gonna say that was a Choice i made on purpose in honour of crowley (s5-12, rip king) for doing his best to bring out the worst in cas <3 that said, feel free to let me know in the replies/tags if you have cas-tries-to-deceive-people highlights bc i love to see it. special thanks also to this post bc i completely forgot about the 'it's MY truth' scene & saw it on my dash when i was 90% done inserting clips for the video.

- this was originally meant to be a gifset but the delivery is 80% of the fun for a lot of these so i learned how to use lightworks to turn it into a video, and then this song came on shuffle and i put it under the compilation for my own amusement, and THEN i was like. well why not. why shouldn’t i spend 2 full months editing this. all this to say: i did NOT recall the todd howard’s sweet little lies video until i was halfway through this so this isn’t like… inspired by that video? but also i’d feel remiss not mentioning it, both bc i wanna make sure this is not plagiarism AND bc it’s a modern classic so you should go (re)watch it

- lastly. shoutout to everyone posting spn amvs for making video editing look like fun bc hey! it IS fun. keep up the good work <3

raphael: [furious whispering] michael you are bleeding out

michael: [whispering back] yeah but he's holding my hand tho 🥺

@ckneal's royal au my beloved we were kept apart for too long but i am officially back on track!! this is not as romantic as the previous ones but it is plot relevant and also one of my favorite parts so you'll have to excuse me, i promise to make some fluff soon

i think it’s so funny that colin ford was way too little to realistically play teenager in hs freshman sam but he looks so much like jared and did such a good job that they just packed on clothing layers and were like nobody will notice nothing else makes sense in this show anyways so we ended up with this and we are supposed to believe there’s just a 4 year age difference between these two and they’re both high schoolers

Blood represents identity, family: illness, violence. It symbolises infection, death, and legacy; but also life, birth, and femininity: cycles of existence. And then through femininity it also represents shedding childhood into womanhood. It also represents purity, danger to life, circulatory systems, and the concept of life and what sustains it. It represents the heart, which then has many other symbolisms, from love to emotionality, only existing for pumping this blood, every other aspect of the body and what they mean dependent on it, rendering blood as necessity. It is connection, communicative systems, carriers. It represents sadism (bloodlust), hospitals, death, circulatory systems in the body and also in family. It represents evolution, impurity, vampirism which lends into liminality and monstrosity. It also can represent what we do to our blood, medications or alcohol or drugs through veins creating exterior dependence: addiction. Blood carries life and death, is life saving and life threatening, and outside the body represents then something wrong and dangerous. It’s tied into injury, viruses, illness it carries from person to person through vulnerability or genetics. It represents predestination, inevitability and a lack of a free will given the external control it places within identity, but also it supports the social structures biologically given. It symbolises penance and sacrifice, and in Christianity: the Eucharist, God, and salvation, sacrifice. But given it also represents birth, identity, life, it also then represents original sin.

having to do a free write on blood symbolism like is this Sam Winchester meta?

10 Mile Jump snippet

Posting a snippet from 10 Mile Jump below. Uh... this scene kinda doesn't belong to a chapter *yet*. But I was listening to evermore while working on the second chapter, and cowboy like me came on, and now here we are. Some stories want to be written, and some need to be written. But this fucking story shoved to the front of a dozen other stories, cannibalized itself not once but twice, and now refuses to come out of my head in chronological order. Anyways, enjoy... whatever this is.

They sway there, and Dean wrings every sweet drop out of together as his hands settle against the small of Cas’ back. His eyes fall shut of their own accord. He opens them, though, again and again. ‘Cause he feels like he’s in a dream, and dreams always end with reality.

He says as much to Cas.

“You’re unreal, Castiel.” He presses in closer, murmuring in his ear. Cas’ hand finds the back of Dean’s head. Fingers scrape through his hair, tightening to mirror the gasping breath Cas takes. Dean can feel the shudder move down Cas’ body, and it’s the best damn proof of life.

Cas doesn’t respond, so Dean continues. All the courage he needs is in his arms, coming undone.

“You’re unreal,” he repeats in wonder, “and yet you’re the realest goddamn thing about this world.” His lips are so close to the shell of Cas’ ear. He could press a kiss there. Maybe move to his cheek, his nose, the furrow between those eyebrows. Then probably his lips. No, definitely his lips. Maybe do it again.

Maybe keep it in your pants, Winchester.

“You told me once that prayer is a sign of faith. Well that’s bullshit, Cas. Faith implies belief, and heaven knows I only pray when I don’t believe in much of anything. For the longest time, it was just me and Sam and all the dark, nasty creatures that went bump in the night. I had faith in us. Just us. That was all I needed.”

Dean almost can’t hear Cas for how quiet his next question is, muffled in Dean’s shoulder. “What changed?”

Dean smiles.

“There was this barn in Illinois.”

The Winchester Recital

Part Five – I Guess Normal is as Normal Does

Every so often Sam realises he’s just not normal 

Wednesday morning finds Sam crossing off the day before of his wall calendar with mixed feelings. Somewhere between getting into bed and falling asleep the previous night he had realised with only a slight start that he had been living in Palo Alto now for eight months.

It’s the longest he’s lived in one place for as long as he can remember.

He knows the streets around where he lives, not because he’s kept a mental map in his head from the moment he arrived, but because he’s spent time there. He has friends that know his name, he knows this place. He’s lived here.

It doesn’t seem like a lot.

But it is a lot to him.

Part One Part Two Part Three Part Four 

Okay so this was a while back but im preety sure you had mentioned an au of yours where dean is a serial killer and cas successfully stalks him but i don't think you talked about it more than that and i just really want to hear a bit more bc that idea sounds so tastefully fucked up

okay so. weeks later i finally end up answering this ask. it inspired this post btw. anyway spn is a show that's like. all about justifications, as i said in the post inspired by this ask. it's about having no choice and doing what you have to do. and like there is the phantasy embedded in it, a phantasy that is both indulged and punished. but most importantly it's justified. the monsters are super strong to show how brave our heroes are for fighting them, the main characters let out great wails of grief every time their lady loves are violently ripped from them (even though now they are free to do whatever they want), the narrative twists to show our heroes as correct whatever they do. the fantasy (of being allowed to enact violence, of being free from feminine "control," of being right) comes first. the material construction of the universe of supernatural comes afterward. whatever the fantasy is, the universe of supernatural will provide material conditions to justify its acting-out.

and what this means is that our protagonists, dean in particular, are constantly doing just horrific things, which in any other circumstance would be unconscionable. but the universe of supernatural provides justification for these acts. the point of my serial killer au which i think about so so so much is to ask the question: what if these justifications melted out from under their feet? what if dean was left holding nothing but a lie and the weight of everything he's done?

therefore, the premise of my au is such (under the cut because this baby is long):

john and mary winchester, in the mid seventies, joined a doomsday cult known as the men of letters. the men of letters were rather unusual for a doomsday cult, in that they believed that the apocalypse could be prevented by human behavior. this started as correct living, correct worship, yadda yadda, the kind of behavior and thought control that cults are known for, but with the justification of: if you don't do this, the world will end. eventually, this escalated to human sacrifice. the men of letters managed to untraceably kill two homeless people in the late seventies. but they eventually fell apart. however, a month after john and mary left the men of letters (mostly john's choice, mary still believed), mary died in a house fire. john took it as a sign from god that actually, the men of letters were right, and the world would end unless john himself did something about it. so he took some of the (intensely numerological) theology of the men of letters. and he worked out his own formula. and he applied it to the yellow pages. and started ritualistically killed people to prevent the apocalypse, with his two sons in the back of the car.

now, obviously, this is some kind of grief induced temporary madness on john's part, shaped by the mental abuse he suffered in the men of letters. but the thing is, once you've killed a couple of people to prevent the apocalypse. well. there's this thing called the sunk costs fallacy. john wasn't gonna question his own beliefs after that.

and he raised his boys to believe it, too, or at least he raised dean to. they didn't tell sam what they did until he was twelve, and sam didn't buy it, tried to call the cops on them several times but in the end, they always prevented him. eventually sam ran off to stanford, where he now lives under a cloud of guilt that he's too loyal to his family to rat them out.

john died a few years back of a heart attack, but dean is convinced it's because he messed up a ritual two weeks before it happened, so it pushed him further into this belief system.

dean's killings (and john's before him) are ritualistic and distinctive, obviously the same killer each time. but they happen anywhere in the united states, seemingly at random, there are inconsistent amounts of time between each one (sometimes as short as days, sometimes as long as years), and there is no particular victim profile. obviously, since our killers are following an arcane mathematical formula to make their choices for them, but the police don't know that.

castiel novak is an unemployed shut-in with a small inheritance which he's living off of, a cryptography degree, and an obsession with all things morbid. he spends most of his time on the reddit true crime forums, playing amateur sleuth. by complete chance, he happens to recognize one of the symbols frequently used in corpse displays by the so-called sioux falls satanic slaughterer (so named because the first time three of his victims were in the same part of the country, it so happened that they were all in sioux falls, south dakota. this was in the late eighties.) as being mostly only used by a little known cult group called the men of letters, which dissolved in the mid eighties.

he only notices this because, as a teen, he had a special interest in cults and fringe religious groups. the men of letters weren't a particularly notable or well known phenomenon; they were small, and a lot like every other cult that formed during the seventies cult boom. (no outsider ever heard about the human sacrifice; there were rumors, of course, but they were garbled, sensationalized, and mixed up with satanic panic fodder.)

(the men of letters' two sacrifices were nothing particularly romantic or fantastical. they first lured panhandler josie sands back to their compound with promises of food and a warm bed when she admitted she couldn't get a bed at a shelter, and was thinking of getting caught shoplifting just so she could be under a roof in the county jail. the men of letters' leader, a man who took on the name alistair, forced his inner circle to dress in the ceremonial black robes he had given them when he initiated them into his nearest and dearest, and which his wife had sewn out of old bed sheets and dyed black with home made oak gall dye. these robes still left black smudges on the wearer's skin occasionally if they sweated too much. josie was laid, bound, on the altar, a slapdash thing constructed over the course of two days from scrap plywood and a couple of milk crates. a rich red tablecloth purchased at macy's for $3.99 hid its ugliness and gave it grandeur. alistair attempted to kill the struggling miss sands by bringing a sharpened kitchen knife down on her bosom and piercing her heart, but, having never killed a human or even slaughtered an animal before, was unaware of the problem presented by the human ribcage. after rather ineffectually poking at the area beneath sands' bosom with his knife while she shrieked in pain and terror for about ninety seconds, alistair tried a different tack, and slit her throat, which worked just fine, and she bled out quite nicely. the second and final victim of the men of letters was a local vagrant named larry ganem, an older gentleman who walked with a limp. he was lured back to the compound in approximately the same manner as sands, but instead of being bound, he was fed stew laced with sleeping pills. even if alistair hadn't slit his throat, he wouldn't have woken up. it's actually arguable whether he was still alive at time of sacrifice; mary winchester (eight months into her first pregnancy), who, as a member of the inner circle, was in attendance, actually tried to take ganem's pulse as he lay on the altar (now covered by a different tablecloth; the red one had turned stiff with sands' blood and been subsequently burned) and found nothing, so it is entirely possibly only sands' death can be directly laid at alistair's feet, and ganem's is the fault of mrs. ellen harvelle, who prepared the laced stew. regardless, these two deaths are lessons in the nature of human evil: it is very rarely skilled, suave, or smooth. it's often slapdash, half-hearted, and just plain incompetent. but that makes it no less grisly. alistair may have begun to drink his own kool-aid, as it were, and escalated this far out of genuine belief that the apocalypse was coming and it was up to him to stop it, but it is far more likely that he sensed the imminent collapse of his little empire, and wanted to bind his subjects to him through the horrors of shared guilt, considering two lives a small price to pay for the continued loyalty of his inner circle. and the tactic worked: the men of letters didn't start to collapse in earnest until almost four years later. perhaps if alistair had continued the killings, the men of letters could have lasted for far longer, maybe even up until the present day. but it seems that alistair, a psychiatrist by training and unused to violence, simply didn't have the stomach for it. unlike, say, john winchester, who before his time with the men of letters had done a two year tour in vietnam, during which he had killed three living, thinking human beings with the american government's go-ahead.)

anyway. castiel is the first person, ever, to make the connection between the men of letters and the sioux falls satanic slaughterer. and once that connection is made, castiel begins to research the men of letters far more in-depth. and he notices something: the theology of the men of letters was intensely numerological, filled with patterns, significant numbers, and even spiritual equations.

castiel thinks of the seemingly random selection of the slaughterer's victims, and has an epiphany.

he cracks all his fingers, and gets coding.

six months. it takes castiel six months to discover an equation that could fit the slaughterer's pattern. it's complex, but also clearly based on several of the men of letters' holy numbers, and accounts for every single one of the killings. it also suggests that there should have been two or three more deaths scattered across the years, but more than likely those did happen, it's just that they weren't reported as part of the slaughterer's portfolio.

but much more importantly, castiel's model can also make predictions. there will be two killings, fifteen days apart, in a city seven hours' drive away, six weeks from now.

so castiel waits. and he books a hotel room. and two months later, he's waiting outside 217 oak street when a shadowy figure climbs up a tree and lets itself into the upstairs window.

dean winchester is feeling particularly all alone in the world when he breaks into maisey banks' home (217 oak street). his father has been dead for half a decade, and he hasn't spoken to his baby brother for twice that. it's not like this whole grizzly saving the world business makes him a lot of friends. so once he's done killing maisey (which is easy, she was ninety three and dying of cancer anyway. she doesn't even wake up when he slits her throat) and arranging her corpse in the appropriate manner, with prayers and sigils, he turns around. and sees a man standing behind him.

smiling slightly.

as he watches dean gut this old woman.

dean freezes.

the man takes a step forward.

"you're very attractive for a serial killer who's been operating since the eighties."

dean is silent.

"family business, is it?"

silence continues.

"i'm not here to report you to police. i'm just here to see if my algorithm worked right."

and dean finally breaks his silence: "what the hell is wrong with you?"

what's fun here is that dean knows (or rather "knows") that he isn't a serial killer. so he finds what cas is doing, this amoral serial killer stormchasing, morally repugnant. because cas has no way of knowing he isn't a regular serial killer.

there's also the fact that that cas proceeds to flirt with him. aggressively. and follows him back to his motel.

but the thing is that dean is all alone in the world. and as cas continues trailing him around, he starts getting, well, flattered. and feeling a little bit less alone.

it doesn't take very long before they fall into bed. even if cas is an amoral stalker with a fetish for what dean considers a distasteful yet necessary vocation.

so. they fall into bed. they fall in love. they make a little life together, in dean's big sexy car. dean tries to explain to cas that he's saving the world. that these people's lives are a necessary price to pay. and cas seems to listen.

of course, castiel doesn't believe a word of it. but he's found that he likes dean. really likes him. and he realizes that the collapse of dean's belief system would destroy him.

so he sets about becoming as complicit in it as possible.

even to the extent where, when dean is hit by a car and ends up into the hospital a day before one killing is meant to take place, castiel agrees to take on the job. (he doesn't actually kill anyone, obviously. but he does use his extensive skill with computers to create three fake newspaper articles which make it look like he has.)

but five years later, something goes wrong. really, really wrong. dean miscalculates the formula. and by the time he checks his work, the actual date of the next kill, as demanded by the formula, has passed. in fact, so have three others. and the world didn't end.

dean collapses. he hyperventilates. all those people. all those people. for no reason. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people. all those people.

cas seems totally unfazed. dean stares at him in shock. but cas just takes dean in his arms, and whispers in his ear: "oh, dean, i never believed in the equation. i love you no matter what you've done."

and dean buries his face in cas' chest.

Random question, what's your opinion on the angels and demons on supernatural?

(i deleted the massive essay i wrote because it was 90% bs 😆)

The short and summed up answer is: both of them became less terrifying after S5, or I'll give them S7 at most

In my opinion, angels should've been preserved and kept unreachable because they're warriors of the highest order; make them difficult to reach and don't make them so weak like spn did in their later seasons

Demons used to so fucking scary and sexy (hello demon posessing Meg in S1, I would literally let you eat my heart) I mean look at these sadistic twisted souls- I LOVED THEM

...and after them ( Alastair too btw) demons became kind of whiny and not-scary??? I wasn't getting a whole lot of biblical horror???

Same with angels-- they were losing and losing and making the poorest descisions? I mean for an entity who's been observing humanity for millions of years, you sure are plenty dense lol

Basically what I'm saying is- everything supernatural beyond S7 SUCKS but I still watched it because I love the boys too much but the classic spn fan will never leave me :)

uno i miss you so much you don't even know <//3 also when are we getting a new boo ( no pressure! take your time :) ily )

is this like 'new book' bc i'm going to interpret it like that.

and honestly... i have way too many drafts. look, my way of releasing stress is making ocs through wikia-formats, and making a whole ass timeline for the plot. in a span of a month, i've made a lot. and recently, i've been on a hardcore batfam phase, yeah? and recently, this happened too:

i have ... i may have hyperfixated which i'm working on and lost a couple of hours researching the timeline. so, yes, i'm working on not one, but two batfam fics: one's oc-insert found family with the batfam, and the other's a dick grayson/reader ... and i honestly want to add a third one that's going to be cass-centric and a marvel crossover but hnggg, do i really wanna indulge myself? yes. yes, i do.

pushing the whole batfam aside (and ignoring my venom!oc in batfam idea), i also have a very long-length avengers + xmen + oc fic in my drafts with the complete timeline and all ... i've been stressed the past few weeks and this is how i vent, mbmb.

AND if you guys were there during my 'shinto pantheon in pjo' ... don't even get me started. and i had another phase right after that which i call my 'angel phase' wherein i got really interested in nephilims and the book of enoch, and may or may not have made another timeline and world-building details for a nephilims (not supernatural nephilims btw) in pjo ... so, uh, there's that.

confirmed upcoming:

kimetsu no yaiba + jujutsu kaisen:

no 'missing itadori' this time! ... just 'itadori getting mistaken as a demon' angst. lots of angst, and first year bonding and found family!

tentative:

oc-insert batfam + found family

this one, i really want to write, mostly because of the religious imagery and roman catholic references. it's going to be called our father's venison, and i'm already excited just thinking about it but i still have no idea how the ending will go and that's stressing me out.

dick grayson + serial killer!cannibal!reader

now, the thought is very, very appealing. i can imagine how it'll go but i have no idea how it will work ... but i want to wing it. i really, really do. set in bludhaven, so i really want this to work out. i genuinely do, but for now, very unlikely any time soon.

cassandra cain-centric + mcu

i have no plans for this. all i know is that cass is my favorite batkid and i like mcu a lot ... more than dcu, but the batfam have a special place in my heart. and just thinking about cute, dimension-hopping misadventures? i love cass, bye. maybe it’s going to be a one-shot or a short story at best.

xmen + marvel + oc

least likely to be posted because it’s long and entirely self-indulgent. the plot is complete and the ending, the specifics, and the whole timeline with everything considered, and fixed, but no. it’s just ... so long.

shinto pantheon + pjo

ok,, this ... i want to wing. i have the worldbuilding fixed too, the characters, and how the meeting will go, and i’m screaming, that’s all.

nephilims + pjo

and by ‘nephilims’, i don’t mean supernatural’s nephilims (i love spn), but nephilims there are way too overpowered and this ones are going to be a bit more biblically accurate. just a bit, but i really, really enjoyed world-building for this. made me really excited. the plot for the meeting is also ... somewhat planned.

WAIT

i should just make a plot dump ... like those short drabbles in one book but i just dump plots. that would be convenient. and then i can just decide after if i want to keep them. okok, i’ll do that. brb, gonna write froggie and rain :DD BLESS YOU ANON

What the Supernatural men are ACTUALLY like in a relationship

I’m gonna do my requests in order so it’s 100% fair… my first is what a relationship would be like realistically with the spn characters. I noticed each character’s flaws are usually overlooked in each fanfic so here’s what the relationships would most likely be like.

Dean

When you first meet he comes off as very flirty and seductive

Dean often refers to you as babe, hun, or maybe even short-stack depending on your height.

Very rarely does he refer to you as y/n

The first few months of your relationship are very hot and cold

He’s constantly flirting with other girls and you guys are breaking up basically every other week

A few long conversations later and you’re in a happy/ healthy relationship

Warm cuddles featuring Dean’s morning voice 🤤

Sweet, meaningful kisses that turn into steamy make out sessions

Dean also is very iffy about letting you come on hunts which leads to many arguments.

Obviously you and Sam and best friends though

Sam

Sam thinks it’s important for you two to have a strong friendship before he asks you out.

He’s still scared about the whole “everyone Sam gets close to dies” thing and pushes you away because of it

It takes months (yes literally months) of being unlabeled and unofficial/ the awkward “what are we” faze for Sam to finally ask you to officially be his

After you are official Sam has a hard time letting you out of his sight

Maybe even a little bit of seperation anxiety?

Stupid inside jokes that only you two understand

Morning coffee runs

You better believe that once he has his arms around you he is NOT letting go!

Btw he secretly loves it when you play with his hair

Castiel

To say that Cas is confused about his feelings is an understatement

Butterflies absolutely explode in his stomach every time he looks your way

Obviously poor Cas has no clue what’s going on and distances himself from you, thinking you’re getting him sick in some way.

After a few talks with Dean Cas understands how he feels and tries to ask you out

“Y/n, you make me sick… but in the pleasant way” Cas says with a sweet smile on his face

After a few moments you connect the dots and ask him to go for a walk for your first date

You’re his first everything

He always smiles into his kisses

Cute nicknames like honeybee, my Angel, etc…

His cuddles are so unbelievably warm