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THEE audiodrama disguised as podcast
#sherlock and co#s&co#sherlock holmes#john watson#mariana ametxazurra#Ive been thinking abt these design SO much lmao. even while doing other things#decided to take cues from acd/granada more. hence sherlock's headband to mimic slicked back hair#and I went with Colors bc. well first of all Im a clown. but second of all I recall some stuff abt victorian fabrics and uh. the wonder of#arsenic green etc#they were enjoying the colors I can commit to some#and. okay Im so real with u Im also a long haired john truther bc he has a podcast of course he'd have long hair but#I think its gonna take a Hot minute. currently this is still like the slightly-grown-out regulation cut#john's jacket is bc he and sherlock are 90s kids. this was a moment of enlightenment to me. I can give john every windbreaker on earth#mariana gets the jean jacket bc I like to imagine she's a y2k kid#(sherlock I think is only 90s kid in year of birth that man's childhood was skipping class to burn shit in the wood)#(but he canonically sews which I fucking love so much. he has not bought new clothes for almost a decade#if a shirt's disintegrating no it isn't. not on his watch)#a lil sad I cant figure out how to give them hats lol I feel like thats the most victorian thing there is. a stupid hat#I can at any moment give one of them a beanie. but I refuse#there are. like a Hoard of other scribbly sketches I did to get used to drawing them. but those are for me those are not for the public#and also theyre in my sketchbook and Im too lazy to scan them#happened mostly during lunar new year lol. I was getting Hard whipped then thank u s&co for carrying me thru#ok I do other things now. have this for a while ok? thank u#have a good night lads. enjoy motion
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Arya learned the Braavosi language and culture well enough to pass as someone "born and bred" there while interacting with actual native Braavosi, but I'm supposed to think she's going to have difficulty navigating Westerosi noble life...as someone who was actually raised as a Westerosi noble? The way you can tell that people don't think before they "theorize" about Arya will always crack me up
#arya stark#asoiaf#people treating Arya like she's some wild animal when she's genuinely one of the most cultured + well-rounded characters is so sdkdskdsk#not to mention that she has added experience in navigating political situations given her experience in Harrenhal as Roose's cupbearer#even if you genuinely thought she was that wild in AGOT (which is debatable) she's grown so much since then#the theories are literally just /Arya doesn't want to be a lady so that means she can't control herself/ it's so lazy 😭
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Knowing that the Spongebob crew doesn't know what to do with Sandy because they find her unfunny hence why she's been used less and less throughout the seasons.
#I LIKE SANDY#She was tied with spongebob as my favorite as a kid#Idk somehow it feels like shes grown away from the main friend group in the show#Shes just there#Occasionally she does have interesting interactions with characters but often very limited#I'd like to see her more😭#Idk i feel like she can be funny but they gotta stop relying so much on her being 'the smart one'#And she works well with another character to bounce off of#But in order to do that you've got to work out and fix how she interacts with characters which they've definitely tried there are some good#Modern episodes with her#Idk i wish she was used more#At least she's getting her own movie#the spongebob connoisseur#spongebob squarepants#spongebob#sb#spongebon squarepants#spongebob meme#Sandy cheeks
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I have think there's something wrong with me.
I have one singular dog. Since I've gotten Misty, I've purchased 8 collars, 2 leashes, and 1 slip leash. In addition to these, I already had 3 leashes, Misty came home with a collar, and a puppy sized martingale slip leash.
Why am I about to buy yet another leash????
#sam literally had 3 collars and 1 leash his entire 10 years of life#and one of those got so gross rolling in the woods that i tossed it#why sooooo much dog stuff#like i feel like it all has a purpose and a place but still#the bf was complaining about the amount of dog stuff we have for one dog and concerned about how much more there will be soon#well. soonish. felony may just be coming home in may. assuming we get one from this upcoming litter#i think if there are at least 6 pups then the odds are good#to be fair though of that dog stuff that she didn't come with she's grown out of or irreparably worn out half the collars#and two of the leashes are only used when we go camping as a tie out extender. part of random junk i aquired from family home#and also the leash i want is for hiking! ruffwear hitchhiker. looks good#(as the bf said. another dog item for a specific purpose)#anyways anyways. hopefully the rest of dogblr has way more than i do so i can feel less like a hoarder of dog supplies#i need it all okay#quick going out to the yard collar and leash#minimal but pretty short leash and collar#easily cleaned but still attractive collar and leash#house collar#nylon tagless collar for unforeseen collar needs#and now a handsfree leash for hiking#it just fits. the real question is why do i want to buy a matching harness for it too
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spent weeks psyching myself up to stand up to my mum and then immediately got shot down by her 😃👍
#vent incoming i apologise in advance for the long tags#we've lived together just the two of us since dec 2021 (although her boyfriend is here like 2/3 of the time as well)#and since i got my job in march 2022 i have been paying half of all the bills (literally down to like tv license when i barely watch the tv)#which is £300 a month#plus i buy all my own food + pay for the amazon prime she uses + contribute to various household things like toilet roll etc#and she doesn't have a mortgage so i am paying the same amount as her to live in her house#(and it is very much her house not our house)#and I've never been very happy with any of that but never complained either#but then recently it turned out she never set up the water bill when we moved in (it's one of the only bills i didn't sort for us)#so we have a huge backdated bill from dec 2021 and i knew she was going to tell me to pay half#so for the past month or so I've been preparing myself for this conversation and sure enough today she came and said 'we owe £700'#so i was like 'oh i thought maybe it would've been covered by my £300/month' which is the biggest stand I've been able to work myself up to#and she immediately started going on about how i live here too and use water too so it's just as much my responsibility to pay#and how when we're both earning i should be paying my share and i was like yeah i know that's why i never complained about paying before#but also i already pay more than most people would to live with their parents#and she went off about how actually most people charge their grown up kids rent on top of the bills so really i'm lucky i don't have to#(when she got the original £300 figure it was actually rounded up from like £240 to include 'rent' but i wasn't gonna bring that up now)#and in conclusion she doesn't see why she should be subsidising my bills#like i don't know maybe because you're my MOTHER and i am your CHILD who is just starting out in the adult world#and maybe that entitles me to being treated better than some lodger???!!!!!#anyway i paid the bill and now i'm trying and failing at not crying at my desk 😃#talking
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Idk I just keep thinking about Law brushing Robin's hair.
Law learning how to braid her hair.
Law washing her hair.
#you want easy intimacy of your ship? thinking of one grooming the other's hair#lawbin#law#robin#anyway i was thinking about how a lot of what i've written for this ship is robin taking care of law emotionally#bc of all that unprocessed trauma#and i wanted something of law taking care of robin#and i've done a little bit of that#well i need more#it's the little things#like letting her take his cup of coffee bc she's pregnant and craving a little bit of caffeine#running her errands for her#she doesn't need as much emotional support since she's processed and grown lol#so it's the little things - little acts of service and care
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It always seems like such a good idea in the moment (Patreon)
The first four are in reference to a great idea I had of - since I’ve finished my lower-limit page number testing for making books; shorter fics take up less page space, and just increasing the font size isn’t as handsome! - simply making a mini book! All it would take would be to halve the pages again, right? Just cut them right down the middle! Easy peasy!
As I’m sure you can tell by the second, no. Not easy peasy. Difficult painful un-fun >:(
Obviously I still did it tho! What do you take me for, someone who could have the idea of an even tinier book and then not do something about it?? No
It’s also the only one so far to have a paper bookmark rather than a ribbon!
All told it’s a bit smaller than your average manga (I love the monochrome covers on these under their dust jackets haha <3) - you can see even with effectively doubling up the pages by halving their size, it was still very small-spined!
A quick shot while it was still being made hehe ♪ It’s Out! Paired here - and the earlier one, just without its dust jacket haha - with my Zarla SC2 collection (ft. Family, Negotiations are Going...Well, and With No Obligation) - I absolutely kicked myself after the fact for not including Out as the run-up to everything, I was really trying to make a full collection in probably-chronological order! Out would’ve been a perfect start! And it only would’ve taken like four pages!!
Ah well, it was still quite a learning experience - I probably wouldn’t make another standalone of under 4k-ish just for formatting reasons but I did get some good ideas of how to do so if I wanted to! Although, my next project is going to be even more of a formatting nightmare........I’ll get there when I get there! Lol
#Doodles#The impulsive thoughts are always the funnest! But then it's all a matter of actually putting them into reality...#Ahh well like I said under the cut it was a learning experience! And I really wanted a physical copy of Out haha ♪#I don't think I've ever mentioned it - not even in my pre-fic notes :0 - but Out was another one of my inspirations for Drinking Game#I mean - the drinking lol obviously but I hadn't considered what VUX drinking would be like before reading it :)#I wanted to pair it with both physical copies hehe ♫ I'm happy I attempted it! And I have a better foundation to build on in the future!#I ended up using the scrap leftover from making such a small cover as the bookmark haha - and I picked the covers so they'd almost-match :)#They go together! But not quite! Just enough!#The sting of creation has worn off - it's actually been a while since I've made a quick book! - so the itch is starting to come back haha#Well - almost lol - the formatting is still........but I do want to do it! Especially now that I've got a hand-in-hand hobby to go with it#All that later ♪ For now snakes!#And also spiders I am also the same when spiders#I've been escorting a lot of spiders outside lately and pretty much all of them fall under the moniker of ''darling'' to me lol#Still no luck on finding a jumping spider :( But I also haven't got an enclosure set up yet either#There's this one booth that always has such adorable and pretty jumping spider enclosures ahhh I might have to break and get one someday#Same place where I got to hold the snake in fact! :D She was a love <3 Beautiful full-grown female cornsnake if memory serves#She was rather wiggly - she was tired and fussy and didn't feel like being handled by a stranger but she was so polite about it#A real delight to handle <3 And I got to see her babies! So cute and tiny!#The rest is more SCII fic stuff haha ♪ Rereading the Pirate fic was a lot of fun :) Intentionally avoiding Vargas fic(s) does make me a bit#Well I really like Vargas still lol it is candy to my brain so any gesture even remotely in that direction is very exciting haha#I'm perfectly happy with the rest for now tho! I have plenty of things to read and make! >:3c#Heck there's still a SCII fic I haven't read yet that I want to!! I just have to get all my previous SCII thoughts out of my head first haha#I will tho >:3c Always always ♪♫#SCII
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it's me and all the women in literature described in despondent unhappiness in a marriage that they don't hate but don't enjoy as they should and who feel as if they're not the way a woman should be and who yearn to be free of their husband and children not because they despise them but because they're not for a husband and children and who can't say that they're miserable but who feel a numb kind of despair in all that disconnectedness and disconnectedness and disconnectedness. they are just like me for real
#we have the same kind of depression 👍 but also. i can see so clearly that that's the way i would be if i still thought i was a girl.#and i had grown up to get married to someone and tried to be a woman and a mother like that. god...#edna pontellier hold on. i'm going out into the sea with you. we'll drown together.#laura brown from the hours on my kin list 👍#need to reread the hours so bad. opened up my copy of it to check if laura had killed herself at the end or not for this post#and just skimming the last few chapters made me tear up. god. but there are still the hours aren't there? one and then another...#and then you get through that one and then my god there's another...#um. books that make you go 'okay so maybe i have wanted to kill myself a little bit all these years. but maybe i'm going to be okay'#the book ever honestly it is Everything to me#and kate chopin's the awakening is good as well. much to be said about the depiction of people of color in that novel#but the depiction of edna pontellier's mental state is so. ough.#glances at the ratings on goodreads nd stuff have made me so irritated.#god forbid a woman commit the ultimate selfish sin of leaving her children behind because she's so miserable by killing herself.#because far worse than the thought that she could be losing all her personhood moment by moment#and wasting her life away feeling like a shell of a person#pales. in comparison to the thought that she could POSSIBLY abandon the children she didn't really want to have.#of course it's a bad situation for the kids. sorry to raoul and etienne. but they will survive.#condemning the main character for having the audacity to go off and die... sickening. i hate people#valentine notes
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as much as i adore finding paradise the fact that neil & eva [especially neil] approached colin and faye's relationship as something romantic always bothered me.. but i guess it's understandable considering their experiences from the job and i'm glad that it was disproved in the end
#TOTALLY not connected to my current discord pfp [faye with the aroace flag]#i could literally colorpick the flag from her sprites if i so desired#and when colin asks her for dating advice she straight up tells him she's not good at / into these things.. girl#aroace fucking icon. to me#i love faye so much.. i started out as not liking her that much but she's grown on me#i think that the later reveals in the game really changed my perception of her#i really started liking her a LOT more later#and now well. she's my favorite sigcorp character after ricebot <3#ricebot will forever be my number one. sorry
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i wish the internet had never learned the term prefrontal cortex because people use it to make 25 the new 18 which is so strange
#like is 17-19 predatory no and it's stupid to say you have to wait until midnight on the younger person's birthday to be in contact with#them even if you're only 366 days apart. and now people are like someone who's 20 can still be taken advantage of which yes obviously but#they're like it's because their brain is not done yet. at 24 you are a baby and at 25 you're a grown woman. but actually not really because#chris evans married someone who's 26 but that's close to 25 so she's not old enough. her brain has only been done for five minutes so it's#actually terrible that they're together. like there's saying that young adults are still vulnerable and...young and then there's pushing#the idea that women are just little girls forever lmao.#and it's just so weird that people use the brain thing so much i can't say why exactly but it rubs me the wrong way#i'm not saying this because i'm only 22 and people who say that would talk about me like i'm 14 because i wouldn't even date anyone who's#significantly older than me or anyone who's like under 20. but yeah😭#and i'm not even saying that the phenomenon of men always dating younger and women always dating older (even if it's just like 2 years)#and not vice versa isn't worth examining i'm literally a sociology student i'll be the first to say everything's interesting. but like#what's the end goal here#even in more extreme cases when a 25-year-old woman marries someone 40 years her senior i'm always like well i would never do that#but what are you random person on the internet gonna do.#and the thing is there's always potential power dynamics like you would have to be dating yourself to avoid it and even then#and like i say: brf slt
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Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....
#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!!#or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing#NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years#waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line#mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker#you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy#victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know#you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and#doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's#life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze#manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head?#This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and#poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy#she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he#said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch.#No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings.#bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk#that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!!#and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck.#Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he?#was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements#and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm#and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word#choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board.#Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself??#'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person#how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person??#Are you just living in some other reality???#callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me#im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason
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i often think about bakhya and adele to be honest i think there's so much potential here... esp since kuobakhaya is the type of girl that loves fantasy romances like that, or like not fantasy as much as she loves a trope along those lines. she knows adele isnt a vampire but shes like "if she was i wouldnt complain". then at the same time shes too embarrassed to admit it to herself bc shes working through a lot of self-worth issues and self-image problems and confused about her sexuality
meanwhile adele is like kuobakhaya is very cute. -> ends up counting pennies because she wants to buy ice cream for her. im sure there's more elaborate thoughts but Adele very plainly due to her nature in soul as a bird-like creature sees two birds 'kissing' and grooming each other with their beaks and shes like Ohh... :-) while thinking about Kuobakhaya
#theres inherent dramaticism at hand regardless bc adele is still part of an organization of assassins#fundamentally both her and tisha need to avoid sticking too close to bakhya to avoid her being targeted by any enemy#i also dont like plot points where theres a loved one at risk bc 1. too much at stake In that sense 2. bakhya already has seen hell+#within the society she lives in. so let's just let her ruminate and heal ok? ok.#she can still have a cool assassin girlfriend.#playing with dolls i am...yes i am.#oc rambles#also to preface. tisha is cool with it. he's not like a weird possessive older brother. kuobakhaya is a grown ass woman#he's moreso always worried about putting her in danger via her association w him but well it's not his business to judge her love life#even if he thinks adele's oneiricism can be annoying#he'd much prefer them hanging out and having puppy love than any of the other guys bakhya dated previously that were assholes
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I am hungry and restless, dreaming of exits
Climbing the gates of my mind
And I am thinking of futures, reaching for sutures
Trying to reclaim my time
And now I'm dropping the weight of the earth
Just long enough to give me a rebirth
Cause I deserve to be well, yeah I deserve to be well
And maybe I do not have enough strength
For more than a couple of steps in a day
But I deserve to be well, yeah I deserve to be well
I'm climbing up out of this hell
#medication#the collection#I DESERVE TO BE WELL#apologies if some of the lyrics are wrong theyre not posted yet#so im going by ear. and my auditory processing is notoriously bad#this hole is not your grave!!!!!!!!!!#ive only heard this song as played live earlier this year that else sent to me when she saw it#the full version is like#im a wreck#I DESERVE TO BE WELL. I DESERVE TO BE WELL#anyway it's weird having grown and done a lot of the same aches and pain as david wimbish#like i first heard the collection 2015 at an oh hellos concert with ars moriendi#which is a very explicitly religious album even if its full of doubt#and then listen to the river and entropy are so much more broken#and then rose coloured glasses.#and now this#Spotify
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luisa this is what it feels like to doompost about the chungha cb w u help
all the haarts on twitter r so excited about this whole thing so i’m like maybe i’m being too negative about this we r barely on cb #1 in more vision but then again it’s like… this is cb #1 n its already like this… this is how we’re starting. anyways i am hoping the song is a hit so badly n we get proven wrong but yeah i’m scared 😔
fjdjjsjajaj see fans on twt dont know shit about anything that's why they eat up anything! on one hand we are preventing ourselves from having fun by being negative. on the other we are dealing with jay park. and honestly likeeeee i cannot pretend not to be angry with how her career is being mismanaged AGAIN for the sake of just being happy with what we've got like im not built that way sjdjsjhs like i said ive been into kpop for TOO long like ive seen the rise and fall of many....
THAT BEEN SAID. i really liked the initial teaser so maybe not all is lost.... but maybe it is..... styling is giving jessi teasers are giving clc hobgoblin and i dont mean that in a good way like omg..... WHAT HAPPENED TO SERVING CUNT. it pissed me off bc this jay park man has no creative vision so everyone of his little minions are all going to look and sound the same. doesnt he get chungha is more of a pop icon type of soloist. does he not understand anything at all
#i say he bc he's in charge. so whoever the producers and creative directors etc are obviously all share HIS vision😒😒😒#BUT. i dont know how much involvement chungha has in this#THING IS. chungha is in a very vulnerable situation imo#i feel like mnh made her hit rock bottom like career wise at least and now she must not be feeling the greatest#and you know what men do to succesful women who are in vulnerable situations like that's right they take advantage of that#oh my god i sound like i am preparing for the end of the world sorry😭😭😭😭#like really we have to wait to KNOW but i am being asked to trust jay park i dont think im unreasonable to be pessimistic about it#like chungha is grown and experienced in the industry but so many successful female idols are brought down by companies like this#i hope this somehow charts well so that she remembers she doesnt need this people fr😭
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My morning glory flower is looking so healthy and beautiful 🥺
#she’s already flowering?????#honestly that pot is too tiny for her but she’s grown so much larger than I expected and I don’t want to transfer her when she’s flowering#all my plants are honestly doing pretty well this year#compared to last year my tomatoes are THRIVING and all my plants have survived transplantation so far#I’m excited I hope they all grow and give me veggies#the tomatoes in particular are growing HUGE.#I might need to buy another planter. I planted a bunch because so many died last time but they all survived and they might need more room#it would be cool to own a house with a yard one day……..#<- not to be a millennial…
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Controversial post but, I’m rewatching atla… I forgot how much Katara gets on my nerves 💀
#she pisses me off so much LMAO#she is just sooo nieve from the start and is far too trusting of people#yet she tries to act all grown and mature even though she keeps walking into pretty blatantly dangerous and unnecessary situations#and she’s so self centered#with her trauma surrounding her mother and her desire to learn waterbending#she shows pretty rude disregard for the safety or emotional wellbeing of those around her#and I’m not doing a great job articulating this right now bc I want to get it done quickly but I could write an actually well thought out-#post about it later#my post#she never stops talking#not main tagging because I don’t want to hear it from Katara stans lmao
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