the walten files fans try not to demonize people with addictions, understand these characters are meant to be complex, and learn to grasp the concept of nuance + remorse + grief and fear causing people to make poor choices challenge: impossible

im acutally going crazy over any time crowely's voice goes soft. specifically the "it burned down... remember?"

he doesnt want to say it again. not only because of the shiny new trauma he has with the memory, but because he doesnt want to remind aziraphale that its gone. he doesnt want to watch aziraphale's face to fall as he remembers the bookshop—his shop, his home for over two centuries—is gone. its burned down; the building, his chairs, his books, his memories, all of it.

but he has to. so he says it gently. it cant take away the pain, but he can lessen the blow, if a fractional amount at least. he reminds him softly, but doesnt give aziraphale time to spiral.

"you can stay at my place? if you like?"

he says it just as gently, just as soft. its an offer he's never given, a line theyd never crossed before. its new and its scary, but hey, it was almost the end of the world and they might die tomororw. what did they have to lose?

so he offers with a kindness to his tone only ever reserved for aziraphale alone, and even then only shown on rare occurrences. only when he knows the angel is close to breaking. he reminds aziraphale whats been lost, but also reminds him that hes not alone. he still has crowley.

Hiding my shirt that says 'i am not normal about narratives that imply an inanimate inhabited structure is a living breathing organism' as i walk into a board room and pitch my idea that we should make more horror revolving around living architecture

playing around with some nightcat/inv designs, partially inspired by @faelingdraws and @dieselpvnk's designs

also i really like plural nightcat/inv by faeling, so im adopting that for them if you dont mind, but if thats not ok please tell me!!

Guess who's circling the drain in the maladaptive hyperfixation pit again! No prizes for a gimme answer. But this is a bad one, i fucked up a wrist, then i fucked up my elbows, and then i kept fucking going.

And I don't do a good job at work or social while I'm like this, which only makes me feel worse, which leaves me scrabbling at the bottom of the pit with my bare fingernails, digging for more dopamine. I need a hard reset with a different creative focus for sure, haven't decided what that will be yet, because first...

I need to finish these wips! Or i never will, and then all of this won't just have been meaningless, it will have also been a ridiculous waste of time. I have five books close to done, one is an overdue gift, four are a new technique experiment. Might be one more that's a little further from the finish line, but it's been haunting me for two years.

And also, I think I'm plain not allowed to do any more books until i write at least one thing and draw at least one thing. I whine constantly about missing those hobbies, but I am in fact the person in charge of my schedule, so.

Prompt: the archangelcule celebrating Jack's birthday 🙏

Lucifer runs himself ragged all week getting the party set up (and despite the fact that he’s done this for Jack every time he needs it since he came back into Michael’s life, it still leaves Michael surprised and wondering what happened to the boy who only knew how to bite the hand that fed when Michael abandoned him, when did he learn to be gentle and reliable, why did Michael waste all this time not seeing him?) to the point that he looks like he might fall asleep in front of the birthday cake before Raphael nudges him with their elbow, and he wakes up to sing.

They sing quietly — loud noises hurt Jack’s ears, one of many little oddities, but they rearrange their lives around his needs: no vacuuming unless he’s out of the house and no yelling from room to room — while Jack looks like he’s about to jump right out of his seat with how much he wants to blow out the candles. Gabriel scoops him up in one arm after, lets Jack’s tiny hand curl around the handle of the (dull!) cake knife while his lays over it to guide him, and helps him to cut pieces for them all himself.

(birthday 3 sentence ficathon! come toss a prompt!)

thunder and lightning are yuri couple. idk why no one has said it yet (fro mmy searches). also thunder called lightning dear once and im not gonna check the subtitles to see if i heard it correctly

so about that animatic, its definitely not seeing completion by monday thats for sure. unless I can magically pull out 100+ drawn frames in 3 days in between work and other stuff its not happening.

As much as I would like to have had it done before we see how Rozemyne and Ferdinand reunite with each other- in all likelihood its going to only really be done in another week or so.

the unpopular opinion that mikan and ruka’s relationship was actually super cute and amazing and important but with the extra spicy flavor of only liking them platonically. only the hottest people in the world will rly get it

another non snz post I apologize but uh- just finished reading through the first 151 chapters of J/ujutsu K/aisen... (took me 6 hours of straight reading xD) and I am feeling supremely unwell about these characters/this story. I will be finishing the rest tomorrow once my 100 chapter limit resets. I won't ramble on but just wanted to say that um? I am feeling so many feelings about this! I am even more excited for season 2!! Didn't think that was possible!! And yes anyways just being so unchill about S/atoS/ugu over here <3333

working in a kitchen is great for someone recovering from self-harm habits, because the work environment will just do the damage for you! no guilt!

Btw considering posting some minecraft content? I'm turning a lil uh. Desert temple into a base on a personal world. It's a pretty cool spot if yall wanna see. I also did make myself (ollie) a minecraft skin! So that's cool

I also might post some of the builds from a like. 1 year old world between me and da beefs idk

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i hate to be this girl the girl who cries on her drive home but this might just be as good as it gets and i can’t keep doing this and by this i mean falling behind and being so fucking alone i can’t be the only one trying here i just need someone to give me a fucking break but none of this even matters because i am just a girl who forgets grief is sitting next to her in the passenger seat until i miss my turn.

thinking about slugcat related spec bio again.... trying to decide whether it would be cooler if scugs were simultaneous or sequential hermaphrodites... im leaning toward simultaneous as an homage to the slug part of their common name but im not sure yet

finally got around to watching dragon ball super hero and