i just saw the kickstarter shipping "update"... so it's safe to assume cassie saw us being upset.

GOOD.

i know nothing will change but at least she knows that her international fans are upset and feeling like we're not important AGAIN!

good god do not go on fucking twt rn, people are looking through past tommy and wilbur clips and speculating that tommy was abused as well (whether he was or not is not important right now, don't speculate about his personal life when he's not even online to correct anyone, for the love of god can we focus on shelby), or pushing phil, tommy, jack, charlie, quackity, etc. to say something asap as if they're not probably processing the fact that one of their very good friends has been an abusive piece of shit this entire time.

ALSO (this is not defending him this is just something i've seen that is pissing me off) i've seen people saying he was a creep for making a lot of friends who are much younger than him, like teenagers. but a) phil has made friends with these same people and no one is getting pissed at him, b) being friends with people who are younger than you (YES including in their teens while you are an adult) is not a morally terrible thing, you can be friends with people who are younger than you and not be a creep, c) CALLING HIM A "CLOSET PEDOPHILE" FOR BEFRIENDING YOUNGER MEN IS JUST TAKING EYES OFF OF SHELBY AND TRYING TO PUT IT ON THE YOUNGER MALE CCS YOU ENJOY. for the love of god stop focusing on the male streamers who haven't even had a chance to say something yet and focus on SUPPORTING SHELBY. THE VICTIM.

Every time someone draws/writes pyro tf2 as a gay trans man, or a trans butch lesbian, or a nonbinary bi or pan or poly creature, or any of these plus being aro or ace, or being just aro/ace being the only queer part of their identity, or any mixture or combination of the above or any other queer label ive not yet mentioned, an angel gets its wings <3 hope this helps

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

I'll never understand why people act like the first season of HSMTMTS is or should be deemed the best?

Don't get me wrong, it's totally fine to have a sense of nostalgia because you might recall season 1 being the first time you fell in love with the show or you're reminiscing about what drew you into it in the first place, but most arguments about season 1 never involve talking about any aspects of the show other than the fact that it ended with the R*ni love confession, and it makes it difficult for me to believe that there's any other reasons why you deem the season so superior to the others.

When you remove the nostalgia blinders, season 1 only gives a semblance of justice to a tiny amount of characters. Ricky and Nini get the most attention devoted to them, but whether it's because of the writing or simply the fact that she's the best actress on the show who's also capable of elevating any material that's given to her, it's Gina personally that stands out to me this season. Yet while it was airing, she was getting harassment from R*nis who were ignoring the obvious issues in their relationship to take all of their anger out on Gina. This would go on to happen for two more seasons.

Everyone other than Ricky, Nini, Gina, and maybe EJ, gets abandoned or shoehorned into things that age in a horrific way. I would argue that Kourtney's character suffers the most this season, and it was actually jarring seeing someone as vocally talented as Dara Reneé play a character that wasn't initially a singer. She wasn't even supposed to have a role on the show that lasted beyond two episodes, and yet she has one of the strongest, if not the strongest voice in the entire cast. For a show that was meant to revolve around theater kids, that alone was unrealistic and as a black woman, I can't ignore how colorism played a role in that. No one with a voice like that would have been given a supporting position if they were nonblack. Somehow the likes of M*tt C*rnett were given more solos on the show, and he is easily the worst male "vocalist" of the cast.

I won't even get into the fact that other than Gina, EJ was one of the most hated characters that season singlehandedly for getting in the way of R*ni, yet once the chances of R*ni making it to endgame status were getting increasingly lower, everyone decided that he was their favorite person and became P*rtwells. Not because they saw potential in anything (we all know one of the biggest plot points of season 1 was Rina getting closer, no matter how many people want to ignore it) but because they hated the idea of any character involved in R*ni being happy with someone who wasn't a part of their ship. Because I'm saving that for a later conversation.

The point is, like every season, season 1 had more flaws than most of the fandom wants to acknowledge, especially in the characterization of the ensemble cast, which was never the right move for a show that would not be as strong without their ensemble. Nostalgia as well as the plague of real life shipping has made people believe that this season was somehow unbeatable, when I would even argue that at the show's absolute worst in season 2 we would already see the improvements and corrections that season 1 failed to expand on. Such as giving underutilized characters like Kourtney and Carlos more depth by introducing their storylines with dealing with self doubt and acceptance.

I've always said that the episode that really made me stick with the show was episode 5 of season 1, and it isn't just because I'm an avid Rina. One of my favorite parts of the episode will always be the Born to Be Brave group number. Seeing Carlos start off dancing by himself and then Ashlyn going up to join him was one of the first moments of the show where I noticed just how strong the ensemble was and just how much heart they all brought to the show.

One love confession that didn't even manage to end up being the best love confession on the show is not what made the show what it is now. Delusional nostalgia is trying to tell you that despite other seasons allowing characters who were overdue in getting their own storylines finally have their moments to shine, nothing will ever amount to season 1 because of what you shipped. Season 1 didn't even deal with their deepest subjects. In retrospect, the entire season was essentially like a trial run. Even the first 4 episodes were written by a different show runner. The entire thing was an experiment. And while it was a good start and while I do understand why it's a season that's so loved, I just wish more people would unpack the reasons why they loved it and stopped dismissing the fact that there were seasons that did things better, even if your nostalgia is trying to tell you otherwise.

being an overthinker leaves me feeling so guilty sometimes because in theory i'd like to be very transparent about how i'm feeling but at the same time the thoughts my brain is spinning about (which i'm for the most part aware aren't really rooted in anything realistic) could reflect badly on other people but really i'm the only one they're reflecting on and i just feel bad because genuinely i don't think badly of them i just get stuck in all the what-ifs and i feel bad enough wondering about it to begin with so talking it out to the person feels unfair to them because they don't deserve it to begin with so why should i tell them i'm thinking all that. yknow

The only thing that trans activists are good at is getting people to hate them & their cause & not support trans people.

Between making an ENTIRE SITE dedicated to finding out who streamed this stupid game, harassing/doxxing streamers (Silvervale, GirlfriendReviews, etc etc) to the point of tears, LYING ABOUT SOMEONE’S SUICIDE FOR CLOUT, & now bullying a Vtuber into graduating (Pikamee), you fucking nutjobs have done more to damage your own damn cause than Rowling has.

And the worst part is that y’all don’t even care. You just see that streamers are avoiding the game so that they don’t get bullied & think “good”. And then you bitches go on to make excuses for why harassing people over the game is fine & act like heroes for doing so when really, the only thing you’ve done is driven away potential allies & given legit transphobes more ammo to paint your community as complete & utter nutcases.

I’m not even joking when I say that the only people that I feel bad for in this whole shitshow are the innocent trans people who opposed this shit & got caught in the crossfires of this goddawful Culture War shit & the people who legitimately just wanted to play the game without fear of harassment. They don’t deserve the backlash but because none of you fucking mongrels can actually behave like decent fucking humans for ONCE, they’re all gonna suffer for it. 

And if anyone comes onto this post & tries to act like all this shit is justified or that none of this actually happened & was completely made up, just know:

Don’t start bitching when you inevitably get even more backlash & harassment as a result of this crap. You’re not the victim here, you are the bully & I don’t wanna see you lowlife cunts act like one. The last few weeks on this godforsaken app have been an absolute shitstorm & it’s your own damn faults. 

Fuck you. 

I am gonna have an unfun end to pride month so if anyone wants to wish my luck in formally coming out to my mother feel free to do so! (⁠・⁠–⁠・⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

guys. i just saw a post about an autism swag tournament and that made me think. i kind of want to do a ts tournament lol like ik it would prolly just be me and the moots but i thunk it'd be funny silly fun times for me personally... i may... i may make one just for funsies...

‼ emergency commissions ‼

hey folks of tumblr! i know i haven't been super active on here in awhile, and i dislike talking about personal circumstances on this blog, but here i am. i've been having a really rough few months involving a company rescinding a job offer that i was relying on, and subsequently struggling to find a job. i managed to get one for the summer, but it's physically demanding work that doesn't really pay enough to cover living expenses like rent and groceries and gas and insurance, and things have steadily declined over the past couple of months.

as such, i'm opening art commissions for a time. i've done a couple here and there before for irl friends but nothing further, so bear with me if i'm a little clunky at it.

i've set up a ko-fi and settled a goal. i also have paypal for payment purposes.

i'll draw for fandoms i'm in, fandoms i'm not in, ocs/dnd characters, etc. i won't draw nsfw, hate art, or RPF. backgrounds are an additional charge depending on complexity, and the prices above are per character.

if you want something other than character art, like say a book cover for a fic, or something similar to my hands series, we can negotiate the price on that together.

anything helps, honestly. you can message me here on tumblr or on discord (@/softredrobin). i probably won't be answering any straight away tonight because i'm both physically and emotionally exhausted and probably headed to bed, but i'll be checking first thing tomorrow morning.

why does my mom look at me like she's disappointed every time i tell her i'm going out w a guy

man i really wish i could enjoy things without my ocd making me insane

The bg3 fandom is so big and active rn I can't imagine there aren't at least a few servers out there that put like... a reasonable limit on the sort of dark content that can be discussed in it while still also allowing nuanced and mature discussion about it, especially considering the game's canon topics.

It's such a bizarre delicate balance but there has to be something right?

I TOOK MY PILLS ARE YOU PROUD OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!

no you know what, i'm gonna be annoyed fuck it. if i make a post basically saying let svt experiment with their music you don't get to say "yes they're allowed but not if they want to appeal to the western market". because 1 what the Fuck does that even mean, especially since their last song might be their only song where they have traditional instruments and clothes and it's named after a chinese character, how is that pandering to the western market. 2 yes ever since hybe acquired pledis they've been trying to influence svt's music one way or another, be it by adding different producers to their songs or whatever, even then, their popularity grew massively in korea and other asian countries, how is that pandering to the west. also maybe just a bit of critical thinking that they want to break into the western market for whatever reason, that they want to grow more outside of asia and that sometimes means changing their music, changing the way they do things. and lastly it annoys the living crap out of me that so many fans have so little faith in them and who they are as a group, that the moment they take a path they don't like it's all fingers pointed at the company because obviously is their fault because obviously svt doesn't want that. these are all grown ass men that spent who knows how long discussing their contracts so that they could all be happy with the direction svt is taking, and yet it's all the company's fault? as if they didn't get any single saying in any of their actions and were fucking puppets ready to do whatever others say with the snap of a finger. they have never been more proud of something they've done but it's still not evidence enough for some of you to understand that maybe, maybe, they're the ones actually making the decisions on where they want to go.