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theyellowhue · 1 year

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locker room talk but its just the homies gushing about their big boy feelings

Phayu: let him gush, its the first time he has thoughts beyond his dick.

Prapai: what can i say, love changed me for the better

Saifah: why is this bitch not at work??? its midday on a weekday, doesnt he have a 9-5???

I hoped that they would have utilized Phayu and Saifah's brohood with Prapai. 3 adult men talking it out like tweens in a sleepover.

#saifah is the best side character #the amount of times he has cockblocked phayurain and was smug about it is the life force that keeps me going #hoped that he cockblocked prapaisky too #its like a running gag so much so that even he is getting tired of always running into the couples in compromising situations #love in the air #love in the air the series #prapaisky

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thescrumptiousstuffs · 9 months

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Dangerous Romance Episode 2

In which round 2 of Kanghan versus Sailom continues with Sailom proving to be as steadfast and whipped smart while Kanghan and his bruised ego made multiple attempts to get Sailom to break without success 😂😂

It opens up with Sailom answering maths/physic questions without needing to do any calculations, while simultaneously helping Auto with his homework despite a wonky laptop. Kangham and his cronies (on the other hand) are licking their wounds and tries to erase all evidence of the Sailom-Kanghan kiss 💋.

It’s ironic then his own buddy (Max) didn’t do so and the video eventually made its way to grandma. Kanghan tries his hardest to flip the narrative by lying to his grandma but grandma (I love her!! Such dignity and poise) with the help of Pimfah is already aware of Kanghan’s bullying nature (this is why women in most Thai BL dramas are the superior species 🤫) and not only gave a much needed kick to Kanghan’s ego (hah! She made him apologise to Sailom 😝) but also delivered the ultimatum to the useless home school teacher, invest on more CCTV to make the school safer AND offered Sailom to tutor his unrepentant grandson 🫣

Sailom tries to avoid taking up the offer, but with debt mounting and a carefree brother, he took the job (and as a bonus continues to frustrate a seething Kanghan 😅) - also Kanghan brought it on himself by trying to sabotage Sailom’s work - Sailom continues to have some of the best line in this episode “Haven’t you heard of the Cloud system, the work is uploaded automatically.” “From now on, call me Tutor Sailom 😁”

He tries his hardest to teach an uninterested Kanghan but ultimately gave up and return the money to Kanghan (not before delivering a much deserved punch to the latter’s face! - urghh Kanghan made a douchebag move, basically framing Sailom as a pervert preying on young children, and making the former lose his tutoring job of teaching primary school students) - I think it’s also quite telling it’s the way Kanghan besmirch his reputation that finally made him angry enough (not the bullying, not the rudeness and how Kanghan threw his money to Sailom etc) - and this is consistent with what we know of Sailom’s character. He has never been tempted (yet) with money, not if it means sacrificing his honesty and integrity. And so for Kanghan to sully his reputation as a provocation, well, I don’t blame him for giving a shiner to Kanghan.

We finished the episode with Kanghan deciding to threaten Sailom with an empty gun to comply with his demands but it ended up with him saving Sailom from a beat up/torture (can’t believe those thugs almost used an iron to burn his arms!! 😱).

And this (in my humble opinion) is where we see the turning point for the Sailom-Kanghan’s interaction. While the latter can be a douchebag and a bully, he is not exactly an evil person (just terribly immature and spoilt). Finding Sailom who carries himself with dignity; breaking down, scared and crying to the point he hugged his not-friend is likely an eye opener for him - realising how hard Sailom works in school and his side jobs to pay off his debt while still maintaining his integrity (we see all the flashbacks of what Kanghan did to inconvenient Sailom, and while the latter always push back he never retaliated…)

It should be interesting to see how their friendship (and love) blossom now that Kanghan has declared to Sailom, Saifah and himself again that Sailom is his tutor (I think both Sailom AND Kanghan looked stunned when he said that 😅)

25/08/2023

* Saw a tiny smidgen interaction of Guy and Nawa! I think it will be a riot once they get their act together! 😉

**Also - 💕 grandma and Pimfah, they both love Kanghan but very much aware of his shortcomings - Pimfah “I don’t want him to be more astray.” 🤌 and Grandma not giving an inch to Kanghan 😏)

#dangerous romance #episode 2 #kanghansailom #perth tanapon #chimon wachirawit #view benyapa #aj chayapol #euro thanaset #pepper phanuroj #papang phromphiriya #pawin kulkaranyawich #marc pahun

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miss0atae · 7 months

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It's again Dangerous Romance day and we're on episode 10 ! I was a bit anxious about this one because of the trailer and I was right to feel this way because I had to see Kang and Sailom experience this little heartbreak. I think the hardest part was when Kang let go of Sailom's hand and asked him to leave the house. The rage he felt also when he went back to the empty room with just the umbrella while Sailom was leaving under the heavy rain. I felt for them so much at that moment ! The end of the episode was also really difficult to watch. Kang was torn between his love for Sailom and for his dad. It was sad when they both cried after Kang saved Sailom. The inner conflict, the soft side of Kang, Sailom's faith in Kang and their love... I'm really attached to both of them. Perth is really acting well and I like how Kang is still growing as a character despite having flaws and insecurities.

I'm glad we got Nawa and Guy who gave us a bit of comic relief in the episode. The tone was much darker and gloomy this time so it was really nice to have these two give us a sweet moment. Again, they don't have enough screentime. It's my only complaint.

Kang's dad finally explained to Sailom why he acts this way towards his son. It was a good thing that Sailom also told him how Kang felt neglected. Fortunately, Kang's dad admitted he hasn't been the best father but he does really love his son. The beginning of the episode made us think Kang and his father would be able to have a better relationship... If only he wasn't shot by Saifah, supposedly.

I think we all know Saifah didn't do it. Kang's grandmother really nailed it when she said that he may be coerced into admitting he shot Kang's dad. I guess it was to save Name in some ways or maybe it has something to do with the loan. The writing isn't exactly the best with all of this. It does bring drama but I don't really like it. I'm sure they could have found a better idea. I don't know what exactly but the pacing wasn't right for me.

However, it doesn't really matter because again I really like watching this new episode. I'm sure the next one will also be interesting.

#my thoughts #thai series #gmmtv series #thai bl #dangerous romance #dangerous romance the series #bl drama #bl series #kanghan x sailom #sailomkang #kang x sailom #sailom x kanghan #kangsailom #episode 10

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jenyifer · 7 months

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Soo dangerous romance things. I love Chimon of course cause he’s part of the OffGun Family so been watching and I have thoughts

I don’t love that Kang waited until Sailom was crying naked in the shower to redeem things with him. I understand Kang had to make the decision he loved Kang more than his hatred for Saifah. But he could have made things clear earlier. Poor Sailom is doing his best. Not great decisions but his best with all this pressure on him.

I adore this side ship of Idiot4Idiot GuyNawa they are so precious to me and I wish they had more screen time.

I doubt dangerous romance can fix it’s fundamental problems ep 12. But I’ll give a quick list of what I’d do to change it.

1. No more flash backs to things we have seen in episodes prior.

2. I feel like we should have gotten Saifah or Name’s POV earlier than we did. Would have been much more impactful. I understand doing the fake outs but emotionally connect us up. I love Papang so of course I like him but as a character Saifah is a little better than okay. I’m not terribly upset he’s in jail and I’m not terribly bothered with Name either. Just very middle of the road. Could have been fixed by earlier sympathetic scenes

3. I wish the GuyNawa or any side pairing was worked into KangSailom’s story. You won’t have to make it by much just a little teasing or encouragement. Idk just feels a little disjointed. I think sailom would still be there for the idiot boy Guy with the broken leg even with everything going on. Just feels strange.

#dangerous romance #dangerous romane the series #kangsailom #guy x nawa #perthchimon #marcpawin #Jenny’s watching #guynawa

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bengiyo · 8 months

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Dangerous Romance Ep 8 Stray Thoughts

Last week, Sailom told Kanghan that if he wants to be his lover he has to get with his friends. Sailom told him he couldn’t just use his money for that, so Kanghan tagged along with them to buy supplies. Kanghan tried to be tough, but he’s a rich boy who passed out in the heat. Then the show decided to have Sailom be unsteady on a bus he uses everyday so Kanghan could catch him. Auto suggested Kanghan actually use his money for them since they’re broke, and so Kanghan took them to a club. The police showed up and caught Auto. Kanghan stepped up to help rescue Auto, leading to problems for Kanghan’s dad. Kanghan missed the final point of their football match, but Guy told Sailom to go take care of Kanghan because he and Auto already knew. These two are now official in a moment that was supposed to be cute, but irked me because they made Sailom look dumb again. Meanwhile, Saifah has wormed his way into becoming the grandmother’s caretaker, so he’s definitely going to fuck this up for everyone.

Visually I think Papang and Chimon were a good choice to play brothers.

I need someone who grew up in Asian school systems to explain how the grading system works. In the US, 65 is still a failing grade.

I think I’ll have to ask one of the Thai speakers later if Kanghan did a cute thing with pronouns when they translated “faen-ja” as “boyfie”

Perth and Chimon are cute together. I really hope we get a better show from them next year.

Aren’t their rooms connected by a bathroom? Why would Kanghan hide behind a curtain? This boy is so dumb it’s painful.

Okay, he’s not as dumb as I thought and got out on his own. I’m glad Saifah didn’t find out about them within a day of being around here.

Guy and Nawa want to fuck each other so bad it makes them look stupid. Now they’re feeding each other and excited about their scheduled fight. Oh, boys.

I’m not even sure how I want to read Sailom being frustrated with Kanghan about not showing up for tutoring. This show seemingly wants it to be about Kanghan’s ability to change and the impact on the romance, but for me I’m still focused on the debt looming over Sailom and Name’s willingness to inflict violence on them for that.

Curious about the grandmother buying the expensive medicine for Saifah. I half-expected him to consider stealing the medicine and selling it to use a generic instead, but now he’s faced with someone choosing to be kind to him.

Yes, let’s check in with Pimfah to reassure the audience that Sailom is misunderstanding Kanghan and he should maybe not be mad.

The cinematography of this apology scene is good, even if I feel like the stakes are constantly shifting in this show.

Oh, right, the windmill analogy.

I do enjoy a training montage.

Glad they didn’t make Perth shave his legs.

The scene work between Ging and Saifah is actually really good.

Is Nawa about to go fight this man in crocs? He’s about to be like ole boy on that Birmingham dock.

Where is my GMMTV variety content of JJ and Euro hanging out and trying restaurants?

Another boy who wants his clothes to smell like his boyfriend. I’m okay with this.

Why is Sailom being precious about intimacy?

I do feel for Kanghan crying in happiness that he achieved something he worked hard for and having someone be proud of him for it.

Why the hell is he paying Saifah in the watch he accused him of stealing? This feels suspect as fuck.

Goddamn. There goes the dad undercutting Kanghan again.

Perth is good whenever the direction is clear.

It’s very weird having the rich boy and poor guy pairing going with the same shit going down in Only Friends with Sand and Ray.

I wonder where these two will run away to. I still don’t think I get Sailom.

Next week: We’re surprised when a card gets canceled while trying to him ‘em up style. Sigh.

It’s really worrisome for me when the best parts of a BL are happening in the side character drama. The best moments this episode were mostly around Saifah, because I just don’t get what’s going on with Sailom.

#dangerous romance #dangerous romance the series #thai bl #bl series #Ben watches

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boysbeloving · 2 years

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okay so i've watched 11 episodes of LITA in 3 days and have much thoughts/comments to share

this post is technically for @skamskada (coz you would just NOT stop sending me pics of payu person in my DMs [♥️] and that's what made me finally watch the show....and...this would be too long for our chats lol) but all y'all can give it a try too! <3

the payu-rain arc opening credit song is really good actually... i....quite like it

payu person's voice is so soft and nice and sweet!!!!

YOU DID NOT WARN ME ABOUT THE CRINGEFEST THAT IS PAYU SINGING TO RAIN IN THE KITCHEN!!! i fast forwarded that section....i just couldn't sit through it good god....come to think of it, i skipped zee singing in cutie pie the series too...i just couldn't take it lol..second hand embarrassment is too strong... (i love when nunew sang in the series...also..it made sense in the plot..and he has an angelic voice...umm...same with nanon in bad buddy...i didn't cringe at his singing...and ofc jeff and barcode were also fine in kp....all these guys are singers irl anyway and them singing fit the plot of their respective series....but i don't think i'd be able to handle anyone else singing in bl series) payu person sings well though! maybe if he has uploaded some covers etc on youtube i could listen to those??!! does he sing sing?

what was the whole kidnapping plot?? i was laughing at it a bit lol

also...unpopular opinion maybe but i feel payu person needs some more acting practice when it comes to emotions like anger or frustration, etc. he...seemed to struggle to convey it convincingly with his eyes and dialogue delivery and body language...but this is a personal opinion

rain person acts well! he's got all emotions pat down...and he portrays cuteness and annoyingness very convincingly

PAYU'S HAAAAAIIIIRRRRRR....just...PAYU'S HAAAAAIIIIRRRRRR

OMG PAI-SKY IS SOOOOOOO GOOOOOODDDDDD LIKE WTF EVEN???!!!!

i LOVE the storyline....the actors are BRILLIANT and they look so good together????!!!! i enjoy their chemistry

sky person acts SO well....whenever he's triggered i can't stop myself from crying i feel A LOT for him :(((( and i LOVE it when he's not giving any fucks to Pai lol! and when he turns it on OMG IT IS MOTHERFUCKING ON

i love sky person's eyes <3 they are.....such a pretty colour...esp when the sunlight hits them in the scene where pai-sky are by the side of the road after they've had breakfast (me being struck by sky person's eye colour reminded me of me being struck by brian kinney's [or gale harold actually lol] eyes in the light...and ....it intrigued me so much! i also ABSOLUTELY love misha's and jensen's respective eye colours and cillian murphy's eyes too uuuufff AND luca marinelli's eyes...wowoowowwow)

the sex scenes were AWESOME!!! the moans, the dialogue, the looks, the MOVEMENTS, brilliant brilliant brilliant! very very special shoutout to 2 lines: a) payu saying "i'll make you the best rider" in episode 6 sex scene and b) sky saying "p'pai hurry up" in episode 11 sex scene....THE WAY THESE DIALOGUES WERE DELIVERED AND THE NEEEEEEDDDDD DRIPPING FROM EVERY SYLLABLE UUUUFFFFF (i have gone back and listened to these 2 lines in particular many many times...they just do it for me)

ngl i'm very invested in the pai-sky storyline but if a short scene of payu-rain comes in the episode i'm suddenly hit by how much i miss seeing them!

i really like the actor who plays Sig...he generally plays comic relief characters? he was in cutie pie too...I REALLY LIKE HIM....it seems he improvises a lot and is very competent at it...he can pick up on the energy of the scene and the dynamics of the characters and fits himself into it SO WELL (and sometimes also takes the lead in navigating a scene...like the thread tying ceremony) not intrusive but also leaves a lasting impression....also..his face is nice :) if i'm not wrong i think he's starring in an upcoming sci-fi bl as a lead! good for him...well deserved <3

i like the siblings....payu's brother saifah and pai's younger siblings too...they're sweet

the sound editing of the series is....so bad! omg i can hear every movement of the shirt and sometimes the voices get low and sometimes loud like what is happening oh no..it's annoying :(

as an armpit enthusiast (among others) i'm also very disappointed by the lack of armpit exposure...i have found only 3 scenes with decent full armpit exposure...i'm hoping this will get rectified in the remaining episodes (how many are there in total anyway? 14?)

i haven't watched any reality content of the LITA boys but you've told me time and again that payu person is really cute.....<333

i'll maybe slowly make my way through all that stuff...i think i'll enjoy watching all of them

#love in the air #love in the air the series #lita #bl drama #bl series

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blglplus · 1 year

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My Top 10 BL’s of all time (and also 2022 because I’m new)

So I only discovered BL this year and what an incredible year of TV watching it has been. This year was difficult and I needed the escape. I first got obsessed with Heartstopper and then someone suggested I check out Thai BL and she was a goddamn genius. I had already been reading a lot of M/M romance novels and watching all the western queer shows I could like Heartstopper, Love, Simon, Young Royals etc. But the absolute joy and madness of BL knows no equal.

So here is my personal top ten BL’s that I watched this year. Meaning many of these are from previous years it’s just that I only discovered them this year. So the title of this list could be very misleading

1. 2gether - this was the first one I watched and will always have a special place in y heart. It was like watching high production fanfiction and I’m INTO it. It loses some points for being homophobic/femmephobic towards Green of course. Also it had a LOT of “sing your feelings” but it was cute, funny and Bright was SO good. Not to mention insanely hot? I even watched Boys Over Flowers because he was in it and ENJOYED it.

2. My Beautiful Man - this one hit me on a personal level and I just loved it. The complexity of the characters and their journeys. The actor who played Kiyoi was incredible! He deserved the award/awards he got. This one had depth in a way that I can’t quite articulate.

3. Seven Days - this was so freaking cute. I watched it because @absolutebl recced it and Phi was right - I have already re-watched bits of it multiple times. The chemistry was on point and again there was a complexity and depth to the characters that was explored really well. Love it. Also I love all the nods to the manga in the filming style, very cool. Phi was also right that you need to ignore the hair.

4. Cherry Magic - how is it possible for one show to be THIS adorable? This is the one I want to show all my friends and family. I was constantly giggling in that shy way you do when you’re texting someone you have a crush on. I loved it.

5. KinnPorsche - how much hotness can one show contain? And I’m not even into dudes very much! Was this show messy and at times illogical? Sure. Did I care? Not at all. I love every single inch of it. I loved the narrative behind it. It was a trip and it was amazing.

6. Semantic Error - this show is perfect. It’s cute, it’s funny, it’s beautifully shot, the leads have great chemistry. Perfect romcom. The uke is so hot!

7. Why R U - I honestly found this show hilarious. I love a neurotic meta thinker (Zon) and Tutor/Fighter had such good chemistry. It got messy towards the end sure. That scene where Zon was freaking out in Saifah’s bed and made a pillow fort was just so funny to me, I can’t explain it. I love them.

8. Love By Chance - the Ae/Pete only cut. Luckily I was warned by the internet about the rapiness of the side couples in this one so I skipped lots of them (though I still watched Pond’s story and Tin/Can). Ae and Pete are so freaking cute and Perth’s acting as Ae is incredible. I can’t believe he was only 16 at the time! When they look at each other I get all warm like drinking a hot chocolate. It’s so freaking cute. Also I love the read of Ae as demi.

9. We Best Love - No 1 for you. This was cute as was it’s sequel. Great chemistry, solid story, excellent.

10. The RamKing cut of My Engineer. If we were taking the whole show into account there are other shows I love more for sure, but I love this side couple SO MUCH. Even though I sort of enjoy the D/s elements of seme/uke I love it when there is less seme/uke or the lines are blurredand both characters take both roles and it feels more honestly queer. Also I’m a big fan of the silent, tough, loyal type that Ram is in this one. Plus the longing glances! And the flowers! Just so cute! I’ve already watched their cut at least 3 times through. I quickly started fast forwarding over the others when I was watching it.

Honourable Mentions:

Bad Buddy - this was great and solid plus I love that they are explicitly verse and some queer stuff is addressed. Not to mention side GL couple! We love! More of this please (though can we have some that aren’t femme please for the love of flannel?) It didn’t make the list because it just didn’t quite make me squee as hard as some of the ones above.

Love in the Air but only Payu/Rain. I feel like the dubcon with Payu/Rain is less dubious because of the non-verbal signals going on there. Consent doesn’t have to be just verbal - some people struggle with verbal. But maybe I’m just justifying this to myself haha, but hey, I won’t yuck your yum, don’t yuck mine. Plus Rain is hilarious, like honeslty hilarious. I mostly hated Prapai/Sky. The diary reading was especially terrible.

Secret Crush on You - yes it’s cringey. I love it anyway. I love the friends (especially Daisy of course - I wish Daisy’s story was more fleshed out!). I LOVE the chemistry and that there are seme/uke vibes but Toh, the uke, is hella into it! Love Jao/Sky. This show is happy and comforting and I can skip the extra painful bits!

I told the sunset about you - this one gave me too many feelings and it hurt. But it was beautiful and great also. The one I would show to my arty friends.

2moons2 but just the side couples. Especially Beam/Forth, so cute!

What I’m watching now:

I am participating in this strange antiquated tradition of watching TV shows AS THEY AIR with only one episode dropping per week! It’s madness! Absolute madness! I’m currently watching: Between Us (Win is so hot!), My School President (so cute!), Never Let Me Go (so exciting!), The New Employee, Ameiro Paradox and Gap: the series (I will watch all the GL dammit).

I’m also part way through:

The Eclipse

Be Loved in House (I do)

planning to start eternal yesterday because apparently I like pain?

#top ten list #top ten bl #bl ramblings #2022 top ten bl but really top ten of all time because I'm NEW

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absolutebl · 2 years

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Hi, I hope you're well.

I'm asking this for my friend who recently started watching bl. Can you recommend some enemies-to-lovers bl? Other than Bad Buddy

Gosh there are so many enemies to lovers. I thought I had a post for this but I guess not.

I’m tempted to draw a distinction between enemies to lovers and one sided crush with a massive tsundere character. So, for example, We Best Love is not strictly enemies to lovers, because only one of them thinks they're enemies, but Semantic Error is, because mostly they both are in it to fight. But I’m lazy, so I’m just gonna pick the top 10 off my spreadsheet labeled E2L and call it a day. Presumably, you can decide on the quality of your own enemies to lovers desires?

Top 10 Enemies to Lovers BLs!

1. Semantic Error (Korea - Viki)

Korea hits it entirely out of the Park by doing a university set BL with everything we might expect done exactly right, their signature quality executed perfectly, and added bonus good story, great pacing, and fantastic chemistry. You cannot ask for more from a BL, let alone a KBL.

2. We Best Love (Taiwan - grey)

They enemies, but really only one of them cares because he such a tsundere fucker. (We love him for it.) WBL successfully managed to pick up and combine the best features of Korean, Thai, and Japanese BL as it exists right now. Couple that to the insane chemistry from the leads, and we have one of the greatest BLs of all time, cooking to a recipe I doubt anyone else will ever be able to replicate since only Taiwan is this flexible. (I consider WBL 2 parts as one whole.)

3. Bad Buddy (Thailand - YouTube)

GMMTV’s flagship BL started 2022 on a BANG (okay no actual banging but you know what I mean), starring heavy hitters Ohm & Nanon in a pitch perfect university Romeo & Romeo masterpiece that will give you domesticity meets pain whiplash throughout and jet lag at the end. Great production values, killer acting, and some conscious effort to correct for half a decade of Thai BL’s anti-queer mistakes. It’s fantastic.

4. Why R U? (Thailand - Viki)

Technically both couples start out as enemies. It’s pretty clear Fighter is hella gay for Tutor and just can’t work his shit out, and that Saifah has a crush on Zon, but it takes them all a while to flirt their way into lovers. The story on this one is messy, but you can’t fault the chemistry, and is is the best high heat BL we’ve ever gotten from Thailand. (Trigger: hazing)

5. SOTUS (Thailand - Netflix)

Another one where the set up is enemies but the uke is just a massive tsundere who’s walls need to be scaled and shelled - as opposed to the standard practice of chipping away slowly. This is the BL that launched a hundred BLs. No literally, It was SOTUS’s international success that pretty much built the Thai BL industry into the juggernaut it is today. People have baggage around SOTUS, I have nostalgia. (Trigger: hazing)

6. HIStory 3 Trapped (Taiwan - Viki)

Basically the definition of enemies to lovers. This is a cop + the mafia man he is chasing but WAIT, they fall in love. Added bonus side couple: assassin and nerd cop ALSO falling in love. It’s great. All the leads are stellar. Its high heat, fun action, and a bit of a mystery drama but pretty about all of it. My only warning is that the main couple doesn’t entirely end up together, it’s implied, but... amorphous ending.

7. My Day the series (The Philippines - grey)

The set up on this one is enemies (also boss/employee) and they don’t like each other to start. But that gets resolved pretty quickly. And then they are some of the cutest, hottest, and best boyfriends ever. This is an under-appreciated BL, IMHO.

8. My Sweet Dear (Korea - Viki)

I liked this one a lot better than most. Strict professional rivals (chefs) in a very enemies to lovers BL - to the point where we mistrust the sincerity of the seme because he’s so very in it to win. I kinda like that, because kitchens are hotbeds of drama, and I like a seme with some sinister edge. But be warned, it means the whole romance comes off as a little disingenuous.

9. You Are Ma Boy AKA EM LÀ CHÀNG TRAI CỦA ANH (Vietnam - YouTube)

Another BL were the uke is just super tsundere and the seme kinda acts the part of an enemy in order to get what he wants (the uke). The leads in this drama crackle on screen together and I kinda adore them. Is there angst? Nope even what could have been angst (a gay idol) doesn’t materialize, it’s just cuties in a cafe confusing each other with cat & mouse games. No one has seen this BL, and you should really give it a try.

10. My Engineer (Thailand - YouTube)

The main couple is enemies to lovers. But no one watches this for the main couple. Still if that’s what you want these two do it. They are even linguistic enemies. I really only like them because their language use is so bonkers, but the cast is solid and there’s a lot to enjoy about this bit of multi-couple insanity.

Some others to consider, not all of these might be strictly enemies to loves and some of them are not good, but they are all BL.

Capture Lover (China - Viki)

Mr. CEO is Falling in Love with Him (China - grey) = bromance-ish

Because of You (Taiwan - Viki) - trigger: kidnapping

TharnType (Thailand - Viki) - trigger: rape

Kiss Me Again the PeteKao cut (Tailand YouTube) - just messy

It’s great but are they really enemies?

Be Loved In House: I Do (Taiwan - Viki)

Light On Me (Taiwan Viki)

Addicted (China - Viki) - trigger: kidnapping

Not Me also started as enemies to lovers, but it's airing right now, so I can't rec it since I don't do that until something is completed.

Codicil: List is updated as of Mar 2022. Subject to change as new BLs appear, my preferences evolve, or I get arbitrary and whimsical.

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#thai bl #korean bl #taiwanese bl #pinoy bl #vietnamese bl #bl trope #romance trope #enemies to lovers #Semantic Error #We Best Love #Bad Buddy #Why R U?#SOTUS #HIStory 3: Trapped #My Day the series #My Sweet Dear #You Are Ma Boy #My Engineer

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mejomonster · 2 years

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Mention: the Shipper*

I’d rec this with a few Major caveats: 1. You enjoy anime where the stories subvert and play with usual tropes, make fun of genres and comment on them (think Nozaki Kun, Ouran Host Club, School Rumble, aka my favorite ‘slice of life’ anime growing up). 2. You are therefore aware of some of the usual shipping-culture and bl tropes including the Messier Not-good ones* (the body switching creates one very almost-brothers situation which I found Yikes but also imagine the show may have done because that Yikes trope is unfortunately in older bl and still bl anime - I would have preferred this part not there, although Ouran Host Club handled it to about the same degree), despite this I think Saifah’s sister in Why R U was Much worse and handled with less care 3. Either you’ve seen Lovely Writer or you grasped the kinds of tropes it was both using and calling out (I can never get myself to finish LW as its just TOO fluffy for me, but it makes a lot of good commentary on tropes). 4. You go into this treating it as a teen slice of life with the main character being a girl who’s a shipper - this is NOT primarily a bl. In that sense it reminds me most of Dear Diary cdrama combined with a slice of life anime that points out tropes like one of the anime mentioned above. I enjoyed this drama a lot - the shipper main character is a relatable high schooler if you ever used to write that messy wattpad/fanficnet/friends texting fanfic teens tend to write. She has the fiction she thinks is going on, versus the reality of who the people she’s writing about really Are - and how there’s a lot more to them then she knew. She’s got a guy friend who reminds me a lot of the guys who hung out with my friends in high school, a girl best friend she’s kind of in love with which I also remember having in high school lol (this show should’ve ended gl but i guess we aren’t There yet), and the way fanfiction is used in this story is particularly nice narratively. At heart, shipping is valuable to our protagonist because its how she met and bonded with her best friend, how they connect to each other by writing when they can’t be with each other, how they hope for their own lives and how its not really about the people shipped so much as the connection with friends you make by sharing hobbies together. When she does ‘assume’ things about real people, the plot is about how wrong she was, about being in their shoes, about how much they were really going through, about how real life is nothing like fanfiction and fanfiction shouldn’t ever be assumed as similar to reality, how you need to cherish your friends, how you need to cherish your own life - all really good messages for teenagers, for shippers especially young ones in fandom. In a lot of ways I think this show is made for shippers/teens in fandom and to touch on their lives and lessons, the way Lovely Writer touches on bl genre tropes and Ouran Host Club touches on a bunch of harem and yaoi tropes. This is a good show to turn on for ridiculous setup of supernatural meets mundane in High Comedy Slice of Life about a group of teenagers. Again, the main focus really is on this pair of girl best friends and life lessons they learn. There’s a bl romance that is handled Well but is 1. only a side plot and 2. one of them dies although its expected. Also, this is Mostly High Comedy but when it goes to tragedy/angst it COMMITS. You will cry for the main protagonist, for her friends. The plot seems all funny at first - with the setup being two teens ‘dying’ in a motorbike accident only for the Angel of Death (Jennie) to realize she made a mistake and send them back to life in the wrong bodies. But that death comes back, just like the main girl in the wrong body causes a lot of pain to her parent and her best friend. By the time its ending you realize no one is getting a free ride, no one is coming out of this without some heart ache. Which again reminds me of Ouran Host Club that also made me cry. This show is a live action mix of School Rumble romance and misunderstandings, Ouran Host Club commentary, and Death Note reality. It is foremost a teen girl slice of life drama that is reminiscent of the anime I used to love, so if that appeals to you, its worth a watch. But its very much an oddball - I hope it didn’t market as bl because its Not (although if it drew in teenage shippers that IS the audience the story is about).

I think its biggest appeal will be the same audience as Dear Diary cdrama but with a younger age skew (some parts of it I suspect a wattpad fanfic author who texts friends will just Relate to in a way me, who was a teen when people were still using fanfiction.net and writing fanfiction in notebooks they’d give to friends, just won’t relate to, I also suspect the tropes this show calls out skew toward the tropes this generation of teens is seeing more of - versus the anime I listed that covered the tropes of That Time). Similar in tone to Lovely Writer, a show trying to say a lot within the Hilarious premise, with a heart that might make you tear up when things get real. Biggest standout aspect is the girl best friends who love each other a whole lot. This is definitely one where you watch the first episode and decide if it resonates with you or not. Its well executed for what it’s trying to do, but its going for something particular.

Warnings: 1 character death, 1 character at serious risk of dying (aka while its slapstick comedy for most of it the angst does hit and exist), gl ship that is explored but not endgame, girl feels something for boy she likes while in boy’s brother’s body, topics addressed include real life shipping, multiple characters grieving, topics addressed also include some teen relevant issues.

#the shipper #rec list #unlike lovely writer i could handle this show because when it gets grounded? its Very realistic #whereas lovely writer always felt Slightly Unrealistic to me at least up to ep 8 #also i think Why R U tried to say something about shippers with Safians sister #but Failed very bad. because 1 it was too weird a premise. 2 she never was forced to grow/confront what she did wrong #whereas The Shipper Actually has these fangirls confront why in real life ships you stay the Fuck out of ppls lives #and realize you know NOTHING about them. as shown by how wrong the main characters assumptions all were #and how she made things worse even when she thought she'd learned more. because its NOT her life #while i dont get RL shipping i know theres teen fangirls out there shipping bands #and these are good lessons for a show to point out

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kellerkuschelassel · 2 years

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my half-comprehensible thoughts on Enchanté the series bc it is currently 4 am and I can't sleep and am therefore incredibly bored. I finished the series a week ago, so idk if I'll remember all of it.

The Characters: I liked the protagonists alright, their dynamic was nice and believable, Akk's sisters and Sun were lovely side characters and I could not keep from grinning whenever Saifah appeared, predictably so. He is a sweetheart.

The parents were fairly interesting and I wish we would have had more insight into their relationship and why they decided to split up.

The rest of the characters was just creeps (Phupha did deserve a better plot line/redemption arc tho).

The Plot: Ok?? I'm not gonna be able to give anything but a vague critique of this because I couldn't write a better plot if you forced me too, but here's my sauce.

1. The ending felt rushed and sudden, but oh well.

2. It's been a while since I've had a glimpse of the Little Prince, but I think the themes it includes could have been worked more (seemlessly) into the story.

2.1 There's this whole thing about growing up making you lose sight of the 'truth', and, by extension, your own truth - that which is close to your heart. We got to see a bit of that through Theo having to learn to let go of his romantic ideals that he had projected onto his parents from childhood vs Akk having to learn not to deny himself his feelings. Theo got lost in the surreal hope of reuniting his parents by the end and had to have Akk ground him in reality. Akk was struggling with other people's expectations of Theo and their relationship and needed to be reminded (in part by Sun) that he was good enough and that's it.

They had been best friends when they were kids and both of them had put just as much care into their relationship since Theo moved back to Thailand. "One only sees well with the heart", as written by Saint-Exupéry, is often understood to mean: Seeing through the unbiased, unrestricted eyes of a child is to truly know others, as well as yourself. Our protagonists needed that reminder to get the fuck back on track Where am I going with this

2.2 Akk was also a very obvious reflection of the fox in the Little Prince. From what i gather, that was to drive home the fact that relationships take mutual effort, time and patience.

It would have been interesting to see these themes portrayed through other characters and types of relationships other than romantic.

Final Rating: All in all, it brought me about the same kind of joy that a mildly interesting movie about the road to Canossa in history class would bring me (it wasn't not intriguing). I also gotta give it to the writers, I did have a laughing fit for a whole day at some point because the dialogue was so full of corn

5/10

Edit: This post came off kinda negative which I didn't intend for it to be (I know I don't need to justify my subjective view of this, but it feels shitty to leave this post like this). I wouldn't recommend Enchanté to friends or sth and it did have potential to be better, but I don't hate the series and it did have some incredibly sweet moments. I'm just happy if the cast and crew had fun doing it.

#enchanté the series #i think a cat was just whining outside are you ok my boy do i need to step into the snow for you king #side note do you think saint-exupéry was a furry #ngl i read a bit of the parts in little prince with the fox again for this and i am SHIT at interpreting. what do you mean antoine #if u loved the series good for u. genuinely. ignore this and have fun <3 #its 5 am now help can the birds stop scrreaming

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kaiitykuppycake · 3 years

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Why R U The Series is one of the best BL dramas out there and it's about almost nothing.

and it was a trip. A great one. One we are not soon to forget in our trails on the BL spectrum. I watched this whole show with my good friend and partner in BL crimes @ahhhnorealnamesallowed

THIS IS ALL MY OPINION AND MY THOUGHTS ON THE SHOW. WE JUST FINISHED IT AND I HAVE THOUGHTS FOR DAYS.

*SPOILERS AHEAD* (kinda minor)

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

The Plot: Okay, this is gonna be fast and loose. This show is a slice of life so therefore it has almost no plot (at least nothing over arching and complex) and it only centers around a bunch of kids going to university and most of them falling for each other. Okay, I'm getting ahead of myself. Zon has a sister, Zol who has been writing fanfiction about him and an upperclassman, Saifah, whom she saw him kissing by accident. When asking her to stop writing, he thinks he's cursed himself. This spirals him into a notion that ha's in a BL novel. On top of that, he is tasked with being a musical act with Saifah for the charity concert for the school (faculty?) soccer team. Hilarity and soft romantic stuff ensue as they prepare with Saifah teaching Zon guitar. On the other hand, Tutor is a sweet boy that is nice to everyone (except Fighter in the beginning) and helps anyone who needs it. His family is in heavy debt and he works to earn his own money and pay for school any way he can, especially with tutoring his schoolmates. He is good friends with HwaHwa whom he has known for years. He has caught the eye of his upperclassman Fighter whom he met as a freshman. Fighter is a shy tough boy who needs to get his grades up and has a big crush on Tutor and doesn't know what to do with it. His father has him dating Hwa, whom he doesn't love, but she loves him. The two navigate their feelings and sassy, steamy and emotional things ensue.

The couples: Fighter and Tutor are up there with my favourite BL couples of all time. Up there with the ranks of DeanPharm and WatTine. Their chemistry was so ON POINT and ORGANIC I could have believed Saint and Zee had been grown in the most wholesome garden known to man, it was just THAT believable. Their story starts with some friction and MAJOR sexual tension. Like so much that it's acted on once or twice in a couple of scenes before they even confess their feelings. It's valid of course because Fighter is too unsure of his feelings for Tutor so while they're getting close to being hot and heavy, he tends to blow it off as "teasing" *eye roll* which is its own can of worms, especially with how it fucks with Tutor's emotions in general. All in all, their coupling happens and once it does, you will treasure every moment of it. Every. Steamy. Moment. Honestly, these scenes were so good it was bordering softcore p*rn. I'm not kidding. Did I also mention their duality? Oh yeah. Tutor tops whenever he wants to and he has Fighter wrapped around his finger once they begin their relationship proper. It's one of the best parts seeing Fighter doing his job as a top but then Tutor throwing us a curve ball and rolling Fighter over to do the same. *chef's kiss* Refreshing.

Saifah and Zon started with intrigue and ended with adorable. It felt earned even though they didn't have much drama to wade through, at least not as much as FighterTutor. They have a whole sequence of them going on a "date" to get a guitar pic and stuff to make one into a bracelet for Zon as Saifah teaches him how to play. It felt awkward and out of place with the lack of development their relationship had at this point, but they were leading up to it so it ends up working out. Their confession is full of awkward and ADORABLE wholesome energy. This whole couple's arch is so innocent and wholesome as they become more comfortable. Where FighterTutor can't keep their hands off each other, SaifahZon can't keep their eyes off one another. Do you want soft hand touches and forehead kisses without steamy make-outs? This couple is for you. I found it a perfect contrast in dynamic and romance compared to Fighter Tutor and it was refreshing when we got time to breathe.

the side couples: Honestly, I wish we had more time to develop and see them more. The actors had great chemistry and worked well together, but they didn't get enough time to develop as couples with all the time being dedicated to the two main couples. I think it's fully valid to stick most of the time to the main couples. that's what people come for, but I found it disappointing because I liked all of them. Here are my thoughts on each: Japan and Tanthai were cute. Blue, Champ and Dew could have had WAY more screen time ESPECIALLY with Champ and Blue which had WAYY more implication than Blue and Dew together. Junior, Natee and Zen are all Zon's friends and served as this series' equivalent of 2gether's Fong, Ohm and Phuak mixed together with both Man and Boss in their loud crackhead energy. They have their own dynamic but with my limited experience with series, they are the closest I could compare. They are all adorable and Zen kind of has a thing for Zol but that doesn't get far...Finally Hwahwa and Day are adorable but only seen a couple of times in the series. While Fighter is "dating" Hwahwa, Day is the main person taking care of her on her birthday and when Fighter dumps her. They're cute but I wish we got more of them.

My biggest con with this show is the fact that the side characters are hard to remember. They come in so randomly sometimes that once they cut to a random side couple like Japan and Tanthai, I had to stop and think whom we were in a scene with. It didn't take long to determine but it felt like we should know, but we didn't right away. This only happened with some characters but it could have been rectified with more time. No ones fault, just a nitpick that doesn't take much away from the overall series for me.

Overall, this series was a wonderful thing to have in my life for the few weeks my friend and I were watching it. It was well shot, SO well-acted, and it was generally beautiful inside and out. I HIGHLY recommend if you want to watch something you can just sit and relax to. It certainly brightened up my days.

#why r u the series #fightertutor #saifahzon #saintzee #review

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tobeornottotc · 4 years

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WHY R U- A SHOW THAT DESERVES MORE LOVE/ATTENTION

Why r u is one of the best shows of 2020 so far and it should stop being seen as not it!! Honestly I know people had issues with directing and some scenes that made no sense/.cringy humour but if you forget about that and focus on the two main couples it’s everything a show should have great acting, chemistry and a good ass storyline that needs time and focus to fully understand, a story that’s actually really structured and planned properly, a show that sets up things slowly but once the flashbacks are all revealed you can understand why each of the characters act the way they do, it’s not even toxic and it’s just both soft and also angsty?? I hate that COVID ruined this show and I won’t stop being petty about it! And I can’t stop praising the cast, directors and writers for their efforts with this show, no one was stiff or acted uncomfortable or censored things too much like some other shows (looking at you GMMTV) and everyone was willing to put in 100% to tell the story properly. I’m honestly annoyed when I think people might have pushed it to the side (you’re free to your opinion I’ll just be salty) so yeh I hope we get more shows like why r u, I hope we get actors like the ones in why r u, I hope we get good music like the ones in why r u. I just want why r u back. I can write essays and essays on why Fighter and Tutor are incredible as a couple, or why Saifah and Zon are just the best thing ever in 2020, even when we had their story messily edited and pushed aside, I can write about the lost potentials for the other couples (even the ones that made no sense) and I can write and write about the subtext of internal homophobia and how it affected everyone in this show and their actions especially Fighter tutor who were in love with each other from the beginning but hid it because of this or how Zon’s novel actually is just a big metaphor for internal homophobia/gay panic and how he learns to embrace it when he finds Saifah and wants to continue to be with Saifah because of how he makes him feel. I can write about Tutor and his character development to let himself be vulnerable and hopeful with life because he didn’t believe he was lucky in life because of circumstance and thought he was doomed to keep fighting all his life when really there all along was someone willing to fight his battles for him because he’s so fucking in love with him even willing to prove it to him by fighting his fathers own views that he thought was the correct path to life (Fighter is just urgh... such a great boyfriend and his character arc was just perfection.) I can write about how these two literally cannot leave each other alone, obsessed with their chemistry and the fact that they want to jump each other every 5 seconds because of all the built up longing and pining. And how that’s why the beach episodes were actually key because it was just them giving onto what they were fighting with since the moment they met each other. They realise from that time together that they didn’t know the real person behind the facade of (I hate you) persona and they both know they are in love. This is why Fighter breaks down and confesses his struggles when a tutor breaks up with him because of his father. Man this show is just!! I’m not joking when I say I can write so much about this show. I just want people to notice this show or keep the hype alive the way we’ve done for Tharn type and others. Because if I don’t see another show like this I’ll be sad and petty forever more. That’s it End of rant/discussion

#why r u #fighter x tutor #saintzee #saifahzon #mii2 #thai bl #please let this show come back #im begging pleaseeee

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thehuns-bubble-tea · 4 years

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So guess who finally wrote the SaiZon essay I promised months ago! @there-is-a-carrot-in-my-ear’s post was the last bit of encouragement I needed so thanks for that lol.

I am going to go episode by episode to talk about all the SaiZon scenes. I am using the official LineTV episodes and some of the translations are a bit weird so I will have to occasionally make assumptions with the dialogue, sorry in advance for that. If I happen to assume wrong or make stretch conclusions forgive me for I only have one brain cell and it’s currently bouncing around my head like a window’s screensaver. I am also going to mention some of the behind the scenes episodes so if you haven’t seen those you might be slightly confused, but I don’t have international links for them so I apologize! Also this ended up being 18 pages long- I AM SORRY.

So let’s start with part one of episode one shall we? The beginning starts off weird as hell, honestly I had forgotten how crack this show was after the last few episodes were so- normal? Anyway we are dropped off in Zon’s dream(???) where he sees Tutor and Fighter being cute, and then an absolute precious Saifah- except it is really weird to start off here. This dream doesn’t seem to belong at the beginning because nothing that sets up this dream has happened yet, which I only realized as I rewatched it. Zon doesn’t know about Tutor and Fighter’s relationship until episode 11 and he doesn’t actually know Saifah yet, so to have Zon have this dream as the literal introduction to the show is a bit of either foreshadowing or referencing the idea that this whole show is a dream/Zol’s novel which I think is quite interesting. I don’t have much else to say about this besides I am incredibly impressed with how well this scene garners interest- it’s like I’m watching for the first time again and I /need/ to understand what is going on. Also the animated Zon freaking out about Saifah getting too close? Mood.

There was no SaiZon part in part two so moving on to part three of episode one! This part starts off with Saifah playing the guitar surrounded by a bunch of girls and Zon walking up from behind, seeing him. As much as I would like to say “love at first sight” this is definitely not that- in fact Zon straight up tells the girls they don’t like each other. Which is fair honestly, these two at the beginning don’t seem to have anything in common. Saifah is an engineering student while Zon is a english(literature???) student so they wouldn’t be able to get close through classes and they don’t seem to share many face value interests (Sai with guitar and soccer, Zon with writing and generally “nerdy” stuff) so it would be easy for them both to write each other off. Definitely not a “I hate him” but more of a “I don’t know him and I don’t want to” kinda situation where unless outside forces brought them together they wouldn’t have even considered entering each other’s lives. So shout out to Tutor and Soda for being mvps! This part also gives us the iconic moment of Zon literally standing on a table to fight Saifah and like??? Hello??? The tension already here is so much- but here’s the thing! Why R U has set up their relationship to be that of “enemies” up to this point, so when you first watch it you’re like “hm Sai is trying to get a rise out of Zon because he thinks it is funny because they hate each other” but what Sai says isn’t necessarily mean. Yes Sai does tease Zon about being bad at everything, but after that he just flutters his eyelashes, calls himself cute, and does that cute little smile up at Zon. There is no real hurt behind his words, if that makes sense? It is very much a teasing jeer at Zon to get a reaction, and the second Zon stands on the table Sai smiles and seems to take pride at the action. He isn’t doing it out of hatred or evil, but more like the joy of seeing Zon riled up. Sai blames his actions on disliking Zon because of reasons they’re currently only alluding to but like- bro get over it? There’s no reason for Sai to act like that if that was his only motive so I call his bluff, he has to already be somewhat interested in Zon. Even if it’s not a crush yet he definitely enjoys Zon’s reactions enough to keep pressing buttons.

Finally the end of episode one with part four. Finally! The, also iconic, punch to kiss scene! Sai is smooching the girl Zon is pursuing, it’s upsetting for Zon and Sai is kinda rude about it- then WHAM. Zon, the absolute unit that he is, just fucking decks Saifah. When I tell you I screamed- This is especially important because the thing that finally makes Zon snap is Saifah’s “no one can like you” comment which is so hurtful and man he’s gonna eat his words you can just /feel/ it already. And the punch is completely valid because what Sai did was shitty and honestly Zon had every right to be mad so great moment 10/10. Then we have Sai try to retaliate and first off he misses like a huge dork and then he kinda trips into Zon which leads to them accidentally kissing. Logistically I don’t know how this happened, but who am I to complain? This is of course also Sai’s first experience with a Zontm reaction and that I think is what causes the shift in Saifah’s head. After that huge exposition piece we have Zon dreaming about Saifah in his bed talking about them being together. All I’m gonna say is- is it gay to dream about your not bro wanting to kiss you? The answer is probably yes.

No SaiZon for parts one or two of episode two, but part three gives us a bit to cover! First off- the elevator line scene where Saifah literally stares at Zon with the absolute best puppy eyes and lovesick smile is peak cuteness, like?? Hello??? This is the perfect example of what I mean when I say SaiZon were never enemies- like I can’t imagine hating someone and then letting them shoulder bump me with a “hi”. That’s not how enemies act, this is more of a “well we haven’t always gotten along but I’m willing to move on, here let’s try again” type of situation and it’s fucking adorable. Sai seems confident in his own teasing way and Zon is confused as heck, which is so valid. Mind you this is also several months after their accidental kiss so any hot blooded emotions surrounding them has definitely dissipated which means there is now room for them to grow and initiate a friendship, which is what I assume Sai is trying to do. This is also the first time we get “my Zon” and I swear everytime I hear it I astral project into another dimension, so there’s that. Also Sai fulling embracing the fact that these girls ship them is peak bi confidence (I read Saifah as a bi character don’t @ me lmao), that I can only wish to have. Like Sai seems to already genuinely like being around Zon, lightly teasing. I say this because nothing he said was a dig at Zon harshly but more like something I would say about my friends to get them to give me a funny reaction and he gets exactly that. Zon gives him a reaction and then as soon as he’s gone Sai has this very pleased smile on his face. It really feels like Saifah has already decided that he wants to have some sort of relationship with Zon, at this point I wouldn’t call it a crush yet but more like a casual friendship. Then we have Zon daydreaming about Sai asking him to be partners for the music competition thing and again I’m going to ask- is it gay to daydream about your not bro pouting and wanting to be partners? The answer is probably yes.

Part four of episode two gave us no SaiZon so we move on to part one of episode three! We get a tiny bit of animated Sai talking about flirting with Zon, Zon freaking out you know- the usual. But then we get the stair scene that haunts me. Sai has committed to calling Zon “my Zon” already and I am here for it. His fucking smile after he says it too- boy is enjoying himself. The two fight over whether or not Zon will play with Sai or not and progressively lean into each other’s spaces as they bicker back and forth. Which is valid- Zon doesn’t even know how to play and then to be asked to play with someone he doesn’t really know or get along with, I’d say no too. Anyway Tutor breaks them up drags Sai to class, but not before Sai can say goodbye to “N’Zon” which just really threw me and Zon to be honest. I love that Sai is fully committed to these nicknames and I love how flustered Zon gets because of them- they’re already starting to fall into an ease with each other. Quick note here Saifah tells Tutor that he likes teasing Zon because it makes him happy, which is kinda cute? We see Sai play around with Tor and Day a bit but the way he is with them is vastly different then when he’s with Zon. Again I wouldn’t quite call it a crush yet- but we’re getting there. For now it seems more like an enamoured fascination with this dork of a human. (also real quick side note but I love Soda and would gladly let her step on me--)

Part two of episode three gives us yet another iconic scene- I have dubbed it the gay painc shower scene for obvious reasons. First of all, props to Zon for even grabbing Sai’s towel for him. Like they might not be close, and Sai might tease Zon relentlessly, but Zon is a genuinely good person and I really like that about his character. He doesn’t even hesitate to ask “which one” so he can do that for Sai. But of course Sai has to be a little brat and try to pull Zon into the shower stall with him, causing Zon’s first almost heart attack. Then he crowds Zon up against the wall with the most sensual look and teases him by attempting to remove his towel, giving Zon almost heart attack number two- Sai is seriously a brat and I love it. The funniest part is that this, from my experience at least, is common locker room teasing which Zon clearly wouldn’t know since he’s not in the soccer club- so having Sai do this to him is clearly a point where Zon’s single working braincell goes into gay panic and just short circuits his system and once again that’s valid. Zon tells Sai no matter what he won’t play with him, man these two eat their own words a lot huh, and Sai tells him it’s really up to him. Also side note here I know Junior did this in hopes of getting Sai to convince Zon to do the talent show thingy but I fully head cannon that Junior realizes there’s /something/ going on between them and forced them into this position, do with that what you will. There is also behind the scene footage of this scene (I can’t find an international link to this specific one rip) but it shows Jimmy and Tommy fake biting each other’s fingers and it’s so cute and weird- anyway all this to say I think this is where we start to see a shift in Saifah’s attitude. He’s the one who mentions being partners, mentions kissing, and Zon being a shy Korean drama lead- he’s a huge romantic so this is where he steps up a bit more. Instead of being just a tease in the way Zon acts it is now a tease about them together, being together, testing waters almost. It’s a huge shift if you really think about it, the only thing that stays constant is Zon’s flustered reactions.

Part three of episode three once again delivers with panic gay Zon being a fucking dork. This is where we get that ridiculous moment in the bathroom when Zon thinks two dude are doing the do in a stall and presses Saifah into a wall, you know casually. This scene is so weird and just ??? why??? Saifah takes in all in stride though, this kid is seriously getting whipped quick and I relate. Zon just has such chaotic energy that it’s hard not to play along, no matter how mortifyingly embarrassing he is. Also can we talk about how every time Zon leaves an interaction with Saifah, Sai gets the biggest smile? Like that is so precious I can’t handle it, boy is WHIPPED and doesn’t even know it yet!

Part four gives us a little bit of SaiZon. Zon is distracted by his text conversation (this is not translated so I have no clue what’s being said or who he’s talking to rip) when Saifah comes up behind him. This looks so domestic- like you don’t just do that to someone you barely know, right? Also the fact that Sai can lean over Zon so far when Zon is just sitting is stressful to me. Who gave him the right to be /that/ tall? Anyway Zon goes to stand and Saifah scares him, causing him to trip backwards and have the first of many time where Sai holds Zon up and it’s romantic as heck- They both instantly know where to hold each other, and then gaze at each other’s faces I just ??? I’m short circuiting honestly. This is also the first indication to me that Sai is developing some form of feelings because he keeps looking at Zon’s eyes and lips, and that’s valid. Of course Zon ruins the mood by pushing him away but they both look hurt this time. Sai looks hurt even asking if Zon’s serious about not playing together and it’s the first time we see Sai be any bit vulnerable. He seems to genuinely hurt by the idea and it makes Zon shuffle a bit before leaving. Even when he’s gone Sai looks upset and even comments on how Zon falls easily- which is really cute. This is our first glimpse at the Saifah that seems a bit more like the hopeless romantic we get towards the end of the series, a stark contrast to the overly confident perfect boy persona he uses around the campus.

No SaiZon in part four of episode three or part one of four so on to part two- We get the music partner reveal! And to Zon’s credit he doesn’t immediately turn around and leave. Instead he is actually committed to this and Sai, to his credit, doesn’t make him feel weird. They take the fan page photos and they’re both clearly out of their element here, they’re shy and awkward and it’s precious. They’re both coming to this realization that they’re really doing this- being partners and committing to each other basically. They both seem determined but also terrified of what that means. I love it- because this isn’t about them just yet but more of their shared responsibility to Soda now that they both can’t back down. It’s a good foundation because right now they’re on equal footing, neither really has the upper hand. Soda, my queen, to her credit is trying to get them to see that their arguing isn’t going to help anyone here and it’s a fair point. They’re going to be stuck together for two months (why was I under the impression this whole time it was much longer?) and they both agree to at least attempt. I love how genuinely awkward these scenes are because like I’ve said before they were never enemies but also never friends, they don’t know much about each other yet so it’s weird. What do they talk about, what are their boundaries, they don’t know and I love it. It is the perfect foundation for a fresh start for both of them to learn about each other and build a strong bond. We get a bit of Sai trying to teach Zon guitar strings and it’s a nice moment. They’re both getting comfortable with the other and then Sai plays the love song for Zon- you think Zon’s going to be set off by the moment but instead he teases Sai! He confidently both compliments Saifah and teases, it’s growth! Then Saifah settles to help Zon learn to strum, a moment where they’re very intimately pressed together and have an almost kiss. This is the first time they do the lip bite thing that I noticed they do when they think about kissing the other- and this is the first time that I think they realize their feelings aren’t just basic acquaintances. For Zon he feels something but he is also hung up on the idea that this is all Zol’s book. He is scared because he doesn’t know if these moments, these feelings are real or not. For Saifah I think he is really starting to understand how he feels for Zon, but thinks that Zon doesn’t and will not feel the same. But Sai isn’t the type to push so he just lets it go for now. Then we get the cute montage of them getting closer and teasing in more of a friendly way- again this is just solidifying in our minds and theirs that there is something growing between them. Right now it’s just a natural friendship, but is also hinting at more deep feelings. This is the part that I love the most about SaiZon- this was never a love at first sight relationship, it is one born out of something incredibly natural. They grow into each other and themselves. We start to see Saifah get more comfortable with his dorky side, and Zon gets more confident in himself because of their time together. It’s a breath of fresh air how easily they settle into the other’s presence. And of course we also get the gay pining bed scene and I, for the third time shall ask is it gay to daydream about your new bro laying in bed with you? The answer is probably yes.

Part three of episode four gives us the iconic guitar pick date (yes I understand I keep saying iconic but with SaiZon what isn’t?). This entire scene is just the cutest thing? They fall into each other so easily and they seem to have tons of fun goofing off. It reminds me of my friends and I going to shopping centers just to window shop and be together. It’s so incredibly natural and shows that they’re becoming so much closer then what they started out as. Nothing is over the top or unrealistic, instead it’s effortless and an absolute joy to witness. There’s even a deleted scene where two girls come up to ask for a photo (which is weird but whatever) and Zon gets so lost in his head about how close Saifah is- it really is a defining moment in my mind that Zon is torn. Torn between believing that his feelings are real and that this is all just being a dream from Zol’s novel. I kinda wish this scene hadn’t been deleted because it takes away from Zon’s internal struggle. When they have their little heart to heart and Zon admits that Sai is actually a good person my soul leaves my body. It is so cute and demonstrates that these two have started to grow past their initial judgements of each other and more into learning the intricacies of the other. Anyway it’s cute and I love them, moving on.

Now on to part four of episode four. This gives us the scene that fully convinces me that Saifah is just a big softly. Sai walks into the practice room to see a mess and Zon is asleep on the floor. Instead of being a brat and waking him up, Sai quietly goes around and cleans everything up because he is peak soft boy he just won’t admit it. When he does accidentally wake Zon they’re both just absolute cuties- the way Sai’s face falls when Zon said he was just kidding about wanting to wait for him- my boy is WHIPPED. But here’s the thing, and I’ll come back to this point in a bit but, the way Sai never pushes Zon on anything. It’s clear that Sai is really starting to crush on Zon the way he treats him and acts but any time Zon pulls away Sai just lets him. That’s so refreshing, especially in contrast to the way TorFight act in parallel to SaiZon. There is never an expectation for Zon to meet Sai’s desires and Sai takes only what Zon is willing to offer, and I appreciate it so much. Anyway their little collective panic when Sai tries to take Zon to his room is hilarious they’re both on such different pages and they really are just dorks. And then we have the typical in the rain sequence- oh my gosh- I love some good classic tropes and this is one of them. Once again we see Saifah just be an absolute romantic, he doesn’t even hesitate to take off his jacket to cover Zon and himself. I just- that’s peak romance for me my dudes. Both me and Sai are whipped and that’s just facts. Then Zon (somehow??) forgets how to stand on two legs and trips yet again and we have another close contact scene, but this time there noses touch and Zon’s reaction isn’t nearly as visceral as it has been- it’s almost like he likes the attention up until his mind thinks it’s too close to a novel and he gets scared.

On to episode five’s part one! Zon is finally in Sai’s room and we get the cute hair drying scene that Zon doesn’t appreciate as much as I do- anyway Zon is freaking out and Saifah doesn’t fully understand what he’s babbling on about but still gets his chance to tease. It is once again cute and effortless, I crave more of this (SaiZon special episode I’m looking at you). Sai is getting a bit more confident with his advances but always pulls back the moment Zon freaks, it’s completely them. And then we get them waking up in each other’s arms, the screaming, Zon being an absolute moron. This is why these two are /the/ couple for me. Like no one else could pull this scene off nearly as well as them, it’s great. Also Saifah pulling a 2Moons2 Kit and just yeeting Zon off the bed? Iconic, that’s it that’s the analysis.

Part two of episode five has a moment that’s not a SaiZon scene but I do feel like it’s important in their relationship- Zol tells (well lies but Zon doesn’t know that-) about changing the story after their promise/wish/curse. This is the point where Zon can finally take what he has been experiencing and feeling in for the first time with a clear head. It’s no longer “possibly” influenced by supernatural forces because of Zol. This is when Zon decides “oh this is real, these feelings are real”, and you can tell that the way Zon acts around Saifah is considerably more calm and open to Saifah’s advantages to a point. Occasionally he still talks about it everything being similar to a fiction but he isn’t held back by it nearly as much. Then we get SaiZon practicing in the music room again and being interrupted by Natee and Junior, they kinda make Zon nervous about the show- until Saifah steps in. He confidently tells Zon he believes in him and that he will be there for him and I just- oh my god?? That’s so soft and I swear Saifah is the biggest soft boy ever who is willing to do anything to lift Zon up and that’s precious. They really are slowly starting to get on the same page.

Moving on to episode six part two (this is where we start to see less SaiZon due to the pandemic limiting their filming time)! This episode gives us Zon asking Sai on a guitar buying date. And lemme tell you the way these two act? WHIPPED. They both get so shy and tease the other the perfect amount, they really have grown into each other in ways I don’t think any of us expected. The cute little happy dance they do when they agree and hang up? Boyfriends, just like ??? hello??? Mind you they agree to go the Saturday before the show so they have now spent almost the full two months together- I can’t even believe it. They have had this relationship grow for two months and we’ve only been able to see glimpses, just imagine what we don’t get to see! Anyway we see Saifah being peak baby all bundled up sharing headphones with Zon- which is like peak romance for me I won’t even apologize. And then the pure excitement Saifah has when Zon suggests he stays over at Saifah’s- WHIPPED. He even suggests that there might be something between them when Zon questions their closeness, but the moment Zon wants to change the subject Sai follows his lead, like I’ve mentioned before Sai is not one to ever push Zon for more because he respects Zon so much.

Part three of episode six gives us the rooftop scene! The lingering looks! “The stars are beautiful.”, “It is beautiful-” as Saifah looks at Zon with those soft eyes! THE GAYS ARE PINING. And then them playing together. I am crying??? I can’t even form sentences, I can’t analyze, I just am going to sit here for a moment and think about how this romance is goals. That’s it.

Part four is full of SaiZon just being huge teases. Saifah confidently pulls Zon into him, asking if Zon is afraid of falling in love with him and I just- the way Zon looks at Sai? He’s already in love, and no I don’t take criticism. That’s it, that’s the analysis.

Part one of episode seven is the scene that made me want to write this essay- we have Zon and Saifah in the most intimate scene yet for them. It really is just a back and forth between them that is simple and wholly them. And then it shifts- Zon is looking at Saifah so softly, and is easily going along with what Saifah is doing with no hang ups. Saifah is looking up at Zon like he’s hung the stars and it’s the perfect moment. “You’re being so obedient, be like this more often. I like it”, “I like it too”, even the music is just perfect, but right at the last second Zon looks away. “I didn’t mean I like you.” and Saifah clearly looks disappointed, everything leading up to this was pointing in this direction and it didn’t happen. Saifah very clearly has feelings, he isn’t even trying to be subtle anymore, but not once does Saifah push for more. He backs off and settles down into a level that matches Zon’s comfort zone, because he cares about Zon’s comfort more than his own feelings. They have a moment for the comfort to level out once again and then they’re back to their usual selves. They’re back onto an equal field where they’re both just being themselves together- and they have another almost kiss that Sai does try to play off. Zon is still a bit spooked but it is still another testament to Saifah’s respect of Zon’s boundaries. This is where yet another deleted scene happens that I desperately wish they kept- it shows Zon fast asleep grab at Saifah until he’s completely draped over him. Saifah holds him, very similarly to a scene we will get to shortly, and the smile on Sai’s face? This boy is so in love but also so careful with Zon’s limitations, that just being able to hold Zon is enough to put him at ease. And we were ROBBED of it. Why R U editors turn on your location, I just wanna talk-

Part two of episode seven gives us the most cursed scene that, like Zon, I wish I could forget. There’s nothing inherently wrong with it but the second hand embarrassment is excruciating so for the sake of my sanity I’m gonna kinda gloss over it? Zon sees Sai’s boner, it causes Zon’s single brain cell to explode, that’s it- MOVING ON. On the bright side it also gives us SaiZon’s first public performance together. I assume this is to hype up the actual show, I don’t really care, all I care about is how earnest Saifah is with Zon. Zon is terrified of performing and Saifah is there to cheer him on. He is willing to let Zon leave if it means Zon will be more comfortable and he genuinely doesn’t want to push Zon into anything. Zon finally calms down enough to agree to stay and sing- and then Saifah starts rubbing his hands to give some comfort. The dialogue in this scene will forever go down as one of my favorite exchanges ever- “Are you okay with having me beside you?” SAIFAH HONEY. This one sentence holds everything in it. Is it okay that Saifah tried to kiss him? Is it okay that he got turned on? Is it okay that Saifah clearly has some sort of feelings for Zon? AND ZON SAYS YES. I just, I will never recover. It’s a very cute moment that they share, a sort of understanding that they share now that doesn’t really change what they have already, just gives some clarity to their current situation. And then the performance they give? It’s wonderful. What more can I say?

And now we’re getting to the good stuff- episode eight, part one. Sai is able to sneak read a bit of Zon’s writing, Sai trying to make himself look not suspicious is so funny, but the absolute angle Zon lets him get away with it. Then they have a cute back and forth about Sai wanting to sleep over at Zon’s place, it’s precious and shows that since the last time Zon seems a bit more comfortable with the obvious flirting and even does some himself. “Otherwise I’ll kiss you.” Saifah being bold as fuck and Zon not running away? That’s what we call growth! Then when Saifah is actually at Zon’s home and they’re telling his parents about the music show they are in full support, Zon’s mother and Saifah both teasing him about his name’s meaning. It’s light hearted and fun and I appreciate how cool Zon’s parents seem to be with their son’s and Saifah’s relationship (thus far). But them being so okay with his joining the music show compared to how unsupportive about his writing hurts, both me and Zon. When they’re in his room Zon is visibly upset with how his parents have handled his passions and Saifah is doing his best to cheer him up. Giving him some comfort, and this is where he admits to reading a few chapters of Zon’s fiction and Zon looks shattered. He is so afraid it’s bad because no one will support him, encourage him until Saifah tells him he actually liked it. That if he wants to keep writing he can count on Saifah to read it and it’s so touching because Zon finally has someone who believes in him. They have this really longing moment of just staring into each other’s eyes and it’s so soft and just full of pining. EXCEPT once again there’s a deleted scene we were ROBBED of. (Why R U’s editing team is out to hurt me apparently) In the deleted scene there was supposed to be a kiss to end the longing stares, this would be their first real kiss. And as much as I would have /loved/ that I can understand wanting the other scene being /the/ moment, but it doesn’t make me wish this scene hadn’t been cut any less.

The next three parts of episode eight I’m going to talk about in one piece because it is basically one long scene that’s just cut into parts. (Part 2, Part 3, Part 4) We have finally gotten to /the/ moment they’ve been leading up to this entire show, the music performance. When we start Zon is asleep and Saifah has arrived with food, trying to wake him up and only successful when he manages to kinda kiss Zon. They bicker a bit in their normal way, Zon whines about wanting an egg and Saifah gives his up happily. It's freaking adorable and the quality content I signed up for. Soda puts them in their performance outfits. They have a weird little fashion show that just makes me love Tommy and Jimmy with all my heart, you know the usual. And then the time gets closer to their performance- Zon is, rightfully, nervous and is having a little breakdown in front of Saifah who is trying his absolute best to calm him down. It’s a touching scene because you can tell that Sai doesn’t really know what to do to help but is seriously trying, and then Zon asks for some encouragement. Saifah wrapping his arms around Zon and hugging him is a scene that I will never recover from. Saifah is so confident in Zon’s skills and very clearly wants to perform with Zon that he’s willing to just hold the nervous kid in his arms until he calms down. It’s really touching and romantic and just perfect. It does the trick and they’re able to perform without a hitch. (I would like to say at this point I have been working on this essay for two days and have decided to throw alcohol into the mix so if I start going off the rails- whoops?) The actual concert is super lovely, like Tommy can sing don’t even @ me because I could listen to these two sing and nothing else and I would be completely happy with that, and when they go to do their thank you speeches my heart swells. Hearing Zon heartfully thank Saifah for doing this with him and then to hear Saifah ask every one to cheer for “my zon” one more time, it’s the pinnacle of romance. I don’t even think that they know how it looks to an outside viewer because they’re so lost in their own world. To them this wasn’t about the concert anymore but them proving themselves to each other, something so meaningful to them because without this moment being the huge lead up they would never have been anything more than people who shared mutual friends and “hated” each other. Without this concert neither would have taken steps to bring them closer, to this peak. And that is exactly what the concert is, it’s their peak because it’s the tipping point for their relationship. Any hesitation from either at this point would break it all down. And so when the two of them head backstage and they have this magical moment- this is it. Zon is complaining about the strings hurting his fingers so Sai softly blows on them to soothe the pain, it’s simple, quiet, and breathtaking. “Why are you so nice to me?” It's such a simple question, Zon’s eyes are filled with stars and he might not thinking that he’s going to get a good answer. “Because you already have my heart.” That’s it. Nothing Saifah could have said would top this. It leaves no questions, this is it for Saifah- he is throwing in everything at this moment and Zon just stares at him. He doesn’t flinch at the kiss Saifah leaves on his forehead, instead he puts his hands on Saifah’s cheeks and pulls him closer so he can kiss his nose. It’s not words that either need now because they just understand. They’ve taken the chance and it’s real now. Them just brushing noses in comfort is enough, but then they go all out. They /finally/ have their first /real/ kiss and it’s a culmination of everything they’ve been through and felt up until this point. I’m sure everyone has seen the behind the scenes clip of the pd calling them out for not following the script. Supposedly it wasn’t supposed to be so passionate but more of a quick peck, but this- what they gave us was nothing short of perfection. This kiss is a solidifier for everyone, especially Zon who has struggled internally this whole time about whether this is real or not. This is a confirmation that Zon’s feelings, now I might be reading a bit too into it/self projecting onto Zon, are valid. Zon and Saifah, as far as we know (I haven’t read the novel either btw), are presumably perceived as straight hell they may have thought they were straight up until they developed feelings for each other. Saifah develops his feelings confidently, he isn’t ashamed or shy about them. Like everything else in his life he takes it and makes it his own and that is completely valid. But for Zon it is a struggle the whole way through. He’s scared and he overthinks, over analyzes everything, and shys away from Saifah’s advances until now- a common theme found in many unsure/closeted queer kids. And THAT is also valid. They’re both so completely different and yet they fit together in ways that I don’t even think they knew was possible. The way they play off each other, can read the other, knows what to do or say- it’s the perfect amount of them.

Episode nine is purely TorFight and part one of episode ten gives us only crumbs of SaiZon, but they are crumbs I would die for. It’s a couple of minutes of a sleepy Zon being cuddled by Saifah. Nothing fancy, nothing overly sexual, just the domestic bliss of these two holding each other. Once again it’s a testament to how made they are for each other. In any other drama (and I say this with affection to all the other bls I have consumed) this wouldn’t fly- this slow progression isn’t the norm for these types of shows and that’s why it’s so damn refreshing. Saifah in all his suave bad boy persona, is truly just a hopeless romantic that wants to hold his boyfriend in his arms for as long as he wants. Zon for all his shy avoidance of anything romantic, just enjoys having Saifah by his side. There is no one party pushing for more, no one party aggressively making moves that are unwanted. It’s just these two content in taking it slow and basking in the warmth of it,

Again for episode eleven we only get a little bit of SaiZon in part four, but that’s fine. It’s especially fine because it’s like every good sick fic I’ve ever read put into canon. Need I say more? It’s soft and cute, Saifah being a whiny sick baby while Zon takes care of them is peak devastation. I really have nothing to say here except thinking about this scene gives me a hundred and one fic ideas and melts my cold dead heart. Moving on.

Episode twelve has a bit of SaiZon but outside of them being totally whipped and wearing matching outfits to the beach I don’t have anything to say? Like I could just scream about the fact that they’re cute but if you’ve made it this far I would hope you already know that, so I’m gonna carry on to episode thirteen- hope you don’t mind!

The finale- episode thirteen. Once again I’m going to just talk about it as a whole rather than split it up because this episode also follows like one central moment in time rather than having huge time breaks in between. (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4) Now we can get into the quintessential moments that define why I think SaiZon is one of the most superior relationships in media I’ve ever consumed. We are thirteen episodes in, we know these characters. They have grown into each other in front of us and this episode shows it in such a poetic way. When Sai and Zon get to their room at the hotel Sai is quick to tease Zon about his “duty” (for future reference if I ever hear someone say duty in reference to sex I might just cry) that night and of course in typical Zon fashion he gets a little antsy. But it doesn’t stop there like it would have earlier, instead Zon uses his nerves to turn the tables. He initiates a kiss with Saifah! Leaving both Saifah and I stunned in the process before teasing and dragging him out for their cute little beach date montage. Now mind you I am gay and love the beach so this shit hits hard for me. Like they’re being your typical love sick characters, Saifah stealing a few cheek kisses to Zon’s surprise, they goof off on a boat(?), they have those dumb couples clothes on- it’s really over the top cute like what else can I say. You want proof love exists? Here you go. Anyway they’re cute, it’s lovely, moving on. They have, I can only imagine this as a very strange double date, dinner with TorFight some bickering happens- again your typical drama moment it’s not too special. Until we get back to the bedroom. Now I have seen a lot of queer media in my life and with that comes your natural tropes (I say tropes fondly because I tend to like most tropes), and that’s what I was expecting. But no, I have never seen anything so purely born out of natural instinct and emotion in my life. Saifah sitting at the edge of the bed strumming a nameless song out of nerves, Zon trying to get his attention in the dorkiest way possible. Once again this is so totally and utterly /them/. I can’t picture anyone doing the way they did, selling that natural awkwardness that comes from your first time with someone you love? Fuck man. Saifah is finally all out of the confidence he normally has, instead he’s avoiding Zon and the prospect of the night by playing the guitar. It makes sense too because this is his first time doing this with someone that he loves, and his first time with a guy which is another added layer of nerves. It’s a lot for both of them, but Zon seems to be actually interested now- finally starting to make moves himself because he knows for a fact Sai isn’t going to push in fear of spooking Zon. And then we get the real moment that really changes everything, “You have music in your heart, don’t you want to have Zon in your heart?” This is it- this is the moment they’ve both been waiting for. Zon already has Saifah’s heart, he has for a while I believe, but this question is what tells Sai that Zon is ready too. They want the same thing, each other. Now we get one of the best build ups I have ever experienced. If you're watching just at face value it might seem a bit strange but every action is deliberate. @spookshowenilorac and I have this running theory that Zon doesn’t close his eyes during some kisses because he is afraid that if he does it will all disappear, it’ll be just a dream from Zol’s fiction (and anytime one of us mentions it I tear up). He’s been so afraid for so long and this moment does feel like it’s out of a dream, it’s overwhelming in passion and over thinking. But the moment Zon accepts it as real it progresses. Mind you, as I’m sure you already know, the tongue in these kisses was not scripted. This is purely Tommy and Jimmy giving this scene and these characters everything they had. It just feels right, after everything these two have been through, and to not have that level of intimacy would have left this scene hollow. The passion and dedication Mii2 gave SaiZon is unparalleled. But that’s not it is it? No, they take it even farther. The promises they make each other? “I promise that I will only have you.” “I’ll give in only to you.” The unscripted tears and voice crack? Nothing can or will top that. I’m sorry but that is /love/. This isn’t based on lust or desire or just purely passion, what Saifah and Zon have is so palpable you can almost feel it. I don’t think any words in our universe can explain the raw emotion that just envelopes this scene in particular. And to know half of it was unscripted and Mii2 just felt like this was what was needed, what the characters would have done is so validating? Just knowing that both Tommy and Jimmy see it too, how this scene needed to play out this way in order for Sai and Zon to have their story complete is unprecedented. Again I wish I had the words to describe it better but I just don’t, so I hope you can understand at least the surface level of what I’m trying to get at here. Anyway let’s move on before I combust by the pure emotions in the bed scene to the next bed scene! This is where Zon and Saifah wake up the morning after, and when I say this is yet again peak devastation I am not kidding. They’re so bright and loving with each other in their typical teasing manner. Saifah steals a cheeky kiss from Zon and demands a kiss on his cheek, of course Zon tries to mess around refusing, then kissing, then refusing when Sai asks for more. It’s light hearted and the emotional levity we all needed. Especially with the dazed look Zon has, I think here is when he fully understands and accepts that Saifah and this feeling isn’t a dream. This is real and his to keep. The passion between them hasn’t died down but their relationship isn’t solely based on it being so aggressive either. They excel in these in between moments, the give and take of both a teasing joke and a desire to be together. It’s not as primal as the love TorFight have, but that doesn’t make either any less valid. It’s the fact that they’re such vastly different relationships that makes me admire this show more. The contrast between the two really highlights that no two relationships are the same, just like no two people are the same and that’s a wonderful message. Moving on from that very domestic scene we get the beach kissing scene (yes I’m skipping a tiny bit because I have nothing to say about SaiZon walking in on TorFight besides gay solidarity baby!). First of all I wanna point out that their outfits are peak gay culture, like I can see @travelersmindpalace and I wearing the exact same outfits during our next beach date and it /hurts/. This is also where I point out that I have a weak spot for height differences and holy shit does SaiZon deliver. The way Zon has to kinda tippy toe to kiss Sai or have Saifah lean down a bit- I’m whipped. They also thank each other for coming into their lives and I had to pause for a good few minutes to have a nice little cry over that. Like??? How??? How are they so pure and sweet after everything- I really can’t fathom it. And they do that soft little nose bump thing before they kiss- my gay heart can really only take so much of this without crying over them. They truly are the pinnacle of relationship goals. I don’t know how else to say that? They really just are so encouraging of each other, the boundaries they set up are respected, there’s never a moment of an imbalance of power, they just have a healthy relationship that’s based on trust and understanding. I hope in the in the future we get more shows depicting a relationship like this.

This was a lot and I am sorry for the word dump?? If you made it this far I love you and I beg you to scream about SaiZon with me- and with that I’m done!

#why r u #saizon #saifahzon #THIS TOOK FOREVER I'M SORRY #this is almost 8000 words of me crying over my love for saizon episode by episode rip #boba!wordcollections #it's 1am I'll deal with the consequences of this when I wake up :3

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Today was the last day of Dangerous Romance. It is time to say goodbye to Sailom and Kang but also all the characters around them. Everything ended the way it was supposed to be, so everyone gets a happy ending.

I'm really someone who loves a happy ending. I don't mind drama or sadness in a series as long as the characters are guaranteed to have a happy ending. I find life already so harsh that I don't wish for anyone to suffer without having happiness at the end so I was glad everyone got it in the series. It was a very sweet ending sometimes even cheesy but I don't mind. I think everyone could see how it would end from the very beginning so if you watched it until the end you knew what you would get.

Saifah got released from prison after Name confessed about what happened. Kang was shot but survived. His dad woke up and Saifah didn't need to make amends to anyone because he was truly innocent.

I was really into Saifah's small scene with Name when he went to visit him over there. I still don't know if the director aimed for a bromance or romance between these two characters. It always felt like they gave the option to watchers to decide what they believe their relationship is. On a side note, I wish they would give a lead role to Papang where he could play a mature relationship in a BL. He could do it well.

Kang got to play football in front of his dad so they could bond again over this, showing how their relationship greatly improved.

At the same time Nawa and Guy decided to really pursue their blooming relationship and kissed... Several times because they are still very competitive individuals. It was sweet and funny at the same time. I still believe they didn't get enough screentime for their relationship to end this way but it's just a small complaint. Mind you, I thought their kiss was better than the first loving kiss between Sailom and Kang.

Pimfah got a small scene again with Napdao. Again, I don't know what the director wanted to imply. I also wish for more GL in general but the teacher / student relationship always makes me cringe. I felt it wasn't really necessary but fortunately they never made it akward to watch.

At the end of the episode Kang finally got admitted in the same university of his boyfriend where he will pursue the dream path he discovered recently. They also got a short kinky scene where nothing really happened but a lot of teasing and few kisses but it was a good representation of what is their relationship. I'm glad they are together and wish them the best.

Now that the series is over I can say that despite how sweet I found Sailom and Kang's relationship and how mostly cute the series was, what I really liked was Kang's growth. He was the rich bully that we cannot stand and became this loving teen who wants to do his best. He learnt how to love and what love really means. His relationship with his father improved so much. He still has insecurities but he was ready to shine and overcome them. Perth's acting was truly good and he showed a various range of emotions to display the development of Kang.

It's always bittersweet to say goodbye to a series because you get attached to the universe and characters you learnt to love and appreciate over 12 weeks. Luckily, there are many more BL's series coming this month so we won't feel deprived.

#my thoughts #thai series #thai bl #gmmtv series #dangerous romance #dangerous romance the series #episode 12 #kanghan x sailom #sailomkang #kang x sailom #kanghansailom #bl drama #bl series

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tanthais · 4 years

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Thoughts on ep 8 of Why R U

1. So the first thing we see coming into this episode is Fighter and Tutor kissing which are we even surprised at this point. Apparently this scene was a bit of improve from Saint and Zee but it seem extremely on par with their characters so kudos to them for that. Their whole scene was disgustingly cute and very much so just THEM if you know what I mean. It was a mix of horniness and cuteness and affection and just feelings. Fighter begging for kisses and kissing Tutor's finger was the softest shit no lie. And he brought up the beach trip which will basically be their boyfriend initiation we LOVE to see it.

2. Fighter's progress has made me so so proud. He has confronted things that are scary to him and now he's doing his damn best to make things right and amazing between him and Tutor. He's also a big softie like the lingering as he left Tutor's place and the soft cheek kiss and asking Tutor for the same. You could tell how happy Tutor was with Fighter's actions in those scene. And it's what Tutor deserves honestly.

3. The jealousy scene I think made sense and I actually love how it was handled. In most bl and even non bl things jealousy is left to build and handled in unhealthy and toxic ways. Tutor made sure to let Fighter know he was upset immediately and Fighter in response immediately comforted him. They talked and used their words (they grow up so fast :'( ) and the problem was handled then. Proud of both my boys for their growth.

4. Skip to when Saifah was reading Zon's novel we discover our boy is not good at hiding things and quite the terrible liar. We also get some more teasing and flirting and these two will seriously be the death of me. Can't stand them.

5. Saifah meeting Zon's parents. I immediately assumed from previews it would be about their relationship but it was only about the concert. I love that Saifah and Zon's mom automatically bond, and the dad seems supportive of him too. I feel like once Saifahzon are official it's going to result in Zon getting teased to death. Saifah is definitely going to be the favorite son (and probably brother too if Zol can help it)

6. Zon's little breakdown accompanied by Saifah's background music was a little funny to me but also kind of heartbreaking because Zon seemed really devastated. I understand where he's coming from. His parents seem to be holding him to a double standard what he loves they don't support but something that isn't even his passion they stand behind. I'm sure they have their reasons (probably liking that Zon seems to be close to someone and participating in activities since he's apparently a bit of a recluse)

7. Saifah did well at comforting Zon as he usually does. I think he's spent a lot of time observing Zon and seeing what makes him tick or upset and what he needs to feel better. I think he also hates to see the boy upset so he would do anything to make him happy again. He's Zon's number one fan and supporter and it really shows. I think this was also probably THAT moment for Zon. I think he knew he felt something for Saifah but his expression when Saifah tells him his writing is good. I think that was his realization that he was also in love.

8. The practice was pretty cute with all our chaotic side characters and you can tell how much Saifah's prescence calms Zon down. And I mean honestly same. I need a Saifah in my life.

9. The food scene was so cute. First off Sai bought Zon food. Second off the way he woke him up by threatening (and im pretty sure that was our actual first real kiss but you didn't hear it from me) to kiss him. Then Zon's adorable ass begging for Saifah's fried egg and Saifah caving because he's whipped. Then Zon just leaning all over Saifah and them teasing each other like the children they are. Also Zon tends to get angry when Sai doesn't take his side. Cute ass.

10. Next thing I want to cover is the scene where Saifah calms him down. Zon is obviously a very anxious character and it really shows right before the performance. We also get to see how close Saifah and Zon have gotten though. Zon seeks out Saifah for comfort in this situation and Saifah has learned how to read into what Zon needs. Be it help to breathe or a very tight and endearing hug. It's really sweet how they have found comfort and security within each other.

11. The concert went well and Zol obviously was excited as fuck. Zon thanking Saifah at the end and Saifah's my Zon. Yes baby he is yours.

12. So the scene we were all waiting a week for. First off their excited happiness at accomplishing their song was so CUTE. Saifah blowing on Zon's fingers was the most adorable. We stan. They seem to crave each other's touch because their hands were constantly on each other in that scene. Zon thanks Saifah and I believe it's really genuine. He also wonders why Saifah is so nice to him and Saifah's "well because you already have my heart." Then we get attacked by forehead kiss to nose nuzzles to nose kiss to the actual kiss.

13. I'm a bit paranoid and a skeptic so I got a little bit of off vibes from the last scene. I'm hoping to God it actually happened because I want my saifahzon to be happy.

14. On a side note towards our side couple. I think we got some more dewbluechamp love triangle. Dew went out to the car because Champ asked Blue to come with him. I see you. Then Dew also tied up Blue's hands which resulted in a champblue hug. And Dew and Blue just seem to have gotten a lot more peaceful with each other. So that's pretty cool.

15. My baby tanthai and japan were so strong throughout the episode even if they were more in the background. Tanthai writing Japan's name at the concert preparation. Them being attached at the hip at the actual concert. They are BOYFRIENDS.

16. Heard Zol may be a lesbian which would be cool

#why r u the series #fightertutor #tutorfighter #saifahzon #fighter #tutor #zon #saifah #why r u #japantanthai #tanthaijapan #zol #this was really saifahzon's episode #i still really enjoyed fightertutor's parts as well #the actual performances and side couples wasn't really my thing #but still i loved this episode nonetheless #mine

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weilongfu · 4 years

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(Re)Write your own fate

WHY R U? Saifah/Zon Contains: character bashing (Zol), Author as self-insert character, “hacking” of someone’s online accounts, mild hurt/comfort, mild angst (I guess?), and parodies of real BL authors, and hopefully not that much preaching.

Summary: Zol’s lie about stopping her novel has been revealed, causing Saifah and Zon to break up because of Zon’s fears. Against Saifah and Zon’s wishes, Zol works this new conflict into the novel, adding more stress and fuel into the fire. However, not everyone on the internet is pleased with this turn. It might take some (not so) gentle nudges and a bit of account hacking, but will Saifah and Zon get back together? At least one author competing with Candy Zol hopes so.

Please read Author’s Notes under the cut prior to reading the fic just for some clarifications

Thanks to @thewickling and @ohdrey89 for looking over this and telling me if I was or wasn’t being dumb.

Author’s Notes: First, there are parodies of several actual BL author names here. These were just because I’m too lazy to come up with new names. The views and comments written here do not reflect the actual views of these authors. Please do not assume that I am actually representing them here. I’m just lazy. For the record:

LazySheep --> ActiveSheep MAME --> MAKE JittiRain --> KittiRain Chiffon_cake --> roll_cake Hideko_Sunshine --> Hideko_Moonlight BitterSweet --> SweetBitters

Second, I don’t normally do character bashing. I have painted Zol’s character in this fic a little worse than she might actually be portrayed in the drama, but I feel that it does actually bash her character. Because of this, I have tagged the fic with character bashing just to be on the safe side. My issues with Zol are not because she’s a girl who is into BL, but because she was literally told to STOP by Zon and refused because she’s popular. And from that grievance, this fic sprouted. Literally overnight.

Third, yes there is self-insert, although it’s not… exactly a true self insert? Basically, the self-insert is a more exaggerated version of me and doesn't exactly represent me. I aimed to make all the parts with the self-insert more light and silly as opposed to something very intervening and serious. In addition, I wouldn't normally call someone out like this in public. I do not condone hacking someone's account just to mess with them.

As for my self-insert name, my usual pen name is weilongfu where longfu (龙福) is written with the characters for “dragon” and “lucky/blessing.” As my self-insert really doesn’t act like me entirely and is more exaggerated, I didn’t want it to use the exact same name, so I went for what would be the “opposite” of my name. In Feng Shui, the Tiger is opposite the Dragon (even though a “proper” opposite might actually be the Yin of the Phoenix to the Yang of the Dragon) so I went with weihuhuo where huhuo is written with 虎祸, the characters for “tiger” and “misfortune.”

With that, please enjoy the fic!

It should have been just a misunderstanding.

Just your usual, normal disagreement between boyfriends.

Zon was ready, more than ready, to pick up his phone and apologize to Saifah for his harsh words the other night in reply to why Saifah had shown up late for their date. After all, Zon knew, deep down, that this was turning into a critical time for Saifah. Engineering internships were highly competitive and in order to have the best possible chance, good grades were a must. So what if a few dates got cancelled or one of them was left waiting for a half hour longer than intended? Both had agreed that such things were small in the larger scope of a future happy life together.

But once again, Zon’s computer was on the fritz and once again, Zon humored using his sister’s laptop for a minute to submit an assignment. Texts to Zen, Junior, Natee, and Tanthai to submit for him had gone unanswered and the deadline was quickly approaching.

“Zol?” Zon knocked on Zol’s door. “Are you in?”

“P’Zon!” Zol threw open the door and leaned against the doorframe. “How’s everything going with P’Saifah?! Have you made up yet?”

“Didn’t I tell you not to keep digging? We’ll resolve it in our own time.” Zon sighed before shaking his head. “Just let me use your computer for a minute. I need to submit my assignment and my computer is acting weird again.”

“P’Zon really should stop playing all those weird games on it.”

“I’m not playing anything weird!” Zon argued. Zol only giggled and gestured to her laptop. “Thanks.”

Zon had only just sat down when Zol’s eyes widened as she saw the document still open on her screen. “Phi! Wait!”

Zon’s eyes scanned over the screen to find the icon for the internet browser, but instead found several names, familiar names, popping up at him. The more Zon read, the more his brows furrowed. “You lied to me,” Zon said softly.

“P’Zon, let me explain-”

“You… You told me you stopped.” Zon’s face had turned whiter than the background of the word document, his lips trembled and fingers shook. “You told me. You promised me. You said you had stopped!” Zol started to step back, but she did not flinch. “So it’s always been a lie. Everything was a lie. My feelings? The things that happened between us? Even our fight?”

“Phi… P’Zon, it’s my most popular novel! I can’t stop writing it! It’s even getting offers for publishing!”

“And that makes this okay?!” Zon’s eyes started to get shiny with tears. “That makes it okay for you to… To take everything in my life and write it for your gain? That makes it okay for you to mould and shape everything that’s been going on just so you have more views?”

“P’Zon, the swear wasn’t real! I didn’t lie to you about that!”

“But how can I know?!” Zon pulled at his hair and screamed. Their parents came running, but Zon didn’t stop his crying. Zol only backed away, shaking her head. “HOW CAN I KNOW?!”

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In the days that followed, Saifah could not find Zon. Nor did any of his messages get returned except for one. A link to Zol’s novel.

Saifah had known about it, heard bits and pieces on the wind and wondered early on why Zon would make so many strange faces because of it. But he’d never read it, word for word. He started reading as a joke, the beginning was strange, but not entirely unfamiliar. But the more he read, the more Saifah saw events that had happened, all interspersed between things that were too far fetched (“Who honestly has sex this many times in one night?” Saifah asked aloud.).

The way he teased Zon, the way they got together for the charity event, their dates, the guitar pick bracelet, more and more it was as if Zol had watched them entirely just to transcribe their lives.

And suddenly Zon’s fears, anxieties, and issues, all the things he whispered to Saifah in the dark of Saifah’s room, curled up together as he bit his lips to bleeding, they all made sense. Saifah couldn’t say whether Zon’s thought that the novel had come to life made sense, but Zol’s constant accuracy wouldn’t help either.

Opening up LINE, Saifah sent a message to Tutor.

Thunder Strummer: Ai Tor! I need a favor.

Tutorial: What’s up?

Thunder Strummer: I need N’Zol’s number.

Tutorial: Eh? Going to try to get Zon to talk to you through her?”

Thunder Strummer: No. I’m going to talk to her.

Zol had been more than happy to meet and chat. So much so, that Saifah was almost leery of what she might say.

The truth was that the conversation was worse than Saifah anticipated.

“I need you to respect Zon’s privacy. And mine,” Saifah said as he put down a shake in front of Zol. “There are a lot of personal details there, and it upsets your brother. In fact, I’m usually easy going N’Zol, but I’m very uncomfortable with what you’ve written as well.” Saifah sat down and crossed his arms. “I hope you can understand and take down your novel.”

Zol took a sip and smiled. “I’m very sorry that my writing has made you uncomfortable, P’Sai.” Zol offered a bow in apology. “But I really can’t. I’m in the middle of negotiations for publishing right now. Taking it down will reduce the bargaining I have because I can leverage all the popularity.”

“Are you serious?” Saifah’s mouth opened in disbelief. “Even after I’ve asked you kindly to stop?”

“Don’t worry, in the final edits, I’ll remove some things.” Zol waved her hand flippantly. “There are a few parts I’d like to rework anyway.”

“No, this isn’t up for negotiation.” Saifah leaned in. “I never gave my permission for you to write about me like this. Neither did Zon by the looks of it. In this instance, you have to take it down once we ask.”

“Like anyone even knows if it’s you, don’t be so into it, P’Sai!”

“Your novel is the reason why Zon and I won the Cute Boys Project competition.” Saifah pointed at Zol and she nearly went cross-eyed. “Don’t tell me no one knows who we are because of your novel.” Saifah grit his teeth. “In honesty, I should thank you for that, because it helped me get closer to your brother. But now it’s driving us apart. I won’t ask again. Take the novel down.”

“No way!” Zol stood up. “I’m finally on the cusp of something big. I’m going to keep moving forward. I trust that you’ll hold back on anything ridiculous simply because if you hurt me, it’d hurt P’Zon.” Saifah’s clenched fists were answer enough. “I’ll leave first then Phi. Thank you for the drink.”

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Zol whistled to herself as she answered another email from another publisher. The bidding war over her novel was going quite well and at the end, she’d make a tidy profit. With the money, she’d have plenty to buy an apology to Zon and Saifah.

“A trip somewhere nice should do it,” Zol said to herself. “P’Zon has always wanted to go to Taiwan. We’ll make it a family trip and invite P’Sai.” Confirming her own thoughts with a nod, Zol checked the comments on her new update.

Instead of waiting for Saifah and Zon to work things out on their own, Zol had inserted her own twist. An NC-17 rated chapter were Saifah and Zon kissed and made up. Along with plenty of things that were decidedly not kissing. It was a well-loved solution to the problem that Zol had used many times. And the readers always lapped it up. Less than five hours after Zol had published the chapter, the likes and happy comments were through the roof. But as always, there were naysayers. Once or twice, Zol had found herself upset with their harsh criticism, but they always fell quiet when Zol challenged them to do better.

All of them, except for one particular thorn in her side who had never quit chastising her.

The commenter was a fellow author. Although they’d never gotten very much steam, they did have a relatively small loyal fanbase. Their pen name was rather bizarre though. Zol had looked up the Chinese characters they claimed to use and wondered why anyone would call themselves a curse or disaster.

weihuhuo: I think you really need to stop writing this novel. Zon is your brother and Saifah is another popular person on your campus. The fact that I could actually FIND THEM if I wanted to based on the details you used here is terrifying. Furthermore, they’re not toys. At least if you could have them engage in some sort of emotional development in your novel, maybe we could distance ourselves from the real people, but all you do is keep making them have sex to resolve their issues! Don’t you think it’s time to push yourself?

(Reply to weihuhuo) roll_cake: I mean… That’s how I’d write it too… But I guess I can see the point.

(Reply to weihuhuo) MAKE: I don’t see what the problem is with sex as a means to resolving issues. Plenty of people do that. Besides @.weihuhuo, I don’t see any of your fics with all that “emotional development” being half so popular.

(Reply to weihuhuo) KittiRain: These are just old tropes. I know using them is easy, but we’ve got to get with the times and realize this doesn’t help the community…

Zol scoffed under her breath before typing out her reply.

(Reply to weihuhuo) Candy Zol: Look, it’s my novel and I can do what I want. I’ve gotten permission from Zon and Saifah to use whatever details I want as well. When you have a novel that’s going to get published, like me, then you can come back and criticize me. Until then, mind your own business! Look how well my novel is doing! Maybe you should take some advice from me instead and write more sex instead of skipping around with all that emotional stuff. Who even honestly feels that way?!

Within moments, Zol found several replies under her comment.

(Reply to Candy Zol) Anon: Yeah you tell em!

(Reply to Candy Zol) ActiveSheep: You know they’re just trying to help you. Having your characters communicate healthily is a good thing! It makes the emotional connections better too!

(Reply to Candy Zol) MAKE: Wow, you’re getting published?! Congrats! Welcome to the big leagues! Don’t listen to the haters!

(Reply to Candy Zol) weihuhuo: If this is just a matter of being bested by the better writer, you’re right. I would concede and I would have no regrets. But I really can’t let this go. You’re hurting people, real people, people you KNOW, with this novel and I can’t believe that’s the price you’re willing to pay. If you’re so willing to sell them like this, then I’m going to take them off your hands. Sorry that you won’t get your promised payout, but I can’t take this any longer.

“What?” Zol squinted at the screen as if she had read it wrong. “Take them off my hands? What are you even going to do?”

Zol refreshed the page and tried to reply, but found her username was gone. Instead it called her Anonymous. Wondering how she had gotten logged out, Zol tried to log in again, but found her password failed. After typing it in several times, each time more frantic than the last, Zol attempted password recovery. However, she found that even her email address was suddenly wrong.

To add insult to injury, when Zol refreshed her novel page again, the novel was gone.

“WHAT?!”

That night, Zol didn’t sleep. Her time was spent talking to the customer support team and scrambling to find all her chapter backups. When the sun broke on the horizon, Zol had at last assembled everything to re-upload. Sure, all of her views and comments would be gone, but it was better than nothing and she was still in a firm position to get published.

With shaky hands, Zol input her new login information. The loading screen was the longest it had ever been. But in the end, instead of her usual back-end author page, a different message displayed instead.

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Sorry Candy Zol, but I really can’t let you do this anymore. You’ll get everything back once I’ve fixed the mess you made. I hope you take this time to reflect on yourself, what you’ve done, and what you’ve become.

A writer is more than their work, but all work shows the understanding of the writer.

See you soon!

~weihuhuo

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WHY R U Gone

By weihuhuo Summary: Saifah and Zon have gone their separate ways, a divide no one expected. How will they reconcile? The love they had was good, but as they move closer to graduation, they need to develop something better.

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roll_cake: Huh? What happened to Candy Zol’s novel?

KittiRain: Writing fix-it for someone’s novel? Interesting choice!

MAKE: RUDE. How could you do that to Candy Zol? I’m reporting you!

ActiveSheep: Oh my… How interesting…

SweetBitters: Someone’s gonna get in trouble…

Hideko_Moonlight: A fix-it! Cool!

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A week of silence had passed between Saifah and Zon. Neither sought the other one out. Even if they walked by each other, it was like two ghosts passing and neither could see the other. The one bridge that could have helped to mediate, Tutor, was away on a beach trip to Jeju Island with Fighter. Day had tried to get in touch with him, but another boy that sounded like Tutor but less harsh kept picking up and telling him to call back when the week was over.

Zen could only watch as Zon grew paler and thinner, his eyes dull and his movements sloppy. Even Saifah had lost some manner of charming energy. His smile never reached his eyes and even the playfulness of his voice had been stripped away.

Zen pushed a bowl of porridge in front of Zon and watched him stir abstract shapes into it, rarely lifting the spoon to his lips.

“Please eat Zon, we’re all getting worried.” Zen put a hand on top of Zon’s. “Just a little bit for me?”

“I… Is… Are you giving me porridge because you want to or because of the novel?” Zon looked up and blinked. Zen made a face.

“Of course I’m giving it to you because I want to! Zon, you need to-”

“Stop touching him!” Saifah ran over and threw Zen’s hand off of Zon and Zon recoiled at the briefest touch of Saifah’s fingers. Saifah also winced when he saw Zon’s reaction. “You-”

“You don’t have a right to talk to me about Zon right now,” Zen said as he stood up. “Zon’s not in any state to talk to you either, Ai Sai. Go. Now.”

Saifah scowled, but looked at Zon’s expression and his own fell. “Mr. Zon. My Zon. My very best Zon,” Saifah said softly. “Won’t you talk to me about this?” But Zon’s gaze was now elsewhere. “Zon…” Saifah reached out to touch him but this time Zen batted his hand away.

“I meant it Saifah. Go.”

With a sharp exhale, Saifah stormed out. Unnoticed by everyone else, Zon’s hand returned to where Saifah’s had touched it, scrabbling for purchase against the smooth surface of the table as if scratching at it hard enough could return Saifah’s hand.

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Hideko_Moonlight: So sad! Isn’t Zon overreacting a bit though?

roll_cake: Really? This dramatic?

MAKE: Why aren’t my reports for you going through? I don’t care how interesting this sounds, you shouldn’t have done that to Candy Zol! I heard she’s in danger of losing her publication deals.

(Reply to MAKE) Anon: But don’t you have to usually take down your novels after publishing anyway so that they’re not available for free? The bulk of Candy Zol’s novel is now gone, so this is actually a step that would have to happen anyway?

(Reply to Anon): SweetBitters: Not always. Depends on the publishing company. In the case of Candy Zol, she hasn’t picked a publisher yet as far as I’ve heard, so it might not have been necessary.

(Reply to SweetBitters) Anon: Oh! Is that so? Thank you for clarifying!

KittiRain: It might be overdramatic to some, but I really like it!

ActiveSheep: Zon reaching for Saifah after he left?! OMG.

SweetBitters: You… might be onto something here…

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Unknown No: Hello? Is this Khun Saifah?

Thunder Strummer: Who are you? How did you get my number?

Unknown No: Don’t worry about that too much.

Thunder Strummer: Did you get it from that fic about me on the internet?

Unknown No: Yikes, was your actual number on there? I could have sworn I didn’t see it… Thunder Strummer: So how did you get my number then?

Unknown No: Uh… You don’t need to know that. Unknown No: Listen, I know you’re having a tough time getting through to Zon right now. Unknown No: But don’t give up! Unknown No: Tomorrow is another day.

Thunder Strummer: Okay but seriously, where did you get my number?

Unknown No: Whoops, look at the time, gotta bounce! Unknown No: AND DON’T YOU DARE THINK ABOUT SKIPPING YOUR CIRCUITS LAB TOMORROW TO CHASE ZON!

Thunder Strummer: What? How did you Thunder Strummer: I don’t have to listen to you!

Unknown No is offline.

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Day kicked Saifah as his gaze wandered again and his finger got closer to the heated tip of the soldering machine. Saifah jolted and nearly burnt himself anyway.

“Ai Day! What are you doing?!”

“Should I just let you burn your finger off?” Day raised an eyebrow. “How will you hold tight to your Zon again if you can’t use this finger?” Day held the pointer finger in question aloft. “If you don’t need it, can I cut it off? Hwahwa needs a nail to practice nail art on.”

“Are you crazy?!” Saifah pulled his hand back and Day laughed. “Since when are you and Hwahwa serial killers?”

“You idiot, I’m just teasing you.” Day elbowed Saifah and Saifah shrank back. “You don’t normally fall for dumb shit like this, you laugh it off louder than anyone.” Day took the circuit board away from Saifah to start assembling it himself. “What’s got you in more of a twist? Did Zon say something?”

“No… Zon wouldn’t talk to me yesterday.” Saifah pulled the spool of wire closer and started cutting off pieces to the length specified on their worksheet. “And Zen wouldn’t let me keep trying either.”

“Just take it slow. Zon seems really upset this time.” Day extended his hand and Saifah passed him a pair of pliers.

“He… We were doing really well. Even if he’s upset about Zol’s novel… I don’t understand it at all…” Saifah handed over another bunch of wires to Day and looked out the window to see someone who was definitely not an Engineering student looking at him. “Zon!”

Saifah bolted for the door, but Zon ran just as fast. Fortunately, with his longer legs, Saifah caught up quickly. This time Saifah grabbed Zon’s shoulder and pushed him against the wall. Zon’s breaths came in harder than usual and the bags under his eyes were obvious. Saifah felt his heart clench and every breath felt shorter. Zon’s eyes darted away to the side. Even though his face was pink with exertion, Saifah could see how Zon was worse for wear.

“Zon…” Saifah leaned in, clenching his hands into fists to restrain his urge to touch Zon, to pull him close and feel him again. “My best Zon. Please tell me what’s wrong.” Saifah leaned in more and Zon turned his head. Their eyes met, pleading met pain and anxiety. “My best Zon, you know how I feel.”

“But… But the novel…” Zon bit his lip and Saifah cursed the spear of heat that ran through him at the sight. “Zol, and the swear, and the novel…”

“Zon, you need to talk to me. Tell me how I can fix this.”

“You can’t fix it… If you fix it, that would be the novel…” Zon finally broke eye contact. “I don’t wanna be in the novel.”

“Okay. Okay, my Zon. I’ll talk to N’Zol again. I’ll get us both taken out of the novel for sure this time.” Saifah put his hands on Zon’s shoulders and Zon looked up at him. “See? Talking helps, right? We can still talk, right?”

“She didn’t listen… Mom and dad didn’t listen…” Zon tilted his head down and Saifah could hold back no longer. He pulled Zon against his chest and let the shorter boy sob. “Why won’t anyone listen?”

“I’m here. I’m listening. Anything, everything, my best Zon, I’ll listen.”

“No… No... “ Zon pushed against Saifah’s chest. “You can’t… If you… If you…”

“Zon, this is real.” Saifah tilted Zon’s head up. “I promise you, I’m real. My words are real.” Saifah leaned down to kiss Zon’s forehead, but Zon turned his head away. Saifah swallowed down the urge to scream. “Just wait a bit longer. I’ll get it all cleared up.”

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KittiRain: Oh! Oh! This was so good! A nice build up!

roll_cake: Okay, I’m impressed. That worked really well. You paid off the crazy from the last chapter.

Hideko_Moonlight: I definitely think this chapter was worth what happened in the last one!

MAKE: Just who are you?! Do you have the website admins in your pocket or something? Why aren’t my reports going through? Candy Zol is freaking out right now! Don’t you all remember her?

(Reply to MAKE) SweetBitters: Of course we remember Candy Zol. And I remember Candy Zol could never write something as moving as this.

(Reply to MAKE) Anon: This fix-it has more views than Candy Zol’s original and it only has so few chapters. I think Candy Zol better hold her horses.

ActiveSheep: My word… You really are going for it! I love it!

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Unknown No is online.

Thunder Strummer: Hey you! Thunder Strummer: How did you… Thunder Strummer: How did you know Zon would come by my class? Thunder Strummer: Who are you?

Unknown No: Tomorrow, you’ll find Zol watching Dew and Blue from the bleachers at 3PM on the football field. Unknown No: Tell her “Wei” says hello. Unknown No: That ought to get her to pay attention if she refuses to listen.

Thunder Strummer: Is that your name? Wei?

Unknown No: Of a sort, yes. Unknown No: But you don’t need to worry about that. Unknown No: We both have a common goal, getting Zon to feel better. Unknown No: And teaching Zol a lesson. Unknown No: Oh, and if you could juuuuust tell Champ to show up on the field around say… 3:10PM? Unknown No: You’ll find it throws a nice wrench in Zol’s plans too. Unknown No: Juuuuust saying.

Thunder Strummer: I don’t understand you. Thunder Strummer: But if it fucks with N’Zol for now, I’m game.

Unknown No: ;)

Unknown No is offline.

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Zol set down her binoculars and picked up her pen to jot down a fresh set of notes. Dew was kicking balls at Blue, attempting to get him to perfect his chest block. Blue did his best, but Dew was always kicking too hard and Blue was always winded after trying to catch one. Before Zol could pick up her binoculars again, Saifah stepped in front of her, arms crossed and face stern.

“N’Zol, we need to talk.”

“P’Sai, I’m really sorry, but I need to finish my observations here for… Class! Yes, I’m studying the layout of the field for a drawing.” Zol tugged on Saifah’s uniform smock. “Could you please just come back later?”

Saifah sighed and grit his teeth. “Wei says hello.”

Zol froze and her gaze turned into a frosty glare. “What. Did. P’Sai. Say?”

Saifah widened his eyes and plastered a smile on his face. “Wei. Says. Hello.”

At that Zol screeched and threw down her pen. But at that very moment, Champ walked onto the field and spotted Dew standing and Blue on the ground, rubbing his chest. He pulled Blue up and patted him on the chest before lifting his shirt up and looking for signs of bruising. Blue blushed, but there was a smile on his face. Dew’s face turned murderous, but as Champ moved away and he caught a glimpse of Blue’s body, Dew’s face also turned just a bit pink. Champ traced the red marks on Blue’s chest, causing him to shiver and Dew licked his lips. A moment later, Champ led Blue away and Blue followed happily. Dew kicked at the grass before picking up the bag of soccer balls and following after them. Zol huffed and turned to Saifah.

“You… You know that jerk?”

“I’ve heard of him,” Saifah said carefully. “I was told to tell you they said hello.”

“Do you know what they did to me?!” Zol stood up. “They hacked my account! My entire novel, gone! Fortunately I had my backups saved and I was able to email the chapters to the publishers to see if they really wanted to publish…”

“Even after all this, you’re still going through with it?” Saifah shook his head in wonder. “You… You really think it’s okay?”

“Why wouldn’t it be?” Zol defiantly rattled off a list of publishing companies. Saifah made a note of them in his mind. “They all want my novel. Why wouldn’t I move forward? In the end, this will be a minor setback.” Zol flipped her hair. “And I was planning on buying an appropriate apology gift for you and P’Zon. You know how much Phi has been wanting to go see Taiwan, don’t you?” Zol fluttered her lashes. “Wouldn’t that be enough to say sorry? If I buy us all a trip to Taiwan?”

“It’s not about money. How could you ask me or your brother to put a price on our lives like that?” Saifah sighed and looked to the side. A familiar head of hair peeked out of the side and then hid. “I don’t have time for this. If your novel is already taken down, then that’s all I wanted anyway.” Saifah turned around and took a few steps. “As for those publishing companies. Good luck. You’ll need it.”

Saifah walked off and Zol sat back down, frowning as she looked at her notes. It wasn’t until she was packing up that she realized her mistake.

Saifah found Zon not too far away and pulled the shorter boy along. Zon didn’t flinch, but he did walk slowly, dragging his feet.

“Come on, my Zon. No need to wear your shoes out like that.” Saifah nudged Zon’s chin and the corner of Zon’s lips twitched. “Are you asking me to carry you?”

“Last time, I carried you,” Zon mumbled as he looked away.

“You did. My Zon is very strong.” Saifah brushed the hair out of Zon’s face. “But right now he’s not feeling so strong. So will you let me support you for now?”

“You support me, I support you.” Zon nodded his head. “We agreed on that, didn’t we?” Zon said before leaning against Saifah. Zon’s arms tightened around Saifah’s waist and it felt like one step closer to home.

“We agreed. So let me support you for now.” Saifah turned and Zon climbed on to Saifah’s back. Saifah put his hands under Zon’s knees and lifted him easily. “Do you want lunch? I think we should have a nice late lunch.”

Zon rested his head on top of Saifah’s as Saifah continued to ramble while walking to their favorite restaurant near campus.

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SweetBitters: Was calling out Candy Zol like this necessary? I’m sure she’s not like that in person…

(Reply to SweetBitters) Anon1: Actually… I go to the same school as Candy Zol and she really does watch the boys like that and takes notes… N’Blue was the last one she approached and I heard she wanted to ship him with P’Dew even though N’Blue said he didn’t like P’Dew.

(Reply to Anon1) Anon2: OMG I HEARD THAT TOO! Poor Blue, P’Dew treats him so badly! I heard Blue wanted to be paired with P’Champ! Gosh, wouldn’t that be a pairing?! P’Champ is so cool… He could totally take care of Blue!

(Reply to Anon2) Anon1: KYA!!! YOU’RE SO RIGHT! I’m totally gunning for ChampBlue now! Forget this DewBlue stuff!

roll_cake: On one hand, that Candy Zol call out is so mean... On the other hand, THAT SAIFAHZON! Gosh, I wish I could write something that soft sometimes.

(Reply to roll_cake) ActiveSheep: THE COMMUNICATION THOUGH!

(Reply to ActiveSheep) roll_cake: YES! I AGREE. THE ONE THING THAT REDEEMS THIS CHAPTER!

Hideko_Moonlight: I never thought I’d see someone portrayed so mean… And those comments about Candy Zol at school…

MAKE: It’s all lies! I talk to Candy Zol all the time and she’s never been like this!

KittiRain: My heart hurts for so many reasons…

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Unknown No is online.

Thunder Strummer: You could have just told me you took the novel down. Thunder Strummer: It would have saved me 20 min of my life I’ll never get back arguing with Zol.

Unknown No: But… Unknown No: Would you have found out all of Zol’s publishers if I did? Unknown No: And you had such a nice lunch with Zon, didn’t you? Unknown No: -smiley bear sticker- Unknown No: So as I see it, did I manipulate you? Yes. But did it get you maximum gain? Also yes.

Thunder Strummer: Are you telling me to trust you?

Unknown No: Oh, god no. I’m just a person, like you. Unknown No: I could make mistakes too.

Thunder Strummer: So why are you so involved? What do you get from fixing my relationship?

Unknown No: Do I need to get something out of it? Unknown No: Is it not enough to do something good for good people?

Thunder Strummer: That’s a lie too, isn’t it?

Unknown No: You’re catching on. Unknown No: You’re quite smart, Khun Saifah.

Thunder Strummer: No hint for tomorrow? Thunder Strummer: -laughing sticker- Thunder Strummer: Can you tell me the weather at least?

Unknown No: Hahahaha… Unknown No: You are funny Khun Saifah. Unknown No: Carry an umbrella. Unknown No: See what good it does you.

Thunder Strummer: Is that a threat?

Unknown No: -smiley sticker- Unknown No: Like I said, very smart, Khun Saifah.

Unknown No is offline.

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The sun was bright and strong, the sky was a beautiful blue, and there wasn’t a cloud in sight. Saifah wrinkled his nose in distaste at the umbrella weighing down his bag. He’d taken the best and most sturdy one he could find in the house, the strange Wei’s warning fresh in his mind.

Saifah soon found he shouldn’t have bothered. The weather stayed clear the entire day, as if mirroring Saifah’s mood because Zon had finally replied to one of his texts to meet up again. Floating on air, Saifah happily met Zon in the quad on a sunny patch of grass. Zon had his laptop open, glasses on, and brow furrowed. Saifah skipped up and put his hands on Zon’s shoulders, already starting to knead them. The look on Zon’s face meant he had been writing and with his tendency to curl up in such a way, Saifah knew a shoulder massage would be appreciated.

Zon groaned at first and then sighed happily. He turned to look over his shoulder and Saifah smiled at him softly. Zon set his laptop aside and hunched over more to allow Saifah more comfortable access to his back. Although some students stopped to stare or take pictures, the majority paid the pair no mind, which was exactly how they wanted it.

“What… What did you want to… Oh shit… Saifah there…” Saifah smirked as he dug into a particular knot in Zon’s lower back. “I missed your massages.”

“I missed giving them to you.” Saifah’s fingers trailed down Zon’s sides, making him shiver. However, Zon decidedly kept his eyes straight ahead. Saifah felt a pang in his gut, but continued on. “But are you okay to talk now?”

“Uh…” Zon groaned as Saifah’s thumbs dug in. “Yes?”

“So… I found out all the publishers your sister is getting offers from.”

“What?!” Zon turned around, eyes lit up with some kind of mania that Saifah had rarely seen. “You found out who sent her offers?”

“I think we can contact them and tell them the situation. Maybe they can put a stop to the novel.”

Zon furrowed his brow again. “It makes sense but… I think we need to call in some help.”

“Help?”

“The Faculty of Law students might be able to help. They aren’t lawyers, not yet or anything but… They could at least help us not sound like idiots?”

Saifah smiled. “Good idea, my Zon.”

Zon smiled back. “So… Have you heard of P’Tine? You know, the one dating the guitarist, P’Sarawat?”

“Wait… P’Tine? P’Sarawat? How do you know them?”

Zon sighed. “Would you believe me if I said I read about them?” Saifah just laughed. As he leaned back, Zon caught sight of his umbrella. “Oh, is it supposed to rain today?”

Saifah snorted and nudged the offending item. “No. I got a bad tip about that.”

Zon squinted at the sky. “We could use it for shade? Want to take a nap?”

Saifah sat up immediately. “Nap? Nap together?”

Zon took up the umbrella, opened it and lay it to cast some shade before he laid down and turned his back on Saifah. “You stay on your side.”

Saifah found himself smiling. “Whatever you say, my Zon.”

Unbeknownst to them, Zol watched from afar. Although her pen was poised and her notebook open, she found no words.

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ActiveSheep: HAHAHA hey @.KittiRain catch that reference?!

(Reply to ActiveSheep) KittiRain: @.weihuhuo so this is why you wanted permission! Nice timing!

(Reply to KittiRain) SweetBitter: Gosh, so cool! Hey @.weihuhuo Saifah is in Engineering! Why not toss in one of my boys too! I’ll give you permission!

(Reply to SweetBitter) Hideko_Moonlight: I’ve got some Engineering boys too! @.weihuhuo, hit me up!

MAKE: How can you all be so eager like this? Did you forget this isn’t even their novel! Why ask all of you for permission when they didn’t even do the same to Candy Zol?!

(Reply to MAKE) roll_cake: But @.weihuhuo had a point about what Candy Zol was doing. Besides, can you honestly say you’ve ever had this much fun reading SaifahZon when she was writing it?

(Reply to roll_cake) MAKE: Why does that matter? It’s Candy Zol’s story! @.weihuhuo had no right to criticize her or take away her work! They’re no better than she is!

(Reply to MAKE) weihuhuo: That’s true. At this point, morally, I’m really no better than Candy Zol is. But you know what? This time I have permission for real. -image of LINE chat from Saifah and Zon indicating permission- Byeeeeeeee!

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Unknown No is online.

Thunder Strummer: You’re really ridiculous, you know that right? Thunder Strummer: Oh take an umbrella, see what good it does you. Thunder Strummer: I really don’t understand how your brain works.

Unknown No: And if you did, would you have gotten such a nice chance to nap with Zon again? Unknown No: How long has it been since you had such casual intimacy. Unknown No: And in public no less! How scandalous!

Thunder Strummer: … Thunder Strummer: How do you know all this?

Unknown No: Are you sure you want to know? Unknown No: I’ll tell you the truth right now if you’re sure. Unknown No: You’ve already done everything I needed you to. Unknown No: You and Zon can work out the rest if I confess.

Thunder Strummer: You’re serious? Thunder Strummer: Just like that?

Unknown No: Just. Like. That. Unknown No: No strings. No payback. Nothing. Unknown No: The only thing I ask is that you send a link to Zon after I tell you.

Thunder Strummer: That sounds like payback to me.

Unknown No: As always, very smart, Khun Saifah. Unknown No: But… You’re going to do it anyway, aren’t you? Unknown No: -smiley sticker-

Thunder Strummer: … Thunder Strummer: Send me the link.

Unknown No: And that in itself will be my answer to you. Unknown No: [URL] Unknown No: Happy reading. Unknown No: Both of you.

Unknown No is offline.

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Saifah paced back and forth. He had stayed up all night reading what Wei, or more accurately, “weihuhuo” had sent him. The words had swam before his eyes and Saifah found himself more confused than ever. Everything of the last few days was there. Every word spoken, every touch, every detail. But the last bits, the things that came after the chapter ended, those were missing.

After Saifah left Zon that first day, it didn’t say how Saifah had watched Zon from a distance, followed him home, watched him collapse, and even tucked him into bed. Zon had woken up if only briefly, reaching out to touch Saifah’s face and Saifah had let him. Zon’s hand had lingered for only a moment and Zon then pulled away, rolling over.

When Saifah confronted Zol for the second time, the chapter didn’t say how Saifah had held Zon for what felt like forever. Had wiped away Zon’s tears with his thumbs and kissed his brow. How Zon had shuddered before gently pushing Saifah back.

The day Saifah and Zon had lunch together, they found themselves in the music room again; an event that had also gone unwritten. Guitars in hand, they laughed their way through a jam session, as if it was like the start of their relationship all over again. Zon messed up one of his chords and through giggles, Saifah fixed his fingers, the touch electric. Both boys looked into each other's eyes again, but Zon looked away first. However, he didn’t run. And Saifah was so grateful he could have cried.

Zon had been the first to wake after their nap, and from all manner of grass and leaves around him, he had made a little pile of it all on top of Saifah’s head. When Saifah awoke, leaves and blades of grass falling all around him, Zon only pointed at him and laughed. Saifah found himself laughing along for no reason other than the infectiousness of Zon’s joy.

But what did it mean? What did it say when so much written word matched what had happened, but the most painful, the most joyful, were all left to them?

Saifah looked at the message he’d saved and his finger hovered over the send button.

“Ah, N’Saifah!” A handsome young man with light brown hair, warm eyes, and just a bit taller than Saifah came up. Saifah put his phone away. Not far behind him, a slightly tanner, just as tall, man with darker eyes and a broodier expression followed with a guitar case on his back. Both wore the common school uniform of a white button up shirt and khaki or black pants. “I’m Tine. Nice to meet you.”

Saifah offered a wai. “Nice to meet you too. Is that…” Saifah pointed at the man lagging behind. “P’Sarawat?”

Tine turned around and sighed. “Saraleo!” Tine shouted. Saifah jumped, not expecting boyfriends to address each other that way. “Hurry up!” Sarawat only raised an eyebrow and mouthed something back that looked like, “Tua woon wai.” Tine huffed and turned back to Saifah. “It is. Ai Wat likes to do things at his own pace. But in any case, here. This is for you.” Tine dug around in his bag and pulled out a folder of documents. “I did my best to write up what you told me, patched up the logic, and cited a few cases.” Tine preened and pushed his hair back. “It should be enough to get them to at least halt the buying of the novel.”

“Thank you Phi.” Saifah wai’d again. “You really didn’t have to go so far. Just helping to set us on the right track would be enough.”

“Oh, it’s not a big deal. Really!” Tine smiled just as Sarawat made it to them and rested his arm on Tine’s shoulder. “Oof, Ai Wat, you’re too heavy! Don’t do that!”

“You woke me up early to be here. Deal with it.”

“Saraleo!”

“Tua woon wai.”

“Are you two really together?” Saifah blurted out. “I just… I mean Zon and I used to… disagree. But this is…”

Tine laughed and Sarawat gave an indifferent stare. “I know right? You’d never expect a chic guy like me to fall for someone like this moody bastard, huh?” Sarawat pinched Tine’s cheek Tine smacked his hand away, but his expression turned softer. “But that’s just a narrative, right? One that people expected.” Tine reached out and Sarawat easily entwined their fingers together. “But I found out I don’t have to follow any narrative. It might set up things for me, but it was up to me to decide my feelings and follow them to a conclusion I wanted.” Sarawat scoffed, but he rubbed his thumb across Tine’s knuckles. “And I decided I really did like Sarawat, no matter the narrative I internalized.”

“You’re talking too much, tua woon wai. Look at him, he’s got steam coming out of his ears.” Sarawat jerked his head in an approximation of a nod and goodbye in one before pulling Tine away.

“Gosh, has no one ever taught you manners?!” Tine slapped Sarawat’s shoulder, but it did nothing. “Bye, N’Saifah! Let me know if you run into any more problems!”

Saifah looked at the documents in his hand. “It doesn’t matter what the narrative is. It’s up to us to decide what we want.” Saifah pulled his phone out and pressed send.

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Zon furrowed his brows. The more he read, the more confused he was. Didn’t Saifah say Zol’s novel was taken down? So what was all this? Another author? Another novel? But Zon couldn’t remember ever making a pact or swear with this “weihuhuo” so how could he be stuck in their novel?!

Just as his panic was starting to reach a new height, Zon’s phone beeped with a message.

weihuhuo: Hello! Is this Khun Zon? weihuhuo: This is weihuhuo. I imagine you have questions for me.

“HAH?!” Zon nearly threw his phone. “This… This guy found me?! How?!”

Another beep.

weihuhuo: I imagine you have A LOT of questions for me. weihuhuo: So you might as damn well answer me, you ball of anxiety, and get this over with. weihuhuo: You honestly think you’re my only WIP right now?

Zon unlocked his phone and frowned.

Zon_to_you: What the heck do you mean by WIP? Zon_to_you: Work In Progress?

weihuhuo: You’re an author too. You know I mean Work In Progress.

Zon_to_you: So how am I a WIP to you?

weihuhuo: Look, I see problems, I try to fix them. weihuhuo: And let me tell you, your sister, was a doozy. weihuhuo: Even after my chat with you, I still have to deal with her. weihuhuo: I’m already at more than 7k words. weihuhuo: Don’t even get me started on those boys from Law and Political Sci Saifah met with today. weihuhuo: Thank god they’ve got their shit together in this one.

Zon_to_you: P’Tine and P’Sarawat?

weihuhuo: That’s the pair. weihuhuo: God help me, Tine’s head is always in his ass until the very end. No matter how hard I try. weihuhuo: At least the guys in 1920s China are so malleable...

Zon_to_you: But… I don’t understand? Zon_to_you: Are you saying… You’ve been setting us all up all along? Zon_to_you: Writing our lives in your crazy novels? Zon_to_you: Controlling everything?

weihuhuo: Oh geez. weihuhuo: Look, like I told your boyfriend

Zon_to_you: NOT MY BOYFRIEND

weihuhuo: Okay, not your boyfriend right now weihuhuo: Because you’re still hurting and reevaluating weihuhuo: But you know you two never actually broke up so technically weihuhuo: You’re still boyfriends!

Zon_to_you: Didn’t you say you’ve got other things to do?

weihuhuo: Okay okay I’m going! weihuhuo: I’m just a person with a word processor. weihuhuo: I don’t control jack shit. weihuhuo: If I could control characters and people, do you think I’d be doing this in my spare time? weihuhuo: I’d be out there ruling the world and creating utopia. weihuhuo: In the end, it’s not up to me to make you love Saifah or anyone. weihuhuo: Your sister definitely doesn’t have that power either. weihuhuo: I mean, come on Khun Zon. weihuhuo: Would it kill you to look at the timestamps for her updates? weihuhuo: Most chapters that were strongly based in your life were published at least a DAY after you and Saifah did ANYTHING. weihuhuo: And all those chapters she wrote before you and Saifah got together were absolute garbage that never happened IRL. You just thought they were happening because similar stuff happened.

Zon_to_you: So what about your chapters then?!

weihuhuo: Well, at last, you say something smart! weihuhuo: I’m a special case. weihuhuo: I don’t manipulate you. I just setup the scene and ask myself, “What will Saifah do? What would Zon do?” weihuhuo: Eventually there is a part I can’t assume. That’s where you both fill in the blanks yourself.

Zon_to_you: Fill in the blanks?

weihuhuo: Yep. Didn’t you see? There were plenty of things I wrote. weihuhuo: And plenty I didn’t. weihuhuo: A wealth of experiences you and Saifah had together where I did nothing. weihuhuo: And wasn’t he by your side, even when I didn’t put him there?

Zon_to_you: … Zon_to_you: He was…

weihuhuo: How else can I tell you that Saifah was sincere. weihuhuo: Is sincere. weihuhuo: Will always be sincere?

Zon_to_you: You can’t.

weihuhuo: -clapping sticker- weihuhuo: Correct! I can’t! weihuhuo: Only Saifah can do that for you now. weihuhuo: So are you willing to listen?

Zon_to_you: I think… Zon_to_you: I think I am. Zon_to_you: So what happens now?

weihuhuo: What happens indeed! weihuhuo: I’m waiting to see. weihuhuo: My interference with you two is done. weihuhuo: Goodbye, Khun Zon.

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Saifah checked his phone again and kept running. Zon had wanted to meet to discuss the replies from the publishing companies, but Saifah’s lab had run long. And even with Saifah’s recent luck, a downpour started. Cursing some more, Saifah ran the last block and knocked on the door to Zon’s house. His mother greeted Saifah happily and let him in before grabbing him a towel.

“Thank you, mae,” Saifah said as he toweled his hair. “Is Zon home?”

“Indeed he is. He’s been doing better since you both started talking again.” She pinched Saifah’s cheek. “Don’t be so stubborn at the same time again.”

Saifah pouted. “I promise, mae, I won’t.”

“Come, go to Zon’s room and get changed into something else. I’ll put your clothes in the dryer.”

“No, that’s really not-”

“You’re staying for dinner and staying the night. Mae has decided.” Zon’s mother pinched Saifah’s cheek again. “The rain is too hard to let you leave or we’d drive you home. Spend the night and ease my mind, won’t you?”

“Oh ho, if mae asks like that, how can I refuse? I’m not naughty like Zon.” Saifah smiled. “Then please excuse me.”

Saifah walked to Zon’s room, paying extra attention to Zol’s door which was firmly shut. Inside, the furious clacking of keys could be heard, as if Zol was aiming to write more than a thousand words a minute by pure force of will.

“Saifah?” Zon’s head peeked out from behind his door and Saifah whipped around to face him. “When did you get here?” Zon looked him over. “And you’re so wet? Why didn’t you say something! Come on, I’ve got some of your spare clothes here…” Zon wandered back inside and left the door ajar.

Saifah smiled and walked in, casually stripping off his outer clothes, but not until after he closed Zon’s door behind him and pushed something in the way. If Zol wanted to get her scoop, let her fight for it.

Zon returned from his digging with a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt which Saifah happily changed into. Saifah also politely ignored Zon’s stares over the planes of his body. Tonight was not about that.

“So, I heard back from the publishing companies,” Saifah said as he flopped onto Zon’s bed. Zon followed suit.

“What did they say?”

Saifah raised his arm and Zon hesitated for a moment before slipping into the space to rest his head on Saifah’s shoulder. “They’re halting the deals until they can look through the novel to confirm what we said about the personal details Zol put in.” Saifah’s fingers trailed over Zon’s shoulders, rememorizing the gentle curve. “If they confirm what we said, then they’ll withdraw.”

Instead of bolting up, Zon snuggled closer. Saifah felt his heart skip a beat. “That’s great news,” Zon said softly. “I almost… I almost feel kind of bad.”

“Why is that? It’s wrong for her to write about us like that without our consent.”

“I said almost!” Zon slapped Saifah’s chest and Saifah mocked feeling hurt. “I never wanted my sister to fail. I just… Don’t want her to succeed like this.”

“There’s another option, you know.” Saifah’s grip tightened on Zon’s shoulder, but just a hair. “We can tell them that they can accept, but Zol will have to edit out everything, change the names, change the details, and she can still sell it after that, but it won’t have anything to do with us.”

Zon tilted his head to look at Saifah’s face instead of the wall. “You know… I don’t think the novel really had much to do with us.”

“What?” This time Saifah actually did sit up. “All our personal information is in there!”

“Well, yes, that’s there.” Zon slowly pulled Saifah back down and Saifah obliged. “I mean… I realize now it really didn’t have much to do with you and me. Our relationship.” Zon placed one of his hands over Saifah’s heart. “Yeah, it got us votes during the Cute Boy Competition. But… I chose to open my heart to you, didn’t I?”

Saifah smiled. “Yeah. And I chose to open my heart to you too.”

Zon held up a pinky. “Do you swear?”

Saifah immediately linked his pinky with Zon’s. “My Zon, my best Zon, I promise you, I swear to you, all that I feel for you has always been real, will always be real. None of it will ever be influenced by a thing another person writes about us on the internet. And if I lie, may someone intervene to show me the error of my ways.”

The two of them laughed, the memory of the strange author on the internet still fresh in their minds before Zon kissed their linked pinkies and Saifah had never wanted anything more than to hug Zon and never let go. “Then I promise the same.”

“Zon…”

Zon rolled over to lay on top of Saifah before crawling up. Saifah lay still until Zon’s lips approached his. “I love you, Saifah. My Saifah. My best Saifah.”

Saifah’s hands traveled up Zon’s back to caress the back of his neck and head. “And I love you, Zon. My Zon. My best Zon.”

The two kissed softly again and again, laying together peacefully and quietly. They needed nothing else until Zon’s mother called them all for dinner.

***

roll_cake: Wait, that’s it? That’s the ending? Noooooo! Come back @.weihuhuo! Give us some more! You can’t end it like this!

ActiveSheep: So good, but so cruel… @.weihuhuo, please tell me you have future plans for this?!

Hideko_Moonlight: Come on! Just one more chapter! This was all so beautiful!

SweetBitters: I’m DYING. My insides have turned to fluff. There are no organs anymore. Just feels.

KittiRain: The ending we really needed for SaifahZon!

Anon1: WRITE THE SEX. WRITE THE SEX. WRITE THE SEX.

(Reply to Anon1) Anon2: AGREED. PLEASE WRITE THE SEX.

MAKE: I… I can’t… HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME? HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME LOVE THIS AND THEN END IT LIKE THIS? AFTER ALL THE THINGS YOU’VE PUT ME THROUGH. THIS IS THE W. O. R. S. T.

weihuhuo: Sorry everyone. That’s the end of that. But you can look forward to my next fic! I promise you even more enjoyment!

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Zol was close to tears when the emails started to flood in. Just when she thought she had seen a light at the end of the tunnel, the offers were suddenly on hold. Her mistake in telling Saifah all the publishing companies giving her offers had come around to bite her. After several days of waiting, Zol was at her wits end.

Suddenly, after another night, all the offers had returned, but were entirely conditional on major edits to her manuscript. Chief of which was removal of all identifying information about Saifah and Zon as well as changing their names and majors.

“They… They did it. They really did it…” Zol looked through the documents she received by email. Every detail that needed to be changed had been highlighted for her and marked with suggestions. “This is…” Suddenly, Zol’s phone beeped.

weihuhuo: Hello, Zol. weihuhuo: I suppose it’s time for our chat.

Zol scrunched up her face.

Candy Zol: How dare you show your face around here?

weihuhuo: I don’t dare. That’s why my display picture isn’t me!

Candy Zol: Get to the point you asshole.

weihuhuo: You do realize it now, don’t you? That what you’ve done has repercussions? weihuhuo: You saw it when you saw how Saifah and Zon have been on eggshells around each other since Zon found out you lied. weihuhuo: And so you couldn’t even finish your novel until the other night when you sent it for approval for the deals.

Candy Zol: And whose fault was that?!

weihuhuo: Yours. I had nothing to do with the fact that you rely heavily on stalking people and writing about their lives. weihuhuo: If that’s all you’ve got, you should just become an autobiographer instead.

Candy Zol: I’m blocking you!

weihuhuo: Try it! weihuhuo: See if it works! weihuhuo: Besides, after today, I will never talk to you again. weihuhuo: This was just a one time thing. I don’t like to get involved like this very often, if at all. weihuhuo: I’m much more of a behind the scenes person when it comes to things like this. weihuhuo: God I’m getting flashbacks to my teenage years on ff.net just thinking about it. weihuhuo: -shuddering sticker-

Candy Zol: What are you even talking about?

weihuhuo: Look, my point is, that you felt it, didn’t you? weihuhuo: You saw how hurt Saifah and Zon were. weihuhuo: And you’re telling me you were still firm on doing this?

Zol hesitated for a moment.

Candy Zol: Yes, I was.

weihuhuo: So why don’t you tell me about all those DewBlue notes you took? weihuhuo: -smiley sticker-

Candy Zol: You know there aren’t any! Candy Zol: You had Champ go there and stop them!

weihuhuo: Did I tell Champ to stop them? weihuhuo: I have no recollection of that. weihuhuo: I never talked to him at all. weihuhuo: But I knew Champ cares about Blue. If not as anything else, as an underclassman. weihuhuo: And that’s a damn lot more than what Dew has ever shown Blue. weihuhuo: So why not let the young man have his fill of a kind senior that actually cares?

Candy Zol: Because I said so!

weihuhuo: So? weihuhuo: Do you know when what you say matters the most? weihuhuo: When it’s just your fantasy. weihuhuo: Do you know when it matters the least? weihuhuo: When it’s someone’s real life.

Zol bit her lip before replying.

Candy Zol: But I want to write about them.

weihuhuo: How nice of you. weihuhuo: So then why does what they do in real life matter? weihuhuo: If it’s a fantasy, why are you weighed down by every detail in reality?

Candy Zol: Whatever. It doesn’t matter. All the details need to be changed anyway or they won’t buy my novel.

weihuhuo: That’s a rather gracious offer, don’t you think? weihuhuo: That even your brother and Saifah considered it is very kind. weihuhuo: I couldn’t have even foreseen that. weihuhuo: Except for how much Zon loves you despite how you’ve wronged him.

At that, Zol finally sighed and looked at her door.

Candy Zol: Debatable. Candy Zol: P’Zon and P’Saifah hardly talked to me at dinner last night.

weihuhuo: Have you tried doing what you should have done all along?

Zol stared at the words on the screen for several minutes.

Candy Zol: I didn’t.

weihuhuo: Well, it’s a place to start IMO. weihuhuo: And with that, I’m off.

Candy Zol: Off? Off to where?

weihuhuo: Eh, to bed. Where else? weihuhuo: It’s nearly 4AM where I am. weihuhuo: I lost sleep over this because of you.

Candy Zol: WHO ASKED YOU TO?!

weihuhuo: A fair question! weihuhuo: My friend did. How was I supposed to know getting to this conversation with you would take me two more hours of my time?

Candy Zol: What? It’s been days since P’Zon and P’Saifah got back together!

weihuhuo: A few days for you. weihuhuo: The magic of jump cuts for me.

Candy Zol: WTF?

weihuhuo: Goodbye, Zol. weihuhuo: I hope I never have to talk to you again.

A few days later, Saifah awoke first and shuffled out of bed. After a shower and prodding Zon awake, Saifah opened the door to Zon’s room to find a stack of papers with a sticky note attached.

Please check that I’ve changed everything sufficiently before I send it to the publishing company for their review.

I know it’s not much. But I am sorry that I pushed you both in ways that I shouldn’t. I’m sorry I didn’t listen when you both first asked kindly. I’m sorry I caused P’Zon a lot of anxiety and pain.

I hope you both can forgive me at some point. Trip or no trip to Taiwan.

~Zol

Saifah set the stack of papers carefully on Zon’s desk. As he did, Zon came up behind him and wrapped his arms around Saifah’s waist. Saifah smiled and turned his head to look at Zon, but Zon kept dodging. Saifah laughed at Zon’s antics and felt Zon’s smile pressed against his back.

“Is it Zol’s manuscript?” he asked sleepily.

“Yeah. And she says she’s sorry.”

Zon hummed and rubbed his face into the space between Saifah’s shoulder blades. Saifah felt his heart melting. “Do you want to read it together tonight?”

“Yeah,” Saifah said as he pat Zon’s hands. “Let’s work it out together.”

***

SweetBitters: FUCK YES AN EPILOGUE?! @.weihuhuo You are a fucking LEGEND. SO SOFT.

MAKE: Guys, don’t forget to pre-order Candy Zol’s novel! She promises all the sweet moments are still there, she just changed all the names and stuff! And… I guess good job on the epilogue. It was sweet.

roll_cake: This was so soft. I can’t believe you actually… wrote a redemption arc for Zol. In less than 1k words…. What kind of ridiculous…

(Reply to roll_cake) ActiveSheep: And it… It actually kind of worked?

(Reply to ActiveSheep) roll_cake: Seriously… What kind of witchcraft?

(Reply to roll_cake) ActiveSheep: You think @.weihuhuo would teach us the witchcraft?

(Reply to ActiveSheep) roll_cake: Prepare the sacrifices.

Hideko_Moonlight: The ONE TIME self-insert actually worked for me. Good job!

Candy Zol: That conversation was SO HEAVILY EDITED. @.weihuhuo Don’t let me catch you being a jerk around here ever again!

KittiRain: Guys, I agree the epilogue was nice, but it’s so obvious it was a shot at extending the word count so @.weihuhuo would hit 10k words…

(Reply to KittiRain) roll_cake: I mean, I agree… But did you have to say it that way?

(Reply to roll_cake) KittiRain: Just calling it like I see it!

(Reply to KittiRain) ActiveSheep: Valid.

#why r u?#why r u #why r u the series #saifahzon #it's like crack taken seriously and yet not

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