#shawn mendes hoodie
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tokyo - choi beomgyu
pairing: boyfriend!beomgyu x fem!reader
word count: 10.6k
summary: the neon-lit towers which surround you are mighty bright. but in his eyes, you shine brightest. the adventures of two lovers in tokyo. ~coming of age film~ vibes.
contents: some cursing, established relationship, romance, physical touch, fluff, mostly just tooth rotting fluff. it’s a wholesome story :)
a/n: this is for those of you who love fluff! and there will be a part two of this story for those who also enjoy smut. stay tuned!
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♬ [soundtrack]
wonder - adoy
cinnamon - jome
robbers - the 1975
midnight city - m83
photograph - offonoff
the movies - nightly
ghosting - txt
lost in japan - shawn mendes
two of us on the run - lucius
twenty something - nightly
hazy - vulpix
moonlight - dhruv
tek it - cafune
bloom - the paper kites
have you ever been in love? - the ivy
added: you! - lany
immerse yourself in the story & listen while you read to heighten your experience :)
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his wristwatch struck twelve; signaling the halfway mark for your long awaited flight. the plane soared over distant cities as you lazily drifted your eyes to the oval window, gazing out at the blurred lights of twinkling buildings against the night sky thousands of feet below you. occasionally glancing over at your boyfriend's wrist to get a peek at the time as his hand rested in your lap.
shifting in your seat as you listened to the gentle hum of the airplane, the warmth of beomgyu's cinnamon scented hoodie engulfed your senses as your snuggled closer to him. taking a peek up, his eyes were fluttered closed in a gentle slumber, the dim blue glow of the airplane lights illuminating his pretty face. an earbud hung loosely from his ear, the other plugged into yours sharing it as the nostalgic tune of wonder by adoy seeped into your guy's ears, only you awake to hear your mutually favorite song.
the earbud fell out of your drowsy boyfriend's ear as he shifted in his seat; lazily adjusting to rest his cheek on the crown of your head while you hugged his arm. as you tried to return the earbud back to its place in his ear, his dark brown eyes fluttered open, still heavy from sleep. he softly smiled as your sleepy eyes met, momentarily closing his to release a long, awakening exhale through his nose before opening them again.
with no shame of being in a public area, you cuddled one another, limbs intertwined perfectly as always. he placed a kiss on the crown of your head as he held you tightly in his embrace, the faint vanilla scent of your hair controlling his senses as he snuggled closer to you. your sweet fragrance; his favorite in the world. and his cozy cinnamon scent; your favorite in the world. you two went so well together, even your fragrances intermingled as perfectly as your embrace; a sweet concoction of love.
he gazed out at the mysteriously dark sky as the plane jetted through the air smoothly, humming the tune of a song gently against your hair as you felt your heart rate slow. before you knew it, you were off into a gentle slumber; trading places with your boyfriend as he was now wide awake, only duty in mind to keep you warm and safe. his soft, deep voice your weakness; irresistibly falling asleep to it as his hum melted in your brain like honey.
two hours passed as beomgyu cradled you in the arms of his soft jacket, raking his gentle fingers through your hair as he watched the twinkling city grow as the plane descended little by little. the once small buildings transforming into their true height by the minute.
eventually, the abrupt voice of the flight attendant awoke you from your sleep. she had walked by, notifying beomgyu that it was time to awaken his girlfriend from his lap as the plane is preparing for landing; t-30 minutes. as much as he wanted to let you enjoy your nap, he lightly rubbed circles against your cheek to wake you up in the gentlest way possible.
this was your cue to groggily push your body out of sleep, awakening to your boyfriend's cradling warmth. this was normal to you though, as you both had woken up every morning in each other's arms for the past three years. but every time you woke up to his touch, his face, his voice; it felt like it was the first, your heart doing somersaults at the sensation of his soft fingers on your face.
"hi baby," his gentle voice hummed as you fluttered an eye open to look up at him, head in his chest as your eyes met. you couldn't help but grin, overtaken by happiness at the mere sight of him. the way his gentle eyes smiled, eyelashes resting on the tops of his cheeks as he gazed down at you. the outline of his pretty eyebrows under his russet tinted hair. full lips drawn up to expose the adorable dimple on his cheek. perfection.
as you slowly came back to your senses, you noticed a change in the ambiance of the plane. murmurs from the people around you pointing out their window, drawing your attention to the glow coming from the window at your right. at the sight, you slowly sat up and neared your face to the oval window, eyes wonder-struck as you gaped at the huge city below you. tokyo skyscrapers shimmered beautifully against the night sky, contrasting like ying and yang.
"beom look!" you whisper-yelled to your boyfriend and you excitedly pointed at the gorgeous scene. he leaned over you, resting his chin on your shoulder as he peered down at the neon-lit structures. his arms wrapped around your waist as he hummed in delight at the view, warm chest pressed to your back as you two sat taking in the mere beauty of the city you dreamed of coming to since you were a little girl.
beomgyu only observed the scene for a moment longer before his eyes became plastered onto something much more beautiful in his eyes; your face, still fresh from sleep. he loved to watch your expression light up in pure excitement at the sight of your favorite city; one you had only seen in youtube videos and travel websites countless times. and here it was now, right in front of your eyes, drenched in sheer mystery as large skyscrapers towered over the tiny dots of cars on the long streets. your heart beating faster as the adrenaline set in place at the sight.
his heart became filled with joy at the sight of your toothy grin grow wider by the second, forehead pressed against the window like a kid seeing snow for the first time. he recalled the nights you had been up studying until you were fighting sleep, all while balancing working overtime at your low paying job. you had been trying to save up for this trip for years. beomgyu found that fascinating because tokyo had also been on his bucket list since he could remember.
three years ago; since the day he fell in love with you, beomgyu made it his mission to make that dream of yours come true one of these days. to give you the dream vacation you deserve, especially after all of your hard work. for beomgyu, coming to tokyo is cool indeed. but the truth is, his dream had already come true of being with you, arms wrapped around your frame as you smiled widely. that was all he needed to be happy. to be with you.
although he didn't show it, beomgyu had been running on about 4 hours of sleep every night, working extra hard just so he could save up the last bit you two needed to make your dream a reality. he loved you so much that he would do anything for you; losing some sleep to work extra hard didn't phase him one bit. as long as you were happy. he was happy.
"wowwwww," you whispered against the glass, fogging up the window due to your close proximity. beomgyu's eyes still glued to his beautiful girl, he inched his lips to your cheek, placing them on your soft skin as a small token of his love.
you nuzzled into him, heart electrified as you couldn't feel any happier with anyone else. the nights you spent beyond exhausted felt they had payed off in this moment. but he had always been there by your side; rubbing comforting circles in your back as you groaned at your computer screen, not even half way through your third college essay of the week. he would run you hot baths to soothe your aching muscles from working all day. you loved him so much; never in your life had someone treated you so well, given you more love than you thought was even possible. you pondered out the window, not even entirely sure how you could possibly repay him for everything he's done.
his doe eyes lit up as you turned your head to find him staring at you, his pretty lips drawn up at each corner as the dim lighting outlined his delicate features; recalling the first moment you had locked eyes years ago. he was no longer the blonde haired boy from freshman year of college, but now a man; his once round facial features now sharpened, voice deepened, and a few inches taller. sure, he had matured and gone through changes. but what had remained the same; his eyes - large and almond shaped filled with glittering stars, shining brighter than the view from your window. infinitely engulfing you with their beauty since the first day you gazed into them.
you found yourself sinking deeper in love than ever before. sitting next to the love of your life; only twenty something, but feeling like two excited kids on an airplane, hearts racing as you helped each other buckle into the seats, hands tightly interlaced as the plane sped toward the landing strip. excited giggles and mutually aching cheeks from smiling so hard. he is your absolute love and you will cherish these special moments forever.
~
walking through the airport has always been something fun for you, nostalgia seeping into your senses as people frantically walked to their gate; some excited and some not. but you were more than excited; a skip in your step as you pulled beomgyu's hand, listening to his cute giggles as you pointed at every gift shop and mini cafe in sight.
but one small thing you seemed to notice were the stares that the two of you were getting. mainly girls gawking over your boyfriend. a tall, dashingly handsome man with soft, auburn hair who sported a comfortable, yet fashionable outfit. the cozy black hooded jacket you had snuggled into the entire plane ride, a white mock neck tee poking through and some black pants accompanied by a pair of black high top converse. but since it was him, he made the outfit look ten times better by simply walking with his unique combination of confidence and poise as he clutched your hand tightly. of course his beautifully mysterious aura attracted the eye of many.
and he couldn't help but notice the stares of men on your end, secretly irritated when he caught some of their eyes drifting to places only he felt authorized to look at. your beautiful figure couldn't help but be gazed upon, glowing skin and soft eyes made anyone double take as they walked by. its true; both of you are a striking couple, turning heads wherever you went. it was quite obvious you both picked up on this through the years, but you mutually felt like the luckiest people on earth. walking hand in hand with the most beautiful person you both had ever laid eyes on.
the two of you stopped into a small shop and you split up for a moment to buy each other a surprise gift. it was like a tradition for you; split up for five minutes, take turns to purchase the mystery items separately, and then counting down from three before opening your eyes to reveal each other's gifts. you fluttered your eyes open to his cupped palms which held a small brown bear; hands down most adorable bear he had gotten you. examining it, you noticed japanese kanji stitched into its side, drawing your curiosity as you didn't know how to read kanji due to it's difficultly.
jumping into his arms out of pure joy, kissing his cheek in gratitude. "gyu, i love it! what does this say?" you tapped on the textured material of the dark brown stitching on its side. to your knowledge, beomgyu could write, read, and speak japanese enough to get the two of you through your trip. and to be honest, he spoke it as well as he did korean. he just wouldn't admit it.
"it says little bear," he confirmed, giving you a sweet grin. deep down, you wondered what he would sound like speaking a language other than korean or english. hearing his satoori always had your heart doing flips, so you wondered what he sounded like speaking the pretty language of japanese.
you had bought him a keychain. a pink and white one decorated with plastic cherry blossoms- rested in your palms as you offered it to him; it drew your attention because they're his two favorite colors. he smiled widely, pecking you on the lips and snuggling into your neck in gratitude. you pulled him close, exchanging a warm embrace and sneaking in another kiss.
you nuzzled your head into his shoulder as you made your way through the airport to pick your bags up at the gate. he squeezed your hand tighter inviting a small blush to creep on your cheeks as you look over at your beautiful boy; a small grin on his lips, guiding you through the airport with excited eyes. you truly felt like the luckiest girl in the world.
~
after dropping your stuff off at the hotel you two would be staying at for the next week and a half, the rumble of your stomach notified beomgyu it was time to eat; or better yet, time to try the 24-hour ramen place that you had been telling him about since the day the two of you shared an elective in college. the class where you two first met and became friends.
"you know what i'm thinkin'?" his honey voice calls out as you smiled down at the little bear he had bought you at the airport, it's adorable glassy eyes connecting your heart to it at an instant. you look over at your boyfriend, intrigued by his playful tone. his lips were pursed in a v shape; the most adorable hint of mystery laced in his expression. the face he made whenever he had a spontaneous idea.
"what is it beomie?" your lips drawn in a greater smile than before.
"lets go to try that ramen place you've been telling me about since we were like- seventeen," he added, nodding his head slowly grooving with the beat of his own suggestion. looking down at your phone to check the time, you grinned.
"but it's like 3am?" you furrowed your brows in a faux manner, just to see his reaction. the idea of going out to that restaurant late at night had struck excitement deep within you. mentally applauding your boyfriend for always having the best spontaneous ideas. if you gave him a kiss for every time he came up with a fun idea in the dead of night when the two of you got bored, you'd simply die kissing him forever.
he got up from the king sized bed as you stood by the hotel's small desk, quickly striding over to you as if he was on a mission.
"who gives a care that it's 3am. my girlfriend is hungry and she deserves to eat at tokyo's best ramen place." he looked down at your hands.
"do you care, little bear?" he tilted his head cutely at the bear in your palm, slightly protruding his lips and cooing his voice; your heart warming at his cute tone. then, to mimic as if the bear was alive, beomgyu used his index and thumb to hold onto its small head, twisting it side to side in a 'no' manner.
"see! little bear doesn't care either," he shrugged, making puppy eyes at you. those eyes you could never say no to. eyes you couldn't ever resist.
you giggled, cheeks slightly dusted as your lips couldn't possibly grow into a bigger smile. your quick nod was his cue to grab onto your hand, pulling you out the hotel door. placing kisses on the back of his hand as he pulled you along, interlacing your fingers tightly with his.
and there you two were, walking hand in hand down the vibrantly lit streets of tokyo, enjoying the slightly chilly weather and the way crosswalks bustled with people even at this hour. hardly able to contain your excitement as you walked the famous shibuya crossing, jumping up and down as you neared the restaurant.
a sudden burst of flash took you by surprise as your head was angled up, gazing at the bright lights and advertisements that decorated the glass buildings around you. he couldn't help but capture this exact moment; your delicate, smiling face illuminated by the reflection of turquoise and magenta lights of the neon city. you were simply an angel in his eyes.
"heyy!" you scrunched your nose at the realization beomgyu had taken a picture of you with his baby blue polaroid, your hand coming up to cover the camera lens as he smiled widely. satisfied, he waved the polaroid picture between his fingers to help it develop faster; eager to see your beautiful picture.
"you should take a picture of that!" you motioned as he followed your pointing finger to the tokyo tower which sparked from afar. complying, he held his camera up to his eye but hesitated to press the button, quickly bringing the camera away from his face at the realization of something.
"i have a better idea," turned to face you, flipping the camera around so that you now see the both of your reflections in the small, square-shaped mirror on the front of it. stretching his arm to hold the camera up and out, angling it down to capture the two of you.
he wrapped his arm around you, bringing you closer as you returned the hug, bringing your face up to his to pose for the selfie. but before he could snap the photo, you turned his face with your hand, pressing his lips to yours as the flash signaled the polaroid would now process as a photo of you kissing; the tokyo tower in frame sparkling from afar.
he slowly fluttered his eyes open, mere inches away from yours as he pulled you in again for another sweet kiss, savoring the moment of pure euphoria like two lovers in a coming of age film; standing in the middle of a bustling crowd like the only two people to exist. and that's how it really felt. he was the only one you could look at. and you were the only one that caught his eye even amongst the striking city.
~
"i'll have the spicy shoyu ramen please!" you nodded happily, closing your menu and sliding it slowly over to the waiter who stood with a pen and paper at the end of your booth. he gave a professional nod before tucking your discarded menu under his arm and shifting his gaze to your boyfriend who's nose was still buried in his own menu.
"aaaaand i'll take theeeee... tonkotsu ramen with a side of spicy shrimp umani please," he nodded excitedly, handing his menu to the waiter who scribbled furiously in his note pad. you immediately snapped your neck to give beomgyu a flabbergasted look at the word 'shrimp' leave his mouth.
he could already read your mind before you opened your mouth to say anything, he did his explaining. "i know i know- i just thought you know what, we're on vacation together, i might as well try something new," he shrugged, using his fingers as a drum against the table's edge.
"but beom... you h a t e shrimp," you neared your face to his, disbelief still written on your face as you carefully examined his expression. he seemed to be wearing his poker face though, because not one ounce of worry would surface onto his features. you backed away slowly, hands up in defeat.
"alright we'll see how this goes," you snickered as a smile found its way to your lips followed by a laugh. he kept drumming a tune on the table, nodding his head along to the beat as he stuck his lips out like a little duck, furrowing his eyebrows under his pretty hair. his adorableness made you laugh harder, his cheek too irresistible not to kiss.
after a few miscellaneous games of rock paper scissors, staring contests, and playing footsies under the table, the waiter returned with two steaming bowls of ramen. suddenly, a gasp escaped your lips at the sight of a plate with about four humungous, full-size shrimp on it, drizzled with some red sauce which was placed in front of your boyfriend. and these weren't just shrimp tails. oh no- these were literal ENTIRE shirmp; eyes, legs and all.
once the waiter had departed, your hand slapped across your mouth as beomgyu sat frozen with eyes so wide, you thought they would fall out of his head and into his ramen. mouth agape, eyebrows raised, followed by the twitch of his eye made you lose it, a laugh bubbling from your chest as it became muffled by your hand over your lips. you playfully slapped his arm as you fell into his shoulder from laughter. he was speechless, opening his mouth to say a word, but his expression said it all. this is NOT the shirmp he wanted to try for the first time, let alone look at.
"you know what, let me just...set this aside," he gingerly picked the plate up, placing it as far away from him as he could, returning his hand to scooch it away an inch more. everything about this was so funny to you, the monster shrimp and his expression had a string of laughter leaving your lips, your back heaving up and down as you tried to catch your breath. before you knew it, your favorite and most adorable sound in the world; his 'ahaha' laughter bubbled from his chest as he threw his head back at the sheer comedy of the whole thing.
as the two of you slowly regained your composure, you decided to dig into your ramen, making sure to thank the food before intertwining a good amount into your chopsticks. giving it a second to cool, your tastebuds practically screaming to taste the long awaited ramen; immediately tasting heaven as you shoveled the first bite into your mouth.
"soo tasty!" he mumbled with a full mouth, eyes widened but this time in pleasure as the corners of his lips tugged upward in happiness, even adding in a little happy dance. you nodded eagerly in agreement, spinning your chopsticks around in your bowl to ready your next bite.
as beomgyu began commenting on the flavor of his ramen, the air suddenly became thick and your senses clouded as a sharp bite came down on your tongue. you immediately dropped your chopsticks, reaching for your water like your life depended on it. without even coming up for a breath, you chugged the entire glass, setting it down with a thud as you exhaled, puffing your cheeks.
"that shit is SPICY," you raised your eyebrows, shaking your head in defeat as you attempted taking another bite, failing miserably as your tongue practically caught on fire before the noodles could reach your mouth. beomgyu's mouth full, he couldn't take it, he started laughing. hand over his mouth failing keep it together while you were a huffing mess, smoke practically fuming from your ears.
a pure chaotic mess you two were. but this was hands down where the best memories were made; just two silly people in love, living every day as if tomorrow was your last. and now you were actually beginning to think it might be your last as you started coughing and choking from laughter, your face turning bright red as you reached over for beomgyu's water.
"no seriously- try it," you puffed your cheeks out, sniffling and fanning your face from the heat as you sipped your boyfriend's water. he exaggeratedly straightened his posture, puffing out his chest as he confidently took your bowl, wrapping a few noodles around his chopsticks before disappearing them into his mouth. it took a few seconds of slow chewing before he abruptly froze, staring into the bowl with such regret as he shut his eyes and gulped painfully.
"water water!" he ripped the glass away from your grasp and began chugging like there was no tomorrow. soon, the two of you were out of water, a mountain of used tissues on your table from the never ending snot that was enticed by the spice. the waiter came and went with water refills and eventually, the heat on your tongues subsided as the two of you crunched ice cubes and slowly sipped on beomgyu's ramen broth until there wasn't any left. still hungry and not daring to take another bite of your death ramen, the two of you were left with no choice but to consider the shrimp. what a comical way for karma to bite you two in the ass.
you gave each other one look before the atmosphere shifted into a seemingly hilarious one; a snort escaping your mouth leading him to follow suit. your boyfriend let out an earth shattering laugh as you dangled the gargantuan shrimp from your fingers, cowering away as you neared it to him. the two of you had been laughing almost the entire time since you entered the ramen restaurant. his laughter becoming progressively louder as he playfully pleaded for his life, clasping his hands together as you crazily widened your eyes like in a horror movie, the huge shrimp in your fingers adding to the comedy.
"beomie!! shhh we're being so loud!" you giggled, knowing damn well you were the cause of his laughter but also noticing the burning stares from people in the ramen shop as beomgyu was hunched over in laughter at your booth. attempting to keep in your own laughter, it was seemingly impossible as you felt it continuously bubble up in your chest, drawing a hand to your mouth to muffle it as much as you could. but that was short lived, literally losing your shit as beomgyu had taken a sip of his water and then laughed, causing it to burble out of his mouth.
kicking your feet as both of your bodies shook violently in laughter, his head dropping down to your lap under the booth as his body gave out from laughing too hard. you felt his warm breath in between your thighs as he giggled, a completely innocent gesture on his end, but it was hard not to notice how close he was to the sensitive skin of your thighs. his hot breath warming the skin under your skirt, cold from the chilly temperature of the restaurant. your hand fell to his hair, tousling his soft locks with your fingers as you did your best to calm your own laughter. noticing the prominent stares of the family next to you, your smiling cheeks soon replaced with the red tinge of embarrassment.
at the blink of an eye, your waiter with a rather concerned expression stood at the end of your booth, an eyebrow raised as he gazed down upon you, beomgyu's back still shaking with laughter as he was face down in your lap.
the waiter cleared his throat, adjusting his crisp white uniform. caught off guard, you quickly shook beomgyu's shoulder, pulling him up from under the table, his wide smile quickly fading into a more serious expression at the sight of the serious waiter at the table. the two of you straightened your posture as you prepared yourself to be scolded for being too loud, trying your best not to lose your shit as serious situations were often the hardest time to keep your laughter in.
the waiter began speaking, his words different than the korean you were used to; short syllables which didn't melt into one another, but instead created somewhat of a melody. you quickly realized he was speaking japanese, looking at the both of you while he did so, but you didn't understand a word.
looking over at your boyfriend, he nodded in understanding as the waiter spoke, gently rubbing your knee under the table; a form of reassurance which calmed your nerves a bit. you were in japan after all, the culture and restaurant rules a bit different from what you were used to. after years of studying the culture, your heart dropped at the thought that you had disrespected the people around you. you knew it was rude to create a ruckus in a restaurant like this, but you had gotten a bit too carried away with beomgyu.
interrupting your thoughts, your boyfriend's voice soothed your ears as he began formulating several sentences in japanese. his pitch slightly deeper than usual, almost like when he spoke in satoori, listening to his tiny lisp as he pronounced words with an 's.' although it wasn't a time to smile, your cheeks couldn't help but draw into the faintest grin at the sound of his beautiful voice. he actually sounded rather sexy, almost bringing a blush to your cheeks just listening to him speak in such a different intonation.
after a few moments, the waiter had bowed and left the table, your eyes like a magnet to beomgyu's eyes. he simply stared back at you, lips pursed as he slightly raised his eyebrows in surprise.
"soooo. what'd he say?" you inquired, tilting your head in genuine curiosity at what that whole thing was about.
"he told us to never come back. ever. we're banned," his eyes fell down to his lap, lips tugging downward into a frown. he crossed his arms over the wooden table of the booth, burying his head in the crook of his elbow, chin pressed against the table's surface.
"we're infinitely banned y/n. for infinity," his voice was muffled by his jacket, back heaving up and down, sniffling. for a second you could've almost believed him. but knowing it's beomgyu, he was joking 99.9% of the time. your predicament correct when you heard his small giggle echo against the table.
you stuck your face in the little space between his underarm and the table, burying your head under his elbow until your cheek was pressed next to his. the warmth from his breath skimmed your chin as he laughed, turning to face you, wrapping his arm around you into a headlock to pull you closer.
"you're such a jokester," you giggled as he gently rubbed his knuckles into your scalp, playfully trying to free yourself from under his grasp. this reminded you of when you two were once only friends; how you would mess around with each other, putting each other in headlocks and pranking one another. but now, you could do something you could've never done before, grabbing one of his hands and placing kisses on it, causing him to ease up a bit.
"but seriously gyu, what'd he say?" your voice was muffled from under his armpit, still placing kisses on the back of his hand in between words. he let you go, moving his arms to wrap around your waist as you looked up at him with large, curious eyes. the way you two could joke around with each other while also balancing romance was something he absolutely loved about your relationship; the way you were one another's best friend and lover. he simply stared into your eyes for a moment, thinking to himself how absolutely lucky he was to have such an amazing person like you. he fondly smiled, finding your curious expression adorable.
"he said they accidentally gave you the wrong order; the extra fiery nitro ramen with extra spicy powder. sooo they're making you a new one on the house. he also asked if we wanted a to-go box for the shrimp," he scoffed, your eyes widening in realization of two things. you decided to address the first.
"i knew something was off! i usually love spicy food but that.. that shit was SPICY," you quoted yourself, eyebrows raised as you momentarily relived your nightmare of taking that first bite. this memory would for sure give you ptsd if you were ever to eat spicy ramen again. he giggled at your cuteness, his hand finding its way to your lap as he fiddled with the frayed edges of your denim skirt.
and addressing the second realization; something you had learned while reading a japanese restaurant etiquette handbook a few months back. you had learned that it is considered rude to leave food behind on your plate. it's related to one of the fundamental concepts in japanese culture: mottainai, which is a feeling of regret at having wasted something.
"he asked for a to-go box? gyu what did you say back? usually its a way of them politely asking us to finish their food. or at least take it home to finish it." you searched his eyes, and due to the guilty look flooding his expression, you could tell he had denied the waiter of a box. that was enough to shut your eyes tightly in remorse, gently hitting your head in agony against beomgyu's shoulder.
"knowing we feared that shrimp with our lives, you said no." you laughed against his arm, finding it comical that your boyfriend was naive about the culture, yet he was the one who spoke more japanese than you.
well crap. the first stop in tokyo and the two of you were already getting stares for being too loud all the while leaving a big platter of food behind which is considered rude. a scoff escaped your lips at the stupidity of the whole thing, mentally scolding you and your boyfriend for being so in love you weren't aware of your surroundings at times.
he slowly nodded, his lips pursed in a v shape, tightly shutting his eyes as he realized he had been rude without even knowing it. he brought his pretty hands up to his mouth as he nervously laughed, clear embarrassment on his face.
"well, as much as i despise that shrimp, i'll say it was a mistake and that i do need a box after all," he suggested, putting up a sarcastic thumbs up as the plate of shrimp stared back at you coldly.
"it's okay beom, you didn't know. i'm sure that'll work!" you returned the thumbs up, the two of you gazing over at the enormous platter of shrimp at the very far end of the table.
"but who in their right mind would eat that?" he muttered, sheer disgust on his face.
that was enough to ignite your laughter again as the shrimp was too hilarious not to joke about, becoming the topic of the night as you two made joke after joke about the poor platter. with the ambiance of laughter set in place, time flew by and soon enough, the waiter had returned with a fresh bowl of your spicy ramen. and a regretful beomgyu asked for a to-go box, easing your stomach a bit from your prior worries.
after sharing the most delicious and perfectly seasoned bowl of your ramen, the two of you split the bill and were off, running hand in hand down the busy tokyo street, the carry-out box in hand. it had occurred to beomgyu to look for some stray cats or dogs to feed the shrimp to, but the spicy sauce drizzled over it wouldn't be good for the animals, so you decided on something else.
trying to keep in your laughter, you approached a group of what looked like college first years nonchalantly strolling around. you made a plan that you would target a group around your guy's age, if not a little younger. never in your life would you try to pull a prank on someone older, out of respect. beomgyu eyed you, gesturing over at the group to signal he'll give it a shot.
as you crossed paths with the group, beomgyu cleared his throat which drew most of their attention, halting in their steps as their gaze shifted onto the both of you, all while noticing the group consisted of about three guys and two girls. he began projecting his voice, loud and clear to be heard in japanese. the familiar warmth returning to your cheeks at the sound of his beautiful voice.
after a few moments, your boyfriend stuck his arm out, offering the mystery box as they all curiously huddled around. a tall, serious looking boy with black hair from the group took the box, examining the styrofoam material before clicking it open. suddenly, a burst of laughter erupted from the group as the boy nearly jumped out of his skin at the horrifying sight, jolting the box immediately closed.
"riki!" one of the girls hit him playfully on the arm. he let out a laugh of his own after realizing how off guard he had been caught, looking around at his friends who mimicked his frightened gesture, a tinge of embarrassment on his cheeks. he said something back to beomgyu in japanese, enticing a deep laugh from your boyfriend, not even knowing what he said you started laughing as well just from hearing beomgyu's adorable laugh.
when the boy turned his head to look around at his friends once more, this was your cue to do what you and beomgyu had planned; to make a run for it. in the blink of an eye, you two were gone; sprinting as fast as you could away from the group. like two fugitives on the run, your hands tightly clutched as your hearts raced in adrenaline, not looking back once. beomgyu's laugh erupted as the cool wind blew both of your hair back from how fast you were running. nothing but the sound of quick footsteps against the pavement and both of your giggles filled the air as you sprinted through the bustling streets of tokyo. stealing quick glances over at him as his hair fanned behind his head, his adorable forehead exposed, the sight warming your heart like a fuzzy blanket.
once you turned a distant corner, you both felt safe and far away enough to stop running, tears pricking your eyes as you laughed so hard, having to double over as you caught your breath. he propped his palms on his knees as he hunched over next to you, both of your breathing loud and hitched as you let out a few more good laughs.
"i can't believe we just did that," he shook his head, inhaling as much as he could through several giggles. you looked over at him as his teeth glimmered in the light, lips curled into the biggest grin. time felt as it was moving in slow motion; like a movie as the vibrant lights twinkled against his skin. every wrinkle under his eyes and on his cheeks from smiling made him all the more beautiful, your laughter subsiding as you observed him. he opened his eyes to find you staring at him with a faint smile of your own, eyes so deeply focused on his. these were the moments when you felt like the only two people to exist, your heart aching with so much love, you felt it could implode from what he made you feel.
~
after a long night of pure chaos and laughing until you couldn't breathe, you both decided it was time to make it back to your hotel. fingers intertwined like always, you walked through a quieter part of town away from the bustling streets. making your way down the sidewalk, street lamps lit the path with their warm glow as cars slowly hummed by, drenching your surroundings in a dim sheen of mystery. eventually, you approached a bridge, one that curved up and over a large body of water. it was apparent that the atmosphere had shifted; once comprised of laughter and loopiness had faded into a calmer one, quietly enjoying the fresh air and sheer caliginosity of the night.
as you neared the bridge, beomgyu halted his steps and swiftly pulled his phone and earbuds from his pocket, offering you a bud before putting your collaborative playlist on shuffle. the playlist, titled "bg + y/n <3" contained well over five thousand songs on it, every single one of them reminding you of a specific memory you two have. listening to music with beomgyu was something as normal as breathing air. anywhere you two were, he'd stop, offer you an earbud and click shuffle on the playlist. as music lovers, it was simply another way of bonding.
the two of you took your time as you made your way up the steep bridge, gazing over your shoulder as you watched the city twinkle from afar. soon enough, you reached the top; gusts of wind noticeably heavier at the higher altitude. gazing out at the view, the water reflected the city lights like a mirror; rippling ever so slightly as a gust of wind fanned over its surface. rustling the leaves of near trees, it eventually found its way your hair, raking it's cool fingers through your scalp as it pushed several stray pieces out of both of your faces. the moon caught your eye as it shined it's face brightly amongst the sky, lighting the darkness with its pale gleam.
your gaze drifting to beomgyu, his side profile took your breath away. how perfect he looked in this moment; you couldn't even begin to describe. the glow of the street lamps and moonlight kissed his skin softly with its luminance, faint wind brushing the hair out of his face ever so gently. with his hair out of his face, his forehead and thick, arched eyebrows became exposed, one of the rarest yet most beautiful sights in the world. the word ethereal could only do a fraction of what it took to describe his pure beauty. he wore a focused demeanor, one so lost in thought as a song hummed in your ears. you wondered what he pondered. what he felt.
it didn't take long before he sensed your gaze out of the corner of his eye, shifting his over to meet yours. you noticed a glint of mystery in his eyes, like fog in the middle of the night; you couldn't see through it as hard as you tried.
but behind those eyes, he was examining just how beautiful you looked; shining under the moonlight like a gem. the gentle rustle of leaves followed by a wave of wind raked your hair back, exposing your every feature. soft skin and gentle eyes left him weak, so in love he could simply perish.
just then, a song came on that made your heart leap. a song that seemed too perfect for the world in this moment; wonder by adoy. your mutually favorite song. the song that always reminded you of him. the song that always reminded him of you. your lips drew up ever so slightly as nostalgia seeped into your senses, catching his attention immediately. all the times you had listened to this song with him. and now here you were, standing practically on top of the city like it's only two inhabitants.
you wrapped your arms around his waist, hugging him tightly as you buried the side of your face into his chest, inhaling him as the soundwaves of wonder scratched your brain just right. an idea occurred to you, one so good you didn't think twice before sharing it with your boyfriend.
"gyu?" your quiet voice could barely be heard against the soft material of his jacket. he hummed in response, resting his chin in the crook of your neck, wrapping you tightly in his warm embrace.
"can you sing wonder for me?" you looked up at him, your large eyes almost pleading. although it was a rare occasion for him, you absolutely loved it when beomgyu sang for you. if only he saw himself the way you saw him, he'd feel confident about singing all the time. but that wasn't the case, he always worried that his voice wasn't good enough. when he was younger, a family member had told him he would never make it in the singing industry. that his voice wasn’t special. ever since, he wished he had a better voice, one with more range, more confidence to sing high notes. in his mind, his singing voice wasn't all that. just a deep monotonous voice was all he thought of it.
but the thought of saying no to you couldn't even cross his mind at the sight of your puppy eyes. he was lost in you, heart pounding against your chest as he hugged you tighter, never wanting to let go. although he didn't think he had such a show-stopping voice, he still enjoyed to sing. to none other than you.
he fondly smiled, giving you a nod which ignited happiness deep within your heart, infinitely euphoric as the moment couldn't get any better. he kissed the crown of your head as he fumbled with his phone, searching for an instrumental version of wonder on youtube.
unplugging the wired earbuds from his phone as he readied himself to sing aloud, beomgyu couldn't lie; he was nervous. but knowing you loved his singing voice comforted him. you sensed his heart strumming through his chest against your own and did your best to reassure him. giving one of his hands a tight squeeze, you pressed a small kiss at the base of his neck, right under his adam's apple. this was his sign to take a deep breath and relax. it was his love he was singing to, not the whole world- and he preferred it this way. you were the only person on earth he would ever sing to. ever. his whole world is you.
as the dreamy intro began seeping from his phone speaker, you made yourself comfortable on his chest as you both looked out at the city, following the melody in await for the first verse.
and he began.
"so...we drive...on the left lane out in a rush..."
his voice; so soft, deep, and breathy. unmatched by any other voice you had ever heard in your life. his words blended into one another so smoothly, singing so perfectly in tune with the instrumental that it sounded as if it was a studio recording. so absolutely beautiful.
to you, his voice one hundred percent sounded better than the original song, your lips inevitably growing into a large smile as your heart did somersaults, cheeks decorated with a pink hue.
"looking back...at the red lights passing us by..."
you sensed the vibration of his adam's apple against you as he sang, chest rising against yours as he took breaths between lines. his silky voice swirling so perfectly in your ears like you were drifting into a dream.
"yes i...know...we shouldn't go...that far..."
in that instant, a shiver shot up your spine, goosebumps pelting your body at his high note. his voice was truly your weakness; your body responding in so many new ways you never thought it could just by hearing him sing your favorite song.
"but i...could...wonder..."
a small pause in between the pre-chorus gave him a chance to give your forehead a quick peck, drawing your gaze up to him. your cheeks were beginning to ache from smiling so much. but your smile only continued to widen as he went on, serenading you with his vocals.
"give me a feeling...slowly in a deja vu..."
you almost wanted to sing along, but instead you swayed side to side with the tune. your eyes seemingly unable to leave his face as you watched him sing. with his eyes fluttered closed, you noticed the way his eyebrows slightly furrowed when the higher notes came; each note only intensifying your chills. you watched his full lips, slightly parted as his voice escaped them like chocolate, thick and sweet melting your heart with each lyric.
in his mind, he didn't think he did too well at the high notes. he wanted to do better, he always strived for perfection. but to you, it sounded absolutely perfect. not one flaw in his voice, in fact, you never wished his voice was any different. the deep voice he wished had more range was your comfort, any more range just simply wouldn't be him.
as the song progressed, you nuzzled into his warm chest as you gazed out at the sparking city, occasionally sneaking glances up to his face. you had come to the conclusion that this is the most special moment you had ever experienced in your twenty something years of living. the combination of the dreamy synth from the speakers and his rich, airy voice seemed too perfect for this world.
as the final lyric left his mouth, the melody from his speaker slowly faded to its end. a brief moment of silence between you as a gust of wind scurried dry leaves along the sidewalk, both of your eyes locked all the while. his heartbeat quickened as he anticipated your reaction but you were speechless, still in the euphoric dream he had provided you. your faces has been subconsciously nearing one another's, only now noticing that his nose was only an inch away from yours.
"did you like it?" he asked lowly, voice almost in a whisper as his breath tickled your lips. you wanted to say so many things, all the thoughts that raced through your head and all the emotions you felt while he sang to you, you so deeply wanted to spew. but you were still speechless, leaving him with his rhetorical question as you closed the gap in between your lips, deeply pressing your lips into his. he too yearned for the kiss, slowly taking your bottom lip into his and then your top lip, intermingling your lips in sweet bliss. a passionate, love-filled kiss it was; leaving him wanting more as you gently pulled away. a kiss was how you managed to get all of the emotion out, wanting to make him feel the way he made you feel.
"i want it engraved in my soul forever so i can listen to your perfect voice on repeat. for ever and ever and ever," you whispered against his lips, feeling his sweet smile grow into a toothy one. in this instant, he felt lighter; his once racing mind now quiet. he felt better about his performance; about his voice. why was i so insecure? he asked himself, lost in your starry eyes.
singing; something he had long been keeping in. he realized now, was something he didn't know was a treasure. something only you had helped him discover. he made a promise to himself to sing to you more often. as much as he could, in fact.
and so there you two stood on the bridge at the edge of night, gazing into each other's eyes as dawn began to peak its sleepy head over the city, casting a blood orange glow onto his face. the sight of him so breathtaking, like you were standing in a museum, eyes wonder struck at a painting so perfectly detailed. every delicate feature of his glowing face under the radiance of the sunrise.
and you, a golden goddess in his eyes. your hair catching the aurora of the sun just perfectly like a halo. to him, nothing could shine brighter.
"you're an angel," was what seeped from his glossed lips, holding the side of your face gently as he pressed his forehead to yours. the wind softly caressed your hair against his, your tresses intertwining with his russet locks. foreheads pressed, the sun shined brightly in between the small gap that was left from his lips to yours, casting a shadow of your silhouettes amongst the once darkened sidewalk.
to any passerby, the shadow on the sidewalk of two people slowly closed, the gap of sunlight between their lips disappearing as the shadow became one.
~
a couple days later, having rested sufficiently after your night out in the city, you now gazed out the large window of a moving train. you stood by the door, holding onto the metal handrail as your boyfriend hugged you from behind, chin on your shoulder as he gazed out at the view with you, whispering sweet nothings in your ear as you giggled. the train chugged along smoothly, the tall city gradually calming as you neared the suburbs of tokyo- in which existed more nature than buildings.
and that was correct, your eyes widened as greenery covered every square inch of ground while flowers decorated each bush and tree. small shrines and rocky bridges sparingly covered the plains as happy families briskly walked by. you weren't sure which you preferred more; the city or the suburbs. busy or calm? loud or quiet? beomgyu was like the city, usually loud, excited, and seemingly extroverted. but he was also like the suburbs, he could be calm, quiet, and truly introverted. you preferred both of these sides of him, he wouldn't be himself if he didn't have these qualities to him. you decided, you loved the city and the suburbs equally. they both made up the beautiful city of tokyo. the city you love. and similarly, the qualities made up the beautiful man that is choi beomgyu. the man you love.
as the train chugged closer to its destination; yoyogi park, a familiar pink and white flower clouded your vision as the petals scattered everywhere, almost like it was raining. cherry blossoms. to beomgyu, the sight of his favorite flower was more than enough to send happy chemicals through his brain, a large smile surfacing on his lips as a result.
the morning dew kissed your skin as the two of you walked from the train station to the park, sleepiness still prevalent in your features as it was only a few hours after sunrise. but beomgyu, oh he was as excited as ever. gripping your hand tightly as "wowwww" fell from his mouth every few seconds, swiveling his head in every direction at the sight of cherry blossom trees that covered the open land.
you had come to tokyo's most popular picnic park in the city; a woven basket in hand as you searched the grassy area for a place to set up your own picnic. families sprawled their blankets out in between cherry trees, laughter of children and the subtle whir of conversation filling the fresh morning air.
you had packed a selection of sushi for your picnic, a few small boxes that you had purchased at the small convenience store on the way, along with other yummy snacks like onigiri, assorted daifuku, and two small bottles of green tea. a cute, perfect little date it was. just you and beomgyu sitting under the pink trees while inhaling the soft cherry-scented breeze, just lost in conversation as you looked out at the small pond ahead.
it wasn't long before a line of polaroids was lined up on one edge of the blanket. an array of small, rectangular photos with their signature white border showcasing your love and beautiful faces. some pictures had you two kissing, your hand on his cheek as he gently kissed your lips. some were funny; using a piece of your hair to make a mustache above his lips as he made a silly face. and some were just taken of each other; his side profile as he gazed up at the trees, the petals falling in the background like rain. there was one of you he put in the back of his phone case the instant it developed; he had told you a joke, snapping your picture mid-laugh. he thought it was the most beautiful photo ever, your large, pearly smile as bright as the sun in his eyes.
as time passed, the sun rays inevitably did as well. casting its bright gleam on your blanket, roasting the two of you slowly until the blaze was too much to handle. after all, beomgyu was wearing a brown, wool cardigan and denim jeans, which didn't do so well at helping him stay cool, but instead made it harder. you, on the other hand were beginning to burn as your dainty sundress didn't provide enough protection to your skin against the strong uv rays.
the final verdict: you two were unprepared as ever. but it was still fun; having spent hours of sitting under the pretty trees, eventually laying on your backs as you stared up at the blue sky, trying to watch the clouds through the thick tree branches.
a blossom fell from above, slowly fluttering down until it landed gingerly on his nose, enticing giggles from the both of you as you reached over to carefully pluck it off, his large eyes focused on you all the while. he laid back, noticing the way your hair flowed over your shoulder, the way your pupils dilated in such deep focus, treating the soft petal as if it was a fragile animal, moving so slowly towards it as if not to scare it away. all he could think about was how beautiful you were, lost in your kind eyes. so precious, gorgeous, dazzling, stunning, cute, darling, angel-like. so many words to describe you flooded his brain as his heart ached at the sight of you so up close.
never had he loved someone so deeply.
~
eventually, it was clear that sun had won the battle as the two of you began packing your things, placing them back into the basket quickly as sweat beads started pouring down your necks. to be frank, you had severely underestimated the heat warning on the tokyo forecast as you planned the trip.
"whew! next time we'll bring an umbrella or something," he suggested, throwing the blanket over his shoulder before taking one last glance to make sure he had picked everything up off the grass.
"or you could just wear a tank top and shorts for once." you remarked, shoving his arm playfully as you began walking back to the train station.
"well well well. look who's talking, miss 'i forgot my sunscreen'", he returned the sass, sticking his tongue out at you, intertwining his fingers with yours. you threw your head back in laughter, almost not hearing what he said after.
"one day it'll be mrs. choi." his voice so quiet, almost a whisper.
but you heard it.
looking over at him with the brightest glint in your eyes, blood rushing to your face in the form of apink blush, brighter than the one you were already wearing. the thought of his last name in place of yours simply had your heart leaping in happiness, so many emotions erupting in your chest at once. you squeezed his hand, inviting his gaze. to this, you realized his cheeks were flushed too, almost as pink as the cherry blossoms.
although you didn't say anything, you both already knew what the other was thinking; your wedding, kids, what the future has to hold for the both of you. you smiled wider, your eyesight blurring as a small pool formed in your eyes at what he had said. you weren't much of a crier but for some reason you had been overtaken with so much emotion. he squeezed your hand tighter, wrapping an arm around your shoulder as he pulled you closely to his side, kissing your cheek softly. your tears subsided after a few blinks, vision returning to normal. you noticed a tender smile resided on his face, dimple making it's appearance on his supple cheek, asking to be kissed. and you did just that.
never have you loved someone so deeply.
~
kicking your shoes off as you pushed the door open of your hotel, you felt the icy blast of the air conditioning as you ran over to the bed, throwing yourself onto the cold sheets. you sighed in relief, the fresh linen under you cooling your warm skin, toasted from the heat of the picnic. not before long, you felt the bed sink next to you as a familiar arm snaked around your waist, pulling you into the warmth you knew all too well.
his lips tickled your neck as he smiled against your skin, giving the sensitive skin a few gentle kisses before you turned to face him. he searched your eyes, tucking a stray hair behind your ears with his index finger. his touch, so soft and gentle; noticing the way a few of his dainty, silver rings glimmered in the lighting, drawing your attention to his pretty hands. you took his hand into yours, placing your lips on the back of his soft skin, leaving a few kisses behind. it had become a habit since long ago.
he smiled, his eyes momentarily drawing away from your gaze as he focused on something behind you. he sat up, brows furrowed in curiosity as he tilted his head like an alert puppy.
"what is it baby?" you asked, curious at what he had seen.
without answering, he quickly jumped up from the bed, the warm imprint of his body slowly disappearing from beside you. he walked over to the tall curtain at the foot of the bed, what seemed like just a wall or a window with a long curtain covering it. at least that's what the two of you had made it out to be.
suddenly, beomgyu pulled the curtains apart with a quick tug using both of his hands. right before your eyes, a large sliding glass door appeared behind the curtain, the most beautiful view of the city twinkling behind it.
"holy crap!" your mouth fell agape as the two of you gave each other the most astonished look. never had you known that door was there as it had been covered by that curtain this whole time. he peered through the large door, pressing his forehead to the glass as a laugh erupted from his lips.
"there's a huge pool out there! an infinity pool, actually," he turned to look at you over his shoulder, the most thrilled look on his face. without thinking, you jumped out of bed and the two of you ran outside, not believing the sight of your very own, private infinity pool that looked out over the entire city. with the view of the sun beginning to set its shining face behind the tall tokyo towers, it was more than you could ever ask for, something you never expected. you eyed one another, that familiar v shape surfacing on beomgyu's lips, an adorable glint of mystery laced in his expression as an idea sparked in his eyes.
"you know what i'm thinkin'?" he grinned at you, not able to contain your own grin as excitement bubbled from within you at the feeling of deja vu. any spontaneous idea of his was amazing; although it was bound to be chaotic, it was amazing. filled with so much fun, new memories worth dying for, and tons of laughter. you knew whatever it was, it would be amazing with him.
"what is it beomie?" your lips drawn in a greater smile than before.
~
to be continued...
a/n: there will be a part two to this story! warning: the next part will contain smut. (a fluffy smut, if you will). stay tuned to see what beomgyu's idea is :D
also: i internally freaked out when he posted this today bc the tokyo tower is in the back and it’s also in my story which i’ve been in the process of writing this whole month :’) i love him sm pls <33
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Hi!!
I want to request a Shawn angst imagine, please.
Something about sylvie or someone from his team talking about the reader behind her/they back and she/they feeling angry and telling shawn but he didn't believe it and having a fight but then he heard them talking bad about the reader again and trying to apologize, you decide if the end.
Only if you're comfortable to do it, love the work! Keep going!
Thanks for the request, honey!!!!!
I'm sorry if this is not that good, but I really hope u like it~
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Big Deal | Shawn Mendes
Warning: Angst, fights, cursing.
Containing: boyfriend!Shawn, girlfriend!reader, Jerk!Shawn, Artist!Reader
pairing: You and shawn mendes
You loved Shawn so much. You have been his girlfriend for 19 months now and now as you remembered how you had met, you laughed hysterically. You met him at an art exhibition, where he came, disguised in a black hoodie, a cap, and a mask. You had run into him while staring at the paintings on the wall, and almost screamed when you saw him like that. At first, you thought he was a thief or something, and seeing you freak out, he thought you had recognized him. So he had quickly pulled you aside and made you calm down.
You remembered the way you were so confused when he said that you knew who he was and he begged you to not tell anybody. But seeing your confused face, he pulled down his mask-making your mouth shut and your eyes wide. Honestly, you weren't a big fan of him back at that time, you never liked pop so you never even knew him as such. But you had heard of him from your friends and knew very well just who he was and why he had pulled you aside. When you had figured out just what had happened and the misunderstanding, you laughed out loud. Too loud.
He had raised his eyebrows and stared at you as you held your stomach as you laughed, which you knew was a not-so-beautiful sight. "What? Are you those insane kinds?" He had asked to which you stopped laughing and shook your head, looking at him disapprovingly. He didn't have a right to call people insane or judge them like that. So you gave him a piece of your mind and left him staring at you like an antelope in headlights. When you were looking at a mind-blowing piece of painting, he stood beside you, his disguise intact. He had said something clever and cocky and then after a small pause, apologized to you. You smiled at his sweet apology and the small smile he had delivered you. You were suddenly feeling this weird feeling in your chest.
And well, that's when you started hanging out more. After two coffees, a walk to the library, and a guitar session he had finally kissed you and asked you out. You were so happy, and till now everything was going great.
Well now...
You were a bit concerned about Shawn. He had been a bit distant and had canceled your last three dates. You already knew the obstacles that were going to come along with dating a celebrity such as him. You knew he was busy with his album and he had been getting a lot of hate, and you understood that he needed space. But you just wanted him to know that you were there for him.
You were waiting for him at your home, watching another episode of B99, and drinking coffee. When you heard the door opening, your head quickly turned, and you got up, slowly walking towards the door. There he was, your Shawn, coming in hanging his keys and hanging his coat. He looked so exhausted.
You sighed and walked towards him, taking his face in your hands as a yawn came across his lips. He quickly shook it off as he felt your soft hands caressing his cheeks. "Oh hi." He said and gave you a lop-sided and a sleepy smile. "You're still awake?" He said, his brows scrunching. You chuckled softly and brought his face towards yours and gave him a peck. "I missed you," You said softly, "and I hadn't seen you in a few days."
"What?" He said, his voice laced with a bit of aggravation. "We just had breakfast yesterday, together." You sighed a bit and stepped away from me. "You know what I mean,"
"No I don't!"
"Well, a bite of toast, a kiss to my forehead, and telling me you're going to be late and getting out of the house in less than 30 seconds, when I made bacon and pancakes for you is not having breakfast together."
Shawn groaned and stormed off, making your blood boil. You breathed in sharply and walked after him, "What the hell Shawn!?" Shawn rolled his eyes and plopped down on your couch, a small smirk passing his face for a second when he heard the title track of B99 playing on the TV. "You can't just walk away like that!"
"Well, guess what? I did!"
Your teeth gritted and you gave him a murderous look. You didn't like how Shawn was behaving with you, this is not how he acted with you. And you hated it. Didn't he realize that he was hurting you? "You know what? Fuck you." You stormed off to your bedroom, and took his pillow and his quilt and threw it across the room in the hall. "HEY!" You slammed the bedroom door and groaned out loudly.
You did not plan your night to go this way.
You sat on the bed, looking at the light that came from the living room through the small space between the door and the floor.
You sighed, your chest thudding loudly. Hugging your knees close to your chest, and you let out a shuddering breath, as a tear fell from your eye. You shook your head at your ridiculousness, and wiped your tear. It was confusing to you why you were being so emotional over this fight. It seemed small, didn't it?
But it wasn't.
This wasn't how you wanted your fights to go, fights that would lead you both to drift apart, and eventually, your relationship would fall apart...
The thoughts made you feel that your heart was being pulled apart. You looked at the light that escaped the small gap. Why did your relationship suddenly feel like that? Darkness had surrounded you, and the escaped light was really close but too far away to engulf you into happiness again. That light was Shawn. And it was almost as if he had forgotten to engulf you. And it was slowly killing you.
Before you know it, sleep had consumed you, with those burning thoughts still fresh in your mind.
.....
"Hey, honey."
You hugged your coat over your chest and spared Shawn a glance. You had woken up to a cold and empty bed, disappointing you. You didn't think Shawn would stretch it till the morning. That was until you smelled the sweet scent of maple syrup and pancakes. Realizing Shawn's plan to lure you into forgiving him, you rolled your eyes. If he thought that pancakes was going to make you ease up, then he was miserably mistaken.
He knew that you never liked fights left like this, with so much tension in the air that it pressured your heart. He knew that you preferred to talk it out and apologize to each other, and not leave it just like that. You had sighed and got up, freshened up.
You heard Shawn sigh and groan slightly as you went through your mail. You saw one addressed to Shawn. You looked up, looking at the creases on Shawn's forehead. "You have mail." You said, monotonously. You walked towards him, and he looked at you hopefully.
But you didn't give in, not just yet. You were too angry at him but didn't want to give him attention. You still wanted to hit him and scream at him because of last night and what he made you feel. And yeah, you also wanted to get the argument over with and just hug him. But you didn't.
Shawn didn't know if he was right or if he was wrong. What he did was fully flawed, and he didn't realize it. You had always been a bit touchy. It was your way of receiving and giving love. Through physical touch. Unfortunately, it was one of your insecurities as well. You had been brushed off as annoying so many times because of your habits, it hurt you. So you had given Shawn a warning, no let me scratch that. So many warnings.
This fight wasn't exactly related to that, but it still made the insecurities and that same unsafe or lets say, not belonging feeling around you.
Shawn hadn't forgotten that, but he wasn't sure if it was exactly his fault. I mean, you did know how busy he gets. So after a busy day, he might want a bit space, didn't he?
But he didn't want this fight to last this long, either. He was keeping a party at their house, tomorrow night. He didn't want anybody to talk about your relationship or its problems. He didn't want anything new to stir up. "I'm sorry." He whispered.
You looked up, your expression was something he couldn't decipher.
"I'm sorry." He said, loud and clear. "It was wrong of me, what I did last night. And I know I have been bailing on you for a long time, and you have been so understanding. I'm sorry,"
You nodded at him. "Just don't do it again." You said, gently. Shawn didn't really understand why your voice sounded so afraid. It wasn't that big of a deal, was it?
"Anyway," Shawn smiled at you and brought up two plates of hot pancakes. "I'm keeping a party tomorrow night, if that's alright with you?" You smiled at him. "Yeah, no problem. Who's coming?"
"You know the usual, the team. Niall, Taylor etc. We wanted to celebrate all the work we've done for the new album."
"Ooh, when are you releasing it?"
"Next month. It's not completed it, but we're very proud of what it has become until now." You looked at him with a proud expression. You were so happy for him. You loved how hard-working he was.
"Okay then," You smiled at him. "You going to the studio, now?" He nodded, "I'll be back by 8. We can binge B99 if you want. Or maybe watch Avengers, since you're so fond of Tom Hiddleston," You giggled and blushed. "And RDJ." You pointed out, and he scoffed, smiling.
He kissed your forehead as you both finished your breakfast, and took your plates putting them in the dishwasher.
After getting ready, he went out the door, giving you your goodbyes and kisses. Still as he stepped out the door, you felt disappointment arousing in the pit of your stomach.
.....
You looked at yourself in the mirror and stared at your outfit. You smiled and adored the slight foxy eyeshadow you had done. You took a deep breath and stepped outside your bedroom door. The party music was roaring down, and you slowly stepped down the stairs. As you stepped onto the second last step, you tried to find Shawn, and spotted him having a drink with two of his friends from the team. You smiled at him as he stared at you. You walked towards him, and noticed him still staring at you. "What?" You asked. "Does this not look good?" You turned your waist, "Should I change?" But he just grinned at you, and pulled in for a kiss.
He left you breathless and smiled at you. "You look fucking stunning, honey."
You blushed under his gaze and hid your face in his chest as it rumbled because of his chuckles. "Such lovebirds." Someone muttered and you looked up to see Niall. "Niall!!" You squeaked and hugged him. "How are you?"
"Perfect, love." He said and smiled at how you had wrapped your hands around his waist. "How are you both?" He asked cheekily.
"Same." Shawn said and kissed your cheek.
"I'm glad."
You looked around and sighed at the crowd. As much as you were proud of Shawn and no matter how many launch parties you go to with him, you never get used to the crowd. It gets overwhelming and makes you anxious. That's why you never actually like coming to these parties yet you did, only for Shawn. You tried not to always stick to him, but always made sure that he was in your eye sight, to make you feel calm and safe.
If he wasn't, then you would look for Niall, Taylor, or one of the other people with whom you were really good friends.
But mostly, it was Shawn.
You were thirsty and wanted to get a drink, so you went to the bar, promising Shawn to meet him at the dance floor.
But when you came back, he wasn't there. You couldn't find him. You looked around the crowd but couldn't spot him. When you looked back at the bar, you saw him with one of his team members. You recognized her immediately. Sylvie.
She had helped Shawn a lot, and you appreciated her for that. But sometimes you felt that maybe she didn't really like you, you tried to tell Shawn but he dismissed you, saying that you're being paranoid and that you haven't just spent that much time.
You sighed as you walked over to him.
"Shawn!" He looked back and saw you. He smiled at you and waved you to come over. You walked towards him with relief on your face. You got close to him and wrapped your arm around his. "Sylvie! How are you?" You asked politely. She smiled grimly, not so excited to see you, and replied, "Great! We're just waiting for the album to be complete and released, aren't we?" She smiled at Shawn and rubbed his arm. You felt extremely uncomfortable as you saw he look at Shawn like that. Your insecurities got up. "I'm so proud of you guys!"
"Yeah, I'm sure you are." She mumbled and scoffed. "Did you say something?" You asked her but Shawn squeezed your hand. "Weren't we going to the dance floor? I'm sorry Sylvie, we'll see you later." He said and smiled at her. She nodded and he grabbed you and you both walked towards the dance floor. "That wasn't polite, Shawn."
"I know."
You both danced calmly into each other's arms. "Shawn, was it just me, or was she rolling her eyes at me?"
He mumbled something under his breath and then looked back at you. "No, sweetheart. She is just in a bad mood, her boyfriend and she got into a fight before coming here." You nodded. You looked up at him and sighed as you saw his beautiful brown eyes.
You sighed and kept your head on his chest as you both swayed from side to side to the soft rhythm of the music. "I love you." You whispered gently as comfort laced you both like a graceful ribbon. Shawn kissed your forehead, his lips lingering over the crown of your head. "I love you the most.." He breathed, as the scent of your hair reached him. His eyes fluttered shut and he pulled you even close, If that was possible.
You took deep breaths as you found yourself finally in your beloved's arms. It was rare. Very rare. And you wanted to make the most out of this moment. An unsettling feeling had rested in your chest, that any moment this is going to be ripped from you. He is going to be ripped apart from you. And you will be crushed again.
You entwined your hand into his' as the music ended and he was obliged to go and meet more guests. He gave you an apologetic smile, but you weren't going to leave him. You went along with him even if exhaustion had taken over your legs. You felt so much safer with him. His cheering voice always comforted you, it kept your anxiety at bay.
You both walked towards the bar again. You smiled at him and left his hand. You wanted to pee. So you stepped across but as soon as you closed your stall, some voices started speaking. Familiar voices.
"I mean did you see her tonight?"
"mhmm."
"Fuckin whore, can't even dress properly."
You tried to restrain your gasp as you recognized the voice. Sylvie.
"Poor Shawn, he must've had to deal with her."
"I know right? She's so useless. Always clinging to him like a puppy."
"She's only with him for clout. Clingy bitch."
"God, Shawn deserves so much better."
"Someone like you, Sylvie?"
"Oh shut up." She giggled. "Maybe."
Your blood boiled as you heard all those words, but your heart ached. Tears started to spill out of your eyes as you tried to keep your breath calm. Shawn deserves so much better. Was it true? Were you that clingy?
You heard the door close shut and that's when you broke down. Tears started to pour down your eyes, rolling down your cheeks. You held your forearms as your chest shuddered at thought of Shawn leaving you. You tried to keep your cries in but your ears started to hurt and your throat started to dry as you gasped for breath.
Your head was aching and your dress felt too tight now. Why was this happening to you? You wanted to yell for Shawn but then you thought about you being a burden to him.
And besides, you looked like a fucking disaster. You didn't want to ruin Shawn's rep like that.
.....
Shawn was a bit frustrated with you. You still doubted Sylvie, and it bothered him. She was such a sweet person and a great colleague. Why did you always seem to dislike her? It always annoyed him- you trying to point out some imaginary things about her. Sylvie was rolling her eyes at me; she was giving me a weird look; I think she doesn't like me; Your complaints were endless.
Niall furrowed his eyebrows at the crowd, and then looked back towards Shawn. "Shawn?" Shawn stirred his drink. "Yeah?"
"Where's Y/n?"
"Bathroom. Why?"
"Don't you think its been a long time?"
"Um-"
"Shawn you know what happens during these parties don't you?"
"Yes but-"
"Shawn go check on her or I will burst into the girl's washroom and sing Stitches."
"Ok, ok! Fine." Shawn breathed and looked around the crowd again. He breathed when he realized it had been a long time since you came. He got up and walked through the crowd, just to make sure that you weren't locked in the crowd. But you were nowhere to be seen. Shawn's heart rate started to increase. He was marching up to the ladies washroom.
Just as he went forward, trying not to bump into more drunk people- Shawn halted as a person came right in front of him. "Hi, Shawn~" He looked down to see Sylvie standing with a drink in her hand, a giddy expression on her face. "How are you?" She asked in a squeaky voice. She caressed his shoulder, going to his bicep. But Shawn was in a hurry to even process what she was doing.
"Sylvie-"
"Oh, I love it when you say my name." She said, breathily. Shawn gave her a weird look and then looked at the washrooms, they seemed so far away. "Sylvie, I have to go-"
"No please wait-" She held onto his hand. But Shawn twisted his hand out of her grasp and ran out of there. He burst into the washroom and heard small gasps and soft sobs. Shawn's heart broke; He took quick steps toward the stall and knocked. He heard a sharp gasp-- "Y/n? Honey?"
"Hello?" You squeaked out, keeping a small hope that it wasn't Shawn. "Sweetie, please open the door. For me?" You sighed and your breath shuddered. It was undoubtedly him. This was perfect- you felt even worse. You couldn't hide and you didn't have a mirror to fix yourself.
You wanted to dig a hole and die.
But you didn't have a choice now. Shawn looked up as the door clicked and you stepped out. Shawn cupped your face and studied it- you were an absolute mess.
"Shawn-"
Shawn shushed you and wiped the tears on your cheeks and kissed the red skin right under your eyes. You shivered as his cold lips touched your cheeks, and you closed your eyes as he pulled away.
"Why were you crying?" He asked directly. And you looked at the ground- You really didn't want to tell him, and lying wasn't an option because he could tell your tell on your fourth date. "Um,
I was in the stall- when some girls came into the bathroom. They started to talk- and um," You looked around uncomfortably. "I realized it was Sylvie and her friends. They said some things about me."
Shawn raised his eyebrows, "oh? What kind of things?"
"She called me a whore, and said that I was a clingy bitch and never left your side. She said that you must be," you took a deep breath. "Miserable with me." Shawn ran his hands through his hair. He couldn't believe that Sylvie would say this.
He couldn't believe that you were making these accusations.
"Are you sure it was her?" He asked. You furrowed your eyebrows. "Of course, I recognized her voice."
"But you didn't see her, did you?"
"Shawn-"
"No! Why did you always try to convince me that Sylvie hates you?"
You were completely taken back. How could he ask you this?
"You always try to tell me how bad she is-"
"I never told you that!" You shouted.
"But weren't you trying to? Weren't you? Why do you dislike her? She is one of the sweetest people I have ever met- can't you at least try to like her? At least to support me! I mean you have been nothing but unsupportive recently!" He spat at you. Your blood boiled as you heard his words. Unsupportive? "And that you bring Sylvie into all of this? God, y/n."
"Unsupportive?" You breathed. "Did you just call me unsupportive? How could you- I've always been supportive of you! I never complained when you come home so late and never texted me- I never got angry at you when you would ignore me- I always supported you through your tantrums-"
"What the fuck do you mean??"
"I'm your fucking girlfriend Shawn! I'm not your punching bag or your booty call! That whenever you want me I'll be there for you~ But it's not the way around. I always understand that your career can't always make you available, but I can't always be like this! I can't take it anymore!"
"And the fact that you don't believe me and don't fucking trust me is just-"
"God, you're such an ordinary girl," he mumbled under his breath. You looked at him, betrayal laced in your eyes. "I'm sorry, what did you say?" You asked him quietly. "You're such an ordinary girl!"
You were taken aback by his statement. An ordinary girl?
But you stayed quiet, that was your harshest answer. You were exhausted. You were tired by his actions, his expectations, and what you have faced. You couldn't do it anymore.
"If you can't handle this ordinary girl, then maybe you shouldn't be with her." You said with unshed tears in your eyes. "Maybe you should be with someone like Sylvie."
"It will be easy. She wants to be with you anyway." You said.
"What the fuck do you mean?"
You just shook your head and got out of there.
.....
Shawn was aggravated, how could you accuse Sylvie of saying such things? Shawn stormed off from the washroom after you did. His head wasn't straight at the time. Anger and frustration was running through his veins like poison. And what did you mean by that last thing you said?
"She wants to be with you anyway."
Alcohol was affecting his mind as the echo of your words ran through his ears. His head was getting dizzy. Shawn looked at the crowd and didn't find you. He panicked for awhile then remembered that you must've gone back home. Shawn wanted to ease off tonight, he had been working hard week after week. So many sleepless nights without you in his arms and he missed you so much.
But all of those sleepless nights had caught up on him and he just wanted to rest when he came back home. He didn't expect to get into that fight with you- and all that anger just wanted to be vented off.
So well, maybe Shawn realized that he had acted a bit inconsiderate.
And maybe cruel.
But she would forgive him wouldn't she?
Shawn somehow got engulfed in the crowd and was getting bumped constantly by the dancing cluster of people. He heard weird voices and someone very familiar trying to talk to him. "Shawn, buddy? Where is y/n? Are you okay?"
Shawn dismissed them and tried dancing off. Suddenly, he got pulled by someone and they started dancing with him. "Hey, Shawn." He heard someone say flirtatiously. He felt his cheeks being caressed. "Sylvie?"
"Hi silly, come on dance with me!" She said and took Shawn's hands and placed it them on her waist. "What are you doing?" Shawn asked, drunkenly. "Dancing with you, sweetie." She whispered in his ear. Shawn felt disgusted but he couldn't tell her that. He didn't want to dance with her, he wanted to dance with you. "Wait, Sylvie- I need to find y/n."
But she kept a hold on his hands. "Why? I'm here, aren't I? Anyway she left you alone." She said bitterly. "What do you mean? We just had a fight- and she said some bizarre things."
"She thought that you wanted to be with me! That's so absurd. You don't like me do you?"
Sylvie stayed silent which made Shawn panic. "Sylvi-"
She pulled him closer and whispered against his lips. "What if I do?"
Suddenly Shawn's new song started playing. It was supposed to be a surprise for you.
i wonder if you're real
Do i speak the truth or do i filter how i feel?
I wonder, wouldn't it be nice
To live inside a world that isn't black and white?
Shawn felt Sylvie's cold lips against the corner of his mouth and his whole body filled with disgust and shame. It felt wrong. It felt so wrong.
He wrote this song for you, he wanted to dance on this song with you. But you weren't here and it was all his fault. He hated himself because these words were written for you, were supposed be adored by you right now. Yet they were getting betrayed.
His heart shattered as he realized what was happening. His mind sobered up and he pushed Sylvie away with utter horror. He ran away to find you. Hoping you were home.
You weren't though.
You were walking down the quiet streets, getting drenched in rain. Tears were pouring down your face. You were so thankful that because of the rain nobody could distinguish whether the drops of water on your face were either raindrops or salty tears.
In the middle of this rain, that once you would've called so beautiful, your heart had been crushed and now fear had built. Was this the end? Were you and Shawn over?
You didn't want to think of that. But how could you not? He had totally disregarded you, over and over again. And you realized that a half-assed apology wouldn't work this time. You loved him so much.
Oh, you loved him dearly, but you had dignity and self-respect. And you were not going to let Shawn's cruel actions and your love for him to get between your self-dignity.
You sat down on one of the benches. Your sobbing wasn't stopping and you had given up now. You looked up and glanced around- The streetlights were lit, rain was dancing on the ground, and everything else was quiet.
You would've loved this. It would've been so romantic- but right now you felt empty.
Suddenly, you heard panting. Your eyes widened and you tried not to be frantic. What was it? A wild dog? "Thank god, I couldn't find you anywhere."
Your throat tightened. Shawn.
"That was the motive, Shawn." You said coldly. You didn't want to look at him. So you didn't realize that even he was crying.
"Please look at me, baby."
"What do you want?"
"You, back. Please." You stayed silent. "Love, I- When you left I got drunker and Sylvie danced with me. She-She tried to kiss me-"
Your eyes filled with tears once again. "I- You were right, baby. When she tried to kiss me, my song started to play. A new song, that I wrote for you- I didn't realize that I was hurting you and then I realized that I couldn't lose you. Those words, that-that music was composed for you, and all I wanted was you there, to be with me, in my arms to dance to that song. You're all I ever wanted, a-and I'm so sorry that I have been a total jerk to you, and I understand that you have been so patient with me and I have been taking you for granted."
"Glad you realized that."
"I'm so sorry, honey. Please give me another chance."
You stayed quiet. What he said melted your heart but you were stronger than that. You took in a deep breath albeit shaky. Restraining yourself from crying you got up, your knees weak. "Shawn, I-"
"I cannot forgive you." And because of the silence, both of your hearts shattering were audibly clear. "Just yet."
"I need time, Shawn. What you did- You didn't trust me! Your own girlfriend. I cannot forgive you just yet, and neither can I make myself trust you again. Not just like that. If you expected me to come back into your arms instantly then you were mistaken, Shawn." You said softly.
"I need time to think. And its better for now if you don't contact me for a few days." You slowly turned around. "It's best if you go back. Please take care of yourself." You said and walked away with a heavy heart.
Shawn watched as you walked away. He knew the damage he had done. He loved you so much, and he wasn't strong enough to pay the price. To stay away from you.
But he had to.
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seventeen's performance unit as certain vibes
"Heartbeat, is coming in so strong
Oh if you don't stop, I'm gonna need a second one"
Members : Jun, Hoshi, Minghao and Chan !
A/n : mid terms are over baby! Decided to restart writing with something abstract, p.s this is how *I* personally see the members, and since I did one for vocal unit I'll do one for the performance unit too hihi.
Jun - "baby you, are bringing out a different kind of me"
bubble tea, spring, laughing till your tummy hurts, skipping down sidewalks, "fallin' all in you" by Shawn Mendes, drunk prank calls, pinky promises, awkward hugs, fingers brushing, staring competitions, doodles, cheek kisses.
Hoshi - "This is the story of how they met"
stealing glances across the room, secret rendezvous, hushed whispers, fairy lights, stars, neon street lights in the rain, broken radios, scribbled words, maroon, "where did the party go" by fall out boy, obnoxious laughter, forehead kisses, passion,
Minghao - "cause what about angels?"
city lights, secluded areas yet full of life, Polaroids, open textbooks askew on a desk, midnight rain, hoodies, exhausted smiles, contentment, planes flying above, paper boats, forget-me-nots, "not about angels" by birdy, tired but lively eyes.
Chan - "I'm in love with you"
daisies, rainbows, howling winds, fluffy blankets, rosy cheeks, bracelets, dancing in the rain, murals, empty skateboarding parks, worn out wallpaper, laying on the floor, the smell of home-cooked meals, "I'm in love with you" by the 1975, grandma's hand sewn quilts
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Vinnie Hacker masterlist
All pieces are mine. I do not own any of the pictures.
Requests: closed for now
Fic Recs
Imagines
Catching flights, and maybe feelings too- you have a flight back home that takes longer than expected, but end up meeting Vinnie
Purgatory Hoodie- you and Vinnie have broke up but you still kept one of his hoodies.
Our own place in Washington- you and Vinnie buy a house
Babysitting - Vinnie helps you watch your two young cousins
You’re gonna leave - you and Vinne get into an argument and he thinks you're gonna leave him
dirty - you and your friends know that you are having sex and tease you about it
sleepover- you and Vinnie are a new couple and you sleep in his room for the first time
Down bad pt. 2 - you're vinnie's celebrity crush and he tries to get your attention on social media
Free da curls - you help Vinnie do his hair
Tatted - you get your first tattoo
#mycalvins- photoshoot for Calvin Klein, with your ex Vinnie
summer camp - Vinnie and Y/N are camp counselors
little too excited- Vinnie gets jealous over your interaction with Jack Harlow
Sweet dreams - you keep seeing him in your sleep
catching up - you run into Vinnie after breaking up three years ago
Dad Vin
Showing up matters- you and Vinnie go to your son’s end-of-the-school-year event
Downtown Seattle- Vinnie and his daughter spend some time together
Blurbs
thirst trap- you never posted “thirst traps” on your tik tok, until one day you did
clingy Vinnie - like the title says
4 strings- Y/N watching Vinnie play his bass guitar
high - smoking with him
beauty marks - admiring his moles
About Last Night - y/n brings ecstasy to share during sex
Bottoms Up - y/n watches in the background as Fannita and Vinnie film the podcast
Moodboards
Barcelona
Paris
Night Out
NYC diaries
Beach day
Seoul
Instagram Prompts
Europe- Kianna Naomi
fuckboy vinnie
Based off songs
lucid dreams - Tape Machines
Ghost - Justin Bieber
When you're ready - Shawn Mendes
Boyfriend - Ariana Grande & Social House part 2
"ur camera roll"
recents
Others/Miscellaneous
Y/N being a menace
the fans love you
you pop into his stream
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Every Single Thing About You: The Starco Playlist
Under a cut because this is the longest ship playlist I've put together yet. (30+ songs!)
Oath - Cher Lloyd
Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Together - Animal Island
My first day on Earth
I fell into your eyes
Look at how our galaxies collide
Some Things Don't Change - Dylan Emmet
You're still just as fly
As you were that night
That we both got high on the bleachers
And fell in love
In over our heads as we looked at the stars
Nothing can tear us apart
Like nothing
Nothing can tear us apart
Kid in Love - Shawn Mendes
Maybe I’m just a kid in love
Maybe I’m just a kid in love, oh baby
If this is what it’s like falling in love
Then I don’t ever wanna grow up
Shut Up and Dance - WALK THE MOON
Oh, don't you dare look back
Just keep your eyes on me
I said, "You're holding back"
She said, "Shut up and dance with me"
This woman is my destiny
Perfect Two - Auburn
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you, 'cause boy, you complete me
And in time, I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Lucky - Jason Mraz
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Blame It on the Rain - He Is We
Tell me, does she look at you the way I do
Try to understand the words you say
And the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?
You Are in Love - Taylor Swift
One night, he wakes
Strange look on his face
Pauses, then says, "You're my best friend"
And you knew what it was, he is in love
Maps - Maroon 5
And you said you had my back
So I wonder, where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me
So I'm following the map that leads to you
Like This - Jake Scott
No one ever got me high like this
Set me on fire like this
Running on a wire like this
Losing my mind like this
I don't know what it is
But I could never call it quits
I just wanna stay like this
Home - Jacob Lee
With your head on my shoulders
And that look in your eyes
I knew you and I were the same
There I danced with your aura
As you led me inside
Guiding me into somewhere safe
I've found home
Staring at It - SafetySuit
I don't know where you're at, but when you see an exit
You'll be headed at it
I won't go
I'm staring at it
I'm staring at the only love I know
Perfect Crime - Sean Ryan Fox
You walked right in, into my life like a thief in the night, yeah
When I looked, I got hooked in your eyes and I couldn't even fight it
I thought I had a good thing 'til you came along
You make my soul wanna sing a different song
Yeah, I know you got a boyfriend and I got a girlfriend, but
Wouldn't it be the perfect crime
If I stole your heart, you stole mine?
Sad Song - We the Kings
You're my favorite part of me
With you standing next to me
I've got nothing to fear
Back to You - Selena Gomez
We never got it right
Playing and replaying old conversations
Overthinking every word and I hate it
'Cause it's not me
And what's the point in hiding
Everybody knows we got unfinished business
And I'll regret it if I didn't say this isn't what it could be
Hoodie - Hey Violet
I'm still rocking your hoodie
And chewing on the strings
It makes me think about you
So I wear it when I sleep
Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars
At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon
Tryna get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
i don't want to watch the world end with someone else - Clinton Kane
And I don't really know, what tomorrow holds
But I've, I've finally realized
If this is our last goodbye until we're gone
Who cares about the wrongs we've caused ourselves?
'Cause I don't want to watch the world end with someone else
May I - Trading Yesterday
All that's made me is all worth trading
Just to have one moment with you
So I will let go of all that I know
Knowing that you're here with me
For your love is changing me
Never Be Alone - TheFatRat
No matter what you do
I'll still be there for you
And when you call my name
I won't be far away
No matter where you go
You'll never be alone
Glad You Came - The Wanted
The sun goes down, the stars come out
And all that counts is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
At the Beginning - Donna Lewis
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
Far Away - Nickelback
This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab For Cutie
No blinding light
Or tunnels, to gates of white
Just our hands, clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
Water Fountain - Alec Benjamin
She couldn't be at home in the night time because
It made her feel alone, but at that time she was too young
I was too young
I should've built a home with a fountain for us
The moment that she told me that she was in love
Too young, I was too young
Let Her Go - Passenger
Well, you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
Sunflower - Shannon Purser
But I'm a sunflower, a little funny
If I was a rose, maybe you'd want me
The Story of My Life - One Direction
The story of my life, I take her home
I drive all night to keep her warm
And time is frozen
Not In That Way - Sam Smith
I'd never ask you, 'cause deep down
I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say, "I'm sorry, believe me, I love you
But not in that way"
Rather Be - Clean Bandit
If you gave me a chance, I would take it
It's a shot in the dark, but I'll make it
Know with all of your heart, you can't shame me
When I am with you, there's no place I'd rather be
Gift of a Friend - Demi Lovato
The world comes to life
And everything's alright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
I Like Me Better - Lauv
I knew from the first time
I'd stay for a long time
'Cause I like me better when
I like me better when I'm with you
Friends Don't - Maddie & Tae
They don't almost say "I love you"
When they're downtown somewhere, just a little drunk
They don't talk about the future, and put each other in it
And get chills with every accidental touch
Evelyn - Bear's Den
Evelyn, our relationship was strictly platonic
If platonic means I was madly in love with you
And a part of you was oblivious
Another part of you knew and kind of liked it
Teenager in Love - Neon Trees
He’s a teen, a teenager in love
I’m a fool with a curse and a crush
What a magic distraction
What’s the point of romance?
Fear of Water - Noah Kahan
Now I'm not afraid of the water
I'll dive right in
And I can be brave, so I'm gonna
Give it a try
'Cause you'll be on the other side
#star vs the forces of evil#playlist#starco#star x marco#music#star butterfly#marco diaz#i love them a normal amount#song lyrics#otp: every single thing about you#all queued up
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The music they'd dance with you to ❤💜💙
(With CQ's boys🌹)
Fresh:
Number of the beast (2015 remaster) - Iron Maiden
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Fresh has absolutely no shame when dancing & singing with you especially when its quote " one a' his jams". he'd be the type to put on the music and take your hands and kinda just jump around. He can't feel too much but this kinda stuff definitely makes him feel excited in a way. He definitely does one of those like air guitars and like slides across the floor on his knees. 💀
Error:
Stalkers Tango - Autoheart
Scene-
Let's be real here in absolutely no multi verse would error ever do this like ever he'd absolutely REFUSE to do any Singing or dancing with you. He'd definitely watch you "make a fool of yourself", but just for funsies let's say he did cuz ik y'all error Simps want this sour patch nice 'n sweet. I don't think he'd do much really he'd probably be like red doing everything in his power to keep your face buried in his hoodie so you can't see his bright blue face. You think it's adorable and sneak a peek at him every now & again just to file him up.
Geno:
If I can't have you - Shawn Mendes
Scene-
Geno would only do this on special occasions, I feel like he'd be the guy to be like "if I'm gonna do this it's gonna be special". So he'd have the backyard littered with rose petals, candles and a lil champagne. He'd dance sweetly with you and lay his head in the crook of your neck humming sweet nothings in your ear.
#undertalefics#ut au#undertale#errortale#error#error x reader#aftertale#Geno#geno X reader#freshtale#fresh#fresh x reader#momma cq#CQ's boys
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Shawn Mendes Imagines ~ Panic Attacks
You were having a rough week to put it at that. Your boyfriend, singer & songwriter, Shawn Mendes, had needed to go to the studio to rehearse every morning and didn't come back home until after you were asleep. At this point, you didn't even know what it felt like to hug or just love on him. You fell down the stairs a total of three times (once on Monday, Wednesday, & Thursday), you spilled drinks all over you so you had to wear a hot hoodie all day, you barely ate anything, you were barely sleeping, your college work was stressing you, your customers at your job were being really rude, your boss had given you basically no breaks, and you were hitting a breaking point. You finally finished your college days, so happy it was Friday, and you noticed that it was raining outside. You had no umbrella, only a hoodie that barely protected you. You pulled your hood over your head and ran as fast as possible. You sat down on a bench and waited patiently for the bus to come. You could feel tears welling up inside your eyes and your breath cutting out. You were willing yourself to not cry.
The bus came a few minutes later, and you climbed on and sat by the window. You leaned your head against the cool glass window before shutting your eyes. Hot tears were starting to leak out of your eyes and you tried wiping them but they just fell down your cheeks. The bus came to a stop in front of your apartment building and you hopped rushing to get inside. You went into the elevator and leaned against the wall, wanting to get inside to cry into your pillow so bad. The elevator stopped at your floor and you ran down the hall to find your complex. You found out and tried opening the door but it was locked. You then searched through your bag and purse but realized you must've left the key inside. Boom, the breaking point. Tears started pouring out of your eyes faster, and your breathing was super shallow. You leaned your back against the wall, putting your hand against your chest, trying to take some deep breaths but it wasn't working. You slid down leaning your head against the wall and shutting your eyes as you pulled your knees to your chest.
You wrapped your arms around your legs and buried your head into the top of your knees, trying to calm down. A while later, you heard the clacking of some keys and heard a loud gasp. "Y/N?" Shawn said and you looked up to see him standing there. He was wearing a gray sweatshirt, his normal black skinny jeans, brown timberland boots, a black backpack, and his guitar case. "Shawny?" You whimpered and stood up before rushing into his arms. He opened the door with one hand before pulling you inside with him. He shut the door and took off both of your bags before placing them down by the door. He lifted you up, not caring that you were soaking wet, and brought you both to the couch. He sat you down on top of him before you wrapped your arms and legs around him. You buried your head into his shoulder, your lungs trying to grasp some air but it felt like you couldn't. Felt like your air supply was gone and Shawn was your life support.
"Can you look at me, honey?" You pulled away and saw his concerned face. "Come on, honey. You need to breathe." He said and you sniffled. "I-I can't..." You whispered and he grabbed your hands. "Name five things you can see." He told you, using your grounding method. "T-The rain, the window, the wall, you, and the curtains," You said and he rubbed your sides. "Good. Can you tell me five things that you feel?" He asked you gently, trying to be there to support you. "I feel your hands rubbing my sides, my body on top of yours, my clothes, and my sweatshirt," You said and he smiled. "Excellent, three things you can hear. You are doing incredible, love." He said. "I hear your breathing, my sniffling, and... the rain against the window?" You told him and he nodded. "Two things that you smell?" He questioned and you took a deep breath. "I smell your cologne and the candle." You said and looked down. "One last thing, do you remember?" He asked. "What I can taste." You said and he nodded. "What do you taste?" He asked and you looked around trying to find something. "I don't know." You whimpered and he kissed your lips. The kiss was full of love and patience. "Taste me?" He asked and you nodded.
"Take a deep breath in through your nose and out your mouth." Shawn helped you, taking some exaggerated breaths with you, and finally, you calmed down. "What's going on with you, lovey?" He asked and you instantly teared up again. "This has been the roughest week and I've missed you so much." You told him and he pulled you close. "I'm here now. I promise that I got you. Just keep breathing and let me help."
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just witnessed shawn mendes buy a hoodie at the glossier store in LA
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I would be quite disappointed if he´ll get hair implants because I love this imperfection of his, you know he´s almost perfect in many aspects and so this just makes him like he´s normal human with imperfections. I doubt that he´s balding because his hairline looks quite the same all the time and seriously it´s not even that bad. But what do we know, it´s his head and if he´s insecure about it, whatever. Altho I also think if he´s going for implants, it´s surely connected with his image for his young fans because he needs to look young and fresh as long as possible. But also idk, Shawn Mendes also cut his hair and there wasn´t any deeper meaning than he was just bored and curious how he will look with buzzcut. Maybe H done the same since he´s on break and so is his image. Him and Shawn are not the only ones who cut his hair just because of pure curiousity. Altho yeah, hair implants make sense for him and his image.
Anyway all this drama around both of them since Louis´ tweet, now Harry is literally everywhere (London, Carribean, Las Vegas, Vancouver, LA) without proper photos, he´s also homeless again and now he appareantly has buzzcut....why oh why.
Hi, anon!
We can still live in hope it's not real. The source is Deuxmo* and someone has claimed to have photoshopped it. If it's real it, there are many reasons to explain why;
wanted to
bc of a hairtransplant
for an acting role
did a britney
To me it seems like he's worn a beanie and a hoodie to hide it for awhile. I don't think he's pround of it, so i'm thinking option one is out. Same with option four.
I'm hoping he didn’t do it for a hairtransplant. He's too young and i agree i don't think it's that bad, but that's the most likely reason. I obviously hope it's not for a an acting role. Dude can't act. The whole fandom is united in hating this. His hair is such a huge part of his image.
I hope there is positive change coming for both of them, and that all this bs isn't in vain. They are both shaking the establishment and upsetting the fandom on all sides. The question is why...
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💌 profile tag game!
— thank you for tagging me dearest jen @jeonqkooks, precious mindy @parkdatjimin and my ridzietta @taegularities <3 ily guys <3
name: ash
sign: sagittarius 🏹
height: 5’6 (:
time: 01.30 shhh
birthday: december 7th!
fav bands/artists: off the top of my head we’ve got - bts, shawn mendes, taylor swift, doja cat, lorde, camila cabello, halsey, maroon 5, lana del rey, ritviz, mitraz <3
last movie: free guy!
last show: dark (ya girl finally caught up 15 years later...)
when i created this blog: june 16th, 2021 <3
what i post: fics + occasional moodboards + random screams + life updates ig?
other blogs? a recs sideblog here, @jimilter-recs | i also have a harry potter + mcu blog which can be found if you really hunt, but i’d rather not mention it | @livingforshawnscurls which i haven’t touched in a year (:
do i get asks? yes 🥺 all of y’all are so kind, thank you, i love you 🥺
followers: a number i never though i could get to! the milestone we hit in june has doubled in number, y’all ): i’m gonna cry...
average hours of sleep: this question is always put in just to bully me :| 4-5 hours, okay, and that works for me, let’s move on.
instruments: i used to play the guitar...but i haven’t touched it in like 18 months </3
what i’m wearing: no u should be asking what i am NOT wearing bec - a thermal shirt, a regular shirt, a hoodie and a sweater on top over everything that is baggy enough to cloak the layer (: + thermal leggings and woolen pajama bottoms (: + woolen socks (:
dream trip: brooooo europe 🥺
favourite songs: right now, it’d be the entire indigo + team by lorde + vigilante shit by tay + no body, no crime by tay + cardigan by tay + megatron by nicki minaj + doin’ time by lana del rey + burn it by agust d
tagging: @sailoryooons @gimmethatagustd @kth1 @jeonjcngkook @opaljm @ugh-yoongi @park-jimin-isnt-real @ahundredtimesover @daechwitatamic @astralmono @missgeniality @jjkeverlast
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Realizations: Doubts Part 2
Summary: Reader is tasked with the job of being Shawn’s attorney for his lawsuit in a plagiarism case.
Warnings: Swearing, cheating, angst
Part 1
Two years had passed since the dreadful fight between Y/N and Shawn. After he walked out of the door, he also walked out of Y/N’s life.
Two days after the breakup there was a knock on her door. Brian stood on her porch holding a box full of her stuff that she had left at Shawn’s. He looked sheepish (but anyone would if they were sent with this task).
Brian and Y/N had met through Shawn, but they instantly clicked and became close friends. Y/N and Shawn always made sure to keep Brian out of their arguments so that he wouldn’t have to pick a side, but now that they were broken up, it seems that Shawn didn’t care about following this rule anymore. However, Brian was Shawn’s friend first so Y/N wasn’t going to fight over him.
“Woah, you look like shit,” Brian chuckled to lighten the mood, but Y/N shot him a death stare.
“Yea well that’s what happens when you break up with someone who you thought would be your end all be all. But thanks for the compliment. Is this the stuff that I left at his house?”
Y/N felt a pang of sadness jolt through her. She knew she should probably grab all of Shawn’s hoodies to return to him while Brian was here.
“Yea. He said that it hurt too much to look at.”
Y/N sighted. “Let me go grab his stuff while you’re here. I don’t want to have bring it over myself either.”
“No, don’t! He ummm he said that he didn’t want his stuff back.”
Y/N was confused, but nodded her head taking the box that Brian held out.
“I’m gonna miss you Bri.”
Brian smiled sadly at her. “Hey, it’s not the end of our friendship. I just don’t think we should talk for a few months, you know. Just til you both have some time to heal.”
Y/N nodded and Brian pulled her in for a hug. “You know he never wanted it to end this way. You can still fix this,” he whispered.
“I…he was right. I wasn’t spending as much time as I should with him. I got too busy. Maybe will find each other again someday, but for now, we both need to focus on our stuff.”
“You know he said the same thing.”
Y/N chuckled. “Guess that’s one of the things we can agree on then. Tell him I wish the best for him.”
“Of course.”
Y/N sat in her office pouring over a case when her phone rang. She quickly picked it up. “Hello this is Y/N L/N from L/N Law Firms. What can I do for you?”
“Umm hi. It’s been a while. This is Andrew.”
Y/N furrowed her eyebrows in confusion. “I’m sorry. Andrew who?”
“Oh! Sorry! This is Andrew Gertler. I’m Shawn’s manager.”
Y/N felt a pang of guilt run through her. She and Andrew hadn’t been particularly close, but Shawn had seen him as a brotherly figure and he was very fond of him.
“Oh my gosh! I’m so sorry! How are you?!”
“I’m doing ok. And actually that’s why I called you. I have a huge favor to ask and you can decline, but I would really appreciate if you didn’t.”
“Alright. What can I help you with?”
“Well, you probably won’t want to take this case, but we recently decided that Shawn should do a duet with this new upcoming artist. She agreed to it, but after the duet, she released new music. But it wasn’t hers. She stole Shawn’s music. But now it’s gotten into legal matters and…well Shaw was wondering if you would be the attorney for his case. He said that you are the best and he knows that he has a good chance at winning with you.”
Y/N silently sighed. If she took the case, the press would go haywire. She could see the headlines forming in her head.
Shawn Mendes’ ex-girlfriend Y/N L/N is his attorney for his court case. Are they together again? And should she be allowed to be the leading attorney in the trial?
“Look, I know it’s risky with your law firm and the media and everything, but if you win this trail think about all the good publicity it would bring to you. And we should win because all the evidence shows that Shawn is in the right. So what do you say?”
“I need time to think about it. How long until you need to know by?”
“Umm by tomorrow morning. The trial is supposed to take place in six months in LA.”
“Alright. I’ll call you when I’ve decided. Sound good?”
“Perfect. Thank you so much Y/N. I know it’s a huge favor, but Shawn wanted to ask you first before anyone else.”
“I…don’t know how to feel about that, but thanks and I’ll get back to you. Bye.”
Y/N hung up her phone and rubbed her temples. It had a been a stressful two years setting up her own law firm and managing it by herself.
She had been in lots of student debt and had just barely paid it all off. If she accepted this proposal, she would make lots of money. More than she had seen in her whole career since it was a high profile case.
Regardless, she didn’t want the paparazzi all over her again. It had taken a while after breaking up with Shawn to get rid of the paparazzi and the people that wanted to work for her only because she knew Shawn.
It had even been hard for her to move on from Shawn, because most of the men she went on dates with were nuts using her to get to Shawn. Needless to say, breaking up with him and caused her more grief than she thought it would. Her life became more difficult and she struggled to navigate it.
She heard a knock at her door and then it opened. In walked her boyfriend Grant. He was one of the only good things that had happened in her life. He wasn’t with her for the fame or to get a connection to Hollywood.
“What’s up babe?” He went behind her chair and rubbed her shoulders. He placed a kiss on her head.
“I’m just got asked to do a case and I’m not sure if I should accept. It’s going to be tricky and it’s going to cause some stress.”
“Well if there’s anything I know about you, it’s that you can do it.”
“Yea. Maybe I should just take it. It’s going to pay really good.”
“Well then go for it.”
She nodded. “You know what, you’re right. I’m gonna call them up really fast and accept. Just give me a minute and I’ll be out to the car.”
He nodded his head as she picked up her phone redialing Andrew. “Y/N, hey.”
“I’ll do it. When do you want to meet up to discuss everything?”
“I know it’s soon, but could you meet on Sunday. I’ll get you a first class flight to LA by tomorrow morning so you can get settled in. Does that work for you?”
“Sounds great!”
“Oh and Y/N, I know that you and Shawn broke up two years ago, but there might be some old feelings involved. I just ask that you keep it professional.”
Y/N sighed. “Andrew, I don’t know how Shawn feels. I haven’t spoken to him since that night. Regardless though, what I do know is how I feel. And I have a boyfriend who I’m very serious about. So I can assure you that there will be no feelings involved on my part.”
Andre nodded his head on his side of the phone even though Y/N couldn’t see it. “Well…I can’t say the same for Shawn. Look, let’s just say that he still is hung up on you. The break up really ruined him. Just go easy on him and…don’t tell him you have a boyfriend. I don’t want him stressed more than he already is.”
Y/N grimaced. She knew that Shawn hadn’t had a girlfriend since her. Or hadn’t made one public at least. She had a slight suspicion that it might’ve been because he wasn’t over her, but she wasn’t that conceded.
“Andrew if he asks me if I have a boyfriend, I’m going to tell him. I don’t want him thinking I’m single and trying to pursue me.”
“I understand. Just don’t bring it up. I’m sure he won’t either. I’ve told him to keep it professional.”
“Ok. I get it. Umm get me a flight for 10:00 am tomorrow. Or at least as close as you can to that. Thanks Andrew.”
“Yep. See you soon.”
The next day, Y/N was on a flight across the country to help her ex-boyfriend win a lawsuit. The whole thing was comical.
Andrew picked her up at the airport and took her to a restaurant where she would be meeting up with Shawn and some other people from his team. To say she was nervous was an understatement.
When they arrived, the host led them to a private room that had been reserved for them. Shawn was already there and the minute he saw her, he stood from the his chair, breathless.
All his old emotions came rushing back and he didn’t know if he should hug her or kiss her. He chose the former because he didn’t want to make it awkward.
He embraced her in his long arms, inhaling her scent. “Y/N! Thank you so much for agreeing to help me! I know you’re going to win this for me.”
“Yeah, anything for you.” She couldn’t help but feel a twinge of guilt for feeling so comfortable in his arms.
Lunch was a long and grueling meal full of Shawn trying to catch up with Y/N while she tried to do her job. Needless to say, Y/N was happy to be leaving back to her law firm the next day.
“I’ll keep in contact with you guys and we’ll meet up once every few weeks to the trial. Sound good?”
“Sounds perfect,” Shawn said with a large smile on his face.
Shawn held the door open for her as they walked out of the restaurant and grabbed her elbow, pulling her aside. “I know you’re here for business, but I…it’s just been so long and I want to catch up. Me and some of the other people on my team are going to the beach tonight. Do you wanna maybe come?”
Y/N didn’t know what to say to him. As much as she missed him, she didn’t want a relationship with him. She was happy with her boyfriend. If Shawn and her were going to be anything to each other, it was going to be friends at the most. But Y/N knew he wanted more than that.
“I didn’t pack a swimsuit. Have fun though!” Y/N went to turn away to call an Uber, but Shawn grabbed her hand again.
“Well let me take you to get one then. My treat since you’re doing me a huge favor.”
“Well you are paying me for it, so it’s not really a favor,” she chuckled.
His face flushed red. “Well you should still let me buy you a bathing suit. Please,” his eyes did the familiar begging face that she remembered him doing when they were dating. He knew that during their relationship, she couldn’t resist his begging face.
“Fine. But I owe you one. I’ll buy you dinner or something at the beach.”
Shawn shook his head. “Just let me do this one thing for you.”
Shawn told his team that he was going to take Y/N shopping and now they were at The Grove in a swim wear shop. Y/N had no idea what she was looking for, but she knew that it was a really expensive store so her plan was to go for the cheapest thing.
“I know what you’re thinking, but it doesn’t matter the price, promise. Get whatever you want.”
Y/N just nodded secretly wondering how he still knew what she was thinking by simply glancing at her.
After looking around the store for a while, Y/N settled a on a red high waisted bikini. It wasn’t too expensive and she knew it would look good on her. She pulled it off the rack and showed it to Shawn.
“Are you sure that you want to buy this? I still feel really bad,” Y/N smiled sheepishly at him.
“Of course! Plus, you’ll look great in it,” and he sent her a wink.
Another pang of guilt shot through her along with butterflies that appeared in her stomach. She realized that she probably shouldn’t have been out with Shawn without other people around, but she wasn’t thinking rationally. Her mind was taken back to when they were in a relationship and her old feelings that had been dormant had started to return.
***
When she returned to her law firm on Monday, her boyfriend confronted her when they went for a lunch date.
“So you say you’re on a business trip, but really you go and hangout with you’re ex, he buys you a swimming suit at the mall and then takes you to the beach?!”
Y/N sighed. She wasn’t allowed to tell her boyfriend who her clients were due to the law and all, but he should’ve at least trusted her to know that she wouldn’t cheat on him like he was accusing her of.
“Grant, it’s not like that! He’s my client ok! He’s in a lawsuit with another celebrity. His manger asked me to be his attorney because he knows me and knows I’ll do a good job.
“Shawn invited me to go to the beach with his friends, but since it was a business trip, I wasn’t expecting to go to the beach. I didn’t have a swimsuit so Shawn offered to buy me one. I wasn’t trying to sneak around behind your back.”
Grant sighed. “I’m sorry for assuming, but it’s hard knowing that he’s your ex. I mean have you seen the man,” he scoffed to himself, “of course you have. He’s built like Hercules. I…I just feel like I can’t compete.”
He sat down in the chair across from Y/N and put his head in his hands.
“But I’m with you, not him. He’s my ex-boyfriend. You are my current boyfriend. I’m sorry that the paps made it look like something it wasn’t, but you just have to trust me ok? They’re probably be lots more photos of me and him coming in the future, but I promise that I love you, not him.”
Y/N’s life became extremely hectic in the months leading up to the trial. She flew out to LA at least once every two weeks. However, she made sure that she scheduled things for after her meetings so Shawn couldn’t try to drag her along with him wherever he went.
In fact, she was so good at avoiding spending time with him outside of their business meet ups that Andrew even pulled her aside to talk about it.
“So why have you been avoiding Shawn?”
Y/N scoffed. “He’s not my boyfriend anymore. We hardly even have a friendship. To me he’s just my client. Plus, I don’t really want to be in the public eye.”
“That’s understandable, but he was going though a depressive phase and since you came back into his life, it’s the happiest I’ve seen him. You should at least try to be friends with him. I mean come on, the man even bought a bathing suit for you. He clearly misses you,” he folded his arms across his chest.
“I feel bad, I really do. But again, I need to keep this professional. My boyfriend didn’t like it the last time I hung out with Shawn. And I don’t want to risk our relationship for a friendship with a client,” she turned her back on him and walked away.
The week before the lawsuit case, Y/N went to finalize her plans with Shawn and his team.
“So the facts that we mainly need to focus on that will be the foundation of our argument is that she had access to this song and you gave her a copy. It’s simple. We should win this,” Y/N said more to herself than anyone else. To be honest, she was feeling really nervous with a high profile case such as this.
“I know you’ll do great Y/N.”
After the meeting the team went to get drinks and Y/N retreated to her hotel. She heard a knock on the door and hurried to answer it. Shawn stood on the other side.
“Hey…I feel like I’ve hardly talked to you since this whole thing started. Just wanted to see how you’re doing.”
“What do you mean? We’ve talked lots.”
Shawn chuckled and pushed his way into the room, closing the e door and sitting on the couch. “You know what I mean. We’ve only talked about business. But I want to know what you’ve been up to these past two years.”
Y/N sat on the opposite side of the couch from Shawn. The TV light illuminated his face and she smiled softly to herself. He was really handsome.
“Well, I started my own law firm, but you know that. And yea, I’ve been really invested in being a good lawyer.”
Shawn nodded his head. “I should’ve never left the house that night. But gosh babe! You don’t even know how bad I was hurting! I just wanted to be with you! But looking back I realize where I went wrong.”
Y/N shifted uncomfortably on the couch. They were entering into dangerous territory and she didn’t like it.
“I just feel like you deserve to know that I was going to propose,” he chuckled to himself as Y/N gasped, feeling the air being knocked out of her lungs.
“I had it all planned out. It was going to happen two days after we broke up. I have still have the ring. I couldn’t bring myself to get rid of it. I kept telling myself that one day we would cross paths again.”
Y/N was too stunned to speak so Shawn continued staring into the depths of her beautiful eyes. “I haven’t been with anyone seriously since you. But I still feel like you should know that Camilla,” the girl that Shawn was suing,”well me and her had a fling. It was only for the time that I was working with her. It meant nothing though. I know we weren’t together, but it still felt so wrong. It felt like I betrayed you.”
Y/N still didn’t speak. Her old feelings for him boiling over. She started to cry. She was hit with the realization that she was still in love with him and wanted nothing more than to be with him, but she had a boyfriend.
“Oh shit babe! I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you cry! Did I overwhelm you?!” He scooted closer to her and wiped her tears off her cheeks.
“Hey, hey. It’s okay. If you feel the same I need you to tell me because I can’t keep living like this. I need to know. I need to move on with my life.”
Y/N shook her head. “I was so horrible to you. I just let you leave. I…I was so selfish. I’m so sorry that I did that to you.”
She looked up and Shawn was inches away from her face. His breath was mixing with hers and the next thing she knew was Shawn’s lips on hers.
He tasted just like she remembered, but she quickly pushed him off of her. He liked at her confused, eyebrows furrowed.
“Did I read the situation wrong?”
“Shawn I have a boyfriend,” she whispered into the stale night air.
Shawn inhaled and quickly pulled back from her. She missed the warmth of his touch.
“So…wow okay. Umm this is really awkward. I’m so sorry. I really thought that you hadn’t moved on from me,” he sighed. “And here I was pouring my heart out to the girl that I love. Telling her I felt guilty for kissing a girl who wasn’t her when she’s been in a serious relationship.”
“Shawn,” she reached for him, but he pulled away.
“I think I’m going to go. Have a nice night,” he stood up from the couch and watching asked out on her once again.
Y/N and Shawn hardly talked in the days leading up to the trial. Even after the jury had decided that Camilla had in fact plagiarized his music, they only shared a soft ‘congratulations.’
Y/N left promptly after the trial was over back to her hometown. She knew that she needed to break up with her boyfriend even if Shawn and her didn’t end up together. She realized she was in love with him.
But when she went to Grant’s house, she saw him making out with another girl on his couch.
“What the hell is going on here?!”
Grant shot up pulling away from the girl. “Shit! Babe you weren’t supposed to be back for another day!”
“Well you weren’t supposed to be kissing another girl so I guess we both are surprised! Goodbye Grant, have a nice life!” She slammed the door shut and took a breath of relief.
Even though she was sad that Grant hadn’t been faithful to her, she knew that her heart never belonged to him in the first place.
“Hey Shawn, it’s Y/N. I know you’re in your hotel room and you probably don’t want to talk to me, but I…I broke up with my boyfriend.
“And I’m not saying that just because I’m using use as my safety net. When you kissed me that night, all the feelings and emotions came rushing back. I want to try and make this work if you’re willing to.”
She waited for a few minutes. Nothing. And then finally the door opened and a shirtless, puff eyed, but smiling Shawn came out into the hotel hallway.
“You really mean that? Cause if you do, I’m ready to pick up where we left off. I’m ready to be engaged. And I’m sorry if that’s too forward but—“
He felt a pair of lips press onto him and he wrapped his arms around her waist. “Marrying you is all I’ve ever wanted. We’re going to make this work. I’ll move my law firm to LA. Hell I’ll even quit if I have to. I just want to be with you.”
Shawn smiled at her as he heard the words fall from her lips. “You’re all I’ve ever wanted. Let’s get married.”
A/N: Sorry it took me so long to write a part two. I’ve had no motivation. Anyways, hope you enjoyed. I know it’s really sucky, but oh well. Please give me feedback and tell me if there are any mistakes. Thanks!
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My 2022 met gala review ✨✨✨✨
Technically this year’s met gala theme was guilded glamour and White tie. But everyone is calling it Gilded Age so what is the Gilded Age??
The Gilded Age: a period in American history from 1870-1900 of extreme social change as the division between social classes became more pronounced. This is the era of oil barons and railroad monopolies. Families like the Vanderbilts and the Carnegie‘s gained much of their wealth during this time. It is also the beginning of many labour movements as well as an influx of European immigrants. It is preceded by the reconstruction era and followed by, arguably the Edwardian era. 
What fashion trends dominated this era:
1. Princess line silhouette
Named for Alexandra Princess of Wales, the princess line silhouette is all about vertical lines. Long sleeves, elongated corsets and high neck lines dominated this trend.
2: More is better
The guilt age the perfection of artificial dyes, and women went insane for them. It was common in the beginning of the era to combine as many colours as possible within an outfit. Lace and other embellishments were also incredibly popular. Dresses really were about having as many expensive elements as possible.
3: hair is elaborate but still up
Hair is yet to be worn loose (that’s only for wh0res still) but it can be worn half up half down. Hats are still popular and will continue to be so for a while. Hats and hair become more elaborate for men and women as top hats and facial hair become big for men.
4; bustles!!!!!!!!!
It’s the era of women piling pounds of fabric and other fancy constructions under their dress to create the silhouette of higher and wider at the back and slimmer at the front and sides. This silhouette however would fall out of fashion by the 1890s. However it reached the peak in this era. 
In other strange trends this is the beginning of athleisure wear. As women began to play more sports like tennis and cycling they would occasionally wear pants under their skirt but it was more acceptable to alter your skirt. There was also a strange trend of altering a man’s shirt and adding more colours and lace to make it a feminine outfit. The OG stealing your boyfriends hoodie.
Alright here’s who was on theme in terms of historical fashion
Blake Lively 
This version of her dress is a very accurate silhouette. The colours aren’t exact but the idea is behind it. I’ll also give Ryan some props because he looked very correct. He had the frock coat and accessories to go with it. Blake has never disappointed at the met but I think it’s safe to say she won this one.
Billie Eilish
Everything about this is correct historically with the exception of the colors. I wish it wasn’t quite so pastel and that there was something more happening with the skirt but the corset the hair and the gloves are all gorgeous and on brand for the Gilded Age. Billie combined her personal fashion and the theme perfectly. Congrats girl
Shawn mendes

As an outfit I don’t like it but in following the themes of the Gilded Age he did good. He had the frock coat, the long silhouette but some colour or anything interesting would’ve been nice. But props for not wearing a regular tux.
Sebastian Stan

He’s here on a technicality. And that technicality is colour, he delivered this is garish in a great way. But honestly take a moment and look at him, that’s a hottie. 
Cardi B
She has the long silhouette, she has the corset, she has the hair correct in a way that flatters her. The colours look gorgeous on her and the fit absolutely complements her. I think this is a very good modern interpretation and I expected nothing less of someone who arrived with Donatella Versace and Cardi always had good met looks.
Olivia Rodrigo
This is a controversial take, but the exposed shoulder and neck matches very well with the trends that were present in the 1890s. The gloves are on brand for the Gilded Age and Olivia. 
Kourtney kardashian
Do I like her outfit?? absolutely not. But it does catch one of the major fashion themes of the gilded age whether or not she knew that. Allegedly she’s wearing one of Travis‘s shirts and it was modified to fit her which is an almost exact replication of a Gilded Age era theme. So congrats i guess??? She may have been the best dressed kardashian/Jenner at least when it came to theme. 
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Fall
Music beginning to play directed the crowds attention from their conversations back to the ice rink. The parents and family and friends cheered loudly as they watched the 6 year old's skate out onto the ice. Whispers over how cute they all looked in their hockey gear: surnames written boldly on the back of their jerseys over their player number, helmet on to their once neatly tied hair, stick in hand as they lined up on their respective lines for the second time.
It was the beginning of the second period and Toronto’s under 7s team were winning 2-0 and Shawn and Olivia, his wife of 5 years, couldn’t be more proud of how well their baby girl had played. She’d scored the first goal and also assisted in the second goal.
“Papai, look.” Joshua, their two year old son, said hitting Shawn on the shoulder as he tried to show him the game he was playing on Olivia’s phone. He sat on Olivia’s lap as they watched the game. The crowd of parents there for Toronto’s team all stood up and roared praise at Daniella Mendes who scored another goal just a couple of minutes before the end of the second period.
Shawn’s grin beamed from ear to eat but slowly disappeared along with everyone else’s as they watched a player from the away team skate at a great speed with Daniella and her friend, Sophie in their path. The two girls in white jerseys were unaware of this other player seeing as they were facing the other direction.
“Daniella, Sophie!” The yells sounded as they tried to prevent the girls from getting hurt on the ice. It’s ironic how people say kids hear everything but when kids actually need to listen all words fell deaf upon their ears. Despite knowing what was about to happen, the gasps from the parents in the stands echoed throughout the rink. Anticipation bubbled as tension built as they waited for the three girls to get back up.
Daniella had the worst of it as it appeared the other player skated straight into her back. She went face first to the ice and slid across the ice from the impact. Sophie also experienced something similar to Daniella’s glide across the ice except she didn’t go very far across the ice compared to her friend. Sophie was quick to stand back up and adjust her jersey so it hung properly; It was as if nothing had even happened with how quick she bounced back up. The other player was also quick to get back up. Unlike Daniella, both these girls and others on the teams had experienced falls and trips during practice and previous game.
“Papai.” Daniella cried as she lay on the ice in shock. Her team of 6 players and their coach was quick to surround her wanting to check she was okay when she hadn’t stood back up.
“Daniella are you okay?” Coach asked as she crouched down to help her sit up.
“Want Papai and mumma.” Daniella cried removing her helmet and mouth guard.
“I’ll go get Shawn and Olivia!” Charlotte, one of the players yelled as she heard her friends cries.
She didn’t have to go very far, however, seeing as Olivia and Shawn were already stepping onto the ice having heard their daughter’s cries. Joshua had been left with Sophie’s mum seeing as she had been sitting next to them. Thankfully, Daniella wasn’t too far away from the boards so it wasn’t much of a struggle for the parents to get to her.
“Hey, hey, you’re okay. I’ve got you Dani.” Shawn whispered into her ear as he scooped her up and pulled her into a hug. Tiny arms wrapped around his neck as tears dropped onto his pink hoodie.
“Are you hurt anywhere honey?” Olivia asked brushing her sweaty hair from her forehead as she pried Daniella away from Shawn’s shoulder so they could talk to her better. The team had been sent to do shooting practice on the other end of the ice to give them some privacy.
“I don’t know Mumma”
“Daniella do you think you can continue playing or do you wanna sit out for the rest of the game?” Coach asked seeing as they had to get the game going again quickly.
“I wanna sit with daddy”
“Are you sure honey? You were playing so well”
“I was?”
“Of course you were. You scored a goal Dani-bear, that’s amazing. You looked super super cool out there on the ice. Are you sure you wanna stop playing?”
“What if I fall again?” She whispered and the parents knew why she truly didn’t want to go on the ice: she didn’t know if she’d fall down again.
“Listen you’re always going to fall over sometimes, even daddy falls down on the floor doesn’t he?” Olivia said causing Daniella to nod and giggle.
“And your on ice so it means it’s a lot slippier and you’ve gone over a year and this was your first big fall wasn’t it? If you ask me that’s really impressive” shawn said trying to get her back into playing not wanting this one fall to ruin her love for the sport.
“Mhm” the girl nodded as she looked at the rest of her team.
“So you’re always gonna have some falls on the ice yeah? But that’s why you have to wear all your gear to stop you getting hurt, your not hurt right now after the fall are you?”
“No”
“So are you feeling like you can go back out there and play?” Coach asked as she stood near listening to the conversation in awe of how strong the bonds were between Daniella and her parents.
“Okay” she nodded looking at her dad. Shawn wore a proud smile on his face as he admired his little girl before pulling her helmet on and holding her stick up to her as she stood up. The two parents made their way off the ice back to their seats where Joshua jumped into Olivia’s lap.
Resuming the game shortly, it wasn’t long before Daniella had the puck and she skating straight for the goal. The stands filled with cheers once again as the scoreboard lit up showing a new number. 3-0 to the U7s Toronto team. The referee blew his whistle not even a minute later causing the rink to echo the parents claps and cheers as the girls skated to the middle. Daniella pulled her helmet off and went over to the boards and waved at her family. Shawn just knew that no matter how many times she’d fall on the ice she had a natural talent for ice hockey and believed nothing could ever stop her from being on the ice.
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16, 17 and 33 :)
16. describe your favourite hoodie. how long have you had it? what makes it unique?
okok i have way to many favourite hoodies asjkbfajlbi i'll do 3
my shawn mendes hoodie because its to big on me but really comfy. i got it in 2016 and i got it cause i couldnt get tickets to his show (i did end up getting tickets..)
my harry styles tpwk hoodie. i think i got it 2 years ago
and currently a comp hoodie i have. i got it in march and theres really nothing special about it. it's like every other comp hoodie i own but theres just something about it that makes me obsessed with it.
17. what's the last thing i ordered online?
food wise? sushi lol otherwise it was i think my crosby jersey
33. headphones or earbuds?
earbuds !
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🎶 Music Tag 🎶
Thanks for the tag @bananno 💙
Five songs you’ve got on repeat right now:
- Satellite by Harry Styles
- Meeting The Master by GVF
- April Fools by Abby Cates
- The Archer by Taylor Swift
- Growing Sideways by Noah Kahan
Last album you listened to all the way through:
The Feeling of Falling Upwards (Live from The Royal Albert Hall) by 5 Seconds of Summer
Any other shows coming up?:
Greta in August and Lauren Daigle in November!
Favorite piece of band merch you own that isn’t GVF related:
Probably my 2018 Shawn Mendes hoodie that's slate blue with cherry blossoms on it or my white 5 Seconds of Summer long sleeve shirt from the Take My Hand tour
Three artists on your gig bucket list:
Noah Kahan
Taylor Swift
Hozier
No pressure tag: @romanticwave @runwayblues @sacredjake
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