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kawataslvr · 15 days

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angst about sanzu? something like childhood friends to strangers to lovers, something sad and romantic...

Summary : angst -> fluff ,, Kanto Manji Timeline .

A/N : it took me so long to answer this, sorry 😭💙

Sanzu knew (name) since the two were born, he was there for every occasion.

Especially when Sanzu got his scars, it was up until Middle school and high school where the two started to drift apart from each other. “Drifting apart” is what you both would like to believe anyways.

Sanzu came to you bruised and injured, something that happened normally.

But he came home excessively bleeding this time, you told him he should be more careful while fighting.. trying to take care of the bleeding man.

Sanzu was just irritated, that was all.

It still doesn’t explain how it lead to such big of a fight, how it led you two to cut off contact completely and ignoring each other for years.

It wasn’t the first time you two argued, but there was certainly something different about that one. Maybe it was because of what was going on around you two, Sanzu and you constantly bickering about his behaviors.

You two were bound to break apart, no mater in what way.

Someone could twist that day a million times and the result would end the same, separate.

Eventually you had moved houses and schools, so you two didn’t run into each other at all for days, weeks, months, .. years.

Eventually you forgot his voice ; his looks.

Yet the diamond scars were engraved into your brain as if they were your own scars.

You had went to go visit your aunt and uncle while you had a break off work, you and your friend were walking around.

You didn’t expect anything special, your friend taking you to a bakery that he really liked.

While he was ordering a pastry for you two, you sat on down and were on your phone to distract yourself from what seemed like too long.

When you heard the bell ring, a pink haired men walked in to pick up his order he made prior.

You glanced up at him, not caring much for what he was doing. Sure, the fact he ordered two boxes of doriyaki was odd.

But it wasn’t any of your business, it wasn’t until he turned around and you got a good look at his face.

Your heart felt a pang of adrenaline, or was it panic? Whichever it was your heart was pounding ; not in the way where you were flushed, but felt something different.

Familiarity? No. It couldn’t be Sanzu, you shouldn’t assume. He had a mask on, you couldn’t even see if he had scars.

This could totally be some random dude that happens to look, a lot.. like Sanzu.

It was like the word was against him, the Pinkette lowering his mask to get a taste of a different pastry.

He probably ordered it to eat on the go, but your instincts made you look up at him. Seeing the diamond scars on his face.

Of course, with the way you kept glancing up at the guy. He looked over at you, shit.

Now you both probably recognized each other, especially with the way his eyes widened whenever he saw you.

You’d be lying if you still weren’t mad because of the argument. It was years ago, but all you ever asked Sanzu for was an apology.

One that you never got, and probably never will. right?

The room felt like it gained a sudden tension from the two of you noticing each other, your friend finally getting his order along with yours.

Sanzu left the store before you two, luckily.

Hopefully you wouldn’t see him again.

You’d be lying if you yourself didn’t notice you started being distracted after you saw Sanzu, he was stuck in the back of your head.

And you fought for so long to keep him out.

It wasn’t like Sanzu was any different, you were in the back of his head the entire time as well.

It didn’t matter anymore, you two aren’t friends.

The next day you had to go run an errand for your aunt, you started heading out to a convenience store near by to pick up some stuff for her.

While you were grabbing a snack you felt a hand on your soulder “(name).” you quickly turned around shrieking a bit at the sudden contact.

Your eyes widened once you saw the one man you’ve been hoping you wouldn’t see again

“do you need something , sir?” You tried to act confused, even if you already knew Sanzu wouldn’t buy it.

He wasn’t an idiot.

“Don’t try that shit on me” he said not missing a beat after you spoke, “can we at least talk? once?” you don’t know what convinced you to say yes.

completely forgetting about those snacks you were picking up and heading over to Sanzu’s place.

“You disappeared without warning.”

“we were on bad terms, I didn’t think to give you one.”

“that doesn’t mean you can just up and leave me (name)!”

you stayed silent, looking down at the grond and not saying much to him.

“I loved you.”

thats where you snapped, where you stood up. “no! no! you can’t just say that! you don’t have the right to!”

Sanzu was taken aback, and offended. “what the fuck do you mean!? i have every right to say that! you left me!”

“You made me think you hated me for so long because of a stupid fight! all because you were annoyed!”

“It wasn’t my fault! you werent any easier either, i never had a chance to talk to you because you were always with someone else!”

“You did the exact same shit! you distanced yourself from me until i couldnt ever reach out to you if i even could!”

“you were the one who blocked me in everything! I thought you didn’t wanna talk!”

“how is that my fault! I had to block you off completely because you were hurting me!”

the room went silent, you both ran out of words. it wasnt like there was anymore to say really, you both let out what you wanted to say.

“I really did love you.” Sanzu let out one final time, he’d never go soft, but he’d be lying if seeing you again didnt resurface his feelings completely negative and positive ones.

it wasnt like you were any different, all of your feelings and memories of Sanzu came right back up the second you saw him again at bakery. Wishing you hadn’t gone with your friend at all.

“I did too.” you sighed, breathing heavily from the yelling and the tears that were brimming at your eyes, trying to hold them back.

“Listen, im really sorry, for everything. For today, and for the argument that happened all those years ago.”

You couldn’t take the overwhelming emotion of it all, everything was driving you crazy. Tears falling down your eyes and dripping like a waterfall.

Sanzu quickly came to your side and hugged you tightly, “I’m sorry too..” you hicced. You’d been so emotionally suffocated for so long, you weren’t one to let out your emotions out infront of someone so randomly but you couldnt hold it in anymore.

“(name).” you looked up at Sanzu , he wiped the tears from your eyes. His tone so soft, something nobody but you would ever hear.

“Give me one more chance.”

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