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steffigraf · 3 months

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warning for a clearly anxiety-ridden oversharing freakout below the cut. sorry. i’m too sensitive and i’m unfortunately acutely aware of it.

tldr; im being a drama queen. gonna take a tumblr break for a week or two. to my mutuals, feel free to dm for my insta. i’ll be active until i wake up tomorrow morning and then i’m gonna zip

gonna preface this by saying this is in no way directed to the people whom i actually talk to constantly on here like you lot were lovely and im just dealing with a lot of demons in my head :(

anyway. sometimes i feel more like a product manufacturer than a person on here. and idk. i know most of you guys are really just following me for gifs and content and whatever but. yeah. idk. i guess the things i say don’t matter to anyone unless it’s funny. or if people want to call me out. not that im mad abt that exactly btw i do appreciate when people respectfully call me out for my own mistakes but. sometimes. i feel like im in a fishbowl and you’re all just waiting for me to say something wrong and cancel me. or then again, maybe most of you already think im a shit person and you just stay for the gifs. or maybe you guys think i’m a loser who has nothing to do but spend all day on this goddamn website.

and i know, somewhere inside me, that that’s not true and that it’s clearly the anxiety talking. maybe it’s just me maybe i’m making this up in my head i dunno. but i’m just kinda tired right now. too tired to battle the anxiety like usual at least. and i don’t really feel wanted outside of the content i produce, beyond the notes of my gifs or my fun posts. which ik shouldn’t matter but. i’m a pathological people pleaser etc etc.

(god, seeing this all typed out, i can’t even fucking blame you guys if you actly don’t like me cause. i kinda wanna shake myself by the shoulders and tell myself get a grip girl the world doesn’t revolve around you shut up shut up shut your damn mouth—)

i’ve been trying to manage by unfollowing and blocking a few people (which btw, if i did that to you and we used to be mutuals, it’s probably nothing personal i mostly just kept people i’m a bit closer to). but i’m still not really settled. and considering how i’m posting like every other day about feeling like shit, you guys probably figured that out lmao.

and well. on a separate note. seeing that rat’s name alone is too much for me sometimes. i couldn’t watch his game with carlos. i spent hours in his match with daniil turned away from the television, wearing noise canceling headphones while trying (and failing) to talk myself down from a full blown anxiety attack. i’ve said this before but the way people talk about him, both the fucked up silence and the justified outrage, it reminds me way too much about a family problem i have right now. hits uncomfortably close to home. prior to this i kinda thought i’d made my peace with the whole family situation but no apparently not. had he won the semis, i wasn’t even sure if i would be able to stomach cheering for jannik if it meant having to watch that man play.

so. idk. between the way actual tennis has been making me feel and the way tennisblr in general has seemed for me lately, i figure i need some space.

long story short ive been spending way too much time on tumblr this ao. and its gotten really bad for my mental health i guess. so i think i need to take maybe a week or two, to clear my head. watch tennis without opening this app every other point. spend time with people i love. get back to therapy. try to be a functioning adult.

(this is so fucking dramatic for a goddamn week of no tumblr i know that and i want to smack myself upside the head because why am i like this why do i make things snowball why why why—)

anyway. yeah. that’s it. if you actually read through all of that then. thanks. if not it’s okay too.

to my mutuals, the ones whom i’ve had at least some form of friendly interaction with in replies or dms, you can ask for my insta account btw. not that i’m crazy active on there but like. if you guys wanna be friends beyond the anonymity of this yknow. no pressure though.

#sorry to get all sad again #been editing this on my drafts all day #ive not been in a good headspace lately #*

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egotisticaleverything · 4 months

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High school Party

Bo Burnham x reader

A/N: this has been rotting in my draft for centuries so not requested just needed to finish this and cure my writers block for good !!

Warnings: swearing, mentions of sex, Bo being unreasonably mean, reader is a down bad loser, almost fucking to prove a point

“Hey-Uh Bo?” I tap the tall boys shoulder, trying to get his attention in the crowded living room we’re standing in, “I wanted to ask if I could have your number- so we could like hand out some time?”

“What?” He says after turning around

“I said could I have your number-“

“I heard you fuck face I’m just not falling for the same song and dance again” he scoffs, taking a sip from his cup.

“What do you mean-“ I sputter out

“I know Chrissy sent you over here to fuck with me alright?” He shrugs “hey hot popular conventionally attractive friend of mine, go over and ask out the weird skinny kid.” He mocks her in a high pitched voice.

“What- no I just want your number asshole the fuck?” I scowl at him stepping back, phone in my left hand, beer in my right.

“Fine whatever. I’ll put my number in your phone. Just shut up.” He grabs my phone.

“Thanks, geez for an apparent ‘nerd’ you sure are a dickhead” I roll my eyes, looking down at my beer.

“Here.” He almost chucks the phone back at me “you win your little dare, pass go to collect 200” he walks away unphased.

“Bo- wait” I grab his arm “could we like maybe hang out some time..?” I manage to crack a slight smile as if my heart isn’t racing

“God you’re a good actress” he turns his head towards me “fine. Lunch. Tomorrow. Text me your address.” He pulls his arm away.

I look down at my phone to see the contact name he’s given himself “Truth or dare”, thought he’d be more original.

Me: I’m not Jk wit u I actly like u dmbas :/

TorD: ok def selling it 2 hard

Me: fuk u

TorD: shut up ur drnk

Me: I wish I wernt so cute cuz if u wernt id kill u

TorD: get sober then u can smd :P jkkkk

Me: u still at da party

TorD: obvi dmbas

Me: meet u upstairs in 10

TorD: no u wont

Me: yes I will

TorD: fine im redy for ur prank or wtver

Me: u still think im jk lol XD

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I walk into the room to see Bo sat on the bed “Surprised to see me here?” He jokes “I made sure to scope out the whole room for whatever you’re planning.”

“I’m not planning anything- what is wrong with you?” I am starting to get annoyed at this point,

“Yeah sure whatever-“ I cut him off by pulling him into a kiss, grabbing the collar of his shirt as I straddle his hips on the bed. I slowly bring my left hand up behind his head, pulling him closer to deepen the kiss as he groans. “You’re a good fucken actor.”

“I-… am not-… acting-…” I say between kisses as I lower Bo onto the bed, “you fucking brat.” I heave,

“God you’re something alright…” Bo attempts to catch his breath

“You’re lucky I take birth control” I say as I start undoing my jeans,

“Holy fuck you’re serious about this…” he looks up red faced

“You’re finally catching on, great work.” I scoff “Now what do you want me to do to you?” I giggle, trailing a hand down his chest.

“I-uhm wow” his cocky demeanour has completely disappeared, replaced with a flustered mess of a man who’s almost melting below me.

“What do you want me to do to you?” I ask him firmer this time as I throw my shirt across the room.

“I-oh wow uhm I-I’ve never gotten this far” he stutters and stumbles as i straddle him in nothing but my underwear and bra,

“I can tell.” I cross my arms “now use your big boy words and tell me what you want me to do to you.”

“I mean I really do-I’m not sure I-“

“Just say it”

“What”

“The first thing that comes to your mind”

“I-uh- fuck- I’m sorry” he facepalms, the crimson of his face barley peaking out.

“What-Bo?” I pull his hands away from his face, genuinely concerned.

“Why are you of all people into me?” He looks away,

“I-what do you mean?” I ask genuinely confused, what does he mean ‘me of all people’.

“You’re friends with Chrissy and Grace and all those other really pretty girls-“ he starts rambling “fuck you’re gorgeous, I-I mean that’s the reason I was so defensive…” his eyes drifted towards me, as he obviously tried to not look at my body.

“Bo… why do you think I stare at you every day in chemistry-?” I ask now just as red faced as the man below me “why do you think I spend so much time around the drama club when crew aren’t even needed-“

“What-?”

“Ever since freshman year- Bo I’ve been in love with yo-“ I’m suddenly cut off by a kiss, as he sits up, one of Bo’s hands finds its place on the back of my neck, the other places itself on my lower back.

“I’m- I don’t think I want to rush into this…” he sighs “I think you’re really pretty and fun to be around but I don’t want to take things too fast-“

“Thank god-sorry but I like you too much to just fuck you and prove a point.” I laugh sitting up “so… are you free next Friday after drama club?”

#fanfic #drabble #fluff #bo burnham #bo burnham x reader #zach stone #Zach stone is gonna be famous

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azullumi · 1 year

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TEKA LANG ARE U FILO?? KILIG VIBES??? 😭😭😭 filo rin ako pero yeah omg kwento time 🤩 (ang haba srry in advance huhu)

so we're in the same group and our output for the final term is a like an advocacy project thing. we met in the first week of classes and when i saw him i just thought omg he's kinda cute, but in a appreciating a man's beauty kinda way hahahaha.. anw he was really REALLY nice like uhh yeah yoimiya niceness idk 😭

next week we meet again, and while talking apparently we have a lot in common?? (and it's rlly specific things like ex. we're both eldest sibling with two younger siblings, we don't use tiktok, we both do this thing where we go thru an internal thesaurus to look for the best word we need to use 😭) but what broke it for me was when he made like straight eye contact with me while we were talking... and usually, i don't make eye contact with people right, but this time i did 😭😭 and for some reason i like couldn't look away until i realized ay were.. looking at each other..... and after that happened i just couldn't concentrate anymore, but i didn't understand why yet...

and when i was leaving class, i went straight to my friend who was in another grp and i was gonna relay the info to her but then as we were leaving he was still there packing his stuff... and i said.. bye.... and i never initiate social contact like 😭 it was even an audible bye not just a wave ahhjj

anw, i told my friend abt our group discussion and i just kept repeating over and over how nice that guy was until we had to split ways for our next class... and i think i just realized like oh, i like him and i want to know him more 😭😭😭 so i messaged my friend that oh, i think i like that dude that's why i kept saying he was nice and she was like omg that's why u were so "kilig" right aft class and i didn't realize that 😭😭

TL;DR

anw, status as of rn, id love to be friends with him yes!!! next time we see each other.. im gonna try to compliment him about something... if he's actly taken or something, ill be kinda sad, but also i hope we can still be friends or something :')

(also note: we go to a uni, he's college of science, im college of liberal arts (bs-psyc) i was too shy to ask abt his major aft the eye contact incident huhuhu) - better days anon

wbwishaia KMF u're also filipino?! :00

also don't apologise if it's long bcs seriously i was rolling around the bed and grinning like an idiot BCS MY GOSH THAT'S SO CUTE EH OWHSIWHW?1!2 the things that happens to us when we're in love geez hopefully he's not taken (manifesting, praying, and crying for u) and if he's not, i say go for it and do whatevee makes you happy1! i'll be rooting for you though just like what i said, be careful with your heart and don't tread too carelessly <33

i am once again wishing you the best and luck in everything 🙏 im always here whenever u need someone to talk to or ramble about your experience bcs god gusto ko rin kiligin

#azul.interacts #asks.better days anon

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desafinado · 1 year

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Hello, and congratulations on a new milestone! I haven't been following for all that long, but I'm excited to see where you go from here <3

(also good luck with college I just started a new semester myself haha)

I was hoping to enter the genshin matchup event, and get some headcanons as well. I'd prefer a male, but otherwise it's all good! I don't have that much I really want from a partner, but I would like to be able to have both fun and silly times, and times where we can simply exist quietly in each other's presence. I like to sing, but I can't dance so maybe that would be fun to do with them. I do like physical touch (to a reasonable amount), so I'd prefer my partner to as well. Other than that, I really just want to be loving, comfortable and honest - the kind of relationship where you can be open and still be loved, and you both can grow together.

I'm about 5'2, and have wavy blonde hair that is almost always tied back in a ponytail. I wear glasses, and have a very dark/light academia-esque style. I'm quiet, but not shy - I just dislike being overly social, but I do have a few extremely close friends. People trust me very quickly, and I take on the role of the therapist friend - but otherwise I'm fairly chill, which the occasional exception of getting energetic and 'full of beans' as my family says. I am also the kind of person that's almost constantly sleepy and could always take a nap.

I love to make little stuffed animals for my friends and family, and I've been making little dioramas as gifts as well. The only TV I can watch are horror movies, and I almost constantly have music playing - I'm one of those people who listen to everything, but I actually mean it (I have 380 liked songs on Spotify). I'm majoring in philosophy, so I am very good at thinking about too many things too often lol.

Thank you for making it through all that, and I hope you have a delightful day! Drink enough liquids and eat your favorite snack, and get some good rest tonight <3

diluc ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎ ﾟ ♡ ﾟ｡

you both enjoyed one another’s presence, whether a word was said or not, there was just always an air of comfortability between the both of you.

horror movie nights where he holds you just a bit too tight, will initially deny that he was scared, but will eventually give in and bury his face into your shoulder.

in return, you often find yourself falling asleep on his lap as he’s doing work; he always smiles fondly at you and gives you a kiss on the forehead.

you introducing him to making dioramas, he actually found it quite soothing and a nice break from his otherwise fast paced life.

gifting him a little stuffed eagle and him just being in awe, mostly because you made such a thing for him it just his heart.

“really, for me?” “yes! unless, you think he deserves another home…” “n-no! i was just… i love you.”

lazy days where you just stay in, being almost sickeningly clingy towards each other (/pos) and just spending the whole day being absolutely lovesick towards one another.

softly complimenting each other’s small facial features, mindlessly playing with each other’s hair, bubble baths.

he can always count on you to share his feelings, woes, and whatever else. he appreciates your insights very much, and takes any advice you give very seriously.

he absolutely trusts you with his life, and is willing to drop everything just to spend his days with you, living away from all the chaos of the world.

50 followers celebration rules here !!

note: thanks for stopping by, i hope you do stick around ^^ also wahh philosophy sounds fun, im writing this in between my first day classes actly lol but yes, hope you enjoy!!

#diluc #airi.celebrates50!#and abt diluc #my babygirl

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bookofxandria · 1 year

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My Half Ass Moon Report

December/15/ 2022 🌟🌹🌜🌠

This MOON REPORT is accurate from where I see the moon and experience the lunar activityfrom the Northern hemisphere on planet Earth lol how do yall like them cheese burgers 🍔 I'm kidding ?

So here we go Supreme distractions are a head !! Yes I've got legit ADHDabcdocacdc LOLOL

🌜As you can see from this (below) photo is a screen shot of the lunar cycle: today the moon is in the Last Quarter phase and in the zodiac sign of Virgo. 👇🌜💀And todays guidance is coming up shortly ill elaborate on how exactly the cosmos will be most likely effecting you and point out some key points to keep in mind too this is just my first moon report in a really ling time and im new to ✌tumblr again just settling in and have a lot to do wow there are reslly damn some great blogs on hete man o man ive got compétition like wild fire voy voy .. ..

This MOON is a good time to do some shadow work if you can concentrate because things will be boiling and bubbling to the surface and you may lose all control of your emotions if you do not get a firm grip on reality and keep yourself grounded for sure .

🌋🌜🌹🌜💥👉FOLLOW ME 👇👇

👉👉👉🌹@bookofxandria 🌹✌

The Moon these days will mirror our inner child who wants to be in the spotlight. The lunar phase sort of radiates an entertaining aura that aims at getting things right. It owns a creative spirit fueled by warmth, generosity, truthfulness and honesty. Sometimes, it makes us a little dramatic in our emotional displays, and we want to control others as per our wishes.

Watch out for your inner monster may come out of the closet and hunt lol jyst tame the beast wjthin and like chill out your inner narcisistic tendsncies and dance ... But it seems....

You want dominance, and it also stops you from showing others what is going on in your heart. The next few days the Moon motivates you to maintain your public image to gain attention and applause from every side. It is the period of enjoying romance and creative activities to undertake new risks and enhance personal recognition.

It is the time to share your gifts of fame with others. There is no space for those in your life who ignore you. The only thing you want is to be famous and stand out for your skills and talents. This is your time to capture the stage and charm others with your performance.

New SuperMoon will be coming into bloom right x actly for xmss days yes so besutiful and no more blues your depression seems to be going but nkt fading just there enough to keep you from burstibg with joy overjoyed sbd so so happy you could die

Right now and this week You value integrity and justice over everything. Your well-honed sense of fairness works well under all the moon phases we will be experiencing from today DEC/15/22 until XMAS on DEC/24 AND 25. 💩🌜🎅🎄 & merry ho ho to yall out there celebrating the holidays !

Much Love from XANDRIA XTC BABY

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kakujis · 1 year

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THE DEMAND IS REALLLLLL 😂 and tyty!!! its to my old one but since i deleted that acc i cant actly take it again, bc i thought i wasnt gonna come back to tumblr but here i am lol

OMG thats so real … i keep leaving this app/website for like years n then coming back w a new theme rebrand for this blog HAHAHHA.. ngl im trying to go thru all like 34k of old posts and clean up this blog 🤧… my kpop past coming 2 haunt me fr fr!

#OHH BUT IM GLAD U GOT THE URL BACKKK n that u came back on here!#i came back pretty recently too! like january ish?#did u write on here b4 too??#pibby ♡ is typing…

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livingbutamireally · 1 year

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hellooo im the same anon who asked about bt4012, tbh the reason why i asked that was bc during 4222 we consulted zhao yiliang and he asked us to do some graph thing (like cs2040 graph theory) and we were speechless. (Also i wanted to ask if you would like to be friends, im too shy to even make friends with bza people, but since you play genshin maybe we can just chat in game or smth idk T_T you can ignore this if it weirds you out)

omg sorry i really only come on here nearing the end of a sem so replies are p late... i think he was really out of it that sem...and thats from what i heard....hope hes doing better rn

absolutely no words about the graph theory thing....he was p chill in 4012 for my sem and also p sure 4222 doesnt cover any thing on graphs!?? or at least for my sem.. how did it go for u

now that i think about am glad my groups dont do consutls or not shooting ourselves in our feet or not we never really know

and ofc sure thing nwnw about that i think my dms are open alwaystho i dont really play it anymroe sadly i play honkai more not really actly but more... are you from bza? from the way u phrased ;;

#asks

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thedegenerateasexual · 7 years

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top 10 teen wolf episodes as rated by me i guess

IN the order from most to least favorite, and i did not include any 6B ones because it isn’t fair for me to use those when the season isn’t finished yet. (EDIT: season is now finished and while none of the 6B episodes made the ranking i did adjust the honorable mentions accordingly.) this is long & i had fun making it

3.19 Letharia Vulpina: ok ok so just like Everyone Knew I Would i did pick this one because of all the prime derek/chris material—that all-important moment where they had their claws and gun trained on each other, being handcuffed to a bench together, derek saving chris’s life despite insisting he wasn’t gonna—BUT there’s literally not a single second of this episode i don’t love. we open with deaton being a total badass and scaring the shit out of some yakuza dudes, then KIRA gets to be a badass, and then there’s a small scott/allison/isaac moment when he’s all laid up (which was my ot3 for a little while in 3A…don’t judge), allison gets to threaten peter with a stun baton on her girlfriend lydia’s behalf, and that doesn’t even BEGIN to get into the absolute delight it is to watch everyone running around trying to deal with all the chaos the notgitsune is causing (we even got to see coach get shot, which was actually pretty funny??). between all of that and the plot twist at the end (that we all saw coming…but hey) that it was really the nogitsune pretending to be stiles all along (and the very…gay…thing going on with him and scott), it’s literally like, the perfect episode. there was even a rain battle at the end i fucking love rainy scenes. PEAK television.

4.12 Smoke & Mirrors: my two favorite characters on the dumb werewolf show are derek hale & scott mccall and this episode is like a great big flashing sign that says “LOOK AT HOW AWESOME DEREK IS AND LOOK AT HOW AWESOME SCOTT IS!!!” because scott finally gets to KICK PETER’S ASS and comes back from something he shouldn’t be able to come back from because he’s SCOTT MCCALL, TRUE ALPHA, and how can we forget my son derek finally achieving the full shift and giving that big old “FUCK YOU” to kate argent. if that wasn’t enough, my third favorite character chris argent gets the second-closest he’s ever come to weeping in this entire series when confronting the sister he can’t kill at the end. also kate is in this episode and she’s the best villain i love her presence onscreen. also peak television.

1.12 Code-Breaker: i love s1 SO FUCKING MUCH bc it was so tightly plotted - it’s like back to the future and holes, it’s one of those things where every line serves a purpose and there’s no spare bits, and tw’s plot becomes such a mess later that it’s honestly really amazing. so code breaker is my favorite one because all the plot stuff comes together really well, and it’s just like well-done overall, there’s that sick backwards shot of allison, chris’s Angst when he realizes his sister is a serial killer, scott trying Really Really Hard and derek being Really Really Done (why don’t they have more scenes together…), stiles and peter cracking me up with the laptop password gag, like…there’s literally no part of this ep that isn’t a delight (also again kate is in it i love kate as a villain). it’s wonderful 10/10

3.14 More Bad Than Good: i had a real hard time with this one vs. the one immediately before it, the first one of 3B, but i love both bc i love watching scott stiles and allison absolutely losing their shit. in the end i like this one better bc 1. you get to watch them beat it and 2. they finally find and rescue malia and i FUCKING LOVE malia, my own daughter, also the scene where she reunites with her dad makes me misty every time. bonus content: watching araya hack off peter’s finger :D :D :D AND this is the first time derek gets to make heart-eyes at braeden. i’m so happy whenever he’s happy!!!

6.05 Radio Silence: this episode is everything i love about 6A all wrapped up in a nice neat lil package. i love 6A bc it totally fucking surprised me by making me like things i did not think i’d like, the biggest being stiles/lydia. and like…this season fuckin SOLD me on it, the way she fights tooth and nail to get him back and the way he’s so patiently waited for her reminds me 2much of claire & ben from @cambionverse and the beginning of me being sold was this ep, when they had the wall between them, and when they finally talked on the radio. and this episode even made peter hale interesting for 30 entire seconds which i thought was impossible—it was cool that he did One Genuinely Selfless Thing by going through the portal to save malia, and later when malia and scott had to take his pain to get at stiles’ keys you could almost imagine for a second he got to pretend someone actually DID care about him, that’s his reward for doing a single selfless thing. it was also stellar to see stiles (and the jeep!!!) again and see him working the problem from the other side it was like getting real sam back after half a season of soulless sam in spn s6 DO NOT call me out for referencing this show

4.05 I.E.D.: go look at these gifsets and read the tags. now come back. …okay okay aside from, That, which i won’t repeat as to avoid two paragraphs of capslock, derek also smiles in this episode. even scott is alarmed by it. HE’S HAPPY i’m happy he’s happy!!!!! i’m happy he loves scott!! i’m happy he spends half the episode trading long lingering looks with his future boyfriend!!!! but if that wasn’t enough this episode KEEPS ON GIVING because at the very end the calaveras show up and bully chris into saying the original code, and forgetting his daughter’s, which is deeply relevant to all my headcanons about the code lowkey being like indoctrination (watch that shit again it’s fucking wild…), and also it’s one of the only times in the series where he looks genuinely freaked out and i love watching his Turmoil™

6.10 Riders on the Storm: this is also everything i love about 6A in one ep, just like, less concentrated, bc there’s also the nazi werewolf (tho even PETER HALE getting judgy @ the nazi was truly a highlight). its got all the Big Damn Reunions, its got STYDIA, its got peter actually being slightly interesting, its got scott mccall: badass. its actually also got lydia martin: badass, which like…About Damn Time. it’s even got chris argent: badass, and it’s also got chris argent: badass smooching on a beautiful lady w/ his hands in her hair!!!! (her: that was so hot! me: GIRL ME TOO) also they thought this was the last stiles ep ever so his goodbyes to everyone were like really sweet & made me emo af

3.22 De-Void: so obviously i love this one because derek’s line when he was under thrall about “you’re NOT my ally you’re a HUNTER” got me into the dumb rarepair i wrote like 60k for so far but also i do genuinely deeply love the sequence where they exorcise the notgitsune from inside stiles’ head—lydia facing her fears in the ruined prom dress is such amazing imagery + im gay for the scott/stiles reunion. bonus content includes chris & allison interaction which breaks my heart (he’s so proud of her!!) and the tense kickass scene in the loft in the opening where the notgitsune (SCARY MOTHERFUCKER) is trying to goad chris into shooting it. i don’t love ALL of this ep bc it has so much thumb twins (& from here down there are no more perfect ones…sad) but i love MOST of it and the parts i do love are fantastic. so. i’ll deal w/ thumb twins

3.06 Motel California: look i know this episode should disturb the fuck out of me bc 1. derek and jennifer bang & in my eyes that isn’t a consensual encounter and 2. all the creepy ass suicides but like…honestly there is something so soothing about motels to me, i’ll put this one on to just chill out anyday. like it is delightfully creepy and i love all the meat to everyone getting hit with their baggage (uh…except the thumb twins), but mostly it’s the #mood i love. i actually even like the derek scenes before the sex starts because he is So Wounded and So Sad (“everyone around me gets hurt” BYE) and they rarely let him actually emote at all so it’s very refreshing

2.03 Ice Pick: this was like…such a perfect & amazing introduction to the new betas like if the new ppl in s4 and beyond had gotten this kind of good introduction (and hadn’t been killed off so quickly…) i would love them about 10x more. it’s got that nice s2 vibe that most ppl are into and i still love erica & boyd w/ all my heart!!! (DONT really love how creepy derek was w/ erica but we’ll blame it on being the alpha.) i also love how fucked up the scene with allison tied to the chair was & the fucking fight between derek’s pack and scott at the end…like scott gets to win a 2-on-1 fight and then derek gets to be mr. cool alpha dude and kick his ass. i LOVE THOSE FIGHT SCENES and bc of this episode “iron” is my derek theme song. so.

HONORABLE MENTIONS aka these were on the original list but didn’t make the cut:

1.11 Formality (aaalllll of derek’s ugly backstory this was when i knew i loved him)

2.10 Fury (the first ep i ever watched live, will always be fond of it for that reason even tho i don’t give 2 shits about matt)

2.11 Battlefield (the theme of doing things bc of the power of love will always get me, it was also the only teen wolf episode i ever made gifs of, back when i knew how to make gifs)

3.12 Lunar Ellipse (for scott becoming a true alpha for REAL + derek’s big ol’ well-deserved fuck-you to jennifer, i didn’t love 3A but this was such prime derek & scott material)

3.13 Anchors (like i said: watching stiles, scott, and allison all COMPLETELY lose their shit, also did you know the anchor allison chose in this ep ws her new code? Interesting)

3.24 The Divine Move (listen...you can laugh at the cheesy sfx ALL you want but when i watched kate argent come back from the dead to menace derek hale like his own worst nightmare come to life LIVE with mine own two eyes i jumped out of my seat and YELLED like everything about that moment was absolutely PERFECT and very few things are ever gonna top it)

4.08 Time of Death (derek learning to use a gun and then getting it on with braeden…bye)

4.11 A Promise to the Dead (not only chris unsticking himself from the wall for allison and scott’s sake but also derek and braeden walking around his loft half-naked in the rain...nice)

5.05 A Novel Approach (the stiles and donovan altercation…the first 15m where he acts with his face without saying a word…enough said)

5.18 The Maid of Gévaudan (i'm bitter about the flashback because i want ALLISON but it was a nice origin story + scott fighting the beast all on his own to save that library full of kids was one of the only truly amazing moments of 5B)

6.08 Blitzkrieg (the sheriff rebuilding stiles’ room and saying goodbye to claudia makes me really for real cry but there’s so much nazi bullshit that i couldn’t justify having the episode as a whole being one of my favs)

6.13 After Images (chris argent absolutely losing his shit the entire ep, fucking love it)

6.19 Broken Glass (derek hale's comeback and he got to spend all of his screentime with chris argent! i seriously considered poking this into the #10 spot but ultimately the sideplot i hated with malia and scott had so much more screentime i can't use it - i can't list an episode i'm always skipping parts of!)

#personal #teen wolf #im scheduling this to go up like not in the middle of the night #so im not like. actly here #dargent #chris argent #derek hale #kate argent #jennifer blake #braeden #draeden #melissa mccall #mcargent #scott mccall #about teen wolf

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