hiraeth.
part II.
synopsis: she watches as cassian falls for another, grappling with her own hidden affections and their newly snapped mating bond in the process.
pairing: cassian x fem!reader
fandom: a court of thorns and roses (book series by sarah j maas)
genre: angst
warnings: none
a/n: house of balloons/glass table girls, this is his song... i love him. fluff part two coming up OBVIOUSLY, im not fucking ending it like this i cant do this to my #1 loverboy babygirl kitty princess beloved. @joyseuphoria hi <3
Cassian had always been the beacon of power and resolve, with a demeanor rugged and unyielding. But beneath the surface was vulnerability, and she knew that it was written in the stars for her to remain by his side as his closest friend and confidante, never to become one to uncover that side of him.
But it didn’t make it easier. Watching him as he fell for Nesta’s every glance, every touch, every word that escaped her mouth seemed to throw him deeper and deeper into a trance. And she was fine with that, and accepted it. Accepted that she would never be the object of his softened glances, his featherlight touches, his-
Her thoughts halted as Cassian stormed into the room, frustration radiating off him in waves. She glanced up from her book, her eyes immediately catching the tension etched onto his features. Without a word, she closed her book and shifted, making room for him on the couch.
Cassian collapsed beside her, his movements rough yet familiar. He stretched out, his feet finding their place on her lap almost instinctively. Y/N didn't flinch; instead, she settled into the comfortable silence, waiting for Cassian to speak.
"It's Nesta," he finally muttered, his voice heavy with frustration. "Training with her…it was like walking on eggshells. One wrong move, and she was tearing into me with those ice-cold eyes."
She listened attentively, her gaze soft as she absorbed his words. "It was like she was always testing me," Cassian continued, his voice growing softer with each word. "Pushing me to my limits, making me question everything I thought I knew about myself."
Her fingers instinctively started to massage his feet as he spoke. It was a small gesture, one born out of years of friendship and trust. Cassian didn't protest; instead, he leaned back against the cushions, allowing the soothing touch to ease the tension from his muscles.
As the minutes stretched on, their conversation ebbed and flowed, the weight of Cassian's burdens slowly lifting with each passing moment. Y/N listened, offering words of comfort when needed, but mostly content to provide silent support.
Cassian's breathing eventually evened out, his body relaxing against the cushions. Y/N glanced down to find him fast asleep, his features softened by the serenity of slumber. She smiled softly, her heart swelling with affection.
Suddenly, chains, bolts, and locks shifted, loosening, their weight growing just a little more tolerable. A soul peeked through. Broken, scarred, and trembling — with fear, she realized, but it stretched further and further. Yearning, searching.
It was as though a tether had snapped into place, an invisible thread binding her to Cassian in a way she had never felt before. Confusion flickered as she processed the intensity of the connection, the undeniable pull drawing her closer to him.
She was aware that this was not happening in the slightest. A mind trick. A dream, she thought. betraying once, the jolt of real-time that pushed through her. Burning her cheeks and stealing her breath. How the waking world slipped past the knobby parts of her fingers like a whisper, barely there, because dreaming was just a fancier word for getting lost. It held her there, suspended in imagination and for every second, it felt real. Like she could grasp the outlines and the textures. Like she could touch the weather, drink the clouds, and taste the sunlight.
The gods who had her in a chokehold withdrew.
Death feared her too, it seemed.
He was soaring in the air, and she was on the ground. She tried to reach him but he was far, far out of her reach. Seconds ticked by, and then minutes, and every thought that tried to sneak its way in, through this thick veil, bounced off and dissipated into thin air.
Because she then remembered… that beautiful things shouldn’t be broken. And she had a knack for breaking things.
The soft rays of dawn streamed through the windows of the House of Wind, casting a warm glow over the sitting room where she and Cassian had fallen asleep. As she stirred from her slumber, she found herself alone on the couch, the imprint of Cassian's presence still lingering in the air. She rubbed the sleep from her eyes, her mind foggy with the remnants of… dreams? Visions? She felt as though the very fabric of her existence had been torn asunder, leaving her adrift in a sea of uncertainty, but when has that ever stopped her?
So she stood on the ground and longed.
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Just watching the Mummy and having moments
Like, was SJM inspired by the Pharoah's mistress when she painted Feyre Under the Mountain (so everyone would know if anyone touched her, aka Tamllin)?
Like, how Evie and Rick make a good team as soon as they're on the same side: she's watching his back, pulling him out of gunfire without asking or needing to be asked, he's watching hers, recognizing what the wet footprints *might* mean and checking on her immediately.
Like, how Evie says "if he turns me into a mummy you're the first one I'm coming after" but what she means is "I love you" and he GETS IT immediately. They've well established that Imotep has been obsessed with reconnecting with his beloved despite being a mummy. Evie is telling Rick, you're beloved to me, and he hears her even though they've spent so little time together.
Like, how Jonathan is constantly avoiding conflict but NEVER backs down when it happens. He is the last to drop his gun when they visit the museum in Cairo for answers.
Like, how they so subtly compare Jonathan and the prison warden. Both pick up the blue gold scarabs. The warden is driven by greed, he is giggling, he keeps saying "one more" until a scarab breaks loose to eat him. But Jonathan is curious. "Hey gents, have a look at this" he says as he grabs one to show Rick and Ardeth. When it inevitably breaks loose to eat him, Rick and Ardeth are able to save him. Jonathan is greedy, yes, but it is not his primary motivation. And that saves his life.
Like, how Brendan Fraser's eyes have not changed at ALL. Now that he's back in public view, I watch this and go, "oh, there you are Brendan! We missed you buddy"
Like how Evie is a damsel, and she is in distress, but she can handle it. Give her an inch to defend herself and she f*cking WILL.
Like how the entire finale is an absolute PERFECT balance of humor and serious action. We are absolutely worried for their lives, but when Rick screams at the mummies we laugh, bc bro what are you doing lol.
Like how what secures their victory isn't violence or brute strength, it's knowledge. *Evie's* knowledge. She helps Jonathan translate a dead language to save Rick, then she translates it again (under EXTREME pressure) to make Imotep mortal.
Just, ugh. The feels. What a masterpiece.
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🧡Broken Love🩵
🐚@coralseacourt🐚
✨Summery:✨ The youngest Acheron Sister gets rejected for Elain.
Love is sweet but revenge is sweeter. After a broken heart comes a broken court part three of broken love.
✨Warnings:✨ naughty scene
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4,
Part 3:
I m a traitor.
A liar.
The evil Personified.
At least that’s what they want to believe.
That the innocent girl I was, had turned on them without good reason.
They would never understand that revenge led me.
Revenge for all those hours I had spent alone locked up in their prison tower.
It had been a golden cage.
A prison I would never return to again.
🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸
The doors opened and a cruel smile played around my lips.
With Eris right by my side I entered the High lords meeting Room.
Every pair of eyes found us in an instance.
Gasps and shocked faces all around us.
One Face particularly shocked. Azriel.
Just for a second my eyes swiped over his beautiful but furious face.
The newly crowned High Lord next to me chuckled and laid his hand on my bare back.
The game was on. And I was ready to play.
“Violet?” Of course feyre was the first to speak.
But I didn’t gave her any indication that I had heard her.
The growling from the other night court members was harder to ignore.
“ Tztz would you please not growl at my pet. She has claws and I rather don’t want her to use them.” I smiled dangerously at Eris.
“ I thought you promised me that I could play.” I said with a sensual tone.
“I haven’t played in so long.” I glanced at Rhysand who looked like he could throw up at any given moment .
My eyebrow raised I walked closer to the table where everyone sat.
My mental walls pulled up and tightened.
“Soon my sweetness. Nightmares are not made overnight.”
Eris strolled to the only free chair left and sat down like a king ready to conquer.
I narrowed my eyes and let my fingers drive over the top of the marble table.
Long fingernails clacking on the cold stone.
“I like to play. Don’t you High Lord of the Night?” I smiled cruelly at him.
His mask slipping away for just a second.
But I saw. I saw straight through him.
Then the moment was over, he straightened up and narrowed his eyes.
Ah there he is.
Rhysand.
The most powerful High lord of prythian.
“Violet. I see you.” He paused for a second pulling invisible dust from his jacket.
His pause seemed intentional and I had to think back to the words that had started it all.
Do you want to be seen?
“are in great company. And I thought you finally had the guts to go and be on your own. Seems you only changed sides.”
His face changing to a cruel mask of authority.
I tilted my head to the side looking at him like a predator analyzing its prey.
“I like being in his company and being his pet. It gives me satisfaction to know he can do whatever he wants with me.”
I smiled devilish and let one of my hands glide up my throat over my chin.
Playing with my lips and licking one of my fingers.
The growl that came from behind Rhys let me look up.
Azriel. His hand on his knife, teeth fletched and his black eyes staring me down.
”What has become of you? Look at you being the whore of autumn scum.”
I laughed out loud not bothered by his hateful words.
I put a innocent face up before saying.
“Oh but Azriel. I have only become what you have made me.” All night court eyes turned to the Shadowsinger surprised.
“Az? What does she mean with that?” Feyre, her eyes had teared up and my face softened for just a second before putting my mask back on.
“I don’t know what she is talking about.”
I giggled.
“Of course you don’t honey. But it doesn’t matter either way.”
I turned around and walked to the waiting hand of the only man that knew the rules of our new game.
“Now that we have this issue cleared, I want to announce our marriage.” The Autumn High Lord took my hand and kissed it gently.
Feyre gasped.
“No, you can’t do this. Rhys do something.”
But the Lord of Night only stared.
“Rhys, please she is my sister. He can’t marry her. What about Azriel’s Connection .”
“Feyre stop talking.”
I stiffened.
First because of the mention of any kind of connection with the Shadowsinger.
But then because this asshole had dared to quiet my sister down.
Now I was angry.
And angry me did not hold back anymore.
With only a wink of my power, that no one had ever known about I called my shadows and let them rise behind me like a black wall that would withstand anything and anyone.
Eris was chuckling next to me while I stared at the shocked faces of all high lords and their companions.
My teeth fletched and my eyes glowing green with power.
“ If you ever dare to talk to my sister like that again you will regret it.”
Everyone tensed at the words of my threat only Eris stayed calm.
“Wonderful now you angered my little nightmare. “
He pulled me into his lap and put a hand on my neck squeezing it softly before pulling my hair to the side to kiss my throat.
Calming me down I realized.
My shadows disappeared in an instance.
“She is a Shadowsinger.” Helion leaned back in his chair, eyes gleaming with excitement.
“I m right here you don’t need to talk over my head I can and will talk for myself.” He only raised his eyebrows in response.
“You haven’t been like this before, what changed? Please tell me violet. We can fix this. I know we can. “
Feyre was now pleading with me and deep inside my heart broke but I had to do my part, had to play this character.
“There is nothing to be fixed. I m exactly who I want to be.”
Was all I said and the attention finally was turned to the official meeting points.
But I could feel his eyes on me, could feel something else too.
I scrunched my forehead in confusion.
Why could I feel jealousy.
Hot headed blatantly obvious jealousy.
The problem was that it wasn’t my feelings.
I looked up Azriel’s eyes gleaming at me.
And that’s when I could see what I clearly felt.
Jealousy.
🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸🐚🪸
It had been hours for the high lords to finish.
We were the first to leave for the room we would spend the night in to continue the meeting on the next day.
A fire was burning when we entered. Cozy.
“Violet come here. “ I turned around to look at the male with the softest red hair.
I walked slowly towards him until we almost touched.
His hands cupping my cheeks.
“Are you alright?” I blinked a couple times before catching myself.
Eris was a great High Lord but concern was not his strength.
So, for him to try to be gentle was new.
I pulled away.
“Of course, why wouldn’t I? This is what we’ve been working towards. Remember?”
He straightened up and back was my sensual Companion.
“I have to say , i was surprised how good you handled yourself.”
I only raised my eyebrow before strolling back towards him letting my hands slide softly down his chest pulling his dressshirt up to have better access to him.
He closed his eyes and let his head fall back.
A moan escaping his full lips while I was letting my fingers glide over his hot skin, down to his leather belt wich I opened with swift fingers.
“You are a naughty little vixen.”
“I know, but would you want me any other way?”
He chuckled before laying his hands on my shoulders and slowly pulling my dress down making it pool around my legs.
I was now completely bared in front of him.
“You really are as beautiful and cruel like one of my darkest nightmares.”
With strong arms he suddenly lifted me up and pressed me against the wall. My head falling back while his tongue circled around my peaked nipple.
Nipping, biting, licking.
“I need to be inside of you like you are inside of me every second, every moment of the day.”
And with that he pulled his pants down and started to slip into me first slowly until he was completely hidden inside of me, then hard and fast until the world erupted around us.
Stars filling my vision and moans leaving my lips.
And while i experienced complete Bliss the Shadowsinger next door was drowned in darkness having to listen to us.
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